Knowing Who I Am

today um you know i think we're sort of still progressing adding to what we've been talking about several weeks ago we talked about uh you know the christ consciousness then we went into consciousness then we went into you know just like continuing to build on this idea what is consciousness and today i want to talk about knowing who i am or knowing what i am or any wording along those lines in other words the the i am presence so this is our real consciousness we went unconscious somewhere along the line soon as we forgot our divinity we've gone unconscious which is a funny terminology you know like the doctor saying i'm sorry ma'am he's still unconscious yes that's us when you when you forget who you are and especially when it entails your divinity do you see the metaphor of being unconscious now the good news calling it unconscious might even sound like a criticism no this is good news because when you're unconscious there's still a chance you're going to wake up so it's not like it's a bad thing or a permanent thing but it is a thing and it is a choice we've made somewhere along the line somewhere we and we walk around acting you know we're just a living dead i mean people are walking around acting alive thinking that uh by reading labels on cans they're improving their life you know man i used to be asleep but now i i read i look for msgs you know just look for signs of being unconscious well how will i know anytime you're not thinking acting feeling experiencing perfection of god then you're sort of unconscious and then people would listen to that and go well no way because that's all the time yes exactly god said let there be light and we said how about shades of light gray darkness semi this and that you know that's us god's saying let there be light and in the light of being the palate is infinite in colors and we chose to live colorless it makes no sense to have had harmony and melody all that could be love and choose something else something that's dark or or fear-based if you have absolute oneness with god who in their right mind would choose fear i mean what sane person would ever take a child and wish upon them darkness nobody in their right mind agreed but i i'm not saying that you're in your right mind that's the whole point if you wouldn't wish darkness upon a child why do we choose it for ourselves well i'm not choosing it's not a conscious choice why so that we can say i don't remember doing that see avoidance to not taking responsibility so whether you reside in in the fourth dimension fifth dimension different parts of the galaxy solar systems other planets your light being your e.t ancient native american modern you know marvel of some kind wherever you've lived any time we've ever lived it's very important for us to realize wherever i am and what i see feel experience in any way is a reflection of my consciousness it's kind of simple that way what gets challenging is that people don't want to take responsibility and say well that means if i have what about war i didn't choose war i didn't make war that's because you have an eye creator and a wii creator there's me and there's us so there are things that i'm you know very much contributing to affecting my life and there are things that we're co-creating now people like hearing about the co-creating because then they can go thank god it wasn't me you're still in the we you're still one of us so when one of us has a dark fearful thought that vibe goes out there and we all get to decide whether we're going to get on board with that when you do things that are love-based even if it's setting boundaries saying no to something when you're when you know you get your goal is to set a better standard and not have corruptions or whether it's mental or or different kinds of corruptions emotional corruption you know negativity hurtfulness selfishness at some point we have the right to just say no and what's nice about this is when you know this is all about what buddha said in the in his first major insight what is going on in this world he says the number one challenge is ignorance and and people actually still think that that meant a lack of reading like educational ignorance no what's wrong with these people man he's talking about ignorance meaning not knowing not what's in a book not knowing who you are that's all and it makes total sense so buddha goes i get it the number one problem people have forgotten who they are the number one solution i don't know remembering that's that's his first pivotal and it rides all the way through everything he teaches it's not like that became old this is still today the standard people have forgotten who they are remembering is the key why do we come to services why do we read books why do we go and do breath work healings it's all they're all steps to remembering so if we realize it's not like i have so much i got to do so much i've got to do to grow and become spiritual no no one thing remember all the things you do are just simple tools to get to that point what's forgiveness about forgiveness is restoring my memory because amnesia comes from judgment as soon as i judge see this is the funny thing as soon as i judge i'm confirming that i forgot who i am not only because of the ethics of shouldn't judge people or yourself but the very idea that i think that i can judge means that i'm not who i really am because if i knew who i was i would be god and i wouldn't be judging so judgment just confirms oh you know when you see somebody judging think about don't say this to them but when you see somebody judging in your mind instead of going god so rude and what a jerk you know stop and go poor thing and the louder they get and the more obnoxious about their judgments about people races genders whatever the more you can just do a little adjustment in your head and go this is how much they've forgotten who they are because if they knew they couldn't do this where does that lead us forgive them father they know not what they do that's what he was saying which is kind of like saying wow you know just the subtext hello what is you know what's wow y'all are just not being yourselves you know the texas jesus would say it that way so all you all are messed up you know so if we if we say this in a simplistic way we could say that the more our lives reflect goodness the more we remember who we are this is if it were simplistic the more we create or challen you have challenges in our life the more it's mirroring that we've forgotten but i said that's simplistic because it's not cut and dry so much because there's also we creating things you know some people are going to hear me say that and go but i'm a pretty decent person and i have had some challenges or what about children that are coming in you know they seem really pure beautiful and still challenges because it may not be the individual or you that's doing this number one and it could be the us see you could be experiencing our challenges that we co-created today does that make sense okay that's the first thing to remember the second thing to remember when you're having challenges especially if the challenge you you might think or maybe how undeserved or not vibrationally compatible to your real consciousness you also have to remember it's not like you stopped or that i'm telling you you stopped in this morning and went okay i woke up and then i went okay i would like here's the kind of challenge i would like today it's not like i'm saying that you made conscious decisions to have challenges that's the point and i don't know that i've ever heard a teacher address this i've heard people say well why'd you create that it's like god why do you say you know these people that act like they're teachers well why did you create that you just want to smack them like you know like come on shake them up like seriously that's the most the greatest wisdom you can give me i'm suffering today and you told me well why'd you create that that's not a wise person and maybe everybody has said this at least once so it's our are bad it's not that someone created it it's not like somebody uh see and what happens is if if you can prove that that doesn't make sense that people would create naughty things or hurtful things you're proving that there's no responsibility and law of mental creation that's not going to be good this is a fact everything on the outside mirrors the inside it's not arbitrary there's not except for the drum sitting over there every it if it's not believed in how could it have shown up somebody decided they believed in it and if we look at it as a group of people and go there's a sun in the sky you can count on it being a we creation if i look and see three sons and you only see one all of you see only one it's probably mine so when one person says here's my reality and everybody else is going now yeah it might be that i could i could be off sometimes we're seeing a different reality because we're seeing from a higher consciousness like jesus buddha martin luther king etc you know and the world doesn't dig that they're like hey can you tone it down a little you're being too clear but what is happening and this is the important piece is that you don't have to order up like you're ordering a meal at a diner i want financial challenge today this will be fun i'm not saying you know what you did it's that you didn't think a different thought all you have to do is doubt which is all unconscious almost always unconscious a doubt about who you are and the universe will match it it's all you have to do you don't have to consciously order a challenge all you have to do is unconsciously forget who you are and the universe goes oh look a sleeping person what would wake them up oh i know a debt that they can't pay that's tends to really get humans a p you know uh attention you know drop something on the foot that'll work there's all these spiritual beings going yeah yeah i have ideas they just experiment because they're trying to get us to go wait a minute and reach bottom that's it there they can't match my consciousness if it's your issues and you know or or the other way around everything is matching i and we i and we i and we and it can't make up something else arbitrarily i want a different life i want to have your consciousness you know i want the the creation you have in your life i have to change my tone my vibration my keynote i have to say you know what we're going to change what keys we're playing in today what key we're playing it we're going to shift to this key instead of that key but i've got to do it how do the the musicians in the orchestra or a band know if somebody doesn't order up a different key it's got to be brought in a different consciousness has to be brought in well who's going to do it i can't wait till till the ufos come and change everybody's vibration trust me if you wanted such a thing to happen and if they would come and change your vibration you probably wouldn't like it because if there are beings that are going to make you altered it's usually not a good thing light beings would be supporting your shift into your new consciousness not giving you a new like genetic experimentation instead it would be how can we hold and support your awakening to a whole new consciousness a whole new vibration that's what angels would do that's what masters would do supporting our shift but i still have to participate the shift can't be well well give me a different consciousness it's help me peel the layers off of a false consciousness and i'll be restored back to my real consciousness so this whole concept is really about can we really do this can we really breathe and go this might be true that everything's not just you know this is what a lot of schools say today you know the vibration let's just change vibrations how change your thinking just positive thinking will do it it isn't going to do it you can try and it'll help positive thinking but listen if i don't believe in what i'm positively thinking it's not gonna work my belief systems are the most powerful thing in my being not praying for a different life changing my thoughts how to change my thoughts change my beliefs this is why i'm saying today let's call it the theme of of knowing who i am because that's what i want i don't just want happier thoughts i want to know who i am which is the same as saying what god created me to be i want to know my holiness and i'm ready and all the other stuff that shows up to the contrary get behind me satan just using you know terminology we've all heard no no that's not going to work for me there's a belief now now there's two ways you can know who you are one comes from your own doing and one comes from asking the divine when you ask to know who you are and you're relying on people you can go to a seminar or a new thought church and it's it you know there's a lot of people getting into that wow you know you're wonderful i believe in you see that helps you know but it's like wearing a bra to get a lift you're just a little more lifted you know i left that new thought church today and i i feel better but inside the ego is going tearing just shredding the shredding all your new thought you know beliefs thoughts rather your new statements your affirmations i'm wonderful guys because there's so many people that would rather just get a little bit of a quick boost they don't want to do any real work and secretly they don't want to call on god you call on god and you say you remind me who i am because the others temporary wow you're looking amazing really wow that's amazing now i can muscle i'm stronger because somebody said i looked amazing of course it's a boost a quick boost and all you're looking at and feeling in your life is a little more lifted a little more boosted it's temporary because as soon as you get back in touch with your belief systems they're going to say sorry dude that was really nice that you said i'm a really nice person i'm a valuable person to humanity or whatever but you don't really believe it so it it deflates ask god change your belief systems using god to download the divine consciousness it's going to last and it'll last it could be forever it's not a quick boost or an ego boost that you got from your local uh you know new thought group or whatever it is the positive thinking groups we're all just going to hold positive thoughts if a person it's it's like the the unfortunate situation they say about suicide when a person is determined to take their life they're going to do it right you've heard that unfortunately it's the same you're taking your spiritual life you're committing spiritual suicide and if you want to stay dead and asleep spiritually all the positive thinking will only change you for a moment there's nothing wrong with wanting a permanent shift nothing wrong with that at all and in fact it's the only right thing you can do i want to know this change i want to you know i want to start my day let me remember well no i did that a few like a few weeks ago i did that prayer let me remember why do i have to do it again sorry every day because the ego has been given by us power of attorney and it was told it can do anything to keep us from remembering our divinity which is what ego is just the i don't want to be my true self the ego is just amnesia so when we say you know gosh you know why do i have to do this all the time it's a default program you need to implement unfortunately you go on your computer don't you just hate those computer programs that you have you need every day and you got to go start it up again that's the ego where you you want god you have to choose select god every day you can't assume it's on automatic pilot your default program coming into the earth plane is the ego's going to be running which is weird because if i started my computer and went oh good i'm going to start my computer and it says now downloading viruses okay i feel at peace about that that's the ego how you start every day now don't downloading all the viruses and misbeliefs about yourself oh that feels good and then when those belief systems start to like you know make the lights flicker in your house you know and you start to see your credit card's been hacked and you know it doesn't feel good and then you're gonna pray and then and then dare to say why is it taking so long for spirit to help me with this situation because you've been hacked everywhere and so spirits got to figure out okay we're going to do this and this will take a few days and they're gone because it's a holiday and so on and so on it's got to try to pull this all back together and in its infinite her the divine mother the holy spirit of god in her infinite patience she knows that as soon as it all comes back online and everything's fine and the viruses have been quarantined you're going to go back to sleep and she's like i don't that doesn't matter to me you could do this 10 times a day and i'm still going to be there doing the exact perfect work i can do with you whatever you let me do so when something's going awry you could say well this definitely isn't me this must be the we why did you guys do this to my life today see it's still trying to get out of it there's nothing wrong with us saying you know i have no idea how i played a part in this but i do know if it's happening and it's in my airspace on some level i may have played a part so what do i want to do i think i'll blame everybody else for it that can't actually help it when i show up the divine eye then can step in above the lower case i that i'm not so here comes the real i the divine eye and now changes can happen but i've got to step up first and own that i may have played a part so this this world is is just really strange because even jesus understood i am not doing anything out of accord with consciousness of god when you see me you see god that's what he said but he didn't deny that there's a we so he goes along with playing the game the crucifixion forgive them he he you know sheds a tear when somebody's crying he's there for people compassion he's dealing with people at their level he didn't just say what do you mean your daughter's died tell her to get over it it's an illusion he stepped up and heals the daughter of this man that passes away see beautiful because he knows i got it together the i the choice maker soul and know that all is perfectly well not because it'll eventually be well he's saying because it's all a dream and i understand that but people are drowning and suffering and sick and so let me deal with that and these people are attacking and i can say hey back off pharisees back off see he can play the game and do the three-dimensional stuff he's explaining that to us know the truth but respect the illusion that's it just i say that's it like it's easy it's easily said but this is our work i've got to get back and this is good news i i don't i gotta figure out how to be divine i gotta work work work no i get to oh my god even though i got to deal with this today and this today underneath it i am as god created me i've got to write a song today but i'll surrender to the i am i am as god created me and let it write itself there's nothing wrong with you and i choosing ease in our lives there's nothing wrong with us saying you know god i don't know how to deal with my child today show me how and the holy spirit showing because the holy spirit isn't taking you out and doing things you know and and allowing like your your your non-existence it's that we start to do things with we start to expand our consciousness so that one day every human being is going to get to the place of saying when you see me you see the father mother god i do not father nor mother anyone or anything outside of what the father and mother would do themselves beautiful bold statement this is where i'm going i being any of us this is our destiny because that's who we are but i forgot that's why in the hawaiian you know ho oponopono prayer you say i'm sorry please forgive me why are you saying i'm sorry what you're really saying is i'm sorry i forgot but you're even saying it for the we in my issues i'm sorry please forgive me i love you and thank you but you can also say the same prayer as a we i'm sorry i forgot who i was and i saw you as less than divine you come to me and you're ill i didn't cause their illness see that defensiveness why why because i didn't do it what does that mean why are you triggered and you know if you track it you realize i was always blamed you know when my little sister got in trouble and it was my fault and i always had to take care of everybody oh man is that where we're at look at it and release that too because you get to come to a place of saying wait a second if something's weird in my or our life i am in fact sorry not i'm a sorry soul i'm sorry that i and we forgot who we really are please forgive me that's not a begging i mean it's done please and thank you for forgiving me the truth is i love you even if i don't feel it that's the truth is i love you and love me so thank you thank you for reminding me of this and you took it full circle back to god thank you for for helping me go full circle back to the divine that i am so this isn't just like um reading a book and and growing consciousness this is about taking off the layers of non-god that's part of it that's why we do the meditations and the breath work and the processing and feldenkrais and you know all the things that we do techniques and you know various methods and rituals it's to peel the layers why do you do that the drumming because it'll help put you in a state of mind that spirit can fly in under the radar because you're trans out of your ego enough so even that has its place and it doesn't matter if it's if it's hebrew chanting arabic chanting native american whatever culture the point was get us in a centered state you know it's boom boom it's creating a vibe which we talked about last week called a sacred space and in that sacred space i enter but if i sit there doing the while i'm doing that i'm thinking man i just don't like that person and i don't know what's wrong with them i wonder you know i'm not going to call my ex they don't deserve a call not until they you know i mean you know people can be in their ego and seemingly claim all kinds of spirituality you and god know are you in your right mind if you're thinking loving if you're thinking ways to inspire yourself and others you're probably doing the right consciousness you're probably accessing and channeling i am of god within yourself when you're thinking of ways to divide and hate and hurt and you know compete and whatever it happens to be you're probably not coming from that place not a problem see it i'm sorry please forgive me i love you thank you forgiveness is like the quickest you know just a quick turnaround just it kind of just pulls the rug out from all the heady stuff and says let's try and come back to peace you know it's an instant turnaround it's an that's why it's called miracle working or it's miracles that we experience because something was heading in one direction something intervened and said no clarity and all of a sudden things change and we go wow god i had a miracle god did such and such god's like i'm always the same i didn't get in a good mood and give you a miracle today you changed you know superstitions make it god did something wonderful and miraculous well it is god because god's the love behind it beneath it around it but it's when we get out of the way that we see the miracles and you can experiment with this when you're in a really challenged or dark kind of place to just just be vulnerable and say i don't know i my little self who got myself into this don't know how to what to do with this so i'm gonna just be vulnerable and surrender and you do something along those lines and you'll still see an incredible shift it wasn't how many things of ritual or ceremony you did and if you did all that did was put you in the right state of mind so you could still do your work but you still have to do the work because i am as god created me my remembering that is going to be by my peeling off layers of not remembering and that includes the judgments and hurts and things of the past you know whatever's going on in my life so remember that that simple but profound point it's not your thinking that takes you home it's getting your beliefs to come back online your real healthy love-based beliefs and anytime you're not seeing actions experiences feelings anything that's off i'm i'm telling you it originated not in your thinking your belief systems because if i really know who i am and then allow myself to believe who i am my thinking will start getting in line with that because even though we are thinkers our thoughts are going to go well that doesn't make sense like why would i go i know that i'm abundant and i'm going to allow my belief systems right now to get online with the knowingness of god and say i am abundant and prosperous i can feel it in my heart chakra the knowingness of god is in the upper chakras the heart now is opening up to the will of god and i get it oh my god i believe i believe like i can snap a finger and a wedding winning lottery ticket comes my way i can i believe that all these good things can come why do i believe it because i know the truth of god so my beliefs are getting online now if you're in that state of mind why would you go but i'm going to let my thoughts wonder what it would like to be broke it doesn't make sense it just doesn't it's not sane at all somebody says here's a million dollars and you go that's just amazing but i'm going to close my eyes gosh i don't even have money for shoes why would you do that but that's how thinking goes and people think if i can just make myself think happier thoughts it'll change my life no it'll only help the beliefs that are undermining the thoughts that's the key and ultimately what is the belief that i have to have this is why we say the the grail the grill that stands with the arms extended and says i don't know you show me that's the humility when i say have beliefs what did i say there's two ways to change them one with god or without god go thee with god route i don't know but i kind of do because i've been a buddhist for 20 years and i know how to pray and i know how to chant and i know how to do ceremonies and i've read 15 000 books if i were you just be quiet just be quiet when you when you learn the initiations of the heart chakra one of the things that the universe does is hello beloved you're welcome to the heart chakra initiation come on in come on in tell us about yourself well i've read lots of books so show us the stack of books well i can't carry them all then why have them you know might be so excited about how many books you read if if you can't carry them with you not because it's not good to read you're supposed to have become what you read i don't i haven't become anything that i read but i still read them because i heard you get into heaven that way welcome to the heart chakra initiation what else have you got i got certificates and i took this guy's i'm a ceo of a company as you're standing there and things are all collapsing out of your arms and i'm a tarot reading your card's going you know and you know you can't show up with any of it because you tried to hold it physically the the death you can't take it with you you're going to stand there and they're just going to be amused hey we got another one come here check this out how long do you think they'll be able to hold those cards and their astrology charts and they're you know how long do you think i don't three minutes okay and they bet on you and enjoy the view because you're like trying to prove how amazing you are that doesn't work the stuff you try to carry and prove that's your thinking it doesn't translate lower chakra thinking it doesn't translate to the heart the heart says what have you become and what's really amazing in the heart chakra initiation they already know this is going to happen they already know that all your attempts to prove how spiritual you are aren't going to go anywhere and they also know the next step i have all my stuff and in this room it doesn't do you any good because in the room of the heart chakra initiation you go through the dark night of the soul and they're going to say have you noticed it's really cold in your life metaphorically or literally you notice how you don't have any heat it's kind of cold huh yes i you might want to burn some of those books so you have some heat in the room and you burn the books and get a little warm but you got to burn more and more and more point is in the dark night of the soul your guides and helpers are going to essentially help you get rid of everything that you thought you had and get you to did you become any of it i have to change my beliefs not just my thinking and telling you what i've read the dark night of the soul will strip you down this isn't a talk about the dark knight per se but it will strip you down because there's all the human doings then there's the the doings aren't changing who i am in a as a being who am i as a being and here it comes stripping away oh that hurts oh my god i put time into that but i was a ceo oh i thought i was successful but i'm married i have kids they won't speak to me oh my god everything's stripped away pain pain pain the attachment is the cause of the pain not the stuff the fact that i believed i was a wonderful person because i had a certificate it's not true there's only one way you can really get back to knowing who you are and it's take this open your arms in humility oh but i'll drop all my books and certificates that's okay drop them and say i don't know show me and whether you're a former drunk and this brings you to a program or whether you're a person who's abused and betrayed everybody in your life no matter what you've done even if you're a decent person this was mystifying to me when i reached the dark knight of the soul i was like wait a minute not here i am i was like wait a minute it's a different hand raising hey i've been a pretty decent person like i i've i i'm honestly pretty pretty decent person like i didn't get all drugged i didn't drink i've never done this i haven't even had coffee give me a break and it's like it doesn't matter because the sun shines upon everybody equally the point is it's your time so stuff's going to be stripped away thinking that because i've lived a pretty decent life morally and all that means i should be able to keep some of my illusions no everybody no matter who you are has to be stripped of your illusions and this isn't a bad thing once those are gone your cup is empty and now can be refilled and then in comes a new self new improved how much new and improved it depends how much you've let go and made room i don't want to just know an improved michael i want to know who i am really who am i really that's the ticket identity who am i really well i'm as soon as you start speaking you're wrong if you don't do this you will not know the answer so come to this i don't know show me this is partly what jesus meant by the the many times different ways he expressed it but it's like when you see me you see the father mother god of myself i'm nothing that's what he's expressing we've got to get back to this this concept of you know uh surrender and some people will say you've probably heard the saying you know um god always answers prayers but be careful because you're always praying what that means is your belief systems are always ordering something up and you just don't even realize it well it's not my fault forget fault forget blame just own it's true the more i get plugged in to the love of god the more i'm going to see and feel the love of god well that implies that when yesterday something happened it was my fault and i did something wrong yes i or we did something but you're not you did something wrong you simply allowed yourself to forget well i need to stop that from happening if you're on earth it's happening earth is a very the very temptation to forget it's the evidence to forget who we are but forgive you know not what you did let yourself off the hook this isn't about increasing blame the volume on blame and guilt when you hear that voice that's the ego trying to keep you from pursuing what i'm saying it's trying to make you go this can't be good because i'm starting to feel guilty you're only temporarily feeling more guilty only temporarily because the ego's trying to mess with you pursue it go there go to that place jesus says in the gospel of thomas when you start to seek you're going to find and when you do you're going to be disturbed like dude what kind of motivational speaker are you you know i wanted the guy who says and you can have a new car in a helicopter by tomorrow you know jesus is like oh you know i got some good news and some bad news good news is you can change who you are bad news is when you find who you've been you're going to feel very disturbed but he says stay the course because on the other side of initially being disturbed because you run into your ego everything is waiting for you total remembrance is waiting you know there's to me this this whole idea of why why would i resist waking up i mean it's attractive in every way shape and form but our ego will not allow it to look as attractive as it really is so some people say well you've got to reach bottom you don't have to bottom can be wherever you are right now okay so we can grow based on reaching bottom and go oh my god i got to change my life but you can also just go you know what i'd like improvement instead of talking about not wanting to have a worse life why don't we start focusing on how about just going for the better starting now i don't buy into you have to reach bottom in the sense that it has to be worse how about just now making a choice going yeah i would like to raise the volume of my relationships the you know the equality of my relationships my finances let's just go for the better instead of i want no bad let's go for good most people are constantly making these unconscious decisions so they go into a restaurant hi i'll take whatever the soup of the day is okay here it is it's a rare beef soup oh but i'm a vegan why didn't you say that well i didn't know see that's what they do in the universe if you're not specific the will of god the will of god the will of god i am as god created me if you're not specific starting your day and throughout your day and even ending your day of what you're really looking for the universe is going to give you the soup of the day when you walk in a restaurant and say hi um you know you could be seated wherever you want and you say oh i don't mind you put me anywhere it's convenient okay how about here at the counter see this is what people do all the time it makes no sense to me why why would people throw a boomerang and expect a paintbrush to come back i mean it's not really sane to imagine that that could happen why would i put out fear-based thoughts and expect you know like financial fear based thoughts and expect a lot winning lottery ticket it just doesn't make sense oh you know what spirit i'm ready i want to move to canada so i'm going to get in my car and start looking for southbound signs all the time and when people are saying well i don't remember calling this in consciously guys it's not that you consciously did it it's when you didn't bring a map you might have gotten on a wrong road when you didn't claim today what i want is to know who i am and even then there's going to be challenges to teach you who you're not but i won't get on those roads because there was an s for southbound it just it just blows my why would you drink poison and expect somebody else to die none of this is consistent none of this makes any sense but human beings oh my god i'm going to fight for women's rights but you're not even in touch with your own femininity you know this is the human contradiction and humans love to live like this all the time and again blaming everyone else even if it's blaming systems of the world just you know blaming so it's like no no no i'm you know there's there's people that claim to be doctors or healers you know in sedona but anywhere in the world and constantly they're on vacation and selling pharmaceuticals to people don't say you're a healer if all you do is go on vacation because a healer is i'm here to help the number of vacations starts to tell us you're not really a dedicated hero you're a doctor they're good for you because that's under the definition look it up doctor vacations and pharmaceuticals you know that's that's a typical doctor it cracks me up there's a couple of healers in this town they're never there they're always on vacation somewhere oh i needed some me time you're always off to me somewhere you know like like are you a healer or what so if you're a parent be a parent your consciousness i know what i am and parenting is part of it so you're present with your child instead of living some sort of contradiction but this universe is going to mirror very perfectly exactly your consciousness it doesn't always look exact because people don't know what they're thinking believing feeling unconsciously that's why tracking and responsibility are huge things to look at tracking means i'm not going to just say i'm in a bad mood i'm going to look at why what's it called know thyself know thyself the socrates the plato kind know thyself is is only a tool back to truly knowing know thyself can be kind of a self-inventory but self-inventory starts with a bit of soul-searching as to where my errors are but when we continue getting to know ourselves it's not always digging up stuff like broken belief systems when we really get to know ourselves we go through the at first disturbed like jesus said but eventually at peace so it might start looking a little off and then all of a sudden at some point it comes around to i feel better each day i have value you just start to see it and the more you start to see it the more you start to live by that principle you know let god tell you who you are let god remind you and unfortunately you know to a lot of people god has become kind of a superstitious thing of religion please let god off the hook don't let god be the one religion told you about religion as i said is one of the uh the unholy trinity government religion science these are very they're attempting to be non-god i mean religion no i'm not dissing the people i'm saying the concept the institution of religion was partly even though on the outside it was about the worship of god technically the covert plan was but never let people actually find god just keep talking about it and if people go father to a priest or rabbi or you know minister or whatever they're seeing when they go to them and say i had this vision where god spoke to me they're often told they're possessed they're often told it's the devil tricking them i don't know where to go now see in religion so people are very scared because the people talking to them don't know anything so i want to know god and i'm ready to know god and i'm instead of asking people to teach it do whatever out on the outside i'm going to ask god to reveal itself to me i want to have this integrated relationship between god and i and i start to change i start to feel a shift the hypocrisy start to peel off there's an interesting buddhist story because you know i work with all kinds of people and i can do a you know sunday talk and i can go and speak to a hundred people or a thousand people and wherever that church that spiritual center is and there's you know they're they're okay but they want me to talk about certain things uh some new thought centers say to me you know we want you to talk about christ consciousness others want to say the divine i am others are talk about ascension depending on how new age they are and so on so you know i just can do that i'd go this direction that direction but it's also interesting because a lot of these centers it's like but don't talk about this you know i've written books and taught about people healing sexual issues and oh we don't want to hear about that of course not you know because you you can actually ascend as part of a person you know i want to talk about heart chakra but don't don't tell me how to heal root chakra stuff that's not that's that's just the spiritual bypassing so it's a you know it's a topic that gets weird and so when i've you know expressed that i've worked with people i've worked with prostitutes and strippers just as much as spiritual leaders that i've counseled to me we're all the same we're all in this together so there's this interesting buddhist story where buddha was kind of like and you know it's how he worked he said you know when we go to a new town we can accept lodging but only up to three days because we don't want to be a burden on people and i think that's beautiful don't push it don't put people in a position that they might doubt or get upset just keep it light so he goes three days three days you know that's how they're doing these towns in one town it was a prostitute who says to ananda sorry who says to ananda would you stay in my home ananda says let me check with buddha my teacher buddha would it be okay he says of course i don't want you to deny somebody's kind offer you know buddha didn't go oh prostitute oh my god i'm not spiritual if i can even hear these words he's like sure i'm surprised you didn't ask me no he didn't say it but so he says go ahead ananda stays with the prostitute now what's happening the other uh buddhist monks they're like this is wrong this is wrong they sneak over to the house and eventually like one day they start to hear music and then they're starting to hear singing and then they peek and they're like they're dancing and singing oh my god they're sounding like fundamentalists of any other religion they go back and they're like okay well the bad news is first of all we're gonna rat this dude out buddha guess what but they also assumed we've lost ananda as one of our friends disciples of buddha so probably not going to see him again story ends with this they get together at the end of three days in the in the town square and that's where they meet up then they head off to another town so they're meeting up everybody shows up in the town square and they have one new disciple and it's the prostitute and you know buddha you know tactful but he's like you see you guys were making your judgments and my point to this is guess what the prostitute was she never said she was anything else she was a prostitute to me what's shocking is the monks pretended to be monks and they were prostitutes you get my point to that that's where we have to go god so inconsistent so incongruent so so hypocritical so easily and when i've had people say oh well you know michael oh yeah i heard you wrote a book on sacred sexuality oh you know be sure you don't bring that when you come on on tour and bring your books i'm like how about if i put it in brown paper bags you know with a with a flask you know and sell us some seedy stuff under the table like you've got to be kidding me the light of god has to reach everywhere how's it going to get there other than through the i am where i go i am and i need to bring this light to the best of my ability and and people are going to have their stories as to you know why not and it's impossible and it's naughty but that's their stuff they're just running into themselves so those monks i'm not saying they're bad because they had their lesson to learn and most of them would have went wow how did i miss that i slipped into judgment i'm supposed to be this non-judgmental monk and and yet the one who went and stayed with the prostitute was doing the work and buddha said besides even if it's naughty isn't this good for him to learn willpower if there were something going on that was a little off this is for him to learn discretion and so on so buddha was just kind of hey you know let it be let's watch and see what happens here um there's there's another uh story that i love real quick where buddha was wandering this is in his later years and he was you know traveling with ananda again and um they're getting to a place they're very old by this time and they're they're traveling through the countryside and getting very tired and it's getting late and the body's fatigued and um ananda says man we've got to find the town we're looking for we got to find it soon i'm going to give up and then buddha says okay well here's a person over here can you tell us where the town is yeah it's just two miles feels like such relief great only two miles okay let's go there's nothing there two miles okay now another couple miles and another couple miles they see another person hey do you know where this town is yeah so you're almost there this is a couple miles up okay and they go and this happens time and again several times finally what's happening each time ananda notices buddha after they say two miles buddha starts laughing and then the person who's giving the advice and the directions they start laughing so he's starting to get annoyed he goes all right you know what buddha you're my teacher i'll do what you tell me to do i'll walk i'll hike i'll endure but you've got to tell me why are you people laughing at me and buddha said well everybody that told you it was just two miles they knew it wasn't and you were getting all you know uptight about it which you don't understand he said because the guy you know anand is like they lied to us why could you how could you be laughing and think that's funny and he says you think what they were doing was cruel and lying it wasn't lying he says to him what they were doing was compassionate they knew they could tell you it's 5 000 miles you would have given up right then and they would have hurt you but they had faith in who you are because the real you won't give up if i speak to you that will give up i'm going to give you information that's going to wear you out does that make sense i'm going to speak and it sounds strange i'm going to lie to you and tell you it's only two miles because it isn't lying i'm if i were to tell you it's so far you can't get there i would be speaking to the you that wouldn't have faith in getting there and that's a lie look how bizarre that is instead i'm going to speak to the real you that can't give up that won't give up how incrementally my beloved it's just a little farther keep going and you go and you made it that far but it's not there okay you know what try again so you're speaking the truth of a person by giving them what's the word hope and when you speak to somebody who's dying and they say it sounds like it's hopeless and i'm gonna die and you say no no it's okay you know it's okay to to give people hope no you might survive but if you don't you know what it's like i said to one of the folks watching online you know she said oh my god i just got diagnosed i've severe cancer and you know she's kind of a an old hippie type you know and she's real wonderful gal and she's always wearing the you know these tie dye shirts and beads and hippies stuff you know and she's like you know i i heard that i might die and the doctor said you know and i said well you know what we believe in miracles and everybody in the group online you know 50 people or whatever number of people are like yeah you know we're praying for you and we're going to hold light and hold space you're going to heal and you know all this positive and i go but if you don't i get the tie-dye shirt you're wearing and she laughed and there was ease you see i don't really want the tie-dye shirt my point is there was all this tension about whether am i going to survive too much tension on it and my point was you're fine no matter what and we can even say something to laugh instead of what do i do the doctor said relax you're okay no matter what two more miles keep going it's going to be okay no matter what it's going to be okay remember because buddha's words were that was a compassionate act to to humanly lie but spiritually affirm the truth i know you can make it it's an interesting wasn't it one isn't it please take a few centering breaths all about knowing who we are what did you hear today that made the most sense what did you hear that speaks to the remembrance the i am anything that that helps us get to feel hope and purpose we're almost there anything that speaks that way is compassion it's love soaking in what did you hear today that made sense for you what did you hear that can take you that extra two miles is it about the belief in hope is it about overcoming the temptation to judge others like the buddhist monks story what did you hear the importance of i am as god created me to be and as part of our meditation i'll share this brief story just soak this in one day jesus as a child seemingly has gone off somewhere disappeared the parents are not knowing where he is the long story short they go looking everywhere for him when they find him all upset where have you been we were worried what did he say think about this mom and dad all you had to do was tune into who i am and you would have known where i was was i going to be at a sports tailgating party no would i was i going to be at a bar no was i going to be at a gun in ammo shop no all you have to do and i'm saying this to all of us say it to the world if anybody wants to know where i am all they have to do is tune in to what i believe i am where will come from what i believe i am who i believe i am but the opposite is also true based on knowing who i am that's where you'll find me if i am always sick there's something in my mind that believes that am i bad for that not at all something's going to go on in me think about perfect vibrational compatibility if you're off to a fair country fair and you're with somebody that is absolutely in love with their absolutely the goddess of foliage and flowers where are you going to find them at the hot dog stand probably where the flowers are if they're into equine consciousness and they that's their goal their role their beauty that's where you'll find them just think about it not only would that have been how they could have known where jesus would be which is where people are talking god what about you get the outside to match the inside the inside to match the outside become consistent and congruent i talk love and forgiveness you can count on me likely reading books along those lines if i believe in we are one with god why am i watching horror movies why would you buy one and give it to me for christmas it makes no sense so one of the morals of today not only get in touch with who i really am the question is who am i really start answering the question who am i really don't just put that vibe out that says i don't know because back to you will come statements of i don't know and they're usually harsh who am i wait god show me pull in an answer so that the frequency can go out to your life and be reflected in your day-to-day life ananda hold this in mind hold this in consciousness and you can remain eyes closed or you can open them and we're going to go into a closing song with another sharing a tune [Music] your destroyer [Music] oh [Music] to you [Music] all things [Music] on and on [Music] to [Music] you're the sweetness [Music] you're the compassionate healing space to you [Music] too um [Music] day you good day [Music] on [Music] to [Music] to [Music] [Applause] thank you nice right just soaking in that vibe we're going to close the service with a prayer but just take a moment breathing that in the sound the meaning [Music] the talk who am i really but that's a question what did i say please answer the question i am as god created me and in that knowingness you'll know that you have the ability to do anything suddenly you're writing more songs in you you're overcoming challenges you're partying the red sea the the knowing who i am gives me the all power of who i am knowing who i am the words mean just that that i know the i am and that that i am is in me answer the question like all the fables and stories of people going through treacherous initiations and they come to the person you know who says who are you you better have an answer the story's about the hero and heroin in a journey when they confront some evil force when they know who they are the other bows to them and honors them when you say i don't know it's it's just it's just no response but laughter at you silly human how did you forget who you are now you've given us power to to stomp you one of the most powerful deep movie scenes what is your name monty python what is your favorite color you know and if they didn't know the answers oh it's cast off into a clue you know a chasm it's the same point gotta know who you are and every morning you wake up and every night before sleep i said today and i'm saying consistently trust me on this your ego is saying who are you the universe is saying who are you i didn't say you ordered up challenges i'll all i said was when you don't know it orders up challenges start knowing who you are and lastly what did i say what's the easiest way ask god remind me who i am in that vulnerability that openness remind me in that innocence like a child comes all power that which is last becomes first please stand for our closing prayer in case it's not obvious when we do our closing prayer you guys all know you know the the it's an affirmation but the way we say it the light of god surrounds us we are the light of god we're affirming this is the way it is it's not like we're hoping kind of a prayer the light of god surrounds us but then we add and we are that light see it's beautiful and the closing last statement of it wherever we go god is we're not like kind of wherever we go god might be there once in a while it's not how we do it wherever we go god is i am we are i mean it's just really anchoring pure pure light thank you for your time and patience today because we've gone a few minutes extra on today's service so i appreciate your time soaking in gratitude for all we learned and heard today hmm the light of god surrounds us the love of god unfolds us the power of god protects us and the presence of god watches over us wherever we go god is i am we are and so it is folks before you leave today remember if you'd like to receive prayer healing get with the chaplains they'll be standing against the sidewalls also the bookstore is open and please take time to look at ananda's products over there and online google them find them and buy some things online okay god bless thank you folks bye

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Published: Sun Jun 27 2021