I’M STRUGGLING!!!! Pastor DeMarlon Nixon

[Applause] [Music] oh god is here he knows [Music] oh thank god come on let us receive the later blood that's never break the power [Music] hallelujah he's carrying a word from god and he's here to deliver and set free receive god's men of faith in power in jesus name come on give god [Music] come on tell them thank you tell them i love you i worship you i praise you you're my everything you're my all in all come on come on bless him don't stop bless him bless him bless him bless him bless him he's worthy he's worthy he's worthy he's worthy he's worthy he's worthy he's worthy he's worthy hallelujah ah glory to god glory and i believe he's here thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you lord hallelujah amen we order the lord today for his awesome presence thank god for everyone that's here amen we appreciate god i won't believe all the time get your bibles let's go to isaiah the 40th chapter amen god bless you god so glad you're here amen i bless you amen let's give god praise for lady nixon amen amen and then christine did an awesome job and we just love the lord amen he's been good to us amen he's been better to us than we could ever be to our own sails amen and i believe we could testify today amen that he's done a whole lot that we may not deserve oh god okay like it might be a little rough today weather got you gloomy i said he's done a whole lot for us that we really didn't deserve amen and even when we're not faithful he's faithful oh god oh somebody sunk a song and said he was there all the time i agree amen but he was even there before time amen and he'll still be there when you can no longer tell time because all time is in him i feel something riding up the left side of my back oh god amen i don't know about you saints hey man but i'm gonna get watch this now i'm gonna get i'm gonna get not my faith but my belief back oh god this is going to be trying i won't go into it too deep i'm just going to give it to you let you chew on it because you can have faith and still don't believe come on somebody said the pastor said something that don't make sense i don't know about that but you take it and you do what you want with it amen i'll let you chew on it and work with it and see how far you get with it amen come in here and blow all our minds amen god is faithful and i love him i said god is faithful and i love him when was the last time you told the lord that you love him [Music] isaiah the 40th chapter and let's go to amend the 30th first just a reminder i'm sure sister martinez said it amen don't forget that your registration for nayc amen is due today amen between this service and this evening service amen please make sure you turn that in because registration is tomorrow and we need to be able to get everybody registered over the time for the time we're going to have amen in st louis missouri amen with all the apostolics praise the lord amen isaiah 40 amen looking at verse number 30 amen let's see what the word says to us verse number 30. do you have it and the bible declares even the youth shall faint and be weary and the young men shall utterly fall can i read it again even the youth shall faith and be weary and the young men shall utterly fall father we thank you now for the opportunity that you have given us to gather together in this place in your name that we might break bread together we pray god in the matchless name of jesus that you would open up by understanding to your word oh god that we may receive your word with joy and gladness and that your word would do what you intended it to do and that is to bring about an eternal change in our lives and for that god we will give you the praise somebody shot in jesus name amen put your hands together amen and get better and praise that shall take your seat amen we honor the lord on this communion sunday amen we will take communion following amen the message and all to call amen praise the lord amen i want to talk to you this morning amen this afternoon from this subject amen i'm struggling i'm struggling now amen this message today is not for them that's trying to fake it till they make it amen and this is not this message definitely not for the self-righteous folks amen hallelujah that have learned to look saved but no you ain't really got it all together amen hallelujah that's who this this message is for them that's just ready to be real let me interject this here amen being real is not you popping off at your mouth god help me walk through this today amen a lot of folks saying oh i'm just being real no the scriptures are clashed i'm gonna teach a few things here i'm just gonna go as the spirit lead me amen but according to scripture the bible says that a man a fool uttered his whole mind amen let me just i don't know i just thought that but let me interject that here amen just because you saying everything that come to your head don't mean you being real you being foolish amen you need to slow that thing down you need to think before you speak amen but i want to talk to somebody that even though our scripture texts amen it refers to youth and young men let me tell you it applies to everybody in here amen and i just need a few things for those that are ready for a real change in their walk with god now i'm not trying to get you blessed with a new car or a new house or raise on your job maybe this evening service amen we'll deal with all of that right now for those of you that are ready to move forward in your spiritual walk with god amen you want your relationship to be strong in him and you want your relationship with god to be just as real as it was when you first got saved amen that's who i want to talk to right now amen because the reality is this that when you gave your life to jesus he filled you with the baptism of the holy ghost and when you were baptized in water in the name of jesus it did not get rid of all your problems it did not make all it did not make things go away but you still have to deal with some stuff amen and i want to talk to the saints today amen and help us in here that are really struggling now you don't have to testify to your neighbor amen but you definitely got to be real with yourself amen in that i am struggling amen i got issues and i have problems come on if you get with me we won't be alone amen in this service amen in scripture 7 40 amen verse number 30 said even the you shall faith and be weary and the young men shall utterly fall amen hallelujah scripture the clouds that even in the last days amen that the saints will begin to fall i'm powerful the saints of god would walk away from god they would backslide they would throw in the towel and they would give up amen if any time a saint of god would throw in the tower backslide or give up is because they have not they did not maintain why they were struggling many are the afflictions of the righteous but god shall deliver us out of them all just just turn to your neighbor and say neighbor you gotta wait for your deliverance on hey man hallelujah i'm gonna give you a minute hey man you gotta wait on god get ahead of myself hey man hallelujah you just gotta be real today amen in this fact that i'm struggling i'm struggling in some areas in my life i'm struggling in my mind i'm struggling in my heart i'm struggling in my emotions and i have learned this in my same life that i can still come to church and speak in tongues and run the house and book and shout and dance i can fall out you can lay hands on me and i feel a little better but when i walk out the door my struggle is still there but i wish i had some help up in here amen i come to church service after service and i felt good in service i have felt power i told you i don't have time to play with it i felt powerful in service i felt like i could leap over chairs thank you lord god and that i can take down any giant that's when i'm in the midst of the believers but when i'm out there with the fight and the battle i realize that i'm struggling can i tell you it is easy for me to admit that my struggle is in my flesh but i gotta go further there is a struggle in my spirit i feel the holy ghost oh god come on i'm just trying to stay in the lane god didn't happen to see it and the saints are feigning and they're growing weary and they're giving up and they're throwing in the towel there was a time when saints would work for god and they're no longer working for god thank you lord god they would serve god nobody had to force them nobody had to persuade them nobody had to pack them in a corner but they did it because they love god you know what rebuke is of the lord chastening is of the lord but cannot tell you it is not god real that all he do is rebuke us and chasten us but he has to do it because we're out of his will he have to do it because we put so many things before him and we've lost our focus oh god don't you know that there are many things that the lord desires to reveal to you and to show you he said i'll show you the hidden treasures of the earth oh my god there are things god there's visions and dreams and signs and wonders that god want to show us but he can't show us because we've got him busy correcting us thank you lord i believe somebody gonna get break through them that morning and some of you gonna leave out here the same way you came amen cause you'd rather hold on to what you got amen rather than let it go cast your care upon him for he cared for you amen take his yoke oh god because he oh my god his your kiss lie amen amen his burden is easy i might have twisted it there amen but whatever it is you carrying you can put that nest down and take what god wants you to carry because according to his scripture he said he will not put on us more than we are able to bear can i tell you if you can't bear it god didn't give it to you to carry and if god did not give it to you to carry then all you got to do is put it down you ain't got to be delivered from it they're not going to help me god ain't got to snatch it from you you didn't put it on it even in the devil some of us just picked it up ourselves and we latched on to it and in order for you to get rid of it let it go give your name a high five and say neighbor just let it go come on be real with yourself i'm struggling in this area and i'm tired of struggling in this area and in order for me to stop struggling in this area i need to let it go come on stop praying about it you don't need to fast about it no more you just need to walk away from it you shed it enough jesus you've got the prayer warriors together to pray for you you're not gonna help me up with him you have literally worn out the altar with what it is and all you have to do is let it go [Music] if you really want deliverance then you gotta admit it come on you in the right atmosphere today ain't no church makeup in here come on hallelujah i didn't come to judge you i come to get jesus i come to get delivered i come to get set free i'm here for the same reason you here and i don't have time to play with you like i got it all together i'm here so that god would help me to get it together because i tried my own way and expelled me i'm struggling oh god i feel you yes lord say corinthians the 12th chapter i want to start amen round about the first verse and i'm going to walk through it amen here in this scripture text amen we're dealing with paul amen and paul begins in this chapter by sharing amen watch this now paul begins in this chapter by sharing that he feel amen he feels silly and foolish he feels a bit embarrassed about the fact that the lord is giving him visions and revelations oh my god and he know he really doesn't come up to paul paul amen he tells us in the beginning of this chapter he says literally i feel like i'm boasting when i tell you that god's given me vision in revelation knowing i don't have it all together oh i come to help somebody today amen just like he's helping me right now amen verse one says it is it is not expedient for me paul says doubtless to glory i will come amen i will come to visions and revelations of the lord i knew a man in christ above 14 years whether in the body i cannot tell or whether out of the body i cannot tell god knowing such a one caught up to the third heaven i third verse three and i knew such a man whether in the body or out of the body i cannot tell god knowing how that he was caught up into paradise and heard unspeakable words which is not lawful for a man to utter of such and one with our glory yet of myself i will not glory but in my infirmities how god forget the shoulder and how they begin to see them go into paradise i won't i just know i really want to be but i'm just i'm just getting us there amen and he began to talk about amen how god's showing him things let me tell the saints here amen let me help somebody in here amen because we know we're struggling you know you're struggling and even while you're struggling you know god's dealing with you and god's touching you and god's showing you things and god's speaking to you and it is the devil's amen it is the devil's prerogative amen to discourage you even though god's working with you while you're struggling talk back to me that god does not deal with a perfect people oh my he deals with the imperfect people he came to save that which are lost he came to seek and save that i lost amen hallelujah and though you may have relationship with him you still lost in some areas can i get a man in here amen hallelujah though you're not perfect and though you keep up in your head and you're messing up a man knowingly and unknowingly thank you lord he's still dealing with you don't you let the devil alive to you and cause you to believe that you are not on god's mind i know my thoughts saith the lord concerning you and they are a good and not of evil but to give you what and expected it he is faithful to keep that which we have committed to heal give it to god i'm working i'm gonna get there i'm not gonna tell your neighbor he's not gonna leave you out [Music] you're struggling with some things but then you wonder is it is it god really dealing with me is it god really working with me is it god really talking to me does god really want to use me oh my hallelujah have i separated myself from god because of what i'm struggling and deal with and that's what paul's saying paul's saying listen god's speaking to me he's showing me things he revealed he's revealing things to me but if i were to take it and run and spread it at the same time acting like i got it all together all i would do would be boasting alive but he says that if i do glory i glory in my infirmities in other words i may be messed up but god's hand is still on my life i'm not going to help there oh my god i may be weak in some areas or not but the anointing of god is on my life and the anointing on my life is just not to break the yolks in your life but it is on my life to break the oaks what in my life success for those i would desire to glory i shall not be a fool for i will say the truth but now i forbear at least any man should think of me above that which he sees me to be or that he heareth of me at least i should be exalted above measure through the abundance of revelations there was given to me a thorn in my flesh the messenger of satan to buffet me least i should be exalted above measure paul says when you see me i don't want you to see a perfect man when you see me i want you to see me for who i really am but even though you see me i want you to see the jesus that lives on the inside of me because i don't want to fool you and make you think it's easy to live this life which i had some help up in here i don't want you to think through my preaching ability that is that easy i don't want you to think through my playing the ability that it's that easy i don't want you to think through my singing ability then it's that easy i don't want you to think through my teaching ability then it's that easy i don't want you to think through my giving ability that it's that easy because even though while i work in all of those areas i'm struggling i'm struggling to keep it together i'm struggling to keep my mind together i'm struggling to keep my heart together i'm struggling to keep my emotions together can i be real i'm struggling to stay in the church struggling to stay in relationship my prayer life is a struggle to study the word do i have anybody in here that will be real for 20 minutes that i'm struggling struggling to serve this jesus y'all keep telling me about it throw it to be sold out hit my shoulder behind you struggling to stay delivered oh my god i know he delivered me but i got a sure habit of returning to my own vomit which i had a talkback church up in here i got a bad habit of being entangled with the yoke of bondage again struggling in my attitude struggling with my anger give me shaya struggling to forgive and to move on i wish i had some real help up in here struggling struggling oh god with insecurity struggling with pride come on i'm not trying to be deep i'm still on the surface i'm struggling struggling in his heart i'm judgmental at times oh god as the lord would help me to have i got a whole lot of false humility i'm struggling [Applause] struggling in my finances just can't seem to get it together paul tell us something else in the bible oh my god about there being another something working on the inside of me another law working in me that when i would do what's right i [Music] my struggling with social media oh god help me today amen struggling to love my children right struggling to love my spouse right i'm going there struggling to submit to them that god have given [Applause] [Music] in areas of what i indulge in disciplined in areas in what i participate in i'm struggling because when i'm with the saints i like to do what the saints do but when i hang around the sinners i like to do what the sinners do y'all got tight right there i ain't scared of y'all i'm not crazy i feel them spirits all up in here you can't wait to run around with your co-workers y'all ain't gonna help me hallelujah and some of you like to hide out loud behind i'm not helping anybody and paul he says now i love what paul says because he makes something so very clear to us today he makes something so very clear oh my when you look at verse number seven go back to seven he said at least i should be exalted above measure through the abundance of revelation and there was given to me a thorn in my flesh watch this you come to circus don't you get drunk off of god's presence oh i messed you up right there i said oh no pastor we supposed to get drunk in the presence of god some of you can't handle it oh we got tight right there oh my god there's a difference between gay there's a difference between amen there's a difference in getting drunk in his presence and trump by his presence and some of us are getting drunk by the presence rather than in the presence of which i had some help up in here but now is the hour when they shall worship him in spirit and in truth and some of y'all mixing in our worship but you ain't in spirit and you show not in truth oh my god amen there's something about that if i come over here by the ministers and i begin to cry and just cry and you ain't nobody i'm crying but you're just looking at me crying out for a while what are y'all gonna start crying too and you even know why you crying you just crying because i'm crying oh my god you are being affected by all my the presence amen of worship or the presence of me crying you ain't gonna help me in here but you have no idea why i'm crying but when you feel my pain and know the topic of my issue and begin to cry with me then you partake of what it is that i'm dealing with and some of y'all coming in here and worshiping because my worship on my heart is bouncing off of me onto you but it's not real to you but it's real to me and you can't get in the real because you are not with your struggle to overtake you but i wish somebody would get drunk in the spirit rather than guide the spirit no pastor twisted no i'm living there just where it is you don't need to get trumped by the spirit you need to get drunk in the spirit oh my because when you get drunk in the spirit then the spirit of god is in control you get drunk back you turn that thing off [Music] and you look at the rest of us like sit down and shut up it's time to go but when you're drunk in the spirit you ain't got no control you can't quit to the spirit quick [Music] he said he said oh god i feel it he said enter into his gates with thanksgiving and into his courts with praise the problem with us is that we're not obedient to scripture and we don't come in the right uh-huh way enter into his cage with thanksgiving and into his courts with praise that's not a dance that's not a dance enter into his pitch with thanksgiving you are not painful if you didn't want to be here and you're here you come here with your lip twisted you come late you're quiet wondering what's going on who doing what letting your eyes go y'all quiet one day we were alone today i wonder who preaching today you ain't thankful you don't understand me in here that is not entry into his cage with thanksgiving but entering into his gates where thanksgiving is come here god i thank you that i made it one more time [Applause] oh i'm so glad that you allowed me to get to the house one more time i didn't want to have church at home i wanted to get to the sanctuary i wanted to get in the midst of the people of god that is a trick of the devil in this hour that we live in making the saints not sinners but making the saints believe you don't have to go to church [Applause] oh god [Music] it would be real easy for me to stay right here they don't come because they don't want it but she corrected us wednesday night stop saying folk don't want to be saved yes they do the problem is when they come to our church they ain't seeing much representation of salvation [Applause] because they sit back in the cut and they watch us roll our eyes at one another they look at each other crazy they talk to y'all quiet up in here they talk to each other crazy they see your faces they feel your spirit you ain't got to be saved to feel somebody checked up [Applause] and we can tell that you halfway playing the israelis y'all cried up in here amen ushers halfway one and usher ministers halfway want to worship and praise listen we can never be a church that have preachers that won't worship in praise you ain't so anointed and powerful that you can sit your hind parts up on this platform and sit in a chair it won't worship with the saints won't praise with the saints won't cry with the snakes if anybody wants to you ought to be doing it [Applause] i'm trying i'm not helping anybody yet i'm just trying to do a good job y'all praying for me i said all y'all praying for me in here come on you gotta enter into his gates what with thanksgiving you've got to be painful that you were blessed to get here we are thankful that we gonna make it to work tomorrow we're more thankful that we're going to get to home and then we're going to get home and get cleaned up and get into bed because i need my rest you got enough rest and you've indulged yourself in this world enough you need to come to the house of god that you get yourself out of that atmosphere that you've been dealing with all week long and the atmosphere done you no good it ain't gonna put depression on you it's the number put stress on you and anxiety and pulled you away from god but you've got to come to the house of god which he established so that you might get what you need you got in jerusalem thanksgiving and into his courts with praise you had to come in here with the right spirit and the right attitude with an expectation that everything's gonna be all right god gonna work it out then i'm gonna leave here better than the way that i can listen we've been taught it you don't get nothing out of service that you don't put in and do some who can yeah joke on you amen and trick you into believing everything going to be good and all week you'd have been out there doing everything you wanted to do and you ain't god gave god no time but then you want us to come in here and 30 minutes get you on this spiritual heart come on enter into his gates with thanksgiving and into his courts with prayers and then enter into his gates with thanksgiving and into his courts with praise you gotta come in here with worship then you got to come in here surrendering because you can praise god in your flesh god help me today amen hallelujah for some of us praise have come have become comedy believe me look on youtube ain't nothing wrong with having real good fun talking about how we praise god that's all right but some of us go beyond that amen and praise has become a comedy amen this is real to me let me get some sorry just a little while ago you're back you don't know my story you you'll never understand my praise because you were not there when god brought me out of what he brought me out of watch it now amen so my praise is for real and that not only is my praise for real but my praise is a weapon against hell my praise is a weapon against the devil oh my but praise can still be equated with the flesh but worship never came worship never care you praise god in flesh you can praise god and disobedience matter of fact scripture says let let everything that have breath breaks off you can teach your dog how to praise god praise god but he said when you worship him you've got to worship him what in spirit and in truth right with the right information and the right attitude and the reality is some of us in here coming and crying and weeping we fooling one another and we think his worship when it really is conviction conviction is not worshipped amen conviction is not worship conviction issue amen god showing you where you wrong and now you need to be godly sorry conviction brings you to repentance oh my god repentance brings you to forgiveness forgiveness sets you up for worship and i believe that freedom temple and we're not gonna change it because that's what god won't hear we got praise down pat but we need some more worship up here oh my god help me amen because for some of us the reality is praise have become nothing [Applause] man i run through this place cut some cartwheels oh my god flip dancing amen i can't go to real praise and give you a run for your money thank you lord but you can't come up in here in any kind of condition and worship struggling to get to that point maybe amen come on we need some more worship us in here amen because in your work in worship you get drunk in the spirit amen and you are no longer in control but you are now vulnerable to the spirit of god and that's what we need going on that freedom temple let god's spirit be in control of his service when you let god spirit in control we ain't got to make nothing happen [Applause] we get worship back in his house we'll get tongues with interpretation not just but with interpretation or not god i'm a tongue speaker i'm like paul i speak in terms probably more than some of you but i have the clear understanding that when i speak in tongues yeah i don't know what i'm saying neither do i it's my spirit talking with god making sure that my flesh and the devil cannot interfere but what we need is to hear what god is saying and i'm telling you i'm struggling but in two minutes but until we get worship back in his house because we keep getting tongues but we are failing in interpretation and the reason why we are failing into interpretation because saints are so caught up in struggling and we have learned to adapt to the struggle rather than get delivered in the areas that were struggling he said he said listen i'm not gonna not listen i'm not going paul and i'm like paul i'm not gonna let the title of pastor over freedom temple get to my head to make me think that even though i struggle ain't nothing to it oh god [Music] that's for y'all because i'm anointed of god i'm called of god i'm the pastor of this church now quality amen you better watch that spirit that'll creep up on you and make you think you have arrived and none of us have arrived oh my god thank you lord god oh god hallelujah oh my i have not attained oh god honey i have not attained i'm still not there yet oh my god but i better make sure is that when i die i'm ready because even when you die you still have entertainment [Applause] that's what you're messing with our tradition and our teaching you're going to attain if you're standing on judgment oh my god until you either go to the right or you go to the left it's quiet up in here amen you don't obtain until the angel flips the page and see your name written in the lamb's book of life and say well done by good and faithful servant what enter into the joy of the lord didn't you have obtained but you so better get yourself ready now to the platform they don't make me feel like somebody powerful and big and better than anybody in here i understand that it's levels of respect in here give honor where honor is due i understand that think about god but don't get it twisted thank you lord i will get down on my face and i will spit slob and cry i will roll around on this floor i will open confess when the lord instruct me to download me up in here because oh my god just like you i struggle i swear i got issues i got areas i need god to work on me here i need him i need him to fix me i need god to fix it i'm gonna have a few more minutes it's 12 54 can i have just a little more time watch you watch what he said verse seven i'm there he says and that was given to me watch this a thorn in my flesh the messenger of satan to perfectly at least i should be exalted above nation watch this now i won't try to be a theologian right here hey man some of you are better than me in that area amen but watch this paul says now we've dealt with many times in teaching i like dealing with the ministers i know y'all there and he's dealt with us many times and that we've heard the messages many times but we deal with the thorn in paul flesh and we see what you know we try to imagine what the thorn is but can i suggest to you amen that it's possible according to scripture that the thought was a message you see while i talk to them because they ain't being mad they ain't made me more than y'all but i don't hear y'all saying nothing i know why they ain't married because they want to make sure they get a preaching turn i understand is it possible watching he said hey man that was given to me what a foreign in the flesh the messenger of satan to busted me at least i should be exalted above measure now some would say god sent them now i beg to differ now you might not agree it don't matter it may not be a heaven or hell issue concerning who sent the messenger but i remember the scriptures saying that god won't take us with evil oh my god now he may step back and allow the enemy to do what they do because he have confidence in you that even while you struggle you're going to be like [Music] is experiencing is a message it's possible that the struggle we deal with is not the action but was for what was spoken to us because the power of death and life is in the tongue speak those things that be not as though they work the problem is it ain't just the saints that speak and the devil is true [Applause] and he might not come with horns on his head with red skin and a pitchfork in his head it might be your sister [Applause] it might be your cousin now your co-worker coming with a message and a message don't have to be a 45-minute sermon but it can be one word a message from satan to what to bluffing me i don't believe it was god because god's not trying to take us out he want us to stand but the devil sent a word oh god to kill you the devil always wants to do the same thing that god does but with the opposite motive god says i set my word out and it won't return unto me boy but it's going to accomplish that which i sent it out god sent a word after you but not only did god send the word out to you the devil did too [Applause] he sent a message and you've got to be careful but you let people speak to you [Applause] and we're letting people speak a word into our lives and we don't rebuke it we don't reject it we brush it off there is a difference between rebuking rejecting and casting out and brushing [Applause] day long and talk to you crazy and dirty hey man they'll mishandle you in the store and you suck it up amen they talk to you like you're a dog at work but you won't say nothing cause you want to make sure you keep getting that paycheck i got a picture to give you but i can't help you amen grab a hold to eternal life oh yeah i don't like it when i walk down that lane right there but i will stay right there till you get it up in your spirit you're going to learn how to take correction from your leaders or our god because it is not your flesh that we are interested in it is your spirit man being strengthened oh my god and having the ability to stand in god because we understand [Music] it's easy to catch people aside and cast them away because of their struggles pastor why are you putting up with this why do you let them do this no it it messes with me like it messed with you oh my god but there's a special love and anointing that god gives a man and a woman of god that he have called to leave his people he's given us a great ability through his spirit to put up with someone someone you can't put up with but let me go ahead and interject that here it's funny how you can't put up with other folks but you can put up with your own self you better watch this message you got to watch this message that's it that word right there you better watch it because the devil has has released that upon the saints of god and i've never been in a time in my saved life where the saints of god are imperial that we are afraid we no longer believe god and we have turned to the tricks and the tactics of this world but the devil is a liar you're going to learn how to get your face down on the floor and cry out to god and wait for god to show up you better get away back in your spirit i'm getting ahead of myself but i'm just gonna push down to [Applause] problems you can't give a big enough offering to fix all your problems another is going to take you submitting and surrendering your will you know what it's going to take it's going to insulted above measure verse 8 says for this thing i besought the lord thrice that it might depart from me and he said unto me my grace is sufficient for thee for my strength is made perfect in weakness most gladly therefore will i rather glory in my infirmities that the power of christ may rest upon me that's loaded right there that's loaded therefore i take pleasure in infirmities what paul hallelujah in reproaches in necessities in persecution in distresses for christ's sake for when i am weak then am i strong i'm struggling but i can smile while i'm struggling [Applause] [Music] he says listen i know i got this infirmity i got it i've been asking god take this throne out of my flesh and he won't take it you know why dog won't take it because he didn't put it there oh he got tired again he didn't put it down but i know god he'll deliver he delivers out of situations that he didn't put us in but we put ourselves in i'm going back to it amen hallelujah it was a message sent and a message that is sent that that amen that can that that can accomplish what it was sent for is them that receive the message and given right to accomplish and we've been letting the devil talk to us amen we've been letting the devil convince us we've been letting the devil trick us and fool us into believing what he says the saints we better get to a place where we know the voice of the lord and we know what the will of god is for our lives because we have given up in areas we should have never given up in we have walked away in areas we should have never walked away in and then there is the reverse we should walk away from some things and we should have given up some things but we believe the wrong message we believe the wrong message we hear word we got the week after week after week and the word the word amen it applies to whatever it is you're dealing with but you don't take the word it's not falling on good ground because you won't accept it amen and you go out and make you leave the same way you came still struggling with the same stuff that you're struggling with can i help you you can always be struggling with something but that's something that'll always keep you before god that's what paul said amen paul said listen amen i'm gonna and i know what the devil meant i know he admitted to evil amen but god gonna make this thing work for my good how is god gonna make it work for my good amen he's gonna make it work for my good because i'm gonna keep my face before him amen this struggle makes me weak but when i'm weak i turn to god and when i turn to god in my weakness it is he that makes me strong you know why because as i turn to god he deals with me he speaks to me he reveals things to me yes paul he gives me visions concerning what it is that i'm dealing [Music] your strength lies in weakness how pastor when you weak and humble yourself before god because you admit to yourself i can't do this i can't fix this i can't work this out the way i think about it is wrong oh my god what i think the answers are is it gonna change anything so if since i'm in a weak place i'm gonna go to god and god's gonna strengthen me by giving me directions amen paul says amen hallelujah that when i go to god in my weakness he makes me strong through truth [Applause] am i making sense to anybody you are not strong by putting up with it you become strong by responding to it the way god say respond to it come on let's be realistic here thank you lord god how long can you survive in a struggle that's why people's minds are leaving them oh my god i had a thought this week i thought about crazy people and as i was thinking about it the spirit of the lord began to deal with me and revealed to me we say people are crazy but they're not crazy people are not crazy people minds are failing them because they are involved with the struggle that they're trying to deal with with themselves it's killing them it's causing them to lose the recessions of their mind their hearts are failing they're there their emotions are becoming overwhelming and it causes they watch it now to be have amen multiple personalities the world calls it schizophrenic thank you lord god but i'm gonna call it this i'm gonna call it you trying to be what you're not because i want you to think i got it all together but in reality i don't have it all together and every now and then i get confused about how i'm supposed to act well because at church i can act like this and at home i gotta act like this and at work i gotta act like this and around my family members i gotta act like this and when i'm in the store i gotta act like this and when i go to my children's school i gotta act like this in front of them yeah you know i gotta have all these different kind of ways and sometimes it gets overwhelming and confusing to me and i forget how i'm supposed to act depending on where i am and in reality for the saints of god we are not ruled by the flesh because we walk not after the flesh but we walk after the spirit of god and i'm the same way everywhere i go and we got all these multiple personalities because around the saints i'm saying and when i'm around my unsaved friends which you might not have no way you're speaking in another language you need to be delivered and sometimes we blame it on the devil in spirits and in reality some of this stuff going on in our lives that ain't no spirit is us oh my god help me here well i'm struggling right now because i don't know who i'm really dealing with i see your faces but i don't know who [Applause] my strength is made perfect because when i submit myself to god when i become broken before god and i stop trying to do things my own way and god begin to show me what to do and how to do it and how to deal with certain situations amen my weakness is made strong through him he is not made strong to you that's right and your own selfish ambitions and the way you want the outcome that's another problem we want the outcome to be the way we want it to be and the outcome may not be the way you want it to be but the outcome definitely need to be the way god wanted to be because sometimes we want the outcome to be you was right you was right i was wrong i should listen to you that's what we want that outcome to be but we don't want that we don't want to just go there and humble ourselves and say you know what i'm full of pride and i always want to be right but i'm gonna go ahead and take a step back and say you know what i don't know what the outcome gonna be i just want it to work out i really don't care who right i ain't got no point to prove amen i just want this to pass i just want it to be better just type your name and say neighbor god don't deal with my struggle most gladly therefore i rather glory in my infirmities that the power of christ may rest upon me therefore i take pleasure in infirmities and reproaches you ain't there yet until you can take pleasure in what you go through old fashioned it just don't make sense yes it does yes it does when you know amen that he is the author and the finisher of my faith come on we just dealt with that last sunday didn't we amen hallelujah if god before us who can be against us what all things shall work together for the good what of them that love god and are called according to his purpose i can glory i can rejoice i can praise i can worship even in the midst of my infirmities because god gonna make this thing work good i don't know i promise just a few more minutes he says it approaches in necessities and persecution and distress when people don't like me when people mishandle me when my money isn't confronted and my changes i can strange amen i can still smile and i can still rejoice you know why because you liking me don't affirm me amen what affirms me is my relationship with jesus i hope you hear me up in here thank you lord i am not who i am by i know what the world teaches i am not who i am by who i associate with that's right i know they say the five people that you must be around that's who you'll be like no i or my my affirmation does not come from the people that i associate with because i did not go where i went until god told me to go my affirmation is not in how much money i have because even when i don't have no money god supplies all of my needs have you ever been there that you've been low you've been in between blessings but they lord yet provided oh i said the lord yet provided jesus yes sir all right let me go back and then i'm done i'm done i'm going back to isaiah 40. tell your neighbor say he's almost done [Music] let me rush back to isaiah thank you with verse 30 but let's jump up to verse number 28. somebody's shot i'm struggling i know you don't want to admit it anymore but you gotta be real with yourself i ain't actually gonna get up and testify to the whole church and tell us what you're going through we'll need to know all that oh my god we don't need to know don't tell everybody all your business don't tell everything folks don't know how to handle your business and you already deal with enough and you don't need that extra looks and craziness and tell that stuff to god tell it to god come on talk to me now [Applause] you some of this stuff that's getting on your last nerve it should have never been able to get that close to your nerve come on when you look at your fleshly body your flesh cover nerves that the atmosphere should never touch but what's going on with your spirit man because somebody rolling their eyes at you shouldn't be a problem i wish i was in a strong church come on somebody not calling your name should not call a kill to come out of your eye come on you got to stop being weak saints you need to rise up in the power of the holy ghost and be strong with the humble spirit be [Music] [Applause] respect me you're gonna give me it now i ain't giving you no respect because you don't get no respect unless you earn respect anybody trying to earn none of your respect y'all can run that race of trying to learn trying to earn and get and let me tell you something when i walk in the holy ghost oh my god it is not your respect that i'm trying to gain it is demons that i want to submit respect towards me is not what i'm dealing with on a daily basis your lack of respect towards me is not the battle that i fight when i'm not in your presence so i ain't got time for kids games come on now amen when i was a child i think and i spake as a child but when i became a man or for some of you that are women when you became a woman we put away childish things recess is over baby it's time for you to stand [Music] up come on amen hallelujah it's time for all that catastrophe it's time for some of you to get rid of your power get rid of your battle you're not gonna don't make me go there thank you lord god it's time for some of you to get them off the milk [Music] that's just like some of you struggling in here right now and you ain't even responding to nothing that's being said but you're gonna want special attention when we leave here i got your attention right now it is in the word of god it is by the spirit of god that if you really want to be [Applause] amen young people but even for some of this stuff that these young people are dealing with amen that'll have to grow up you're going to become stronger than that come on amen we better teach our babies in church and teach them how to walk in the spirit concerning these bullies at school come on we need to teach our children that if somebody didn't walk up in their school to harm them that they could stand in the power of the holy ghost that command the weapon to fall out of their hand i wish i had a church that believed because the holy ghost is real and it really works [Applause] in the name of jesus i command you to fall asleep wish i was in a church that really believed even while i struggled i still got power i still have power [Applause] will equip you to handle your business better pull yourself up get out of the gutter get your mind together and let god work through you somebody give them praise [Music] across the room feeling low about yourself cause you don't have what somebody else have i may not have what you have i even may not possess what you possess i feel the holy ghost at this place i may not even ride in what you're riding but what i do have and i hope you have too is a relationship with and the old god used to say that if god never do anything else already wish i was in the baptist church they know how to get behind a if you preacher do anything else he's already given me the holy ghost watching because when you have the holy ghost the holy ghost is the power of god that'll [Music] [Applause] i may be struggling but god still got me on the high i may be struggling but god is still working in my life can i talk to freedom temple and tell you that as a church we may be struggling in membership but god's going to add to the church daily such as should be saved with somebody giving praise [Applause] hallelujah [Applause] [Music] shop [Music] the preacher got to stop preaching now so over the next few moments i need you to get everything that you can get that i may be struggling but god's gonna work it out wish i hadn't taught that church in here tell your neighbor say nama oh neighbor i may be struggling but god's gonna work it out if you believe god's gonna work it out lift your voice and give them a high [Music] [Music] praise isaiah the 40th chapter can i preach it like i'll hear that picking up at the 28th verse the word of god declares has thou not known has thou not heard neither is he weary there is no searching of his understanding tell your neighbor say neighbor god is on the scene tell another neighbor say neighbor god is on the scene i gotta tell you this though you may see things the way you see things but god's understanding is not like i will understand that because god's thinking surpasses our thinking i heard somebody say that he sees the end from the beginning you think it's going in this way but god has another plan tell your neighbor say neighbor god has another plan can i preach it like a village shall i preach when i preach i'm preaching right now tell your neighbors hey name while i'm struggling god's gonna raise me up while i'm struggling god's gonna strengthen me while i'm traveling god's gonna take care of me look at my praise right there [Music] hallelujah hallelujah let me tell you things you can't measure the understanding of god god's got a way of solving all kinds of problems your mind can't comprehend neither have you heard the thing god gonna work out in your life you can give god the worst problem and he'll make good come out of it you can give god a hard problem and he'll make good come out of it he can give god an impossible problem and he'll make good come can i say it another way you can give god yourself if you'll make good come out of you no matter where you are no matter what you're in gonna make good out of [Music] do i have a witness in here that can testify that he did it for me he brought me out he pulled me out he brought me out [Applause] go ahead but you don't know like i know what the lord has done for me you don't know like i know what the lord is doing for me right now i pray that god don't talk but if you wanted to he could he could take my life put it up on the wall for the projector and you can see what's really going on up here and everything that's going on up here is not a hallelujah thank you jesus i wish i was talking to a real [Music] church but i'm in the right place because i heard the word says as i bring it to it in verse number 29 it says he give it power to the fate and to them that have no might he increases your strength 30 says and even the youth shall faint and be weary and the young you're ugly fall but they then wait upon the lord look at your name and say oh neighbor you gotta wait on god he shall renew that screen can i tell you what weight means you gotta trust in the lord give your name a high five it's a neighbor [Music] no matter what it look like i'm gonna trust you god no matter what it sounds like i'mma trust you god no matter what it feels like i'ma trust you [Music] they shall moan up [Music] [Music] and what an eagle does is it soars over inclement weather [Music] i don't know what kind of storm that you're dealing with in your life but you shall nod up with wings and that when the enemy would come in like a flood the spirit of the lord will lift you up and cause you to sow is there anybody in here you're ready to sew you're ready to accomplish you're ready to go forward [Music] and the [Music] [Applause] [Music] [Applause] and challenge the youth to erase because while you're in the middle of your run you're gonna get something that's called a crap right in the mid section of your belly and you're gonna feel this pain that's gonna cause you to bend over and that's what's wrong with the sex the devils challenge you to arrest and all you've been doing is eating snickers and drinking coke you're full of the trash of this world but you need to get you a spiritual diet you need to get yourself in prayer you need to take some time and fast you need to digest the word of god so that when you have to run you are thick for direction i know y'all ready to go but it says that you're gonna run and not be willing and they shall walk and they're not gonna fail who is struggling [Music] that i no longer want to deal with my struggle on my own about my own ways neither do i want to deal with my stroke by the counsel of man that god is not a part of [Music] i don't know how to fix my struggle i don't know how to get myself out of my struggle and if i be honest sometimes i don't even know how to survive with my stroke [Music] but i do know who i can go to i have no prophetic word for you today i have no word of knowledge other than what the written word that i've given you today to tell you that god will do this in five days and 14 days in 90 days i don't have that for you today i don't have no word for you to tell you by this time tomorrow all gonna be well i don't have that i don't have a thank you i don't have an i'm sorry i don't have no magical words to fix it to fix what it is that you're feeling and you deal with but what i can tell you is about a man oh glory this man jesus if you come to this man jesus and you surrender and submit to this man jesus even if he don't do it immediately if he don't do it overnight little by little jesus is going to give you victory over whatever struggle it is that you're in you know why because he said my grace is sufficient we got capable innocence to pray

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Length: 79min 23sec (4763 seconds)

Published: Sun Jul 19 2020