Taylor Swift SADDEST Interview Moments

[Music] you know it's interesting that in your songs you're still the outsider with all the success yeah my um my mom talks to me a lot about that because i just i think you kind of get set in how you feel when you're in school like i could be sitting in the front row at an award show and i still don't feel like a cool kid like this day and you are the cool kid now and what what went through your mind when he came up and then like they cut off the um well i was standing on stage and i was really excited because i had just won the award and then i was really excited because kanye west was on the stage and then i um then i wasn't so excited anymore after that and taylor are there any hard feelings towards him i i don't know him and i've never met him so so were you a fan before yeah it's kanye west are you still a fan i take it now you know i just i don't know him and i don't want to start anything because i just you know i had a great night tonight did anyone give you support backstage yeah i've been getting so many text messages it's like and and everybody's been really nice so i've had a really really fun night it's been interesting definitely it's definitely been an interesting night how hard was it to coordinate the performance with the subway and all of the the performance was one of my favorite parts of the night and especially the fact that it was so so fan oriented and the fact that the fans were everywhere it was just wonderful and i love new york so i'm so excited to be here thank you guys so much gonna try to have a good night thank you so much [Applause] makes me feel so bad about myself every time i come up here you put like a different dude up there on the screen there's never been two guys on the screen two visits in a row it's sad is your life at all normal no no not at all what's the most abnormal the most abnormal thing about my life is having sort of crowds form everywhere you go and just everywhere so that starts happening and then you have to take security everywhere you go all of a sudden you realize that you have not been alone truly for five years i try not to ever really say where i am the most because since all my addresses are on the internet people tend to show up uninvited like you know dudes that think we have an imaginary marriage you mentioned that you keep wound dressing with you yeah i've had a lot of stalkers show up to the house armed so we have to think that way do you ever suffer from anxiety dreams do you ever have those dreams before a big show where you're fighting clowns or you're wrestling with a lion oh my god yes anxiety dreams and also like my my reality even when i'm not dreaming is like peppered with lots of anxiety just like ridiculous anxiety i have a lot of issues with buildings like this because i always feel like someone has bugged the room and is either videoing me or recording me no i know but like dressing rooms and stuff so that's one of my paranoias anxiety dreams i always i always have nightmares that i'm being framed for murder do you yes and then and then i'm being framed so well that i can't remember if i did it or not in the dream wow and so that really winds me up and then i'm just like just like freaked out for the next couple of days i mean if you want to talk about all my like issues with anxiety we could be here for two days i'd rather not okay because you asked the questions did you like to lay down on the couch you didn't ask my favorite kind of candy you asked how many different kinds of anxiety dreams do i have but you do have them yeah you're in a dressing room you're talking with a friend privately about the fact that you're not sure if you've murdered someone or not and then you look up at the little fire alarm thing you go could there be a camera there's a red light there yeah and there's also the dream that like any time i'm paparazzi out like which is a lot i have dreams that night that they're in my room taking pictures of me while i'm sleeping so like i'll be like i'll find i'll like find myself smiling in my sleep like trying to like like because i think there are people in my room taking pictures of me are you okay not smiling because i'm happy smiling because like i'm because i think people are taking pictures of me and does does your boyfriend like the way it smells i don't have one i keep telling you that i don't have like even kind of a boyfriend not even kind i don't have someone that i'm texting that's a guy that might someday be my boyfriend there's like nothing going on right now that's pathetic yeah just like you're busy yeah you're very very busy what is the craziest thing that a boy has ever done to get your attention nobody does anything crazy to get my attention i don't know as far as guys there's i don't there's they don't work hard enough do they like really i i don't know i can't remember so i guess you know i guess there hasn't been anything kind of made which is good so it's like easy or the bars set really low for anyone who i date in the future to come in and be like a great guy i'll be like oh you exist this is crazy i've been thinking about addiction and i've been thinking about people who if they're either suffering through mental illness or they're suffering through addiction or they have an everyday struggle no one pats them on the back every day but every day they are actively fighting something but there are so many days that nobody gives them credit for that yeah and so how often must somebody who's in that sort of internal struggle must want to say to everyone in the room you have no idea how close i am to going back to a dark place or you have no idea how hard it is to get to the point where you guys think is still shitty yes and then the second verse is about um you know someone who felt like they had a lot of potential in their life i think i think there are a lot of mechanisms for us in our school days in high school or college to excel and to be patted on the back for something and then i think a lot of people get out of school and there are less there are less abilities for them to get gold stars yeah and then you have to make all these decisions and you have to pave your own way and there's no set class course you can take and there's and and i think a lot of people feel really swept up in that and so i was thinking about this person who is really lost in life and then starts drinking and every second is trying not to yeah one song on the album called soon you'll get better that it's i can't even really hear i can't even listen to it she won't talk specifically about her inspiration but it comes at a time when her mother andrea who was battling cancer suffered a relapse it's really interesting because i don't think i have written a song quite like that before and it's just sort of like it's just a tough one i can't imagine but i can also tell you having listened to it that it's universal it's just not something that um we deal with until we until we have to until we see it until we experience it until someone close to us is going through something like that and so writing about it was really emotional and i'm just going to stop talking about it now taylor swift opens up to l magazine admitting that she's never fallen in love before in the new issue of elle magazine taylor is admitting that she has never ever fallen in love before she said it's magical if you ask anyone who's ever fallen in love it's the greatest now i have more of a grasp on the fact that when you're in a state of infatuation and you think everything that a person does is perfect it then if you're lucky morphs into a real relationship when you see that that person is not in fact perfect but you still want to see them every day i've never had that she also says in the mag that she believes that the idea of happily ever after doesn't exist in real life and that she doesn't see herself quote riding off into the sunset because the cameras keep rolling in real life [Music] there are times when i feel like ev with everything that's in my control i can make i can make myself seem like someone who doesn't have an abnormal life and i try that every day every day it's like how do i make myself among my friends and family and my loved ones not see this big elephant that's in the room for our normal life because i don't want the elephant in the room you know if you're gonna be in my life i i feel like there's a certain amount that comes with it that i can't stop from happening i can't stop from you getting a call in the morning that says you know the tabloids are writing this today i can't help it if there's a guy with a long lens camera two miles away with a telescope lens taking pictures of you i can't stop those things from happening and so the this song was basically like is it enough is this stuff that i can control enough to to sort of block out the things that i can't um so it makes me really like really emotional to hear this song can you do anything you use the word normal so i'll use it can you do anything like a normal person can you go for a coffee can you go shopping or is everything an event with tons of paparazzi following you anything outside my house or my apartment doesn't ever really feel normal i can i try so hard to make it normal because i don't engage like if um if i'm being followed by a camera crew and all these paparazzi they know that i don't want to have a conversation and in new york they're very respectful of that like they just take their pictures and they say thank you and they leave i don't want to make it into a press conference my friends wouldn't want that either but in my in my apartment in my house we can bake we can make dinner we can dance we can do whatever we want it's just that it's just a fact that when i'm outside my the doors of my apartment people are watching me and that's the life that i chose and you're okay with it i have days where i am days where i'm not you know like i don't think anyone has a solid stance on any way that they feel like it's like saying are you happy every day you know i mean it sometimes it feels absolutely stifling and overwhelming to be honest with you [Music] [Music] this week was it was the american election and we have two americans here yeah and you've been very secretive about how you wrote what you're voting for well i mean i just figure i'm a 22 year old singer and you know i don't know if people really want to hear my political views i think they just kind of want to hear me sing songs about breakups and feelings can you just kind of sum up this whole year yeah no i have no idea how this happens this is like i mean and i know that this is probably never going to happen to me again like this like this this kind of a year is is so rare and so unique every album i put out has had its own different kind of feeling for the way that the year has gone and this is such a unique feeling with red like the fact that the fact that i the fans got me to win artist of the year for the third time is kind of to me hard to even wrap my mind around like i just sometimes sometimes i'm so happy i'm i'm scared if that makes any sense with what you just said it does make sense because you don't think you're ever going to be able to achieve something like this again and that why because i do that every time i win an award like i just feel like this has got to be it this has got people are going to get sick of me clearly i'm always sick of me subscribe to this channel

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Length: 13min 13sec (793 seconds)

Published: Mon Dec 07 2020