I Saw the Eyes of JESUS in PERSON! (Testimony)

i looked at his eyes and i saw a fire in his  eyes but that fire was not just standing there   it's almost as if he was turning into liquid  fire and that liquid love okay that liquid fire   was translating in me like love it's almost  as if like he was pouring out of his love   and through his eyes that thing was coming into me   and whatever void that i was trying to feel  for years with men with bodies with education   with whatever that moment when his eyes were  gazing upon me those voids were being filled my name is ines in i am originally from the democratic  democratic republic of congo   it's all the way in africa i am second of a  family of 10 kids i grew up in a religious family   but i didn't have that personal encounter  with the lord so i was religious because i   was going to church i was religious because  i heard about god and i knew god was there   christ was alive but i didn't have in relationship  with him everything that i was doing it was   almost as if i was doing it by protocol not by  personal revelation then i moved here in 2008   and the rest is history it's part of  my story and hopefully i'm gonna share   a little bit now yeah uh inez i've i've gotten  a pleasure to record you on my podcast and you   have a beautiful powerful testimony so let's i  just want to give you the floor start from from   the start i know you had a couple encounters from  the beginning um so just take us through it yeah   so as i told you guys i grew up in a religious  family my mom was a believer so it was my dad   and the whole family but something that i  realized with me growing up is that i always   had this encounter every single time whether it's  when i'm sleeping or when i'm awake there's this   being that'll come to me and would take me some  places different places whether it's hell whether   it's heaven or different places houses and stuff  and he'll show me things he will always come and   tell me come with me to work come work with me  and it would take me places you know it will   start explaining to me this person this is the  situation that they are going through this person   and it would just start breaking things down to me  and then i remember one day he gave me a word for   my mom now i can say a word because i understand  the language but back then he just gave me he just   shared something with me concerning my mom and  he said tell your mom that tomorrow at this time   at such a such time uh there'll be a fire in what  we call the electrical cabin cabinet or cabin   and he said there'll be fire there so she has  to be careful and then he gave me instruction   and i told him i was like okay i'm gonna go tell  it to my mother what if he asked me what if she   asked me who told you that what am i gonna say he  looked at me and he said just tell him your friend   and i was like what do you mean my friend like  you don't have a name or something he said no just   tell me telling my friend and i remember whenever  i woke up i rushed to my mom and i had the habit   of doing it every single night to wake up in the  middle of the night and say mom i just had a dream   this is what about to happen this is this is this  was the cause of what happened and this and that   so i went to my mom and i was like oh  so this person came to me and told me   you have to be watchful this is what's gonna  happen tomorrow and she was like who told you   he said his name is my friend and  she just looked at me and was like   okay manju we were religious we were  not christian per se so the language   of christianity we didn't really understand it  you know but we knew the language of religiosity   and those kind of encounters kept kept on coming  the morals growing but because i didn't have the   spiritual maturity at that time and because no one  was teaching me those stuff i'll just go to anyone   and anywhere and just tell them oh this is what  what is about to happen this is this situation   and people started finding me weird they're like  she's probably crazy yeah this girl is crazy   and the enemy use those judgments to put a seed  of fear inside of me i'm even gonna say seed of   rejection in me because i started thinking to  myself i'm weird i'm not normal a normal person   can't see the stuff a normal person can tell the  feud can't tell the future and no more person can   have those kind of encounter it really felt to me  as if i was by myself with this encounter and no   one to explain it to not even my mom and it got  to a point where i was like yes they are right   that's not normal so when my friend will come to  me and say come let me take you to this place let   me show you this let me show you this and that  i just i remember one day i was so upset because   of i just felt the pressure of that judgment  and i told him i said you know what next time   if you want to come to me and show me anything  whether in heaven or hell or whatever the place   make sure you do it when everyone is here because  i don't want to be called the crazy one i don't   want to be called the weird person i don't want  to be the weird friend with sister the with the   weird daughter yeah next time if you want to do  it make sure you do it when everyone is there   at that moment i stop having encounters and  i switch into having like full dream like   very descriptive dream now before you get to  the to that part when it came to this this   friend did you know who was this friend or can you  clarify even to the audience who this friend was   did i know who was that friends no but i know i  knew something about that friend he carried peace whenever he'll come and i'll have those encounter  it's almost as if like i've always known him   because he carried so much peace so much love  with him that i felt so comfortable even at that   young age i felt comfortable being around him  but whenever i'll leave that state of encounter   i won't even remember his face if you ask me  today what color was his skin color i don't know   how was his face can you describe the features  i can't tell you it's just it's almost as if   like whenever i get to that state of encounter i  can fully see him and be comfortable around him   but when i leave that state i just can't remember  all i remember is lights i just remember like that   being is like is like light and again as i  told you guys i didn't have the knowledge   i didn't understand the christian language or  even the language of spirituality for me it's   just that person before before getting caught  in that getting caught in that cycle of judgment   for me was like okay that's my friend coming  to me he said his name is my friend so that's   my friend coming to me and i always get excited  he'll take me to different places how we were   traveling there i can't explain to you what was  one of the most like vivid encounters that you had   with a good friend yeah okay so um and and even  before we do that just to clarify when you look   back do you see this friend as an angel as jesus  do you just kind of leave it in the unknown like   um sometimes i leave it at the unknown but after  i had the encounter that really shifted my life   i really i would really say that that was the holy  spirit okay well we'll get there so to so what was   uh one one of the most vivid encounters that you  have okay i'm gonna share two encounters okay   one of them the good one was he took me to a  place i can't tell if that was heaven or that   was a place where everything was perfect but it  took me to a place and walk me through the streets   of that place just to show me different mentions  different houses that were being built and those   houses were not yet finished i don't know at that  moment i didn't know why he was just showing me   oh you see this house it's not yet finished you  see this other one this is how it's gonna end up   looking and he was just explaining things to me i  was so young so i was just okay but why is all the   houses around here not finished he'll just tell  me because it's still being built so he explained   this stuff to me one of the bad encounters that i  had was i lost a certain cousin when i was young   and somehow i think my family was just wondering  asking questions what happened to that cousin   and like all the questions around the death of  my cousin i remember that friend came and took me   and he took the holistic just reminded me another  story now he took me uh to that place and he told   me this is what caused uh your cousin's death  and this is where your cousin is right now   i remember coming when whenever i came out of that  encounter i went to my mom and i told my mom i was   like you see what happened to cousin john dog  well on this day this family member offered her   as a sacrifice to this and this this deity and  this is what caused this right now spiritually   this is where that person is found and i gave  the full explanation again my mom looked at me   and i think she was just confused like she's a  young girl but she's giving like information yeah   that are above her age and that was it i remember  another story was one of our neighbor i think the   first child um lost her she lost her mind and  and i turned to my mom at that moment because   i heard something in my spirit i turned to my mom  and i was like no you know what she lost her mind   she opened a room in the house that she was  not supposed to open wow that's why whatever   she saw that thing kind of triggered something  in her mind and i gave the full explanation   there are so many stories yeah let's let's keep  going so yeah but if you got to a point where   uh everybody was was judging you and and nobody  essentially was believing because they couldn't   see what you were seeing so you moved away  and then you said you started to move into   yes i moved away i stopped having like those vivid  encounter encounters and i started dreaming a lot   and back then it wasn't this was more like  physical yes it was all physical encounter   for me it was physical encounters where  i'll see the person the way i'm seeing you   yeah and i don't know it's like i just get to a  place where i'll see him i'll hear him clearly   and he'll show me stuff okay and he would take  me into vision but i was so young i didn't know   those were visions right for me it's like just us  going somewhere right because you you literally   tell me come with me so when i started dreaming  a lot one of the things that i didn't realize   i opened a door to was demonic encounters it's  like i pushed my friend away from me and i just   welcome demonic encounter i started being  oppressed by the enemy the whatever the   angel or the holy spirit or whatever the being  that i was seeing my friend that i used to see   i stopped seeing him and i started seeing demons  and i was vividly seeing them when i see vividly   it was like vividly seeing them and growing up in  africa sometimes at night i'll be sleeping and i'm   looking at the window you can literally see like a  shape the shape of a snake crawling on the window   trying to force his way in the room or sometimes  you will hear cats crying outside of your window   and they're just crying like babies and i remember  i'll just scream scream the name of jesus with no   revelation but at least i knew the name yeah i'll  just scream the name of jesus and call on my mom   like come and when she comes she'll ask me what's  wrong and altera know there are some cats outside   that are screaming and i'm seeing this it's like  i literally felt like i was going crazy because i   was the only person seeing these things and i got  mad at god because i was like it's all your fault   it's because of you that i'm not having  all these demonic encounters like   going to bed and feel like just having  like a sleep paralysis like your whole body   can't move you can't say the name of jesus it's  like you just feel like somebody's choking you and   how old were you at that time uh i was under 10.  so so you were having to say the the more peaceful   encounters from what age to what age um as far as  i remember i'll probably stay five all the way to   11 somewhere there yeah 10 11. so i got mad at  god because i was like this is your fault i have   people calling me crazy and i have like this and  those demons i didn't call them demons i was just   calling them like those black black beings  like you can't see them but it's like a dark   shadow that has so much fear so much terror in it  which was the the whole the whole opposite of that   friend that was coming but whenever the atmosphere  shifted to that you can sense it it's like   you just feel like you're afraid you're scared but  you can't explain you can't put it to work because   it's just a shadow you just feel that shadow it's  almost as if he was hovering all around me and i   got mad at god i was like it's your fault you  know what i don't want to deal with you anymore   if it's going to take me losing my friends i don't  want to deal with you if it's going to take me   being bullied by these dark shadows i'm not i  don't want to deal with you and the more i was   saying that's the more i was being oppressed what  i didn't realize is that i was just like rejecting   the presence of god i was rejecting the love of  god and opening myself spiritually to whatever   that would come and what came was the oppression  and i was a price for all those years and because   i was oppressed i started turning into anything  bad god turning to men turning to parties turning   to anything but god my mom started paying me to  go to church she'll literally pay me money so i   can go to church and when i go to church i'll  sit in the sanctuary and just fall asleep the   whole service and i'll wake up after service and  it just happened that the lord opened the door for   america for us and then we came here in america  my first year was very it was anything but godly   and i remember that that the the first two years  actually my first year when i moved here i had a   dream probably the most vivid dream i've had  about hell and condemnation and in that dream   i saw myself standing in the hallway and i was  standing almost as if i was waiting for my turn   but on the other side i saw a group of shadows  or whatever beings in uh like dressed in black   and i was looking at them and i was like all i  knew i didn't know them but all i knew is that   i didn't want to be caught by them so whenever  they'll come i'll be partying with with my friend   with two of my friends and whenever i'll see  them coming closer to me i'll pretend to pray   the thing happened once twice and the third time i  was distracted they caught me and when they called   me they say we've been following you ever since  you were in your mother's home now we have you   and the terror in their voice even the feeling  of condemnation and judgment in the atmosphere i   was like i'm sorry this time i'm gonna get serious  with the lord i'm i'm just gonna get serious with   the lord please give me another chance they say no  we gave you a lot of chance ever since you were a   child this time we have you and we are taking you  and took me by my by my by my arm like holding my   shoulder and took me in the hallway whatever was  happening in that hallway i knew i didn't want to   be there because i was hearing screams people  screaming and i'm like i'm sorry i'm gonna get   i'm gonna get right i'm gonna get correct and the  mistake i made is that i was saying sorry to them   instead of just me turning to god and say god do  this and i'm screaming i'm sorry guys i'm gonna   they're like no we've been watching you following  you for years now we have you we can't let you go   and as they are taking me through that hallway the  heat started hitting i started like reflecting in   the room or coming in the way we were like in the  hallway and i'm like no i don't know what's going   on there but i don't want to go there i don't  want to end up there and as they are taking me   we stopped before in front of the door right  before i entered that place and i look around   there were people screaming there's no fire but  people are burning i don't know how to explain   that i don't know what was causing that fire  feeling or that heat sensation but people were   just burning and suffering screaming for mercy and  i'm like i don't want to end up there i don't want   to be there and i look on the side i see one of my  friends who's now deceased and i see him attached   and he's screaming like asking for for forgiveness  asking and i'm looking i'm like that's my friend   and they're like yeah that's where you  are going that's where you're gonna end up   and i'm screaming and crying and then it just  hits my my head it hits me and i'm like pretending   to pray and they're like you're not praying  out of faith you're not praying out of faith   and i'm like okay let me worship so i started  worshiping these old old pentecostal song   from my country and i started singing the  song the second i started singing the song   i jumped from my bed in the physical i literally  jumped from my bed and my whole body was   wet my whole body was wet i was shaking i was on  the floor it's almost as if i saw a ghost a ghost   like you see that we see in movies when somebody  see a ghost that's how i was because i was like   i was afraid i was frightened i'm like whatever  the place i came from i don't want to end up there   ever in my life yeah so after that encounter  i told myself i'm gonna get right with god i'm   gonna change but it wasn't the case i went  back to my old life and then i met this man   i was like yes i'm going to date this  person and whatever happened is that   the men that i wanted to date at that time  somebody else was interested in that man   and what happened she was from a certain country  in africa it's called the it's called benin   and she was the granddaughter of a  voodoo priest wow i did not know that   so because she got so jealous she was  like oh since i can't have this man   i'm gonna sign a i'm gonna sign a covenant i'm  gonna get into a covenant with the devil and i'm   gonna destroy your life and i told myself with  the leader that i knew about god i told myself   you're not gonna do anything to me you see you see  what god will do to you and she communicated this   to you yes oh wow like she called you up and she  was like that girl will call me she'll send me i   still have those emails she'll call me she'll  send me emails she'll get into my social media   she she just went full whatever full comment on  me spiritually and i was just talking and i'm   like you're not gonna do anything to me you see  and stuff and one day i was like let me go see   that guy in new york i packed my stuff manuals  new in america probably a year or two in america   i packed my stuff uh went to new york by bus it  was during the winter okay side note i didn't know   new york was that cold during the winter so i  was wearing my little dress my high heels got   into the bus went to new york and once i was in  new york she actually on the bus um in new jersey   her grandmother texted me oh however she did it  she did that she sent me a message and she was   like where you are going you're going to be  invisible and i told myself what do you mean   you're going to be invisible like who does she  think she is she thinks this is a movie like   because i didn't take spirituality that serious  though i didn't know that those stuff are real   witchcraft is real they're called even though  you were experiencing all of this stuff yeah   no but because i already put myself in a state of  mind that these things are for crazy people so i   literally put myself in a state of denial yeah and  i went to new york just as she said uh i remember   i got off on e streets chinatown new york and yeah  i've never been there ever since i got down there   i called a taxi they were like a lineup of taxi  that were waiting there i reached out to the uh   a taxi one of the yellow cab that were there and i  told him can you take me to this address the taxi   man was like the address doesn't exist and i asked  him what do you mean the the the it doesn't exist   this is and i lied i was like this is my cousin's  address what do you mean he's like i can't take   you there because he doesn't exist so i stayed at  that place reach out to that person i was unable   to reach him and i called 9-1-1 i called the  new york 9-1-1 i was like yes i'm in new york   i'm from virginia i'm losing you guys come and  pick me up they're like mom we don't do that just   get a taxi and go where you're going i was like i  can't find my way they're like okay let's send um   a cup to pick you up and then you come here and  then we can figure it out they send the first cup   it didn't happen the second they sent the second  one on the third one i called them i was like   but you guys are not sending anyone i i got to new  york at 11 p.m it was probably 1am or something   i'm like you guys didn't send anyone i'm  extremely cold and i don't know what to   do they're like we sent three cars and no  one saw you where you were supposed to be   and i started thinking to myself am i going crazy  what's happening and i look in the middle of the   road i saw a group of policemen standing  there so i walked to them and i told them   i'm looking for this address i'm lost and stuff  and them having probably some of the latest   technology when it comes to finding or gps finding  people and stuff they asked me for the name for   the address for them to research they put the  address on the on their gps or whatever they're   researching material they put the address there  and they're like that's the police station address   and i'm thinking to myself now i'm definitely  crazy i was like then they say can you give us   the name so we can narrow it by name i gave them  the name of the person and they're like no this   person was dead in 1980 something i was like what  do you mean this person is dead i spoke to that   person today a few minutes that no the only person  with that name in this country was dead years ago   at that moment i'm standing there and i'm confused  and for the first time and i went back to the   bus place for the first time in a long time i was  like god i need your help if you don't help me   i'm gonna die here because i'm extremely cold  my nose was running i didn't have any jacket and   stuff i was just wearing this little cute dress  because i was going to see my boyfriend and as i   was crying to the lord at that moment this yellow  cub came and stopped before me and i look into the   car an ancient man and the second he looked at  me and smiled i just i just had that feeling of   familiarity i'm like i've i've experienced this  atmosphere before that feeling of peace and love   it's not foreign to me and i'm looking at the  person i'm like nope this is an angel and he's   looking at me and he the first thing he tells me  is like get into the car i know where you're going   and i'm looking at him in my mind i'm like  nah this is god with these things come on   god i told you i don't want this kind of like  extreme dramatic like entrance like come on and   and the guy is looking at me he comes down he knew  i was a bit reluctant so it comes down of out of   the car asian man okay are there any asian angel  i can't confirm that but i'm just telling you guys   my story he comes out of the car take my suitcase  put it in the trunk of his car and then escort me   on the other side the front seats mind you when  you take a cab you all usually sit in the back   but i was sitting in the front seat with him  so i sat in the front seat and it's and he   gave me the full address uh drivers in new  york prophetic i can't tell you but that's   what was happening to me and it's like this  is where you are going this is the address   and i'm gonna take you there and i'm sitting  in the car they usually have like their id   on the front of the car and i'm looking at the id  there is an idea with an address and i'm looking   at the person i'm like nah this is not a human  but i just can't prove it and every time i think   that's in my mind you look at me and smile and i'm  like come on this is not a human and the guy the   the asian uh taxi driver just went on on  my life he was like you're a young girl   you shouldn't be doing that and the more he was  like now i can i can tell he was giving me a word   of knowledge but back then i didn't know what  word of knowledge where i just feel like the guy   knew me and he's giving me all this detail about  my life what i should stop what i shouldn't do   and in my mind the whole time i'm like come on  god this is a bit too much a driver really and   he took me to where i was going and he asked me do  you have money with you and i lied i was like no i   don't have money he's like that's fine he gave me  money he's the driver i'm supposed to pay him but   he gave me money is i take this money uh where  you are this is where you are going but it's   getting late i want you to go sit at a mcdonald's  there is a computer there reach out to your family   reach out to wherever you need to reach us to eat  and rest there in the morning you can go back to   where you your you can continue your road and  he gave me a twenty dollar beer he's caught in   me inside of the mcdonald and before leaving he  gave me a paper with his number he said call me   if you need anything just call this number  and i'm gonna be there i'm here with you   not years after i understood that he  was just quoting the book of jeremiah   call upon me when god said to call upon him and  i'm like what kind of is this is this how all the   drivers are in new york because i'm like something  is happening and i can't put my finger on   and i didn't have any knowledge i didn't have  any understanding but it's like nah this is not   any this is not normal and i got inside of the  mcdonald he called me again he said ines if you   need anything call this number and i'm gonna be  here it's 2 a.m at night how what do you mean you   are going to be here and he said in the morning  when it's time for you to go call me i'm going   to tell you how to uh take the trend all the way  to where you need to take the bus so i get into   the mcdonald's buy the food go seats where there  were there was like computers like almost like a   internet place and i reached out to my family and  all all those kind of stuff and that was one of   the encounters that really like marked me and i  was like there's something happening with my life   i can't really put my finger on but there's just  something weird fast forward to um years after   like i just felt like depression and all  those things were just coming after me   with the whatever situation that happened with  the with the girl from benin uh i was like god   and at first i used to pray like god kill this  girl kill this girl god kill this girl kill   the grandmother and then somehow someway  i just felt compassion came into my heart   instead of me praying for them to die i started  praying that god let your mercy be extended   because hey the word of god says that mercy  triumph over judgment and i was like god i just   started praying for mercy i was like maybe they  didn't know better culturally that's the only   spirituality they were exposed to so they didn't  really grow up with the same privilege that many   christians grew up with around the word god have  mercy and i started praying that prayer what i did   not know is that as i was praying this prayer god  was dealing with them and one day i got this email   which i still have now i got this email from this  girl and she was like i'm just reaching out to you   to say that i was i'm sorry wow and i'm reading  that after two years of oppressing me like getting   everyone around me uh run away from me because we  i was having like this in canada i'll sit at home   and a cat will appear in america it's not  this is not africa this is america a cat will   appear in the living room and i'm screaming  for my life i'll be it's just weird stuff   so she sent me this email and and she said  just to let you know my grandma passed away   and before passing away she said okay back home  in africa we really value the last word of the   disease whatever last word that they say the last  wish and she said her last word was tell that girl   ines that god is with her that god loves her and  that was her last word and that moment i know we   are not supposed to celebrate when somebody died  but at that moment for me it felt like a relief   because i was oppressed from all corners corners  and i felt like my back was just against the wall   and no one was was on my side because people just  felt like i was just doing too much which i wasn't   even doing too much because those those stuff came  to me i didn't even seek it that's what i thought   but i opened myself to those stuff and she came  to me and then she confessed she shared her whole   testimony of she just said that i don't know what  happened to me but i just felt like i hated you   and i did a pact with the devil i literally  sold my soul just to see you destroyed wow   but what i didn't know is that this became an  opportunity for me to meet the lord because   somewhere along the line of me oppressing you  and coming after you with witchcraft and stuff   two people knock on my door they knock on my door  and share the gospel with me i just heard them   and then closed the door but that day i stayed in  the house i couldn't sleep i couldn't sleep and i   kept praying you will not find peace until you  give your life to christ and i gave my life to   christ i got into a coma for more than seven days  because of the covenant in which i was until the   lord delivered me and i've turned my back from  all those stuff so she shared her old testimony   and when i read that testimony it started clicking  in my head i was like what if god actually loves   me what if whatever encounter was having it's  actually real and i started asking questions and   thank be to god at that moment my mom also started  growing in a relationship with god so she had   better words to explain spirituality to us she  had better um evidence to back up whatever she   was telling us about spirituality uh she called  me one day and she was like oh you know there is   um this pastor pastor shekinah he used to be a  pastor back home well he's now on social media   that was back when social media was like drawing  in africa and stuff he's now on social media reach   out to him just ask him how he's doing and stuff  i think she probably had a plan she knew that that   was the bed for me so i was like okay i'll try  but because i was so oppressed like literally   i was broke i was going to school i was by myself  because all my siblings moved to another states   and at this point how old are you uh 20 i  think i was in my 20s 20 something i was just   oppressed and i remember sometimes i hear voices  telling me just jump from the highway because i   used to walk long distance to get from work to  school from school to home and stuff and you   would i'll just hear voices because my spirit is  so open and so open to spirituality and i'll just   hear voices just jump from the highway and you're  gonna stop all this you're just gonna stop all   this trouble like you won't have to work for an  hour to go to work or go to school or go home you   won't have to do to get yourself wet walking on  the highway because i wasn't working you know the   road around here i wasn't working on like inside  roads it's like on the highway with cars going   and i'm just crossing the highway and i was just  getting tired you're getting to school at 6am   you're already exhausted because you walk for  an hour and all these thoughts of suicide was   com were coming to me and i just felt exhausted  i was just exhausted and one day i reached out to   that pastor i was like do you think god can be  mad at the person he was like what do you mean   like yeah you just get mad at the person is like  you see what you know what i'm gonna make you   go through hell he's like now that that's not  like god and then he gave me his skype and then we   spoke on skype he was like what's going on i was  like no i just feel like god hates me because when   i was a child i didn't want to have to deal with  him because of everything he made me go through   i just don't like him and i just feel like he just  hates me for that and he said oh you know what you   know what he did he brought the gospel to my level  he was like well you know what god is actually   hitting on you ada what do you mean he's like  oh yeah i think he likes you and he's hitting on   you i think he want to go out with you and i was  thinking so low at that moment let me just say it   my way of thinking were not christ-like how's  that so the god of the universe want to date me   okay so what should i do to let him know that  okay i'm also interested that's literally the   word that i used with him i was like what should  i do to let him know that i'm interested like   how how we're going from here that to let him know  he's like oh that's simple you say that when you   were growing up you used to have a friend just  talk to that friend i was like but i rejected   him i can't even see him i don't even know how he  looks like now he's like oh no you know what just   lift up your hand and say i'm sorry say holy  spirit and then i made me repeat this prayer   holy spirit i'm sorry i want you to come back in  my life i did that small prayer and afraid i felt   like you see when it's super hot it's extremely  hot in the summer and you drink something cold   you know that feeling of like being refreshed  i just felt like my whole body got refreshed   at that moment and we were talking on skype and i  was living in a house with muslim and i just went   on the floor and i had tear coming my uh coming  down on my eyes and then i woke up i was like okay   this is what i experienced he was like that's it  i was like that's it so am i now dating god's like   uh are we are we an item he's like yeah  that's it that's it and i was like okay   so in my mind because i was thinking solo i'm  like okay now i'm god's girlfriend like yeah   that's it that's the thing and probably three  days after i heard the audible voice of god   for the first time after a long time and that  was god the father he said go on your knees   and i was on my bed i'm like huh and he said go  on your knees i'm like for what and he said go   on your knees and pray as i pray for what like  just go on your knees see as believer we are   used to praying when we need something right i  need something from god i'm going on my knees   i'm expecting something i'm going on my knees  i'm not going to go and pray just because i want   to fellowship with god and i was like i don't  have anything to ask for he's like still go on   your knees so i refused i was like nope i'm not  gonna go on my knees i went in the kitchen i went   downstairs in the kitchen and i heard again  the voice of god came to me and he said ines   go on your knees i was like i'm not gonna go on  my knees because i don't have anything to ask you   that's where we're gonna stop so i went back to  my bedroom uh because i was renting a bedroom in a   muslim house i went back to my bedroom and lay on  my bed and i felt like a hand touched my forehead   and with all the rudeness all the rudeness i stood  from my bed and i was like okay fine i'm gonna go   on my knees i'm gonna go on my knees you want  me to go on my knees i'm gonna go on my knees   i don't even know why you want me to pray because  i don't have anything to ask you i went on my   knees and i put on some music i remember the song  is you are the most high uh and i put thai tibet   uh version and i'm i was so rude i'm like you are  the most i got and suddenly the scenery changed   my door was closed this being walk in my room and  when he walked in my room i forgot about the song   i forgot about my rudeness i forgot  about not having a prayer topic   i forgot about everything about me all i knew  is that i was not worthy of that person i mean   i was on my knee but i felt like even my knees  were not worthy of him and i just laid face down   and i started hearing not worthy not worthy like  literally my life was just passing before me every   single things i did from the moment i became  conscious of my scene or whatever to where i   was standing it's like i kept hearing not worry  all my actions were screaming against me all my   thoughts were screaming against me like nothing  she's not worthy she's not worthy i was condemned   by myself from left and right everything was with  was testifying against me and i'm standing there   i'm like that's it i'm not worried and i'm crying  i'm like i'm sorry and i started naming every time   every time something will come that disqualified  me of his presence or even of of him being before   me and out here not worry like for instance when i  they see the way i was behaving with men i'll hear   not worry and i'll just cry i'm like god i'm sorry  i'm sorry for the way i just sold myself i sold   my body to men just because i was trying to feel a  void and every time whatever action whatever thing   whatever thought even my thought was speaking  it's like everything around you condemned you   and i'm like crying there face down and i'm like  i'm not 40 god i'm sorry i'm i was just asking   forgiveness and for the first time i'll say that  was the first time in my life i heard the voice   of christ i told you guys about the voice of  the father before i heard the voice of christ   and he said but i love him that sentence  literally like through the whole condemnation   situation that was going going on away it's like  everything every time they will say not worthy   the love of god will cover all of the stuff every  time another condemnation will come will come it's   like the canopy of the love of christ will cover  it and it'll just get cleaner and cleaner and my   face was down but somehow i was able to look at  him and just gaze upon him and i'm looking at him   and i'm feeling uncomfortable and i'm literally  telling you i'm like i'm not comfortable i'm not   comfortable it's not that i'm not comfortable  because he was not a carrier of peace it's because   i was carrying so much sin and condemnation inside  of me that whatever scene whatever condemnation   that was in front inside of me didn't have a  place didn't have a relationship with him he   didn't have a place there and god was like yeah  this one is mine and i'm gonna fight for her   and you just repeat but i love her and  i'm like god i did these things you know   at this age i did this at this moment i did  this is like still i love you and i'm like   no you can't love me come on you see as human we  are used to be um to be punished for what we do   so for us punishment is just in normal things  like yes i did this i'm gonna get punished   i speed i'm gonna get a ticket a child did  the child gets pink but for christ he was like   still i'm gonna love you you're imperfect  but you are the right the best position   at the right position for you to be loved and  restored by me and i was crying the more i was   crying the more he was just reminding me how he's  gonna love me and that was making me uncomfortable   then i looked at his eyes okay i looked at  his eyes and i saw a fire in his eyes but   that fire was not just standing there it's  almost as if he was turning into liquid fire   and that liquid love okay that liquid fire was  translating in me like love it's almost as if like   he was pouring out of his love and through his  eyes that thing was coming into me and whatever   void that i was trying to feel for years with  men with parties with education with whatever   that moment when his eyes were gazing upon me  those voids were being filled and it's almost   as if like he was just renewing me it's like the  guy was just formatting everything formatting   everything in me and it's only years later that i  came upon this bible verse i'm actually gonna read   it for you guys it's in the book of revelation 19  12 it says his eyes are like blazing fire and on   his head are many crowns he has a name written on  him that no one knows but himself it's only years   after that i came to discover that actually who  is if you have seen christ's eyes then you have   encountered that fire and for me the way that fire  was translated it was translated into liquid love   and the lord just started feeling me feeling  that void feeling just dealing with all the   things all the lies all the judgments all  the self-judgment of the cell all the cell   self-lies that i was feeding myself with he  started filling him with his truth that you   are adopted you are loved you are beautiful you  are completing me and all this kind of stuff and   i think it happened from 7 00 p.m to probably 11  something but somewhere there something happened   my mom called me i don't remember what time she  called me because i wasn't looking at the time   anyway i was not even aware of time at that moment  i know at what time i got um at what time i went   on my knee at 7 pm because i was using my phone to  put the music whatever happened however the time   went by i don't remember but somewhere around  there my mom called me from africa and she was   on the phone and i'm like mom there is a man in my  room mom he's not condemning me mom he's loving me   it's making me uncomfortable i don't like it and  my mom was like hallelujah hallelujah i mean those   that grew up with like mothers like mine she's  like hallelujah glory to god i'm like mom you   don't understand this man is standing in my room  he's not condemning me he's loving me and i don't   like it it's making me uncomfortable and she kept  saying hallelujah hallelujah and until she hung   up the phone so i stayed in that encounter and  whenever i came back to myself it was probably 11   p.m or something like that i came back to myself  and i'm like so i texted my spiritual father now   uh i texted him and i'm like this is what i  just encountered and stuff and i went to bed   the next morning uh my mom called me and i'm  like oh come on girl i was telling you this   man was in my room and i was telling you the  story and stuff and you kept saying hallelujah   come on she's like what do you mean i'm  like yes i was telling you she said no yes   the whole time i heard you on the  phone you were speaking in tongues   excuse me she said yes the whole time you were  speaking in tongues that's how i realized that   you were being baptized in the spirit i'm like no  there is no way i was speaking in tongues i was   telling you there is a man in my room and the man  is loving me and i'm not liking it it's making me   uncomfortable she said no i called you you were  speaking in tongues you were speaking in tongues   and you were speaking in tongues you didn't  speak any known language yeah and on that day   that's when i realized that when you have  an encounter with god when you live in   intimacy with god it's really you and him yeah  everything else around you fades everything else   around you doesn't make sense and what god wanna  have with you in your moment of privacy with him   unless it make it known to other people  it's just gonna be something for you and him   that's your moment with him that's your moment  with the lord and that's the moment i've been   having since i was a kid but because i didn't have  the knowledge and the understanding i'll just go   around and tell people this is what's happening  that's why it was foreign language to them because   that was my intimacy with the lord that was  my moment with god but i didn't know better i   mean now i know but back then i didn't know i just  thought to myself when he shared something with me   let me grab a mic and a speaker everybody has to  know about that but that was just my moment what   if god was just looking for a best friend yeah  what if god was just looking for a lover with who   they can talk what if god was just looking for a  friend like abraham with who they can discuss like   do you think it's a good idea for me to  destroy saddam and gomorrah what do you think   hey we are best buddy what do you think  whatever you say i'm gonna go by that   at that moment at that time or before that time i  didn't know that for me it's like when god speak   everybody has to know about that but no there  are stuff that are just good for you intimacy   stuff that are just good for your bedroom with  god let me use it use that language those that   are married will know what i see what i mean  that stuff that are just good for you and your   best friend and now the the rest of the universe  and that was how the story happened and i went   and that was in 2011. and from 2011 i was like i'm  gonna get myself right with god and i remember the   holy spirit the holy spirit became vivid for me  i started learning whatever information i'll get   about the holy spirit i want to know that friend  better that's why i told you when you ask me who   was that friend was it an angel was this christ  i told you i think he was the holy spirit that   was really him for for me is really the person  that taught me ministry yes i've had a lot of   people that helped me in my christian life but i  can boldly say that the basic or the basis of what   i know came from him probably a week or so into  my salvation one day taught me now i'm gonna teach   you how to write a sermon and i was like what do  you mean you're gonna teach me about how to write   the sermon it's like yeah you have to know how to  write a sermon and he said for the next eight days   ask your spiritual father to send you random  bible verse okay let me open this bracket   the only verse i knew was john 3 16. for  god so loved the world and now i'm being   sent into this mission where i have to write  sermons and he said uh for the next eight days   ask your spiritual father to start sending you  bible verse every morning random bible verse   or the in in the bible and i'm gonna teach  you how to dissect them and prepare a sermon   for eight days every single day you teach me  different ways a different way of writing a sermon   it's like if you want your sermon to  sound like this and bring this result   build it this way if you wanted to bring this  result build it this way if you want to do this   if you're in front of this kind of audience and  he gave me eight different ways of wedding writing   sermons mind you i'm what seven days restored or  something yeah i remember i'll send a text to uh   my spiritual father and it will be like did you  write this i'm like yeah you you tell me write   this break it down this way and i'll break it  down it's like okay add this story don't add   the story on this one and all this kind of stuff  he's like wow i know a lot of people that are way   uh advancing age in their christian work  imagine now i used to tell you guys about   spirituality now we are in christianity and  i uh that can't even put a sermon like that   this is really proof that god is doing something  in you wow and i went from there a year after   i hear the voice of god come to me and i hear the  word haiti i'm like haiti so i'll go on google   because google i mean google has everything and  then there is youtube and i found this video of   haiti it was right around when they head the  earthquake and i hear the lord says no more   no more no more something like no more and then he  told me prepare yourself you're going to haiti i'm   like i'm going where going to haiti how it's like  you're going to go to haiti a few days after i get   this message this uh message on facebook a pastor  who i don't know who i've never met who we don't   even have common friend on social media reach out  to me it's like god told me to invite you to haiti   you have something to do in this land and i was  like okay i'm gonna come but i told god i was like   if you really want me to come to go to haiti then  you have to give me the approval of my parents   i call my mom and i'm like i'm going to  haiti she's like to do what i was like   god want me to go to haiti i'm going to go and  preach she was like well but you know you know   you know what they say you know you know how  spirituality is there i said i have to go i   have to go god told me to go and you know the  boldness of when you just got restored like   the zeal is like a thousand million it's going  a thousand million miles per hour i'm like i   have to go and he said she said well if that's  what i told you i was like i'll know that you   guys want me to go if you guys send me a bible  that is sent by you so they sent me a bible   and they sent the bible and i was like okay  god this is the confirmation i was waiting for   i packed myself i was 23. i packed myself took  all my stuff travel to haiti haiti is a beautiful   place i mean that's that place really has my heart  and the first day was good at night i went to   service so i had they really put me to work it's  like i think i had two or three services per day   and i was only 23 with what's not even a track  record of preaching before that was probably   the first place where i preached as a i really  preached so when we went for the night service i   entered into the sanctuary and i felt this demonic  presence just radiating in the room and i'm like   something is not okay here and i look around i see  this little boy and he's staring at me you know   when somebody stares at you like very insisting  and it's scary at me and i'm like nope this child   is not himself in his head like that something  is not okay so we had service and i went home   whenever i go to haiti god speak to me differently  and god moves with me differently one of the way   that god speaks to me is through the bible he'll  ask me to open the bible whatever page i fall on   that will be the word of god for that day so i  opened the bible and i followed this bible verse   when the prophet was running away from jezebel  and he said oh the prophet is running away and   then some people will come and comfort the prophet  and i close my bible i'm like nah this is not the   wrong word and then i open again i follow the same  thing and i'm like what whatever and i went to bed   i remember i was i was sleeping i was on the bed  the guest room in the pastor's house i was in   the bed watching catherine coleman and then we  lost electricity there was no more electricity   so i'm like well i'm still watching catching  coleman so i'm gonna watch and then go to bed   and then my senses open up so i'm like oh gosh  this is the wrong moment come on and then i see   this gathering of people dressed up like in  african tribal outfit and stuff and they're   chanting around fire and they have this doll with  them and they are poking the doll and i'm like   really guys it was 11 p.m and that's the moment  you choose to give me like this kind of vision   really and there's no electricity and it's i'm not  even in america come on and i'm there like faking   you know you know when you fake it like i'm trying  not to freak out and i'm watching catherine come   at a point i changed and i put benny in and the  vision is just coming intense and intense at   that moment electricity started coming on and off  on and off i'm like come on god come on and the   chanting started coming closer and closer i'm like  jesus what's happening and i tried to pray but i   was praying out of fear you know i don't know  if it's for me but i just feel like spiritually   whatever situation i'm going through when i pray  out of fear whatever situation can sense that   this is not out of faith this person is freaked  out that's why they're just repeating this word   so i'm there like the name of jesus but i was so  freaked out then i started hearing a dog the dog   were barking the house didn't have any dog but  i'm hearing many dog barking at the same time   we're going towards midnight and it's like  they're all barking at the same time i'm like   oh jesus what the heck is happening now come  on and they're all barking at the same time   and not electricity my computer died that was  the the last thing that i wanted my computer to   die and i'm in the dark no electricity and like  and now here it's almost as if like the voices   of the dog started translating themselves  and i'm hearing who told you to come here   who gave you permission to step into this land  you have until this morning to leave haiti   and i'm hearing that my first reflection that  was my flesh that was not my spirit my first   reflection is like yep i'm calling my agent and  i'm telling him to change my plan ticket i'm   leaving haiti in the morning bye i'm not coming  back to this country i'm calling my agent he's   like okay let me see what i can do if i can find  you a ticket and i'm staying there and they're   like the dogs are barking and then suddenly  because the every every window were closed   suddenly there is like these uh we call them  luciol in french it's like those light bulb   uh bugs fireflies yeah fireflight fireflies  oh fireflies okay so i see those fireflies um   in my room and they are coming in numbers and  i'm like did that leave the window open like   i was confused what was happening i didn't know  it was just it wasn't foreign language because   here i come from the motherland like i've seen  a lot so i'm like what the heck is happening and   more and more fireflies are coming toward me the  dogs are barking and the vision is not stopping   and the whatever those spiritual people are  like chanting in the spirit and i'm freaked out   and i'm just screaming i'm like nope i'm leaving  this country i'm not even waiting for tomorrow   tonight they have to drop me at the airport  i'm leaving i'm pissing out and they're like   who gave you the permission to come like who gave  you authority over this land and all this stuff   so i put my little torch that i had i put it on my  face and i walked out i go by i go in front of the   pastor's bedroom and in my mind i'm like i don't  care if him and his wife are sleeping i'm sleeping   in the middle of them the missionary dagaski i  said i'm sleeping in the middle of them because   man i can't i can't continue like this so i go  in the uh in front of their bedroom in a knock   i'm like pastor uh the the noise is disturbing me  it's like oh sister in this it's just a dog i'm   like yes i can't sleep with those with that thing  it's like annoying me and there's no electricity   it kept coming on and off and there's no  electricity and plus there is like insects   in my room it's like you'll be fine you know  what if you want go they had like a room that   was in between breaks i think that was their safe  room or something like that he said they'll move   to that room if you want so i moved to that room  and i'm sitting there and the vision was so vivid   i mean when i have this kind of vision it's it's  it's almost as if like you are standing in front   of it because your friends literally take you  in that place they can't see you but you can see   everything so i'm like god god god please and  then the pastor comes he's like are you still   seeing those stuff i'm like yes and then he's like  laughing at me laughing him because actually he   ended up adopting me as his daughter because i was  about the same age as his daughters and he's like   oh it's just the dogs you'll be fine they always  do that at night i'm like yes but i can't sleep   with that like you guys are used to it but i'm not  so he prayed for me and once he prayed for me i   went and i got myself ready to sleep that's when i  remembered the bible verse that the prophets will   get scared by the treatment and there's a group  of people whatever person they'll come and comfort   the prophet and stuff i remember that bible  results that god was trying to tell me that but   i was like now this verse was not aligning with  how things have to go according to me so the next   day as if nothing happened i went and preached so  as i was preaching actually the whole missionary   trip was about faith i was literally the whole  sermon every sermon for the whole seven days   were about faith somehow i lacked fit that night  so the uh during the morning session i started   teaching them about faith and i was telling  them how faith is the believing all those stuff   and then i was like yeah like yesterday at night  because i wanted to be um open with them i was   like yeah this is what happened and stuff and  this is how god dealt with it and stuff at the   end of the session uh one of the brothers there  came to me was like oh sister ines do you know   uh with a beautiful accent which i also have  he came to me i was like no you know usually   here in haiti at night which doctors go about  the land cursing the land therefore they'll say   let's say for instance from this time to this time  whoever will walk through this world this is how   things will impact his life this is what would  change on his life and all those kind of things   and when they came and he literally told me that  when they came in front of the house where you   were staying they couldn't cross on the other side  i was like why he said because you guys came a lot   i went there by myself at least in the physical  i was like what do you mean we came a lot he said   yeah it was a lot of you guys and they couldn't  do their job so they had to find out who came   with all those people that's how they found out  it was you and they started threatening you and   i was like oh oh wow and this makes sense and i'm  gonna open this bracket to tell people even when   you think that you're by yourself you have a whole  army with you come on that are fighting with you   the invisible battles that you don't even know i  was there being scared for my life i didn't know   that outside there was a whole army guarding that  the bible says that the angel of the lord encamps   that angel is not by himself he has a whole  battalion of people like a whole palatine of   of angels that are they're just assigned for you  and that was the only time i was treated in haiti   the only time i i had the opportunity to go back  a few more times and on my last trip to haiti   that's probably one of my best trip  to haiti because of the number of   miracles signs and wonders that i saw  there that was for me a sign that that land   somehow some way or incarnate revival and i went  on that trip i remember one day the lord told me   one of the day when i was there the lord said  ask them to take you to a hospital like to the   hospital for what she's like ask them to take you  there you i want you to practice praying for the   sick so i asked them i was like can you guys take  me to the hospital like sure so they took me to a   hospital at one of the renowned um hospitals there  one of the renowned churches the baptist church   and i went there and there were just people there  some were coming right out of coma others were   paralyzed other had fever other had malaria or  whatever other kind of sickness and i asked the   nurse it's like they are pretty open compared  to here yeah and i was like can i pray for them   that yeah i just pray for them and people are very  open to prayer and i started going beds after bed   praying for people i'll pray for this person  what's your problem i have malaria my fever is   not going down i'll pray and then the good thing  is that the doctors were the nurses were there   they were able to check so they are praying  those that had headache were healed and then   those that were paralyzed were able to move  their body then i stumble on a blind person's bed   and they're like yes this person is blind and  paralyzed so he can't see you he can't talk   and i'm like okay let's pray for him i'm  going to pray for him and he's going to see   so i actually have a picture with that person and  i pray for that person i'm like god i just pray   for his vision to be restored at 100 percent  so first prayer is like um i see like shadows   i'm like oh it's working let's do it again and  something with prayer or even with praying for the   sick it's like that persistence to know that god  is gonna do it yeah what do you do he does it's   100 instantly or gradually he's still gonna do it  so i'm praying for him and he's like oh i can see   i'm like can you see can you see me yeah i can see  you and there is i had two two of my friends there   they're from america i can see them too and then  we are rejoicing and it's only after that there   we were told that the guy was paralyzed he  didn't move his body something happened to   him i don't know what condition that left him  like just laying there on the bed not moving   they got sat on the bed and was able to see we  were just rejoicing and then we took our tap   tap it's like a bus there it's like it's  literally like a bus we took out tap tap   and then i hear god say ask them to take  you to a witch doctor i'm like oh come on   he's like yeah ask them to take you to a witch  doctor so i'm like embarrassed in the uh in the   back of the bus and i'm like yeah can you guys  take me to a witchduck oh actually first it was   the the river take me to the river so they took  us to the river first and we pray for the women   that are there and the children some got healed  from back issues and stuff yeah we give glory   to god and there i hear god said now ask them  to take you to a witch doctor i'm like come on   from the hospital to the river now we're going to  the witch doctor he's like yeah ask them so i was   embarrassed because i'm like what are they gonna  think of me like she's been doing this thing so i   turned to my friend and i'm like can you take me  to a witch doctor he's like sisteriness for what   i'm like yeah i just have to see a witch doctor  and he was like oh that's good you know what the   area we are in it's known as the mall of witch  doctors because there are plenty of them that   this is where they they're working it's literally  their uh her uh headquarter so i was like okay   uh he said though instead of us going to a witch  doctor let's go to my house and then i'm going to   call one one witch doctor that usually uh that  that we know that will come here so i was like   okay so in my mind i'm like it's about to go  down it's like power power against power it's   gonna be like you see in the mangas movies and  stuff cartoon and stuff it's like dragon ball z   things that is about to go down here and i'm  like picturing the whole thing in my mind   like oh my god i'm gonna do this and then  he's gonna do this then i have to do that   and i'm standing there in the balcony waiting  for the witch doctor and he's like oh the witch   doctor is coming and i can see him like come  down the cliff and going coming toward us   and i started running toward the stairs because i  wanted to get on the battlefield before him so i   can prepare my arm my weapons and stuff and as i'm  going down i just felt like liquid love dropped   over me and whatever mood i was going for god  just hijacked that and i got before literally run   to him and hugged him the second i hugged him it  almost said zay flack i just stripped him off of   everything that she came with he just  stood there looking at me smiling like   excuse the language like a dumb person he was just  like smiling and i'm just excited there i'm like   oh my god i've been waiting for you i've heard so  much about you i didn't even hear about him but   i just felt like i knew him i'm like i've heard so  much about him and i just started going full world   of knowledge over him telling him his dreams  telling him the things that he's been seeing   and he's there like just laughing smiling standing  there he couldn't do anything and he's like yeah   yeah i was like yeah you had a dream in that dream  and just came to you and told you this is not what   you're supposed to do you have to change and he's  like yeah how do you know i said yeah because god   sent me to you god loves you god knows you and  he's standing there and one of the first move he   did was go toward the trash area and then he had  things in his hand and he threw in that trash and   then came back to me to continue the conversation  because i tend to get very excited when i talk   about god so i'm like yeah god told me that you're  gonna get saved and you and me are gonna go all   around this town and then we start praying for  the witches he's like yeah but it's complicated   because of the cabinet i'm like don't worry  about that the next time you see me here in haiti   you'll be saved and we'll go around the town why  did he say it was complicated because of the what   the covenants that uh in which he was and i'm like  don't worry whenever i come back to haiti maybe   that's why i haven't been back to haiti whenever  i come back to haiti you and me are gonna go   around the city praying for all the witches he's  like oh i'd love to do that and i just went on   sharing all his dreams and stuff and then the lord  started giving me a word of knowledge about how he   does sacrifice and stuff i see yeah you go to the  cemetery this is what you do in the symmetry and   stuff the last time you tried to go there you know  what uh something happened fire came uh fire came   and struck you he was like oh yeah how do you know  that god showed me that fire came and struck you   and you heard a voice that told you this is not  what you are supposed to do this is not where you   are supposed to be this is not what you are called  for he's like yes i understand that and then i was   like you know what take me to other rich doctors  i was just so excited i don't know if it was the   liquid love situation that was going on there but  i was just so drunk in love with the fact that god   was encountering one of his children a lesson that  i learned that day when i was asking god like why   didn't you let me go full power with this person  exchange of power he told me he said ines power   the enemy can mimic but love that something  he can't mimic because that foreign language   to him he can mimic almost everything he can put  his finger on but he can't mimic loving a person   he can pretend that against his nature his  nature at that moment i knew that one of the   strengths if not the strength of doing ministry  with god the strength of even doing deliverance   the strength of just being a child of god he's  found in your revelation of the love of christ   the love of christ for you the love of christ  for the person standing before you regardless   of how they are spiritually knowing that god  is ready to come after them at all costs and   to just change the narrative of their life that's  worth that's worth everything so that's my story   it is how has jesus impacted your life he has  proven me on numerous occasions that he is my   life like a part of him i don't have life every  single time that i try to walk away from him   even backslide i just feel like the essence of  who i am is taken away and this is a side note   but i've had death in canada so many times god  bless my family for the number of time they had to   bring me back to life because of a poor decision  that i may have made or because of what spiritual   attacks i'm going i may have gone through but  even in those moments christ still showed himself   as my life like telling me ines once you gave  your life to me now i live through you it's not   just about you it's not just you every single  decision you take every single choice you make   every single one of your movement lives  in sync with who i am so knowing that it's   made me realize how much god or even christ has  impacted my life it's like now i have to think   through because i know that it's not just ines and  uh and her encounters no it's ines jesus ines and   jesus like forget about the encounters let's  put the encounters on the side these are great   things and i always look forward to them let's  put all of this stuff on the side and if today   i didn't even have those encounters anymore what  i'll forever cherish is the fact of living in   intimacy with the person of christ through the  holy spirit knowing that he'll come to me and   crack a joke not because there is anything  deep in that joke but just because he enjoys   fellowshipping with him with me knowing that i  can turn to him and say god what do you think   of that situation how should i tackle that  it's like making christ real in your life   that's i think is the impact that jesus has left  in me like i'm not just a distant god i'm not   just that person that history says that died  on the on the cross but i'm actually real and   i'm alive and i'll live through you i will live  with you that's the impact you left in my life   for people who are watching um and listening  to your testimony right now what are some last   words that you can say to whoever is watching  uh what am i gonna say to them holy spirit   i think i'm gonna tell them this you can  never be too far for god to run after you   you can never be too lost for god to find you  guys remember the story of the prodigal son   the day he decided to go back was not  the day the father wanted him back   in fact whenever i started walking toward him  god the father was already running toward him   and i want you to know you who is watching right  now i want you to know that in the situation that   you are going through god is running toward you  because he knows that the outcome of who you are   supposed to be is not who you are right now and  there is more in you than what the the world is   trying to to tell you there is more more in  you that what your self-judgment is trying   to put into your brain and i also want to tell  those that feel like that they are saved enough   to renew their relationship with god never  get used to the person of christ you'll be   shocked at the different facet of who is  that is revealed to you each and every day   don't just be content telling yourself that i've  grown up a christian i've grown up a religious   person i've grown up in a pk or whatever tell  yourself every morning when you wake up god   what do you want me to know about you today how  do you want me to move in our relationship today   in this season how do you want it to do and since  i went through that situation i also want to tell   those that are going through depression and have  a thought of suicide i want to tell you guys this   all those things are real yes but there  are thoughts that comes from the enemy   because he's afraid of who you are in god he's  afraid of what god can do with you and i want to   tell you today even when all hopes are lost turn  to god even for the last time and just say god   show me that you're real show me that  you are real whatever things that is   about to break me down god just show me that  you're a real guy show me that i can trust you   and see what god can do with you and see what god  can do for you that's the little that i can say

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Published: Thu Feb 24 2022