Ever since I started this work, my meditations have been really beautiful but extremely Toiled extremely difficult extremely physically painful and an emotionally challenging and very emotionally, challenging a lot of emotion So i'm a little taken aback because I wasn't expecting it but so you're in the unknown surrender to love Thank you so I started the healing process in Tarragona actually although I went to Tarragona with very material Objectives, which didn't come through so when I went back home I just Continued working on spooning energy, from the bottom centers up now listen Find the truth and that simple sentence because she worked on Something material okay, now remember the divine is a great parent, okay So she goes to the event in Tarragona and Her things that she wanted didn't materialize in a few weeks Number one were you still doing the work Continuously now here's the astute mind she says and say it's not working she's saying Something, about me has to change so I'm gonna continue doing the work and now There's a little more passion To, begin to pull that energy from those lower centers up into her brain, because she went to Tarragona and she understands Why, she's doing it and what she's doing so then the how gets easier so she's not finding A flaw in anything outside of her she's looking to see, what i need, about change about Myself for my energy to produce a result so the divine holds back a little bit and what happens next? well she moves closer to it so i i it's a little difficult to talk about the history because I think everybody has a history and i spent 30 years in Therapy and all kinds of things trying to heal, my trauma which was? Severe sexual trauma that started at the age of four and multiple rapes whenever I thought i had gotten over it and Felt that I had reached, my objective when i finally settled into a very loving and healing relationship. In Tarragona Despite on top of having all the physical symptoms that everybody, had I became incontinent for a month and a half too much information but it was shocking to me I Was having to wear diapers and I knew that something, was starting to work in here so i continued focusing on this now, i want to stop Because this is way too good for me You know I've watched this, woman quite a bit now Four-year-old child five-year-old. Child six-year-old. Child seven-year-old child, no analytical filter Brainwaves are still in theta and alpha the door between the conscious mind and the subconscious mind is wide open So a trauma Then, is stored in the body in the implicit systems and guess what center that trauma, was stored in First center. Are you with me still? so then as she stops trying to protect, that area by clamping down She's losing the normal tonus of how she functions, and she's got a relearn it you understand? Go, ahead. Thank you for explaining that so getting here was really ridiculous I Made up all kinds of excuses to not come But I decided to use the challenge for me to learn that I was going to create not through matter But through, wave so I did a lot of meditations a week leading up to here and i kept hearing your voice you're coming I got here and I just said i'm going on a date and I don't want anything I just want you to, do with, me whatever it is That you need to do to, make me happy To, make, me want to live because despite a very exciting, life, privileged to travel i can, do whatever. I have battled will not battled i've just had to deal with this need to leave and That is a thought that has accompanied, me since i was? 17 when I actually took action and Was sent back, by a very mean voice on the other side So you understand what she's saying? She tried to take her life So I just decided to work through all the aspects of myself that I considered to be horrible aspects, and You know I needed approval Maybe i don't know, why I needed the approval but that, was something that kept coming up in Tarragona and here and in amsterdam And then two nights, ago I had a Challenge with one of the dearest people To, me that is usually in my home environment and that I actually brought here so my challenge was here and all my Anger is all the frustrations all the aahaah from however long came up and we both used the opportunity to work through it yesterday during the meditation I Decided again to surrender and to not let, that energy that comes through me Every time that i'm meditating take, over and I just held it in and at one point I Experienced a flash of light and I just saw the word guilt Flush out of my lower centers and i told, my team leader nuke that i'm healed And that was all i wanted i didn't know, what it meant is it but? You know, what everything? That has happened to me is gone and perhaps now I can start loving myself as a human being an intact Human being So in this morning's meditation on the beach I kept walking towards the future of myself Really really, whole and really happy and and you know, what? She, went for it a hundred percent i watched her 100% she went after it and I came, back in this room once again Certain that I would have a manifestation Actually able to put my attention on the other side Above the speed of light and just really opened my heart I had a Beautiful meditation before lunch and I felt the energy just move from My first to my fourth to my sixth for my first to my fourth to my sixth to my first to my fourth to my Sixth and it was just so beautiful You know him what was happening to your body because? Your, body, was moving yes and it was? not voluntary no muscles were being used like in the program, her body was Moving with energy over and over again And she would get afraid of it it would stop right in her third center and she locked that down and then her back would Arch win her back arts the energy Would move right into her chest and then she'd feel, this incredible Love, and then she'd surrender that love and boom and shoot right up into her head and then she would be an ecstasy Then here it went again So many people in this audience with their conscious mind Really, want to move into a new life Into a new future. and yet the traumas the childhood disappointments the moment you feel shame the moment you feel guilt at the moment you feel belittled or unworthy Because there's very little filters at that point it's stores itself And what's called the implicit memory, system it's in the body The brain the conscious mind can't do it alone it has to get the body involved in order to change Are you with, me still? Come on. So then energy or emotions stores in the body in certain patterns patterns of information that's been contracted gravitationally organized light into matter are you with me still? and it's frozen, and The person is doing everything they can to get to that future and yet There's some part of them that They, may not even be conscious of that keeps them in the past are you with me still? now here's my question if this beautiful lady decided to not show up and Think of a thousand excuses not to be here and not listen to her inner voice or inner knowing Is it possible then she would have never released, that energy that, was stored in her body so by Overcoming all the conditions in the environment all the challenges all the flights all the job stuff and her Persisting that she wanted to be here in the midst of all that chaos Causes her to be more worthy to Participate as she wants to be here yes or no and the initiation of making it here the divine lives closer because What is her intention? Have a love affair with the Divine so the Divine says your, coming i'll come, let's see what you got Are you with me still? now child is Sexually abused or sexually molested it's very confusing For a child, because they start to confuse love with all kinds of wrong things Are you with me still? and They, don't understand, why, they're doing it and that confusion, also is a very disorganized energy as, well and Then when a child starts to grow. And starts to learn and starts to listen and starts to go to school and go to church And all of a sudden sex becomes a bad thing or She begins her to learn about sex and all of a sudden she feels this overwhelming guilt Like she may have done something wrong And then every time the thought comes up that's around Sex she contracts more energy in her body. Are you with me still? and her body is reliving the past over and over again chemically energetically emotionally Genetically it's it's stored in that system are you With me still? and then you go through life in you loosen up and you try to figure it out and then you know You all of a sudden you realize the feelings that you have that you, want to change just never go away, and No, person no drug, no sports car in a wardrobe no facelift, no nothing is gonna change it no gambling You know no addiction is gonna make it go away and this is the moment the soul Begins to ask the same question. Is their more? so I Watched her move energy the first night that that energy, awakened in her I Watched her walk on the beach I watched her do the meditations yesterday she's all in. She's not, she's not going half-speed, she's like I I just want to be happy again and all of a sudden you know Happiness has nothing to do with material things and Now the divine moves a little closer and she'll feel, less lack, less separation When that energy begins to baptize her and you tell, me that, was love was it not gorgeous it was a it was? Ecstasy love it was divine you know. How, use it was divine. It is divine. It is divine. Now guilt is Stored in the second center shame, is stored in the second centers suffering Victimization unworthiness it's stored in this centers there's there's no safety for it to move There's no safety it's lost its safety and the energy stored in there She gives it everything she has Pulling that energy up pulling that energy up pulling that energy up and she lays down and she surrenders and she just opens up and asks, and All of a sudden that energy starts to move right out of those centers right up into her heart her heart Begins to swell it's a tremendous feeling of love and then you know You can, think about it and lose it or you can surrender even more and If you just let your body relax into it and you surrender even more it moves into your brain and then all of a sudden You start releasing those pineal metabolites and you start getting mystical and Everything becomes mystical and everything becomes wonderful and you're an awe of everything in some veil or illusion that you've conditioned yourself to perceive reality with, is removed and you see a little bit more the way reality is Are you with me still? like a child again. I didn't mean to interrupt you you know you you you i think a lot of people have been moved, by the description of your relationship with your mother and I, also didn't have a relationship with, my mother i come from a lineage of the same story, so, we didn't know Until she passed, away that she was bipolar so couldn't look, after me When I first felt this love it almost cracked me open i remember thinking, i will die in this moment and i don't care. I Love this as my heart blew to such proportions and now I'm consciously Aware because I've, I understood it better this time when you said put your attention, put your attention There so I keep going there and I keep saying it's only a thought. Go back in the heart and there's a pulsing That goes right through the back That is continuous. And that's so reassuring to me. And it's an experience yes or No?, yes and that experience produces an emotion because it's a mystical experience yes or no? and if you, allow that refractory period to just run for hours or days who knows the inner experience could change your mood And if you decide to keep your attention on it and keep focusing on that emotion instead of focusing on guilt You're just focusing on love And the more you focus on it the more it expands and it turns into temperament and they say What's up with her i don't know she went to some retreat she took, some drug or something she's been happy ever since Really, loving - now it's a temperament, hey, keep that going for years on end that becomes a personality trait, oh it's just how, she is And we could say then she's transformed from her past self into her future self Yes or no? If she had the subconscious belief In a fear-based mentality That if her body moved out of control or she saw somebody's body moving out of control She would think that they were possessed by the devil Think, about this that may not be a conscious belief If that happened then spirits having its Way with her body and she contracts from that she's going to limit the experience as, well yes or no? come on But if she is aware that energy starting to move in her body And she's not gonna try to make anything happen, she's not gonna force it she's all she's gonna do is Invite it in and relax into it and surrender to it a little bit more and it grows and Then her body says, oh that's a lot Starts shaking i mean energy's trying to find a, way? Trying to find some way to move through those frozen patterns Then her body twists over on the side and boom there she goes on the back and she relaxed and here it comes again You know abdomen is going in and out, that's all that sexual guilt, and frustrations starting to quake it's breaking down and she surrenders to it a little bit more not afraid of it She's thinking anything unknown is good she could stop it any time she wants to but why would she want to if she's committed to the experience. Are you with me still? The moment you feel, fear you contract, back in the particle. Change your brainwaves and you disconnect and then you say, oh, my, God something, bad happened to me. I Lost controller i didn't know, what it was and then you got to work on having the same experience again You know what i mean? I've done that enough times and So when she surrenders to it a little bit more and she lets her body relax into it that energy is Literally, moving up the spine and it's turning in to different energy as it moves It's turning into power it's powerful energy, is moving into her into her third center and it's building And she's, she's working with letting go of control While this center is activated, which is the center of control. Are you with me? Come on. Because a little bit, makes its, way up and she feels that and then all of a sudden She relaxes, and when she arches her back and relaxes, it moves into her chest and now she really is feeling that energy And she's surrendering to it and her body's doing, what it does involuntarily and it's finding a way. Are you with me? and I called, some of the team leaders over I said, She's letting go of control watch this. And her back arched. Her back arched her back arch and she was feeling and all of a sudden Boom! That fourth center opened she fell on her back and that energy went right up into her brain and there there she went Now that energy? That was stored in their body in her body is no longer in her body you understand? No, talk therapy no psychotherapy That's going to change that with the conscious mind you see the body, had to have permission enough To liberate itself from the past and she just worked with it and kept dragging it into the future you should've seen her on the beach the beach today She, was she was going? I looked at Paula and i said she's stepping into her future watch out She was she was moving she was in it and her body just caught up sooner or later Now, here's the next question? With that incoherent energy that's taking place in the second center just curious, now i'm going out on a limb Could that incoherent energy create An ovarian tumor? a Colon cancer? hmm can it create diverticulitis? Could it create an ovarian cyst Now, what i meant was if that energy didn't move out of that center. You understand? That incoherent energy could create cells and tissues and organs to function out of Ease or out of balance, disease or imbalanced. Does that make sense? That's just energy now that's no longer being distributed coherently to different parts of the body and the body's not getting information, energy and begins to lower its frequency and All disease is lowering of frequency and those cells no longer work incoherent exchange of light and information Are you with me still? Come on. So do you think that blessing her energy centers The last two days, two days before we walked on the beach today, do you think by opening Those channels consciously that she's inviting that energy to go, which direction from whence it came right back into the brain and There's a reorganization a transformation of matter as a result of the movement of energy How many people understand? and she will say something like Yeah, and I feel it kind of matter coming out of my hands now like out of my fingertips the body's processing a greater frequency and it's moving from here all the way up and Information now is coming out of the hands in the form of light.
