♪ I can't get no ♪ - Hi, it's been a little while. So four months to be exact, yeah, spin. So Vilk has gained a few pounds,
he now weighs 100 pounds. I've gained a few gray hairs. And I'm in the United States and I have so much to catch you up on. Everything that's happened
in the last four months and all the things that have changed and everything that's about to happen. Yes, good boy. You might remember that
a year and a half ago I wanted to drive the Pan-American
Highway north to south. That was my big dream. Let me introduce you to "Expedition Wild." I will spend the next two years of my life driving down the longest motorable
road in the entire world. The Pan American Highway. So I drove all the way to Northern Alaska where the Pan-Am begins. Every step that I take is
gonna be another step south. And then I drove all the way down to the southern tip of Baja in Mexico. Yep, this definitely feels
like a slice of paradise. And there I paused. After five years of full-time
travel and filmmaking I just needed a break. So I took some time off,
rekindled my love for running and worked on some side projects like my other channel "Unplugged." So I kind of decided to try
going barefoot for a while and see how that would feel. From there my plan was to
continue south to South America but along the way something changed. I slowly realized that this
dream I had been dreaming of was no longer something I wanted to do. You know what I mean? And you know, sometimes
we'll spend weeks, months hell, years sometimes working
towards this dream, right? Collecting, putting
together all the pieces that will make this
dream come true for us. And often to make it feel more real we'll tell everybody that
we know about this dream. Hey, Bubba, do you have any dreams? Maybe sticks? Oh yeah, get it. I'm not entirely sure what happened. Maybe getting Vilk changed
my perspective on travel. Say hi to everyone. Maybe it was my creative burnout that made me rethink my work. ♪ I can't get no ♪ - Maybe after five years
of full-time nomadic living without a home and without
much sense of stability I was just getting to the end
of that chapter of my life. Really know.
(upbeat music) Somewhere along the way I just lost my love for
this project, you know? Instead of filling me with a
sense of excitement and joy it actually filled me with
a sense of dread and anxiety and pressure like I was
doing it to prove a point, not for myself. And when I really thought about it deeply I realized what's the point
of driving all that way of doing this incredible thing if it doesn't make me
feel happy, you know? What's the point of doing
this once in a lifetime thing while dreading it? It makes no sense. It made no sense. It made no sense to continue. That alone was so difficult
to admit to myself that something that I had dreamt about and that I had told the entire world about was no longer something I wanted to do. And that in fact I wanted to do something entirely different. (chuckles) So when I did admit that to
myself, that was liberating. But then there was a small problem of, well sharing that news
with the rest of the world. And all of you because I told all of you that I wanted to drive
the Pan-American Highway and now I no longer did.
(rock music) I mean, it makes you feel flaky because there's this idea in our society that if you have a dream
then it's the one big dream and you must not change your mind about it and you must bring it about. Or I don't know. But I just couldn't help it. Last year was so transformative for me. Going through a breakup,
spending a year single, getting a dog and really asking
myself some tough questions. I had changed so much in that year and my dreams changed with me. I have decided to for now not drive the Pan-American Highway to Argentina. And I know that this might
disappoint some of you. But at the end of the day I need to do things that
I actually love doing. I feel so lucky and
privileged every single day to have this amazing life. And so I wanna make sure that
everything I do in this life feels authentic, feels real,
feels true, feels good. (laughs) Apart from that
smoke in my eyes, cheese. So I got this email the other
day from someone who was like, "oh you're not gonna finish
driving the Pan-American Highway because you're too weak
mentally and physically." And I read that email and it
made me feel a little bit sad. But also very happy in a different way because I realized that,
huh, that's what you think, that's fine, but I have nothing to prove. And that felt really good,
not having anything to prove. (water splashing) At some point during the last four months that I took away from YouTube, I realized that changing your
mind and changing your dreams is something that you are allowed to do. And sometimes we end up in situations that we never really wanted
to be in in the first place. We end up stuck because
we kind of kept going with something that we
said that we would do or something that we made up in our minds. And then we end up
waking up 10 years later and we're still in that situation, and we're like "how the
hell did I end up here?" And I've been there and I
don't wanna be there again. So I realized that the
only thing that I can do is do the thing that I wanted to do all along that was already brewing
in my mind a year ago and two years ago, but
that I felt so powerfully and so strongly over the last few months. I wanna find a home. And no, I don't mean
a home on four wheels. I mean an actual home. Like a piece of land that
I can build a real home on. So over the next few months I'm gonna be traveling all
across (gasps) the United States. Hey buddy, filming, making videos. Yes, getting to know the
country, the people and the land. But also low key, looking for a place that I can actually move to permanently. Get inside. Good boy. Okay, so you might be wondering
why the United States? I can't explain it. (laughs) I can't explain it but last year when I spent a month in
Montana I just felt so at home. I really felt like that was my place. Like it was my soul spot. But since I'm looking for a place that will be my home
base for years to come I wanna take my time and
explore all the options. There are so many amazing
places in the US and beyond. And I want to be really
intentional about where I end up. And I want to share that
homecoming journey with you. Here's a little preview of what's to come. Oh my God, oh my God, it's so fun, Steve. Woo hoo! Oh, there's some really deep sand here. ♪ I can't get no ♪ ♪ I can't get no ♪ - God, it's so tight. This is a 40 foot RV. I also just realized that I put the tent right underneath this tree, which looks like it's about to fall. And there's a storm coming.
♪ But you can't be man ♪ ♪ 'cause you don't smoke ♪ ♪ The same cigarettes as me ♪ ♪ Whoa I can't get no ♪ - I love it. ♪ No no no ♪
- I love it. 95.83 kilometers. - [Steve] Let her walk, good. - Uh huh, rattlesnake,
rattlesnake, fuck rattle snake. Why are you coming towards me, you freak? What is it, buddy? You a bit tired? Yeah, I'm also a bit tired
and knee deep in snow. As usual I don't really know
my exact route, but I do know that I'll probably cross the
US west to east this time. I guess the expedition continues. It just happened to
take an unexpected turn as expeditions sometimes do. So I call this "Expedition Wild USA." And here's a quick little note. My YouTube content will always be free but if you'd like to support my journey you can also subscribe to me on Patreon. Patreon gives you access to more content early releases of my YouTube films and exclusive video commentaries
on every YouTube film from here on out, that's a new feature. Check it out on patreon.com/evazubeck and thank you for getting this far. I really appreciate all of you on here and I'm so grateful that
you've stuck around. Thank you. (steady music)
