the life of lexie grey | [s4-s17]

[Music] good luck with life doctor my name is george i'm lexi lexie gray gray don't let them just stand here let's move people are you meredith gray yeah i'm lexi great move lexi gray i'm i'm your sister that girl out there the dopey wide-eyed one apparently we're related i'm so sorry about before i just was so nervous about meeting you you're the girl from the bar oh my god yeah oh my god yeah yeah oh my god you you work here yeah i do girl from the bar i'm the girl from the bar she hates me my sister hates me meredith is your sister i didn't plan on being here i was all set for an internship at mass gen and then my mother gets the hiccups and i'm at a funeral we all have problems moms die and dads drink so much that they don't even know what year they're in and sisters i didn't even know that there was a meredith gray until a couple months ago and and she she doesn't even want to talk to me i'd give anything to not be here so you you change you you get over it i'm here now stop feeling sorry for yourself you are kind of awesome i know because i'm generally not a mean person but i'm a person who just doesn't want to know you and you are a person who's making that very difficult so please just stop making it so difficult for me to not know you i don't know what it is that i did to you but you know we have the same dad we do not have the same dad my dad disappeared when i was five years old and i never saw him again does that sound like the daddy you grew up with so i'm sure you are a very nice girl lexi but i hope you can understand you're not a girl i ever wanted to have to know [Music] for what it's worth lexi gray is a good girl you're using the gray sister angle to get in good with the attendings i got that you're an intern are we clear three lexi what it's lexie or gray it's not three i have a name i just wanted to say thank you for saving my ass today in surgery oh that's my job three i like your costume oh but dr yang said that dodgy hanging screwing with you oh i knew it i am the other gray that dr yang likes to humiliate and kick around you know every intern class has its run to the litter keep this up this year it's going to be you [Music] i'm not a nice guy i'm not looking for a relationship because i'm never good at them [Music] the only thing you're ever going to get from me is sex that's it alex please tell me that you don't live with meredith gray i had no idea it was your house i d and and you know i i'm not the girl who sleeps around i'm i'm not it's just you know ice there's so much going on at home no drinking with alex no sleeping with alex what exactly did i ever do to you get your own friends get your own life stop living in mine screw you are you two sisters i know i just same last name [Music] wait dad you're going out just down to the store dad it's just down to the store what do you need scotch vodka jen scotch don't tell meredith i need to talk to you about your dad you know what i don't want to talk about my dad in fact we're never going to talk about him again okay you helped me out once now it's over murder so you know he was drunk and he put his hand through a window and he wasn't actually a problem he was kind of charming but i'd hate to see it happen again so maybe you should think about keeping a better eye on him he's a liar and i'm glad really i'm glad that you found him charming i'm sure he was delightful he's a blast after five drinks not so much after nine though he gets a little weepy and mean he's a drunk meredith yesterday he said that i was his favorite daughter the day before i was an ungrateful [ __ ] so thank you for letting me know that i need to keep a better eye on him thanks [Music] you did a good job today that was not easy what you did was not easy it was brave we were not prepared we helped more than we hurt i have no one lexi uh was having a bad night and i thought i would do something semi-sisterly you cooked for me it's no big deal just eggs and avocado and whatever cheese that was in the fridge did you find an apartment yet because i wasn't gonna i'd say maybe i'm gonna get one and george this is our home we'll fix it up with what money i know it's all stolen it's all stolen and hospitally and and stolen you can turn me in if you want you can report me for stealing cause obviously now i'm a thief i've never even shoplifted a piece of gum before and now i'm a thief i don't have any friends here you're not not really except you and and i don't have a home to go to anymore except here [Music] so you made a mistake in your slept with alex no one has made more mistakes or been more publicly humiliated than me let me be an inspiration take a needle drop it into your subclavian so we can receive medicine and broke a central line but i've i've never done one dr yang i give you tapli and you pass it over to your intern what the hell is wrong with you hey um can i talk to you about something look she hates you okay she's not gonna say it to your face because she's too polite but she thinks you're annoying and you showing up here like the good little girl daddy didn't abandon is like the worst thing that's happened to her in months [Music] i forgive you lexi no i forgive you i forgive you for treating me like crap and i forgive you for letting your friend treat me like crap our dad abandoned you and your mom by all accounts was the meanest person ever but ever since i knew you existed i had this fantasy about my big sister and you have failed on every occasion to live up to that fantasy but i still love you whether you are capable of letting me or not so i forgive you are you okay if i'm okay okay ugh have some fire be unstoppable be a force of nature be better than anyone here and don't give a damn what anyone thinks there are no teams here no buddies you're on your own dr yang i just scrubbed in on walter tapley's double valve replacement that's what i got to do while you made notes in charts so whatever crap you want to rain down on my head go for it because i just saw the inside of walter tapley's heart and that is something that you will never take away from me yeah okay okay i want you to learn the running whipstitch i don't teach it to you i think they need them dr yang thank you remember how i said i wasn't a thief i think maybe i am alexandra caroline craig i couldn't help it i had to know and then once i knew i knew no we have to get these back to the chief's office right now matter now i know i read them all i tried to stop reading but i couldn't and i have a photographic memory which is how i got through harvard met my photographic memory how can they keep you back for one thing just forget about it photographic memory i can't are you mad at me nope then why are you talking to me in that voice and i did you a favor but you didn't do me a favor all that separates me from the rest of my class is one point one point you didn't do me a favor don't kid yourself i'm retaking my intern test oh my god let's see i know i was mad before thank you thank you thank you thank you you thought that you'd defend your boyfriend i mean i just take it he's not my boyfriend you want me to be nicer to o'malley please confess your love to when i think about it shut up when i like somebody i make sure they know it life's too short to live any other way what if he doesn't like me back we're friends i mean right now you're probably one of my best friends he's an idiot [Music] how did you diagnose that nerve because i've never even heard of that condition before i remembered an article from the british journal of ent and it was issue number 47 page 19 from 1964. photographic memory dude alexapedia photographic memory huh yeah periodic table go hydrogen helium lithium beryllium boron carbon nitrogen oxygen fluorine neon sodium magnesium aluminum silicone phosphorus sulfur i can keep going did you even ask for me what i helped you study i helped decorate your stupid locker you don't you don't even see it i am such an idiot and you are a jerk you didn't even think to ask for me [Music] screw you dr o'malley so you're practicing on each other how else are we supposed to learn why didn't you put in a chest too i'm i don't know how what do you mean you don't know how i mean i left that in my first week yes you learned you know but i will never know because you not only won't let me try one but you you hog all our robots and you steal all our corpses dude i think you broke her i'm in i'm just wondering if you're channeling your tragic pain into uh self-mutilation are you a secret cutter no do not practice on yourself that is insane death is so wrong about you why what did she say that you were a pris we were trying to take out her appendix well whose foolish idea was that mine [Music] little gray little gray little gray big gray that's how i tell you two apart i need you to tell mark to keep his little sloane out a little gray he likes you who dr slow on am i really so bad no i am you're meredith grey's little sister you are forbidden fruit you are 25 you're a fetus 24 i skipped third grade i feel dirty he may have broken a bone i i i broke in his phone you're kidding i'm sorry that i hurt you i am now going to climb into bed with you and i'm going to stroke your hair because that's what i like to have done for me when i'm hurt what's going on with you and mark slow what nothing if we're in a relationship then i need to be in it in front of my sister i i don't do dirty secret flirting with you anymore okay i i told you if you want to go public with me with us then i will do dirty public flirting i mean i will i will flirt publicly not dirtily maybe a little dirty until you tell derek our relationship is going to continue to consist of you hiding in the attic and miss smuggling snacks past mary's bedroom do you know what that makes you your boyfriend and frank i am dating anne frank and i'm tired of it i i want to go downstairs with you i want to tell the germans to kiss my ass i want to tell them i'm so sorry it was worth it maybe a little thank you even though a 5 survival rate is bad it's really bad you say screw the odds people die the hiccups my mother died of the hiccups and survival rate for that is what a hundred percent the odds are that she should be alive right now the odds are that the the odds mean crap so people should face it and they should fight yes the odds are against us i'm a one-woman wrecking ball all i do is break you i'd say our survival rate is about three percent and that's that's that's bad but it's not nothing and and i don't think that we should give up on this at least not yet because okay you think you broke me little gray you're the one who put me back together [Music] they think that we're ugly but i know that we're beautiful i'm just saying get a chance to see you in the actual dress you will you're my sister lexie you're in the wedding oh my god i'm gonna be a bridesmaid your father's here he's 29 days sober just out of rehab he's taking it seriously he's working his steps the ninth step is to make amends wherever possible is the key to an alcoholics recovery to take responsibility for the wreckage of his past my dad's here he's here and he's sober and i would really like for you to meet him i'd start looking for a condo i was you know thinking maybe you'd uh come with me absolutely no i i would love to see it i'm so happy for you i was asking you to move up with me not right away about five years i'll still be arrested so stevens and carrere are residents meredith's a resident bailey's a resident all married or soon to be i'm sorry are you asking me to marry no why would you um shouldn't be having this conversation no probably not george o'malley jumped in front of a bus today he knew what he was doing and he did it anyway and he did it to save a life i was a bad friend to george i abandoned him completely i i just moved out and and stopped talking to him why because because he didn't think i was as hot as i thought he was because he he didn't he didn't love me back what did that guy have seriously he was kind of a dorky little dude stop stop talking sorry he he died i george is dying we buried her son this week he had an accident like you he he wasn't even as bad off as you were and he didn't make it clara i know that it doesn't feel like it but it is a miracle that you lived it is a miracle so you should call your mom she would want to know the truth nothing no you don't even want a drawer no i think you're using me to avoid moving in with your boyfriend [Music] you did it lexi will you call my mom hey it's a merger it's hard to see when your job's on the line don't tell me he's not worried is he in there you can't tease me about the blood thing because it's not funny and if it gets back to the chief i may as well just pack my things you need to stop worrying about the chief all this is in your head 2002 milwaukee third street hospital merged with saint anne's 13 residents were let go ah you need to pull yourself together you deserve to be here act like it okay [Music] you're the one who told me to go act like i deserved to be here and i did and now i lost the schizophrenic and i am gonna be fired unless i find the schizophrenic this is me getting cut from the program you're already amazing i am just starting out i really admire you in case i get cut and don't get a chance to tell you plus you're really pretty you can have the rest [Music] are you serious i'm safe i didn't get cut mark i'm safe meredith hey his neighbor said that he wasn't getting his mail i don't know what's wrong with him did you pick him up off the floor of a bar alexia that might be a crap i haven't been drinking i swear the only thing that can save your life is a transplant an alcoholic has to be sober at least a year before it qualifies for a donor liver i'm only 90 days i'll do it i can't ask you to do something like that it's it's major surgery you're not asking you're my dad i'm gonna give my dad a piece of my liver and stage liver disease needs my liver giving him some go ahead whoa whoa what is there to talk about that's major life-threatening surgery we need to decide these things together you can't just go into the knife and leave me a note i would have paged you i'm your boyfriend gray he's my dad we rushed dr gray's labs she wasn't a match he's gonna die meredith and so i'm asking you to give something to me i'm asking i am asking you to give me my dad because as crappy as he was to you god he was wonderful to me you have his blood and i don't so i'm asking you give me my dad i don't know what it's like to have a father but i do know what it's like to have a sister and it's good so i'm gonna go get admitted and we'll do this [Music] if it's bad news i don't want to wake up oh my god ray come on when you're done because we need hands [Music] burns like this are really difficult you don't really you want to switch with someone correct or somebody you think i can't handle this no no because i i can i'm good i'm here did you find my dad you know what i'll ask again in a sec okay press another 25 fentanyl okay evan you're just going to talk to me all right dr gray you grew up here right so you get used to the rain lexi dr gray step out come back when you've got it together all right i i got him i'll take him i'd sit with him until his dad comes i left him alone no you left him come here you left him alone when were you planning i'm sorry i just i feel like oh you don't get to feel anything because he's feeling everything his every nerve is exposed and raw and we have to make him feel worse before he's gonna feel better so if you're having feelings then you need to shut them down you need to shut them down and talk to him about his future and remind him that he has one past all of this pain and if you can't do that if you can't do your job then you find someone who can and you send them my patient needed me here's the thing about the rain it usually just drizzles it's not like tonight but when it stops everything is super green and it's beautiful and it smells like trees you know that smell oh a spinal tumor i read about a case at man where the surgery took 17 hours what happened to the patient he died that's why it only took 17 hours i have another job for you you gave me the idea actually i need somebody in the award going to remind me to take breaks to bend my legs to drink water i will be your patient essentially you want me to be your doctor if dr sloan's okay with you giving up his services of course you love me and this is a once-in-a-lifetime tumor go get your rogue on i'm his doctor basically sounds like you're his [ __ ] a diaper is for the surgery that's genius you never have to leave the or you can hydrate all you want this is the definition of hardcore you're like an astronaut i wore a diaper yesterday yes and i will wear one today if it helps get dr shepherd through this surgery i will wear a diaper i'm gonna wear it and i'm going to wear it with pride and if i have to pee in it oh i'll pee because i'm a surgeon this is america and i will do what needs to be done so you can kiss my hardcore diaper awareness someone needs a gift i mean technically it's for the hospital not arizona but since your birthday is on friday um how does little gray know about your birthday and i don't birthdays are just days like any other days i don't like them don't celebrate them no big deal 25 million dollars that's a big deal i'm her girlfriend i have to do something for her birthday right yeah of course you do oh oh uh uh a surprise party bad idea surprise parties are hostile they're dark people jump out and scream at you they never come to any good i told you i don't get it you're the best birthday of my life was the surprise party that my parents threw i i loved it so much how will we get this party seven like i said speaks for itself my name is sloane riley and uh pretty sure you're my dad sloan here is gonna move in with us for a little while [Music] did you tell sloan to move out no not that it's a bad idea but i'm making her feel like crap i'm pregnant yeah i'm having a baby and um that's why i dropped out of school and that's why my mom kicked me out stay after the baby's born live with me and lexi raise the baby with us well i think you're doing it for me don't make me out to be the selfish one you don't get to unilaterally decide to let a teenager and her infant move into our house don't make me choose between you and her why because you'll choose her yeah [Music] i choose her i think her relationship just ended i thought you were shacking up with what's-his-face i'm not i'm too young to be a grandmother i'm supposed to be working like a dog and and then come home and do stupid things i don't even know what people my own age do anymore i know something stupid you can do izzy leaves and mark gets a kid and you two decide that the best way to deal is to get drunk and measure genitals together no freaking way you get to judge us or give relationship advice besides you were a total dirty mistress like two weeks ago are we calling me a dirty mistress that was two years ago alex all right we've done it before with i was recycling it was like good for the environment izzy's gone i was horny she was there oh crap i am a dirty mistress oh god you're gonna tell derrick and then derek's gonna tell mark that i'm a [ __ ] no i am not going to tell derek and neither are you you slept with caref yeah i i can't even look at you right now [Music] [Music] must uh suck to work on valentine's day i don't believe we've met i get it you get dumped by your boyfriend and you go for the extreme makeover chicks always do that i didn't get dumped you were with sloan until he dumped you he didn't dump me he forgot about me he decided that we were going to start a family and didn't ask me he forgot i was even there he just left me mark's moving on like really that's good isn't it isn't that what you wanted no it's it's that it's it's great it sets him that's perfect it's a perfect [Music] it's it's just sex okay there's no feelings involved right because you are a no feelings type of girl your heart lives in your vagina my heart does not live in my vagina you are handing your power over to a boy because he's giving you sex i'm not i'm back to bailey i know everything and you have a super power that memory of yours is a super power and on top of it you're a good doctor and yet you're letting alex kareem treat you like a skunk monkey i don't care how good the sex is if that's what it costs you're paying too much i'm i'm not monkey all day you can't be an ass to me all day and then expect me to give you respect you can't be an ass to me all day and then expect me to give you sex i am a nice person and i am nice to you so whatever your damage is you better start to be freaking nice to me or i am not spreading my legs for you anymore no matter how much i may want to now give me a damn beer she did great in there she was a total trooper the surgery went great we got the tumor all of it with good margins oh thank god oh dr greg thank you thank you so much would you like to see her kenna she should be waking up any minute dr webber what's happening to her she may have stroked out we need to find out right away if there's any brain activity if there's not then we she looks great mrs clark's scan showed a massive hemorrhage in her brain and the eeg showed minimal brain activity people can live for years on these machines mr clark you can't unplug her legally we don't have a choice sir you said the surgery went fine that's what you said it did but no no you're not a doctor you're a child and you're useless i'm done talking with you i told her patient's husband that she was fine that her surgery went perfectly and the next thing we know she has a stroke and we are supposed to just unplug her you know i know i know that i am supposed to toughen up i know that i am supposed to not care but ow how do you not care it's the hardest part of the job the very hardest part [Music] how did you learn i'm still learning i'm so sorry alex are we a couple what i need to know what we are yeah we're together we're we're a thing whatever lex i'm still in love with you i tried not to be but and sloane's gone i want another chance i'm in love with you i have a boyfriend i'm saying you can have a husband you're the head of hospital security how do you not know i know it's never happened before i found it locked out nobody moves in or out yeah nobody moves you'll breathe until we know what's going on lockdown kind of crazy right you think it's uh serious can you just sign him is correct things serious mark i miss you can you just sign the order sir you can't leave this area the hospital i'm getting out of here he could come back mark we have to get him out of here he's losing a lot of what damn it he needs a transfusion i'll go i'll go get it i can't do nothing i will be right back [Music] i only plan to shoot dr shepard and dr webber and you you unplug the machines your hands killed by allison this was my fault i am like his wife i'm so sorry this was my fault i love you do you hear me i love you he needs an emergency to walk out of me so do one i can't even if i could magically do one correctly his aorta can only be clamped for so long before he suffers neurological damage i i i can't i there isn't any other way no i might i might have read something i might know another way i if i could just i killed that man's wife i found a way to do that i made myself kill gary clark's wife so i should damn well be able to do this we can't just let him die this floor is clear we're going to evacuate you now [Music] you know i've read a lot about trauma and how uh sometimes people just up and change their lives they say that the trauma was the best thing that could have happened to them and how have you been dr gray i've been through a lot since i last saw you that's the actual name of what happened to us it was a mass murder you can't call it a terrorist attack because the murders weren't political in nature and we weren't the victims of a serial killer because mr clark would have had to murder several people over a period longer than 30 days in order to qualify as a serial killer and we could call it a spree killing which is defined as killings at two or more locations with no break or paws in between because mr clark shot that guy in his car before he got here but i'm not sure that that counts as a true second location since it was so close to the hospital which means that we were a mass murder because it happened at one place by one person and more than four people were killed [Music] she's not my responsibility she was your girlfriend no she's not anymore my patient didn't bring her meds and she doesn't even know their names if i give her albuterol and she's on for panel then she'll stop breathing if i give her warfarin and she's on ibuprofen then she'll then she'll bleed out if if i give her a diaper hydramine and she's on doxypin and she'll die should you do do you think she wants to die i think she wants me to kill her do you do you want me to kill you because you you could just get a gun and it would be a lot faster when did somebody you cleared lexi gray for surgery doctor sloane i'm in i'm in session i had to check her into psych last week i had to commit her against her will and you just clear her for surgery what the hell kind of doctor are you it's okay you can talk to him i'll come back yeah walk away you're good at that psych put her on heavy doses of antipsychotics and benzos and then she slept for almost 50 hours straight when she woke up she was no longer a risk to herself or others i mean she has ptsd most of you do for her it caused severe sleep deprivation and led to a breakdown all she needed was sleep so protocol is that she goes back to work see i'm okay really i'm back i choose dermatology over multiplex so i go gynecology over dermatology i think i'd go with psych [Music] that was a joke that was good [Music] you look hot the whole uh crazy eyes tight dress thing it's uh it's working for you for whatever it's worth [Music] you think that you are so badass cause you lived i'm the reason that you lived and while you were dying you were crying out for the wife who left you so that's the opposite of badass for whatever it's worth [Music] yes i am the crazy one i am the one who freaks out and screams at people like that are you okay but everybody please just stop asking if i am okay okay it is like a one in a million thing actually it's more like a one in six thousand two hundred and fifty kind of thing lightning kills between 150 to 300 people every year in the us alone lexi well no i mean it's it's still rare i mean it's not like say handgun death i mean that's that's one in 325 you okay yeah no i'm saying i'm saying she's lucky that's you know hey yay you no damage to your spine which means i can go i mean you should observe her who's free hungry i'm fine and i'm free what are you doing nothing other gray are you free to scrub it absolutely i'm standing right here cabinet go prepping i'll see you up there i'm fine okay then you can keep an eye on carrie [Music] oh my god she never saw coming no no no no no 50 says she's back in the cuckoo's nest by lunch oh you need to help me i need your help she's paralyzed and it's not gonna go away she's not gonna get any better lexi hold on you're all right no not me it's carrie schultz she got hit out of nowhere and it's not gonna get any better i need you to listen to me look this has nothing to do with that she's no just shut up and please listen to me make sure she's all right i'm trying it's an easy procedure to relieve the pressure and uh walk again you'll be out on the field in no time broken or i'll see you in there for an actual surgery yes thank you i had a good day today i saved a girl today i did that wait i went through a rough patch and you helped me and i appreciate that but i am moving out of it and you won't let me you know you're treating me like i am a basket case and and everyone is watching you and they're believing you i am a good doctor and i don't deserve for people to think that i am anything less than that so could you please just leave me alone can you do that can you just leave me alone [Music] you got it [Music] for god's sake mark never thought you were a psycho he loves you that's why he stares at you because he can't keep his eyes off the woman he loves oh oh sorry geez sorry yeah do you know how long april and jackson are planning to stay in the house as long as they like why well april's taken over izzy's room which was fine when it was temporary but i live in the attic and i sleep next to christmas ornaments april's best friend just died she's all alone i'm not evil it's just she's annoying okay i find her annoying really i find you much more annoying how would you feel if i started a chore wheel at the house you'd be surprised how well are you moving in why do you think that's not okay should i talk to meredith about that no that's up to you but i wouldn't bring up the chore wheel meredith would hate that uh luxie and i were just talking about the housing situation and this is about izzy's room no no no it's not about izzy's room it's about a chore wheel april would like to start one that's a great idea what great i'll uh i'll set it up tonight hey um how'd it go this morning yeah what happened this morning but you're okay right yeah yeah i'm fine why wouldn't you be fine nothing have to go what was this morning you should talk to meredith i have been a total [ __ ] to april all day because of you you know that what you worry about april you let her have izzy's room you talked to her about your doctor's appointments and i went crazy alex ditched me in the psych ward marks up with derek's sister and now i find myself relating to the crazy jealous lady he drives into laundromats april you should go lexi i had a miscarriage that day april was there that's why she knows about my doctor's appointment and i did know that mark slept with amy but i didn't think you cared i can never tell what the hell's going on with you two and as far as the psych ward goes you were not alone i sat by your bedside for 36 hours while you slept you're not crazy lexi you're a gray so yeah paint any better look you seem really sweet but this whole like super busy messy hair running around like a banshee thing you have going isn't exactly inspired confidence i mean you don't even know my case mega whalen age 28 to be a plateau fracture caused by a bicycle accident at least that's what you told the er but you told dr torres that you were going 30 miles an hour which makes me think that you run your boyfriend's motorcycle and i'm gonna guess he has a license for it and you don't this is off the top of your head i memorized your chart she's good christy cornell age 28 she's here for a glidioplasty could i see what it looked like kicked up a couple points sure a couple more a couple more [Music] that's it that's my ass the only reason a woman does something like this to her body is to impress a guy okay sure it starts with a giant butt and then the next thing you know she's giving up her friend she's moving in with them before she's even ready and if she's not careful she'll find herself a 26 year old stepmother to the pregnant daughter she didn't even know he had and then she's single dying her hair a new color and you know what it's really hard to manage your roots and you'd be committed to the psych ward psych ward it happens dr gray is concerned that you might be going through with this surgery for the wrong reasons dr gray i hope you don't take this the wrong way but even through your lab coat i can tell you have an amazing ass and with an ass like that i bet you know what it's like to find the perfect pair of jeans jeans that make you feel like you're the sexiest person ever put on a pair of pants then i envy that because i never have so dr gray i am getting a big juicy easy to grab onto ass and you better believe i am doing it just for me you are so nice i don't want to go home yet you want to see us give a lady a really big ass were you just checking out my ass not the first time won't be the last [Music] no okay but i don't understand i'm on your service i don't need you the craniotomy's been canceled i don't have anything for the rest of the day but what am i supposed to do now go study study what i don't care lexi go somewhere else what shepard didn't need me so i took a nap in the research library give me give it to me okay who is it is it bonus holy bonnet was all over the hospital it's not bono [Music] okay not okay okay that's addicting put it away before my guy wrestles you to the ground you might have just gotten yourself fired or arrested probably both yeah well april's the only friend i have left here so don't be stupid [Music] hey hey hey stop it's lexi wake up trauma demands a cool head if you're not up to this no i'm good thanks you can talk to me you know if you want to talk about what i hear you every night you know i'm just saying i had sleep problems and they turned out to be real problems yeah well i don't have any problems so what is your problem tell them he's gonna feel pretty awful that he lived and his brother died he'll hate himself for it he won't want to talk about it he'll be glad they know all right all right you're removing a gallbladder from someone's mouth i mean no incision no scar it's like you were never there i sorry i'll stop talking you want to do one of these the trick is how bad do you want it um when i was little i wanted a pony like really really wanted a pony this feels a little bit like that good because i'm having a contest hi hi i miss you mark what are you saying you don't miss me pretty much what i'm saying are you seeing someone yes his name's andrew rapp he had a tumor removed from his pancreas three days ago and i'm trying to make sure he doesn't develop a fistula oh my gosh so you know what when i was little i i wanted a pony too and you know what happened i uh i worked really hard and i got one sparkle that was the name of my pony dr kevner your patient mrs hathaway just came into the er she's in septic shock ct showed a fistula dr bailey wants you to r2 right away oh this is not the way we just discharged her three days ago she was fine and then there were two eli i need another sample mr rab's fluid oh that's gonna be tough i took the drain out you what no with the drain in he can't turn over which means he has to sleep on his back which means he hasn't sleepings call radiology look if dr bailey wants to put back in then i will no she's in surgery well then it'll have to wait fine okay you know i'll i'll do it myself you're not touching that patient 12 years i've been here now you residents you come and go but this is my home and you are my guest and right now you are no longer welcome what's the emergency oh uh i need a favor a nurse hates me you're a resident i'm sure all the nurses hate you yes well they love you i think you love me fine okay whatever can you please just talk to him fine i'll talk to him but you gotta meet me at joe's tonight for a drink you are unbelievable that's why you love me because i'm unbelievable you and i we don't work okay we we've been through this one drink fine one drink oh god okay there is you lying two drinks five fine stay here [Music] ah i did what i could i'm trying to get on what that's it you didn't do anything see at night you know what i was sloane tonight i'm wondering and then you are going to interrupt us and tell me that there's a medical emergency i know i agreed to have a drink with you but as i walked here i realized how unfair that was you know it's it's unfair to you it's unfair to me because really nothing has changed i mean i mean you're still in a very different place in your life than i am and you want [Music] different [Music] [Music] oh lexi i just got a page bailey wants us back in the icu's you deal with it please [Music] yep no you're gonna make us late okay okay go [Music] go what's going on major seattle area shooting we have reports that a gunman has opened fire on students and faculty great i'm fine go to the pit make sure we're stuck call the blood bank call the blood bank tell them to give us all the one egg they have she's got an introcranial hemorrhage uh her pupil just blew she needs burr holes and and a trauma flop we gotta evacuate that clot okay we can do that we can do that we saw 26 patients [Music] 26 victims and we had no cash leave no one died [Music] hey hey she's uh still sedated and she's just a kid she shouldn't have a big ugly scar do you mind waiting i love you so yeah just uh take your time i am oh wait what is wrong with them i was never that dumb when i was in med school they're weak and godless boy crazy oblivious sweaty oh you all sound really old [Music] you got dinner plans tonight no i'm cooking for you tonight your place play rock to laugh colleen tell her do not wait until this kid comes out looking all sloany callie's pregnant oh my god that's great she loves babies did they do a a turkey baster thing or something i mean wait a minute okay so wait arizona just got back and they were they doing wait was this before they [Music] i saw the heartbeat today this is my kid this is a part of me please is there any way that we can how the hell [Music] did you get me in this position twice it unbelievable you are unbelievable [Music] how long has your father been having abdominal pain abdominal pain it sounds like abdominal pain thatcher gray is not an easy man to get information from uh our father's here in the hospital yeah i admitted them an hour ago you didn't know he was coming okay look just do me a favor go take a blood sample and try to get some more information out of him i need someone who speaks great yeah you're sick enough that you need to come into the hospital and you don't even call me pain comes and goes right so what you thought you thought you would just sneak in and quietly reject meredith's live not even make a fuss calm down please oh no i'm so calm i'm like the calmest one okay good because there's something else that i should have told you uh how do i oh there you are sorry i got turned around and then i ended up back in the lobby no no no no no no oh god what sorry are you in pain uh yeah not a sponsor i am so sorry this was not the way that i wanted to meet you well i didn't even know there was a you to me no i i'm sorry oh okay mr gray oh hello dr bailey this is danielle danny hi yes and danny it's my father's girlfriend whom i've just met just now [Music] oh i see i'm constantly taking pills his anti-rejection but it's not like speed or anything because that would be inappropriate um when did the pain start uh last week thursday actually you might not want to hear this part i'm a doctor all right well we were being intimate oh and no i was on top okay you okay you need me to talk to him mark no my day's been too messed up to have you in it too meredith you have to come see dad oh does he want more organs he wouldn't say he was too busy loving up on a tattooed 20 year old i want to see your dad making out with his tatted up fiance they're not engaged are you sure meredith please fine go get in there and do what we'll make it stop there's no way she's 20. she's got to be like 26 27. i'm 27. oh gross ugh you coming i'm not going in there again seriously lexi i can't well then i'm going back to work meredith oh yeah hey uh move on i'm gonna page bailey this is what happened last time okay i'm sorry will you please let him talk to him he can't talk you know what's here oh all right all right that's gonna be okay back up i need to do something please just tell me okay back to hella right now it could be kidney stones or your prostate my prostate you're saying he could have cancer he he can't have cancer that's what happens when your boyfriend's an old man old men get cancer lexie i am terrified over here and i've got questions you're terrified we're his family i'm his family too no you're not his family you're his midlife crisis lex lexi that's enough you're out of line fine lexi this is how he operates he starts up new family stops talking to the old ones he'll go off marry danny the tattooed lady have six little mid-life crisis babies and i'll never hear from him again it's exactly what he did to you it is not exactly what he did to me of course it is lexi my mother had an affair and then took his kid across the country your mother died and he was miserable and he started drinking and he destroyed his liver this isn't about you he found someone who makes him happy just give him your blessing let him be happy what are you talking about don't defend him you hate him hate him with me lexi i love you but you have to grow up [Music] give him your blessing what a bunch of crap you know let him be happy what about me you know everybody's making these huge life decisions and they're not even considering how it'll affect me how i'll feel you know starting up new families and springing it on me and it's already a done deal no hey lexi guess what i found chatted up skank to be your new mommy hey lexi i'm gonna have a baby you're just gonna have to be okay with that you're waiting your dad's having a baby no not my dad mark mark is having a baby and he didn't even ask my opinion he just clobbered me with it again and he's leaving me behind again [Music] so we're done real we have to be i miss him crap my dad's tatted up spank isn't the [ __ ] i am alexi [Music] will you please just make sure that he calls me yes of course thank you had a hooker on your shoulder i was drunk okay so what's your plan my plan for tonight is sleep i was gonna hit joe's before heading home you wanna come i just need to crash maybe tomorrow for sure yeah [Music] well your new lungs should leave portland in about two hours i haven't taken any of your cystic fibrosis medicines last night right no food no water no drugs great so we'll just do one last workup and then we'll get you to the or that's that's about right you just gave us your first born you need a drink of water julia asthma sorry dornaes it's mine it has julia's name on it i'm gonna go wait julia do you you have cystic fibrosis go no wait a minute you know how dangerous cystic fibrosis patients are to each other no your disease isn't contagious to anybody in the general population it's not like you can't date you just can't you can't date each other in the relationship or you don't get the lungs maybe it'll be okay you know maybe it's not a waste they love each other it it is rare what if they are soul mates thinking about sloan again i had a feeling i'd find you here the lungs are in so far so good gonna tell her i'm here dr altman no no i'm pretty sure you're gonna leave here's the thing you're killing him you're taking a gun and killing him and there is nothing romantic about a joint suicide it's cruel to you to him to your parents and to the family that just buried someone those lungs are gorgeous [Music] you can't do this it always feels like there is just one person in this world to love and then you find somebody else and it just seems crazy that you were ever worried in the first place telling me has to find someone he really has to try because you don't want him to be alone [Music] she's gone for real i don't know how to tell him well if i had to hear something like that i'd want to hear from you what if he searched soulmates you got to be kidding me with this crap lexi nobody has just one soul mate that'd be such a dumb system look ricky and julia deserve better than someone who makes them sick you deserve better too there is more than one soul mate for everyone and someone like you there'd be a line at the door as soon as work got out oh would you be in the line [Music] i'm in the line [Music] can we talk about it later yeah okay well can i pee before i go april what go downstairs this is a shared space my god there anywhere you don't do it [Music] i'm glad you came i know it's awkward no you know what it's it's not it's i'm i'm hap i'm happy for you yeah and uh plus i'm seeing somebody else really yeah that's uh good for you do i know i should go yes i will do a consult now you're not fooling anyone car versus truck that's all we had our injuries were with the baby we don't know yet that's cali that's my kid which is why you can't i'm sorry you can't be a doctor on this one just breathe cali relax we've got this it's under control just breathe [Music] i am not the kind of guy that waits around for the girl who's still in love with someone else i'm just not jackson let's go home what is it about guys with babies that makes women go crazy [Music] oh everybody's looking at the baby and no one's looking at mark except you ah i should go i am uh really happy for you [Music] you seem happy i am i have everything i always wanted [Music] almost we staring at sloan again oh the the baby did you see here a 757 went down in the sound we're looking at about 200 injured passengers we're the designated crisis center families will be instructed to come here to find a loved one my wife was on the plane can you please just sir at this point we don't have any information please just sign this i'd like to speak to your supervisor somebody who knows what's going on man my supervisor doesn't have any information nobody has any information please just sign the sheet remember still nobody oh the families are going crazy what is taking so long right now fishing 200 people out of the water slow business if it's taken this long nobody survived emergency services has begun identifying bodies each of you have families to inform so uh please be outside the cafeteria in exactly one hour you'll call one family at a time and you'll be assigned a room to take them to and deliver the news it's gonna be a long day i don't think i can do this three times one foot in front of the other oh i've got something to cheer you up sloan gave us his blessing well that's not really right more like he gave you to me which is nice [Music] are you serious yep hey how you doing oh not now mark oh come on lexie you've been in the dead zone all day you have to stop you got to stop talking to me and checking on me and talking to my boyfriend i love you and i'm always gonna love you but i don't want to love you i want to be happy and jackson makes me happy and if you keep pulling at me i'm i'll come back to you you're right i'm sorry you got what you wanted you wanted a family please just let me have what i wanted i said you were right i told avery i was letting you go did he tell you that part yeah it's paternalistic and weird i'm letting you go lexi that means you gotta walk away [Music] gray you're with me yes ma'am i will make sure that the scrubber separates your macro dissectors from your micros i told her that yesterday she must have forgotten which i know sounds like an excuse and i am sorry for that too yes leave now okay hey can you go have sex with him and make him be nicer i told you he's going to be hard on you until you learn all of his quirks they're not quirks they're these scary nitpicky rules just to drive me crazy it's called the butterfly tumor because it extends into both sides of the brain she has about six months she's dying so they decided to have a baby well that's not the point so i had seen catherine send over all her scans and i want you to take them to derek and get him to do a consult derek hates me you are better off taking them yourself the only thing holding our marriage together is that we can't talk about nero so he can't know that i had anything to do with this so you're using me i'm your tumor mule do you want him to stop yelling at you he needs to be inspired this is the chart of a patient with a butterfly tumor butterfly tumors are not from no i i know but this patient she's a new mom and it's a really sad story actually but i was wondering if you could do a quick consult this is why you needed to find me so urgently to tell a woman her tumor is inoperable to remind her how sad her story is i i why didn't you tell derek about mary schumer i i did he said it was inoperable did you show him the scans did you tell him it was in the frontal lobe i didn't get a chance um i am naked and wet in the shower so derek's a tumor junkie he needs to see the scans and meet the patient to spark the case are you gonna remember all this or do i need to write it down naked and wet in the shower i need to write it down look butterfly tumor he's amazing right tell my husband he's pretty amazing we got it we got the whole tumor [Music] well the surgeon in san francisco said that even if you just got a little bit of it the symptoms wouldn't be as bad for now um until it grows back well we'll take any relief that we can get i like to come in from here from above i think i'd have a much better visualization and i think i could get it all but none of the eight other neurosurgeons we talked to even suggested that it's because it's never been done before what are the risks um well you're passing between two hemispheres so there's a greater risk of injury including short-term memory loss um stroke and even death no i understand i really do [Music] i'm gonna prove to her my way will work how about now any lights yeah supplemental motor area right just paralyze the whole left side so she's completely paralyzed we hit the right side earlier hmm let's try another angle ding dang where was that ornix oh through to the basilar so she'd be uh mute memory loss brain dead how's it going i just can't find a clean approach try it again all right [Music] that should last 48 hours yeah i should be happy for him you're still coming at it ron you're you're you're approaching the ball wrong i'm holding the bat wrong no no it's not the bat it's your body you need to adjust your head drop your shoulder i mean you're not connecting the head's at the wrong angle i've been adjusting the probe you need to adjust the angle of your head the tumor's dropped into the field let's tighten the device you mean it's gone you got it all yes we won't know where we are for a couple days i i did i i got it all right it's disgusting give the guy a break she's on the opposing team so what he seems happy he's happy i'm happy you and me we're we're happy right yeah what is with the freaking hog let's play [Music] ball calling the picture should i forget your glove no no not me lexie get your gloves no arm this is your relief pitcher hey my grandma's not busy she can pitch better than that his girlfriend's gonna be okay right that's her boob she's in good hands are you gonna tell me what that was about or what yeah i thought she was stealing second no he didn't go ahead say it say i told you so he's been warning me about this for years and i have been avoiding the surgery but it's gonna have to wait until i'm done with my book i went looking for patients who were told no by every doctor they've seen so what are you gonna do tell them yes tell them i will do my best it's not just me it's you two you ready me mm-hmm i yes of course what's this uh justine campbell's uh ama form she's leaving against them oh so you're not ready why yes we're saying yes if you can't get her to say yes to a simple surgery that will save her life how do you expect to tackle that tear those up get her to say yes and i'll let you jump on one of these okay what do you say [Music] yes damn right you wanna help me [Music] how fast can you type if a thief sees a ring he's gonna take it but he promised that he was going to change dr gray what i'm doing what you told me to do i told you to get her to the o.r you're hosting a book club she won't go into an or until she finishes her book i'm helping her finish how long will that take you can't rush the creative process nathan pulled her into his arms and held on tightly kate whispered against his chest i'm sorry i am so so sorry wait what she'd never know if he heard her when she opened her eyes nathan was gone she was in paris it was time to look for alexander what she chooses alexander no no way it ha it has to be nathan it's not nathan but he's he's so handsome and good and and alexander is her soulmate they don't even want the same things they make each other miserable dr gray i cannot portray my characters you're the writer you can make them do whatever you want and picking nathan that is the right thing to do you hate it no i i know you hate it no okay okay hey shepard she she's written this incredible story with these amazing characters and then she just blows it wow you're 15 right now it's criminal what she's doing so what they're gonna be together for a few books and then she's gonna choose alexander yeah for this thing with you and mark there is nothing between me and mark yeah i've been trying really really hard to believe that but there is a thing and it's not going anywhere anytime soon so i have to walk away from you [Music] can you can you tell me i shouldn't he's kind and funny incredibly honest it's kate she doesn't love him she should i know it's not fair i know but it makes for a really really good read hey hey come here dr canner thank you very much for showing up on such short notice no problem fastball here just updated me about your patience again i am i'm really sorry for hitting you i'm fine my breast made a quick recovery it did okay mark did i seem nervous in there just be honest with me oh you seemed more than okay thank you dr gray damn it now i like her don't screw this one up i like her she's a keeper eight surgeons have said this is inoperable catch what's this for as we do it tails we don't you're insane but it's a gut check i get a feeling when it's in the air what i want it to land on flip it it's in a very large region of his spine there is the very likely risk of paralysis from his upper body down there's also the risk of death a death that he is gonna meet in three months anyway if you don't do this surgery there is only a five percent chance of success maybe a little less yes if you're willing i'll try okay should i go tell wes wait um there's something else he he doesn't know about his tumor he's 11. a young 11 and knowing that he's very likely gonna die is not something that's gonna do him any good what what why does he think he's here a backache a very bad backache [Music] did the tumor grow more what did you say i know what i have i overheard some doctors talking about at the last hospital does your mom know that you know no she'd just freak out she's your mom she needs to know she cries in the bathroom she cries all the time the only thing that makes her happy is think that i don't know you can't tell her i promise i won't tell do you think i'm gonna die [Music] i've worked with dr shepard for a while now and your mom could not have picked a better doctor for you he's the best dr shepard's the best you're right as usual this is surgery we'll kill him we have no choice we have to close him up no that's a great no you're you're quitting okay it's it's not right not when we said that we would try there's a five percent chance there is no longer a five percent chance he knows about the tumor he has known all along i told him that we would try i told him that you were the best uh please derek just please leave your right now [Music] his mom's not gonna tell him and he's gonna wake up and she's gonna tell him that it all went great and he's gonna go home thinking that we did the surgery not that he's gonna die in three months you need to tell him she's the parent it is not her call i'm sorry no you said after the surgery i'd be stuck in here for a few weeks that's what i did you know sometimes when we get in there things change that's why you get to go home you don't have to worry about me i'm gonna be with dad in heaven [Music] they're not called lost causes because they're fun i don't need them to be fun i just need them to not be like today okay let's flip heads you keep doing lost causes tails you do the fun stuff i'm in of course i'm in good i can babysit tonight if you guys need some time to yourselves because i have uh no plans my life is empty alone with no plans whatsoever i have plans yep i got a hot date our thing is is young and fragile too well what about you hitting a town i'm not hitting much of anything these days oh god i'm sorry that was crass i ha uh i have no found times plans did you get these from a patient no i bought these for julia but she's standing me up for an emergency ocular transplant surgery so i'm gorging myself on valentine's chocolate i can do you one better my hot date tonight zola i am babysitting [Music] i'm just gonna go i'm gonna go and i'm gonna tell him and if there is a no i'm not gonna tell him of course ah okay of course no i'm gonna tell him because if you don't say anything then you you bleed out and die and read about it in a plastic locket i mean what what what do you think what should i do sola tell me hey i thought maybe the uh the girls could have a play date and um we could uh to talk you know about stuff stuff that i've been wanting to say uh oh is that julia i'll i'll go average girl can we do that julia but he can go if you want to talk should he go nope it's nothing i am looking right at it it's a glio sarcoma that has invaded the carotid artery try and remove it to go stroke out stop being a jackass i'm she calling she called you a jackass don't you cry excuse us dr gray stay here i need backup we've operated on worse actually she showed us a picture of a little boy i know it's clear that she is passionate her sister's too emotionally wrapped up in this patient to clearly see that she can't help this woman you know it tells me that she's passionate enough to try harder and all the passion in the world is not going to make her plan doable in 90 seconds you need to see that for yourself fine set it up you're going to be the one who sees a thing i mean thank you you know what else would be harder going through the carotid it would be harder but there'd be better control than going through the femoral i swear you got to stop encouraging her this is what you taught me to do you taught me to not give up until we've tried everything because you can handle it when we lose a patient i know if you're okay or you're not because i'm right there with you but with her i cannot do that because i don't think she can handle it not now you are the one who is too emotionally involved okay if this tumor had come to you from any other doctor you would still be looking at it you were so worried about your sister's outcome you won't even think about her patience am i wrong [Music] call your patient get her up here guess what i'm on pizza today babies yay nicu not the nursery it can get pretty intense my god he's the size of a soda can 14 ounces he's acting like the baby is already dead but look at him he's a champ you're like a little muhammad ali aren't you someone's peppy she's on vacation from lost cause brain surgeries these are his chances of survival right here this is reality now you're a doctor think like one they are basically giving this kid a death sentence parents have made up their mind just let me eat my food in peace ellie doesn't even have any parents as far as i can see and you know what she is your intern you need to step up all i'm saying look let it go all i am saying is parents did not decide his treatment plan doctors did math did i can't wait to get back to neuro at least with lost causes you know where you stand and the patients can tell you when they have had enough i don't know how morgan can bear it i don't know how any of you can joleen giordano one pound four ounces at birth she's 12 years old now she's a goalie one pound two ounces at birth he's nine years old plays a trumpet some of them survive we open up the wall of assist so that it can drain freely and then the fluid won't collect so your dizzy spells will stop but you said you found a tumor we did it's a small one it's called meningioma it's benign so we're gonna leave it alone if it ever does cause a problem it's easy enough to remove dr gray could do it oh go girl so this is it this is it we will see you when it is all over thank you ah dr gray so glad you could join us i've been kidnapped great that's a perfect crazy argument right dr gray drive me back into neuro to watch lexi do a boring procedure okay it is not boring lauren's your first solo cyst be a big sister cheerful shepherd i've got a motorcycle cop open on the table to c7 fracture i need your eyes on the court can you all right i'll be right there she knows what she's doing just observe i'll be right back if you need anything we won't go there okay look at that that's our tumor oh my god there it is do we take it out i mean he said it would be easy that i i could do it i know and it's right there what are you doing here we're finished assist is draining she did great and get this lexi resected the meningioma perfect margins she was perfect you did what took the tumor out why the hell would you do that well her sponsors are good fathers for me up down how you feeling honey you're right here well that's a good sign actually it's called aphasia a part of the brain that helps control how she forms words it's damaged in the surgery there is a chance with therapy that she will regain some of her function some what the hell did you do to her mr boston i am sorry i i had the best intentions it was an outcome that i did not foresee it was my mistake you weren't even in the room my mistake was leaving you two in there long i can't believe you would do this i thought if you had seen the two i didn't think at all okay it's my fault let's just let it be my fault this will kill lexi it'll destroy her confidence does she even have to know of course she does she's not strong enough then she shouldn't be a surgeon hey did she wake up yet tell me that he can fix it he can't it's irreparable what do you mean i mean she's not gonna be able to talk she's 27. she he he has to fix it i mean there there has to be something there isn't i mean this is my fault too i shouldn't have let you do it oh god oh my god she it it was right there and i i i never would have done it if you saw it i know i mean you're not gonna cry right now you're gonna go and talk to derek and he is gonna be pissed and disappointed and he's gonna scream at you and he won't look at you for days just take it close up and you make a plan for that i know i i i know that do you dudes if you had taken the time to look you would have opted to approach the tumor from this angle and lori would be speaking right now stupid arrogant mistake i feel like julia and i are at a crossroads it's been five months maybe it's time to take the next step and ask her to move in you like julia right you'll mobilize the aneurysm and place the clip wait i'm clipping the aneurysm what if it ruptures i i clip proximal and distal to the aneurysm what if you damage the perforating vessels i throw a temporary clip on the parent artery [Music] it's okay if you don't want me to do it i i know that i i really messed up last week yes she did but you're still a student and this is how you learn any other questions are you gonna tell mark to move in with julia i mean what do they even really talk about you know she sews eyeballs for a living it's gross i mean plus she has really thin hair which can be a sign of really menopause we don't talk about stuff like this we don't talk about stuff like this i will see you in pre-op make sure his labs are up to date and then we'll take him up to pre-op what is wrong with you i i know i know that we don't we don't talk about this stuff okay but but i i kind of need to talk about this stuff because what if i don't and then i miss an opportunity to appeal to my big brother you know what what if mark is my soul mate i am not your best friend right now lexi i am not your big brother i am your attending and what i need is my resident you're right i'm sorry i i am your resident good make sure our patient's prepped you have an aneurysm to clip i'm not gonna tell mark what to do you're not we're gonna move in together either way man has always been easy to read the only thing that could change that is if you knew he still had a shot with you really he's happy with the eyeball doctor so make sure you want him back because you want him because he's with somebody else [Music] bobby [Music] parking lot uh you know what i am i forgot that i have some charting to do so have a great night [Music] i need you lex hi uh uh what i need you i'm stuck with an intern who thinks that debriding the necrotic tissue is a title of a nine-inch nails album are you sure it's not it might be i'm not familiar with their later work you're just sad because jackson is off to take his sports you know i work well together we understand each other like you and i used to you know so i need you i can't all right thought it would be fun working together again but if you're busy mark wait you should check out the latest nine inch nails album it is pretty fresh okay [Music] eyes are fresh we're not all hopeless i'm spoiled with avery what the hell happened to you two why'd you break up to be continued this is nice talking to you i miss it i miss you i miss you too and the reason that jackson and i broke up oh you know what we don't have to talk about that it's really it's none of my business so forget i ask oh but as your friend if you're not over him you should tell him mark said that um that he misses me but i miss him oh i uh i really i really miss him you know when he he thinks that i still love jackson but i try to tell him that i don't try to tell him that i still love him but i i open my mouth and nothing comes out and everything is terrible it's gonna be okay it'll be okay i'm gonna be your big brother for 30 seconds okay uh julia wants to have a baby with mark she what what did she say well i don't know what do you mean you don't know what did he say how did it go down my 30 seconds of brotherly advice is over i gotta go check on a patient no oh does he want to do it i mean does it seem like he was excited about it or needs to seem like that's an insane idea because it is i hope you told him that it's an insane idea my temporalis muscle was atrophied any idea why dr gray uh lack of use it had nowhere to attach since the bone was gone it's right it's too late for this muscle it's missed its chance to attach why are we talking about the temporalis teachable moment not too slow stay out of it once you inject the fat into charlie's temple the muscle will begin with the muscle yeah the once healthy muscle will slowly wither to nothing all alone surrounded by a thick layer of fat you did a good job in there thanks [Applause] you okay i love you oh god oh my god that just came flying out of my face it was just some kind of i i love you i just did it again i i i i love you i i do i just i i love you and i have been trying not to say it i have been trying so hard to just mash it down and ignore it and not say it and jackson is a great guy he he is he's he's gorgeous and and he's younger than you and he doesn't have any grandkids or or babies with his lesbian bffs and he's in avery and he liked me you know he he really liked me but it was never gonna work out because i i love you i am so in love with you and you're you're you're in me it's you're like it's it's like you're a disease it's like i am infected by mark sloan and i just can't i can't think about anything or anybody and i can't sleep i can't breathe i can't eat and i love you i just i love you all all the time it's every minute of every day and i i i i love you god that feels good just to just say that i feel so much better i'm just i love you mark hey lexie i thought you said the lobby you ready [Music] dr schneider dr sloan lexi come on in oh plenty of room uh you actually i was just gonna update you on the boise doctor's bios but since you're both here i'm just gonna give it to you and then that way i can leave oh uh no you guys go uh i'm gonna stay oh hey lexi about that other thing don't think i forgot what you said i just need to ruminate on that you know running up the old flagpole okay [Music] you got that is it too heavy for you no i'm i'm fine but thank you no uh thank you [Music] lexi [Music] how is she she's awake and responsive i'm gonna get you out of here okay okay we gotta get her out of there [Music] my chest feels like it's gonna explode so it's probably a massive hemothorax why aren't you doing anything she she knows it won't help no you are gonna be fine stop you're gonna be fine i'm gonna be right back [Music] should we back any minute [Music] oh my hand i'm not holding your hand because you're not dying [Music] no you're not dying do you hear me you don't die today [Music] i love you don't have to say it just because i said it i love you i've always been in love with you i will always be in love with you which is why you have to stay alive we we we're gonna get married you're gonna become an amazing surgeon we're gonna have two or three kids and that's nice we're gonna be happy lex you because we're supposed to end up together [Music] me i love you i love you perfect i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you [Laughter] [Laughter] [Music] [Laughter] where's maxie no where's lexi where's lexi lexi's dead there was another one lexi was she died out there in the woods my sister died out there you have another sister my kid sister lexi i loved her i miss lexie you miss her so much me too lexi i love it here i was big on rules i actually like i think i loved roles you totally did [Music] so you two are together looks like we are [Music] get away [Music] isn't cause for celebration then what's the point of avoiding death i mean just if you're not gonna enjoy it then you might as well join him the depth of grief that you felt with all the losses it's because of the depth of love as long as you're alive you get to feel it and you get to do something about it everything changes all the time when you're alive and all the time you fight the change you cling on to what you have and what you know like that's how it should always be it's such a waste of life right what's a waste fighting change resisting pain i miss you both so much that's kind of a waste of time too why because we never left you don't waste it meredith waste what don't waste one single minute [Music] hey i'm mexicay 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Id: LLapBh__6P0

Length: 102min 29sec (6149 seconds)

Published: Mon Apr 05 2021