Kim McManus | Finding God In The Deep

[Applause] you are looking good I am so I can't see most of you but I know you are so if we don't know each other my name is Kim McManus and and Wow have I been here for a long time and it has been good it has been a good good day or when I were at tEDGlobal my first head global with a bunch of really smart people and we were on the second row and for part of the sessions and ice or when fell asleep and I'm like the camera is right there can you wake up and he said Kim is it me or is it then not every talk was great but I hope this talk won't be like a sleeper so here we're gonna start right and we're gonna go someplace let's go someplace weird tonight like it I like my weird Baba so in the Old Testament deep in the Old Testament there's a book called Ezekiel and I love is Eco because I think of that prophet especially is like if I could compare it to a character on TV he would like be like setting that live drunk uncle you know drunk uncle that you just don't know what to expect one time God told him my profit go and hide your underwear under a rock for a very long time and he did it and he and God said now go back and take it out and show the people of Israel look at my underwear look this is you you are so dirty and filthy and he did it that is Ezekiel drunk uncle that is our Ezekiel that's where we came from because he was so radical he didn't think any kind of metaphor was too much for him and God met him in that place and God said I have a vision for you Ezekiel and through Ezekiel I'm gonna I'm gonna I'm gonna tell you the dream that I have for all of Israel and he gave it to him in a vision can you hear that oh never mind okay I can still hear it though but that's okay all right all right here we go so Ezekiel 43 but won't go there it just says this God said cuz this is a very long vision in that last chapter after Chapter after Chapter and I don't understand oh I don't understand so much of it but God gave Ezekiel this man this man and he said he's gonna be your guide through this vision and so the man we take him here and then he would like measure things and then the man would take him here and he would do things and God would show him this thing but he said ultimately I just I want my temple in the middle of my people right here doorposts a doorpost if I build my temple in the middle of Israel right where they are they will see that I am their God and they will be my people and we will have this love is intimate loving relationship with one another a real relationship because they'll get it they'll get it they'll get it you think they ever got it they never got it but it was a dream of God and so this vision is beautiful and this is the part where we're dropping into the story in chapter 47 right so chapter 47 goes like this the man who's the man the Messenger of God right the man brought me who is me two people are getting it I did all that introduction stay with me the man the man brought me back to the entrance of the temple and I saw water coming out from under the threshold of the temple get it No toward the east for the temple face to east and the water was coming down from under the south side of the temple get it now no you don't get it south of the altar south of the altar he then brought me out through the the north gate and he led me around the outside of the outer day anybody know facing east and the water was trickling from the south side I don't either that's the thing all that I know it was important to God and maybe in context of where they were where they were but I don't get all the directions only one thing I knew that in this vision God came from the east and he entered his temple through the east and the glory of God was so overwhelming that in this vision Ezekiel knelt down and his face was to the ground because it was so overwhelming and that's the only thing I understand about the introduction of that chapter whatsoever I just know we're at my house at my house when I see water coming out from anything and trickling down I run I realize that something's leaking and a pipe is broken and nobody in my house knows how to fix anything nothing so that is point one Erlin does not know how to fix anything so here comes that water and what are we gonna do about it and what is the significance for the water under the temple coming out the South and going where who God knows where we don't have to we don't have to know everything or understand everything or make everything up so it looks like we understand everything just know that some parts are ok get the parts you do understand so let's move on oh it's gonna be fun it's gonna be fun ok so this is what happened in verse 3 as the man went eastward with a measuring line in his hand oh I like this because I we are obsessed with measuring done don't you know or do you like to measure oh if I don't know where something is I just get my little trusty little measuring tape out hey let's just put that and we do that in everything you know we we size you up hey you got the right clothes you look the right size you you tall enough and blonde enough and thin enough and you're you're young enough you fit in come on in you know we measure everything you guys I couldn't in my neighborhood in my neighborhood no matter how old anyone is if their daughter went to Marble Christian no no marble girls Academy they will tell you that within the first minute of the conversation oh my daughter went tomorrow 22 years ago but really really my daughter was home-schooled and it's like all right but you know we are always measuring up you walk in the room and you know people are mentioning you they're looking we call it judgment right we don't like to call it that but that's what I call it my head when I enter a room so I take global I rise there are a lot of small people smart people just keep quiet please just Kim just keep your mouth shut and they won't know how dumb you are because I know they're all sizing everybody up but you have this big huge name tag that says your picture on it asked me about and this is who I am as important as but you know that's who I am and I was like oh no no I'm going into a way too smart of a room and you know what because we love to measure we just naturally measure everything and this angel is mister of God had a measuring line and he was like I'm gonna measure some things tonight can we just measure one thing let's measure each other by the depth of who we are spiritually we agree to that and have that conversation and it's kind of an internal conversation it doesn't matter how you know what your hair looks like how tall you are how successful we are how many zeros you have in your bank account it just is a personal conversation between you and God in all my opinions all right it says with that measuring line in his hand he measured off a thousand cubics that's about 1500 to 1700 feet and then he led me is it y'all he led me through water that was what he led me through water that was ankle deep wow that's you know you know what 1,500 feet that he's starting at frankly and going down to Hollywood Boulevard and so he led me all the way and I landed in water that was ankle deep it said Ezekiel said now is if ankle-deep water was a spiritual condition what would that look like does that mean III know what I I know what it looks like for me when I'm in ankle deep water we would call that what shallow um we hold that shower what is it what does it mean to be oh well we know what it means to be a shallow person and we don't want to marry a shallow person but I hear a lot of conversations I want this deep guy with like yes yes you do want a deep guy but you are sure that's only a conversation I have privately but I wonder how much how many people we draw that's deep over here in this area right most deep people don't hang out in shallow water right oceanographers don't hang out in shallow water Navy SEALs don't hang out in shallow water girls surfers don't have you know maybe a little few washed up surfers might hang out in shallow water but usually surfers don't hang out and shy I will win this argument so anyway so shallow but what is the spiritual shallow alright look it's this avoiding my real issues is easier than facing which leads me to a state of inertia and it tends to paralyze me I can't shake it loose I can't shake it loose and then I become paralyzed and I remain unchanged if I'm in that state of inertia for too long if I stay in that position some of us drift in and out but this this is like a condition that you have if you're constantly staying in that shallow water spiritually and you remain unchanged that's not where God wants you to be right and so then for me I've been in this pattern unhealthy pattern of automatic thinking automatic thinking no no I'm not good enough no no I can't I'm not a great speaker enough I don't deserve to be out there I and this I am NOT this I I'm too much this I'm too old onto what of that I doubt it and it just keeps going on and and on and I'm sitting there at tEDGlobal and I was thinking let everybody else speak and then I realized something in that in-depth thinking that automatic thinking patterns that I have going with the work we're doing in Malawi does that gonna benefit anybody if I don't go and try to find partners no speak up speak up and so I'm like hey I was like why are you gravitating to or all the speakers I'm like I got things to learn I got partners to get I only have a few days you know and I'm like oh wow I'm not there anymore I'm not there anymore because when you have so much automatic thinking that you let guide you or let paralyze you risk is your enemy right risk becomes your enemy that's shallow one more gene okay right here so then it's not natural it's not natural to see a grown man in a kiddie pool wearing wait for it wait for it wearing floaties with his mommy okay that's not natural you can look and then you can hear a marriage and all the hairy chests and all the things that go with that no but it's not natural because men aren't supposed to be that place that place but I'm telling you it's as much a an indictment on mothers as it is men I am a baby boomer I have raised children I know and I have seen mothers protect and guard and and deflect all of this off their children and they raised shallow men who are afraid to move and grow up I could switch it and say because I know mothers raise shallow daughters and fathers raise shallow daughters I'm not just putting it off on I'm putting it off on everybody we're not supposed to be that we do we set so many boundaries and so much protection around we don't want anybody to feel anything uncomfortable or let less or or dangerous because as we just keep you right here in this place you know why because we as mothers we have found this place to be quite comfortable thank you and so we ourselves have planted ourselves here and we have forgotten that you need to grow up because in some ways we have not grown up spiritually so beware beware of that I don't know if that is your condition but be aware of where you are in the story I did not create you for shallow God in your DNA put in the human DNA destiny progress growth advancement you being aware of your own potential to advance and God wanting to do something he just called you out he has said I have put you I have put eternity in your heart all right let's go back let's go back let's put on the glasses and then he says in verse four he measured off another fifteen hundred feet and he led me Ezequiel through water that was that is a long way fifteen hundred feet Franklin to hall at Boulevard in shallow water and now you take another fifteen hundred feet and there you you're ending and you're ending up in water that is knee-deep you know you can give the illusion that you that you're growing and you're still just the shall look it's the shallow water lasts for a while right and then one day you end up in knee-deep water like ha oh wow if you're not a water person this is scary I hear and I get it if you you know or a high diver or if you're a long distance Olympia you okay I get if you're a swimmer I'm not I wasn't raised around water and so it was always terrifying for me but knee deep you know here it's Nene was a spiritual condition it would be like this it looks like you've come a far but you could you could is easily go back as you could go forward you know those people there's needy purse you know they're like start and stop okay let's start over and then we'll look at let's let's do this again about anything in your life spiritually yeah anything you know they're just stop and go stop and go stop and go start stop quit all right start over again all right start stop okay here we go again here we go start again quit stop turn around that fits like a pattern is that a pattern you second a pattern oh because change man and trenched patterns can be so fierce I know for me I am NOT a very her wing can come in and he can say I'm eating healthy now and by lunch he could lose five pounds this is me I am going to get healthy now let's go get doughnuts because my automatic thought is tomorrow man tomorrow it starts tomorrow you know and it is so wrong and it has been so many years to get even into knee-deep water so first time I got to the gym the trainer said I would like for you to run a mile on the treadmill before we start okay right right I said yeah when I run a mile on this treadmill it will be the workout thank you and I go I have no shame in 24 fitness Hollywood because like I realize nobody is looking at me they're all looking at themselves so it's all right I started man I started I started that treadmill huh I can't do it autumn and then I got to a quarter mile I'm like oh my gosh like I got to a quarter mile without stopping I can Vic and then I realized a quarter mile turns into a half mile which turns into which was a challenge for the past at South Pasadena proud and the day that day and you you know marathoners will not appreciate this one day I reached a mile without stopping and the clouds parted in my brain and I had a new thought I think I could run a marathon I come from come from yeah but the donut cloud you know pardon and that's I had that new thought and I'm like I think I can do something else and so I went my firt I ran my first stuff I k pen my girls my my girls were beside me and because they wouldn't quit I wouldn't quit now is gasping I was really hard it was beautiful the beach and it was like a little windy and all that and I came across that finish line [Applause] you know I didn't win I didn't win this is for participation and I don't know if that's you and you come in expecting to get a medal for just showing up look that is high-quality toys-r-us stuff here will not ever bright it will not ever break but we are not getting any trophies for just showing up I know that your this whole pattern that stopping starting stopping starting stopping starting in and out in and out not all in but definitely not all out you show up when it feels good and great you know weather and all that I know that when I see you shake your hand I'm not gonna see you for another month because that's your pad that's what you got going I'm saying you're just in knee-deep places you see you have take mister mastery over your movement when you take mastery over your movement it creates momentum which creates which creates more momentum and you just keep going and you don't get you don't stop right but the beautiful thing about taking mastery over your own movement and it creating momentum is people see that momentum and they feed off of your momentum and it takes them to a different place you know good that is you know how healthy that is and that'll all come without a medal that'll all come without a meadow except I'm gonna keep my medal put my medal away so I love that what are you what are you gonna what are you gonna do right what are you gonna do gonna stay there and we move forward it says he measured off another thousand cubits another 1500 feet and he led me through water that was wait wait how deep was it up to my waist so I went from to here and now I'm up to my waist now this is where there are forces that are completely out of control that worked all right there are forces that are out of your control because those of us who are not really comfortable with this and they finally get to knee deep when they get to wasty there's some there's some thoughts that go through your mind if I go any further I'm gonna have to learn to swim can I do that have I got it in me am I really all in here and what about all those things that are like touching my leg as they swim by I'm not liking that I don't like that too much because it's out of my control and I love my control come on how much do you love your control Emerson you pay attention how much do you love your control I love my control I love my space at home I love I love being having control of my time and all my coffee dates and I love that I have some space here and like boundaries here and hello and people at LAX brushed up against me to close in line I'm like back up just back up a little bit you know because I love my space all right we love control but here in this place where it's way state are you're losing control and you feel that you feel the undercurrent poor you and you feel things are going to go either way right I could go with the undertow because the forces that are out of your control are both positive and negative both holy and unholy the ones that are gonna pull you down a horizontally down the coast those are the things that are your weakest self those are the things that I always plug you when you go to pray oh man yeah yeah I think about it it just consumes you what are those things that are pulling you further and further away maybe not back into but maybe absolutely into darkness right that's the undertow current of all of this thing right and then there's this holy force this holy current that is propelling it afford and that is so beautiful and so you're getting you're getting a sense of it right in this waist deep water God is connected with me and he wants a play he has a plan for my life and he he loves me he loves me and it is in a place sometimes in my shallow self I'm not convinced you know I'm just not there coming bands God loves me we still have having that conversation are we still gonna have that conversation about the love of God you need to get over the love of God and just accept it and realize every day you wake up it's a gift breathe it's a gift have a bed it's a gift have a car it's a gift have a bus token it's a gift have a meal it's a gift that isn't God feeding you that is God transporting you that is God giving you a work a job you got a friend it's a gift that you don't have a thousand friends oh poor you oh poor you but you know what don't have don't be stuck in that conversation that God loves you that's like I am so your friend right now that I want your best I want to talk with you I want to be there in this moment it is it is the time to trust him with all you have and with all you could have it's the unknown right are you okay with moving forward into things you cannot see that you cannot control and that you cannot know are you okay with that space and if you are you can move forward but God is not going to take you from shallow to the deep he's not going to take you there it's a journey it's a journey from Franklin to Hollywood Boulevard and Beyond and longer and hunger over and over again right but it's like in here you have decided I'm gonna learn to swim I'm gonna do this I am going to accept and trust God for who he is for my life and I'm gonna establish some patterns because I don't want to be pulled by the undertow I don't want to I don't want to be pulled by your rip current whatever that might be I tried it but I didn't understand it but I know that if there's an oceanographer in my future I'm going forward right if there is depth in my future I'm going forward and it turns like that spiritually in your own life right that your habits developed in prayer your habits developed in in in serving your habits developed in how you love well and your communication your honesty issues that they are all formed right here because it's gonna be that that will determine if you go forward God said if your heart is not pure I cannot trust you I will not trust you with great things right I if you're not responsible I can't how can I give you things to be responsible over if you are a poor leader how am I going to give you greater leadership capacity right mmm a lot of testing going on in these waters can you feel it can you feel it I know that some of you because I know I know you are struggling with that pool right and it could go either way for you because the tide here the undercurrent is so strong and the power of God has been so present in your life someone who was running away today showed up at a restaurant because they'd already left and the like 10 or 12 people from mosaic show up in that same restaurant and she said I came to this restaurant because I uh I knew all of you would be at Bogut and Tiger and I'm like wow wow if that happened to me that is a sign from God that you better be running back here you better be running God is after you he's showing you signs and wonders right here but what are you still missing are you said there's so much discover in the mystery of God but you're satisfied was staying waist-deep and you've been like this for years what is it that you're waiting for and are afraid of and I tell you it's fear right here that will keep you from swimming and that you guessed it man there is swimming over here happening alright let's go let's go it's good right it's good this is this it says this he measured off we're in verse 5 he measured off another thousand another fifteen hundred feet but now it was a it was a river baby that Ike then I could not cross because the water had risen and it was deep enough to swim in a river that no one could cross and he asked me he asked me son of man can you see this can you see this I'm over here with security you know look son of man can you see this now if you're very goal-oriented and you're like numbers and let's get this let's knock this out 5% body fat if that's a thing whatever whenever your client whatever ladder your client baby it's like can you see this well you if you're that if you're that you want to cross over and get to the other side because that's a goal that's always the goal right go through it get through it I would through it right and he's like you can't swim this is he he'll it's too high for you it's too much for you and nobody can nobody can get across this it's too much have you ever been in a place where we aren't completely out of control here you feel like oh man I wish I could rescue Houston I would have go in there why is this happening I want to do you know March Juan I see your facebook you're ready you're there already right but wonder if we if we cannot control whether we cannot control big government what what about that and God said this is not about that this is not about getting over on the other side if you're old like me and like I'm 58 years old and I'm standing in a different place than you are and I'm telling you from the future that this all goes in about a blink and a half this journey lasts only about two breasts and a COFF right about three lattes and a real bad cappuccino that's how long this journey of life is and then you arrive at 58 you call me up when you get there okay because I'm telling you what I see is this a really short journey so don't waste it over there or over there over there spend it all here spit it all here it all here because people my age think I gotta get to the other side it's called glory it's called heaven I gotta get there because this is too hard down here I have these conversations my peers why are we giving up already and yeah I sing glory and Wonder and I'm I'm saying in my head I'm ready Jesus Khamenei call my name yeah I'm listening but then there's a part Jesus no no you're in the the deep place and can you see it you know why I've got you here because people are drowning all around you and even though you don't know how to swim you can save somebody it's this really deep the river is rising and he wanted he wanted to zekiel to be in the middle so he could see a unique perspective of what was happening on the shore what was happening all the way back and what was happening down the center and so this is what came of that conversation I'm gonna come back here this here is the miracle of God it is both the miracle of God and your stewardship of your skill and your talents don't forget that God is not going to do everything for you here and people they sometimes don't make it out of the deep waters they sometimes give their life on a field where it's dangerous and it hurts and it hinders them for life you know what we do here at Mosaic is is difficult and to be so public is even more difficult I read this to you before but you may have forgotten so let me refresh your memory I have a son his name is Aaron Aaron and I are like this we've we fought you know a lot in our day he said he ran away to New York he tells you this he ran away to New York and in the turning moments of his life he he sends me this email April the 8th 2013 he said mom this is gonna make you cry but that's the only thing I'm not sorry for I'm making a grocery list for the first time in my life I'm afraid it's a little bit laughable but it's true I got three items which is eggs which I really don't even truly know how to make I didn't teach them sorry I will probably call you not long after I write this to figure out how how because I'm craving french toast and chicken I do wish you were here to cook with me because when you cook it's always best yeah yeah this emails about meeting Horace um what you believe is always best and with that said it leads me of why I'm writing this I rejected so many avenues of growing up shallow I rejected so many avenues of becoming my own person in the pursuit of finding something that could be mine knee-deep I rejected so many beliefs and moments and chances to be somebody better waist-deep but I never meant to reject to you now where it's shallow again and I never meant to ever make you feel like you were anything but a wonderful mother and I say this because the day I pray for and the day I think you did as well is here you're my friend waist-deep and my mom and I respect you and I love you and I lift honor of my father and mother and I'm writing this because I miss you and I absolutely love you and when people say I'm strong I know it's because of you you've always been the true north you've always kept the light on for me I found my way I'm here however far away I am I found my way back to what really matters in life will realizing that the pursuit of finding something to be mine is much more enjoyable when it is shared share with family and friends and you built a home in a church and a son who keeps who will keep building at spanning and pursuing the kingdom of God and telling the story of his son and now looking back I feel my own recoil I shudder at the moments of Talas at my own disobedience I am grateful for forgiveness that God gives us I am grateful for you and the love you showed that you picked me up off the ground you always forgave me you're a constant reminder of Jesus in my life and thank you for never giving up on me and that is my son and God brought him back the crazy thing the crazy thing about our stuff and my family is that you see it publicly and it's all over the internet so it better be coming from me and touch how you yeah yeah any one of you could stay here one week mean as new as you want to and have a reason to criticize us for not being all that we need to be and we are are inadequate in every way yes but you know what in my inadequacy I swim in the deep I choose prayer I choose the presence of God I choose the power of God in my weakness I have never ever ever for one day of my life felt like I was an adequate mother but honest to god I will never give up on my kids because because there's something in that there's something God is gonna do through us as a family we're due for a huge breakthrough we've had many moments in the shallow where we fought each other we've cut each other we've been so much against each other and but we're on this journey and we're not and we're not we're not gonna let each other drown here we're not gonna let each other dry this way I need to be in community you need to be connected to to a community you don't need to be swing by yourself because that's never a healthy thing right but God has brought you to a deep place to show you something new to show yourself maybe this is the night you're gonna be you're gonna look look look at this beautiful picture that he showed this was what God's dream for Israel was he led me back to the bank to the bank of the river and when I arrived there I saw a great number of what on each side of the river he said to me this water flows toward the eastern region it goes down to the Arab where it enters the Dead Sea and when it empties into the sea the salty water there becomes swarms of living creatures will live forever the river you get that there will be large numbers of what because this water flows there and makes the salty water one so where the river flows everything will live where the river flows everything that will live but you don't know what the river is you're like is going on in this vision the river that came as a trickling little stream that we thought was a leak in the pipes that turned into a shallow more deep deeper deeper is the presence of God it's his very presence he makes that known because everywhere the presence of God is things become alive again that's how you know you're in the right location if there's a life nassif there is dead darkness devastation stinky smelly get out that is the smell of decay don't be a part of that you know what this is what the vision was fishermen will stand along the shore because things are alive there's jobs from you get eaten in Ghulam and there will be places for spreading Nets the fish will be of many kind and but the swamps and the marshes will not become fresh they will be left for salt I don't know why but fruit trees of all kinds will grow on both banks of the river their leaves will not wither nor their fruit fail you get that every month there's not gonna be these long seasons where there's you know bad fruit every month they will bear fruit because the water from the sanctuary flows to them and their fruit will serve for what food and their leaves for what wasn't that an amazing amazing picture of what God is gonna do a beautiful picture that was his ideal I'm gonna be healing you I'm gonna be feeding you I'm gonna be providing you with jobs I'm gonna let my presence flow all the way through and around you I'm gonna protect you can you see it can you see it Israel and they just never could and his his contemporary that Prophet Jeremiah said this Jeremiah this and and Jeremih too he said in Jeremiah 2:13 he said this my people have committed how many sins to they forsake in me number one the spring of living water and they have dug for themselves there cisterns broken cisterns that cannot hold water as well yes become what we do right that's what we do we just say oh I can't measure up to God and yeah he says you know a mine was shallow moment he's he's not the spring of living water because my thinking is so bad he doesn't love me so what I'm gonna do is on it this is the closest thing I could grab to a cistern because it's like just a holder of water right I'm gonna make myself something for myself something that's oh so uniquely me it's gonna have a great exterior and so decorated and I'm gonna look amazing in this thing I've dug for myself he becomes like this bucket and then we realized wow I bucket is empty whoa no living water flowing through this thing because I can't I don't have it to generate inside of me so I don't know what's going on hey anybody want to fill my bucket you be my best friend you feel ever come on I need some takers anybody online anybody social media like like follow follow right come on fill my bucket my license I love you I've fallen in love with you for my bucket really right I want to marry you I want to yeah just as long as you don't expect anything from me I'm we're good I just need people to keep affirming me right and something is completely wrong never really holds anything right it's just because it's a broken system it's a broken system of thinking that hey if I create something in the perfect boundaries for myself I will keep people that I like close and people out of my life far and I just keep lying myself okay I just give it all I got I give it all I got hey hey look my designer bucket right look look oh I'm sorry I'm sorry let's do this right and I just stand around in crowds bars all night thinking oh this is gonna work it's gonna work right and I just shuffle back over here to shallow thinking that my buckets going to work and then I just it's a trap right bad thinking but then there's the there's the most beautiful thing because Jesus came change that whole picture and John let's go over there John 7 says this on the last and greatest day of the party Jesus stood and in a loud voice he said I don't think of Jesus being loud I just feel like he's like oh but this is how Jesus spoke at this time let everyone in the house who is thirsty come on over here come to me and drink right come to me and drink and whoever believes in me as scripture has said rivers of living water will flow from within then not down out under the temple because that temple just died and it was never a believer NAND and not that but I'm saying I have come and I have put my living water in the sight of you and inside of you living water will flow from within and by this he meant the Spirit whom those who believed in him were later to received receiving up to that time the spirit had not been given since Jesus had not been glorified and now he has been glorified in the spirit he's been given and we are containers for that spirit right not that container and not that condition and not knee-deep or wasted but we are to be in deep water with the Spirit of God flowing through us and it's so attainable right so that tonight I'm really want to challenge you I want to challenge you not to stand there not to wade through or forge through life but be willing to be engulfed by life and I tell you one thing the waves are so bad here their waves are really big here and and you're gonna get one way that's going to knock you down and throw you under and roll you around but you're gonna come back up and there's gonna be rescue but this place here is dangerous we look and we look back at the temple over there it is so far away now but we've liked the security of religion without the danger of faith right and God is gonna take you across the world and he's gonna put you on mission and you were gonna look at somebody who doesn't speak your language and you're gonna find a way to love them and and for those who are here it's gonna be your neighbor next door we're so bad at loving in the city but we need to get better and the first order of service in this deep water is how do we love better how do we reconcile our differences how do we resolve our conflict how do we find that God would never let us go so we cannot let each other go right can we we can we swim in that for a little while don't be afraid to connect to people because God has so connected to you don't be afraid of a room that you don't belong in because God has put you in that room to make that room belong to him and so tonight I just want to put it out here your greatest first step is to know Jesus to know him as your friend and that when you come to that place a friendship it is an eternal friendship with him and I'm just trying to follow my Christian life for all that journey it's up to 58 I'm so hung on to the fact that God was my father my father my father my father because I so desperately needed a father and now I'm in the season of my four I just need a friend and Jesus said I am your friend Kim I am her friend I hear you when you pray I move heaven and earth on your behalf I am for you I will take the fear away I will put you in places and I will open things for you that you've never seen before because it's a deep place don't be afraid don't be afraid tonight you need to receive that you need to receive that first you need to receive Jesus if you don't have him and then it for those other people you just need to receive a message I open your heart enough to receive a message did you receive it raise your hand here see that alright alright if you've received it let me pray for you and God I pray right now for those who are without you that you would come and stand face to face spirit to spirit and father as you see invitation into that life of that soul who was hopeless and without you and if you're that person just pray this prayer Jesus save me Jesus save me save me Jesus I am yours Jesus looks through the earth to the heart that it belongs wholly to him I'll use that heart Jesus says and he takes that heart on journey I want to be that woman whose heart is on journey for God who sees signs and wonders I don't want to miss a thing if I died tomorrow I will die a happy woman I don't want you to miss that and so everyone who received the message I pray over you I pray father for healing I pray for faith I pray for faith to rise I pray faith to rise leaders to rise among us skeptics I pray father for skepticism to fade away I pray father that we believe in you so intently that nations will come to know you that governments will fall and rise in their place I pray father that from among us we will have more world leaders city leaders leaders that will shape policy leaders that will love humanity I pray among us the artists will create powerful works of art and wonderful films I pray father your spirit in and through like a river working healing ministry we pray all of this in the powerful friendly name of Jesus amen thank you thank you people [Applause] Oh [Music] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Music] hey come on what saying let's just thank God right now wow what a phenomenal word can we think pastor Kim McManus that was incredible I mean I'm like shaking I don't know about you like I got goose bumps that that was that was for all of us that she put a word in us that cannot stay in us that now it's up to us that we got to live it out now we got to move from the shallow water into the raising River and bring people with us like I just want to encourage you do not waste that word because that was a gift and we know man I know for so many of you tonight it was extra special because maybe for the first time in your life or the first time in a long time you crashed into God that you let the love of Jesus overwhelm you and we want to celebrate that with you so that was you and tonight you said yes to Jesus we have this Bible here as a gift it says you belong here because we want everywhere you go with this thing when you open it up when you read it we want it to be a reminder that you are part of a bigger story now you belong to him and you belong to a family so before you leave but that was you and you said yes to Jesus when we go out the back doors there's an area called next step there's people on our team that want to help you just to take your next steps and you're in your new faith and also we want to give you this Bible so you'll see people holding it up just grab it from them they might give you a hug they probably will just go with it okay but man what an incredible night I'm so excited for this week this month this year so now it's up to you let's go do it have a great rest your week we'll see you next week you you

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Length: 55min 29sec (3329 seconds)

Published: Mon Sep 04 2017