success is a myth

[Music] something I find in my mind drifting to fairly often especially as I stare at the low points of this channel right in the face is how fleeting success can be there's athletes who peaked in college or never even made it past their local teams and have to leave their passion behind forever the artists of one hit wonders whose names will only be known with an oh yeah those ones and who will never be able to perform their passion at the same level ever again leaders of fan communities of works that get canceled and slowly die out until everything they worked for no longer exists there's bands who break up actors that break down in Creations that simply break at any moment our greatest success is already behind us and we have no idea when the next one will come [Music] when I see the dips of my channel I can't help but think I guess I'll always just be that edge Runners person as even Black Lagoon my first grade success doesn't do very well anymore but I don't need to take up your time complaining about the fact that I have a platform to speak to and influence so many people and spread love for my hobbies I guess it's simply my desire to be like the characters who I love to profile here so much the well-intentioned villains of anime when I envisioned my slice of success it looks so much like them an ironic fact given they actually speak to the myth of success itself you know and probably love these characters most obviously they feel a specific niche of Attraction somewhere between traditional dark heartthrob and Tumblr sexy man their ambiguous entities capable of taking a spot in fantasy for almost anyone they're either the softest little sub the most ferocious Dom or anything in the middle depending on what you want they're hyper intelligent most times sparking years-long debates about who among them would come out on top as we over analyze the Thriller plot beats which prove their worth but no plan is hatched alone so their endlessly charismatic not just manipulating foes but friends alike convincing anyone and everyone to fall under the banner of their ideals through personal appeals romance friendship blackmail really anything but who wouldn't give them their undivided attention after all the unique in Worlds often emphasized for negative qualities sharply contrasted against Bland or boring fellow citizens as someone to be looked up to think of how many shots of these characters have you physically looking up at them their unique nature is fairly often helped Along by some kind of special power as well really selling how chosen they are they're meant to change this world whether it's Birthright dark secret plans masquerading as pure chants or the result of past events they have some Advantage which allows them the platform to become the agent of their ideals often young and pretty they have all the time in the world to see change and if they push for it right now these characters are perfect if you've been around here for a while they're probably not just what you want but everything you want to be but I would argue that all of these factors are not why we love them but simply how the true reason we love them is expressed based on the standards around us which influence media to me these characters are an odd form of representation it's not about seeing characters who look like me but really ones who think like me now don't misconstrue this point physical representation is exceptionally important in a larger and more pressing issue than the one I'm covering right now I have my own non-normalities so I understand the struggles of none of these characters are like me which probably then just feeds my relation to these villains as characters I do relate to they share with me something which has driven everything you have ever seen of me here the desire for something not offered now we'll be getting into specifics of some of these characters to display this so it's always the chapters feature can help you avoid spoilers but there will be some all the way throughout also these characters are not strictly the villains of their stories but lies somewhere in the gray area of protagonists so I'm considering them all under the term villain here first off we have Code Geass and Lush V Britannia the exiled Prince from the family which rules over most of the world an alternate time where Britain's Conquest never ended ruthless military might controls a majority of the globe and is constantly expanding like to Japan the holdout Nation the luch and his chronically injured sister none only are sent to as bargaining chips the britons here live well once the conquest is over attending high-class schools while once bustling districts like Shinjuku are referred to as ghettos for their massacred to keep Dark Secrets safe witnessing The Duality present in the kindness of his disadvantaged sister and the cruelty of the Wild At Large which injured her the loose swears to do whatever it takes to create a Kinder world for Natalie one which can arrive within her lifetime he is selfish and physical in his goals help sacrifice any number of nobodies if it means the fall of Britannia and his sister comes before any of the goals benefits to others but if the core of his wishes and actions is an abstract desire that being kindness he doesn't wish for money or fame as he literally hides behind a mask not to be number one or to be remembered as he allows his name to go down in history as pure evil but simply for people to care more about others something which can't be measured or compared no one hands out kindness on the street and did something which relies on the individual as it isn't given monetary benefits he desires something not offered something outside the traditional bounds of success and of course I could never resist bringing up shogo makashima the main antagonist of psychopaths said in future Japan their world is one without Choice as a super computer named Sybil determines both people's aptitudes as well as their intent which means crimes can be prevented before they can even occur one of the few remaining stable Nations on Earth in 2112 Sybil is absolutely accepted by the majority of citizens who go through life without stress even to the point of not functioning due to a lack of it however this predetermination is seen as the robbery of Free Will by some including makashima who provides the means for minor antagonists to poke in prod at the system as he waits to determine if it should be entirely abolished he settles unbelieving it should be because he tests those raised under it and finds disgust at their lack of originality and thus free will even when presented with the loss of things they love dear they find themselves unable to make a decision which is not ordained above like he so often does as such he feels alone struggling desperately to find Connection in a world full of constant disappointments he harshly discards the minor antagonists because none of them live up to what he wants from Partners once again he has selfishness in his motivations part of his reasoning to abolish Sybil even though it will likely lead to the collapse of society is because he can relate to no one under it and as such he lacks these Simple Pleasures which make life worthwhile for so many like simple conversations connections or even love but he makes this judgment on the abstract concept of Free Will something not offered almost by definition from Sybil under it he can never live a life which feels worthwhile even though what he desires is so common now one I could have started with for popularity's sake is Light Yagami but he has to come after the others with a hefty warning that I don't relate to this man he's a privileged idiot who deserved to fail but he likely needs no introduction but just in case he's the protagonist of Death Note a world where notebooks carried a god of death can kill those whose names are written in them light a standout student considered the smartest most athletic most driven in the country is disillusioned with the world around him mostly drifting through life due to his hatred of crime often stating how rotten the world is so when he acquires a Death Note by chance he begins to write the names of criminals in it leaving just enough of a trail that it is clear one person is somehow judging the wicked hoping that a coat of fear will remove crime from the world entirely as everyone who thinks about committing one realizes they would be killed as well what he wants is technically justice but this concept is shown to be exceptionally abstract through his rivalry with both L and his police chief father who bring their own ideals to the table while light is a chronic megalomaniac focused on becoming Godlike he assures the normal motivations of pure power for such things instead focuses on that concept of Justice however skewed he resorts to the death note because what he wants a peaceful world is something which has never been offered in most of human history even to the privileged like him now we're getting pretty lengthy here so I'll briefly mention a few others for validity's sake although we'll focus on those three first ones since I've expanded upon them here there's of course Izaya from who seeks chaos for selfish reasons but once what cannot be had in an interesting way he doesn't really care what his life is he simply wants it to last forever as he Witnesses humans in amazement Moriarty from Moriarty the Patriots a retelling of some of the Sherlock Holmes stories once systematic change allowing regular citizens the means to exact revenge on the upper classes and hoping to unite both through his final plan his concept not allowed is equality and vanitas from the case study of vanitas the perfectly horny vampire anime we talked about before a bit of a wild card he's human who hates vampires and so he seeks to cure them all as his revenge deep down he's Desiring love with what little life he has remaining in a Cutthroat world [Music] [Music] now we've said the phrase not allowed many times in regards to these Concepts they base their personal success around and key to understanding why is looking at these situations they give up to chase their personal goals and then how easy those goals should be in comparison bush is a privileged Britain in Japan the best student at the top Academy in assuring for a comfortable life until the end of his days his geost power is the ability to command anyone once through eye contact which only makes this more poignant he could easily have anything material or any life he wanted in the physical sense yet he gives all that up to chase down a success that feels true to his desires and what he wants for those around him makushima is criminally asymptomatic akin to a psychopath someone who can commit crimes without an emotional response into such cannot be detected by Sybil since Justice in this world relies entirely on prevention he has free reign to do anything he pleases his resources are obviously plentiful so he couldn't live out his days with his own free will but he only finds value in when others have it as well light as we covered in depth before is a privileged character with a police chief father fond over by all and sure to live any life he wanted materially he is the picture of success in his very Society but like are others he decided on something which felt personally more rewarding even though that task was one of constant and consistent effort against the world's greatest Minds these Aya Moriarty and benintas are all similarly comfortable in life and physically could have nothing to wish for and again similarly they all expend effort in search of something else to different extents but true for all of them nonetheless so this is where we have to begin to question success these characters all star from a traditionally successful position yet none of them are satisfied with it comparably the goals they lead harsh lives for seem quite mundane there's kindness connection Justice equality these are things which are much more possible than physical success think about how much is required for lavish physical goals compared to personal Ones for kids to attend a fancy Academy a lot of time money and energy needs to be expended from construction to Staffing to advertising and so much more but for people to be kind you simply have to do so that is unless the World Around The Mix being so disadvantageous and that's the key their true desires are much more human and much more simple than the physical success they know if Lelouch was willing to sacrifice his privilege makushima his Advantage liked his comfortability all for such simple things why do they have to fight such harsh battles did they not exchange something of their own for what they desired except a lower life for something less productive why was the resistance so staunch because of the myth of success it's most beneficial for those who attained physical success long ago to shape that as the standard and present that we should all wish for material gain because most of our material gain is actually theirs I'm here to convince you that you too relate to these villains whether it's recognized or not that abstract personal goals found through self-knowledge will always be more satisfying than what we've learned to want from others if you want the best house and the fastest car why is it specifically for those things or because of the satisfaction of showing off the Thrills which contrast against boring life if you want to go out and party why why because of the people you meet to find physical pleasure from them if you want to chase your hobbies why because of the pleasures of art to the people you do them with the care that goes into them doesn't every material goal have a personal reason and as such we could simply find that reason instead if Society allowed it all of these things require money which means a successful life but the things we call success are never actually the end goal what we all truly desire has been pushed to the side and material gain put in its place as if it's the only way to achieve it because certain people have a very very bested interest in doing so and so fittingly one trait most of these kinds of characters also share is their eventual failure belush accomplishes his goal but he dies do it makashima finds connection but only in the man who kills him and his overall plan fails light is killed by ryok who was always in control but just letting the show play out to be entertained we'll return to light later though as the loose and makushima are the most fitting here which dies with a smile on their face they did find personal success but they had to die to do so that's how against these common Pleasures their worlds were kindness and connection the second they received them they had to die there was no way to enjoy it personally aside from those few moments they gave up success for genuine satisfaction and perished for it success is a myth because what's called success offers no satisfaction in what's really success is not allowed you may think it's silly to say all this based around some animated series or even stories at all but I'd direct you to the collective trauma of entire Generations it's not normal for the consistent joke of a worldwide collection appears to be oh God damn I just really want to die ha ha it's born from kids going into debt just to be allowed the privilege of not making enough money to live off of even without considering their debt it's artists mocked as unrealistic and suffering because they want to express themselves and their emotions but that doesn't make someone money and everyone wakes up every day to do something that gives them no pleasure because if they don't we've been told they deserve nothing how is life itself the most basic thing which comes before anything else not a protected right if it was think about how successful we could be how much Kinder we could be to strangers wanting to say hello if we were not taxed for the burden of constantly being late for something we need to do to survive how much more connection would there be if we were not all exhausted constantly how much more accepting would we be if we treated actual success as such and not this bastardization of wealth which we've come to know it as personal Success is Not profitable so it is not allowed [Music] I bring up these characters in relation to all of this because I think they're much more realistic depictions of success than what we actually see because of how they suffer for their goals despite privilege and those advantages they have are important to cover as well because that then speaks to how they achieved what's called success in the first place not just why it's a myth the only reason our villains were able to chase their personal goals is because they started near top we already covered how for each and you may simply say that it is the convenience of the plot that complex plot twists of these Thrillers you need to have characters who can pull anything from anywhere but in reality it's just a depiction of how the world is almost no one is successful down to Will and effort alone and even if they are successful they're usually not satisfied with what we call success for its own sake it's likely cliche at this point but I want to look at one of the supposedly most successful people in the world to show this because so much of how they're presented is a lie so let's go well off the rails and just start talking about Real World Stop instead of anime with everyone's favorite person ever Elon Musk here's what you've probably heard about him he's the great innovator of Tesla and SpaceX who worked his way to all of his goals he started programming from a young age even telling a basic base video game called Blaster to a Computing magazine at the age of 12. as a young adult getting through college he worked odd jobs like on a farmer at a lumber mill as any other college student supporting himself and he dropped out of his master's program after just two days to start his own business coding and creating zip2 and internet city guide a more original concept for the late 90s spending long nights ensuring it was just everything he wanted all of this is true or at least based on truth but he isn't a founder of Tesla a lawsuit simply designated him as one later on yes he did engage in productive Pursuits as a child and worked hard nights towards his goal as a young adult but his success comes from the fact that he was born into prior success his father Errol was part owner of an emerald mine once even bragging we had so much money we couldn't even close our safe musk's self-made business zip2 was funded by his father's money the thing which allowed him to safely drop out of his program and start a business on a whim he wasn't creating it while working full-time to survive he had his survival guaranteed and through that was able to work on it plus zip2 was sold during the.com bubble of the late 90s the period where rapid internet adoption spiked prices for websites through the roof investors looking to get richer quicker spent outrageous sums on domains and services hoping their value would only keep increasing helped Along by legislation which was very pro-investor at the time it was speculation without his father's money and either a few years earlier or a few years later he would have never been able to sell zip2 for 22 million and that sum brings up an interesting point think about how much you could do for 22 million you'd probably live off of that for the rest of your life right well obviously he could have done the same living lavishly on that sum and yet he still kept going it's almost like material possessions and money can never truly satisfy us and constantly chasing and rewarding them as a self-feeding beast that creates billionaire monsters whose large sums are just them trying to make up for their their own deficits and that's true because Elan is a man with many of those deficits once he sold zip2 he was afraid to stick his fingers into a lot of Pies including space travel Earthly Transportation neuro technology and even more but in the space industry he was seen as a novice anytime his money provided him in with other companies his big boring company projects have been canceled and are widely mocked as essentially a worse more efficient more classist version of rare lines and the neuralink researchers were reportedly upset with musk being listed as the sole author of a 29 paper containing their research very heavily supporting the idea that musk himself isn't really the genius engineer he purports to be but instead co-ops the work of people he hires he's been ousted as the CEO of his own companies multiple times SpaceX almost went bankrupt after a lot of failures because one success netted them a massive NASA contract and of course there's Twitter the entire situation where he lost more money in a shorter time than anyone else after months of reneging on his word and and doubling back to have to be sued to buy a company because of his fortune he's able to sink ridiculous sums of money into any stupid idea or reinvent worse versions to already solve problems and whether it succeeds or not doesn't actually matter what we see is a man who at points in his life has worked hard and made some Maneuvers to place himself in a good position but it was hardly possible because of his father's influence and was disconnected by his own sums gained through the work being in the right place at the right time to succeed his efforts were able to be rewarded due to parental success and luck something most people will never experience to these same amount even if they give the same amount effort we can see something similar with all of the top 10 wealthiest individuals Bernard arnald owner of lvmh which is MOA Tennessee Louis Vuitton which I'm sorry I've probably butchered but it is a luxury conglomerate now he graduated with an engineering degree and worked as one for some time at his father's company which he was able to take over because of that lineage Jeff bezos's story has told us him being the child of a 17 year old mother who still needed to finish high school and he worked at McDonald's to support himself while he earned a 4.2 GPA in college eventually leaving the jobs he was offered from all that hard work to start Amazon but do they mention how Amazon started with a 300 000 investment from his parents after he worked at a hedge fund Bill Gates was a small first-age kid bullied for that fact and so he turned his time into productive Pursuits like programming and he eventually scored 1590 out of 1600 on his SATs clearly intelligent however he dropped out of college to go on his own way and start a Computing business a move that clearly paid off but quite the risky one right it was possible because his parents said they'd support him if he dropped out which allowed him to actively lie to companies about software he developed as he would only start developing it once they expressed an interest in it meaning none of his work went to waste Oren Buffett had a congressman father Larry Ellison was not from a rich family and put in his due but got the luck of the draw to pay off that work with a government contract Larry Page had a supportive wealthy family to allow on the time and energy to Tinker Steve Ballmer was just a friend of Bill Gates who brought him on Carlos Slim was purchasing stocks at the age of 12 after his father gave him a head start on those matters these are the top 10 richest individuals in the world it's not that they never worked hard but it's just that they were able to take risks and their work from those risks was able to be seen and rewarded in a way most never will it's much easier to Crunch out a program you were supposed to already have done when you're not working full-time during the day and your parents will support you going back to school anytime if you fail it's easier to develop a website for long hours when it's not your money being used to do so for every Tech startup millionaire celebrated 100 single parents and first generation students and prosperous former refugees should be celebrated even harder the key is not the hard work needed to succeed as so many of us put in these same kind of efforts and are never rewarded but it is rather the ability to afford failure if you're from a poor or even working-class family living paycheck to paycheck dropping out of college to chase your dreams is a risk that could land you in debt for the rest of your life and so you continue down the path living your job spur of the moment isn't an option when you need every single paycheck just to stay float and who has time to code a website with hungry children and no support but when your parents even if they're gradually could pay off your debts you're afraid to do so when you can always go back to the garage you're afraid to do so many of these wealthy individuals actually have more failures under their belt than you and me because they have the time energy and resources to fail and still be okay there's no such thing as success there's only the luck to be able to fame we can see this on a lower level too that success still comes down to the whims of Prior successes of others hard work is not really about creating success but putting yourself in the space that gives you the greatest portion of luck to be seen every Talent that's ever been discovered was in the right place for someone influential to recognize their abilities or kept pushing and pushing and pushing to different people in that position until one of them decided to give them the time of day YouTubers succeed in fail based on the win Zone algorithm you can play to but can't predict enough to guarantee anything and anyone who says they can already has the resources to test how to and it was just guesswork most people I know with a good job got it through connections and I've seen plenty of people who didn't work a day in college have high paying jobs now what if you graduated into a recession or in the wrong place for your field at the wrong time or a sick family member needed you right then and so your degree becomes out of date so much of life is guesswork that can't be helped and this all has another level to it when we look at what life is like for those who do manage to claw success with hard work alone when we see good jobs for people like that it usually just means and exceptionally draining an overwhelming experience that you need to survive sure you'll be making more money but can you even enjoy it with no free time or when you have it no energy to utilize it maybe you trade your body now through physical labor for a better future but will that future be worthwhile if you're too exhausted and sometimes even worse to partake in it what about people who started there even these successes we're talking about are only if you fit the mold which allows such things what about people who can't function well in traditional workspaces what about people with chronic pain or illness what about every marginalized person who has to work somewhere lower paying just to be accepted and get a job in the first place the further and further you get from the mold the less and less lock one has with success the simple idea of success isn't even possible for some foreign [Music] you know why we love villains and why you should too because they are a little slice of what this world has never offered they are the people who will throw false success to the wind to chase a personal version they're the ones who give us hope because they mean that some author somewhere feels the same as us and the love of their work means we are not alone with our peers why do many of us want a villain Arc is it because we realize we don't fit the mold and so we can never be successful or that even if we do what it offers is just a bastardized image of value that only appeals to the wicked I have to return to the idea of it never being enough for the rich even with massive amounts of wealth enough to feed the world over and still be comfortable they still push for more they still abuse workers they still Crush unions they still refuse to pay taxes they're still awful broken people desperately trying to feel whole through wealth even the so-called good ones who give large sums to charity well maybe the reason we need charity in the first place is because they they took all the money if they just let it go where it should have in the first place they would need to give it away they're idiots just like us making awful decisions and never being satisfied because money is not satisfaction it is not success and I hope they all feel tortured in the mental prisons which came to be through the false vision of success they push for their own world to gain this is why I included Light Yagami because he has the workings of an understandable character someone unsatisfied with the world around him in a common position he stares out of the classroom window like any protagonist we love and then he finds the means to provoke change and he works his ass off to see it through looking at a notebook full of names is the perfect way to show how much he works but he grows into a complete Maniac who tosses his ideals to the side the second it's convenient he's smart on paper but his Empire Falls due to a thumbnail imprint on a piece of paper his Reliance on others to do his bidding and his gloating about himself light could have stopped at any point and been fine he had all the resources all the love all the power or he even simply could have begun in a way which didn't make it obvious the killings were related to one person but he was the most selfish of all of our examples and his goal by abusing his own positive ideal for gain he lost the ability to be saved by it like every CEO who wants to put in long nights and now believes they're more worthy than everyone else loses any right to claim their hard work they found the means to be partially successful to be personally satisfied like light able to have anything and everything they could have dreamed and it wasn't enough and we have to blame for the system for this too for teaching them that nothing is ever enough when it's not enough it becomes clear that either the ideal was never the real goal or that the money in power corrupt all and thus the hoarding of both must be disallowed hard work alone isn't good you can work hard towards anything it must be done in service of something valuable independent of the work on Shogun makashima's end we find an exploration of this he performs horrible actions in service of his goal working hard towards something which has the potential to be good but is not inherently so we discussed at length before the distinction between Free Will and freedom so the short version is we give up the potential to do everything free will for the guarantee of most things freedom Free Will contains many things which are not inherently positive like theft or murder however where shogomakojima is positive is in pushing back another concept just like this advancement this is something else I focused on quite heavily recently so I'll be brief but moving forward for its own sake isn't good or bad think about getting new equipment at work that makes your job more efficient but then that just means you simply have to do more in the same shift because of this there is a motivation behind advancement which drives it and that is what determines right or wrong in this example the motivation is the owner's Wallet not making your job less stressful or less taxing on your body makashima admits that after the fall of Sybil he has no idea what will happen he doesn't know if Society will advance or aggress he just knows Free Will would be forced to return after all should he be seeking out advancement blind progress is what allowed his world to be taken over by a false god what imprisoned thousands and stole from Millions what led him to being so alone by accepting the return to the Past may be the best option he recognizes that advancement in itself is not a goal and it shouldn't be for us either blind progress is part of the machine which kills us and our surroundings we spend so many resources on things like developing new phones each year for minimal benefit because only new is good and then we buy them each year because settling for an old model isn't really successful we've been training to only push forward when we graduate school we move on to more school that we then have to pay for so we go into debt so then we have to get a good job to pay off that debt and we have to get a house to have value in retirement because we're always paying off the debt so then we have to save until we are retired to even be able to do so and there's always the next advancement which keeps us in the rat race success is never actually achieved this is part of the myth I think we should be more like these villains more like makashima because recognizing this is the first step to killing the myth we shouldn't adopt his methods but rather the reasoning behind them why have we pushed forward it should we continue to keep doing so and there's the loosh aside to our lesson as well there's a lot of debate about who's smarter between him and light and you know what it's the loose for the simple fact that Lucia's goal occurs based on the exact principle that lights loses to where the latter truly gives into that corrupting force of power the former place to it the Lucia's final plan is to become the evil emperor in place of his father and draw the hate of the world to an even more extreme degree by manipulating even the higher classes and holding the globe hostage under the threat of the most destructive weapons ever known to mankind and then allowing himself to be killed by the symbol of hope he once was he is an overt parody of success and power someone abusing it to present its flaws clearly and attach a high and understandable level it's undeniable even to others who are successful the world he creates is one United against success or at least The Spoils of it which will attain peace through an open discussion of how to prevent such a state ever again how to kill success the same way that we are made to keep progressing power will always do the same success cannot be gained it can only be passed from one to another a gift more so than a reward even Lelouch took it from his father at the end of the day without the Head Start he would have just been another forgotten name the concept will do nothing but braid itself from itself a dangerous action of growth in a limited space which chokes out all other life the rich will get richer and in times of great trouble The Divide between us and them will grow exactly what we saw happen in a period of mass death which will leave its scars on entire Generations the Lucius plan is not just some Thriller nonsense it is a parody of the exact nature of success it is abusing abuse for something positive but is this something we can expect there are good people among the successful but however well their intent would anyone be inclined to give up their advantage for another when they have their children and their families after them who they justifiably once succeed as well can we ever expect them to pass the Baton elsewhere even me saying all these words I know that if I was ever Rich one day I'd support my friends too because they're the people I love the people I would want to succeed as well the most unrealistic part of the lucious story is that he's someone too kind for this world even with all of his evil and then there's the elephant in the room these characters the ones who chase personal success they all die whenever their goals or motivations and if you're watching this still you probably know how true that is for our world creative Souls kind people original beings they all suffer in our world as well those working jobs to help their communities are paid less artists are only hired outside of their fields people seeking to carve their own path only face resistance this is all systematic does art really contribute less to society to Warrant Less jobs and lower pay or is it just that art focuses Less on blind advancement and is rather a direct challenge to established Concepts and so it's punished and then we have accepted that punishment as normal I said these villains are more realistic depictions of success than all real world ones and that includes their suffering I'm not one for unwarranted optimism if we become the villains chasing personal success we will suffer I will take myself as proof of that we will be punished and mocked and scolded but in all of these stories we witness only one such villain we see a single Force struggling against overwhelming might of human history's mistakes what if they were all together I think this would even temper these selfish aspects because all of their abstract goals would fight against the same physical foe they could each fight for themselves and do a service to the others instead of having to be perfect they could simply be they wouldn't need to offer up their entire beings to succeed because they'd be able to step down for a moment and recover when needed and the fight would continue it should be clear I'm implying this is our path as villains alone we will suffer but maybe as villains together we could succeed I've been dancing around the idea for a long time and a fear of being laughed off as some cringy idiot on the internet but who really cares I'm here as you're a villain and I want you to join me I take all of this together [Music] this is where this video was supposed to end but the night before it's going out I went back and added in those depressing quotes between sections because those are why I made this video a topic I've really genuinely been struggling with for months success being a myth alone in a vacuum means nothing but the concepts we hold ourselves to and are forced to hold ourselves to by Society have large effects on our mental health which influences our physical health and well-being and the course of our entire lives success is the driving factor of my life right now I work a quite structured 70 hours a week between day work needed for survival and my passion here with the channel work eats up 6 a.m to 4 30 p.m when travel times included because the eight hour work day is a lie preparation for meals and general responsibilities are at least another hour a night leaving four and a half hours if I sleep a full eight with one hour free time which I spend with family I often go over until 11 to get in four hours of YouTube work taking a bit to fall asleep so that usually averages to six hours of sleep a night this is Monday through Thursday Friday is a work day and a night off of stupid card games and Saturday and Sunday are both eight hour runs of YouTube work with the nights off but I usually end up using Sunday anyway because I'm just sitting at home and this is what I want to do I know some people will comment about burnout under this video but this is not burnout from doing the creative things it's pronounced from all the other things like forces me to do I've been trained to be in a mode of constant production by the concept of success because it meshes with our harsh world's treatment of art to say that creative Pursuits are not worthy of success saved the most rare cases if I want success which I need to live off my passions then I have to destroy myself for it my mental state is tied to the numbers of this channel which I've tried to stop checking recently because when they go down which they have recently the amount of time I have to keep pulling 70 hour weeks goes up a couple months ago the timeline was two years with the recent dips it's looking more like five until it can maybe support me that's why I haven't celebrated Milestones yet since we started really growing the bits of success that I've seen are absolutely amazing they're more than I could have ever asked for and I'm lucky to have even what I do right now I should say thank you more than I do for letting me do this to such a wide audience rather than being trapped in my own head with these thoughts like I always was but no spike in the channel has been enough to rid me of a state of complete overwork as of yet it's hard to celebrate Milestones when the social factors of our world say that none of them are enough success yet and in chasing this concept which I must do to survive in a way I found valuable I'm giving up a lot of other things I haven't played a video game in months I used to love going through old Pokemon games with one type but I haven't had time to in so long I haven't enjoyed media not for the channel except on rare occasions when good friends basically force me to I'd speak to my longest friend sparingly each week and beating anyone new is stressful because I don't have the time to maintain the relationship I took one weekend off and I've been stressed catching up ever since I go right from working to rushing to get ready for any time out and then I wake up early the next day to start again when I do have any free time this is because our world created success said art was not only successful and then tied survival to the concept it just made including in my country the literal right to live being tied to it due to non-universal health care how is living not right yeah I could choose to work Less in shoe off day work for something part-time but a medical emergency would bankrupt me or the cost of Health Care with less income would do the same the only success I am supposed to achieve is the basic kind the simple home the decent car and the family I maybe pass some of it on to to do the same but I don't find Value in those things I don't find Value in material Goods because I don't fit that mold My Success is Not this world's and I cannot apologize for being who I am in a way that harms no one else and in a way that I cannot help we could easily let people find personal success and survive but we choose not to we make people take a risk gun for success and probably maybe die or be so far behind that you never even reach the basic level of success or just accept it and survive I've tried to split the difference sacrificing most of the things that make daily life bearable to do both at once because that's the kind of person I am it's my fault at the end of the day I could always stop and after all I'm the weird one who doesn't fit the mold but I can't see myself waking up every day to keep destroying the planet by making machines for injecting bowling companies just to make enough to survive call it corny but it kills my soul doing that every day and having to just ignore it to push through and that's the kind of jobs that fit with my degree and provide me with a necessary wage to build a life that in going back to school isn't an option people will say that but that's another fifty thousand dollar piece of paper and the success that a fifty thousand dollar piece of paper already got me was just the chance to kill the planet quicker I'm not built to enjoy that I'm not built for success it's dangerous because it's meaningless but we make it mean something I should be happy with what I have I should be ecstatic 50 000 people who want to hear what I have to say that's incomprehensible to me it's 50 000 people that's that's the stadium I drive past every morning to get to work full of people for me how is that not successful enough the trick of success is to make us feel greedy to make us feel like our passions are not worthy yes I do just talk about anime on the internet but I can still get comment saying good things I can still get comments saying I helped someone to be a better person through introspection or that I got them through a rough night with a either entertainment or just some words of wisdom that I help the relationships do what I taught even that I changed their lives with what I said touched so many people's lives and I don't even have the time to hold a basic conversation with them right now kills me every single day I've been working seven years to get even just to that point longer and more dedicated than college or any career I've ever had it's been more success than I could ever ask for if I could live off of it I wouldn't care how slow growth was as long as I stayed afloat but this world doesn't care either way because those feelings I assist in aren't making someone else all the money they're only making someone else some of the money and then I have to look at that and tell myself I'm horrible for not being happy with what I have I have to feel awful for starting every new interaction with I'm sorry I'm very busy watching my connections wither and die while new ones hardly start I had to feel selfish wanting to explore myself at the same time as chasing a passion I have to feel selfish for Desiring love when I also have goals I have to wake up and look in the mirror and say God you're such a selfish stupid [ __ ] be happy with it when you have because some people will never even have this but I am happy with it is this the world around it isn't just that it hurts me it hurts me enough that in the times of my greatest achievements I've hit my lowest moments the night we hit 50k I celebrated by editing until I only slept five hours which I'm doing again the night before you see this video all those quotes you saw from the past six months just like you my notes app is my darkest corner My Den of bastardized success and I guess I don't really have much to say past that this isn't some Grand message passed with the main part of the video said this is just a proof of concept this is just my pain this is what successful creativity looks like for a perfectly average situation in anything but average person this is what success looks like when you don't have the Boost that rich [ __ ] have I'm not asking for personal sympathy I know plenty of people in worse situations than me and even if their pain doesn't invalidate mine I could always at least live the kind of Life they don't even have the chance to I could always at least have the myth of success that all important American Nightmare so don't take any time feeling bad for me if you must take time for me take it by engaging with my work to celebrate what success should be or indulge in the works of your friends and share them around too even if it's just in personal circles tell others about your hobbies and listen to theirs so success of Happiness lives on hug your friends and your family your social successes play a game you love or read a story that changes you go for a walk somewhere in Daydream midday sleep in late or wake up early and run party hard and meet someone new or stay in and talk with someone old explore everything from nature to connection to romance and pleasure sing and dance to music or play it yourself live as you want to live because that is what success really should be and one day we'll make sure this world knows it as such I guess we end it once again on that all-important villainous note to tie this back together as one only vaguely cohesive piece of media on the internet on the channel That is the Mad ramblings of whoever the hell I am

Channel: ProfessorViral

Views: 34,227

Keywords: anime, manga, success, elon musk, lelouch, code geass, death note, light, makishima, psycho pass

Id: 7420nAtln40

Length: 49min 4sec (2944 seconds)

Published: Thu Mar 09 2023