They killed his family. He tracked them down 30 years later to...

one afternoon i met a stranger who onwards and there was so in my life and he approached me and asked me if i could share my land with him so i gave him my lunch and he ate it and he told me that and you know in such in the next six months all the fun we're going to be killed and they went on to tell more story about that i think sometime after that one morning i went fishing with my younger brother and on my way back home in my vision i saw that man again i felt like he tried to tell me something but i could not really understand on my way back home i saw camaro soldier that was sharper nice and axed and sweet played now and that moment i became convinced whatever the stranger said six months earlier could become possible for my family that day i got home i saw they arrested my father they bought his arm backward and my father confronted me he said what is wrong with me i perform all duty required by the governments and one of them said that today we will destroy you the fear being killed was so terrible in our lives we could hardly stand still you're so shaky tremble i wish something like heart attack or quit then they took her to the jungle i think about 15 minutes prior to the killing in that time they were digging into graves no not they're ready for us yeah and they tried to stop us and then i walked to my father and carrying my baby brother to him i think he was absolutely emotionally choked up he could hardly say a few words but somehow he fought himself to say a few words one other word that he said was that i love you that was the first time that my father said that it really mean a lot to my life then it took him to the grave and he turned back and said that goodbye we come together we die together as a family commitment then they make him knelt down and they bust him from behind and they chop at him grab his leg threw him to the pits it was my turn i carried my baby brother to the grave and nailed dance left my baby brother beside me someone bust me from behind when it came down to chop everybody at the pits somehow they missed me but then i heard someone said they probably pointed me they said that one is not that die somebody else jumped to the ground tried to pull some memory and then they passed me one more time i think the impact of hitting was so powerfully strong blood comes through my nose and my mouth and i thought i'd finish but then they tried to bury then i heard someone said don't worry yet there's some more enemies need to be finished in this place then they went to pick up my mother my sister and other women who actually went to work in a farm early mornings i think it took me about half an hour or so to get rid of dead bodies over me and i looked for my father i think he died already but his eye is still open i tried to close his eye and said something to him and that moment in my own conviction to ease the pain was to die there's no way i could move on beyond psych tragedy yeah in my life i'm just too young to really understand you know i actually i lie on the dead bodies waiting for them to come to finish me when i'm lying there somehow i saw the bird coming into the grave sinking and i was so disturbed by that and pick up a piece of throughout the birds and for some reason the bird can bite three times and every time when a bird lasts i observe that the bird flew only one direction which eastward of the grave if i were to look from my own perspective right now i believe the holy spirit said a bird actually to save my life yeah i took a courage and climb up the grave and follow the bird direction you know if i were to stay there three to five more minutes i believe that kamehameha actually reached me on time yeah there i saw they were dragging my mother my sister and other people approaching from the west side of the grave and and the story like you saw your mother be killed the rest of your family 13 family members and all the story of how you survived after that is unbelievable but just for sake of time right now rex i want to move on to that forgiveness piece because you suffered as who wouldn't from post-traumatic stress disorder for many years not knowing what it was you were just a child when you watched all this happen yes yes how in the world did you ever begin recovery and i know forgiveness was a big piece of that which is inconceivable to probably everyone watching i think that to me is a long journey of learning how to forgive and it can be very easy to say i forgive you from a long stand but in reality it's a long struggle to me learning to forgive is to set myself free yeah to to let go all emotional and negative emotion especially bitterness hurt anger and it's disappointment all kind of but it's not easy and i actually went to uh to meet my family killer in cambodia and uh to to to forgive them i mean yeah it's a long uh difficult journey and uh to look through the man's eyes to say just a few words i forgive you that is impossible and my own human instinct and that's footage of the three men that are surviving that killed your family i could never believe that i could do that i believe that only the power the grace of god in my life that helped me to be able to say i forgive you you know what after that i gave him a hug that was a bit uncultured for the camera people hugging each other especially man the man so when i hug him i could feel that his uh his body almost like vibration so tremor so shaky and i told him that 28 years ago when you took me to the jungle this is how i felt but today i come back as ambassador jesus christ it will set you free and uh i could tell that the first man did not say anything but the second man the man who killed my uh my mother i went to kill him with cambodia as a symbol i forgot for him and then i said that i come to forgive you and then he asked me why your god is so good that have you to forgive you know what i was given an order to kill your family if i did not do it it would kill when i watched i was wrong and then he said will you forgive me i just broke down when i heard that actually i longed to hear that word almost 30 years of my life and when i heard that i was whipping crying i cried in the sand that i actually set myself free and that was the most difficult mission in my life on learning to forgive my family yeah i can't even imagine most of us can't forgive the smallest things and you had to forgive that huge thing just in obedience to your faith and the power of god is amazing if somebody is trying to forgive right now and they're struggling what is the best piece of advice you could give them i think that one thing they need to look at their own brokenness and us there's no way they could live their life with all kind of hurt and bitterness and brokenness and pain and kindness forgiveness is an art of letting go of the hurt and pain and forgiveness in individual life and you hold on to that your body is not built to carry that kind of negative emotion the only way to let it go like jesus said is his son set you free you shall be free indeed so forgiveness is an act of liberating yourself from all kind of negative emotions set yourself free and by the grace of god you're willing to take the road he will set you free [Music] you

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Length: 8min 8sec (488 seconds)

Published: Thu Dec 02 2021