Can I Catch a Break Please | Thursday, September 9th 2021

[Music] good morning it is 7 23 on thursday but first and foremost i'm just gonna go ahead and say i'm proud of me for uploading a video for you guys to have to watch uh today because i really thought last night was going to be the night where i just didn't upload out of just pure like exhaustion stress just can't even bring myself to do it so i left work yesterday at around 4 30 went to the elementary school picked up a few sets of books that i'm um [Music] excited about because i think my idea for using these and during that universal access period will work we shall see the principal was very generous um and i got home like this is the principle that when we talk we always talk for a while i got home at like 6 30 because we spent a good portion of the time talking before i looked for books walked riley and on my walk with riley i remembered that i needed to post something i needed to post um a reel on my instagram account today because i was working with teachers teachers and everything was all set like i had the reel created it had been approved um because when you work with brands like this in some circumstances um they have to approve like the footage what you're saying the wording of what you're saying and if you put music in it music for copyright reasons which is totally fine and that's standard so i had created everything and had sent it over for approval and they'd seen it and what i had shared is what needed to be post because it was legally approved so this was the second one that i was posting the first one after learning some tips and tricks on how to get pre-recorded video that's already been put together onto reels from someone by the name of fancy nancy on instagram who helped me quite a bit i felt very confident that when i got home from this walk i was just going to upload it to reels just like i did with the last one and for some reason that video would not format itself correctly so that it appeared correctly on reels it just i can't explain it but like the framing of it was wrong the captions were cut off and it took me an hour and a half sitting on the floor of my bedroom in silence with riley trying to figure out what i was doing an hour and a half to figure out how to get it onto rails correctly and when i say i wanted to cry that whole i won't say the whole hour and a half i would say but once we got past 15 minutes and i couldn't get that reel to upload correctly i spent a good hour and 15 minutes suppressing the desire to just cry out of sheer frustration um because this was taking away time that i intended to use to like look at the guided reading books that i was going to be trying out thinking about some stuff i need to talk to my leadership students about pulling my clothes out for the next day um packing my lunch taking a shower um all those things i have to do like those routine things i need to do at night for me to feel like sane and secure when i go to bed so by the time i finished uh getting everything done and um then showering and then going through the steps of figuring out what are you gonna wear pulling out stuff that you need for that packing a lunch washing some dishes that were in the sink it was after nine o'clock before i was able to sit down and even eat dinner and i was at my wedding and on top of that like my hormones were completely off and so everything was just exacerbated like the frustration that i was feeling was like magnified because i just didn't have the patience and so i wasn't going to edit the vlog because i was like trying to set boundaries and say you know what you're tired like you spent an hour and a half looking at a screen trying to figure out some technical stuff um the last thing you want to do is sit down at a computer and edit some more video footage um and so i wasn't gonna do it but then after i ate and had a minute to sit down i decided just go upstairs and do it because if you don't do it tonight you're gonna go to bed feeling like you disappointed yourself like you let yourself down that you didn't do what you said you were gonna do you're gonna wake up with that feeling and it's gonna make your day stressful so it's just better to forfeit an hour of sleep to just avoid feeling that way so just go edit the blog and upload it and that's what i did and i think that was the right choice for me so um yeah as the people would say or the older people my family would say the devil was busy last night like he wanted me to just be upset and fail at everything i was trying to do and he tried and he almost won but i willed myself with the internal strength that i have gotten from god and said no we're gonna get this done so that was my night last night um [Music] so i hope you enjoyed the vlog that went up this morning because a lot of a lot of trauma went behind that video so um today it's going to be interesting only because today i'm taking an orange theory class um in the e like in the evening a 5 30 class which i do not like doing because i don't like exercising with makeup on my face um and also because i just prefer working out in the morning like it's just a good way to start the day so um but this is the only day and time tuesdays and thursdays that my favorite trainer trains and liza is taking it with me so it'll be interesting to see how i manage that like i don't know if i'm gonna wash my face and then wash it again i feel like if i do that that's not good for my skin because now i'm drying my skin out am i just going to wipe the makeup off with water wipes but is that going to dry my skin out and then when will i walk rightly and should have taken the 4 30 classes of the 5 30 but i couldn't do that because i have a meeting after school so that those are the things that i'm thinking about today that's what's on the plan in addition to teaching which i will be sure to make an attempt to share it'll it'll depend because i have a meeting after school and i don't know how long that meeting's gonna last so nevertheless i'm gonna go inside get the day started and i'll talk to you guys later so based on what herbert has said or what he said and what he did he says he doesn't seem to really believe in it he seems like he's not taking it seriously anybody else what if you had to describe his attitude towards the paw what would you say and why make it like a joke he's joking about it can you give me a piece of text evidence that shows like he just thinks this is a joke tell us what paragraph you can look in um everybody go to paragraph 65 there's something down there that you're looking for paragraph 65 go ahead and read it for me i expect you'll find the cash tied up in a bag in the middle of the day you have center basket face and midnight and something horrible squatting up on top of the wardrobe watching you as you're talking you're ill down beginning yeah he it sounds like he's being serious but he's being sarcastic so avery says he's joking about it not taking it seriously give table four point anybody else very skeptical how do you know paragraph seven everybody go to paragraph 71 good if you didn't highlight that that's also an indication that tells you how he feels good go ahead oh how did herbert die so quickly like the moment he walked outside the the wife noticed that there was strength movement outside so that means that the moment he went outside he died and then that dude came to the house no you're supposed to assume that time has elapsed like he's gone some time has elapsed and these men are now coming a little bit later so it's not like he stepped out and then instantaneously like he was gone jeff said like they're having a conversation drinking tea and then hours past or something like that it would make more sense if they do it so that would be like if we were highlighting you would highlight that in what color you're giving your opinion the opinion color which is purple purple okay it sort of seems like within his like nervousness he sort of uses like jokes and like doesn't tries to seem like he doesn't take it seriously but it seems like he's just like i don't trust it but i also think this is stupid so i'm going to joke behind how i really feel behind it yeah like that was a conversation we had in homeroom because i interpreted a part of the story differently until someone said no i don't think that's what's happening and that's the part of the story that is referring to so go to paragraph number 66 um and up until yesterday the way that i read that and that's just me like because i'm an adult and it happened to adults i wasn't reading that part very closely i had thought in paragraph 66 that um herbert and the mom go upstairs they go to bed and the person that's downstairs looking at the fire is the dad but it's not the dad too it's herbert so the parents go upstairs they joke like oh we got this follower retiring for the night and herbert is left downstairs and what happens in paragraph 66 while he's downstairs he's left alone at the darkness and he's seeing things in the fire i think this sort of like interprets and sort of symbolizes that something might be happening to him since he was the one who was dismissing and joking about it so it's like oh you're going to talk this that other and someone has warned you about it so now this is sort of a symbol that something might be happening the monkey smile was like you're not taking me seriously well you don't pay the price now you will so he's sitting downstairs in the fire and he is seeing things in the fire to the point where he's like mesmerized or amazed and then he like his palms are kind of getting sweaty and he just does what he just like wipes his hands and then just kind of like laughs it off but i don't think he's laughing like it's haha funny i think it's probably like a nervous laugh like something is in the fire and i don't know what's going on what did you want to say um actually when he said that like when he laughed um it actually said it got so vivid that with a little unease laugh yeah so kind of like he was like you know like he didn't like and then the same and like kind of like a little bit yeah because we all know a nervous laughter is like you're laughing but it's really like a nervous reaction um so but he just like brushes it off and then he goes upstairs and he goes to bed and then he wakes up the next morning after having seen that in the fire does he wake up the next morning be like dad it's real no no he still is joking about it so he's still dismissing it he that's where he says in paragraph 71 well don't break into the money before i come back said herbert as he rose from the table i'm afraid it'll turn you into a mean avaricious man and we shall have to disown you and you know he's joking because his mother does what when he says that she laughs and i was like oh and then herbert leaves and never comes back um so or maybe he does come back but yeah maybe he did come back we just don't know so the words we're using to describe his attitude would be what you should death disrespectful skeptical dismissive sarcastic not taking it seriously correct so all i want you to do is let's put this in the notes section of page 14 with a pencil see how there's a note section yeah just write herbert's attitude and we're just going to write down the words that we said and then tomorrow we're going to start drafting a topic sentence and a closing sentence because the nice thing is now we have some direction as to where we should be finding this text evidence so in the notes section can you guys see if i write right here yeah you're going to write herbert herbert's attitude we said dismissive sarcastic i like the other word um that's cool it's respectful i don't know that that work skeptical that's the word i was looking for oh because that's what we we know we're going to answer the question by choosing one of those words in addition to just briefly describing what the monkey's probably is but not living our lives there would you guys like to listen to all your twisted secrets yes yes please don't grow noodles close this book put your eyeliners away you don't need anything on your desk oh that piece of paper we're going to use that for the top extended so just stick it in your book with the monkey's paw just stick it in there it's 5 20 and i literally just had to take a deep cleansing breath so i vlogged on the way to school this morning let you know what my plan was i was going to be working out at orange theories today after work for the 5 30 class and you know i didn't know what i was going to do about makeup and whatever so i left work i taught teaching went fine and i was going to talk more about the teaching portion of my day before all this crap happened hold on a second i hate what i don't even know what i was saying anyway i was going to talk about the teaching portion of my day that went well i did get some footage of me teaching language arts and what i think i was going to say before the debacle that i'm about to tell you about occurred and debacle is dramatic but that's what i'm saying right now is you know just the difference of teaching certain things in person versus online so just doing this writing assignment as a whole group and having so much more participation with kids because they're in the presence of each other and like feeding off of each other and working collaboratively um really does help so that went well we accomplished what i intended to accomplish today with both classes and my switch class that has been behind for a little while is now pretty much in the same spot as my homeroom class um and so i left work i think around 4 30 because i had a meeting after school came home did everything i was supposed to do like got my clothes out got that ready because i was like when i leave my workout class i do not want to be like you know trying to pull clothes out or whatever so i get all that done and um get dressed and go downstairs and get in my car and uh the car won't start the battery has died which i feel like the battery in this car has died frequently in relationship to what it should be doing and i tried to call eliza to see if she could pick me up but she couldn't because she had to go back home and do something i don't have time to get an uber because i don't even use uber that much then i have to download the app and all that and just the stress of like okay now i got to make sure i get triple a down here and are they going to be able to jump in am i going to need to get a battery do i like is the battery gonna be installed i wish i just had another car like and i was looking forward to exercising because i haven't exercised all the day and this was going to help me with just stress management and it's fine because i have a peloton upstairs and i can do that but i think just the fact that this is happening and then i had the issues i had yesterday and then just dealing with people that have worked a last nerve in many different ways it's just really agitating me right now i can't even exercise the way that i want to because the car decides that the battery's not running mind you i understand i'm fortunate that that happened at home and not like in the middle of nowhere but i'm frustrated i'm really frustrated so i call triple a i'm waiting on them they should be here within a half hour and we will see i feel like what always happens is i have to get a battery and then i get stressed i have to go get the battery and then there's something about autozone they won't put the battery in your car for you or something i don't even remember so we're gonna see what happens there and it's like all i want is an evening where i come home and i can just sit and relax and do the things i need to do and not deal with some technical issues some unexpected interruption to my day and i thought that today would be that and now that happens so this is life on whatever day this is september the 9th 2021. i'm just at the epitome of agitation at this point so i feel like just the urge to crowd her to sheer irritation um i'm gonna i can't even close the vlog in a positive tone of voice because i'm just so annoyed but that's how today went so if you enjoyed today's vlog give this a thumbs up if you're not subscribed subscribe head over to instagram and follow me there as well and um we're gonna have a better day tomorrow and as always i hope that you guys are well and if you're not well please be well and i'll see you tomorrow see you then [Music] um [Music] so [Music] you

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Published: Fri Sep 10 2021