KEVIN GATES: "I Pray Before Having Sex" | I AM ATHLETE

I'm gonna be honest with you fast and it's the cure for everything when your body don't have nothing to eat it's going to eat all your bad sales up because they go in the fight or flight and when they eat your bad cells your body release hydrogen and you know we breathe in oxygen sure so I'd be wondering like that I don't want all day without eating and drinking but I'm still pissing like why am I pissing yeah create our own water that's right it's one of the fastest the sun's up to them is that that's what most people do from sun up to sun down but I like to do it to where when I break my fast it's just with liquids I like that liquid diet what's the longest you fast for like no food just water like liquid yep like four to two days I did about three of them we had to fight to get a meal yeah wrongfully accused we had to fight to get the pills that's why we right to get a deal here on the team he gotta eat you know the skills keep it riding for the fam you got a life that we're getting real straight up but in the past bad work up in the trash bag I'll pass a lot to take the test before I pass class yeah and my family needed bread I had to come correct that's why I keep airing it out like I just passed gas foreign [Music] you want two grapes I'm gonna get the peach they got a grapefruit right and these help you burn fat too and it's essential energy so essentially it's it's good for you in a preservative Center really they got anything it won't they got an orange pomegranate too girl yeah there's two more these two more games that's a double dribble it's a double dribble this game and then we on okay good all right y'all on that okay this is one of those shows bro that you know I really been waiting on um it's an important one for me and I I Just Want to Jump Right In first thank you for blessing us no thank you for having me for sure so Kevin Gates you know I love it you know I love to get serious I love to get messy I love to get serious this one's going to be probably a little bit of both we can go wherever yeah the first question I got for you it ain't no it ain't no statue of limitation with me right right and that's what that's why I love you the first question is like who's Kevin Gates um you see what I'm saying you see what I'm saying like we could talk about this sport you got so much going on too you want the long answer who's Kevin Gates is poetry in motion is constantly evolving and the things that I'm revealing right now I could say I've kind of been afraid to reveal these things that I'm revealing right now like such as me being a world-class chef a world-class trap Lee slash athlete I remember the police officer I got a hell of a 40. but I'll do respect oh that I just wanted to kind of cut through um cut through the seriousness Detention of it and just make everybody feel good and relaxed um but back to me being a I hate to hate to sound like a narcissist but um I'm a half man half amazing it hasn't been anything that that I haven't been able to conquer So lately I'm working and combating depression combating suicidal attempts people that want to commit suicide um combating bullying uh I'm a designer I'm a lifestyle curator like what me and you talked about because you know anybody that's in the room with me eventually they got to get in tune with me because I don't do drugs you know everything I do is in the health and wellness Spectrum so it's like I'm just big on that like emotional intelligence being addicted to self-improvement like that's my thing not like learning how to surrender I know I'm so great but at the same time I'm only like a little piece on the board taking myself out of the equation and looking at how we affect each other as a whole because when I say I'm great we great in order for me to see greatness in somebody else I got to see greatness in myself right you know and I do want to say another thing like I know we on camera and stuff but it's a blessing to sit across from you I love you yeah I love you too I hate to say that like that oh you know the camera like this this dude really I hate to celebrate people this is really my brother like like even that Super Bowl he just jumped in the car with me I kidnapped you we were we've been eight and everything and then whenever we talk it's always something that's like it helped me become better like he opened his facility there for me at two three in the morning whatever time I call because this therapy for me I think that's a good thing man like your philosophy on love like how do you easily fall in love like and you know you you just Express how you love your brother like what is that I believe in love at first sight it's energy with me I believe in love at first sight it's energy and I operate out of the spirit of love not everything I do out of love even if you play I'm gonna just love you to death but it's all love with me so even if somebody energy on you know they they ain't right you still coming from their git like you loving that person yeah you're gonna love them harder yeah because it's never no negative thing as far as like you had to give me an illustration or example like that's the problems you you still got that same love for him yeah I love you but I still live under a code of conduct I'm even but it's gonna disallow me to [ __ ] with this person you know I look at it before that from the get like without you even knowing the person you know what I'm saying like if I encounter with you and I feel like your vibes your energy might be off for a little bit like what's your perspective on that surrender I don't jump the gun no more I used to jump the gun because you know in the streets it's like you under this mindset well I don't do no talking I mean as soon as he flinched wrong I'm getting off because uh how did quote go he who hesitates in war he who hesitates is lost right it's a poem I don't know we got all the best quotes I love the first sight but but I like divorced twice just so you know no it's not you live with your heart it was a journey yeah they still look great they still look great you got to catch it gotta let them land though you miss you missed certain things about that person you don't miss that person why are you not with him he said he lived with his heart first yeah you said love at first sight I thought I seen him like damn I love her and then I didn't do that before so that's that's normal and then people be like that's less how because I didn't even it wasn't nothing sexual it was the energy right I fell in love with the first sight sorry to interrupt you know you're in therapy right now okay now I said I said he can therapy this is who I talked to he got his master's degree when he had a little vacation this is who I talked to though so we all help each other he got powers though right and I can't wait to ask you because I I seen like an interview you did and dog I never met somebody that started a car with their hand tell me how you I'm gonna be honest with you and not to get off subject a lot of people are not ready for that that um that subject matter so I really stay away from it and I really spoke on that prematurely which a lot of people starting to wake up and understand that we are powerful people but I stay away from that conversation because it was so much negativity and just the disbelief of it because people are natural Skeptics right I'm one of those I got to see it to believe it type people okay so I gotta see it to believe it it's a positive yeah I know I know it was from a positive angle but I just want to stay away from there okay the many Skeptics that may be watching okay but I will had a conversation with you in private perfect because I'm talking about like even with me and you it was love at first sight like your energy yeah yeah it was like you you in tune I like you know I hate to say I hate to say it like that but because you uh like when we was talking about our first question for you I'm like listen this dude can you can go in any different direction you know what I'm saying because like it's one time he was way bigger than that from the health standpoint from the religion you know me from the mental health like it's so many different ways so we was like damn who is Kevin Gates so that's why I like when I ask you a question even about you know touching the the you know starting a car and all that you ever been at that you ever been at your house I'll say this you ever been at your house or something and been moving around with clothing and test somebody like you shocked me yeah yeah for sure that was the transference of what electricity right right makes sense though that makes sense you know it's interesting because some people our bodies are electric the monks say that though bro I'm being serious the monks say that how they could transfer different Energies through your Chi it's in your stomach hit them boys through your stomach we believe that our stomach is our first brain it's the CPU it's the central processing unit it's what sins everything everywhere a lot of our emotions all dictated by what we put in our stomach right you know it's some foods you can eat hey you sluggish it's some foods you can eat before a workout and you you right yourself energy yeah so you know our buyers are electric you you all right this is a terrible question because I already know the answer I won't even ask it you know your power asking from the perspective of others that may not all right do you know do you know the power that you possess like you walked in today right and and you know we got a whole team here and I'm gonna call him out our videographer Keon I'm like yo like get that shot at Gates on the piano right and he's like man that energy thick right now that's what he said he's like yo but I know you though I know you I I told them too I said yo I'm sending them clips for the past couple weeks like yo this is a serious conversation you feel me so I already know you that's why I was like yo bro can you do this [Laughter] question is do you know the power that you possess when you walk in the room yes sir but it's not from the standpoint of I'm high and mighty you know as you know I hunt I hunt so it's a different type of energy when you hunt my I guess my uh my grid is a lot larger than other people's grid because I got to be sensitive to any small fluctuation in the energy in the room and I'm not here to to overcome the energy I'm over here to just sit with it surrender and feel it and want to start surrender and I feel it I know where to go I know which way to navigate I let the energy guide me they say when you uh when you when you sit down a little bit so I brought it up 2008 31 months right like you learn a lot and and I don't know if it's true or not but they say you got your master's degree in psychologist is that true yes sir okay that's true um only to learn one thing what's that I hate to say this say it we was already Masters in psychology we was already in Massachusetts coming from the street because we already dealt with so many personalities we just didn't put a a big we didn't put up we didn't put a big label on it you know it's a great area it is no black and white every day when I meet somebody I'm doing the individualistic approach every day we was already there we did that we just we got we got the lettering and the documentation that just confirmed that we was already great I need nobody to tell me this we already do this through life's experiences that's why I kind of like it wasn't a waste of time it just was confirmation into who I am yeah that's and that was gonna be my next question you know did that vacation make you better yes sir you know what I'm saying the best thing that ever happened to me this is and this was in 2008 2008 so correct if he came in you came in when I came in so 2006 every time I went to prison was the best time it was the best thing because I always got greater through my isolation I learned it through isolation you you elevate when you isolate you elevate because you had one with yourself you in tune with yourself you seeing yourself in a way like outside you you yeah I think you're not being overly stimulated with social media you're not none of that you just really just with yourself and that Oneness you become god-like in a sense I feel like I'm floating like when you listen to you speak I feel like I'm like I'm free not in my chair like it's hard because you are because a lot of these conversations are refreshing because you know when we talk with other people it's about what song and right right what [ __ ] and make this [ __ ] bad and you know we compare the notes so you know we have dick measurement contests in that version you know we don't know that we doing it but that's what we do because everything be competition and ego and it's refreshing when you find somebody that say you know hey you great and in order for me to see greatness in myself I got to be able to see it in others it's a beautiful thing like if the energy aligned like we in alignment right now so this is Holy like you don't got to go to church this is sacred this is a sacred moment for us that's why we our vibrations is Raising I haven't eaten or drinking anything today at all Ramadan all right I got a lot of Muslim homeboys yeah hey real quick I got a I got a funny one to ask you though because you love to talk about how you you get up in them guts and they feel in their stomach right now real quick I gotta get there Kevin Gates clip like yeah what's up like you know what that mean because you hear the lyrics you know I'm about to come over there but that's the other that's other part my question is I got drafted to the Eagles in 2009 right that's what me and DeSean Jackson met and it was this look at the time at the time oh girl name was um Corinne Stephens I won't even say her nickname you know what I'm talking about super super right so I got a lot of you know I got a lot of female homegirls and they hear what you saying and your music and there's no shade to it huh no no no but let me finish you got to use your hands though oh she use her hands I don't know if you've seen the videos with all due respect there's no shade they got some monsters out here that ain't never writing no book but but I'm talking about I'm talking the part of when you like we were so hyped when we heard about her so then I was trying to get in contact with her do girls be trying to reach out to you they hear you you doing this you doing that like I need to get this [ __ ] number like I'm the yeah man they're trying to be honest with you when I'm at on my journey right now I know it's gonna sound weird it's gonna sound crazy I really I don't look you sex as people view six I don't I don't even really like talking about it in a sense because it's not physical for me it's spiritual for me it's a connection okay you know I pray before I have six that's real and when I I noticed what made me kind of shy away from talking about it is because when I talk to women it seemed like they was chasing at The Fetish or they was seeking arousal or things of that nature and really wanted clout from those type of situations and conversations but they don't understand like when you were God this is spiritual unification there's not no just you know in and out to put you know I'm beating up you know I'm beating up back in this ain't just that you know now we get excited sometimes you know what I'm saying if a Woman signing in her stomach she hating on me away from those type of conversations because it's like like six is sacred to me it's spiritual unification like I like come on like what man you meet that don't release right what man have you met that don't release they say you know my life force is so important to me that I don't release so it's like whenever I will have a conversation with a woman about that it's like she oh you know you you get you you seek an arousal are you seeking something that's gonna make a wow factor from this but this is my life and it's not because I feel like I'm better than nobody I know the power that they give me like when you meet me and you can see I meet men that that release every day all day and they drained their brain don't have the cognitive the cognitive function that my brain has they it's just they're not as strong I'm talking about emotionally the emotions being total disarray because you didn't spread your energy spread yourself too thin with all these different women you know and I would seeming contains consciousness so you place your Consciousness everywhere do you ever release you just never release you just if if I need to release your body gonna do it automatically your body's just gonna release that ain't like teasing us like oh you probably so mentally no show me teasing what you do is what you do is it's called sexual transmutation like when I wake up with they got something called morning wood yeah yeah I don't just grab a sock and shoot it in a site I take that energy from there and jump straight out the bed and put it into my workout I put it into my music or put it into something that's gonna make me greater like sex transmutation you translate that sexual energy into your crowd I was I was just going to say like a lot more like a lot of people that get injured like when you play sports like a lot of people that get injured and stuff like that like I noticed since I've been well he got me doing Pilates but I noticed since I had been like on my yoga journey I had no injuries and I noticed that flexibility type yeah and I noticed that since I haven't been releasing my recovery is like hey ASAP is it almost makes you God's like so you we we're in Ramadan now right and we're talking about sex as well one of the things I think about as a man I think about discipline I feel like for us to reach our full potential as men we got to be disciplined and I look at a couple areas in my life and I could miss a couple but like sexually if you can't if you can't be in control then you can you're not in control right like can't you say no can you walk away do you have boundaries around what you're doing training is another one how you take care of your body like I feel like you have to have a routine a discipline around how you take care of yourself and as athletes a lot of this is already built in that routine that structure you know but we're not thinking about sex and then also food food's a big one do you have discipline at the table Yeah and a lot of us don't even think about that like can you walk away and I brought a ram gun because you know you go through this experience and you got to have that discipline and and when you do that it's like when you talk about evolving you talk about learning and experience and different things the world just opened up I went the longest for me I went seven months celibate last year yeah and I felt powerful you know what I'm saying yeah and they laughing at me I share this with my team uh a couple weeks ago no it's another experience but like I'm impressed I released a couple weeks ago and look bro what I'm telling you when you was doing that when we was communicating you could see it all in your skin your glow was there and that's what uh the woman's ovaries are attracted to like that you could walk in the room and your aura is so strong it's called magnetism I use that to magnetize the things that I want into my life such as the accomplishments and goals when I walk in a room of course a woman gonna say yeah I ain't really feeling him like that you just saying that because the dawn wasn't on location but when I'm on location you're gonna lose your mind because your body you having a chemical reaction to my oral you can't help yourself when you're in the presence of greatness let me ask y'all this question because you talked about uh sex being spiritual for you yeah she know exactly what I'm going through I know exactly where I'm going because like I experienced something so look DJ did you pray no I ain't praying that's interesting it's the affirmation though you gonna pray but who you praying over though like but um I feel like the woman the woman that I'm energetically about to align with we should want to make these affirmations before we enter this she will be in tune with me she gonna love it she gonna say you know I never met no man to do this I never met no man that do this I never met no man that told me hey look soon as we finish hey make sure you go urinate so I could clean out my I could clean out my urethra you could clean up you know you is this is how we flush ourselves you never meant no man I never met no man that was as clean as you you know like that's like if I have sex with a woman and we might not come I might not give her no STD but I go have a have sex with another woman you know just the energy could offset her pH levels that's real just the energy from it because a woman's body is very very sensitive to energy such as men too but we like the downplayed like if I get super angry your body release a chemical called cortisol and it could give you a urinary tract infection which most men don't know that your body release a chemical cortisol when you super mad and then there you go when you pit man you got me and get you you got yourself so you don't have a random sex then it sound like you you can't have that I will if the energy in alignment but the energy ain't been in alignment because I could be somewhere and see a woman that drink alcohol and I'm like where you get that mentality from like growing up who do you like get your credit to like as far as you raised you like because your Mentor is different my grandfather big Sam I live life at an accelerated pace and I did have positive male reinforcement in my life even though a lot of the males in my life made a lot of the wrong decisions but the intentions was pure because that's all they knew they ain't had no choice but that and like I say big brother don't get it twisted I'm not perfect I make mistakes every day I break down I get angry I do all of that everybody do that but I have ways of dealing with it and my way is like Fitness a lot of stuff you talking about it reminds me of somebody had a closer relationship that lost their life Nipsey hustle um like what was your relationship with like with Nipsey if you have one and just give us a story about him because you know I don't like to talk about this either but but I did see him a couple days before he died and we had a real deep conversation I told him so he had just broke his face and I it's crazy that when I be the two times that I had been around him like he was fast and at the same time I was fasting all right that was weird for me um but him and my him and my I got family out here in California and he real close with my family but other than that I don't really like to get into that conversation because like you got so many Skeptics out there but a few days I told him I said look I'm about to go to Dubai when I was in Dubai that's when I got the phone call from Jay Rock he was like man my brother I ain't even you know because I love Jay Rock without my heart yeah I could see what to this day it changed because he even more overprotected with me now for sure 100 more like the health so I like the doctor said be like in the evening you know what I'm saying like you're regimen on the health and like what the [ __ ] you eat affects you and you can see it in your face like more on that type of level like if you don't mind like I'm gonna be honest with you fast and it's the cure for everything when your body don't have nothing to eat it's gonna eat all your bad sales up because it go into fight or flight and when they eat your bad cells your body release hydrogen and you know we breathe in oxygen sure so I'll be wondering like damn I don't want all day without eating and drinking but I'm still pissing like why am I pissing yeah we create our own water it's one of the fastest the sun's up to down is that that's what most people do from sun up to sun down but I like to do it to what when I break my fast it's just with liquids I like that liquid diet that's hard so what's that what's the longest you fast for like no food just water like liquids yeah like four to two days I did about three of them 42 days I hate what I'm about to say I don't even wanna I don't hate it we learn it this this is kind of Deep you go there bro nah I'm okay I'm gonna just say this when you fast you not delusional when you fasting things really get weird because you're not seeing into you seeing beyond the Physical Realm you you seeing into a spiritual realm why are you protecting why are you protecting like uh going deep some of your experiences yeah like you know like it's crazy it's crazy somebody need to try to cut you off but like that my boy I swear to God bro my boy last night he fasting out his first time doing it and he telling me like I should try it and I'm just listening to what bro talking about this [ __ ] like I'm hearing like it's just crazy bro I want you to go into it's not that I'm afraid of it is just that stay away from spiritual conversations because it's like people take people try to destroy things that are sacred beautiful because they don't know powerful but how would that look why does it matter why does it matter you know what I'm saying that what you're saying yeah yeah Oh you mean you mean you feel like it's more attention to you or nah it's just in general I think just the in general fact that he's saying when you talk like I was trying to be I was trying to like kind of keep everybody kind of keep my wingspan around everybody but if you want to no because like when you talk about fasting uh I was playing for the Chicago Bears 2000 2013 I went on a fast I did 21 days and um Joseph uh one of my mentors he'll be a general manager one day in the NFL and uh he is like yeah I think you should go on the fast but when you fast I want you to journal I want you to meditate and I want you to um I want you to pray right and so I did that and wanted I had a I had an experience where my my cousin Denise her second fight a cancer came back and I'll never forget I'm driving down the highway going to practice and I'm like all right what we gonna do we're going to pray but we're not even we're not even entertaining that at all it's fixed boom so we pray he's fixed we pray she called me back three days later I went to the doctor the doctor said they can't even find it and I'm not saying you know what I'm saying but fasting bro like when you really when you pray and you meditate and you write down like so much stuff comes up and so many things can happen but you got to be really aligned though when I need something when I'm really in need like if I need to answer I need Clarity I stop eating foreign I hate to like I know this sound weird to people when they hit this but it take it take about that 40 to really reset who you are as a person that's 20 that 21 that 21 gonna be a complete like reset but then once you get in there 40 Man close to them 30 that's when things get weird see I was doing in a good way yeah yeah I was doing I did 21 I was eating like nuts and peanuts like kind of like paleo like Jesus died they call it what's your suggestion on somebody that's that's never done it before like like starting off starting off like what would you suggest slower you go the further you get all right the slower you go the further you get if you're going to do two or three days then one day work your day the six days work your wages you know going slow I ain't just go straight to the 40. all right I did like three I was like yeah that's cool then I started doing like seven like that's cool they did 27 days one time I'm like man I'm about to go that whole 40 I know I could do it all right hey I had weak moments but that's where prayer come in that's when I tap into my spirit I don't know why people want you to think that the spirit a holy spirit comes into your your spirit is already holy right out of five billion sperms you was the one that made it I heard Dick Gregory say that your spirit already hold it was supposed to be you we just think less of ourselves but I had made a bottle of myself I never do no more negative self-talk I never doubt myself beat myself up for past mistakes and what's been helping me when I do myself inventory checks like any mistake like you ever made a mistake and you think back you kind of cringe like man I shouldn't have did you know that's the philosophy I look at on your philosophy on winning I go back and forgive myself yeah like I said I seen a coach you said something about like you're gonna win so much but until you understand the awareness of what you doing bad you feel I'm saying like this interesting me because it's like we already know how good we can be until we go through first in life you know what I'm saying but like every every fall down it's not about to fall it's about how you get up from the University Bill's character you Mentor a lot of other like young rappers or rappers in general because he got a different perspective in any day around me but and I'm not gonna say I let bad experiences frame me like I learned from somebody that don't change who you are change who you good to but my thing is I just do it in a broader Spectrum now so I don't hone in on just one individual but if I I didn't have people around me that hadn't gave them the game I like really gave him the game and like I I'm super proud of whatever whatever but sometimes some people could love you so much they could love you so much that their pure existence will be shattered if you don't disappear is that is that NBA youngboy they got people like that like they can love you so much emulate everything you do so much but by you still existing it Shadows who they damn want to be and they've been like that my whole life in my neighborhood not to cut you off I've been in the streets my whole life so I got a bunch of like people that y'all watch me do these things in the streets and emulated me and everything that y'all do from accident to the walk talk everything it's a million is that on the table though the one you talked about like oh no that's my brother we ain't gonna speak on that we can speak on it I wish him the best who is that because you said you proud of it like I'm interested to know like Oh no I got Sons out here like like that I write I'm saying in the industry yeah like who is a person that you could talk about where you gave him gaming you looked up and he took it in and you know already used the photos work just an example man I could give you a lot of stuff yeah just give me a few look in the music industry just look at it I always say that there no just look at it let's take I love NBA young boy my little baby I die from right now hey I'm talking about look in the in the industry like everything you see I respect you real talk like when I like I knew I met I knew you lose like when y'all first came in this hill like all of them like look at it just look at it I'm talking about from the mouth to everything just look at it and I'm not trying to throw nobody under the bus but look at it you know but I was telling you about that it like it won't explain that say I don't know music I like your music I listen to you I still listen really really yeah okay this is my challenge the Kevin Gates challenge go back and look at Kevin Gates in 2015. right and look at everything else now so which was so what's that's what I'm saying everyone else like this is texture this is real texture um it's not cut you got to come get me off the bottom of the glass I'm down there swimming with the dolphins when I was when I was sitting back really because I know you as a person I really and I like your music but I don't really know the history you feel me like so I'm sorry yeah you came in when I came in 2006 2007 whatever and you know you're a real OG but I feel like a man you had this conversation in the Super Bowl I feel like you about to evolve and morph into something different what's next like that's you know what I'm saying what is it something going on and you know what's going on what's going on big screen small screen I didn't want to see it but big screen small screen cooking with Kevin Gates like I'm really a dog in that kitchen people travel all over this real talk people travel from all over the world and wake me up out of my sleep and make me cook for them please I'm gonna come in tonight we just go in the morning get everything just let me know what you need I'm gonna bring it and I just want you to do that thing what you did that time I was over there last time so you're getting down like then I say look I'm gonna show you how to do it I just showed them how to do it and guess what they still don't get it right that's like Louisiana yeah that's that Creole food okay so that's a little something I appreciate that like what what what's and this might be too surface level but music like I feel like something big about to happen in music for you I feel like you're about to go on a crazy run like I feel like you I am I am I feel like you've just been like I am I'm about to go on a stupid run big brother I hate it it's it's so amazing that I'm humble and I'm excited at the same time because it's about to go in the air and then and for me the reason why like I'm sitting with them at Super Bowl and hold you you're a fan base your fan bases I mean that's what now nowadays if you got a fan base you got an audience you can do whatever you want yeah it's about that man yeah what can you do social you know for you you say like yo we gonna be over here at 12 P.M you're gonna have the whole city out you understand so that's what I'm interested because it was it was Grass Roots I started Grass Roots I wasn't on the internet with it I was out in the streets and people faces when it was only 10 people at a concert I still gave it my all this was years ago when everybody was going to do big clubs and all that I was touring only getting like maybe two thousand dollars a concert less than that maybe a thousand dollars my first show that I ever did in my life I got like 300 for it I don't care I don't get it because I ain't doing that nowadays that 10 turning that 10 gonna turn into 20. you can have millions of fans but guess what you got to start it you always got to start at one so that the passion part is that the passion in it of the journey I'm really kind of living my dream I'll read it because my goal was to only hear somebody to try buying the car my music playing and it ain't a place I go in the world in a slump in America they gonna be playing their Gates [Music] like they had another dude was fast and he had not to get back on fasting but he had coughed up like I think his body expelled like over 30 tumors that he didn't even know he had did you hear about that story yeah the Redskins was trying to force him to play and he like no I got something wrong with my head bro when he came back it was cancer but they were trying to force him to play through that he was like I'm [ __ ] up and then I said you're all right I'm not trying to sound too california-ish because they'd be like that sounds so la when you say that but cancer is only energy blockages in the body hmm in the body yeah energy blockages they say you sound too California 's helpline that I do yeah like what people call in and I'm like it's a cure for everything that sounds so lazy hey but you know I deal with the Skeptics you know that's cool because I'm a big skeptical so I gotta see it to believe it but I'm open to trying yeah new things and create new neural pairs but they say that like you sound like so california-ish when you say that cool but look at me as opposed to you yeah I never been to one of your shows I got I gotta I gotta experience it but you talked about passion you just did a Show recently was a lot I was talking to a friend and I was like you know actually I connected y'all it's a different experience and she was telling me about it she was like yo like his his she was telling me about your fan base and how crazy it was but you just did a Show recently and your eyes was like bloodshot red I was proud of crying oh he was crying yeah but I do that three four times a day anyway I release like that yeah but this year was I probably was crying or Prada was the sweat what you crying about it just you find something to cry about it I'll just be releasing like when I was telling you about J-Rock just the way he was destroyed out by the crowd just now I had to hold it back together right because I don't mind people seeing it right I cried three four times a day I don't care I'm in tune with myself so you making yourself cry are you finding something to cry about like no I haven't been through so much past traumatic experience that we suppress as men we have to be so tough all the time that we never release right and sometimes they just it just come like that I release yeah the years it is I've been through the worst of the worst sure the workers I'm with you my brother so you said real quick you said that um you only care to hear somebody you know right past playing your music that was my goal at first okay so when did you when you know like I arrived I made it like damn like I really made it I had got lost I ain't got lost in chasing like the fame at one time and I started looking at Instagram when I came back home in 2018 from the last bid I did and I was like man everybody that took my swag and don't nobody salute me don't nobody pay me my respects you know man you y'all know this me you know it is me yay none of y'all know no security I'm living like that anywhere I go any everybody has bad witness to this we shot a video on watch not I don't know cause I'm no tough guy it's because I come with love I'm comfortable in these places because these are environments that I really come from so that's why I was so much love when I go places you know you see everybody y'all just get different results when the cameras come off but you know no and there's no and there's no point intended to anybody but you're not going with love you're going to prove a point yeah you're going you're going with different intentions and and like it just it hurt to say man I put so much in the game I've been a Pioneer this year but um after I dropped that was I was having these thoughts after I dropped big gangster it was like man I feel like man the labels they just use my loyalty against me y'all got me to take these children under my wings you know what I'm saying y'all took my blueprint you know I I used I yeah I feel used you know I used to be pointing the finger I'm standing on Co angle just standing out where I remember I was across from the uh the old APG building I'm like I used to be in there every night just like a dog just going hard like a dog they had some Mexicans come by in the car they was doing a lyric funny lit dance but all you heard was boom boom boom boom boom and that's when it came back to me like I was by myself I had that Epiphany man I'm already winning this what I wanted they ain't saying nothing on social media I don't care it's really celebrate me on that black top right when I say black top I'm talking about the street yeah they celebrate me on that Blacktop and I was comparing my life to other people highlight for him because they want to show you the good part right you know what I'm saying I'm like man everybody be going crazy man he living like that yeah then I got off social media for like a year and a half well he know how it is I got on social media for like a year and a half I really had to deactivated my pay because I was gonna go ahead and yeah how we're gonna get it done and then the type of person I am I ain't about to say hey bro I'm about to kill myself I don't do all that that's that's horse playing to me I feel like if we gonna do it I was just gonna have to fire my bad I'm about to go zip myself it's just how I felt the short version of it but in being on social media and stop making comparisons does it make you do it because everybody winning on social media everybody get to that point though that I wanted to smash myself you want to be honest yeah because you seem super strong mentally no uh no the people when the people are wrong you don't celebrate you properly you you know like like I'm in this world-class athlete but at the end of the day when I go home I'm not being celebrated properly I'm on the good as what I could do you make me feel like I'm on the good is what I could provide yeah and I bet not do this and better not do this are you gonna you know what I'm saying that's how you look at life it's like you're not being celebrated by the people around you like I'm already getting beat up by the world I'm already a [ __ ] you know what I'm saying I make this [ __ ] look good you know what I'm saying but I'm already a [ __ ] I'm already getting beat up by the world am I already looking at social media you know and comparing my life to other people highlight Realms I'm dealing with this I'm already dealing with the anxiety because I gotta be the best in my field when I feel like I'm not the best at what I'm doing am I already this and then to go home and still not be in peace so it's feel like you know what I hear Take My Money y'all go ahead I'm gonna get out the way since I'm the problem I saw something where you said family was like a celebration like any time you're with your family it's like a celebration to you yeah so speaking on that like explaining that like because I can feel that feeling you going home and all the way and the pressures on you know what I'm saying you got to take care of it nacho nacho family and loved ones around you like your mom and dad and all that which I'm talking about when you with your children like that part of it is a celebration because I always looked at having a family like winning all right that's how I always looked at that like wife children that's winning to me for sure like having a million multiple females that was never winning to me and I hate to sound like a sucker but like I kind of am because that's what I that's that's the person that always been was family and children like that's how I was raised kind of old-fashioned so even in my situationships I end up this is my first time seeing this I'm just saying it because I'm in front of you even with a woman that I'm dealing with I kind of deal with her as if like she my significant other my partner like like because that's when I was looking for that love in all the wrong places before I started putting that love back into myself it's so easy for me to pour into other people and when I do finally point on myself I kind of feel wrong for doing so this is my first time ever seeing it in the interview I was never done but I want to see it there because you I love you love you too girl I appreciate that information but another thing I want to say um another thing that that I wasn't doing I wasn't communicating properly because sometimes it's hard to communicate when you're a man because it's like [ __ ] you posted just know but it's it's hard to communicate sometimes when you're a man because we've been through so much and you never wanna say something that we don't ever want to say nothing to make us look weak or be vulnerable then you got to be careful who you be vulnerable with because when you're a man you know the thing is don't test me yeah I don't want to be tested and if I am tested I'm gonna I'm really willing to die is that why you all always say men suffer in silence we do every day every day like my sister could come to me I can't believe he probably put him on deck for him I'll take care of curious you know what I'm saying you ain't say you know I can't go to you you know what I'm saying which I got comfortable doing that now but I still feel like man me a lot of men suffer in silence because on mad they I don't want my past to be I don't want you to be interrogative what's that movie uh Minister Society with you right now you about to use this against me on Mad day yeah so he said don't do that to me that make me feel like that now they make me go back in my shell like who can I talk to no worries put you in the Shell like a mother so how do you start communicating better today I just said you know what okay well really you know this I had to say that but I'm gonna be honest with you spiritually I can't believe I'm about to say this my throat chakra for me not telling the truth my throat chakra started getting blocked and I start getting sick until I started opening my throat chakra and speaking the truth I haven't been sick since that's cold when I was living at the other spot before I moved here yeah I used to be sick of that like just like weak and everything because I wasn't speaking and when I'm not speaking my truth I'm not living in my truth and when you said boundaries you showing love for yourself it's okay to tell people no not today yeah let me ask you this question but I had a fear of telling people no because you know once you tell them oh yeah I already know they act like you never told them yeah yeah that's the thing I said yes like like this is my brother been locked in he been drafted to Philly he out here now he over there where I live at one of the good folks in the neighborhood but it's 5-10 minutes away from Crenshaw in the hoods we grew up in my little cousin driving down the street he caught my phone immediately like I just seen LaShawn McCoy I'm tripping like I'm like oh where you see him at like don't live over there remind you I live right next door this is my cousin he don't even know I live over there because he could get ugly and I'm telling bro like you got to be careful where you moving where you go like [ __ ] get real in any places in the world why are you looking like that because it's real no he'd be calling me off scared it ain't about being scared don't talk about him yeah yeah yeah for TV and it's just so real you know like take us recognize givers when you got a genuine heart and you're a good dog you got to realize you you susceptible to take us even the women you deal with yeah you know what I'm saying them don't be just following you know that beat them hoes you know so to say I'm wrong because in case you will go back and forth out the hood you've been with for 10 years ago whatever it's my safe place my little trap girl I'm cool yeah I could keep your Instagram models I know every good games you know what I'm saying she gonna bang it I wish I'm gonna bang it off I'm wrong okay cool but I'm winning but you back home now though back home where cause where the heart is and I ain't got nowhere to stay for a new Escape hey my last question for you I'm at home right now this is home what's the relationship here though cause that's crazy want me to be on the hell yeah you want me to tell them the truth the true truth or Justice well you know we've been knowing each other for eternities you know what I'm saying before this round but we connected in this round we United reunited in this realm like I forgot your life forever you see this conversation this is I knew he was in tune he was tapped in yeah like that spiritual energy I knew I just knew when I first had just I heard him speak and I just been I forgot when we first connected but it just like been my brother like I knew that was my brother like love at first sight I knew that was my brother you ain't gonna say pause it yeah out of all our interviews all the rappers know that this is my favorite one you know um but like you're teaching us though but this man and I ain't trying to just salute him you're hurting me like that and just keep opening times but but like I was going through one of the roughest patches in my life I can't really speak on it this was in 2022 and I should have came out there yeah when you told me to come but in record my album and I came here instead but I should have came there but when I came in Miami I was like damn you got some good advice sometimes sometimes man sometimes I should have came there bro I should have came to the eye to the to the to the facility bro that's why you don't judge though right I'm gonna be honest because he had some takes that social media now he'll have a 20 40 minute interview and they'll chop up with somebody right but no real quick he said that yeah man this is weird yeah you walk in with a suit I'm like like yeah okay that was different right man that's solid then as I meet you right then we start talking I'm saying yo he ain't nothing I thought he was from all them takes that's why I never judged them because I don't know I'm gonna be honest with you they always do that to me in interviews and that's what had me like scared to say stuff right for fear of somebody doing that wish when I'm wearing around my big brother I could really just speak freely yeah cause I'm gonna be honest with you like like even with like this going to with my mental cognitive like I was going through it through it like I did like two years on the road and no uh no two of us just in an Escalade truck just with that little dog right there that little dog yeah I was on the road I'm talking about imagine the the thing imma just say this imagine you playing your whole NFL season your whole season and at the end of the season you go to the bank ain't no money in there it ain't nothing in there I'm just saying a message I'm just giving you a hypothetical all right I'm not saying that happened to me but just imagine that happened yeah I don't know the people you love and Trust oh that's cool but you can't but you can't just land you okay are you a gangster so if you come out and say you ready right so like what's up right yeah but he but he but but me and my brother know everything that was going on with me like I like I really suck for it but the media make it look like man he just a monster he this and that how I always been a sacrificial lamb and I ain't even playing victim I know I'm all to deal with I know I don't communicate fulfill of people judging me or fulfilled you taking my vulnerability and using against me I don't get close to people fulfill you taking my loyalty and using against me because I could be honest with you every time I went to jail it was for somebody else then this last time I went then this last time I went to jail you know 1201 yeah we're going to release you at 1201 they come serve me a warrant what you know about having your heart broke like that go to Chicago you heard me I gotta you're not taking in that in the accountability that I had I was detained in another jurisdiction y'all slamming what you know about having your heart broke like that then y'all say I'm this gang Chief I've never been in a gang in my life I just led the prayer it was different gang members that just happened to you know be Muslim I led the prayer they say I'm a big game cheap and ship me out the facility get him up out of here he'll gain she put me on lockdown what you know about having your heart broken like that then when I do get a visit it don't matter who it was yeah your brother just got murdered because you know about having your heart broke like that we were just talking about how we was gonna ball and be flossing and go get Motel tools and all that when I came home anything like man when you come home you gotta put that ice on like what you know about having your heart broke like that I can keep going before what all right I like I saw foot I'm talking about buying the people my staff the people in this room I buy everybody before I buy myself something I may have only got three or four of these shirts with a bow tie cause I feel like ain't nothing flying on a boat tiger that was my grandfather used to work that is flat I don't know why I like a little bow tie where you get the Leaf like putting the leaf in your hair I got them in I had them in when I came here but I took them out why you do that I don't know the energy just felt like just told me just take them out right now you got that from Grandfather too nah my grandmother they Indians my mama grandma all of them they Native Americans Grandpa you know what that game so let me ask you this last question before we roll um you happy oh I'm peaceful I have happy I have more happy moments than I have in the past but I'm peaceful I'm peace see what that is simple we do me and you be doing if we win eight pieces yeah that's my I'm cool with that it's family you know then I see myself like and every like and the people I place myself around are the people I could see myself in the greater versions of me and like my biggest fear was like I guess believing in myself I believe in myself mom yeah straight up so I can say I'm peaceful I'm peaceful now way more peaceful yeah I feel like for me I just turned 39. yesterday thank you um and and I just feel like you know I'm taking it one day can I answer it all of a sudden that we be talking about I don't know how when we say something all of ourselves listen and you know how we was talking about like the Gregorian calendar and how that's not even right like the new year started at the beginning of Ramadan like this is how the off the lunar calendar like the new year just started like people say man it's never supposed to be like this [ __ ] was still a winner if the spring just started um when you talk yourselves listen and when we tell ourselves that we aging we age like if we start saying like are you supposed to say you 24 I said no no what I was about to say was we Forever Young 40 50 is my Prime yes sir that's what I was you know what I'm saying like and I've been saying that to my team but even that is negative you know why because I just turned 39 so what's gonna happen for the next 12 months because I'm building right now like I'm in some right now there's some toxicity around me some energy around me that I'm like fighting to get away and I've been in that moment for about 12 months and I just had this vision of like 40 bro like I just feel like I'm about to I'm about to walk into my Prime you know what I'm saying he tell me that but we talk man you walking into your place I feel it bro like we're eating pizza that you would recommend for us to read I can tell you read a lot come on you gonna read them and listen to the audiobook it's the same thing sometimes when I fly I might just put them drinks on then if I'm chilling bored I'll read it the reason I say is not because it's like started from Nipsey let's see I saw that from home the audio books cool but you still listening to somebody else voice tell you the book which I ain't got nothing against it I'll say I'm gonna read it though but then some I'ma read more than I'm listening what are you into like self-improved you know what I like to read stuff that um so I'm in like the uh commentating broadcasting space so right now I'm reading a book on um Stephen A Smith right then I get done with that I'll probably find somebody to come into like like real estate I just read this book on real estate I'm big into that it's called um of his name of it but I'm reading stuff that I can't line myself with you know what I mean if I'm asking you I'm being serious um how to eat to live that's more that's for the fast because I need that um that fast written by uh it's written by uh what is it Elijah Muhammad um yeah I like that um and I'm not nation of Israel yeah I sound I don't really rock it I ain't none of that I ain't none of that I'm just Muslim but the way he talk about it and break it down on How to Eat to Live okay there's a beautiful book from the gods okay that's different oh the um let me get one let me get one other book um what I mean America being a true old world okay like where they talk about how the pyramid is over here hundreds of years older than Egypt yeah and that's been so interesting to me I'm like what the [ __ ] what's it called American Life America the true whole world that's what's up appreciate you bro love you man I love you more Papa yeah hey never afraid to make mistakes man always get better it's life yeah yeah I ain't afraid to make mistakes this was yeah that was good I'm gonna try to yo let's try that fast though I got about two three days we had to fight to get a meal yeah wrongfully accused we had to fight to get appeals that's why we right to get a deal here on the team he gotta eat you know keep it riding for the fam you got a life that we can Wheels straight up but in the past bad work up in the trash bag I'll pass a lot to take the test before I pass class yeah and my family needed bread I had to come correct that's why I keep airing it out like I just passed gas all right [Music]

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Length: 63min 1sec (3781 seconds)

Published: Mon Apr 03 2023