When former president Donald Trump tweets
about your affair more than ten times, there is almost no way to avoid the judgment that
comes with what you've done. There was a time when she was labeled "The
most hated actress in Hollywood" because of Kristen Stewart's very public breakup with
her ex Robert Pattinson. From betraying the love of her life to self-sabotaging
herself and her career, the actress finally opened up about that dark time in her life
and the crippling anxiety she's had to battle since she was a young girl. We've always got the juiciest scoops for you,
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the latest celebrity stories. When the news of Kristen's break-up with Robert
Pattinson made headlines in 2012, for a moment, the whole world stopped. What made it worse was the reason why the
couple split. The actress had been caught cheating on her
then-boyfriend with director Rupert Sanders, and when the photographs surfaced of the two
canoodling together in a car, Twilight fans were enraged. Kristen was branded a scarlet woman, and it
seemed like there was no coming back. In fact, it was one of the biggest scandals
of that year. Even former President Donald Trump had an
opinion about the affair and tweeted, "Robert Pattinson should not take back Kristen Stewart. She cheated on him like a dog & will do it
again — just watch. He can do much better!" Kristen's reputation was dragged through the
mud. With the upcoming release of the final installment
of the Twilight films, the affair outraged fans. Robert and Kristen were supposed to be the
real-life Bella and Edward. How were fans supposed to watch the final
movie without thinking about the fact that Kristen had cheated on the man she loved? During all this time, no one took a moment
to think about how the actress must have been feeling back then. Everyone was concerned about Rob, who was
undoubtedly heartbroken by the affair and fans felt terrible for him. But what about Kristen? What had driven her to betray him in a way
that was so shocking and public? With the scarlet letter practically stamped
onto her forehead by the public, it seemed like no one was even willing to hear what
she had to say. Let's not forget that Sanders was married
with children and he had also betrayed his wife, Liberty Ross. He made a public apology, stating, "I am utterly
distraught about the pain I have caused my family. My beautiful wife and heavenly children are
all I have in this world. I love them with all my heart. I am praying that we can get through this
together." At the time, Sanders was directing 'Snow White
And The Huntsman, ' which is how he and Kristen had met. His wife, Liberty, was also featured in the
film in the role of Stewart's mother, Queen Eleanor. So fans can only imagine how furious Liberty
must have felt when she found out that her husband had an affair with a fellow cast member
who was also 19 years his junior. Tensions were high amongst everyone; both
the final Twilight installment and Snow White And The Huntsman were due to release and with
the affair between Stewart and Sanders plastered all over the tabloids, there was no dodging
the bullet of judgment and assumptions. Despite Sanders being a married man, it seemed
like all the anger was directed at Kristen since her relationship with Rob had been made
a public spectacle because of the Twilight films. "People wanted me and Rob to be together so
badly that our relationship was made into a product. It wasn't real life anymore. And that was gross to me." Kristen later admitted. When rumors had started to circulate that
perhaps her relationship with Pattinson had all been a publicity stunt, she firmly shut
them down. Rob had been Kristen's first real love, and
their chemistry had been instant from the first moment they met during a test reading
for the first Twilight film. "There was nothing I could do," she admitted,
and fell head over heels in love with him and even confessed that if Rob had proposed
to her, she would have said yes. "Yeah, I mean, like, I was super in love with
my high-school boyfriend. Super, super f---ing in love with him. But me and Rob were, like, a little older,
and it was just like, 'gu-gung.'" They had been together while filming all five
parts of the saga but did their best to keep their relationship as private as they could
despite the massive publicity they were both receiving during that time. She confessed that even when they walked down
the street together, they couldn't even hold hands because they didn't want to give the
public any information about their romance. So much of their lives had become a public
spectacle, and they wanted to try and keep something that they could still call their
own. "When me and Rob were together, we did not
have an example to go by. So much was taken from us that, in trying
to control one aspect, we were just like, 'No, we will never talk about it. Never. Because it's ours.'" After news of the affair broke out, Kristen
was spotted leaving Rob's apartment with some of her things and fans assumed they had called
it quits. She publicly apologized to him, which was
the first time she had confirmed their relationship to the media. The pair briefly got back together, but unfortunately,
it seemed that they couldn't get past Kristen's betrayal and permanently split in 2013. Sanders and his wife also subsequently divorced
following the scandal. Kristen Stewart has never been just your average
Hollywood starlet. She grew up with parents in the film industry,
and her interest in acting was sparked at a very young age. However, her roles in films weren't the typical
characters that other girls her age were performing. Kristen took on the roles of tomboys, complex
teenagers going through a dark time, and they were predominantly in dramatic movies. She didn't act as the preppy teenage girl
in high school, who was smiling and trendy, she was often the outcast and it's pretty
much been the same thing in real life. "I think I've grown out of this, but I used
to be really frustrated that because I didn't leap willingly into being at the center of
a certain amount of attention, that it seemed like I was an asshole," The actress was often criticized for not smiling
in photos on the red carpet, and was encouraged to be more 'feminine and 'girly.' But, Stewart never let the critics' opinions
get to her. At the premiere of her breakout film, "Panic
Room" with Jodie Foster, Kristen was just 11 years old. She was so nervous that a photographer asked
her to calm down. "What you don't understand," she told him,
"is that I actually can't open my hands." Kristen admitted to having such crippling
anxiety that it was affecting every aspect of her life. When it came to the affair with Sanders, she
never felt like she could tell her side of the story because she didn't want to seem
like an attention seeker and make excuses for what had happened. It wasn't until years later that she chose
to share HER story. "I lit my universe on fire, and I watched
it burn. Speaking very candidly, it was a really traumatic
period in my early 20s that kick-started something in me that was a bit more feral. I was constantly anxious … If I didn't know
how something was going to turn out, I would make myself ill, or just be locked up or inhibited
in a way that was really debilitating". Perhaps all the pressure from being in the
Twilight films, which quickly became one of the world's most popular movies of all time,
put the actress in a position where she felt like she had no control over her life. She admitted that during that time, she was
always being told what to do, what to say, how to behave and on top of it all she couldn't
have a normal relationship with the man that she loved because they were constantly followed
by paparazzi and written about in the media. There's no way we can understand how Kristen
must have felt during that time in her life. Turning herself into a person who betrayed
the one she loved was the ultimate form of self-sabotage. And instead of being asked how she felt, Stewart
was immediately bashed and shamed by the public. "We lived in a different time then, you know
what I mean? I feel like the slut-shaming that went down
was so absurd," After the backlash and hate that was thrown
at her from all directions, the actress decided to show Hollywood the proverbial finger, and
she was no longer going to mold herself into the cookie-cutter shape that the world was
expecting her to be. She decided to channel her energy into more
independent films rather than big blockbuster studio films. She wanted to focus her craft and talent as
an actress on films that were more out of the box and didn't want to be weighed down
by the pressures of highly publicized movies. 'I want so badly to expose myself. I want to be understood, and I want to be
seen, and I want to do that in the rawest, purest, most naked way that I can.' Stewart went on to have relationships with
a few women like Alicia Cargile for two years, which marked the first time that the actress
chose to open up about her sexuality. Rather than put herself in a box and define
herself, she believes herself to be more fluid when it comes to the people that she dates
and even though she's dated women, she's still attracted to men. Right now, Stewart is in a relationship with
screenwriter Dylan Meyer, and they seem completely besotted with one another. She finally feels like she can be open about
her date and hold hands in public with the one she loves without judgment. She even feels like Dylan could be the one. The actress has put the Twilight films along
with the affair behind her. She finally feels like she has control over
her own life, her own image, and she can be unapologetically herself. She's become far more outspoken in interviews
and showing the world the side of her personality that they've never seen before.
