I'm gonna share a little bit about healing
today, the concept of healing, but healing heart and a healing consciousness. What we forget to realize is what we just
heard from the course to a degree there too, is that the outer world reflects the inner
world. And then what do we mean by the inner world? The outer world reflects our mind, but then
when we hear mine, we think our intellectual cognitive thinking mind, the outer world reflects
the inner soul, our beliefs, not just our cognitive mind. So people have to upgrade their understanding
around this because people think that if they're aware of thoughts, that's where creation comes
from. So if they don't like those thoughts they
do to these little things, like cancel clear and just try to negate whatever. They were just thinking, I don't like that
person. Oh, case. It doesn't work like that. It's in our beliefs. It's deep in the soul are the origins, the
roots of everything we see outside. And really, it's a fascinating concept if
we really got down to it and there's not enough time in a talk like this to do it all. But it's amazing to think to realize that
the body is actually created like a projector in a theater aid. We have lens. We have light inside just like a projector,
and we've got this lens that we project this through. Now, all we have to do is take a look at what
films we're choosing. We have this catalog inside the ego's choosing
what films to put in there, and it runs past when it runs past the lens. Let's call it within the lens. That's what we see outside. So the outer world is this three dimensional. It looks, it's this hologram, but it's this
three dimensional height with depth. It's got this three dimensional appearance
to it. And human beings walk around in this trans
acting like that world is the real world and it affects our day. I would be doing so much better if only, and
then we name whatever list of things. But it is quite absurd in it's why jesus. And of course, America's refers to it as insanity
because people are walking around as though they watch horror movies and terrified to
go outside, because I just saw what was out there. Where did you see that or... I just watched a movie really? So you think the Creature from the Black Lagoon
is actually in your backyard 'cause you watch the movie and I married him too. It's like we project these things outside,
then we never interact with him. And then we say, I'm just not a very happy
person. Why 'cause I'm married the Creature from the
Black lagoon, and guess what? They ended up being a Creature from the Black
lagoon. They acted like one, two. So that thing is affecting my day. If we take that to the courtroom of Heaven
and project that we don't say had a chance because we're gonna go into that courtroom. I'm just metaphorically saying, we go into
that courtroom and say, listen, god, I would have had a better life. But everybody and everything went wrong. Everything were in the world. But what world... You know the world. Oh, you mean the movie? You took it seriously? Well. Yeah, doesn't everybody will know, not us,
but then that's why we're blessing out. We don't believe it. They're just movies and it's not to undervalue
or under understate the pain that the world causes us, because there are some painful
things. What I'm saying though is to only talk about
them on the level of the projector screen is not going to help them. You know, if you're sitting in, if you're
faced to be in this world, and if you're faded to be in the theater of life watching a movie
and you don't like it 'cause it's horrible, a horror movies, you know, scary movers, murder
mysteries, all this drum of the world. The only way you can change it. You could try closing your rice, it's called
denial. You can also plug your ears when you walk
through life going all. It doesn't look very mature. If that's your way of dealing with, I don't
hear anything and I'm just gonna close my... You're not even there that's not actually
gonna work. The only way we can change the world is to
actually get off our butts in the theory, get off our butts walk into the back projection
room and take out the film, put in a different one. What would you like to see today? And that's what is called free welts called
choice. We can choose better movies. We can choose different realities. Now, what I don't want to imply here is like
what positive thinkers try to say, just make yourself think positively. It's not just that. And it's not that easy. It's change your beliefs, Believe It Or not. If I can change my belief in whether or not
I am a holy innocent being created in God's image or not, that's the key right there. If I can accept my holiness, it automatically
will change the films. You see, it's our beliefs in who we are that
affect everything I do. My analogy doesn't mean, I just mean storm
the projector room, knock the projection is over and change films. Those are the people that try to push positive
thinking, positive thinking would still be trying to take Heaven by force which can't
be done. If you're not in the consciousness of heaven,
you don't enter heaven. We change our consciousness. There's this reference that we have to all
learn, memorize in the core of our being pears. This even using this person as an analogy,
this body we have in the core of our being there is this perfect light made in the image
of god, and that thing is called christ, but it has nothing to with christianity, it's
christ. It's the true light that we were created to
be, and it's beautiful. It's perfect in the core of our being, and
everyone has it, then we wonder what life would be like if we weren't that light. So around that light, you can't actually take
out that light or negate that light. You can't tell it, it's eternal, perfect god,
and it's in every one of us. But what we can do is I wonder what life would
be like to not have that light, and we created a darkness around it so that we would no darkness. Now in that darkness, in the center of that
darkness, we set up a throne and we set it someone to blame for this happening, and it's
called our ego. So when we said, what would life be like if
we weren't in the holiness of god, there's sadly, there's this dark sheet that covered
our light, and remember the light is still in there, but this darkness covered it. So all of a sudden, there's this perfect presence
of God and yet, now there's this void in genesis, this void, darkness. And so it's so interesting, and in that void
we thrown in thrown the ego, and the ego's job is to keep us from remembering to go in
back to our light and instead go out no better way to get us to go out then, to project things
out for us to look at in our core light, around the core, this layer of darkness. And in that darkness, we start to say, God
a minute ago, we were filling light. Now we're feeling darkness doesn't feel very
good. So we decided We're just gonna... Project project is out because what we're
feeling is called guilt and shame because we seemingly separated from God and lost our
holiness, which we didn't lose, but it seems like it seem to have lost it. We now feel guilt and shame. So we say, okay, we're not feeling very good. We're going to project everything outwards,
but if we just project everything, outwards, all the stuff that would reflect our fear,
the world would look like nothing but fear. So believe it or not, what we do is light
layers of ego. Then the ego says, you know what you deserve
now for having separated from God or NOTI things in this world. So we have hurts and wounds, childhood wounds,
past life, lines, what it looks like, or our creation, which isn't really the right word
for it, but in our creation, here's how it looks. Corley of ego will call it or darkness vail,
and then wounds guys, wounds past life, childhood wounds, wounds, and wounds and wounds. So do we wanna walk around the world just
going high? Look at me, manage stuff. Wow, I'm nothing but woundedness. Most of us now have to put something in front
of the wound and it's called a mask. Yeah, I was winded, but now I'm a successful
ceo. I was wounded, but now I'm a happy mother. Yes, things happen to me when I was a crop
it. I'm over that those are all masks it. We can commit, we can brush it. We can spray it, we can, can it, we can find
it up, we can do whatever. We can certify it and we are certifiable,
for sure. So we can keep proving to the world. Look at me, I'm not as bad as we all know
that I am so I'm gonna distract you with success. But man, I've met everybody. I've met every imaginable thing, the most
wealthy, and the successful, and the actors, and deep inside we're all humans. And at the core of our being, we're really
light. But before we get to that core, underneath
our facades, there's pain. Now, not everybody has the same level, the
same amount of woundedness and so on. But it's really sad because underneath our
facades, the masks are wounds. And even if some of us say, well, thank God
I haven't had tremendous ones. Have you ever been afraid? And when I say wounds, let's be clear about
this. The definition from Michael Medad anyway,
of trauma is anything that lacks love. Anything that lacks love is traumatic. So you may not have even had overt horrible
abuses. Have you ever been afraid? I remember feeling trauma just watching when
I had a child and it had a problem crying and I couldn't fix it, just seeing it in such
pain was traumatic to a degree. So when you say, I don't have any issues whatsoever,
you do you ever look out around you? Have you not heard that there are people suffering
from this and that and the other? How does that not hit you on some level? Because even if you think I'm really doing
well 'cause I make sure my closer bleached out nicely to look real white and spiritual,
and I wear spiritual jewelry and I live in sedona. Wow, man. I'm just. Amazing. Even if you could pull that off, you're part
of the collective too. So if you wanna pretend that the collective
doesn't have any issues, you're actually trying to separate from the collective that you're
part of. It doesn't make any sense, even if you can
say, I'm doing really well. Thank you. I'm glad you are, but we're not. You're still part of us as long as we're suffering,
you're still suffering to some level and I'm not trying to bum everybody out, so bear with
me. But. I am saying There's stuff, man, there's hurt,
there's collective sadness and fear, abandonment. There's sickness illness, death, all kinds
of scary things in horrible things, and there is no time, which means even the pains of
yesterday are still here, anticipated pains of tomorrow or already here. And again, I'm not trying to bum everyone
out, but I am saying it's important for us to recognize outside we have masks, just turn
within Jesus is saying, and I'm paraphrasing slightly in the Gospel of Thomas look within,
and it's kind of like funny, because many mystics will say, be still look within and
to shalt Vine bliss or whatever. Right. Jesus says, be still look within and you will
become disturbed. And it's like he must have missed motivational
thinking, class 101, when he was in school. How are you gonna get people to follow your
teachings when you say to follow me? I have some great things to share. First, be still going with it and you're gonna
become disturbed. Who wants to go to that class? But what he's saying is, when you look within
the first thing you're gonna see beyond your masks are all the reasons you created masks
every cover up everything you do a little this and that to make up for this. And it's all compensatory. What if I drop my masks? What would happen? What would happen? What if you're a very popular actor? What if you're a popular politician and people
rely on you to look a, certainly be a certain way, think a certain way. What if the President of the United states,
if there was everyone you like to... Let's just say that, and let's say they went
up on stage and said, I'm just not really doing well today. The Nation would panic because we've got this
mask of just lemmings just saying, as long as that person says, everything's okay, we're
gonna be okay. So let's turn it on. He said, everything's okay. Oh, okay. It's just, it's lies. But what if they drop their mask? So everybody, what if you drop your mask and
your suffering? There are rational reasons why we keep some
of them appropriate reasons why we keep some of the masks up. But there is a way that it doesn't have to
become something I wear where I don't have to identify with my mask any what's called
vulnerability. It's okay to say In this moment. I'm leading some folks, so let me put on my
best way. Okay, fine. But can you ever take it off? Did you keep wearing it? Did you put on a happy face grade? Can you take it off in process? Whatever was actually there. So most of us get used to wearing the mask
and once we wear them, remember the old Twilight Zone episode where there was the one about
all these people, and this guy could held a party and he asked everybody to where I
ask, so they all put them on. But when they tried to take Him off, their
faces can tour it to the strange mass that he asked them all liars, you're bitter. So now you can wear this better face. So by putting this on that, some sort of magic
created their faces to look like the mask of bitterness or greed or whatever it happened
to be, no, it's not that we're gonna go that direction, but that's what happens to us. We become the masks we wear. That's what we're thinking. So now I am happy, but it's a false happiness. So under that false happiness, the mask KU
put on of happiness, you think you're now happy, you try to take it off. And so even if you could, you just still have
a false happens. You gotta keep up and there's a terrifying
feeling at the idea. Can I ever drop that? And most people don't even know this exists,
so they don't even realize how terrified they are. But there's a point where we relax where we
drop the masks prayers and meditations in healings. And we say, so what if, what if today? I'm just not as happy as I'd like to think
I am. What if I do have more wounds and memories
of things that I would like to have thought I did just do it. Just take the mask off and cry. So and now some of your people that you might
listen to Will say, well, don't just focus on positive, positive, positive. And I'm saying they're more masks. Everything has its place, including motivational
speaking, positive thing, affirmation Al thinking all has its place life coaching all has its
place. But if you polish the outside with all that
great, good, good, righteous energy, and I agree with those things, but without working
on the inside, it becomes a mass rather than the reu. What we're looking for is to dig up the stuff
behind the masks, work on that with god, but work on that stuff inside. And then what happens is I don't have to wear
a mask because my light start shining through what you used to be wounds and trauma. I don't have to wear a mask 'cause my light
shines my life just right. That's part of what it means by put on the
armor of the lord. It's my light shining out. So instead of putting on a shiny face mask,
it's actually shiny. It's when a person feels happy, throw and
through, and we need one way to do that. One simple way to do that is realizing, it's
almost as though he's... There's two creatures within two things To
beings, whichever one you heard the story, which ever one you feed is the one that's
gonna thrive, the one that's gonna be, but all too often, we feed this ego self. The wound itself, and there are ways to deal
with this, and one of them just real simple. I'm not going into a list yet, but one simple
way. Gratitude, when you sincerely feel gratitude,
what happens is you're accessing the light in the core of your being saying, I really
am grateful, and I don't mean I'm really grateful that I'm not dead yet. That's really, really reaching for something
positive. I'm talking about. If you can't think of a single thing that
anyone ever did for you that made you feel valued or a single thing you ever did for
anyone else, that may then file values. If you can't do that, then you're in trouble. But if you can, what you're doing is you're
reaching to that light in the center of your being, that is the thing that was valued by
someone else or gay value to someone else. And when you get it and say, that really was
kind of cool and you let that spark fed into a flame. What you're doing is letting it burn off the
false, the wound itself here in the middle. And then it even burns off some of the mass
we were wearing and it becomes us, so the joy becomes us. The love becomes us. The gratitude is one very underestimated way
to bring this about, but the ego sits inside just doling out judgements. It has no intention. The ego self job is to keep you going out,
and it does that by judging judgement means by definition, something is going to be blamed
outside or credited outside, but it's always outer oriented. Judgment is never really internal. The problem is we have already determined
guys that were flawed, that we left heaven, and if you left having, there must be something
wrong with you. If heaven is perfection and bless, think about
the logic of that. Yeah, there was really having a bliss. And then we thought, let's leave that. That's how you would respond to something
wrong with you. How would you wanna leave that? Well, right. So we determine there's something wrong with
us to deal with that we projected it as an outer world where everything is the blame
for our lives. When we have the courage we turn within and
we start realizing it's time to start looking at my own stuff. So this gets very tricky. I'm gonna share a brief list with you in just
a second. It's a progression that I scribbled down so
that we could go over it step by step. But remember the ego's intention is project
these things outside, but then what happens is, all that does is increase our Shames and
guilts inside for judging other people. Some of us say judgement should result in
forgiveness. Fair enough. Then we think forgiveness means that we're
going to forgive people for wronging us, which makes total sense on a linear level. What I'm gonna explain is that before the
people wrong us, we had already judged ourselves as deserving such and such. No, not the specific thing. If someone kicks you in the leg, it's not
like you woke up that day saying, I can really... I can see that I deserve a kick in the leg. It's not like it's in your meditation and
clear visions. It's not that it's that obvious. What I'm saying is that all we have to do
is believe even ever so slightly, that there is anything at all wrong with us and it will
attract a wounding, you see now as soon as I attract the wounding, I'm kind of mad at
you for wounding me, which is gonna then cause me to judge you more, which is because also
I'm also already judging myself for judging you for kicking me. So even though it's just this constant feeding
cycle that goes around and around, so I feel upset. I attract people that treat me poorly once
they do. I judge them. I feel badly that I judge them now that's
gonna attract more and around and around we go and where she stops. Nobody knows. And this is constant, the guilty and shaming
externally. We do it like the term shame on you even to
is parents can do that to kids. Shame on you. It used to be considered like a curse shame
on you. It's like you gotta go out with shielding
yourself with a light on or of light, because people could just randomly throw out these
courses, but who am I really? I am this perfect light inside. If I can identify with my innocence, I wouldn't
then feel guilty, shameful, hurtful, wronged, wrongful, and nothing. I wouldn't feel any negative feelings, so
I wouldn't then need to push him outside of myself to feel better. So here's the progression or digressing depending
on how you wanna look at it. Alright. First, the ego reminds us of our seeming choice
to separate. So this is how it begins every single day. You're waking up, he goes Right there. High morning. Oh, you again, it's like, okay, listen, in
case you don't know, you feel terrible. I even even woken up, I haven't even had my
weeds OU know. Yeah. You feel terrible. Why? Well, because you look at Where are you? I'm in bed. Where on Earth you must have left heaven. Oh, you're kidding me. I thought that was just a bad dream. It reminds us every day. You're not in Kansas anymore. Toto, you adore, you left, you left. Heaven starts with that. Then it says, and being your friend, which
it isn't. But being your friend, I just want you to
know how awful you should feel for not being in heaven then. And not only should you feel awful for separating. Chances are you should be careful and be afraid,
because if you did separate from god, the chances are something's gonna happen to you
as a punishment. Then this actually starts creating people
to attack us and be mean to us, because they are the manifestation of our inner thought
that we deserve to be punished, then comes our reasoning for not completely unconditionally,
trusting other people. See, we can't completely trust other people
because we already suspect they are one of our assassins that have been sent out to get
us for separating from god, obviously, I'm not going to be able to see the Christ presence
in another person when I already know they're out to get me. And then we repeat this over and over again. So our guilt and our regrets from the past
already make us afraid of the future. So people, this is why of course, in miracles
is saying, I see only the past. So every day, no matter who we are, every
day we wake up with the same exact question, am I or am I not? As God created me, all we have to do is not
just answer. Yes, we are. As God created us to be, not only answer,
you have to believe it. I am. As God created me, which is actually a prayer
of gratitude. If you see underneath that, that's a prayer
of grad. I am think, god, if I can understand that
and believe that I am, as God created me, that 'cause every thought and every belief
attracts an external reality, a manifestation, a reflection. The outer world is a hologram of my inner
world. If I know to wake up and say I am, as God
created me. I will see that if I say no, I'm not, or... And this is the bad news. No answer at all is I am not. That's the bad news. If you don't say yes, you're saying no. Even if you are undecided non committal or
made no decision at all, all of them get grouped in the opposite. And that's why we seem and feel so unarmed,
so to speak. So outnumbered, and rightfully so, this is
the way we set it up. We have to switch in the core of our being. We have to switch over to something new, believing
something different. And it's something that's very foreign to
us, but it could be made easier if we do these things with god. So you're even better off saying, I do not
know ultimately who I am. And then you say, show me, god, show me what
kind of day I can have. If I'm your child, show me the kind of life
I can have. If I'm one of your holy children, show me
what innocence looks like. Show me what guiltless list looks like. Seven. When we say words like guilt and shame, most
people in the spiritual community or in the new age community cannot even relate if I
put that in the title of the talk. They wouldn't have even tuned in. Oh, it's about guilt. Shame on that ended. I don't have any of that. That's what's making you shut off the video
because you don't want to accept if it's a very simple math if you're a good parent. But for some reason you have a child that's
disturbed for some reason mentally, maybe. And they run away from home. Let's say deep inside, they know they've done
something that's not in their best interests. They're entering a world that's scary and
could possibly hurt them. But if you were a good parent, but something
in their mind led them to do that, you're still fine as a person, you didn't do any
wrong, you didn't hurt them. God didn't do any wrong, but inside that child,
even if they're not mentally disturbed, they just did something cause a friend tempted
them to a friend, talk them into it. They did it. They're still going to feel bad to some degree
about having done it, I possibly have hurt my mother's feelings by leaving home. I may have hurt my mom. I may have heard now. I feel terrible. What I've done. I can't possibly go home now and that's what
we've done. We left heaven forgetting that we were forgive
in the moment that it happened. That's the story of the Buddhist and the Christian
versions of the prodigal son. So when it gets down to forgiveness, this
is gonna be the trickiest part of all. We think it looks like this. Okay. Every day I get up, I go about my day and
eventually somebody's gonna do something rude, but I'm spiritual so I forgive them. And that's what's considered a spiritual life. For most people. You'll see it on facebook. You go to forgiveness pages, it'll probably
be in there reading about forgiveness. Well, I'm doing better with forgiveness. How so? Another more on hurt my feelings today, but
I forgave him really. That's a great testimonial like, that's it. Now I will say this, that's better than doing
no forgiveness, but there's something tricky. What if the... I'm not selling you. The person was nice. I'm not pretending they came up and kicked
you. I'm not saying no. Just pretend that didn't happen. Just you'll walk with a live, but just pretend
you don't have a limp. It's gonna be painful, but don't reach down
to kind of rub this in. No, it does not hurt. It does not hurt. That's not how you heal. What's really strange about this is that the
outer world keeps showing evidence of a problem inside. If I come up and kick you, I am evidence that
you're not perfect and holy 'cause if you're perfect and holy, you wouldn't have attracted
this. Listen, all the people with positive thinking
out there, all those videos and books and stuff, it's about positive thinking, you attracted
this and then that makes you feel even worse. It's really sad 'cause I've got people on
Facebook pages that write in, and michael, I'm practicing this and I did these Peres
nobut. Something still happen today. And I feel so terrible. How did I create that? The whole idea that we create is not supposed
have made you feel worse then you didn't understand it. Anything that makes you feel more guilt and
shame is not god. So that's why there are false forms of forgiveness
circulating on the planet. You would think forgiveness is a topic that's
immune to any problems? No, no. The ego rites shot gun with everything it
writes, just site settled to... It's right there with you. It's just writing side by side with you on
every decision. Just because you read a course in miracles,
it doesn't go well, is mis well pack up. It doesn't happen like that. I'm going to unity of Sidon now that I watch
out viton, probably nothing will ever happen again. It doesn't work like that. As soon as you say, I'm on a path. I read a book that's really spiritual. The goes right there saying, yes, I'm gonna
help you read that. I'm gonna make you obsessed on getting all
these steps right 'cause you know you're not gonna get them right and I'll be right there
to show you when you didn't do it right, it's gonna be there constantly. How do you know when it's there? Do you feel guilt and shame or regret the
unholy trinity of emotions? Guilt, shame, regret. You can pretend you don't have them, but if
you're in a body, it's likely you have them. Because the very fact that you incarnated
is because as Buddha points out, regrets karma, what's car's a regret? That's all. It's just a regret stored in the soul. I probably shouldn't have done that now. I owe someone a mens of some kind. Nowi gotta go back. So Reincarnation is just regret Hill regret,
shame and guilt, shame, or these it's this feeling that I'm flawed. I'm not just ashamed of what I've done. Even things done to me. I walk around carrying the shame. I'm not perfect. I'm damaged goods as some people call it. What a strange way to identify yourself. And how amazing if we really ever slow down
and imagine I am, as God created me, I really am. How magnificent is that? And instead what we're doing is I think I
separated from god. Like I said before, forgiveness can be somebody
did something bad. I forgave him. That's better than nothing, but it's a limited
form of forgiveness. So instead how it looks is this, somebody
was mean to me, somebody hurt me today. Okay. Instead of forgiving them, pause for a moment,
somebody hurt me. Where did it really come from? And we learned to go inside, instead of you
hurt me. But I forgive. You see how that was still outside inside
means you did this. But when I look at this that you did and the
feelings it brings up, this isn't the first time you rejected me today, but this isn't
the first time I have felt rejected, which means we have what's called a pattern, not
an isolated incident. We have a pattern who has the pattern I do
instead of forgiving you for rejecting me. I go inside and I'm gonna start looking at
the pattern in myself. And if I really wanna get down to it, I could
realize, take it all the way back to the beginning of time and say Once upon a time I rejected
God thought I left then flow into the universe, landed on earth and started in Carina O and
behold, I thought Somebody rejected me today, but behind it is I rejected god. I felt bad about it and started manifesting
people rejecting me as a pattern in my life. But that's probably silly. So just forgive you anyway. No. I probably need to forgive myself. All forgiveness starts with forgiving others,
but it always... If you go deeper with it, always turns inside
and we realize, I, after I forgive myself, that's a hard one for people. And some people even twist that into meaning
things that they shouldn't be twisting it into. But it's true. I'm not saying don't also forgive the other
person, but I am saying, go deeper with it to a recognition that I'm the one with the
pattern. So this is what's really cool on the outside. I could have manifested dozens and dozens
of rejections on the outside spokes of a wheel. But when I track them back, heal and forgive
the core, the hub called rejection, do you see what's gonna happen to all the spokes? If I forgive the core pattern, the spokes
will all disappear. I don't have to track down each person and
you rejected me and you rejected me and you thank god, I'm such a forgiving person and
you're rejected me and you will not be able to. No human being has The ability, like Abraham
Lincoln said, nobody has a good enough memory to be a good liar, it's along those lines. You can't hide from yourself. Nobody has a good enough memory to... I really pin down everybody as being the fault,
but you can righteously accurately and effectively go to the root and forgive it, and you don't
even have to know what other people were there. You don't have to know which lifetimes in
strains of it everywhere. So this is something I've shared many times,
but tried to tune into this. Let's say there's two routes you can go with
forgiveness, one is tracking down every single person, an event, and good luck. Think about it. Or imagine this. If you could forgive the core pattern, what's
happening is you're actually taking care of all the parts that branched off at once, which
is more efficient, which takes less time, which is more effective. Always the stuff at the core. Our job is to learn our lessons and heal our
wounds and uproot such things. But guilt and shame, we have to learn to recognize
guilt and shame and how it affects our lives. We're carrying the stuff to just like heavy
soaked coats, and it weighs upon us. But then what we do is because we're carrying
guilt and shame, we start to get agitated because it hurts our body. It hurts our minds. So what do we do when we're agitated as we
vent? Now, once I said, get away from me, I'm carrying
lots of dont. Jane, get away from me. We start going god. I was probably mean to them now I have more
guilt on game. Look at your code. I'll carry that one too, and we carry another
one. How do we drop them, apologize and make amends
where you have done harms, if you can drop some of'em that way. The others are... A lot of them are gonna be, you're gonna realize
my own guilts and shames about myself my own judgments on myself, myself. And as I dropped those weights, just look
at what happens the way to the world off my shoulders. I get to breathe easy. And sadly, I cannot see that Christ in anyone
else. If I'm not able to see it myself and I'm not
gonna see it myself if I can't see it in everyone else, so I cannot become the living Christ
while carrying shaman, guilt, they're called mutually exclusive. You can't have one and the other at the same
time. So if we're not feeling joy right now, if
you were to take an evaluation of how you woke up today or how you felt today, your
joy level, your little joy meter in here, you check it out. If it was not up there seven, eight, 910,
that means you're probably carrying some guilts and chains, because guilt and shame are gonna
counter joy and abundance. Peace enjoy guilt and Jane gonna counter peace
and joy. So how am I doing today? This is cool because many great teachings
like of course, and miracles will tell you, if you wanna know how you're doing in your
mind and your soul, just check into your typical feelings. How are you feeling? I'm feeling pretty expensive. If you don't. It means you woke up on wrong side of your
head. That's. About. it, I woke up on the wrong side of my head. How do I know 'cause, well, everything's gone
wrong since I woke up, or it went CPOE and oh, halfway through the day, somewhere in
there, I'm watching someone put in the wrong movie for a moment. Let's blame someone. I was doing great till I saw you today. That. Means. the moment I ran into you was a moment after
the wrong tape got put in a horror, take a drama, a murder mystery, a bad movie, bad. Just a horrible movie. And it didn't happen when they entered your
life. It happened when we chose to believe that
we were less than home, and so they're there to reflect it. That's what it means. When we say People are our lessons. Do you understand it a bit more deeply? Now, people are carrying lessons to us. People are there to teach us. They say, it doesn't mean intellectually. Well, they're all there to teach us something
teaching us means, reflecting back to us our decisions about ourselves today. All you have to do now is what movies are
playing. I feel really great. I'm watching the movie. I was like, wow, this is a really great movie. You know what happens when there's a great
movie you chose? Well, you know what happens when there's a
terrible movie you didn't choose well, who's involved in either you? That's not to increase the blame and shame
guilt and all that, but it's to change our responsibility level. So let's look at that. Let's take time to look at that. We're gonna do as part of our closing, we're
gonna do a decree, and the degree is a great way to clear the center of these old patterns. But let's remember we're wearing masks that
the support this picture, this, if I have rejection issues and I put on a mess that,
hey, I don't have rejection issues because I have a wife or a partner husband, or whatever
IT is. And kids look at me, there's no rejection,
we're wonderful, great family, and we love each other. And when they get older, they're not even
moving away 'cause there's no rejection issues in me at all. I'm just adding on more rooms and they're
all gonna live 'cause I'm gonna prove there's no rejection. You see, you can't by doing that, but let's
pretend you try. It's a mass. And what's gonna happen is you're building
to react to your, your rejection issue. You're building an outer facade to prove that
there is none. It's going to happen where the universe is
going to take something away. It's going to cause a crack in your mask,
eventually go, there's a crack and then it splits more and more, and eventually the masks
are gonna have to pop open to show what's under it. Now, some people will keep putting up the
mask, putting on new mass over the old mass. It doesn't work. Ultimately, what we have to do is own how
we don't want our wounds to be exposed. There's a movie I watched yesterday that was
interesting, but in it, there was a psychotherapist and the Two of them, and they were talking
to each other, and one of them was saying, if you're not interested in me, I'm okay with
that. I'm an adult and I'm a counselor. I know how to deal with those things within
30 more minutes, crying terribly about rejection that they never wanted to feel. So we can put on the mask and we can put on
the successes and we can put on that. I've been there before, I'm tough now we can
put on any errors, but underneath it, if we don't deal with that stuff underneath, the
MAS are gonna crack blow off or whatever's gonna have been eventually expose it. So what I'm saying is this is inevitable? Why don't we just choose to do it instead
of waiting until it's done to us 'cause whenever you don't work out through healing, you will
end up experiencing in your feelings. Whatever you don't work out will be acted
out. So it's just common sense. Why don't people do it then? It's an inconvenience. It's annoying. It's kind of dark, have to look at that stuff,
at least with my mask. I have good days and bad days. If I were removed the mask, I have only bad
days. That's kind of good logic there, except when
you remove the mask, you will momentarily have bad days having to look at stuff and
then it will be gone, and you will find the inner Christ and whole new you emerges. So technically their right to say, be afraid,
be very afraid. Don't ever take the journey within. It's what you will see. Jesus is saying, you will be disturbed, but
after being disturbed, his statement continues to the point of, and you'll find bliss. So it's an inconvenience. People aren't used to it, but most of it is
just... They're just fears guys, which means they're
not actually there, these things, they're just fears that they are there. When you say, I'm afraid that if I move my
mask, I'm gonna show vulnerability about what? Well, that I don't have it all together. Great. No. Mean either how you doing well, but I don't
want people to think. I don't have why 'cause I'm an author, I've
written books about how everything Stirling look at me, it one of my books, even gold. Look at me. I'm amazing. And if I show that, then your next book should
be Look what I found underneath. And people will buy that one too. And if they didn't, who cares? You know, I mean, really because you're your
real self. When Atlantis Morisset released an album and
it was wonderfully hateful. She just took every story that everybody that
ever bothered her abused her neglected, every guy that ever be trader. She just was just like using it into the records,
you blank. And he can believe she just blurted out and
it sold millions because people are like me too. I can relate to that. So they're all singing the songs. I hate him to. I and toand, everybody's like singing out
that she goes to India and she's like, oh, Oh my god. She comes back sings. Thank you, india. Thank you. All the garbage that I ever believe 'cause
it's just an illusion. Oh my god. And nobody bought it now. It's like, what happened? You'd have to face your fear that when you
become holy, The world is gonna tell you you're not as cool in or you don't have that quite
that inch anymore. And it's something, everybody, it's like Gerhard
son, coming out of the beatles. He just writes, all things must pass. He wrote songs about, why do you keep telling
me I can't change? It's really sad that you think I have to stay
into the thing you wanted me to be. So we all have to have that moment where your
kids go, mom, go back to being your parents go back to being... And I'm not saying change just to prove something
'cause that's not you anyway. But I'm saying to find our true selves at
any cost to find our true selves. So start by identifying the masks, if you
can, what are the images, you not, that you believe you are, what images do you believe
you put out there? Just spontaneously name of you and some pretty
successful this, that good tests. Good at that on whatever. And you can say, well, that's not a mask. I really am write it anyway, just in case
you're not as perfect as you thought. Just write it. Because. if it's real, when you remove, if it was seemingly
a mass and you remove it, it'll still be there. But stop with the masks. There's all kinds of ways that this is gonna
come to you as it comes to me. But it's like this image of Here I am, it's
this open it. You can pull off the guilts and chains. But before you even see those, you gotta pull
off the masks that you don't have any guilt. And james, I don't have ungame, I'm just successful. Take off that mask and we'll see what you
are. Can you talk about it? Can you sit with counselors? I've known people to go to counselors for
years and never told them certain things about their life, how vulnerable was that doesn't
make any sense whatsoever. So we say, you know, here I am. When I was younger, probably in my 20s, I
went to a counselor and I went in and I sat down and I said, because I was already somewhat
known out there in the world and I said, now, I wanna sit with you and I wanna work on some
things. Whatever comes up the first focus was raising
kids and struggling with what became my ex about how to raise the kids with the proper
thing. I said, I'm open. You be my sounding board. You tell me where am I often on and whatever
about raising his kids, because we're not getting this right. We're contradicting each other with kids. So I kinda said here, I am for that. But whatever else comes up. But I said to him, and I want you to know,
you might know me or whatever I said, but if you know me 'cause I think he said, I recognize
the name. I said, well, I teach, but I said, I need
you. I need you to not speak to me as a teacher. I need you to not see me as a counselor or
a teacher or anything else. I want you just to see me as anyone else that
comes in and need you to say what you need to say. That's it. It's like you instead of, well, I kinda know
all that you're gonna tell me, but it just looks good if I come here instead just tell. And when I stopped seeing that guy years later
last week. Actually. No, I'm kidding. But when I stopped seeing the guy, I really
loved the guy. He was so amazing. And I said, you know, this is my last time,
I'm gonna see you cause I was moving out of that area. And I said to my last time, I'm gonna see
you, but I wanna thank you. He was kind of a full body, uh, Jewish man,
very, very strong looking. And I said, you carried very well. My dad's energy, first of all. But I said, what amazes me? You've never talked about anything spiritual,
but your very spiritual. See. I knew he was religious, but he never spoke
it. He's Jewish and he's religious to that faith,
but he never spoke it. And I said, what I really always appreciated,
no matter how I grew some... The things were that I had to share with you. I said, you were always there, and you were
always spiritual. And he said, you know what? I've never had such a compliment. He said, it means a lot to me that anyone
could ever have felt my attempt to be spiritual without speaking it 'cause that was important
to him and he said, and I wanna tell you the one thing I most appreciated about you, the
day you came in and said, no masks. Just tell it to me like, you need to tell
it to me with no hairs, no fronts. It's not that horrible. It really isn't. It's kind of a relief to do that to say to
even your own partner. I think it's great to say to your partner,
listen to, and you've heard me say this one before, but you, you sit and you say, I wanna
share with you how much I care about you and so on positives, and I wanna share with you
how much I really would have loved to save you from all hurts. I would have loved to have been perfect in
so many ways. I would love to have been your best lover
ever. I would like to have been your best friend
ever, and all the things I would love to have been and you to be for me. And it's not easy for me to say this, but
I'm going to accept today that I can't that I can't do it. I actually can't fix everything. I can't prevent you from ever hurting from
ever being sick from ever doubting your... So I can't now 'cause I don't want to. It can't be done and I'm really sorry, but
I'm gonna have to retire from that today. And if they could reciprocate the same statement
The same, it's a ritual of goodbye, but not goodbye. It means the masks. It's kinda like saying, listen, I have this
one mask. I try to always be in a great mood. It terrifies me, but I'm gonna drop it. I have this other one that I'm the most handsome
pretty, or whatever thing you've ever... And I'm gonna drop that. It's not easy. It's kind of joyfully scary 'cause the inside,
you know what you're doing is healthy and right, but it's kind of scary inside. Seriously. I'm gonna own that. Maybe not. We fell in love and we met when we're older
and I'm going through menopause, so I can't be what I wanted to be for you. We met and I've already had children, and
now I can't have any more and bring give you children, I can't do this. All those things that come up human beings
would actually rather believe that any of those are possible still, honey, I'm 13 and
I'm gonna own that. I can't give you children. It's not easy 'cause I still think there's
a chance, but just as drop the MIS and the person listening should actually tune into
how that feels 'cause it doesn't feel great. You might go, oh, of course. Of course. No, no. When you're really honest, you realize timewanted
you to give me kids. I wanted you to be this. I want deep down. We do have the hooks and agendas to those
masses they're wearing which is causing the glue to keep'em on. So when they dropped them, it's a part of
us having to be vulnerable and accept. Okay, I'm glad you told me. And when it's done, and hopefully both people
have done such a thing. And even if you can't do it in person, just
do it in your mind, but do it sincerely. But when done, you can say how all the masses
have dropped. So I'm not even sure who I am. I gotta be honest. I thought I was this and that, and Masai don't
even know who I am. So I guess what I have to offer is this, if
you would like to get to know the new me, which I can't even tell you what that looks
like 'cause I don't know yet. But if you'd like to get to know the new me,
I'm open to that. If you can't or won't, I will understand it. I'll be hurt, but I'll understand. You have to put that out there one and every
so many are gonna say, no, I want the happy girl. I want the one that was a wealthy man or woman. There's gonna be some people that are gonna
say that. Don't ask these questions if you're not willing
to hear that answer. And I'm sorry if it does happen that somebody
says, well, no, that it gonna happen. And I've heard that in my life, but I've heard
that in other people's lives where somebody says, no, I still have to have those things. I need that from you. You're gonna hurt breath and say, okay, I
understand. Create an exit strategy. Do not do not bargain and say, wait, I'll
give you back three of those. If you give me back the love that you were
giving me, you can't. You have to say, okay, don't bargain. Don't retract your statement. Don't do that. Just breathe. And the house could be empty the next day,
and I would rather be in an empty house and start getting to know the real me then to
have all think. I remember a wonderful woman in my life was
my God mother. And she had a life all set up. Wealthy man, powerful man. Well connected, worked for presidents and
all these kinds of things. And I shared this story once before, but just
briefly it. I remember we stopped seeing her coming around
and it's like, whatever happened. And the story was she went crazy. Oh, what a bummer. You know if a kid, I'm like, well, leaving
it, she went, oh, bummer. What really happened was she told my godfather,
you know, she told him I'm out of here. He said, you can't leave 'cause he's told
her many years and she didn't do it. She didn't leave. He said, you can't leave the money is mine,
everything is mine. If you leave, you'll have nothing. And I'll tell everybody You're crazy. He didn't mention to anybody that he used
to chase her through the house with a gun. He didn't mention anybody that he used to
beat her up. She kept up the air. She kept the fake and just... He said To me, I did it 'cause of the money. Mike likei stayed. I was afraid I had no life. She bargained. And she said, but you know what happened one
day, I walked out with nothing and I've never been happier. He did have me institutionalized for several
weeks, but you know what? None of those people beat me up. None of the people in the hospital chase me
around with a gun. That's really the hard way man having to peel
off the layers, those masks. But she was blissful after she was blissful. She was probably already in her 40s. She became a hippie. She moved to oregon, lived in a community
or whatever. She wanted a war or nothing at all. So I imagine nothing at all. I imagine. She, she. was happy, but she went through that. And again, the people around, he said she
went crazy and she did not go crazy. She had a breakdown, but it was a break through
and it was hard. It was... I mean, I saw her, she was scared. She was sad and there was a bit of that. But that's just for a moment because it is
kind of hurts to pull those masks off, but stop blowing them on and what heard as much. So please remember letting go of masks, letting
go of guilt and shame. It's only gonna be as painful as is our insistence
to try to keep it. Technically none of those things are real. So they have no power and they have no ability
to give you pain. So if you fill the pain in making the changes
that to stop and say, okay, wait, Where am I possibly being attached to keeping this
in some way? Try to bargain and you're gonna feel pain. Alright, let's take a moment to center in
on to an internal process. It's just tune out the stuff of the world. And even if you're a person who carries very
little overt, guilts and shames. Remember you're part of the collective. So it's still wise to do the work. We're not always happy and we do have challenging
moments. Let's be honest about them, vulnerable about
them, open our hearts and souls, and do the heart and soul healing work. See a counselor, see someone that'll help
you work those deeper parts, do the online healing the heart and soul, of course, do
journaling anything that processes the masks off the inner stuff out and in the open. When we shine light on these things, they
disperse. If they scream on their way out, let them
screen on their way out. And each time we choose to recognize our innocence
and divinity rather than the guilds and so forth. There's an energy every time we choose to
identify with our guiltless ness or innocence. There's a burst of energy that comes from
our soul out into the world around us, and actually feeds the light that surrounds this
planet instead of the darkness that can also surround it. Every time we choose to access our innocence
and our holiness and actual energetic burst takes place that is as great as powerful as
when Jesus was born, because it still someone being born into the Christ light, really me. I can do that. Absolutely. So we take a moment to say, father, mother,
God, in this moment, we're willing ready, willing, and able to expose the unhealthy
bits and pieces of life. The heavy soaked coats that we carry of guilts
and shames and regrets. So we ask that the Holy Divine Mother and
the Holy Spirit descend into our being in this moment and activate an open each of our
centers chakras so that we can clear emotional baggage open each center, the crown, the third
eye, the throat center, open, open, open. We are open. We are willing ready, willing, and able be
with us and take us through this process. Open our heart, solar plexus, navel center
root center, open every center. We choose your will to be done and your will
is that we not carry these things. I joyously surrender all ego emotions of separation,
and instead allow my emotions and desires to be filled with peace and happiness of god. And after each prayer, some of you know, they
all only to a half dozen short prayers, but after each one, you can repeat. I am. As God created me, I will to be the Christ
on earth. I joyously surrender all ego emotions, that
a programed me to respond to attacks by defending myself. If I defend myself, I am attacked today. I will not defend myself because the son of
god, the children of God need no defense. In my defense listeners, I am strong beyond
measure and always at peace. I will be still an instant and go home. Now, there is only God and nothing can disturb
me. I affirm that my IAM presence is the only
power that is allowed to act in my emotions. I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. I joyously surrender my ego beliefs that I
can separate from god. I choose to look at this life with no fear,
no shame, no guilt, no denial on my part in ever creating this belief as I heal my misperceptions
about being separate from god. His love and light confirm their presence
by speaking to me through my intuition, imagination, and creative impulses. I am as God created me. I will to be the
Christ on earth. I joyously surrender the ego belief that God blames
and judges me for the decisions I have made. I am responsible for creating my ego and for
judging myself for doing so, therefore, I choose to forgive myself for these decisions
and accept the truth of who I am and what I deserve. God is, but love, and therefore, so am I? I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ
on earth. I joyously surrender my ego belief that due
to the error of my choices and actions. I'm not worthy to enter God's kingdom by learning
from my mistakes and surrendering. I am releasing. I am released from my past. Therefore, I accept my rightful place as a
co creator with god. I am here to multiply my life and let my I
am presence, take dominion over the earth. Today I choose the life that forgives debt. Forgiveness offers, where in I am free from
judgments that would reject a life of miracles. I am, as God created me. I will to be the
Christ on earth. I joyously surrender my ego belief that to return
to Heaven or God, or to perform miracles, that that I need to be perfect. I accept the truth that God does not look
for human perfection, as does the ego, even though it forever finds, flaws. But instead, God looks for the purity of
heart. It's not those who are perfect to see God,
but instead, it's those who are pure in heart, who shall see God. Therefore, I surrender all impurities in my
heart. Let me remember. I am one with God. I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ
on earth. I joyously surrender the ego emotions. That once convinced me that just because I
couldn't see, remember, or understand all the the scars within my emotional body, it meant I
could not heal them. I can work on my past without feeling so overwhelmed
that I react by going numb or into denial. Although I know it is not always necessary. I am willing to witness, if need be, all of
my emotional pains. I invoke waves of healing to wash through
my emotional body to cleanse and consume all past wounds. that once overwhelmed me. All the power of
heaven stands with me and within me, I am willing to love myself so unconditionally, in all
situations, from my past, the light has come, I have forgiven all. The peace of God is shining
in me now. I am as God created me. I will to be
the Christ on earth. And one more. I joyously invoke the pure compassion
of Mother Mary's Immaculate heart, and I call for it to wash over my emotional body and
the emotional bodies of all human beings in all dimensions. Divine Mother, let the energetic waves of your
pure heart wash through and consume my burdens and the burdens of all people, so we can attain
the vision and the will to rise above our fears and wounds. Awaken us to the reality that, as long as we
are not healed, we create an ongoing connection and identification to the wounds of the past
and the people who seemingly hurt us. I consciously surrender all emotions created
or controlled by my ego. I say, as did the divine mother once upon
a time, Oh lord, my "I am" presence, let my life and my emotions be according to your
will. I am as God created me. I will to be the Christ on earth. And now, in the name of my holy father, mother
God, the Holy Son child Christ, my true identity and the holy spirit. I accept that I am one with my I AM presence,
and that, through that oneness, I am sealed from all ego illusions and the appearances that
they project onto the screen of life. Today I am one with God and with all of my
brothers and sisters. I affirm that archangel Michael and his legions consume the planetary
forces that are anti to Christ consciousness. My Crist self exposes and consumes all power
previously given to my ego and all its manifest forms, having surrendered all illusions. The Prince of this world comes and finds no
resonance in me. My emotions and desires are God's, and the fullness
thereof. We'll repeat three times. My emotions and desires are God's, and the fullness thereof. My emotions and desires are God's,
and the fullness thereof. God is raising the Earth into a glorious new
day. Today I choose to live and be the will of
my Father mother. God, today, I choose the life of Christ. The kingdom of God is manifest in me and on
Earth now and forever. And so it is. Before you open your eyes, please
just take a moment to center anchor all this inside. We once believed we were separate and we forgot
our identity. The forgetfulness became a band of darkness
around our light and the throne, and that darkness became sat upon by the ego that sent
us outside to experience hurts wounds, past lives, and childhood wounds, and then to increase
guilt and shame around it all, and then to put mass outside of that so that we could
look better to each other 'cause each of us is a universe unto ourselves. So we look at each other seeing masks, not
the hurts inside. And so we imagine all beings being given permission
to drop their masks. And let's just for a moment, recognize if
we're all witnessing each other people all around the planet, politicians, children,
everyone, the mask high. I'm just a little cute little child now, politician
successful business person. Now say No to them all and let them drop their
masks underneath a scared wounded, being underneath that, the terror of the ego to not want us
to go any further inside, and we commit to looking even beyond that darkness and there's
pure light. So imagine that we've had the courage to look
beyond the mass and all the layers to the inside of each other, and there's pure light,
you're not black or white. You not blonder. Brunette, you're not male or female. You're not anything I need you to be. I retire everyone from playing any role whatsoever,
strong, weak, needy, attractive, un, attractive handicap, sick, or fit and healthy. I don't need you to carry any of those. None of your around the planet, even Jesus
off the cross, no one needs to play any roles because I am as God created me and I will
to be the Christ on Earth and in so doing. I'm seeing that same perfect light within
you each and every one of you free at last free at last. Thank god almighty, we are all free at last. And so it is. It is.
