THE POWER OF WILL | Nicole Crank

well well well how many are glad you came to church already i'm super glad that you're here i'm so grateful that everybody's tuning in online clap your hands for everybody watching online i don't know where you're watching from but we're glad you're here tonight our fellowship tribe we love you and if you've been around the church for any length of time you know that god gave us two words a long time ago come on help me say him out loud everybody come on hope and healing hope for tomorrow and healing from our yesterday that's all found in jesus we're super grateful and if this is your first time we also meet on sundays we have three services and you don't want to miss mother's day it's going to be so fun oh my gosh i got a great message uh you want to know what the message is going to be about okay you got to come on sunday no i'm kidding i'll let you know because you came on wednesday night okay it's gonna we're go we're talking about queen esther this weekend oh man we're in a series called in the zone but actually it's in the comfort zone but the word comforts crossed out because god doesn't want you to live in your comfort zone so it's gonna be a great time i would love to see you there this sunday and um listen we have such a great great team all around can we clap our hands for the dream team serving oh love you guys had 240 decisions for jesus christ this weekend i think we got to clap for that 54 people join growth track to join the church it's amazing this is this what god's doing here is nothing short of amazing in this season on top of all that so thank you thank you thank you and today you're in for a treat um we just started our first wednesdays back and it's it fresh wednesday is a special night it's a little different than a sunday a little longer we get to take time we take communion a little longer worship and we are able to many times to bring in some of our friends from around the world really to preach to you and some of the greatest communicators and today you're in for a treat because we have a very special friend and she's actually just released the book um it's coming out in june okay listen get your phones out because you're going to want to go to amazon right now and pre-order her book it's called i will thrive doesn't that sound like a good book everybody okay listen here's what she's done i didn't ask you to do this but she she just out of the kindness of her heart she also has another book called hi god it's a prayer devotional britney spears got on top of this she tweeted about it and she was like this book is amazing and and it just went crazy and so she brought that book called hi god it's about prayer it's it's really her story and she said today if you buy pre-order her book right now the new one coming out i will thrive you can come on back there and their book normally is 15 bucks you can get that other devotional for five dollars tonight and she'll sign him now there's only 50 copies that she brought so you're going to want to make a beeline right after church and and get that as well in a kind of her everybody so we're so grateful for her she and her husband pastor they have six campuses four in st louis two in florida like that's not an easy commute they've been pastoring for years have a television ministry they are incredible genuine people we love them so stinking much and i wonder if we can be a little loud tonight while she preaches come on stand your feet everybody stand your feet everybody welcome pastor nicole crank to the house everybody [Music] hello fellowship church how are you i have one quick question oh no don't sit down y'all don't know how we do church in florida and st louis if you sit down now i will make you do squats yeah and that's all i'm going to do because i did legs yesterday and i'm done i'm done i just was wondering if people in the san francisco bay area love jesus as much as we do in the midwest and east coast is it true i know it's got to be true because y'all are here on a wednesday night this ain't sunday y'all this ain't sunday and you don't care you love jesus that much my gosh and y'all even you know the online community online community you don't even know what's happening in this room right now y'all be missing the stuff i'm just saying you are missing this stuff can i tell you a story about your pastors where you sit down who wants to know the dirt and i got the dirt so i want to tell you about the first time i met them you see we have the same pastor pastor chris hodges in birmingham alabama is all our pastors so that is my brother from another mother and my sister from another mister and you know sisters and brothers you know how we get along we get along and then we don't so yeah everybody's nervous right now we've never did the don't part so just relax just relax but i remember when i first met them it was the first round table it was several years ago and shawn and my husband somehow sectioned themselves off and it was as if a couple of monkeys had gotten out of the zoo there was more cackling and happening in this other room going on because these two i don't know there's something about pastors who are funny that just make things loose and then i meet this girl so we go into this room and there's this girl and she is this dark-haired angel she is calm she is peaceful she is present she loves jesus and then i find out that she is married to the monkey that has corrupted my husband but seriously you have a generational anointing what does that mean this church didn't start on the ground it started on the shoulders of the generation before who built the church who born in philippines born in missionary life and here we are on the compounded anointing what is a compounded anointing a compounded anointing is this and then you can sit down who likes sugar say sugar i love sugar but do you know what's better than sugar sugar when it's mixed with flour a little bit of salt maybe a little sprinkle of yeast and some chocolate chip cookies thrown in an oven pulled out hot and a little crispy on the outside and you got yourself a chocolate chip cookie what is that it's the difference between sugar and a compounded anointing let me ask you a question how much sugar can you eat by itself plain how many chocolate chip cookies can you eat when they're hot out of mama's stove on christmas day you know what i'm talking about y'all are eating at an all-you-can-eat compounded anointing buffet of a church go ahead and give your pastors a hand of honor and just what they've done and build and then turn to your neighbor and tell them you look good tonight [Applause] then turn to your neighbor who obviously doesn't look as good because you did not choose them and tell them you look good too i'm just going to share with you for a few minutes tonight i'm going to share with you about how i got sucker punched in l.a seriously last month we got i got sucker punched in la but it's not exactly in the way that you think you see my daughter was singing on a project and i was preaching for a church and they booked this hotel for us so they flew us in town we got there it was late we grabbed our bags we headed to this hotel everybody was staying in the same hotel and we got there first we were really excited about that because we're women we are usually late men when we tell you five minutes we are fully aware of the fact that we are lying and we will repent before next communion five minutes means as long as i need five minutes to be and all the women in the house said amen amen so they show us the pictures online of this hotel we're going to and i brought some of these pictures because it looked really great come check check out this hotel we went to i was like oh that looks kind of cool you can go oh look at those hollywood pictures and the glam walls and oh that's kind of vibey i want to eat breakfast there and like oh the sunshiny day and the curved shutters this is incredible so this is where we're going super stoked ready for an incredible week of ministry and at about 10 30 at night when we pull in i can't find the lobby so i finally find this little side room and i walk into the prison cell lobby and i'm like well it's covid so what they're doing is they put in a covid situation i got it no worries we check in and the lady says i don't know where she's from because her accent's so weird no parties okay okay no party she said and i mean no company okay well explain to me company because we're here with friends and she said i said no parties that's company okay i got we're gonna be friends i can sense it so i'm like okay i'm like i'm down i'm good so we we get the keys to our room we grab our bags and we realize there's no indoor way to the elevator you go outside to the elevator so on our way to the elevator at 10 30 at night we pass this couple who is smoking crack so um that made me slightly nervous and i'll tell you why i know what smoking crack is later and so we step over this couple and pull our bags around and we get to the elevator door and as we're hitting the elevator waiting for the elevator to come in we notice this other couple who is smoking crack approaching us and we're getting nervous and so the elevator doors open we get in i'm like getting get again i'm like hit the door and like in the movies they hit the button and the doors close that's not real life i'm like hitting the button and the doors aren't closing i'm like don't don't do it yes just stay back okay okay okay we got my set so we'll be safe once we get to our room we get to a room and the door looks like it has been previously kicked in so i'm like okay this looks a little rough but we're all right we open the door and the room looks exactly like the rooms that were on the screen if they had gone through two tours of vietnam and nobody claimed them since the furniture literally looked like it had been picked up and thrown around the room the hotel had no closet pester sean quick question what kind of hotel has no closet the kind that don't expect you to stay all night there's all this thumping music i figured out why they said no company because all my neighbors were having it and i sit down on the bed i said ashton i don't know about this and there are these dark curly hairs and i get up off the bed i'm like coco coco because her ashton's ashton nicole caller coco said coco i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't think we can stay here and she goes mom we can't leave um that would be rude people will find out i don't know what we're gonna do i said let me go to the bathroom and i walk into the bathroom and there is filth lining the corner corners where the floor meets the wall and not only that it is like smeared up the wall i'm like you know i'll hold it suddenly i'm a camel i got this i come back out to ashton i said ashton i don't feel good about this listening to my spirit i said we can't stay so she's like mom we can't hurt their feelings i said oh no we won't check out everybody else will think we are in this room but your mama has marry our points we are going to look up a marriott hotel on our phone we're going to stay on points we won't even pay for it it's going to be awesome we will be safe and in the morning we'll just sneak right back in there all the crack people be sleeping she's like okay let's go before anybody gets here so we're like sneaking out that nobody sees us nobody's there yet we get in our car we drive off we're like we made it we get to the other hotel the sheets are clean the door has never been kicked in nobody's having potties we get up in the next morning i turn on my phone right away and it goes ding ding ding ding ding everybody in that group who got to the hotel after us says please dear god tell me you did not stay at that hotel they said you didn't check out and we said no we did not stay at that hotel what does that story have to do with anything that you could preach about sometimes people's life look really shiny online it looks perfect it looks cool it looks like you want to be there you get excited about going there but the thing is you're looking at their highlight reel that is polished it is filtered it is face tuned ain't nobody ever woke up like that air the lashes have come off the wig has come out all the eclipsing extensions have gone backwards the pop-on nails have done popped off they've used the cleaners on the face and the woman they went to bed with was michelle pfeiffer and woke up and it looked like barney five that is a physical picture of what a lot of life looks like a lot of us feel like we have been sucker punched by covid sucker-punched by these new rules sucker-punched by the fact that somebody got sick sucker-punched by the fact that somebody passed sucker-punched that there was some kind of job layoff and so i came to our team and i said hey look i need to preach this message that god looked at all of this and said i did not go to the cross to leave my children to leave a life live a life that was right down here and what we have started viewing is our ceiling god said that is not your ceiling that is not a land of survival that is your floor you are called to stand on the very thing that is holding you down right now do you hear what i'm saying fellowship church god has a plan for you and his plan his destiny and his purpose never ever changed no matter what happened to you now we're going to get into the other crack story or what happened because of you and the problem is most of us fit in both of those categories the folks who think they never did anything that was because of they just ain't told you about it yet of us who don't think anything's ever been done too you're just a great forgiver so let me launch for a second i'll go into the crack story in just a second but a guy at our church i was telling him about this message and he said pastor you can't preach that i said why can't i preach this message he said because there's some people trying to survive there's some people just trying to eat and i looked him right in the eye and i said if i don't preach this message i will be responsible for the fact that they have put god in a box and left him there and god might have lived in a box in the old covenant but in the new covenant he came out of the box and now he lives in us because greater is he that is in us than he that is in the world and if we don't get god out of the box if we don't realize that we serve a god who does the impossible who thrives on the improbable and aches for us to believe him for a miracle i don't know the last time you saw somebody raised from the dead but it's about time that people in san francisco bay area think my god could do something like that because with my god all things are possible if you believe it right now would you give him at least a small shot of praise y'all doing squats and i ain't even asking look at y'all you're just getting fit you are not defined by your past you are prepared by your past for the future that you can't even ask think or imagine according to ephesians through 20 just yet um a little bit of my story so the the abridged version is i was given up by my father before i was born in canada i am canadian i can never be your president now is the appropriate time to cry i know it's horrible news that i'm bringing you on this first wednesday night um i was adopted in the u.s when i was three by my stepdad i didn't find out about till i was in fourth grade which i don't know why because i was born in 1972 my parents were born in 1975. i'm sensing by the spirit somebody over here is doing math that is evil do not do not do that i'm younger than you think so don't do the math so i i you would think i would have been able to figure that out when i was a kid but and the fact that i have pictures of me in my parents wedding i didn't realize that everybody wasn't in their parents wedding this is what i did what everybody does so it they found out about that in fourth grade when i found a picture in my mom's drawer and i said mom what is this all about and she starts explaining it to me that is also the same year that i got saved and i found jesus on my living room floor with a little book that had no words in it just colors and we had come out of the catholic church and my mom had gotten this book in sunday school and brought it home to us and i am eternally grateful for that book and the teacher that brought it to my mom because fourth grade was also the year that i was molested by somebody in my neighborhood and some people get confused they do they get confused and they say why would god let you go through that you got saved and then that happened to you and i look at them with all of the assurance in the world and i go yeah because jesus would not let me go through that alone you see deuteronomy 31 8 says the third word in the verse my favorite the one you need to write down it says the lord himself the lord himself gets up off the throne of heaven and he inserts himself into your future where you are about to go and he makes a way of escape for you where there was no way and yet at the very same time the lord himself gets up off the throne of heaven he doesn't send like a supervisor angel or a mini angel or even an archangel the lord himself got up off the throne of heaven this morning and said they're awake again i'm gonna sit with them when they're good i'm gonna sit with them when they're bad i'm going to sit with them when they're breaking the law getting a parking ticket with no remorse i'm going to sit with them when they're in the hotel room doing the things they're supposed to do i'm going to sit with them when they're doing crack so why she keep talking about crack does she have a problem i think she used to use crack i'm not sure no i've never used crack i have one too much too much sorry i'm used to my church i told you my husband is a pastor sean clone so they're silly in our church sometimes so um i i told my best friend in fifth grade what had happened to me and it got out in our small town my dad worked in a factory my mom was a housewife my dad got laid off in the 80s he didn't have a good job for eight years he finally found a job as a janitor he was a janitor we ate out of a garden and once our car finally broke down our brand new car was the station wagon with the wood grain paneling anyone anyone only ours was bought from a junkyard and the whole one side was sideswiped i lived on a gravel road in a very small town and the whole town found out what happened to me or some version of it and i got super but i didn't know now i know was bullied but then i just knew that everybody hated me and made fun of me i didn't know what it was like to have friends i didn't know what it was like to go to birthday parties anymore i didn't know what it was like to be able to sit at a table at lunch with other kids there's that girl you're a freak oh my god what happened to you do not touch her i think it's catching all of the things it circulated in the town so much so there was a man doing community service in our junior high which is a really really bad program by the way um and he raped me when i was 13 years old well i didn't tell anybody about that because i'd already learned what happened when you tell so i kept my mouth shut and my parents just wondered what was that prank call about why did they say i would just say i don't know mom i don't know i don't know and i just kept my mouth shut we moved to a new city we moved to a new county moved to a new school district moved to a new town and your girl she got a new start i did not know that i could have friends i did not know that boys would like me all i knew was when i written registered for school the football team whistled at me so your girl wore the exact same outfit to the first day of school that i did that i registered not thinking about the fact that they would think that that was the only outfit i owned but my new answer was yes because my no had been taken from me so you want to go to a party yes you want to have a drink yes you want to have smoke yes can i kiss you yes i became president of our student council i was a varsity cheerleader i was involved in every club i was at every party i was everywhere i was your partner i was your girl we were gonna have some fun if we were together and i ended up a pregnant unwed mother at 17 years old this is the resume of your first wednesday speaker highly qualified obviously life had failed me to that point but i failed me then what are you talking about talking about getting sucker punched talking about developing a mentality of surviving in life i can make it through i can be strong enough to get through today through this hour through this moment i want to tell you right now you are not called to survive there is a call that is on your life and i want to prove to you out of the bible in the next 20 minutes what that call is so i'm going to pause before i get to the crack part of the story and i want to go to the call that is on your life and it's in genesis 1. we're going to go genesis 1 26 28 and 29 and in genesis 1 26 it is the call that is on your life from heaven he says let us make man in our image this is where i have to pause for just a second and say ladies it is not your husband's fault that he is dirty he is literally made of dirt and we are not we are formed so we like pretty things but we have to keep in mind that we are made of a rib that was made of dirt so your closet's a mess i get you girl all right so guys that will help you understand your wife a little bit and ladies you understand your man is not his fault turn to him and say baby it's not your fault nobody says anything awesome unforgiveness i sense it in this building it says let us make man in our image everybody say priest you are called to be a priest said let us make man in our own image after our likeness then here's the second part of your original call it says and let them have dominion let them rule let them reign let them be on top let them be the head and not the tail let them be the above and not beneath let them be overcomers let them be on top let them have dominion over the fish of the sea over the cattle on the hills over the fowls of the air and over every creeping thing that creepeth and i'm about to let you know about my ex-husband and he falls in that category so we are called to be a priest and we are called to be a king everybody say i'm a king you can say i'm a queen if you want to ladies that's all right in verse 28 it says and god blessed them and said unto them now hear is his command for his kings so this is about to get deep if you're a note taker write down a couple of things because we sometimes we get caught up in kings and kingdoms and where are we and what are we there is the kingdom of heaven which is one kingdom and there is the kingdom of god which is a second kingdom let me tell you what the difference of the two kingdoms are they're very different the kingdom of heaven is a geographical location how many people have been to kazakhstan raise your hand but how many you've heard of kazakhstan on the news and you know it must be a place even though you've never been there say amen how many of you have heard of heaven say amen but how many of you have never been to heaven say amen never been to kazakhstan it's still real never been to heaven it's still real heaven is a geographical location in eternity the kingdom of god reigns here on this earth that the kingdom of god can be defined as you can write this down god's way of doing things and being right so where is the kingdom of god well if god's way of doing things and being right is god's kingdom and you are god's king and every place your feet will trod belongs to you god's kingdom resides in the land that his kings tread upon so the kingdom of god is anywhere that you go you go to your school it's suddenly the kingdom you go to your work suddenly it's the kingdom you go to walmart suddenly it's the kingdom you go to your church suddenly it's the kingdom so you bring the kingdom with you because you are a king turn to your neighbor and tell them i am a king and you are a king with a command your command is in verse 28 and it says in verse 28 be fruitful what is fruitful i don't know what fruitful is because like i am not a tree okay so like what am i supposed to do with the fruit i don't buy fruit i don't even like fruit so what do i do with fruit fruitful means be abundant it means supply it means go out into the workforce and make money it means be an entrepreneur it means create revenue it does not mean be busy well i didn't have a first job so i had a second job but then i had a third job and i had to work three chefs so really i worked 24 hours a day and i couldn't sleep anymore and how are you today busy i am so busy nowhere in the bible does it say be busy it says be it's not what you do and how busy you are doing it it's the quality of what you do and whether or not it is so it says be fruitful and just in case we can't figure out fruitful he says and multiply what is that whatever it is that you are and whatever blessing you are or flows through you you are called to multiply it what does that mean that means you are blessed to be a blessing you have to know your call you have to know your call you are called to be a king so you have to reign as a king and i have a question for you have you ever met a broke king it's like bruh that king lives in the hood i mean you should cedar castle it was good back in the day no kings are financed god is looking for people to finance in his kingdom why why would god do that i don't know if that's holy well let me ask you a question if you are god in heaven and you need to bless people you need that you need to clothe the naked and you need to help the sick and you need to build homes for the homeless and you need to preach the gospel are you going to walk over to an evil person and bless them and pray that they get it and preach the gospel are you going to say where are my kings who i have set up with authority in my kingdom who will stand up and said having done all that stand stand therefore having my loins gird about with truth and they might say something about what we can't do when we praise him or where we can't build a church but they don't know that i'm a king and i'm in a kingdom and everywhere my foot shall tried i'm here to tell you the blessing's gonna come because my god can trust me he can't just flow it to me he can blow it through me because we're not just blessed we are blessed to be a blessing we are kings turn to your neighbor and tell them i am a king [Applause] well why are you telling us about being a king and not being a priest well because adam and eve were in the garden and coveted hit there was this apple called covid and eve took a bite and gave it to adam and adam took a bite and that's when the call split you see the regular human that's most of us how many how many y'all human okay a few aliens back there i get you the regular human only uses 11 of our brain 89 of your brain is dormant and for those of you who pray in the spirit here's a really cool thing you need to go google it i can't remember if it's cbs or nbc but google's cbs or nbc prayer brain and when you pray in the spirit there is a part of your brain that will light up it was reported by the secular news that will light up that lights up at no other time in brain activity what is that that's the priestly anointing so what had happened is there were 12 tribes in israel so if you're if you're new to church back in the old testament there were these 12 tribes there was the tribe of benjamin there was the tribe of judah lion of the tribe of judah judah were the praisers there were there was a charred but manessa there were all of these different tribes out of the 12 tribes one tribes the levites the levitical tribe they were the tribe of priests that would be your pastors they go before the porch and the after they deliver 100 of their life to god they say god use me god flow through me and they commit their life to making worship happen for other people then the other 11 tribes are kings they are ruling and reigning in dominion in the earth and in the marketplace and the priest and the king worked together for the one call that got divided at the fall so what happens is the enemy goes to work telling you that you are not qualified for your call because we're busy ruining today over yesterday's mistakes but adam and eve still fulfilled their destiny of being fruitful and multiplying and filling the earth with people they still fulfilled their destiny on the earth regardless of the fact that they fell jesus came and died for sins that you have not yet committed when jesus went to the cross he said there's going to be somebody and her name is shelley and shelley's going to have a problem and she's not going to think enough of herself so she's going to give herself to 27 men but by the before she gets to man number 28 she's going to find me and when she finds me it's going to be so good i'm going to let them beat me and scar me and kill me for the 27 men that came before she knew me i gotta create shelly cause i know what's gonna happen before man 28 when she finds me and her whole life is gonna change and she is gonna do good beat me scar me and put me on that cross because i love shelly the enemy the inner me and those people who don't think that you should be who you're called to be will try and speak into your life and tell you who you're not which is why you have to know who you are and you have to know the call of god on your life so once i got out of high school i write i write about all this in my book um i've got a chapter on rejection a chapter on betrayal a chapter on rape a chapter on molestation a chapter on coping mechanisms which is fear anger overachievement is the one that most people don't seem to know about the fact that it seems like a lot of people who had trauma very early in their life either given up by their parents if they were adopted abused or neglected when they were young put in the foster system in this life of over achievement the other day i was listening to a bunch of interviews by jeff bezos because i love leadership teachings and i wanted to study this guy who was the head of amazon and it turned out as i was listening to this something i never knew about jeff bezos who started in his garage with a door as his desk he said yeah my mom got pregnant before she was married and she was young and in high school so she you know she was obviously very busy so she didn't really have time in the summer so every summer i would go stay the whole summer with my grandparents and i said i just now understand the drive behind jeff bezos and amazon and he said when i was 11 years old and i was spending the summer with my grandpa and it wasn't just when she was in high school he got shipped off every summer when he was 11 years old the same thing was happening that's what you and i do i talk about in my book we talk we try and impress the parents and the ghosts of opportunities pass we try and impress people who are no longer looking we try and impress the person who broke up with us we try and impress the person who walked away in the divorce we try and impress the high school coach who cut us from the team we try and impress the boss who fired us because they couldn't see the brilliance that we might look like coal but there is a diamond berry deep inside and i need somebody not to cast off what looks dirty but go ahead and polish it up and carve off what's on the outside does anybody know what i'm talking about today so i couldn't find this anybody to marry me because i had more baggage than an airport carousel and then there was this guy and he had high cheekbones he was a bodybuilder and he had all the right medical initials after his last name and for some reason i couldn't figure out he wanted me we were engaged for 13 months and we got married and i kind of exhaled this is what it feels like to make it we got married on march 25th 1995 stop doing the math and march 19th 1995 was the oklahoma city bombing it was also my birthday it was also the first day that he didn't come home from work i thought he was planning a party i thought something was going on at seven o'clock at eight o'clock nine o'clock i started getting aggravated like okay this was all fun and games but i mean seriously we could start a party i gotta work tomorrow let's go you know where you at you're not answering the phone 10 o'clock i called his parents 11 o'clock i called mine on all our friends 12 o'clock i called every hospital 1 o'clock i called every police station 2 o'clock in the morning i started over again 3 o'clock in the morning i was on the floor sobbing somehow made to get into a dining room chair and the next thing i knew it was daylight and i'd woke up and he was still gone i'd used all my vacation time on our honeymoon so i didn't have any vacation time so i had to go to work the next day which was the same company that he worked for i was a fortune 500 marketing director and he was their medical director so i had to go in and cover for him and i didn't know what to say i was a wreck i worked thursday and he didn't come home i worked friday and he didn't come home i went home saturday and he didn't come home sunday night about the time the sun went down i was sitting on our couch staring at a blank tv screen because my mind had done enough to keep me busy i didn't need anything else talking to me and the door behind me to the house the front door flew open so hard that the door handle from the door went through the drywall as he entered the house and i came up off the couch i don't i don't remember standing up and suddenly we were almost nose to nose and i said where have you been which was the wrong thing to say that a man to a man who was coming down from crack for the very first time married three whole weeks and he used crack cocaine what i find out later is that he had started using prescription medication a long time ago to stay up for the shifts at the hospital morning and night and that turned into cocaine which he said was actually really normal at the hospital because people just can't stay awake for that many hours at a time which made me never ever comfortable with medical care again the guy he got the cocaine from only had rocks only had rocks only had rocks he said no no no until it was my birthday so he said yes to rox which i learned at that point in time rocks meant crack and crack made him violent we started this cycle of of this violence and and this just he herniated my c7 he broke my ribs we had restraining orders he threw me through a wall in the house he threw me through our bedroom door in the house one time i don't know how he pulled this off he reached up and he pulled a ceiling fan out of the ceiling while it was moving and threw it at me and and that whole thing was just weird i don't even know how that happened and we just went through rehab he would be so sorry he would cry oh my gosh i don't know how to do this to you i don't know how to do this to me and we'd go through rehab and then he'd come out and it would be restoration and it would be beautiful we remember why we loved each other and got married and then he'd get paid again he sold the furniture out of our house while i was at work i went to work one day and i came home and i found a handwritten receipt for 600 for the dining room furniture and my bedroom furniture i no longer had a bed that day he sold our electronics out of our house several times pawndom i knew all the pawn shops in town his parents lived two blocks away they gave me their electronics they got sold he started selling my car so he obviously got fired from his job kept no calling no showing and one day i get a call from the administrator the facility calls me and he said your ex-husband is outside trying to hotwire your car what do you want us to do and i said don't call the police because we're not divorced we're still married they won't do anything about it it's joint property so that's when we called the police anyway and they came and they said let me show to tell you how to not get your car stolen pop your hood you take this little wire right here it's a spark plug you just disconnect it from the distributor cap you close your your hood again he can't hot wire the car then when you go to start the car you just pop your hood that same little thing you just put it right back on that little hole even a girl like me can figure that out you put that back on you close the hood you can start your car and he doesn't steal your car when you're inside anymore things the girls should never know so he got more violent and more violent he wasn't paying the bills he maxed out all our credit cards taken all our money sold everything we own i couldn't pay for the house we got foreclosed on i went bankrupt i had nowhere to live and it he got so violent i went to florida after leaving my son with his father telling everybody i went to mexico and i got a job for cash in a diner marketing director fortune 500 company diner for cash almost the same living in a hotel for cash i have a chapter on my book called looking your giant in the eye i remember when i had to call out to god because i had nothing and no one again i didn't feel like a king and i had forgotten the will of god for my life let me leave you right there while i prove to you the will of god for your life can i prove to you what the will of god for your life is let me ask you a question have you ever prayed the prayer god what is your will for my life what do you want me to do if you have ever prayed that prayer raise your hand right now and tell the truth because you're in church and you already received communion so what is the will of god for your life well you never go to the bible ask a question and look for one scripture you always go to the bible and look for at least three scriptures right it takes at least three scriptures to canonize to to take something that you can stand on so the first scripture for my people who brought a bible got it on their phone like to look it up is is philippians 4 19. and i particularly like the amplified version for this particular version today and it said and my god will what i want you to do in every scripture that i give you and i'm only going to give you three of them is i want you to look for the word will because we're going to talk about what god's will for your life is so and my god what is the next word and my god will liberally supply fill until full your every need according to what according to his riches and glory in christ jesus i am here to be a representative of heaven today and let you know i checked the balances of the banks in heaven today and i want to let you know their economy is looking pretty good in covin they're looking pretty strong they are not worried and you know what if they ever get concerned with a little dip they'll just go out to the streets of heaven break off a little piece of asphalt and throw it in the bank because even the streets are made of gold they're doing okay so what is the will of god for your life it says in philippians 4 19 it says my god will liberally supply my note takers put down number one will liberally supply number two matthew 6 33. they put those on do you guys have them on the screens by chance oh there we go now you guys can cheat i love open book tests it says but seek ye first the kingdom of god and his righteousness what is that that is a qualifier everybody say qualifier a lot of the bible is an if then statement it says if you seek first the kingdom of god and his righteousness hello my first wednesday people this is qualifying right here my people who come to church on the weekend and say i'm just not full enough somebody feed me again on the first wednesday night and you get your happy self up and you go to wednesday night church and then you get up in the morning and you pray to god and you read your devotional then you get up and you say oh my connect group my small group it has been put in my calendar that's not a pencil and appointment that's ink because somebody needs to feed me again and growth track of course i've gone through that because i don't want to be a weakling in the kingdom of god i need to be strong in the lord and in the power of his might somebody give me all the vitamins somebody give me every tool that i can pump myself up with because if you seek ye first the kingdom of god and his righteousness then all these things be added to you what's god gonna do god will give you all these things i got a little uncomfortable with that why did you get uncomfortable because we covered the y earlier god can't flow through the evil people and get his will done because when you supply liberally supply evil people with money evil people do evil things with money you can't give my husband's drug dealers money and think that they're going to go help mother teresa because i'm here to tell you they was trying to take my money and my life you got to do it through god's people through his kings turn to your neighbor say i'm a king so number one my god will liberally surprise number two my all these things will be added to me we have to remember the qualifiers verse number 3 luke 6 38. luke 6 38 i'll let him get up there because open book tests are fun it says give and it be given to you good measure press down shaken together and running over will god cause men to give unto your bosom so here we go qualifier what's the qualifier at the beginning of that very first word is give if you give then it will be given to you so one god will give to you and then god will cause men to give to you so when we do the qualifier we get so we have the command and we have the reward of the command obedience is the blessing exchange so give and it will be given to you so number three god will give to me and 3b god will cause men to give to me now i told you you needed three scriptures do you want a fourth one real quick because we got like three whole minutes left are you ready in three minutes to get one more scripture and wrap up this story find out what happened to my crack-a-dicket husband so number four and in number four it's john 15 5. and in john 15 5 it says i am the vine and you are the branches qualifier word if you remain in me and i remain in you you bear much fruit if the worship team wants to join me we'll be done here in just a minute we will bear much fruit wait we're talking being fruitful and bear much fruit oh wait a minute are you telling me that this scripture harmonizes and canonizes with genesis 1 26 where he puts the call on our life and tells us what we're called to be and then he comes over here and tells us how to fulfill the very call and the call that and purpose that he gave on everybody's life because we were all made in his likeness in his image so john 15 5 it says you will bear much fruit oh p.s apart from me you can do nothing it's like blue nesta commercial hey you can take lunesta and you're going to sleep great however you might have really wacky weird dreams you might actually went to bed and you might do other things so make sure you wear depends amen apart from me you can do nothing but number four is you will bear much fruit number one you will be liberally supplied number two you things will be added unto you number three god will give to you 3b and cause men to give to you and number four you will be fruitful so here's the thing i only gave you four of them but here's my challenge for my people who are hungry here's my challenge for people who are ready to be used here's my challenge for the people who said no i'm not gonna survive in life i'm really gonna thrive like i'm gonna rise up i'm gonna stop believing the devil and i'm gonna start believing god i'm gonna say god use me and god flow through me here i am lord send me god you said go ye into all the world and i don't want everybody else to go and me get stuck here you said go from level to level and faith to faith and victory to victory and i'm saying take me god take me up put me on top lord flow flow flow god those people go home and google scriptures with the word will just copy and paste and copy and paste and copy and paste and then read it find out what the will of god is for your life and then i'm gonna ask you the craziest thing you've ever heard would you believe it [Music] would you just dare to believe he's better than you can even conceive like it's got to boggle your brain a little bit because if it doesn't boggle your brain it doesn't take any faith and if it doesn't take any faith it doesn't please god because without faith it is impossible to please him it's got to be too hard for you it's got to be too big for you it's got to be unbelievable otherwise you're not even making him [Music] happy so with what i call 20 seconds of insane courage why was it insane courage i've got 39 seconds over can i have another 90 seconds because one time when he was high and he came home he had a gun and not a glock which you have to pull the slide back for a round to come up and be chambered and you put it back and now there's a bullet in it so you can't see whether or not there's a bullet in there he had what they call a revolver like a john wayne cowboy gun where it's got the little round thing and you see all the bullets there's six holes and there's six bullets they're all full and he put it to my mouth i was sitting on the bed in my bedroom and he was kind of like half on his knees squatted down in front of me and he was just talking and yelling and crazy and i was so scared i couldn't breathe because i was afraid if i breathed i'd make a sound i was afraid if i'd make a sound he'd be upset and i didn't want to upset him so i somehow wasn't breathing or making a sound but the tears would not stop it was just a constant flow of water out of my eyes and that's when i heard the click he pulled the trigger but no bullet came out and i was so confused and he pulled the gun back and he was so confused and we know each other a little bit so can i be honest with you and not be judged [Music] until that moment i didn't care if he was alive or dead like when he was gone because drug dealers broke into my house when me and my son were home and we had to escape them i would get calls from my mother-in-law down the street she would scream in the phone they're coming for you run and i would run out of my house barefoot in my pajamas with my four-year-old son [Music] i didn't care but when that happened and he was 18 inches from my face and he put the gun to his temple suddenly i didn't want him to die my god not now not here not like there's no god no god no god no and he pulled the trigger 18 inches from my face [Music] and the revolver with six bullets and all the chambers full did not fire for a second time i am here to tell you there is no physical reason that this happened two times except for there is a god in heaven and he is concerned about you and on his behalf and when the enemy says i've got these bullets and a gun and i see you and i'm gonna shoot him at you and i'm gonna take him out you're gonna think you're just walking down the street with a wiggle you don't know in the spirit you are doing matrix moves and you are dodging every bullet because he said i will lift you up lest you dash against your foot against the soul i will surround you with the blood of jesus on your doorbooks you pray the blood of jesus over your children you pray the blood of jesus over your hope a hedge of protection and god will not cause you to just survive that moment and be a statistic [Music] that is not his will for your life his will for your life is to be liberally supplied to add all things to have men give to you god will give to you yes he will and you will be fruitful so tonight whatever you have about and every eye closed i want to know god sent me here on divine assignment to ask you are you willing to thrive in life are you willing to take your place side by side with pastor sean and diana and their priestly anointing and are you willing to say i am willing to be a king god i am willing to rule in this kingdom i'm willing to rule and to reign i am willing to take my place if that's you tonight i want you to raise your hand and raise your hand high and i'm getting ready to pray for those people who are about to become kings father god this is us we don't deserve it not at all [Music] but god you don't call the worthy you call the willing and our hand to you is us saying god we don't know how you'd pick us we don't know why you'd pick us we would probably pick us last but god you created us you chose us first you thought about us you love us just the way we are but you love us too much to leave us here so this is us answering your call to be your kings in this earth and right now by the power invested in me by jesus christ and the ability to use his name i decree and declare that they are blessed they are highly favored they are increased they are chosen for opportunities they are graced with things they should not get they are put to the front of the line they are given witty thoughts inventions ideas and inventions and businesses are being birthed in their spirit right at this moment trust them god they are your kings in your army in jesus name we pray amen and amen

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Published: Wed May 05 2021