i FINALLY read The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo + Daisy Jones & The Six

i hate it here i'm in pain [Music] guys it's time it's finally time time for what you may ask it's finally time that i'm gonna start reading seven husbands of evelyn hugo and daisy jones and the six by taylor jenkins read you're probably like how have you not read this yet your job is literally to read books i don't know okay i don't know i've been putting it off and putting it off and putting it off but i decided to do a reading vlog of me reading both of these books i'm going to start with this one i just want to it's literally 6 30 p.m on a random tuesday night i decided now is the time i can't wait and i am going to be vlogging the entirety of my reading process between these two books over the next few days i am not going to include spoilers in the actual vlog portion but then at the very end of this video i'm probably going to do a little compilation moment of my live raw reactions to some spoiler moments probably me crying talking about quotes and then like overall reactions and feelings and everything at the end of each book i'll include that at the very end of this video so if you've already read these two books you can watch the spoiler section too but if you haven't you can still enjoy this video and watch it and see my reactions to certain things maybe it will motivate you to start reading them as well without further ado let's start reading and start vlogging i literally can't wait i've heard such good things i have such high expectations i have my highlighter and my pen and my book you know i love annotating so without further ado let's start reading i'm so excited why am i already about to cry like literally there's literally a tear at the dedication for lila smash the patriarchy sweetheart why does that make you want to cry [ __ ] the patriarchy oh there's a little page before chapter one evelyn hugo to auction off gowns it's like uh an article i don't know let's read so she was or is very very famous she was an actress i don't know but i'm picturing her really cool says she is the daughter of two cuban immigrants and it's her story from the 50s to the 80s through like this in the spotlight of hollywood i'm about to start chapter one it's happening okay so this book is from the perspective of monique who's a journalist and she just said evelyn hugo is one of the biggest movie stars of all time she doesn't even have to have something to say for people to listen her power evelyn hugo just requested to be interviewed so i'm assuming monique is gonna be interviewing her and that's what this book is gonna be i've never read anything like that i'm excited so evelyn specifically said she's only gonna do the interview if it's with monique and if it's not monique she's not doing it and monique is like new to this job so she's like why would she choose me i'm curious to find out why i just learned about evelyn having seven husbands obviously that's the title of the book i want to learn everything about her she seems very interesting i can't wait to get to the interview parts monique is going into evelyn's apartment oh my god um i don't know what is happening but evelyn just came down and started talking to monique and is like i lied i don't want you to write a story about me auctioning off dresses i want you not your journalism company not your magazine i want you to write my life story out of everyone in the world who's obsessed with her she's like the most famous woman ever she wants monique to do it a first-year journalist i need to read and see why i'm giving you my life story money i'm going to tell you the whole truth and you're going to write a book about it oh my god i'm so excited what is her life her life already seems interesting and i know nothing uh i just read a little bit down the page and it says my name won't be on the book i'll be dead i'll be dead oh no she's gonna make so much money off of this book but also evelyn is being very suspicious she keeps saying next question what are you hiding woman so monique just decided that the hook of her book she's writing is who was the love of evelyn's life she's assuming it's gonna be one of her seven husbands and then she said her most recent husband harry was my greatest friend he invented me he was the person i loved most unconditionally the person i loved the most purely i think other than my daughter but no he was not the love of my life and then she says why not and evelyn says because that was someone else and then ends the conversation now i need to know too oh [ __ ] the book is literally gonna be written in sections based on her husband's like this is called poor ernie diaz hey let's read about ernie i finished ernie's part i saw how she got into hollywood how she got her start i really really like how this book is formatted like it's an interview and then all of a sudden the chapter will just switch to evelynn's point of view and tell the story and then switch back to monique's point of view without really saying anything but you can just feel the switch and now i'm on goddamn dawn adler her second husband i really am intrigued by evelyn's lifestyle like the way she was so determined to get to the top and knew exactly how to manipulate her way there interesting i hope people start treating her better i feel like the men don't treat her very well because she's young and pretty um i just took off my makeup so don't mind my face but oh my god i love harry i literally love that man he just like told her like you're not my type or whatever and then she's like you know you're my best friend in the world right they're so cute i stand them as friends and then at the end of this chapter where she married dawn of course he turns out just like the rest of men i [ __ ] hate dawn he's literally such a [ __ ] i hate him i literally hate dawn so much and it's so hard to read because evelyn isn't doing anything about it but like can't judge her for like how she's reacting to what he's doing but like i hate this man she's currently in the movie little woman and she's talking about like this new actress that is also in the movie named celia i have a feeling that she's important because but celie was a sort of beautiful that felt as if you could hold it in your hands like if you played your cards right you might just get to marry a girl like celia st james she looked at me and the way she did it made me feel as if no one had ever really looked at me before interesting i feel like she's gonna be a key part in her story okay i'm really tired it's only 10 30 but i'm really tired and i have a meeting in the morning so i'm gonna go to bed i didn't even read that much like a quarter of the way in i'm on page 106 chapter 17 and i'm leaving off right after they just made an announcement to the media about their family situation so that's where i'm stopping and i'm gonna pick back up tomorrow after my meeting i'll see you then can't wait to read more good morning everyone it's the next day i just got out of my meeting it's time to read um i'm in the middle of doing my makeup so i literally look insane but celia is mad right now we're bothered as evelyn is telling her about her husband oh my god my makeup but anyway celia t stop it's so cute how evelyn is like watching the little women premiere and the whole time instead of being jealous she's just like celia is so good like she's gonna win an oscar oh my god i'm at the part where ruby just pulled evelyn into the closet or laundry or something and told her what she knows about celia she's telling her who is your great love oh my god oh my god stop i literally love harry and evelyn's friendship so much he just came to like bring her the divorce papers for her new divorce yeah she's divorcing her second husband as she should but she's getting [ __ ] over and i love harry um don't buy my hair i literally look like a hot mess a little bit later in the day now i'm about to resume reading this far in i'm on chapter 22 i'm gonna lay down and start reading i've been looking forward to reading literally all day i'm officially at mcreeba's chapter i'm so glad that we're done with dawn i hated that man off the way that evelyn is cheering for celia winning right now she chipped her tooth oh my god i was wondering how she was gonna marry more people and [ __ ] just hit the fan they're currently fighting the newspapers are talking the talk but i guess she's gonna be with mick because the chapter title but why evelyn is literally a genius i'm on the scene when they're in vegas like she is the most manipulative like smart woman like what her mind oh my god so this whole time she was like manipulating mick into doing what she wanted and then she made it seem like it was his idea and all this and then and then in her head she goes i wonder what it must be like to be a man to be so confident that the final say is yours she is literally such an icon like she literally just got exactly what she wanted and of course the man thinks it was his idea even though she manipulated him into thinking that stop you know how i feel about harry listen to this quote you do not know how fast you have been running how hard you've been working how truly exhausted you are until someone stands behind you and says it's okay you can fall down now i'll catch you so i fell down and harry caught me why am i gonna cry not the first tears not the first tears this paragraph in chapter 30 monique asked evelyn if she has any regrets she's crying like why am i just crying like come on onto the next husband clever rex north let's see what rex is about shall we period evelyn harry is dating oh [ __ ] harry and her are in the car and they had ruby tip off the photographers um and the paparazzis to come catch them in the act and he just suggested and he's dating and she would be with it would be perfect oh my god wait i need to read um what is this foreshadowing i have no idea that in less than a week evelyn hugo will finish her story and i'll find out what this has all been about and i will hate her so much that i'll truly be afraid i might kill her what i already know i just love harry so much brilliant kind-hearted tortured harry cameron yes they're reunited they are reuniting everybody mama i've been waiting for i like their arrangement they have going on but this is only her fifth husband so oh they're giving their money they're saying we have to give them what we have and they don't money oh they're doing something good i feel like this is the first good thing anyone's done this whole book celia literally has mood swings i swear she just said something so mean having a baby who you may ask i don't know you'll have to read to find out no is dawn back no not jon oh my god that hurt connor just recognized celia and then just goes that's the girl from your movie you're in and evelyn goes that's when i knew the family i had made had truly disintegrated no i'm so sad oh i'm literally getting whiplash who is this max man and why is he all of a sudden obsessed with her and why is everyone's first move like as soon as they like realize they like each other like marry me you guys just met okay monique is talking to her ex and i feel like she's learned so much from evelyn already this is like the first real glimpse we've seen into her actual life so let me read i'm on chapter 51 i'm stopping for the night i have that much left and i'm very excited to figure out what is going on but i'm saving it for the morning because i know if i get to like where stuff starts getting unveiled i'm not going to want to stop but they literally have two days left of interviews evelyn just said you should be excited monique you're about to get answers answers to what i'm scared so i'll see you tomorrow good night good afternoon everyone it's the next day i have a dentist appointment in a few hours but i'm just gonna read up until then i have this much left i think i can finish so i'm starting in chapter 51 i feel like we're getting to the sad part everyone says i'm gonna cry i haven't really cried yet so i feel it coming on to the next husband disappointing max gerard why is he disappointing i was about to say he doesn't seem so bad jinxed it probably no not her speech being and to anyone tempted to kiss the tv tonight please don't chip your tooth they're 50 years old and that's what she's thinking about as soon as they started writing letters i knew this was going to happen harry come on i see where you're coming from but come on um why is this making me emotional because it reminds me when i was a preteen how i acted but it says conor was growing more and more annoyed by me every day she found her mother to be the very epitome of embarrassment the fact that i was a world renowned film star seemed to have absolutely no effect on how big of an idiot conor saw me to be i was often happier in la than i was in new york constantly rejected by my own flesh and blood but i would have dropped it all in a heartbeat if i thought conor might want even an evening of my time stop all she wants to do is hang out with her daughter what's happening we're supposed to go to the airport oh no [Laughter] what the [ __ ] i don't want to finish this job dirt i'm emo i just got myself together and i'm on to the last husband husband number seven agreeable robert jameson where is this gonna go please god i just need something good to happen what is she hiding like why does she think she's such a bad person i'm scared stop this is so cute connor is like growing up and she's getting really close to robert seems so cute i've been married seven times and never once has it felt half as right as this i think that loving you has been the truest thing about me every time harry's mentioned i cry oh my god not evelyn and connor sitting at the table and she said she sat at my dining room table i lived a very full life before you were born i'm in pain i feel like i've witnessed as a woman's entire life because i basically have oh my god everyone said broke like i've never broken before the devastating luxury of panic overtook me and it has never left oh god chapter 63 no not the chapter starting with that's how my story ends oh my god what the [ __ ] literally the entire chapter 63 it's just one page is literally my favorite chapter of like any book ever her character development and her story and everything she went through was just summed up in like one page holy [ __ ] oh [ __ ] i literally said in the spoiler part my prediction of what it was i wasn't that far off holy [ __ ] okay i'm getting all of the answers that i was talking about this whole video i'm getting them now and um i'm overwhelmed i finished feeling very emotional and i don't even know i have to go to the dentist right now i literally supposed to leave like 20 minutes ago but i couldn't stop reading and i finished and i'll give my full synopsis when i get back from the dentist because i literally have no time but i love this book so much and i literally just feel like i witnessed someone's entire life unfold and now i'm just like done like what am i supposed to do now i'm so emotional like why can't i stop crying i'm gonna go to the dentist now and try not to ball my eyes out see when i get back okay here i am to give my spoiler-free wrap-up of the seven husbands of evelyn hugo basically i'm just gonna try to tell you what this book is about and convince you to read it as if it's a book recommendation video with no spoilers i just got home from the dentist and i cried the whole way there just because i felt so hollow like the way this book made me feel was just like something something completely different that i've ever experienced so basically this book is told from two perspectives so monique is a journalist at a magazine and it's her first year working there and she randomly gets the assignment that she will be interviewing the infamous evelyn hugo who is a huge actress like the biggest actress kind of like marilyn monroe vibes but she was the actress in like the 50s 60s 70s and now she's at almost 80 years old and she has been pretty private with her entire life up until this point for some reason she has sought out monique to write a piece about her and monique is obviously like this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity i'm gonna take it she goes and meets evelyn and evelyn tells her actually i didn't summon you here to write a piece about me i want you to write my biography and i want you to leave the magazine and take my life story for yourself and you'll sell it and make millions of dollars and be successful for the rest of your life and monique's like why would you choose me i'm just some random first year journalist and evelyn's just like i read one of your pieces and i liked your writing style that's it the whole book is then kind of told in evelyn's point of view of her entire life her seven husbands a breakdown of everything she did or the ups and downs of being famous literally the most famous most beautiful desired woman in the entire country and her experience with love and loss and family and it is not the typical book i read a typical romance there is romance involved but it's not like oh cutesy like buildup of a romance it's like true representation of relationships platonic relationships familial relationships and romantic relationships then she gets the end and unveils everything monique is left in shock and then the ending is kind of like oh my god i was crying so hard i was like at a loss for words it kind of like sums up the entire book within just a few chapters of everything she learned in her life everything she regrets and doesn't regret and what she wishes she did differently and what she would never change what she would say to all the people she's loved and lost it was just like it felt like i was like talking to like a rel like an older relative like my grandma or something giving me advice like i felt like i learned so much in this book and i felt like monique learned so much the interviewer and she changed so much and started making different decisions in her life based off what she was learning from evelyn evelyn is a flawed character and she has done so much and been through so much and i just i don't even know what to say this book was definitely unlike anything i've ever read and i would definitely definitely recommend you read it once i started getting wrapped up in her stories and invested in the characters and her relationship her great love like i felt a lot of emotions her family oh my god i would definitely recommend it i can definitely see where the hype comes from that is my final thoughts opinions and wrap up of the seven husbands of evelyn hugo spoiler free and then i'm going to start daisy jones and the six not right now i'm gonna go eat dinner but i am so excited but i have no idea what this book's about just like i had no idea going into the seven husbands of everyone hugo i have no idea what daisy johnson six is about but i'm excited to find out so i'll see you when i'm reading this good morning everyone i'm in the process of moving because i'm going back to college the reason i decided to start this book today is because on my most recent youtube video where i mentioned reading daisy jensen the six this month i got so many comments that said listen to the audiobook of this book listen to the audiobook listen to the audiobook and i was like why like what is so significant about the audiobook compared to the actual book and then i opened the book and i realized it's told in like a bunch of perspectives at the same time like so many characters are talking at once so i can totally see how the audiobook would be better because they have different voices i'm gonna listen to the audiobook as i like pack and stuff throughout the day today and probably tomorrow um if i don't finish and then obviously i'll read some like at night and stuff when i get the chance to actually sit down and read but i'm gonna listen to the audiobook and then i'm gonna like keep updating you guys again going into this book completely blind i have no idea what this book's about um i'm pretty sure it is about a girl that joins a band i literally don't even know i'm excited to find out i saw someone recommend this book for right person wrong time tropes so i'm already ready to get my heart shattered i'm about to cry i'm literally on page 10. i'm literally gonna cry because her parents just don't pay attention to her and she's like telling the story of how she lost her virginity and then she said i was drawn to him mainly because he was drawn to me i wanted someone to single me out as something special i was just so desperate to hold someone's interest daisy jones i feel like you and me are gonna get along great i just like to say that this audiobook is incredible it feels like i'm watching an interview on youtube the way that they're talking it literally feels like i'm watching an interview it's so good and it's making me comprehend it so much better also there's a part where daisy and her best friend simone are like driving in the car listening to you've got a friend it says simone and i were singing so loud but i was really listening to the lyrics too i was really feeling it that song always made me thankful for her there's this piece that comes with knowing you have a person in the world who would do anything for you that you would do anything for she was the first time i ever had that i got a little bit teary in the car listening to that song i turned to simone and i opened my mouth to talk but she just nodded and said me too like that makes me want to cry also this part wyatt said i love you so much and i don't understand why you don't love me i said i love you as much as i'm willing to love anybody which was true i wasn't really willing to be vulnerable with anybody at that point i'd felt too much vulnerability too young i didn't want to do it anymore this book is already so good like why am i already crying oh god guys i don't know why i keep crying the audiobook is so good and the way this is written is um hitting a little too close to home i'm trying to pack and i just keep stopping and crying that's how it was back then i was just supposed to be the inspiration for some man's great idea well [ __ ] that that's why i started writing my own stuff i had absolutely no interest in being somebody else's muse i am not a muse i am the somebody and a [ __ ] story this book is so good i'm on the rise of the six 1966-1972 i'm like getting introduced to like all the band members and i just met karen and then she goes men often think they deserve a sticker for treating women like people that is so true um i'm doing my makeup so i look crazy i want you guys to listen to this part because it's so funny warren teddy price was ugly as sin a face only a mother could love was just messing around he was ugly though i like that he didn't seem to care that's the glory of being a man an ugly face isn't the end of you that's what i wanted to show you isn't the audiobook so funny like it literally feels like i'm listening to an interview of like this entire band but the way karen hates men every like funny thing she says is about her hating men stop billy is so obsessed with camilla like he just called her after getting the record deal and he's like getting the record deal meant nothing if i couldn't share it with camila okay i finished my makeup i have to go out to lunch right now but i read or i listened to good little chunk this morning i just got to the part where the six finished their debut album i'm missing daisy i need some more daisy content i'm getting a lot of the six backstory but daisy found out she like signed her deal but then they like [ __ ] her over so of course she can't have one nice thing can't she but yeah i'm gonna keep listening in the car i just listened to the audiobook my whole way here i found out a lot of stuff which i'll put in the spoiler section but wow wow okay i just got home and i listened again on my whole way home and i just feel like billy is spiraling out of control like what is this man doing he's being reckless i thought i loved him at the beginning but now i'm just like what what are you doing so billy just met julia for the first time finally daisy is being integrated to the six in some way like i was confused how they were connected because they were two completely different stories but teddy just suggested that they do a song with daisy honestly daisy's power like when she walked in the room the entire band is just staring at her and then it gives each of their perspectives they're all just thinking about how pretty she is now she's gonna record her song i like love karen she's one of my favorite characters so far oh my god they're singing together live right now and karen says the way billy would watch her as she sang the way she'd watch him it was intense is it wrong of me to ship them it's probably wrong with me but graham and karen are literally my favorite characters right now okay so daisy and billy just had like their first like moment where they like liked each other for like longer than two seconds and then because he was checking on her after she fired hank now graham hung up the phone on karen and is running to her room okay so billy and daisy are on stage right now basically singing alone together like billy came out to kind of help her and karen goes you know how sometimes people will describe other people and say they make you feel like you're the only one in the room billy and daisy could both do that but they somehow did it with each other they each seemed like they thought the other one was the only person in the room like we were watching two people who didn't realize thousands of people were watching them it is crazy like this book takes place in the 70s obviously the drug use and how like normal it was for everyone to be like doing like hard drugs on the daily at least billy is being good so far i just love karen and grant are so cute karen just bought a house i'm gonna read this [ __ ] to you people say that life keeps moving but they don't mention that it does stop sometimes just for you just for you and your girl the world stops spinning and just lets you two lie there feels like it anyway sometimes if you're lucky call me romantic if you have to worse things to be i think i'm almost halfway i'm at the chapter called aurora 1977 to 1978. they officially named their band and i think they're about to record their third album eddie is so annoying like eddie's kind of irrelevant but he's pretty annoying i mean making comments about daisy and karen and like their music ability like shut up who are you you're literally the most relevant one here period daisy she says i'm not going to sit around sweating my ass off just so men can feel more comfortable it's not my responsibility to not turn them on it's their responsibility to not be an [ __ ] i literally love daisy billy and daisy work so well together like their songwriting like they might get on each other's nerves but from what i'm gathering is they write some good ass songs together and they just bounce ideas off of each other and they work really well together i wish that i could actually listen to these songs like that'd be so cool i wish i could i wish they were real karen says the end of the chapter i think people that are too similar they don't mix well i used to think soul mates were two of the same i used to think i was supposed to look for somebody that was just like me i don't believe in soulmates anymore and i'm not looking for anything but if i did believe in them i'd believe your soulmate was somebody who had all the things you didn't that needed all the things you had not somebody who's suffering from the same stuff you are damn everything karen says i'm like preach karen hold up mick riva is here you're telling me one of evelyn's seven husbands is in this book that mofo i hated him in the seven husbands why is he here they're in the same universe oh my god i think they're throwing a party right now so i'm gonna read because that man he's trouble this book is so cool to read because you're getting so many perspectives of the exact same situation like daisy said he finally told me the song was about me and then he goes i absolutely never told daisy the song was about her like they all are contradicting themselves so you kind of have to like interpret what you think is what happened and who you trust and i think it's so cool why is miss daisy jones writing a song called a hope like you that billy describes as it was such a sad love song about wanting somebody you can't have and knowing you're going to want them anyway oh i think i see what's happening here okay they're writing songs together and daisy says it seemed clear to me that there were things unsaid that were being said in our work together and then billy's like they're just songs whatever you pull them out whatever you can you change the meaning if you have to and daisy says it's so strange how someone's silence someone's insistence that something isn't happening can be so suffocating i see what's happening here he's in denial is billy stupid or is he playing dumb or is he actually this clueless she shows him this whole song she wrote and he goes what's this guy putting you through to write a song like this and daisy was even then i wasn't sure if billy and i were having the same conversation i feel bad for the rest of the band because they're completely excluded from like billy and daisy's little like world of controlling this band and they're kind of just like in the background and they're all annoyed they're like we're supposed to be in this band too like what is going on here why am i gonna cry because graham finally wrote a song and he was so proud of it and then he went to show billy and billy just completely disregarded him and like didn't even ask him who the song was about is like so uninvolved and just doesn't care about graham's life and graham is like i'd always had billy's back i'd always been there for him supported him through anything and everything makes me sad oh my god i just got so like carried away with reading then i literally forgot to even update you guys because so much just happened daisy said i like writing with you and billy said i like writing with you too a bunch of [ __ ] happened and i'll put in the spoiler section billy said this and i highlighted it i thought it was a really good quote he was talking about how when he was younger he had a thought like i could just push my brother in the pool right now like i'm not going to but if i wanted to like i could and that really tripped me out that everyone's life was that precarious that there wasn't some all-knowing mechanism in place that stopped things that shouldn't happen from happening that's something that had always scared me and that's how it felt being around daisy jones and davey said it was excruciating this lie he was trying to tell us both she was dangerous and i knew that but i don't think i could recognize that the safer she felt to me the more dangerous she was it's literally 11 20 at night i've been reading like hours straight but i have to go to the airport now and it's like a 45 minute drive so i'm gonna listen to the audiobook but i'm like this far in like i only have that much left so we'll see i'll come back and update you on everything i listen to in the car over this 45 minute drive but a lot is happening so daisy just suggested that they perform the song that she wrote on her own and billy's like immediately know i literally just got home from the airport and i'm way too tired so i'm just gonna update you about everything in the morning good morning it's the next day i just woke up and i'm gonna tell you what i listened to when i was on my way to the airport last night but so basically daisy pitched the song she wrote about what her and billy went through and basically he was like we're not recording that song because he didn't help her write it and one of the lyrics was when you think of me i hope it ruins rock and roll and then the whole band voted that they record it and billy like didn't want to so they recorded it without him and then they did the album cover photo shoot and the photographer captured like just a few moments between billy and daisy they became the album and the back cover and reading it it says they were angled in the negative space between them felt alive somehow electric there was so much purpose behind the not touching right like the angst between them and then billy goes i swear that guy just caught the only two times i was looking at her i felt like i was always trying not to look at her so that's where i left off after the album art and the cover and stuff and they showed them all i have this much left so i still have a decent chunk left i'm gonna start reading right now daisy just said this quote and i want to read it because i thought it was really good i wish someone had told me that love isn't torture because i thought love was this thing that was supposed to tear you into and leave you heartbroken and make your heart race in the worst way i thought love was bombs and tears and blood i did not know that i was supposed to make you lighter not heavier i didn't know i was supposed to take only the kind of work that makes you softer i thought love was war i didn't know it was supposed to be peace and [ __ ] love like that was for women like camilla okay nick nicki or whatever just confronted billy and never look at her never touch her whatever billy goes is this what you want she said yes that's what i want and then billy said i trusted her when all signs said that i shouldn't and i was done doing that what are they doing not ever did daisy just spill everything to the reporter what does she even say like i want to know can i hear please it just says then it just all started pouring out of her tell me i want to know what's pouring out of her no oh she didn't tell him about what she feels she exposed him [ __ ] oh my god these two are gonna be the literal death of me the article that ended up getting published i mean i guess it's going to work out for them because rod says is there any headline that is going to make you want to see daisy jones in the 6 perform live more than that there's no diamond record without that rolling stone article that article was the first step in their music transcending the limits of music it was the first step towards aurora not only being an album but an event it was the last kick it needed to blast off what is going on between them like i'm genuinely confused i need to not have expectations because i feel like i had expectations going into this and they are not what this book is about at all not billy's daughter saying her favorite member of the band is daisy oh my god i wish i could listen to this album like i literally would die to hear this album they're talking about it's an album you can play at a party it's an album you can get hi to it's an album you can play as you're speeding down the highway but then you listen to the lyrics and you realize this is an album you can cry to and it's an album you can get laid to for every moment of your life in 1978 aurora could play in the background i want to hear it so bad and then daisy says it's an album about needing someone and having them love someone else and billy says it's an album about the push and pull of stability and instability is it about love yeah of course it is but that's because it's easy to disguise almost anything as a love song they're not even on the same universe okay going into the next part aurora world tour 1978-1979 i think daisy is really spiraling out of control i don't like nikki they just like fought in the hotel room and she says i remember thinking if this is what love is like maybe i don't want it i looked at him and my heart just sank because while i have no idea whether or not i overdosed or what exactly happened that night i could tell he had been truly terrified and all he did was put me in the shower my husband believed i might die and he didn't so much as even call the concierge i literally don't know what's happening it feels so real like do you know what i mean like reading this especially seeing all the characters perspectives like i feel like this is so real i just was saying daisy to get her life together and i think she's slowly starting to get it together she just made the speech at the grammys and then she said when you rediscover your sanity it's only a matter of time before you start to get an inkling of why you wanted to escape it in the first place then billy says when we walked off stage without a board i caught her eye she smiled at me and i thought she's turning it around i think billy and daisy are friends again i don't know they're like talking again ah maybe i'm not insane they're performing on snl right now and they're like attention right now the chemistry gonna go talk to the spoiler section about this guys i felt like i was going absolutely insane because i just this was so back and forth and i didn't know the feelings i was feeling through the pages were real or if it was just like i was delusional because i wanted this to be a romance or what was happening but oh my god them singing together one on one on the stage and what they're thinking right now spoiler section i'm literally sobbing chicago stadium july 12 1979 bro the way billy treats graham is so uncalled for graham needs to talk to him so bad and billy's confusing like i know they're all going through separate stuff but oh my god taylor james read this [ __ ] in the last book it was like going as normal and then it says author and now the author is talking and it says wait a minute while i have made a concerted effort to remove myself from the narrative i included here a verbatim transcript of one of the conversations i had with daisy jones because i am in fact the only one that can corroborate this essential piece of daisy's story and then it's her talking to daisy like the author is in the book and she's a character no billy the book is really gonna end with everything [ __ ] falling apart isn't it camilla and daisy are talking right now i'm gonna cry again and stop and camilla is kind of like saying how she thinks daisy needs to get better and go do her own thing and she sees herself and her and so many people care about her and she needs to take care of herself camilla looked at me for a moment and then she said something that changed my life she said don't count yourself out this early daisy you're all sorts of things you don't even know yet that really stuck with me that who i was wasn't entirely already determined that there was still hope for me that a woman like camilla done thought i was worth saving i think this is officially the last part then and now 1979 depressant oh my god pete is having his first speaking part but i also just found out everything that happened with daisy after the band and all the good she's doing feels bittersweet i am literally like i just think there's something so special and like doesn't feel hollow but it does like billy and camilla's love for each other i don't know like how it makes me feel like he loves her so much in like a way like i'm gonna be with you for every way it's not like a love that i've ever read about and it's not like a love you usually read in books and i think that's what's so cool about it and it also just like hurts because it's like he always she's the greatest thing that ever happened to me and like even though they've been through so much with daisy and everything it just it's always there and they can always rely on it it just feels like something like a family i don't even know how to put it towards crying again but that wasn't the last chapter that was kind of like the where are we now with all the characters and now there's one last thing before i go november 5th 2012 but i just started crying because the last line that billy and daisy says is he says we were pretty good and daisy says we were great we were really great oh my god is this all this oh my god i literally just caught that on camera my reaction to the ending okay well this is to go in the spoiler part but i can't believe i just caught that on camera i'll be reacting to what this last chapter actually is okay i just finished wow i loved this book so much i think i love this one more than the seven husbands of ellen hugo i don't know i just felt like really really connected to like it was easy to relate to a bunch of different characters in this book and connect with them since there were so many points of view i loved the way it was written it was so unique and it was just like so realistically and hauntingly beautiful i loved it so much but i'm gonna shower right now and gather my thoughts and then come back to you for the full wrap up and ending of this video okay just got out of the shower i've just been thinking about this book and i literally just start crying i loved it so much like i really loved it so much i thought it was like again not like anything i've ever read the way it's set up i felt like i was watching a documentary and i was so immersed i like refused to believe that this isn't a real band and all this stuff didn't actually happen like the characters are all so flawed but taylor dragons read has a way of making you sympathize with the flawed characters so much that i like kind of feel guilty but also i don't because i feel like i know them i want to defend them despite everything they did wrong and the way it ends is just so like i feel so like hollow like we got an ending and we got to see where everyone ended up you know when you finish a book you just know you're not going to stop thinking about it and it's one of those books that now that you finish and you know everything you need to reread it to like get a new perspective because i feel that way with this book like another thing that felt so realistic was like the love between the characters and how you're not always gonna be together and end up together you can love someone and it's not enough and loving someone that you're going to be happy with and be able to build a life with is enough it doesn't mean you're settling just because it's not as passionate and as all-consuming as you thought it would be and i feel like taylor jenkins read in both of these books i saw like coming from a romance reader my perspective of love after reading these books feels so different and everyone wants like an all-consuming passionate love but after reading these books it's like you have different kinds of loves and different soul mates and different relationships that aren't going to be perfect and romantic and passionate and i think that's something that she did so well it makes me feel like achy and hollow like i don't know how to explain it but i love these books so much i read you the quotes like this book has such good quotes i literally just want to cry all the time now that i think about it especially finding out the ending who the interviewer is everything makes sense and i just want to reread it please listen to the audiobook it was like an indescribable experience if any of you guys have read like normal people by sally rooney and you get to the end and you're just so like hollow but it was so good that's how i feel with this book like i feel the same way as when i finish normal people and like i felt that way at the end of this book and i loved both of these books so much like they were so well written and both made me so emotional in both of these books you see the characters go through so much and it's not gonna end how perfectly and happy you want it to and it's not like a happily ever after thing and it's like that's what i feel like makes it so good and i love these books so much i'm so glad i read them thank you guys for like pushing me to read these because i'm never gonna forget them i'm gonna recommend these literally all the time to everyone i meet i'm gonna be in a huge reading slump after this like what am i going to read after this that's going to like compare to how deep and meaningful these books felt i don't know but if you haven't read these books yet and you want to read them now you should definitely do it and then come back and watch the spoilers section i'm just going to insert the spoilers here okay the spoilers for the seven husbands of evelyn hugo are starting right here so if you skipped ahead and you're here do not watch this is the spoiler section i'm just warning you again to make sure you don't watch this they're literally just spoilers from as i was reading but i couldn't put them in the beginning because i would have spoiled stuff so i'm just throwing them in here all next to each other for people that have read the books to enjoy i'm putting this in the first section of the spoilers because i know i can't tell people that haven't read the book yet but oh my god celia and evelyn are totally gonna be the love of each other's lives because i just read the part where celie goes i hope you know by now that all your secrets are safe with me and then evelyn in her head says i do i do know that people think that intimacy is about sex but intimacy is about truth when you realize you can tell someone your truth when you can show yourself to them when you stand in front of them bear and their responses you are safe with me that's intimacy and by those standards that moment with celia was the most intimate one i'd ever had with anyone so ruby just pulled evelyn into like the closet to tell her that celia is lesbian then also told her that dawn is cheating on her and she goes when she said it i did not think oh my god my husband is cheating on me i thought i have to find celia she finally said it who was your great love stanley of st james stop they're so cute celia said if i don't win will you still love me and evelyn goes you could be a nobody living in a cardboard box and i'd still love you i never said that before i'd never meant it before celia smiled wide me too the cardboard box and all of it um what i just finished the part with the mick riva situation in vegas where they got married and then slept together and then the next day she made it seem like he planned to break up with her but really this was her plan all along like she depleted him and now i'm at the part where her and celia have been spending the night together every night and she just found out she's pregnant no please no literally they're in such a tough situation like i don't know what i would do in their situation like now celia is mad at her for sleeping with him just to cover up their relationship like she's trying to protect them because she knows how everyone would react and celia would rather be public than a secret oh my god oh my god her and celia broke up they didn't talk for five years what i did not expect that i thought they were gonna make up i'm gonna explain the first time i'm crying the quote monique says do you regret that you didn't call her that you lost that time and evelyn says she's gone now the love of my life is gone i can't just call her and say i'm sorry and have her come back she's gone forever so yes monique that is something i do regret i regret every second i didn't spend with her i regret every stupid thing i did that caused her an ounce of pain i should have chased her down the street the day she left me i should have begged her to stay i should have apologized and sent roses and stood on the top of the hollywood sign and shouted i'm in love with celia st james and let them crucify me for it that's what i should have done and now that i don't have her and i have more money than i could have ever used in this lifetime and my name is cemented in hollywood history and i know how hollow it is i'm kicking myself for every single second i chose it over loving her proudly that [ __ ] really hurts oh my god celia is lowkey pissing me off like first she denies the fact that evelyn's bisexual she's always calling her a lesbian and then she goes nothing's changing you're afraid of who you are and you still don't have an oscar you're what you've always been a nice pair of tits and then amelia goes i'm so sorry i shouldn't have said that i didn't mean it how do you just say all that and then be like i didn't mean it two seconds later celia's dying they literally can't have one nice thing i hope they at least get to live out what they're talking about moving to spain and living out her final years together because it's what they deserve at this point why would they kill harry he was my favorite character i hate it here rest in peace celia everyone's dying everyone is literally dying not her crying at harry's grave saying that she just needs her best friend to comfort her every time harry's mentioned celia died and i didn't even cry i'm crying because she went to harry's grave and i love him now her daughter died literally everyone's dying why is everyone dying when they put her in the ground next to her father i broke like i've never broken before the devastating luxury of panic overtook me and it has never left oh god no not the chapter starting with that's how my story ends with the laws of everyone i have ever loved with me in a big beautiful upper east side apartment missing everyone who has ever meant anything to me [ __ ] when you write the ending monique make sure the readers understand that all i was ever really looking for was family make sure it's clear that i found it make sure they know that i'm heartbroken without it spell it out if you have to say that evelyn hugo doesn't care if everyone forgets her name evelyn hugo doesn't care if everyone forgets she was ever alive tell them that i was confused for a very long time about what love was tell them that i understand it now and i don't need their love anymore say to them evelyn higo just wants to go home it's time for her to go to her daughter her lover her best friend and her mother tell them evelyn hugo says goodbye no her dad was the one in the car i knew they were connected i thought that evelyn was gonna be related to her not not harry's lover oh my god what oh the reason evelyn knew she was gonna die is because she also has breast cancer because everyone in this book just has to [ __ ] die also if i was monique i would not know how to feel right now because like i feel so bad for evelyn because you just feel like you just got to know her so well and like monique was sympathizing with her so much until she found out about her dad and now she's like i hate you because of what evelyn did it's a really [ __ ] situation at the end it was her written piece it was monique's what she wrote for whatever the magazine's called i know what evelyn would want to reveal in these pages along with the stunning photos taken just hours before her death is one very surprising but beautiful true thing and that is evelyn hugo was bisexual and spent the majority of her life madly in love with fellow actress celia st james she wanted you to know this because she loved celia in a way that was in turns breathtaking and heartbreaking but more than anything she wanted to know this because it was the very core of herself the most honest and real thing about her and at the end of her life she was finally ready to be real so i'm going to show you the real evelyn what follows is an excerpt from my forthcoming biography seven husbands of evelyn hugo to be published next year and i thought that was so cool like this is literally her book the seven cousins of when he got like that's so cool okay those were all my spoilers for the seven husbands of evelyn hugo hope you enjoyed seeing that and now i'm gonna go right into the spoilers for daisy jones and the six again if you didn't read daisy jones in the six yet stop watching right here do not watch this part okay that's your warning okay i found all this stuff out while i've been driving first camilla got pregnant her and billy got married and then billy felt like he didn't really want to be married to her and then cheated on her while he was drunk oh my god what the [ __ ] a lot happened in my 10-minute car ride now everyone's like torn like do we tell camilla what happened or just say don't do it again i really liked billy's character kind of just let me down okay billy just went to rehab and came back and is meeting his baby i like don't know how i feel because he obviously did not have like a dad growing up so he was like no one's like i don't know look up to to be a dad so he like completely started spiraling until the point where he literally had to go to rehab we'll see how he is now i'm so happy that graham and karen are getting together i'm really at the part where karen's like how come you never made a move on me and he's like i don't take shots i know i'll miss and she says i don't think you'll miss done and then as soon as i said it there's a dial tone and then graham goes i have never run anywhere faster than down that hall to her room i ship them holy [ __ ] i am so confused guys okay so i just got to the part where she says i like writing with you he says i like writing with you too and then he says i like a lot about you daisy smiled when i said that she lit up it feels good to make daisy smile and then daisy leaned in and tried to kiss him and then he pulled away and said i can't and goes i shudder thinking about it about that time how i could have made one small mistake that would have thrown my whole life away daisy says it was excruciating this lie he was trying to tell us both okay so i feel like well she obviously wants to be with him or tried to and he wants to but he can't because he has his wife and kids but then he regrets it that much about how one mistake could throw away his whole life and then daisy says that she's the one that left first and then billy says he's the one that left first so who actually left first what just happened so are they never going to do anything they're never going to be together at all yeah because he's saying that was the moment he could have made a mistake that would have ruined his life so that means he's not gonna do it again what the [ __ ] guys i'm gonna cry daisy says we are talking about probably the first man in my life who really saw me whoever really understood me who had so much in common with me and still didn't love me when you find that rare person who really knows who you are and they still don't love you i was burning okay so camilla is cheating on billy and he says i'm not saying that i didn't care i cared a lot i'm saying that when you really love someone sometimes the things they need may hurt you and some people are worth hurting for so what okay billy just finished the album and daisy is literally going insane with this random man named nikki and i think she just married him why why daisy told jonah the reporter about cheating on his wife and the alcoholism and drug addiction in the recovery and missing the birth of his daughter and everything why would she do that oh my god so billy ended up telling dona that he just hates daisy and that's what they ended up writing and now everyone's interested in their like feud that they have and now their album is gonna like go viral and platinum because everyone's interested in this feud and i really wish i went into this book with no expectations because for some reason i went into this book expecting it to be a like seven husbands of evelyn hugo romance moment but these two like have no romance between them that we've heard of yet like there was like that little moment where i thought something was gonna happen and then it immediately was shut down and now they're back to despising each other and i'm almost done so i'm like i wish i wouldn't do this with no expectations i don't know why i thought that karen's pregnant and she doesn't want kids and now her and grandma are fighting can no one have a moment of peace like i love them together oh my god a moment i've been waiting for they're on snl right now there was so much going on during that performance i had to be aware of my timing and the words and where i was looking and where the camera was and then i don't know suddenly daisy was there next to me and i forgot about everything but just looking at her and singing this song that we wrote together and then daisy said billy and i looked at the audience and then he took my hand and we bowed that was the first time my body had so much just grazed his in a very long time it was the sort of thing where even after he let go my hands still hummed then graham says daisy and billy had something no one else had and when they played it up when they actually engaged with each other it's what made us that was one of those moments where you think their talent is absolutely worth all the [ __ ] they're finally uniting i'm crying i'm literally crying because they're singing together right now just one on one and daisy says billy started playing and i caught his eye for just a moment before i started singing and it just seemed so obvious so painfully embarrassingly obvious without nikki there to distract me without keeping myself so drugged up i wasn't even mentally present it just seemed so obvious that i loved him that i was in love with him and getting high and going to thailand and marrying a prince wasn't going to make me stop and him being married to somebody else that wasn't going to stop it either i think i finally resigned myself to it in that moment just how sad it all was and then i started singing and billy goes i loved my wife i was faithful to my wife from the very minute i straightened up but i tried desperately to never feel anything else for any other woman but everything that made daisy burn made me burn everything i loved about the world daisy loved about the world everything i struggled with daisy struggled with we were two halves we were the same in that way that you're only the same with a few other people in that way that you don't even feel like you have to say your own thoughts because you know the other person is already thinking them how could i be around daisy jones and not be mesmerized by her not fall in love with her i couldn't i just couldn't but camila meant more that's just the very deepest truth maybe camilla wasn't the person i was the most in love with at that time i don't know but she was always the person i loved most she was always the person i would choose it is camilla for me always passion is fire and fire is great but we're made of water water is how we keep living water is what we need to survive my family was by water i picked water i'll pick water every time and i wanted daisy to find her water because i couldn't be it [ __ ] teddy died of a heart attack billy was obsessed with that man like he was literally like it's dad guys i'm literally almost done i have this much left okay this is so true karen is making points she goes sometimes i wonder if i was graham maybe i would have wanted a baby too if i knew someone else would raise it someone else would let go of their dreams someone else would sacrifice and keep everything together while i went and did what i wanted and came back on the weekends maybe then i might want a baby too see like that's so true like graham is so mad at her for terminating the pregnancy when she was the one that was gonna have to give up everything for the baby when she asked him okay would you quit the band with the baby he said no and now he's mad at her and they're literally gonna probably break up over this we hurt each other very badly and that is my biggest regret that is my very biggest regret because i loved her with all of my [ __ ] soul to this day there is a piece of me that still loves her there's a piece of me that will never forgive her julia is the one writing this what the author and daisy are talking to each other so the author is julia what the [ __ ] camilla is talking to daisy and says daisy he loves you you know that he loves you i know that he loves you but he's not going to leave me this sucks not billy drinking come on everything is going to [ __ ] and the book is ending no i just got to the last section one last thing before i go it's an email and then it's all their songs with all the lyrics i can't wait to read these i'm gonna read all the songs now okay i'm finished and those were all my spoilers that's gonna be the end of today's video i hope you enjoyed watching me read these my thoughts and opinions please if you've read these books comment down below everything like anything you want to about these books i would love to talk to you guys and respond to comments just talk about these characters and the stories and how they made you feel thank you so much for watching this video it put me through a rollercoaster of emotions but that's my favorite thing about reading anyway i can't wait to do more reading vlogs in the future i'm so excited about these books like i just love them so much thank you so much for watching this is the end of today's video if you want to follow me on my other social medias they're all linked down below as always and i'll see you in my next video very very soon bye

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Length: 57min 17sec (3437 seconds)

Published: Sat Sep 04 2021