How Did Colleen Hoover Get Even Worse?

hey everyone welcome back to my channel and to a new video I have had quite a week I thoroughly exhausted it is quite late at night but thank you for joining me on this journey I could not be more grateful that you are here and we are doing this together we are going to get through this um I've had quite a stressful day I just filmed a video of my second channel that was like a nice get ready with me and my microphones ran out of battery halfway through so it didn't record half the audio and I'm a little frustrated so I'm determined that nothing is going to go wrong while we film this let's do this together so I reviewed a handful of Colleen Hoover books before and each time I don't think they can get any worse and yet they still do so much worse in my last video If you haven't seen that it is on screen right now and I will link to it down in the video description I reviewed Colleen Hoover's book slammed which I thought would be a fun silly little video it ended up being a literal nightmare I thought we'd be having a giggle together about Colleen ho for just trying to write some poetry and it being really really really bad and I mean we absolutely did that her poetry was terrible but it also ended up being so much more because spoilers I'm going to give you a quick review of the last book if you don't want to hear this I would recommend you go and watch the last video first or read the book for yourself if you fancy today we're going to be reviewing the second one in the series so you kind of need this recap the main love sto love story in slammed is about a teacher grooming his barely 18-year-old student he manipulated her he sexually assault aled her when she was unable to consent because she was a student in his care he abused his power by forcing her and her friend into detention so he could force them to cover up his crime he was repeatedly violent with her dragging her around his house locking her in the bathroom putting her in some sort of arm lock pouring water over her he then physically beat up and honestly I thought he was going to kill a student of his because he thought um that student was kissing leak and into leak the girl that he was grooming at the end of it he stopped teaching at that school got moved to a different school which meant he wasn't leak's teacher anymore but he was still very much a teacher and she was still very much an 18-year-old girl at school and yet they now got a happy ending because they could be together I know it is literally a book romanticizing grooming and child abuse meanwhile in the story leak's parents are dead Will's parents are dead and now both of them are responsible for raising their little brothers today we are going to be looking at book two out of three in this series this book is called point of retreat and all that I knew going into this was that it was written uh from the perspective of the groomer will and it takes place after the epilogue of the last book almost directly after like a week after will and L are now playing happy families parenting their little brothers and pretending that he's not a predator so that's kind of all you need to know before we review this book Let's jump into it shall we this book begins with a prologue which is a journal and written by Will and is basically a recap of the last book and sets up everything we need to know for this book so kind of like what I just did for you guys but in the book the last few years have definitely not been in our favor at the end of 2008 my parents both passed away unexpectedly leaving me to raise my little brother all on my own it didn't help that vaugh decided to end our two-year relationship on the heels of her death I'm sorry but this is one of the first lines in the book and there is a glaring grammatical error in the first few lines parents parents apostrophe s stop it you mean multiple parents not belonging to your parent you don't need an apostrophe for a plural like this how did no editors catch this I did end up looking this up though and it turns out that this error has thankfully been caught and corrected in the latest version of the ebook on Amazon there's also a couple of other grammatical errors throughout this book that I found that have thankfully being corrected on Amazon so little things like in uh writing of instead of off so with with one F instead of two that's now being corrected in the updated ebook and stuff like that but there were just so many throughout this book it was really really frustrating to read Because I had an older copy it's also frustrating that this book is supposed to be written from Will's perspective instead of Laken and yet the voice is exactly the same there is literally nothing to distinguish their voices their writing style any speech patterns any way they phrase stuff like it's just they don't have distinct voices and it's quite frustrating W in it is a sign of a poor author it's also worth pointing out here that right in the first like couple of sentences of this book will mentions his ex vau who wasn't a character in the last book like she didn't appear but she was mentioned so the fact she's brought up here immediately made me think she was going to be a big part of this book at this point in writing the script my predictions were one she appears back in his life and is like oh my God I made a huge mistake I'm so sorry I still love you and that will be the main conflict of the book or two she appears back in his life and it turns out she dumped him to hide some big secret like a pregnancy or something and that's the main conflict in the book it was one of those two things I was right I can predict colen Hoover like nothing else now ideally if she is going to come back into this book what I would have liked to see was her coming back and be like oh my God you're daing your ex- student what a predator I'm calling the police but sadly this is a Colleen Hoover book so we all knew that wasn't going to happen and sadly it doesn't happen I'm sorry will continues whine to us I don't even remember the entire first half of 2010 that year didn't start for me until September 22nd the day I first laid eyes on Lake of course 2010 turned out to be just as difficult as the previous years but in a completely different way I'd never felt more alive than when I was with her but considering our circumstances I couldn't be with her so I guess I didn't spend a lot of time feeling alive I'm sorry but your circumstances just say what it is she was your student you were her teacher you were grooming her let's not beat around the bush here you're a predator anyway he's all like thank good I have Lake and he says that he's going to keep a journal this year to be his therapy no get some real therapy you Predator part one t no Thursday January the 5th 2012 we get another journal entry from will I registered for classes today I didn't get the days I wanted but I only have two semesters left so it's getting harder to be picky about my schedule I'm thinking about applying to local schools for another teaching job after next semester hopefully by this time next year I'll be teaching again I was snarky in the script here are you ready for this when because I was writing this reaction as I was reading the book just like going through it for the first time and I said why is Lake getting too old for you now she's 19 and you need to find a new victim stop it you shouldn't be allowed anywhere near children you know what it it has nothing to do with the plot of the book but I stand by that snarky as it is he shouldn't be alive anywhere near children now I know a lot of this like introductory bit is kind of just recapping the first book and blah blah blah and all the stuff I didn't like about the first book aside and all the reasons I hate this character aside sorry I'm dropping stuff I always have to fidget while I'm talking all that aside I think what frustrates me most about the opening to this book is that nothing actually grabs my attention and makes me want to read more it's really boring the narrator is boring no conflict is say up nothing intrigues me nothing is funny or clever or inspiring or just it's just boring it's really boring like you could tell Colleen Hoover felt she had to put no effort into this because she just assumed people would read it anyway because they liked the characters from the first book to draw a comparison with another book which is very easy to read but very popular um I'm going to just kind of draw a comparison here with the seven husbands of SE with the seven husbands of evely and Hugo by Taylor Jenkins read and I have to say I enjoy Taylor's books I really do they're simple they're quick to get through they're not exactly ground breaking and you know they're not like these big classic masterpieces but I find them really fun and for a relaxing read I I really quite enjoy her books I like her writing style I like her characters I like her plots um I do I do like them not everything has to be like proper High art you know sometimes you just want a good enjoyable book and I find that's what I get from a of Taylor's books I've read I think all of her books at this point except uh Koto which I just I couldn't get into I really tried but I just don't like tennis I have no interest in tennis and with the first few chapters being all like and then this tennis match and then I just I couldn't do it I really couldn't do it anyway not the point I really really liked a lot of her books I think even though they are the most popular um seven H splints of evil and Hugo and Daisy Jones in the six are my favorites cuz they're fantastic and I think I don't know which one I prefer but I do really like Daisy Jones just because the whole time period and music and aesthetic and everything it's just I love that style and everything so that was a fun read to draw the comparison with The Seven husbands of Evelyn Hugo I would say that even though Taylor is generally a better writer her and Colleen kind of have almost like a similar target audience in that they're both writing for women they both write books with romantic elements and they both write books that are just kind of quite easy casual reads so I think it's fair to make this compar so the seven husbands of EVN Hugo opens with a news article about the titular character EVN Hugo uh giving basically a rundown of her career who she is how she's setting up this Charity Auction now which is the Catalyst for the rest of the plot even the very first line grabs your attention film Legend and 60s it girl Evelyn Hugo has just announced that she will auction off 12 of her most memorable gowns through Christies to raise money for breast cancer research immediately like oh my God who is this woman and I bet she has some great stories to tell what will her public versus her private Persona be is she still glamorous was she ever as glamorous as she seemed in front of the camera why is she auctioning off her gowns now what's her life been like is there a reason she chose this breast cancer research Char to donate to if so what is it you start to ask all these questions and then at the end of this short article introduction we're told now widows from her seventh husband Hugo resides in Manhattan and again the Intrigue seven husbands widowed what happened why so many did she kill them is she unlucky how does she feel about it all now you immediately want to read more and then you get this great switch in tone as we get into like the main plot of the book and looking at the characters and stuff Taylor can write very distinct voices for the news article and the the main Narrative of her book there's distinct voices you never get that in Colleen's book so there's just a difference in skill but I think for a direct comparison when you look just at the two prologues you have this whole like oh my God death of her seventh husband what in aelyn Hugo whereas Colleen Hoover's point of retreat prologue ends with we're having dinner with Gavin and Eddie tonight I think I'll make cheeseburgers cheeseburgers sounds good that's all I really have to say right now which does absolutely nothing but make me think the narrator is shallow and boring with nothing to actually say it doesn't grab my attention it doesn't intrigue me what's the point so I thought it would be interesting to draw that point of comparison anyway let's look at the actual text now Chapter One turns out leak is still living in the house that her mom was renting before she died will is still living across the street in his own house so that's good I guess I oh my God I said at this point if she ends up being 19 years old and living with the adult man who groomed her at any point in this book I will Riot guys we have to organize a riot now Will's former students Gavin and Eddie Eddie is a Girl by the way um who are also friends friends of Laken they come over for burgers and it's clear that this kind of socializing is completely normal for him and I asked at this point does will not have any friends his own age no no he doesn't I do think it is creepy that the only people he has to hang out with are his ex students I know so will and his little brother cuer tease leak's brother Cal yes they are all real names about his crush on their new neighbor Kon because and I quote kiston moved into a house on our street about a month ago and Kell seemed to have developed a slight crush on her he won't admit it of course he's just now about to turn 11 so Lake and I expect this to happen Kirsten's a few months older than him and a lot taller girls hit puberty faster than boys so maybe he'll eventually catch up now will and Gavin actually basically every adult man in this book who interacts with this 11-year-old girl makes really creepy comments about Kiron and it makes me very uncomfortable reading it I said in my initial script here why do I feel like this is just another excuse for will to justify him grooming Le when she was his student this whole like uh you know girls hit puberty faster girls more mature because in the first book He was all like oh leak's just so mature I didn't realize she was only 18 blah blah blah blah blah all that nonsense and now all of this nonsense you know and this creepy way of treating kids as older than they are continues as Kon shows up at will and Gavin's sorry as Kon shows up at Will's house and will and Gavin discuss her and please remember at this point will is 23 Gavin is 19 and they're talking about a barely 11-year-old girl she's the 11-year-old girl I was telling you about the one I think is an impostor based on the things that come out of her mouth I'm beginning to suspect she's really a tiny adult posing as a little red-headed child given the context and what we know about will and his history of grooming his students I am uncomfortable I don't know why Colin Hoover had to include any of this do not like it will then tells us Gavin and I have become pretty close this past year it's good I guess considering how close Eddie and Lake are Kellen CER really like him too it's nice I like the setup we all have here I hope it stays this way which means it absolutely will not stay this way Colleen then makes Kon the old super edgy by making her use swear words and boasting about how swear words just social constructs that we shouldn't have so much stigma around although she doesn't phrase it quite as succinctly as that it's a sentiment that I don't hate I just hate the way Colleen Hoover writes it will then goes on about how Ken is so much smarter than the other kids her age and again when we consider this adult man is a teacher with a history of grooming his students it just feels creepy and wrong and I don't like it can you please step away from the children she then goes on this rant about how you could totally just decide the the I can't even speak she basically starts ranting that you could just decide that the word butterfly is a swear word and blah blah blah and then everyone is like oh my God that's so funny and witty and clever and they all start using the word butterfly instead of actual swearing and it is so cringey I want to die I wrote in my script I hope this is just another thing Colleen Hoover sets up and forgets about like Kel's backward days in the first book because if this keeps reoccurring I may cry spoiler I'm going to be crying a lot through this book why is this the terrible annoying cringey thing she had to remember to keep coming back to then everyone goes around the table for a game of suck and sweet time which is where you say the best and worst part of your day it's a horrible horrible horrible phrase but also it's just used as an excuse for each character to basically fill us in on where they are in their lives since the last book it's an excuse for an exposition dump basically um Eddie it turns out is now in college and creeply still calls will Mr Cooper which kind of makes sense because you know he was her teacher but also I hate it Gavin is now a pizza delivery driver he also still calls will miss Cooper and I hate it Le has lost her phone because she's always losing her phone which is something you just well I said here this wasn't even close to being a character trait in the first book so you just know this is going to be relevant later in this book but it's not it's it's not relevant at all there's a bunch of references to oh look leak's lost her phone again leak's lost her phone but it's never actually relevant to the plot kind of annoying yeah leak then also called call her ex teer SLG gromer slow booyfriend Mr Cooper and I think I need a booket to pukin can we not make grooming and dating your teacher while you're still in school some cutesy romantic ha haa it's so funny joke thing can we not can I finish my food now Lake says pointing to her plate that's still on the other side of me out of her reach I scoot the plate back in front of her thank you Mr Cooper she says I KNE her under the table she knows I hate it when she calls me that I don't know why it still bothers me so much probably because when I was her actual teacher it was absolute torture oh no I'm sorry are you uncomfortable that you're being reminded that you're a groomer you know there's a solution for that and it would be to not groom your students in the first place don't groom kids and you won't be called a groomer okay after all the little kids leave Eddie then says I really like that girl Eddie says after ksten leaves I hope Kell asks her to be his girlfriend I hope they grow up and get married and have lots of weird babies I hope she's in our family forever yeah can we not talk about literal 11-year-olds like this please can we not force kids as young as 11 to think they have to get married and have babies one day can we not perpetuate this idea that the first person you date has to be the person you marry like it's an 11-year-old with a crush how can you be like oh I hope they have babies it's creepy and weird and wrong don't like it just let them be kids with a little innocent harmless crush and let them figure things out in their own time just stop it will and Gavin then make a bunch of sexist comments which I think are meant to be jokes but no one laughs and it ends up with the men getting their way so I thoroughly hate this I just sigh She's Impossible to control you're cleaning up tonight I say to her you too I say to Eddie Gavin let's go watch some football like real men while the women do their job Gavin scoots his glass towards Eddie refill this glass woman I'm watching some football while Eddie and Lake are cleaning the kitchen I take the opportunity to ask Gavin for a favor what how what yeah can we not do this please basically we'll ask Gavin to babysit tomorrow night so he can have some alone time with leak and give her a gift and Gavin says yes so then will is like hey leak after you done cleaning the kitchen um what are your plans for tomorrow night and leak says well she replies she rolls her eyes what kind of question is that you're my plan you're always my only plan yeah codependency is not cute can we not romanticize that please and then well we get a whole bunch of stuff that I did not need to read you ready for this there a little kiss on a setti for a while he's on top of her I release her hands and she grabs my face and pulls my my mouth to hurts we continue kissing until we get to the point of retreat as Lake likes to call it she climbs out from under me and sits up on her knees as I roll onto my back and remain in the floor another typo we don't like to get carried away when we aren't the only ones in the house it's so easy to do when we catch ourselves taking things too far one of us always calls Retreat now I was really confused by all of this because while I don't think these two individuals should be sexual relationship because you know the whole him being her teacher and powering balance and grooming and not able to consent thing it did shock me that if we take all that out of the equation it shocked me that a 19 and 23y old pair of adults who like neither of them have any religious or moral convictions about wait till marriage or waiting at all or anything like that are acting like a couple of teenagers I was like I don't get it it's really weird to me because it's clear they want to have sex with each other but they're waiting for plot reasons like that's all it is so it it turns out at first it's because of the Dead mom I know before Julia passed away we made the mistake of taking things too far too soon a crucial mistake on my part it was just two weeks after we started officially dating and CER was staying the night at Kell's House Lake and I came back to my place after a movie we started making out on the couch and one thing L to another neither of us willing to stop it we weren't having sex but we would have eventually if Julia hadn't walked in when she did she completely flipped out we were mortified she grounded Lake and wouldn't let me see her for two weeks I probably apologized a million times in those two weeks and again the whole teacher thing aside what the hell if my mom had tried to control my sex life when I was an 18yearold I would have been Furious because I was 18 you know none of her business and the thing is like he's a 21-year-old adult man man and a teacher like if you're dating someone whose mother is still involved in their sex life they are definitely too young for you if you can't see your girlfriend as an adult man because she's grounded she is too young for you all the teacher stuff aside she's too young for you she eventually sat us down together and made us swear we would wait at least a year she made lake get on the pill and made me look her in the eye and give my word she wasn't upset about the fact that her 18-year-old daughter almost had sex Julia was fairly reasonable I knew it would happen eventually what hurt her was that I was so willing to take that from Lake in such a short time frame after only two weeks of dating it made me feel incredibly guilty so of course I agreed to the promise she also wanted us to set a good example for Kellen cder and made us swear we wouldn't spend the night at each other's houses during that time frame either after Julia passed away we've stuck to our word more out of respect for Julia than anything Lord knows it's more than difficult sometimes a lot of times yeah this explanation doesn't make anything better and I think what gets to me the most is this idea that sex takes something from a woman like being like oh I can't believe you would take that from Lake because Lake's a virgin at this point but her having sex isn't a man taking something from her if she chooses to have sex that's her gaining an experience it's not a man taking anything away from her and it's completely up to her her what time frame she wants to do that in if she wants to do it after two weeks of dating someone if she wants to do it after a year of dating someone let her as an 18-year-old it is her choice I mean obviously it's complicated here by the whole power Dynamic and teacher and consent thing there but that aside as an 18-year-old if she was say with another 18-year-old she should absolutely be able to make that choice for herself without her mother being like he's taking something from you Lake it bothers me I'm just baffled by all of this it turns out that like them not having sex is just basically for the plot because Colleen wants to drag it out they both really really want to do it they just decide not to for reasons because at this point it has been over a year since the mom made them promise to wait a year so yeah it is a complicated topic it's a very nuanced one and I I kind of wrote down some thoughts here that I've kind of slightly rambled about here but I think maybe I was a little more concise here maybe I was explain myself I did I said basically in my original script I said I understand the M being angry about a teacher trying to have sex with his ex- student but the response to that is to call the police not to ground her for two weeks and make them wait a year because it doesn't matter if they wait a week or a year it's still inappropriate because of their relationship but at least this exemplifies how complicated this issue is and how we have to be really nuanced while discussing these topics like grooming and CSA because just because an age of consent is a certain age in a state or a country that doesn't necessarily make it appropriate for adults to try and get with kids of that age for example so in the UK age of consent is 16 right and I fully believe that every 16-year-old has the right to decide for themselves whether they are ready to engage in sexual activity with someone of the same age as them so someone else who is 16 or 17 or potentially 18 you know kids they go to college or school with or whatever I think that is absolutely their choice however I don't think it's okay for an adult man in his 20s and older to come along and attempt to have sex with a 16-year-old just because of age of consent as soon as you start making one party considerably older or putting one of them in a position of power uh that's where the younger or more vulnerable one becomes unable to properly consent and that's when you know figuring out what's ethical or not becomes trickier to decide to figure out so so I guess what I'm saying here is leak is absolutely capable of controlling her own sex life as an 18-year-old woman who's interested in other 18-year-old she maybe goes to school with but when it comes to someone having a position of power over her like her teacher she is unable to consent to that regardless of her age that's why people can be victims of Grooming at any age even adults can be groomed does all this make sense I don't want people thinking I'm being contradictory here because it's a really really complex topic on the one hand I'm like she's 18 her mother but out of her decisions and stop trying to control her but on the other I'm like but this isn't just an 18-year-old deciding whether to have sex or not this is an 18old being groomed so it complicates things it oh it's difficult but anyway yeah turns out the entire book is named after this idea of point of retreat point of retreat I come speak where they want to have sex and they decide not to because it's convenient for the plot and it just keeps happening even though now they no longer have this promise to her mother cuz it's been over a year and blah blah blah they keep deciding to retreat because it's convenient for the plot and dragging it out and it's really really stupid this entire book is about them having sex and I hate it so in the last sled video we spoke about how colen Hoover books all Have a Gimmick um in this one it's that each chapter opens with a diary entry from will however so far these have added absolutely nothing honestly throughout the entire book they add nothing I don't think they have a point like like this one for example look at this it tells us nothing we didn't already get in the last chapter it's written in the same voice and the same point of view the same everything as the main chapters of the book so I just I don't understand why they're there we don't need them chapter two Le gets all excited and dressed up to go out on a date only for will to be like haha we're staying in so for a while they eat pasta and Le thinks will has just invited her over to have sex but he's like oh no not that and it's all weirdly spoken about through innu and code words they never actually say are we having sex they never once in this book have a direct conversation about it it's always like well I guess we could do it all this stuff like using terms like point of retreat instead of just saying no I'm not ready and all that nonsense and I've said this in many videos I just feel like if you can't speak openly about sex with your partner and communicate your needs to them and listen to their needs then you're not ready to be having sex with them it's as simple as that you should at least be able to say words to your partner so you know you can communicate your needs effectively you should be able to say words like sex penis vagina yes no you know what I mean uh but it turns out no this isn't about sex instead leak's mom left them a present to open together and that's what this night is all about and blah blah blah I was like how awkward would it be if they'd broken up by this point oh God I kind of wish that had happened it would be funny um anyway Lincoln creepily calls him Mr Cooper again and I would like a petition for this book to always be sold alongside a sick booket please because I need it really do inside the box is and I quote a clear glass vase inside the vase it's full to the brim with geometric stars in a variety of colors it looks like origami hundreds of thumbnail sized 3D paper stars there's a letter too will and Lake love is the most beautiful thing in the world unfortunately it's also one of the hardest things in the world to hold on to and one of the easiest things to throw away neither of you has a mother or a father to go to for relationship advice anymore neither of you has anyone to go to for a shoulder to cry on when things get tough and they will get tough neither of you have someone to go to when you just want to share the funny or the happy or the heartache you're both at a disadvantage when it comes to this aspect of love seems a bit harsh to the people reading who don't have parents or a relationship with them but okay you both only have each other and because of this you will have to work harder at building a strong foundation for your future together you are not not only each other's love you are also one another's sole Confidant what about the little brothers the friends the grandparents the everyone else in their lives you're really reinforcing this codependency is corol thing and I do not like it this is why having a whole support network is really really important you can't just place all of that on one person like Colleen Hoover repeatedly does in every single book of hers I handw wrote some things onto strips of paper and fold them into Stars it might be an inspirational quote and inspiring lyric or just some downright good parental advice I don't want you to open one and read it until you truly feel you need it if you have a bad day if the two of you fight or if you just need something to lift your spirits that's what these are for you can open one together or you can open one alone I just want that to always be something both of you can go for if and when you ever need it you know okay cute idea I don't actually hate it you know I once had a guy make me a joy jar and he filled it with all these lovely things you know little slips of paper with like nice memories on lines from poems I loved um and I thought it was really really sweet and I really really treasured that jar I I kept it I looked at it often I thought it was amazing until it turned out that the guy was a cheating piece of crap liar who couldn't control his penis and would cancel his plans with me to sleep with other girls so screw that guy and his Joy jaw that aside yeah seems quite nice from this mom doesn't it uh the mom continues to letter with will thank you thank you for coming into our lives so much of the pain and worry I've been feeling has been leaving ated by the mere fact I know my daughter is loved by you sorry I think she actually miswrote this line I think it should have been will screw you for grooming my daughter and making her dependent on you while limiting her life in many ways and isolating her from a large chunk of her peers I've called the police it's interesting how badly she miswrote that isn't it then she says to Laken in the letter you couldn't have picked anyone better to love if I would have handpicked him myself and I'm sorry but what does that even mean I do not like that you know I would not trust my mom to pick a partner for me like why like oh Colleen Hoover strikes me as one of these like boy moms who is like my little boy can't do any wrong and blah blah blah and I should pick out his girlfriend and then she picks out someone who's exactly like her but won't be a threat to her and this just gives me bad vibes you know uh so after reading the letter lean touches Will's chest and he's all like we need to retreat and she's all like but I want to and he's like I'm ready too but not here not right now you'll just have to go home and in an hour when the boys get back I don't think I could take it and then he tells her that they have to wait another two weeks for reasons basically just to drag out the plot of this book that's all will then makes a joke about the time he physically assaulted her in the first book by saying you want me to throw you in the shower again cool you off I will if that's what you need you mean when you threw water over her dragged her around by her wrists locked her arm behind her back pushed her in the shower covered her in freezing water and then locked her in the bathroom until until she did what you wanted what a funny threat to make and reminisce about abuser Gavin then calls saying that the kids have vomited and he's bringing them back home and the chapter ends we are now 133% of the way through the book and nothing has happened yet I'm fed up chapter 3 uh this one starts with another oh so useless journal entry I butterflying hate cheeseburgers stop it I wrote in my original notes here this is so stupid and pointless please do not make this butterfly thing a recurring joke it's so stupid I want to cry I'm reading the ebook but this still feels like a waste of paper yeah I was very unhappy by the end of the book If I was unhappy here it only gets worse turns out everyone has food poisoning um the kid no the mom of the kid Kiren comes over with a miracle cure for everyone her name is Sherry there's then just pages of nothing lean apparently looks as rough as will but still beautiful and sexy I don't like it will also says we brought up the subject of living together before it makes economic sense our bills will be cut in half she's only 19 though and she seems to like having her alone time the thought of taking such a huge leap makes both of us a little apprehensive so we agreed to wait on that step until we're certain about it yeah you think she's 19 give her some space and a chance to actually live a life for herself you know so far she doesn't actually seem to have any other friends any social life a job or a life outside of him and their brothers even uniwork is a rush to get in as much as possible as quick as possible you know she's like kind of still getting her education but she's attempting to rush through it so she can just just spend as much time with Will as possible it's really unhealthy and concerning blah blah blah they're all really ill over the weekend this is like three-day food poisoning so God knows what they did to those Burgers but yeah uh then they get better on Monday will heads into college and of course he I kind of forgot about this oh my God so I said because he's the edgiest of all calling Hoover characters and writes poems with titles like death with lines like people don't like to talk about death because it makes them sad yes that's an actual line from one of his poems in the first book um because he's super super edgy like that he takes a college class called death and dying I actually forgot about this because after like the first I know like five chapters or something it never comes up again it's just not relevant oh my God Colleen Hoover doesn't know how to plot out a book does she every time I think Colleen Hoover is a bad writer she does something to make me realize she's even worse than I thought she was you know anyway then oh me good biggest shock ever like we didn't guess this was going to happen from the first page um it turns out that his ex is in his college class with him she's for some reason doing her Masters at the same University on the same topic at the same time yeah I can't see that causing any problems can you as my eyes make their way around the room I notice a girl with blonde hair in the front row turned completely around in her seat when I meet her gaze my heart sinks she smiles and waves when she sees I've recognized her she turns back around gathers her things and then stands up and makes her way up the stairs no she's coming towards me she's about to sit with me oh god well oh my God what are the chances it's been so long she says I do my best to smile at her I don't understand my reaction right now I can't tell if it's anger or guilt or what hey I tried to sound pleased to see her we haven't seen each other in almost 3 years she knows we parted on bad terms to put it mildly yet she's acting like she she's genuinely excited to see me I wish I could say the same so this is ex of course she's blonde because L's brunette um they both talk about their brothers and then vaugh is like how about you Mr 23-year-old are you married like that's a normal thing to ask 23-year olds why does colen hoover just want everyone to get married so young bothers me I don't don't like this I don't like how she's looking at me I've seen that look from her before we dated for over 2 years I know her pretty well and right now her intentions aren't good for me okay so if you think she's still into you and you've got a girlfriend you stop the conversation right there it's not difficult you just say hey look I'm in a relationship and I'm just getting vibes from you and I don't think it's appropriate for us to be friends right now I don't really want that I'm with someone else sorry that's it and he just stopped talking to her easy it doesn't have to be a big issue you know I'm not married but I am dating someone I clarify I can see the slight shift in her expression but she attempts to mask it with a smile good for you she says is it serious she's digging for hints I don't think she's digging I think she's just straight up asking very we both face the front of the room when the professor starts explaining the semester's requirements and going over the syllabus the rest of the hour we don't speak much other than occasional questions from her regarding the class information when the professor dismissed dismisses us I quickly stand up it's really good seeing you will she says I'm excited about this class now we have a lot of catching up to do I smile at her without agreeing this SM kind of says you're agreeing but okay uh she gives me another quick hug and turns away I gather my things and head to my second class as I think of a way to break this to Lake well it's not difficult you either call her up now drop her a text or when you get home you say hey by the way uh I took this class weirdly my ex is in it and you make it very clear that you set boundaries with your ex which he should have done and he didn't um and then you stick to those boundaries simple after that you continue to clearly communicate with leak and that's about it that's the only decent thing you can do in this situation it's not a big deal it well it doesn't have to be a big deal if you deal with it properly and responsibly leers's never asked about my past relationships she says there isn't anything good that can come up from discussing it so we never have I'm not sure she even knows about VN she knows I had a pretty serious relationship in high school she even knows I've had sex we talked about that I don't know how she'll take this I'd hate to upset her but I don't want to hide anything either but what would I be hiding is it really necessary to tell her who all the students are in the classes I'm in we've never discussed it before so why do I feel the need now if I tell her it'll just cause her to worry unnecessarily if I don't tell her what harm is it doing Lake's not in my class she's not even in school the days as I am I've made it very clear to vau that I'm in a relationship that should be good Enough by the end of my last class I successfully convinced myself that Lake doesn't need to know I hope Lake and dumps you look this I I'm very aware that I'm speaking about this from position with a lot of bias look I'm not I'm not a journalist I'm not an unbiased news source I am a book reviewer and social commentator who puts all their opinions into everything they do and I have to admit I am very biased when it comes to this because I do not put up with lies in relationship ships I have had too many people lie to me about stuff like this Dan did it when we started dating and it caused us so many problems for like the first year James did it uh Johnny did it constantly other people have done it Sam HEI it's I can't deal with it and I will not deal with it anymore together they messed me up so much to the point where I couldn't trust anyone for a really really long time and now I have like an absolute Z Zero Tolerance policy with lighting so the way I see it it's not up to my partner to decide what information is important for me to know and what isn't just like it's not my decision to decide what information is important for my partner to know or not what he wants to know what he deems important I will of course tell him and I expect the same in return it's about open communication and that's how you build trust if you're both open about everything and put everything out on the table and communicate that's how you can work through stuff together you know I've had people who were interested in me or who I've been on a few dates with or whatever reach out to me since I've been Kieran since i' reach out to me since I've been with Kieran and I'm always like hey I'm still with Kieran um just so you know this isn't appropriate and I'm not going to be entertaining this and I'm I'm pretty open with it often I'll like show Kieran the messages and just be like hey just you know so and so reached out and this is what I said to them and I'm just I'm really open with him so so yeah sorry to people like Josh and Charles but yeah kieran's seen your text to me he's never like asked to see them but I think it's important for us to share that sort of thing because it builds trust when you have that transparency and yeah that's important to me so so I feel like if you feel the need to hide something like seeing your ex every day from your partner then you're being dishonest about something and I think you're trash it's crazy because with those people who lied to me a lot and hid things from me and cheated on me and stuff like that I of course was incredibly paranoid and didn't trust anyone and I was a bit of a mess and they all told me the same thing you're crazy you're broken you're um insecure you're jealous you're paranoid you're this and this and this and I was like for a long time I was like oh my God this is all my fault these are all my problems and my insecurities and that sort of thing and then I went to see a therapist and was like how do I how do I fix this how do I do this stuff and she was like well have you you know like what are you like with Partners who don't like you and I was like I don't I don't know I've never really experienced it um and then I met Kieran and he's never lied to me and I was seeing my therapist through basically like the entire first year of our relationship and I didn't have any of these issues I was never paranoid or crazy or in secure or anything like that because it turns out when people don't give you a reason to not trust them you don't not trust them you know and my therapist was very much like yeah I don't think this is a you problem and I was like oh okay um and it's kind of shifted my entire perspective and it means that like now yeah I really don't have any tolerance for lying and stuff like that and she she gave me the confidence to actually like enforce those boundaries and you know have this Zero Tolerance policy and it's been my life a lot better it's great it turns out that all this time I was like trying to change something about myself and all I needed to do was actually date a decent human being like Kieran crazy right anyway in summary I hated will before because he's a groomer and somehow I hate him even more now absolutely disgusting human being even though he's a fictional character um it also turns out that two barely competent young people are not good at raising children as Will finds out when he has to pick up Kell and CER from school so not only has his cooking just given them three days of food poisoning but their teacher is waiting to talk to will because it turns out that their friend Kiren is being bullied so Kell and CER decided to go full psychopath on the bullies it's not what they did really it's what they said in a note she takes a piece of paper out of her pocket and hands it to me I unfold it and look at it my mouth gapes open it's it's a picture of a bloody knife with the words you will die written across the top of it Kellen cder wrote this I ask embarrassed yeah I wouldn't be embarrassed I would be scared and get these kids in therapy as soon as possible I understand wanting to protect your friend from bullies but threatening murder isn't the way to go about that like pre meditated murder that's not a normal response to anything especially in 11-year-old kids I would be concerned the boys are suspended for school from a from school for a week and Will's response is really odd the boys climb into the back seat and we drive home in silence I'm too pissed at them to say anything right now or at least I think I'm pissed I'm supposed to be right lakan's response is equally as concerning Lake shoots me a confused look when I walk through the living room and motion for her to follow me to the bedroom I shut the door behind us with privacy and explain everything that's happening showing her the note she stares at it for a while then covers her mouth and tries to hide her laugh she thinks it's funny I feel relieved because this was my initial reaction too when we make eye contact we both start laughing I know Lake from a sibling standpoint it's really funny I say but what are we supposed to do from a parents standpoint she shakes her head I don't know I'm sort of proud of them for taking up for Kon she sits down on the bed and throws a n aside poor Kon though I'm sorry but you're proud of them for sending death threats that's not a normal response to anything a normal response would be like telling the teacher or maybe shouting at them to leave her alone or or you know if they were physically hurting her I could understand like a you know a quick you know split-second decision of like pushing the offer or something like that but not calm calculated death threats that's not normal I mean like let's remember these boys have been through some crap in their life they have both lost their parents called it in particular literally saw his parents die in front of him they're going to be messed up and now they're doing this this is a sign to get them some therapy before they actually hurt someone will then gushes for a while about lakan's maternal instincts and I'm like where this is quickly followed by if I left my head out of it and just followed my heart I'd marry her today stop it leave your ex- student alone don't ruin a life anymore then we get a huge pet peeve of mine so not only we hadot of grammatical errors throughout this book but lake is like screw parenting what are we going to do about having sex this weekend and will says he doesn't exactly care where they stay home or go somewhere but how he says it is I could care less we could stay here at my house for all I care stop it you mean you couldn't care less you could not care less couldn't could not not could stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it this bothers me so much why do so many people get this wrong doesn't even makes sense I would like just squeal then they're like oh wait crap let's stop talking about sex for a second and thinking about sex and remember we have to parent our psychopath children I know the solution here is we should be immature about it and then Will's violent side comes out again as a joke this scene is disturbing and these two should not be in charge of any sort of children where the hell are social services I know what to do I say let's scare the butterfly out of them stop it how she says act like you're trying to calm me down act like I'm really pissed off we can make them sit out there and sweat for a while she laughs you're so bad she stands up and walks close to the door will calm down she yells I walk over to the door and hit it for extra emphasis I will not calm down I'm pissed Lake throws herself onto the bed and pulls a pillow over her face to stifle her Giggles before she continues yelling no stop it you can't go out there yet you need to calm down will you might kill them I glare at her kill them I whisper really she laughs as I hoot back on the bed with her like you suck at this no world not the belt she yells dramatically I clasped my hand over her mouth shut up I laugh I'm sorry but I don't find child abuse and threatening it funny I don't see that as a punchline to a joke when I was a kid I was hit a lot by my adult brother there were like 10 years between it so he was considerably bigger than me and stronger than me and he would hit me so hard that I would literally have these like red swellings on my skin in the shape of his hand where he would hit me or he'd hit me around the head so hard that like the world would spin it was terrifying and I hated it so I don't find this kind of joke funny sorry anyway in the end leak full of giggles just like grounds them for two weeks so at least no one actually gets hit I guess that's a positive there were just threats of it I guess will is fine with abusing female children in his care just not boys interesting end of the chapter and chapter four starts with Will writing terrible terrible poetry in his journal like worse than the ones in the last book are you ready for this if I were a carpenter I would build you a window to my soul but I would leave that window shut un locked so that every time you try to look through it all you would see is your own reflection you would see that my soul is a reflection of you now everything else aside did you mean Glazier because Carpenters don't fit Windows that's what a glacia does also the rest is stupid it's it's a terrible poem there is no rhythm or imagery or it doesn't make s I can't deal with this codependent rumbling nonsense I just don't wanted to stop please anyway we skip forward to Wednesday and will has another class with Vaughn again so of course leak still doesn't know my stomach is in knots Wednesday morning I really don't want to see Vaughn today I try to leave a few minutes sooner hoping I can make it to class early enough to pick a seat next to someone else unfortunately I'm the first to arrive I take a seat in the back again hoping she doesn't want to make the Trek to the back of the room she does as soon she spots me she smiles and runs up the steps throwing her bag down on the table morning she says I brought you a coffee two sugars no cream just like you like it she sets the coffee down in front of me thanks I say she's got her hair pulled back in a bun I know exactly what she's doing I told her once that I loved it when she wore her hair like that it's no coincidence she's wearing it today so I was thinking we should catch up maybe I could come by your house sometime I miss CER I'd like to see him absolutely not hell no that's what I want to say okay so say it it's not difficult just say no she you know she knows what she's doing she's crossing boundaries she's attempting to seduce you at this point you don't owe her anything you are broken up it's not appropriate for her to be doing these things just say that set the boundaries now some people might disagree with me but I'm sorry you don't have to be polite to someone who is trying to make you cheat on your partner just say no and move away vaugh I don't think that's a good idea is what I actually say oh she says quietly okay I can tell I've just offended her by the way she lowers her tone look I'm not trying to be rude it's just you know we have a lot of history it wouldn't be fair to Lake she ahead at me Lake your girlfriend's name is Lake I don't like her demeanor her name is lakan I call her Lake she turns towards me in her seat and puts her hand on my arm will I'm not trying to cause trouble if L's the jealous type just say so it's not a big deal she grazes her thumb across my arm and I look down at her hand I hate how she's trying to under my my relationship with her snide comment she always used to do this she hasn't changed at all I pull my arm away from her and Fa the front of the room vau stop I know what you're doing and it's not going to happen she Huffs and focuses her attention back to the front of the room she's pissed good maybe she got the no not so subtle hint okay so this is the point where you now stand up and move seats to reinforce your point and then you get home and you tell leak all of this you know what she's doing you know what vaugh is doing and to hide it from leak at this point makes you complicit in it sorry but it's true of course he doesn't tell Lan because he's pathetic Friday is apparently fine because vau doesn't even show up to class and that's the day of Kell's birthday there's more stupid butterfly jokes as Kell's birthday cake says happy happy butterflying birthday Cal I'm embarrassed to be even reading this book there's more child abuse jokes about how they need to stop beating them now before it's too late and how Laken will get the first punch again I don't find it funny I'm sorry but I don't think child abuse is a funny punchline nothing happens at the party but after a will is like I'm counting down the days until I can stick my penis in you leak I may be paraphrasing we are a quarter of the way into the book at this point and still nothing has happened I'm bored will and L almost have sex but they don't because plot and honestly I do not care I also it's just it's really weird to see two characters who are at this point supposed to be adults if we take the whole teacher and grooming thing out of this they're supposed to be adults acting so juvenile when it comes to sex it's just a very weird attitude not necessarily like the one to wait thing that's you know people can wait as long as they want or have sex or not as much as they want it's just the whole attitude around it is very childlike it's it's weird it's very weird then will is like Leen I want your first time to be my idea as special so how dare you tempt me with your womanly ways you need to stop wanting sex so that I don't accidentally have sex with you before I say that you're ready again I may paraphrasing you can read this stuff for yourself but it's all weird and Shamy and very pushing Purity culture and virginity worshiping and man controlling woman shaming all that nonsense I don't like it chapter five this opens with another word for me I mean poem I love being with you so bad when we ar together I miss you so bad one of these days I'm going to marry you so bad and it'll be so so good I really wish I'd never read this so bad Will's in his class again now I'm sitting here in death and dying being sted down by the only person I've ever had sex with it's awkward the way Vaughn is acting I feel like I'm really hiding something from Lake you are but telling her about Vaughn now would just prove that I wasn't being completely honest the first week of school yeah which is why you shouldn't Li at all idiot the last thing I want to do before this weekend is upset lake so I decide to wait another week before I bring it up I'm sorry but even as a 23-year-old man and a groomer you are too immature to be sleeping with anybody if this is your attitude you're acting like if you're acting like this with your ex and you're lying to your current girlfriend so it doesn't ruin your chances of having sex with her you are too immature to be having sex with any of them and it is gross also I'm sorry but when it comes to Laken this is manipulation and this is coercion you are literally hiding something from her so you can increase your chances of having sex with her you are not allowing her access to all the information for her to be able to give informed consent and that is not okay you know that if you told her she wouldn't want to sleep with you therefore by hiding it you are coercing her into having sex with you that's not okay V the professor's up there I say pointing to the front of the room she continues to stare at me will you're being a snob she Whispers I don't understand why you won't just talk to me if you were really over what happened between us you it wouldn't bother you this much yeah he's not being a snob he's trying to set boundaries and you're being disrespectful stop it I really really hate the whole X turns up and ruins everything Trope in fiction and real life can't deal with it I'm over as Vaughn it's been three years you're over as to you just always want what you can't have and it's pissing you off it's got nothing to do with me she folds her arms across her chest and sits back in her chair you think I want you she gles me then turns your attention to the front of the room has anyone ever told you you're an she Whispers I laugh as a matter of fact yes more than once yeah you both are and I hope you both end up alone that scene ends and Kell and CA are back at school now also a random aside here but what I find weird about this book is Colleen has clearly written the sequel for adults right her first book in the series slammed was very clearly marketed as young adult it's plastered everywhere on good reads and Amazon whatever young adult but this book is far more adult in its content we have far more swearing we have more graphic sex scenes it's clear she's writing for a more adult audience but I don't like this shift Midway through a series without any proper warnings or anything like that like I don't feel comfortable with the idea that the teens who read her first book despite it being a toxic bad influence then picking up the sequel expecting more of the same and instead getting erotica you know what I mean it's just it seems an irresponsible move the sex in this book isn't as explicit as say like the sex in Verity or stuff like that but it's still more than I think is appropriate for a teenage audience you know so I feel like this is irresponsible of Colleen but then again when has Colleen ho ever actually given a damn about her audience and their wellbeing she not going to start now is she that night at dinner will is in a foul mood because of Vaughn Gavin questions his parenting skills and will gets defensive and it turns out that everyone is in a bad mood bruh leak has a cry because it is the anniversary of her dead dad and dead mom's wedding anniversary I said anniversary in there twice um yeah so she's sad about that but again nothing really comes of it there wasn't really any point to this so yeah okay um Eddie and Gavin are super super Grumps too we don't find out why but we will very soon don't worry the scene ends it was pointless on Wednesday will continues his lies and boardline emotional cheating for reasons beyond my comprehension vaugh sits next to me again on Wednesday you would think after our little tiff on Monday that she would have given up by now I was hoping she had anyway yeah she's trying to mess with you just get up and move seats if you don't want to sit next to her don't sit next to her it's as simple as that it's not hard you are literally allowing her to keep pushing your boundaries you're allowing this not to Vic him blame but I I keep saying boundar he's not actually setting boundaries he's frustrating she pulls out her notebook and opens her textbook where we left off Monday she doesn't stare at me this time in fact she doesn't even speak during the entire class period I'm happy she's not talking to me but at the same time I feel a little guilty for being so rude to her not guilty enough to apologize about it though she did deserve it you weren't rude this is exactly what she wants stop it as I've hacking out things up still not speaking she slides something across the table to me then walks out I debate throwing the note in the trash without reading it but my curiosity gets the better of me I wait until I'm seated in my NE next class to open it will you may not want to hear this but I need to say it I'm really sorry breaking up with you is one of my biggest regrets in life so far especially breaking up with you when I did it wasn't fair to you I realize that now but I was young and I was scared you can't act like what we had between us was nothing I loved you and I know you loved me you at least owe me the courtesy of talking to me I just want the chance to apologize to you in person I can't seem to let go of how things ended between us let me apologize vau I fold the note up and put it in my pocket then lay my head down on the desk and sigh she's not going to let it go go I don't want to think about it right now so I don't I'll worry about it later sorry but he doesn't owe or anything they broke up she dumped him he doesn't owe our conversation he doesn't owe his time nothing they broke up he moved on she needs to get over that simple as that but by keeping this note he's not respecting the boundaries in his relationship with leak he needs to shut this down and if he doesn't it's betraying Lake by keeping the note and not telling her about it he's betraying Lincoln simple as that I wrote in my original script here clearly she'll find the note it'll all blow up and honestly I don't care I hope they break up again I was giving Colleen Hoover too much credit this note never comes back up again it's not actually important the next night everyone goes to a slam poetry event where will is performing and oh God sake I don't know if I can sit through another one of these scenes God sake can someone please make them stop I do not get paid enough for this however before Will's poem there is another poet performing he performs a poem on a topic Colleen Hoover knows a lot about it's called WR poorly oh I'm not going to read the whole thing we'll just I'll give you some highlights WR poy suck write awful terribly frightfully don't care turn off the inner editor Let Yourself write let it flow let yourself fail literally Colleen Hoover writing all these books and then forgetting to edit before she hits publish uh blah blah blah let's skip forward a bit writing is like anything else you don't get good at it immediately it's a craft you have to keep getting better you don't get to juliard unless you practice if you want to get to kigi Hall practice practice practice or give them a lot of money which is crazy because look at how many books Colleen Hoover has written at this point and yet she never gets better does she guess practice doesn't work for everyone uh the poem ends with so keep at it make it a practice and write poorly write awfully write with abandon and it may end up being really really good sadly this still eludes Colleen and then sickeningly will gets up in front of his little brother and his groomed girlfriend's little brother who are children to perform a poem about having sex with leak in front of all their family and friends including miners it feels wrong he calls his poem point of retreat I hate this but if I had to sit through this so do you 22 hours and our war begins our war of Limbs and lips and hands the point of retreat is no longer a factor when both sides of the line agree to surrender I can't tell you how many times I've lost or how many times we've won the game we've been playing for 59 weeks I'd say the score is none to naone 22 hours now war begins our war of Limbs and lips and hands the best part of finally not calling Retreat the showers above us raining down on our feet while the bombs are exploding and the guns fire their rounds before the two of us collapse to the ground before The Battle Before the War you need to know I'd go 59 more whatever it takes to let you win I'd Retreat all over and all over and over again um if you would like a small break to go and vomit now that's absolutely fine pause the video here I will be here waiting when you get back from clearing your stomach don't worry guys I understand I really kind of want to analyze these poems but really there's so little to say and they're so uninteresting it's just like what is there when they get home from the slam poetry night will tells Len that he has booked two nights for them in a hotel in Detroit and we get the Rev Revelation that Will's grandmother hates Laken which could be really really interesting and I would be quite interested in reading that book and how you deal with it because you know I've personally had to deal with an insane mother-in-law before who you know it was let's just say emotional incest it was not healthy and it was a struggle as his partner to deal with that um so I feel like maybe if that was explored in a book it would be really interesting but no it turns out it's just because the first time they met lakan was a bit OT with the PDA and his grandmother didn't like that H leak says well we were all over each other after your graduation when we all went out to eat you could barely talk you were kissing me so much it was making your grandmother really uncomfortable when she asked you how long we've been dating you told her 18 hours how do you think that made me look Lake hits me on the arm she thinks I'm a will it's embarrassing I touch my lips against her ear again not yet you're not I tease so in the end it all just comes down to shaming it's boring and a shame and I hate it will then tries to be flirty with Laken but he's just aggressive again because apparently she likes it when I try to intimidate her look I get the whole d sub thing there's nothing wrong with that no one is shaming that but that's not what's happening here there's no conversations about it there's no real consent there's no safe words will has literally just been aggressive and violent and abused his position of power to control her in the past so when his attempts at flirting are just him intimidating her and trapping her in rooms and stuff like that it's not sexy and fun it's just terrible ifying in the next chapter we get Will's journal entry and how in the and how the hell is this supposed to be written by a 23-year old man I'll just say what's on my mind okay sex sex sex sex I'm having sex tonight making love butterflying whatever you want to call it we'll be doing it and I can't freaking wait at least I understand why you pursued a child now because he's one as well this is so gross I don't like it I don't like it at all I sent this to Aly and vangelina scov in our group chat and I was like if I've had to read this you have to Doo I'm a good friend also and again I was talking to Ali about this does it bother anyone else how in both this book and pretty much all of Colleen Hoover's books actually the portrayal of sex is so all or nothing it's it's really bizarre like they've been allowing themselves to do nothing but kiss for an entire year and a bit now and now they're going straight into penetrative sex all in one go like you know there are in between right there are other things you can do there are ways to get to know each other's bodies and get comfortable with each other over time you can just spend time undressing each other touching each other there's oral sex there's you know for one of a better word hand stuff you know there's ways you can build up to pentri to sex without having penetrative sex if you're not ready for that or don't want that you can build physical intimacy without penetrative sex it doesn't have to be all or nothing it's very odd the grandparents turn up at Will's house and the grandmother gives a lecture to will which is it's not appropriate with the two of you just running off for the weekend like this you aren't even engaged yet much less married I just think you two rush into things so quickly it makes me nervous they've been together over a year I wouldn't call that rushing and it's no one's business if they have sex or not it's a normal healthy part of many relationships all the grooming aside that complicates things but let's just imagine this was any other two adults it would be no one else's business I this book gives me so many conflicting thoughts weirdly as will is packing for his weekend away with Laken completely inappropriately vorn just shows up uninvited at his house this is not okay and also a massive cliche but mostly yeah not okay will decides the best way to deal with her is not asking her to leave his home but to get her alone in his bedroom to talk he's an idiot this is entirely inappropriate if my partner like well Kieran doesn't really have an ex but let's say someone he's been involved in the past just turned up un anounced anounced at his home I wouldn't expect him to be like oh yeah just come into my bedroom that's so inappropriate you don't say that you say hey it's not appropriate for you to be here please leave and if they don't leave you call the police simple but instead while in Will's bedroom alone with him uh this 22 or 23y old woman however old Thor is supposed to be starts acting like a petulant child for some reason I guess because Colleen Hoover doesn't know how to write any other kind of character she holds her arms across her chest and shakes her head I'm not leaving until you talk to me all you've done is avoid me why is she so hung up on a gromer he's not that great move on get a life of your own find someone decent who isn't a predator she starts crying and says will I miss you I miss CER since I saw you the first day of class I've done nothing but think about you and how we ended things I was wrong please just hear me out at which point he should say not my problem please go but instead like the cheating idot he is he says Fine talk make it quick I know you have a girlfriend but I also know you haven't been dating her nearly as long as you and I dated that really doesn't mean anything I know about her parents and that she's raising her brother people talk will what's your point I say I think maybe you're with her for all the wrong reasons maybe you just feel sorry for her since she's going through what you went through with your family it's not fair to her if that's why you're with her I think you WOTE to her to give you and I another shot to see where you're heart really is that's ridiculous right yeah like don't insert yourself into other people's relationships it's oh God I hate leak and will as much as a couple as much as anyone right because grooming but this is not appropriate and it's rude also again I have to ask what the hell do these women seeing him the only appropriate response to this from will should be not going to happen get out my my house but he's an idiot instead he's like vaugh listen you're right I did love you did being the key word here I'm in love with Lake I would never do anything to hurt her and you being here it would hurt her so why' you invite her in h clearly he doesn't care that's why I want you to leave I'm sorry I know this isn't what you want to hear but you made your choice and I've moved on from that choice now you need to move on too please do as both a favor and just go I stand up and walk to the bedroom door and wait for her to do the same she stands up but rather than follow me to the door she starts to cry again I roll my head and walk over to her vau stop stop crying I'm sorry I say putting my arms around her maybe I've been too hard on her I know it took a lot for her to come here and apologize if she really does still love me I shouldn't be acting like such a jerk oh stop it you know what she's doing and she's crossing your boundaries she's dis disrespecting your relationship you don't know you don't owe her anything and right now by being like Oh I feel sorry for her here let me hook you alone in my bedroom and me me you're doing exactly what she wants and you are betraying leak simple as that I wrote in my script here uh you're in your bedroom cuddling up to a woman who's still in love with you who isn't your girlfriend that's not appropriate at all and let me guess leak's going to walk in and see them together and get absolutely the right idea but will will tell us she's misunderstood again I could write Colleen Hoover books they are so predictable I push the hair away from her face and wipe the tears from her cheeks she smiles and hugs me goodbye I give her a quick peck on the forehead when we separate and I turn to the door and that's when it happens my whole world comes crashing down around me she's standing in the doorway watching us her mouth open like she's about to say something but can't cder rushes past her when he sees Vaughn standing beside me Vaughn he says excitedly as he rushes to her and hugs her Lake looks into my eyes and I see it I see her heartbreaking yeah I'm not surprised it's a massive cliche but she should be upset about this she should be angry I'm on her side here completely there's another physical altercation between will and Laken not as violent as the first book and this is more about Lake being violent either way it screams toxic to me I understand her I understand her anger but I don't condone her being violent towards him as a response at all she's crying I tried to pull her to me but she fights me she shoves me back and starts hitting me in the chest without saying a word she just keeps hitting me I grab her hands and pull them to me but she continues to try and fight me I keep holding her until she grows weaker in my arms and starts to fall to the ground rather than hold her up I melt to the snow covered street with her and hold her as she cries Lake it's nothing I swear it's nothing I saw you will I saw you hugging her it wasn't nothing she cries you kissed her on the forehead why would you do that she continues to cry she isn't trying to hold back the tears this time and that's true the whole forehead kisses were a thing in their first book so all of it together it's like a massive betrayal and Crossing her boundaries and the fact he's now been lying to her for weeks I'm sorry but there's no explanation that makes any of this okay I don't condone Lincoln's violence but I thoroughly understand her upset here and I just think she should dump him and move on that's the happy ending this book needs simple this is the kind of betrayal that you don't come back from I wouldn't forgive it vaugh appear and is like well I'm really sorry vaugh says from behind me really I didn't mean to cause problems yes you did you literally came here to try and break them up get out of here Colleen Hoover does not know how to write any likable characters does she not one Le refuses to talk to him until she appears in the middle of the night in his house to grab a star from the vs that her mom gave them and then just leaves he follows her out into the street and is like oh well no she's like how are you going to explain it she says her cheeks are streaked with mascara she's heartbroken and it's all my fault yeah the one girl you've had sex with has been sitting in class with you every day for over two weeks why haven't you explained that and the Very night I'm about to leave with you to make love to you I find you in your bedroom with her and you're kissing her on the freaking forehead yeah she makes a good point there's no explanation for that that makes it okay will slams his front door over and over and over again because who cares about his neighbors who are sleeping in the middle of the night right will grabs a star from the jar and finds the quote sometimes two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together which he then strategically folds back up and puts back in the jar right at the top so he can try and manipulate leak into taking it to try and get her to take him back so instead of actually doing anything to fix his mess and his lies or letting her go like like you probably should at this point he's just like I you use her dead mom's gift to try guil her into taking me back he's scum and I hate him the chapter ends and the next one starts with a journal entry with the simple entry FML great I'm so glad these jours are here they really add to the story and aren't at all just page filler right we're about to move on to chapter 7 but it's currently half 10 at night and I am very tired and I think I need a break so I'm going to do that I'll will come back and hopefully film tomorrow and I'll see you then be no time for you but time will pass for me so thanks guys see you soon all right hi everyone okay next day let's let's just jump back into this we are starting chapter seven now you know I was going to skip this bit originally when I wrote my original script but after seeing how much you guys loved the Gnomes in the premiere of the last video I did I just had to include this because of course we need Justice for the Gnomes so here is what they're up to in this book I'm going to warn you though you are not going to like this this is just one more thing to hate Colleen Hoover for I'm so used to seeing the Gnomes line the driveway next to her car they aren't there anymore though after her mother died Lake gathered all gnomes and threw them in the trash she doesn't know it but I dug one out and kept it the one with the broken Red Hat no shocking first there's no asde then she disposes of all the bodies terrible will then continues to be in inappropriate with children as he tries to get Kon the 11-year-old girl I'm going to remind you to spy on Laken and report back to him hello because there's nothing like getting children involved in your relationship right that's healthy ksten agrees at first but then she goes over and speaks to leak and finds out what will did and he's like yeah I'm not speaking to you anymore which is understandable it turns out that leak is having another one of her breakdowns and is rearranging her entire house just like she did to Wills in the first book but hopefully this doesn't end in the same way with Will assaulting her and locking her in the bathroom thankfully it doesn't will then goes back to the 11-year-old girl and manipulates her into getting her to help him trick Leen into opening her front door so he can then Force his way in that's a lot of words yeah that makes sense right I don't really have a plan of attack I'm hiding against the wall in front of Lake's house when Kiron knocks my heart is beating so fast I feel like I'm about to commit a robbery or something I take a deep breath when I hear the door open kissed and steps aside and I brush past her and slip inside Lake's house faster than she can realize what happened get out will she says as she holds the door open and points outside I'm not leaving until you talk to me I say I back further into the living room get out get out get out get out I do what any sane male would do in this situation I run down the hallway and lock myself in her bedroom I realized I still don't have a plan I don't know how I can talk to her if I'm locked in her bedroom but at least she can't kick me out of her house now I'll stay here all day if I have to do anyone else want Le to call the police at this point or is it just me I see the shadow of her feet reappear and she pauses in front of her bedroom door again well open the door I'll talk to you she doesn't sound angry my IDI my idiotic plan worked I unlocked the door to her bedroom and as soon as I open it all the way I'm completely drenched in water she just threw water on me she threw an entire picture of water in my face oh she says you look a little wet will you better go home and change before you get sick she calmly turns and walks away they're literally children aren't they like this is all played for like comedy like him being like what Anyan male would do blah blah blah I'm going to lock myself in a room I'm going to lock her in a room we're going to throw a word for each other it's all played for like comedy and jokes but it's not funny because if this happened in real life it's just toxic as hell like I've dated people who have driven me to this point of like craziness where I've wanted to hurt myself and I've been sad and crying and an absolute mess and tried to run away and stuff and it's it's not healthy you just need to get away from people who make you act like that it's the only way I don't find this funny or cute or like hahaa look they're just so passionate about each other no it's unhealthy and you need to get away from it if people make you feel and act like this get them out of your life that is all you know I said in the first video that will and Len wouldn't have had any of the problems they'd had if they just communicated like adults in the first place and it's exactly the same here if Will had just told her about vaugh when he first bumped into her and told her that vaugh was being inappropriate with him and stuff none of this would have happened if they' just spoken like adults they could get some closure and move on I hate this I hate these characters I do I hate them what do you think what do you think yeah would you like to address the audience would you like to say anything she won't even look at the screen with calling Hoover's book on it so dramatic but I don't blame you I don't blame you he then complains that leak didn't even warm the water before throwing at him which is ridiculous considering that in the first book he physically forced her under a freezing cold shower and like put it on in her face after also throwing water over it's just ridiculous he then goes home to feel sorry for himself some more I hate this book Sherry comes over and gives will some homemade kills which he takes and passes out this is crazy right this is never brought up again this is never addressed Sherry just makes these like homemade medicines and tablets and stuff that will knock people out and it's just like no is this even legal please if a random woman offers you homemade pills especially without telling you what's in them please do not take them just no when he finally wakes up leak comes over and tries to take the vs that her mom left for them but then will is like super selfish and he's like she's not taking this vs with her if she takes the vs with her she won't have any reason to come back I grabbed the vs out of her hands but she won't let go we tug back and forth but I'm not like letting go I'm not letting her take it she finally releases her grasp and Crosses her arms across her chest as she glares at me give it to me will my mother made it and I want to take it home with me I walk back into the kitchen with the V she follows me I set it in the corner of the cter top against the wall and I turn around and place my arms on either side of it so she can't reach it like there is nothing likeable about this man is there how has he got two women like lusting after him it makes no sense biggest plot hole ever also again um I wrote in this point in the script Colleen literally only knows how to write one character doesn't she The Voice between lakan in the first book and will in this book are indistinguishable I said it in the beginning of this video and I'm saying it again it's ridiculous will then start shaming lakan for not talking to him for 24 whole hours even though he thoroughly deserves it right he's acting like she's the only one who's done anything wrong here it's like sorry Mr cheater but no le literally Stomps her feet like a child and will is like G she looks so beautiful can we just not and he then tries to talk his way out of his lies again L I don't feel that way about VOR anymore I was planning on telling you about her being in my class next week I just didn't want to bring it up before I'll get away oh so you wanted to make sure you got laid before you pissed me off good plan she says sarcastically i s before head with my hand and close my eyes there isn't a fight this girl couldn't win or maybe it's just because she's right that's exactly what you were doing and you were trying to manipulate her into sex by withholding information that you knew would bother her it's not that oh she's just so good at arguments it's that you're a poopy head and she is right really hard not to call him worse names at this point he doesn't listen to her though and she tries to leave and he physically restrains her again he um basically like grabs onto her and pulls her back to the CTI with him and then he tries to tell her that he just kissed Vaughn on the forehead out of habit like that makes anything better come on if it's such an automatic Habit to you to just oh I can't help it why I'm around her I just slip and kiss her it's it's natural it's automatic it happens all the time it doesn't around you but if it's so automatic to you then don't be around that person it's that simple if you can't help automatically kissing someone when you're in a monogamous relationship with someone else don't be around that person it's it's not complicated it's not difficult just don't do it somehow in all of this though for no logical reason other than coling Hoover wanted to write a smutty scene um they just start kissing in the middle of this argument this physically violent argument and she's like I want you to make love to me will and then I'm for it everywhere and then will is like Lake I can't not like this and then in my script I wrote like a proper little incel leak says I may have been a bit harsh at that point but we'll we'll discuss this in a second but lakan says you've had sex with her will how do I get past that how do I get past the fact you've made love to Vaughn but you won't make love to me you don't know how it feels to be rejected it feels like you just made me feel like this is a bit of a complicated topic because because like on the one hand this is why you shouldn't compare yourself to past partners but on the other hand that's really hard to do when the past partner is there in front of you currently in your partner's life do you know what I mean like what happened before happened before and just because things happened one way with one person that doesn't mean they have to happen the same way with other people right just because he did one thing with one person doesn't mean he has to do it with another and that goes for everyone else you know just because you had one timeline with one partner doesn't mean you need to stick to the same timeline with other part partners and so on you know different relationships need you to do different things or you want to do things differently and like you know there's never any good reason to say well you did one thing with them so you need to do it with me you know that's that's not fair not at all that's completely inappropriate however I do understand why the situation has made her insecure and why it's being expressed in this way it's not healthy but I understand it if that makes sense like I've been in a similar kind of situation to hers before but I guess worse cuz like I remember when Johnny was cheating on me like a lot and I found he was keeping I'm not exaggerating here literally tens of thousands of photos of him having sex with other people on a hard drive he kept it all and I saw it all and there's nothing like seeing your boyfriend's penis inserted inside another woman over and over and over again to make you compare yourself to them you know when you have seen every inch of their body from their labia and bum hole to the backs of their ears you compare yourself like you can't help it it's like it's like when that ex is still in their life and they're not letting go of them and then you're seeing all this stuff and it's just everywhere con stantly and they refuse to get rid of it and it's just there and it's popping up online and you're see it it's impossible to not compare yourself you know it made me paranoid and crazy and the fact that like a lot of the times as well he was lying about this stuff so he' be like yeah there's no photos there's none of them I got rid of everything and then you stumble across literally like about 10,000 of them and you're like oh so that was a lie it makes them even more like meaningful in a way because you're like well he went to all this effort to hide them and lie about them so they clearly mean something then you make more and more comparisons and yeah my point is I get where leak's coming from with this I understand where her insecurity stems from and why she's saying this I just also recognize having been there in the past myself it's not healthy at all and honestly the only way to really like get over this is to cut out the person who is making you feel like that and then go and build your self-esteem back up by yourself because you know that you deserve better and you need to remember that you deserve better than that you know like and for me the solution was to go and find a partner I could trust and work on building um building back up to being able to trust people you know because there's only so much work you can do by yourself you know like you can't learn to trust people by yourself you need to actually put Trust trust in someone to learn how to trust again does that make sense so you need someone trustworthy to help you through it it's I don't know if this is making sense I hope so but like like I had a really really rough time these last few years with like cuz even though things were great with Dan in the middle of our relationship the beginning was so so difficult with him lying to me about women and exes and like he he would like meet up with his ex behind my back or he changed her nameing his phone to a different name so that if I was borrowing his laptop when a message popped up I wouldn't know it from her and it was full of lies like that and it really really messed me up for a while and then after him like I think well there were a few of the bad patches but then Johnny was the worst for constantly keeping other women on the hook and like juggling a number of us um at the same time and then after him there was James and James it turns out lied to me about not being involved with anyone but then it turns out he actually slept with like every one of his female friends except one of them and he was prioritizing their feelings over my own and being like oh well you know so and so and so and so that I slept with are going to be at this party so you can't come because it might upset them and I'm like you know and then he was still following his sex worker ex's sex work social media accounts so he's still seeing her post naked phot of herself every single day and I'm like this is not okay this is your ex and it was just like Johnny again because like again when it's in your face like that and you know that like they're basically in a position to be comparing you you compare yourself as well and it it drove me absolutely crazy and I completely lost it and I was a mess and I really wanted to well I did hurt myself really badly during that time and it was just a nightmare it made me feel so completely worthless and not good enough and it didn't help that he told me it was all my fault it wasn't you know he he wasn't accepting any responsibility for the lying and the you know not having boundaries with exes and all of that stuff he just told me that I was crazy I was insecure this was a me problem you need to go to therapy and sort this blah blah blah this is all you same as Johnny did and I was like oh crap you know this keeps happening with men um I must I must be crazy I must be completely insecure um I must have something wrong with me so I really really did think I was the problem and I was like I'm I'm the worst person in the world I'm I'm broken I'm damaged I'm an absolute wreck and I started see my therapist and I'm like look can you just please help me figure out how to fix myself essentially and I told her everything that had happened with like James and Johnny and everyone and her respons was like okay so these two men sound like narcissists and while your response isn't healthy for you it's a normal response to what they did and I was like wait what and she she basically helped me realize that even though my responses weren't healthy for me they weren't my fault as such they were essentially caused by the men in my life if that makes sense like so she helped me find coping my mechanisms for when I'm feeling like that but the biggest thing she did was help me figure out how to build up my own self-esteem and self worth and set boundaries so that I stopped accepting men treating me like that you know she helped me realize that it wasn't that I'm crazy and that I'm insecure and broken it's that I was surrounding myself with bad people who made me feel bad it wasn't that I was broken it was that I was being hurt by bad people constantly and she kind of helped me realize there's a distinction there and she helped me set some really really important like boundaries and that's why now I have this like zero tolerance policy when it comes to honesty and that sort of thing in relationships and um and that's why it was so helpful to be still seeing her while I was like dating and stuff cuz like I went on like two dates with someone before I met Kieran and really really liked him I thought he was wonderful and smart and kind and talented and I really enjoyed spending time with him but also he couldn't stop talking about his ex and I was just like yeah like speaking to my therapist about this I was like I I can't do this and she was like yeah I think you deserve better um and then I met Kieran and again I spoke through every step of our relationship with my therapist and it was just a whole different experience and it proved me that like it's not about having an issue with people's past it's about how people treat me in the present and what boundaries they have in their lives in the present so like comparing say like Kieran and James kieran's been with like far more people than James ever had but the difference is they're not in kieran's life anymore he set up very strong boundaries he's never lied to me about them he's never given me any reason to worry about them he's never prioritized any of them before me he he has boundaries with them where he's like well no I have a girlfriend now so you're not in my life essentially and like he's never once made me feel jealous he's never once compared any of us or given me any reason to compare any of us and it's just he's been very very honest about absolutely everything and he's never once made me feel like I was crazy or insecure or jealous and it's just very very refreshing you know um so so I think the reason I'm saying all of this and the reason I'm kind of exploring all this because this is as much for me wrapping my head around this stuff as you guys to summarize I guess what I mean is I I do thoroughly understand where laken's coming from in this and I would say with an average relationship it's not healthy or useful or normal to be comparing yourself to your partner's past partners yeah that does make sense and normally I would say the fault lies with the person making those comparisons but in the case where the partner is literally rubbing their exes in their current partner's face where the exes are still around where the they're not drawing boundaries with their exes where the ex is overstepping like in this case where the ex was literally in his bedroom and he kissed her in the same way the forehead kisses that are like really special to him and leak he kissed her in their special way and you know she's there confessing her love to him and he knows this has been going on for weeks and he hasn't said like all of that basically what I'm saying is the Fault is with Will in my mind and while lakan's comparisons here still aren't healthy for her or anyone really I don't blame her for them and I think the way to get over this and get better is just dump will and move on because he's a piece of crap right okay I don't know if any of that made sense there was a lot of rambling going on there point is complicated and I know my own personal biases might be showing here but I can kind of put myself in laken's position here I've been through what she's been through and I don't think she should be asking him to sleep with her but I get why she is because she kind of feels sort of almost like possessive and jealous and like oh like maybe if I do this and you know we have this he'll he he'll choose me over her and it's a desperation thing I get it um I don't think he should sleep with her because he would be taken advantage of her being in a vulnerable situation from the hurt he's caused but I understand her logic here even if it's not healthy right okay so then thankfully will doesn't sleep with her Leen breaks up with him and at this point I was internally cheering I was like oh thank God good for her good for her can we please please just pretend the book ends here and we get our happy ending please yeah that's It Fade to Black End video done no sadly not Will's response is once again violence it is a patent at this point this man is an abusive piece of crap as well as a groomer and I can't cope with it after an hour of punching everything I can find to punch cleaning everything I can find to clean and screaming every cuss word I can think to scream I knock on sher's door when she opens it she looks at me and doesn't say a word she turns back inside and comes back a moment later and holds out her fist I open my palm and she drops the pill pills in my hand and looks at me with pity I hate pity when I'm back inside my house I swallow the pills and lay on the couch wishing it all away so violence and the start of some sort of substance abuse issue which is never addressed again and and throughout all this he doesn't even know what he's taking he's just taking these pills to pass out that's not healthy when he finally wakes up from his pill sleep whatever will says that he's discombobulated which means that was definitely the word of the day on Colleen Hoover's Dictionary app wasn't it Gavin the ex student friend comes around to check on will and will decides he needs a shot of tequila which is interesting because this is actually the first time we've ever seen him drink alcohol in either of these books and it's only there as an unhealthy coping mechanism in the middle of the day H not sure how feel about that will continues to down tequila before Gavin drops the bomb that uh his girlfriend leak's best friend and 19-year-old college student actually she might still be 18 at this point I'm not sure um she's pregnant yeah she's pregnant because Colleen Hoover simply cannot leave a womb empty can she other than Laken every single woman in this book or these two books at this point has been or is pregnant even 11-year-old Kiren they've discussed her getting pregnant in the future yeah I said about leak um and her being the only one not pregnant like there's still time though what we betting she gets pregnant her first time with him I hope to God that doesn't happen in the third book so the chapter ends and will writes in his journal lake lake lake lake lake i' take a mountain and I'd take a mountain and then I need another drink but I love you so much yeah I think I need more tequila and More Cowbell I love you I'm sorry I'm not thirsty I'm not hungry just thirsty but I'm never drinking another cheeseburger again I love you so I can't affid this Colleen why do you do this to us will wakes up the next morning and a man called reys is in his bathroom I mean we've all been there right um apparently this is an old friend of his from school that he's now letting him stay with him although he has no memory of agreeing to that and we've never heard of this man before not even once Leen comes back to get the vas again and we get this incredibly uncomfortable and unnecessary scene that really really bothers me I grab the vs from her hands she jerks it away harder than I expect and the vase slips and lands on the floor spilling out dozens of tiny stars onto the carpet she bends down and starts scooping them up her hands are full and I can see on her face that she doesn't know where to put them since her pants don't have pockets she pulls the collar of her shirt out and starts Shing ring them inside by the handful she's determined I grab her hands and pull them away from her shirt Lake stop it you're acting like a 10-year-old I set the vs upright and start throwing the rest of them inside as fast as she's grabbing them stuffing them inside her shirt I do the only thing I can I reach my hand down her shirt and start grabbing them back she slaps at my hand and tries to crawl backwards but I grab the back of her shirt to stop her she continues to back away as I continue holding onto her shirt until it slips over her head and it's resting in my hand hands she grabs more stars and stands and heads towards the front door while her hands clasp to her with her hands clasped to her bra still trying to hold on to them Lake you aren't going outside without a shirt on I say she's Relentless watch me she says I jump up and wrap my arms around her waist and pick her up just as I'm able just as I'm about to release her on to the couch the front door swings open I look over my shoulder and Reese walks in with a hand full of groceries he pauses and stares at his wide eyes l is still trying to struggle free from my grasp ignoring the fact that someone she doesn't even know has a front row seat to her trauma no to her tantrum I'm going with trauma it's more accurate the only thing I can think of is the fact that she's in a bra in front of another guy this is too much for you me to unpack are you okay Colleen do you need to talk to someone anyway blah blah blah skip forward leak goes home Reese is like ooh the girl having a breakdown his cute and then will gets all possessive and it's all very weird not a fan will tells ree everything that's gone on and Reese is like the his only takeaway from this whole thing is LOL can I ask Vaughn out now please what a good friend Ken the 11-year-old comes around and will bribes her to spy for him again which is super healthy and normal right also why is this 23y old man just hanging out with an 11-year-old alone and no he tells Kon to get Lake to take her to the next slam poetry event because will wants to try and win her back with another poetry performance will we've all heard your poetry at this point if this was a real world this would not work also I'm sorry but like even if you were good at writing poetry which he's not you broke her trust you essentially cheated on her you're not going to undo all that and fix all that with a public poetry performance it takes a lot more work to rebuild broken trust than just ooh I'm going to perform a poem in front of a crowd chapter nine we are halfway through the book and so little has happened God's sake but we're halfway through we can do this come on I know Lake doesn't like me right now but she definitely doesn't hate me either I bet she does and she should I can't help but wonder if I should back off and give her the space she's asking for yes you should part of me wants to respect where she's coming from but part of me is scared that if I do back off she may decide she likes the space I'm terrified of that so maybe I won't give her space Here's a little hint right if she prefers the space to being with you then she shouldn't be with you okay so just give her the space let her see what she prefers and decide for herself yeah you can't just force someone to be with you you insane G rumor abuser he even says I hate the fact that her need for space is stronger than her need for me just accept the breakup and let her move on move on yourself but no instead he thinks it's a good idea to go and sabotage her car so that in order to get to Detroit to pick up some textbooks that she needs she has to drive with him this is manipulative and disgusting and dangerous right so she has to get in the car with him and go to Detroit on the way he gets impatient that she's not talking to him him and is like this space thing is really starting to annoy me like get used to it she dumped you he says you'd think after a year I would have found a way to get through to her or to manipulate her in some way she's almost impenetrable I'm sorry what you think the longer you're with someone the better you get at manipulating them no that's not healthy or normal and then instead of taking her to go and pick up the textbook that she needs he just drives to is sorry my tummy's grumbling he just drives to his grandparents house and forces her to have dinner with them because that's not kidnapping uh while they're in the grandparents house he traps her in a laundry room until she talks to him I just for the fourth time in four calling Hoover videos I have to ask what is with this woman writing men who trap women in rooms it it has happened in every single Colleen Hoover book that I've read and it is not healthy I can't cope with this it's not sexy to be trapped in a room it's not romantic to trap someone in a room it's not normal to have a fixation on men trapping women in rooms Colleen Hoover get some therapy she tries to move past me again but I continue to block her way she's flush against me now as she pathetically tries to shove against my chest to get by I have to fight the urge to wrap my arms around her we're practically face to face when she finally gives up again and stops pushing me she inches from me now staring at the floor waiting for me to get out of her way she may have her doubts about my feelings for her but there's no way she can doubt the sexual tension between us I take her chin in my hand and gently pull her face towards mine stop it stop it right now dinner's awkward will makes this weird point of telling his grandma that leak's a virgin I don't know why at this point in Reading the book I kind of wanted to go and have a little cry when they get back home lak is like I'm starting to think we're only together because of our shared trauma which is exactly what I said in the last video she has a good point she is smarter than I gave her credit for this breakup is the right call end the book there please please and then lak makes another very good point that it matters well it matters because 5 or 10 years from now those external factors aren't going to be at play in our relationship anymore it'll just be you and me my biggest fear is you'll wake up one day and realize all the reasons you're in love with me are gone see she's smart for once good on her it doesn't last though will is like my good everything she said makes sense she's completely wrong but it makes sense I get it I can see why she's questioning everything I can see why she doubts me now G this Manchild why is he like this well Colleen Hoover who is also a not a Manchild cuz she's a woman just she's like a teenager trapped in a 40-year-old's body which is not not something anyone wants is it the chapter ends and we get another of Will's poems uh this one has a nice bit of sexism in there too so that's fun right mixing it up a bit the heart of a man is no heart at all if it isn't loved by a woman the heart of a woman is no heart at all if her heart isn't loving a man but the heart of a man and a woman in love can be worse than not having a heart because at least if you have no heart at all it can it can't die when it breaks apart shut up just shut up God's sake chapter 10 you know it's crazy this book is a Whole 30 pages shorter than the first one of the series and yet it feels infinitely longer weird that isn't it I would like my time bug please will decides it's totally appropriate to sneak into leak's house while she's at college for reasons he's caught by Sherry who's like come talk to me and decides to show him a video of when she was just 19 and she is proposed to bu this guy in a video um well I she's not asked well he doesn't ask her if she wants to marry him he tells her to marry him so we have another another Colleen who a couple who have been together since they were barely not children um and another man who was forceful and tells the woman what to do and doesn't really give her a choice I hate it sher's like you and Le can have a connection like us and it's really annoying because Colleen hoovera really does have a habit of telling us how we should be feeling instead of showing us and making us feel something like a lot of people in the premiere of the last video were saying about the mom's cancer story line um that Colleen doesn't well basically people were saying like I know I should feel sad about cancer like even people in my family have had cancer but I don't feel sad about this storyline in the book because Colleen doesn't know how to make me feel sad in her writing and I I thoroughly agree I think people are making really really good points and it's kind of the same here you know Colleen tells us this person has cancer so you should feel sad instead of saying this person has cancer which affects them and their family in this and this and this and this way and the reader just feels sad as a consequence I'm so sorry my tummy grumbling so much I'm hungry and it's the same here we're told Will and L are such a good couple oh my God they had this special love that's not like anything else oh we need to roof for will nak but we never actually see them being a good couple we never see why they work together we never see anything other than a bit of lust between them we don't nothing's really built up to actually make us root for them we're just told we should be and we just have to accept that it's poor writing from Colleen once again anyway there's a massive shock it turns out that the video no the man on sher's video isn't her now husband burn oh my good apparently she didn't marry the man on the tape and I was like wow okay that's a first for calling Hoover showing that like you know you can be completely in love with someone and it not work out and you decide to break up I was like this is brilliant this is great um but no it ends up just being really really disappointing it turns out she just didn't marry this man because he's dead but we don't find that out till later so that's not really that much of a shock anyway sher's like I love my husband David but it's not the true love I had with G you have true love with lak Ando hold on to it and I'm like wow poor David like not only Justice for the Gnomes but Justice for David right like can you imagine like knowing that you're some person's second choice and that they just married you because you know oh their first choice died so I guess we'll sell for you horrible God sake anyway turns out Will's big plan to win Len back is another poem so Will's friends and family are like it's okay will'll Help with this we'll get her to the slam poetry event and physically trap her so she has to listen to you please stop trapping women I beg please reys randomly is remembered and appears in Will's house he's living there now for some reason um and it's like oo me and vaugh are doing the sexy sexy times so it seems like Vaughn's part in the plot is just over and done with and reys was literally only introduced to like her off so she wouldn't be a threat to Will and linol anymore stupid I know Colleen finally remembers oh wait Will's supposed to be a college student during his Masters and he has a class with vaugh better bring that up again so will is all like o I hope she doesn't sit next to me in class today but she does and then vaugh actually reveals that she started dating Reese originally like two months after her and will broke up like four no three years a I don't know how long ago whenever they broke up were meant to be shocked by this and be like oh my God but they were together two years and then she just started dating his best friend two month later how terrible how awful I don't care I really don't care but will decides that because he's so totally overv and into Laken that he is going to get angry and kick uh Reese out of his house there too many names I can't speak um yeah he's angry at his best friend who we've never met before for sleeping with his ex because he's over I don't know I don't let's be honest nothing is going to change in the plot is it why are we even going through this next morning will wakes up and finds a half naked VOR in his kitchen along with a half naked Reese and because he's totally cool with them dating he beats reys up yes that's a man who's totally moved on from his ex and should be in a serious relationship with someone else right I lunch forward and punch the out of him as soon as my fist Ms his face it's Agony vaugh is screaming at me as I back away from him holding on to my fist with my other hand such a mature and reasonable response right will is such a mature well adjusted adult I thoroughly understand why he has so many women swooning for him swooning for him yeah that's how you phrase it right they like him I don't know why Rees doesn't punch will back because he's an adult I guess so Reese leaves Vaughn leaves will s sulks in his bedroom chapter 11 it's the slam poetry event Leen is trapped as expected by her friends and family and will gets up to do his poem which he titles the completely original Because of You Kelly Clarkson is sobbing in a corner right now and I will be joining her shortly um if you were in the chat of the the premiere for the first video I just need to warn you now there is more gnome violence coming up so you know just be prepared for that okay warning you now other warning this is really really bad okay it's it's not it's not a poem it's not a PO it's just him recounting his relationship with a few line breaks there are moments in every relationship that Define when two people start to fall in love at first glance a Smur a Smur a first glance a first smile a first kiss a first fall I removed the Darth Vader house shoes from my satchel and look down at them you were wearing these during one of those moments one of the moments I first started to fall in love with you the way you gave me butterflies that morning had absolutely nothing to do with anyone else and everything to do with you I was falling in love with you that morning because of you I take the next item out this spel when I pull it out and look up she brings her hand to her mouth in shock this ugly Little Gnome with his smug little grin rude at least that gnome isn't a groomer like you he's the reason I had an excuse to invite you into my house into my life you took a lot of aggression out on him over those next few months I would watch from my window as you would kick him over every time you walked by him poor little guy you were so tenacious that Feist aggressive strong willed side of you the side of you that refused to take crap from this concrete gnome the side of you that refused to take crap from me I fell in love with that side of you because of you I set the gnome down on the stage and grabbed the CD this is your favorite CD Laken although I know you intended for to be possessive rather than descriptive stay in the obvious doesn't make something poetry the banjo started playing through this speakers of your car and I immediately recognized my favorite band then when I realized it was your favorite band too the fact these same lyrics inspired both of us I fell in love with that about you that had absolutely nothing to do with anyone else I fell in love with that about you because of you yeah better hope he never goes to a aot Brother's concert right otherwise he's going to be falling in love with everyone there wait you like this spend too oh my God me too oh my it's going to be a massive ory for will isn't it I take a slip of paper out of the satchel and hold it up when I look at her I see Eddie slide her a napkin I can't tell from up here but that can only mean she's crying at this maybe because it's so bad in my original notes Here I said she must be hormonal or she really hates bad poetry as much as I do at time of writing I'm currently both and I want to cry oh God I did not like this poem this is a receipt I kept only because the eye to my purchase that night was on the verge of ridiculous chocolate milk on the Rocks who orders that she didn't order that you ordered that for her she asked for chocolate milk you added the on the Rocks bit to be funny yeah I remember this better than you you were different and you didn't care you were being you a piece of me fell in love with you at that moment because of you this I hold up another sheet of paper this this I didn't really like so much it's the poem you wrote about me the one you titled mean I don't think I ever told you but you made a zero and then I kept it to remind myself of all the things I never want to be to you so for context here if you missed the first book while he was her teacher and grooming her they had this assignment in class to write a poem and she used her assignment to publicly call him a bunch of names what we're getting here is new information that he scored her a zero for this which just proves he was abusing his power once again in even more ways than we thought your grooming victim didn't do what you wanted so you punished her academically that's disgusting I pull her shirt from my back when I hold it into the light I see I sigh into the microphone this is that ugly shirt you wear it doesn't really have anything to do with why I fell in love with you I just saw it at your house and thought I'd steal it yeah that's just creepy right I pulled the second to last item out of my bag her purple hair clip she told me once how much it meant to her and why she always keeps it this purple hair clip it really is Magic just like your dad told you it was It's Magic because no matter how many times it lets you down you keep having hope in it you keep trusting it no matter how many times it fails you you never fail it just like you never fail me I love that about you because of you I set it back down and pull out a strip of paper and unfold it your mother I sigh your mother was an amazing woman Lake I'm blessed that I got to know her and that she was a part of my life too I came to love her as my own mom just as she came to love cder and I as her own I didn't love her because of you Lake I loved her because of her so thank you for sharing her with us she had more advice about life and love and happiness and heartache than anyone I've ever known but the best advice she gave me the best advice she ever gave us I read the quote in my hands sometimes two people have to fall apart to realize how much they need to fall back together she's definitely crying now I place the slip back inside the satchel and take a step closer to the edge of the stage as I hold her gaze when is this poem going to end seriously the last item I have wouldn't fit because you're actually sitting in it that Booth you're sitting in the exact same spot you sat in when you watched your first performance on this stage the way you watch the stage with passion in your eyes I'll never forget that moment it's the moment I knew it was too late I was too far gone by then I was in love with you I was in love with you because of you and you'd no no all of 20 minutes at that point stop it I back up and sit down on the stool behind me still holding her stare I could go on all night Lake I could go on and on and on about all the reasons I'm in love with you and you know what some of them are things that life has thrown our way I do love you because you're the only person I know that understands my situation I do love you because both of us know what it's like to lose your mom and your dad I do love you because you're raising your little brother just like I am I love you because of what you went through with your mother I love you because of what we went through with your mother I love the way you love k I love the way you love CA I love the way I love Kel so I'm not about to apologize for loving all these things about you no matter the reason for this all the circumstances behind them and no I don't need days or weeks or months to think about why I love you it's an easy answer for me I love you because of you because of every single thing about you I hate it this is terrible this is not a poem just God and also I'm sorry but like how is this meant to win her trust back because none of this explains or excuses why you were sneaking around with your ex and lying about it you can't be all like oh my God I love you this much and because of these reasons and then still be cuddling your ex on your bed and kissing her like I feel like that's more of a red flag right I wrote in my original script if Le takes him back after this mess then I'll throw my iPad out of the train window actually this train doesn't have Windows that open but if it did I was writing this on the way to and from Blackpool this weekend and um yeah I was getting very very annoyed on the train I was not happy I take a step back from the microphone when I'm finished I keep my eyes locked on hers and I'm not sure because she's pretty far away but I think she Ms I love you the stage lights come back up and I'm blinded I can't see her anymore and everyone else in the room who was there to see poetry was like what the hell is this maybe keep your domestics private in future yeah just an idea before I take another step she rushes to me and throws her arms around my neck almost knocking me backwards I'm sorry will I'm so so sorry she kisses me on the cheek the neck the lips the nose the chin she keeps saying she's sorry over and over between each kiss yeah remind me again uh what the hell does she have to be sorry for he groomed her he abused her he got violent with her repeatedly he lied to her he betrayed her he cheated on her he's smooching with another woman on his bed what does she have to be sorry for I don't see it anymore the heartache she's not heartbroken anymore come on anyone who has ever been cheated on knows that trust is not this easy to regain betrayal is not this easy to get over you don't just say oh but I love you and then everything is fixed also we still have 100 pages to go in this book how I it's actually quite funny again in my script that I was writing on the train I said knowing Colleen Hoover it's probably say she has time to kill someone off we haven't had a death yet this book which is really unusual for her we've got through 200 pages so far and honestly nothing's really happened and yet we've had the big heartfelt resolution already so uh I don't know someone's going to die I was close she she very nearly kills someone so I was not 100% right but I was close my guess was half decent my heart is pounding against my chest because I realize I've never been so sure about the rest of my life than I am in this moment this girl is the rest of my life thank you she says when she pulls away for what you did up there tonight and for trapping me in the boo so I couldn't leave you know me too well yeah can we stop thanking men for trapping us in places and emotionally manipulating us please maybe that's something we could work on yeah not not doing that he's even like haa you were really hard to manipulate as if that's a cute thing Eddie has more nausea and starts vomiting because pregnancy and then they all go home so they're driving in two cars will and basically all the men and boys are in one car and then Laken and all the women and girls are in the other car for reasons um and then they're driving along and a car crash yay will Gavin yells my first instinct is to slam on the brakes but I'm not sure why I'm slamming on the brakes I glance at Gavin and his eyes are glued to the oncoming traffic in the lanes to the left of us I turn my head and see it just as a truck crosses the median and hits the car in front of it lak's car I was like I literally just wrote that comment about calling killing someone off and then this come on on to part two of the book and this starts with chapter 12 Kell and CER are absolutely fine um I'm not sure what just happened we must have been hit or we ran off the road the back windshield is busted and there's glass all of the car the boys don't look Cut anywhere I look at Gavin and he's swinging his door open he tries to jump out the car but he's stuck in his seat belt he's frantic trying to unlatch my eyes follow the broken glass to the median on the right of the highway I see it her car I break out into a run and reach until I reach the car Gavin's on the passenger side he's pulling Eddie out of the car so I run around to help him her eyes are closed but she winces when I pull on her arm she's okay I glanc inside the car but Lake's not there her driver's side door is wide open a sense of relief wases over me when I realize she must be okay if she's able to walk away my eyes dark to the back seat and I see a and I see Kyon as soon as Eddie's lying on the ground I climb into the backseat and Shake Ken Ken I say she doesn't respond she's got blood on her but I'm not sure where it's coming from and at this point I was like okay Colleen's either going to kill the kid or Eddie's baby right must be right sadly neither she doesn't actually kill anyone which is a bit of a shame I I often joke about coling Hoover needing to kill someone or have some death in her books or whatever and it being like two off the top but actually I think this book would have benefited from it I really do ideally I'd want will killed off but sadly that doesn't happen um so Gavin tries to help the kid Kiron but then Wills like where's Lake she's still missing turns out she's wandered out of the car she's gone into some field and she's just lying in the snow and wills are like oh my God where is she and he starts looking around for her when I finally reach her she's just lying there in the snow with her eyes closed there's blood on her head so much blood I tear off my jacket and throw it in the snow and remove my shirt I began wiping the blood off her face with it trying desperately to find her injuries Lake no no no l no I touched her face with my hand trying to gain some sort of reaction out of her it's cold she's so cold as soon as I put my hands under her shoulders to pull her into my lap someone pulls me back paramedics swarm her as I'm being pulled away from her I can't see her anymore I can't see her again I said honestly if Colleen calls leak I actually won't complain um but sadly no she doesn't kill off Leak Bad Times uh will has panic attack leak is taken away in an ambulance chapter 133 we are nearly done I promise we're getting through this now we got this everyone's been taken to the hospital in ambulances and I was like because this is America they're going to be crippled by medical bills right they are going to have debt for like the rest of their lives because of this whole thing as soon as the ambulance doors open and they pull me out I jump off the gurnie sir get back here you need stitches I'm sorry but like I couldn't help laughing at this because does anyone else imagine will looking a bit like Paul of Paul and Morgan like with the aggressive violent Behavior and the manipulation and everything I just I get the impression like I imagine Paul when I read these books I really do and I will never Tire of watching that clip of Paul that he he posted he chose to post this of him playing pickle ball and he just looks like a big praying mantis now I can't speak I'm very lanky I have very long arms and legs for my body and I'm just a bit sticky as well but it just makes me laugh anyway this is what I imagine when Will's running through the hospital looking for leak this is exactly what I picture so they all run into the hospital trying to find what happened to the women and Kia and they're all at the nurses station and the nurse asks are you family Gavin looks at me then back at her yes he lies I'm sorry but how is this a lie you got leak's little brother um your leak's partner Eddie is Gavin's partner and literally carrying his baby kisten is the only one there that isn't family so you could say that but like other than that how is it a lie after an embarrassing amount of time will finally remembers to call kron's Mom and he also lies to the nurses saying that Laken is his wife and he fills in her name on the paperwork as lakan cooper cooper being his surname not hers now I was really bothered by this because like I don't really know how the healthc care system works in America but in the UK that could seriously mess up a lot of stuff putting down the wrong name cuz like each of us has a unique NHS number and and with that it's got basically like our entire medical history tied to that and if you don't have your NHS number you can get it with just your name and date of birth and you know stuff like that so you need to give the doctors the right name otherwise they're not going to have access to your medical history and they could do something that's really going to harm you and like especially if you're unconscious they need to know your medical history because you know otherwise it could mess you up what if you have an allergy what if you have to go and have scans and stuff but you've got like metal bits in your body CU you've had I don't know like a hip replacement or a false limb or something or you've got staples somewhere inside you um what if you're allergic to a certain anesthetic what if you have an intolerance for this or like any of that what if you're on prescription medication they need to know your medical history so giving the wrong name means they're not going to have access to that so it could kill her it just it feels irresponsible and stupid right this could literally get Le killed ridiculous anyway turns out the kid Kon is going to be fine she's just got a broken arm a little bit of a concussion um I said so I reckon they're definitely going to kill off Eddie's baby no they didn't the baby's fine too and then I I also wrote In The Script I'm quite scared that because of this pretend wife stuff this is going to cause will to propose to Laken if she survives she's 19 stop it if he proposes to her and they get married I will throw myself off this train never mind my iPad it took so much willpower to not throw myself off the train Colleen drags out this suspense of what's going to happen to Laken over like six pages and honestly I could not care less see what I did there Colleen I used the right version of it could not turns out that leak needs brain surgery oh God I was brutal here in my notes I put o maybe this will make her smarter and she'll realize she needs to leave her gromor maybe not I was I was brutal wasn't I Chapter 14 Will's grandparents turn up at the hospital apparently it's been hours and will still hasn't filled out the very important paperwork for lakan because and I quote I don't feel like doing paperwork right now okay I get that you're worried about her but her doctors are going to need to know her medical history they're going to need to know Basics about her like if she's on prescription medication her allergies they're going to need to know her blood type if they're doing brain surgery on her literally life saving surgery they are going to need to know her blood type and you haven't even bothered to give them that because you just can't be bothered to fill out the paperwork his laziness could be killing her ridiculous Will's finally told to actually do it and he's like I don't know any of this stuff I don't know this and it's crazy to me absolutely crazy you're all there you've been telling me for the last two books she's the most important part of my life she's my true love and you don't know basic things about her like her blood well I say blood type I don't even know my own blood type so I'll forgive that one but you don't know basic things about her like if she has insurance if she has any allergies if she's on any medication how do you not know this stuff me and Kira know all that stuff about each other and if we had an emergency we're there to sort each other out you know that's what you do in a partnership when I've been ill before he's happily gone and picked up my prescription medication for me when I ended up in hospital in December with the ovarian cysts and I told him everything that was happening and whatever he was my emergency contact there he swoops straight in to save the day and look after Chira for me while I was in the hospital overnight and everything and it's just that's what you do with your partners this just shows to me that will and leak's relationship is so immature which isn't such a bad thing for lak and she's 19 it doesn't have to be ser serious but it just proves to me that they're not ready for what they're about to do it bothers me so much it really does um to distract himself from everything will talks to Gavin about kicking Reese out of his house for sleeping with his ex and then he brags about punching him and says that the violence was beautiful yeah that's an actual quote and all that nonsense more pages of nothing pass it's quite boring Eddie and the baby are okay and turns out she's a whole 16 weeks pregnant and she's having a girl I don't care Leen is now out of surgery but not out of danger yet blah blah blah blah blah I feel like this would all be more emotional intense if we actually cared about any of these characters right just a thought chapter 15 literally nothing happens for even more pages Le is moved to a Ward and she's still unconscious so will thinks it's a good idea to literally crawl into bed with her and sleep with her for days not like sex sleep just sleep next to her like I'm sorry but this is ridiculous she's literally recovering from brain surgery she is in a coma she oh my God and I don't know if you've ever seen how small a hospital bed is but they're not big they are absolutely not RI big and she's probably stuffed to the brim with like she's got a breathing tube she's got um oh what are they called um nope the word is not coming to me when they put the needles in you so they can attach lines stuff and yeah she's got all of that stuff in her and he's there crawling on top of her and you know taking what little space she has just so he can sleep next to her I'm like let her recover give her some space you don't need to be all over her I don't get how the hospital allowed this but apparently the nurses in the hospital really like will so they let him break any rules he wants which is ridiculous and again this is a telling not showing situation because why do they like him he hasn't done anything to make make them like him all he's done is shout at them occasionally why do they like him other than good Wills just suspicious Everyone likes him he doesn't deserve any special treatment after more pages of absolutely nothing happening leak wakes up and says Will's name but it turns out she can't remember the accident there's literally a whole half a page of them just saying Hey to each other over and over I'm not even joking I feel like Colleen just wanted to get her word count up leak tells will I remember remember going to the slam she says I remember your poem but that's all that's all I remember she opens her eyes again and looks at me did I forgive you I laugh yes you forgave me and you love me a bunch I'm sorry but if she can't even remember like forgiving him why is she believing this you just going to trust him again after everything he did I wouldn't uh everyone comes to the hospital to visit Laken and we get this really gross scene from Eddie and Gavin like he's babying her and barely letting her walk and she's like I'm pregnant not injured stop it and he's like I'm sorry babe I just worry about you he leans forward and kisses her stomach both of you even with pregnant people can we not like kiss their stomachs in public please that's a bit weird right what do I know I just find all pregnancy scary will goes it's good to see he's accepted his new role as a dad I know they've got a lot of hurdles ahead of them but I have faith they'll make it because Colleen Hoover cannot accept that some people just don't want to be parents and then Eddie's like ooh you know what leak needs after brain surgery makeup I'll be back at 2 and she comes back to give leak a makeover in her hospital bed after she's just woken up from a comb I just I can't I can't deal with this will tries to get some rest but I can't get comfortable in the chair so I resort to lying in the floor again another typo really so many of these Sher turns up at the hospital and her and will have this bonding moment and she comes back to talking about the guy in the video again that she showed will earlier his name was Jim apparently he was killed a year later a year after he proposed in a car wreck so this is why she didn't marry him and she's married to the other guy because he died in a car acent like I I mentioned earlier it's not really important but it's kind of ridiculous we've now had in two books right in this series two books we've had three car accidents and three people dead from car accidents five people in total have died over two books Colleen Hoover just cannot resist killing people off can she anyway none of this is really important it's not really significant let's just move on chapter 16 and it opens with um I think it's meant to be a poem I've learned something about my heart it can break it can be ripped apart it can Harden and freeze it can stop completely it can shatter into a million pieces it can explode it can die the only thing that made it start beating again the moment you opened your eyes do I even need to comment on this nonsense anymore we all know it's terrible right and I think we can all see why uh the chapter oh God I hate oh forgot this was even in here this is awful right the chapter opens on this really awkward moment where the nurse tells will that leak needs a bath and either she the nurse can help her or will can help and he thinks Lake and I look at each other it's not like I've never seen her naked just not for prolonged periods of time and with the lights on I'm sorry but she's just had brain surgery and she just needs someone to help her with the basics like washing the blood from a serious accident off her body this is not a sexy moment can we please not make this all about your erection the nurse can sense the slight awkwardness between us I'm sorry I thought you guys were married it said on her chart that you were a husband see just another reason not to like people so he's like no no it's fine don't worry I'll help her I'll do it so he helps her into the bath and for some reason he's shocked that she's covered in bruises did you not just see what she went through but she's like thank you thank you for not trying to put the mov on me just now I smiled at her don't thank me yet we just got started I'm sorry again car accident brain surgery nearly dead stop thinking with your genitals and you don't need to thank him for not trying to sleep with you immediately after you needly died that should be common decency not something you have to thank him for I I and then then and I hate this bit so remember she's bruised she's battered she's got a giant gaping hole in her head that's just been sewn back up and she's filthy as well this is her first bath since the accident so she's covered in drug dried blood and mud and everything she's filthy she's trying to get it all off her and stuff and um will decides the best thing to do is to get into the bath with her the teeny tiny little Hospital bath he he doesn't give her any space he's like I'm getting him with you but he keeps his trousers on so he can help her wash weird it's such a weird scene I hate all of this no leak comes home nothing much happens whatever Kiren the kid decides that when she thought she was going to die all she could think about was eating meat so now she's not a vegetarian anymore which is a really odd and unnecessary thing to include in the book and I just get the sense that Colleen Hoover just doesn't respect vegetarians and that bothers me not even a vegetarian myself I just don't get why she has to be like this will Kell and ksten no CER Kell and Ken are all like you still come into our school for Dad day right will y and leak's like oh God I hate this fit I keep forgetting how bad these fits are Will's like I don't know if I should I need to stay here and look after leak but then lakan is like oh no it's fine I don't need babying you can go and he's like but you are my baby so it's a dad day thing and will goes into school sits with the kids and then he uses this as an excuse to literally threaten the 12-year-old child who's bullied in kiston don't get me wrong I know how bad bullying is I faced a hell of a lot of bullying when I was a teenager in particular I know how awful it can be and I would have loved someone to stand up for me however I don't think a 23-year-old man threatening a 12-year-old boy with violence and telling him that he has a bit of a temper is the right way to deal with anything you don't stop bullying by bullying children you you know like will literally says to this child this small child let me be frank with you that girl is very important to me very important when bad things happen to important people in my life I don't take it very well I guess you could say that I have a bit of a temper I scoop my chair closer to his and look him straight in the eye now while we're being frank with one another you should know I used to be a teacher you know why I'm not a teacher anymore Mark he isn't smiling anymore he shakes his head I don't teach anymore because one of my students decided to mess with one of my important people it didn't end well and once again we're seeing will boast about his violent jealous Outburst from the first book where he thought a guy was kissing Leen like another kid in his class one of his students he thought he was kissing Leen so he literally beat him up to like an inch within an inch of his life that's not something to brag about you can take that as a threat if you want mark But honestly I have no intentions of hurting you after all you're only 12 when it comes to kicking someone's ass I usually draw the line at 14year olds oh how Noble this guy better not go back to teaching because he should not be around children at all ever he then calls the kid a pathetic human being and the child in me kind of wants to chant takes but I'm more mature than will so I refuse to do that chapter 17 we got a couple of weeks time Jump again nothing much has happened um it's the kids talent show and will is like I didn't even know C I had any Talent that's his brother kiston then gets up to perform a poem which oh God I hate this so much this is like the culmination of all the stupid in jokes in this book so far like you know the whole thing about replacing swear words with the word butterfly yeah that's what this poem is it's meant to be about her like standing up to her bullies or whatever but we know in real life if she did this The Bullying would get worse that's what would happen in real life I don't like that that would happen but that is what would happen she would get ripped apart because kids are cruel butterfly what a beautiful word what a delicate creature delicate like the cruel words that flow right out of your mouths and the food that flies right out of your hands does it make you feel better does it make you feel good does picking on a girl make you more of a man well I'm standing up for myself like I should have done before I'm not putting up with your butterfly anymore Ken slides the sack off her wrist and opens it pulling out a handful of handmade butterflies she takes the microphone out of the stand and begins walking down the stairs as she continues to speak I'd like to extend to others what others have extended to me she walks up to Mrs Brill first and holds out a butterfly butterfly you Mrs Brill Mrs Brill Smiles at her and takes the butterfly out of her hand Lake laughs out loud and I have to nudge her to get her to be quiet Kon walks around the room passing out butterflies to several students including three from the lunchroom butterfly you mark butterfly you Brendan butterfly you Colby when she finishes passing out the butterfly she walks back on to the stage and places the microphone back in the stand I have one thing to say to you and I'm not referring to the bullies or the ones they pursue I'm referring to those of you that just stand by the ones who don't take up for those of us that cry those of you who just turn a blind eye after all it's not you is happening to you aren't the one being bullied you aren't the one being rude it isn't your hands that's throwing the food but it is your mouth not speaking up it is your feet not taking a stand it is your arm not lending a hand it is your heart not giving a damn so take up for yourself take up for your friends I challenge you to be someone who doesn't give in don't give in don't let them win can we please just stop pretending that simply stating your feelings out loud into a microphone is a poem weirdly will and everyone else cheers for Ken it's weird okay then CER gets up and performs a poem too again it's just Exposition with line breaks except we already know everything that happened in this poem they aren't good poems they aren't interesting they don't add anything the story this is just about cder being sad that his parents died and we already know that he's sad that his parents died because that was half of the first book I really don't care I'm not even going to read this one out loud because it's boring next up it is Will and laken's date night he recreates their first date by which I mean he makes some grilled cheese sandwiches which they eat in the car they play a weird game of would you rather and then he blindfolds her which is new and since it's will doing this I'm just going to call it what it is which is creepy as hell I wrote in my script we all know what's coming here right calling Hoover is going full Pretty Little Liars and making Le marry her groomer has to be right if that's not what's happening I will give up lemonade for a whole month and I love lemonade I'm not giving up lemonade I was right he drives around for a while before they just end up back at his house again and he says that it's just that some things don't need to be done on a stage some things need to be private this is one of them I'm going to argue that everything you two have done on a stage should have been private this is not the only one I sit down beside her on the couch and take a hand in mine looking her straight in the eyes Lake I have something to say I want you to hear me out without interruption okay I start to say what I need to say but something doesn't feel right I don't like how we're so formly seated it's not us I grab her leg and arm and pull her onto my lap she straddles me wrapping her legs around my back she hangs her hands loosely around my neck and looks into my eyes he then repeatedly berates her for interrupting him before he eventually just shouts at her damn it leak are you going to let me do this or not I take her hands and pull her up uh to a sitting position then I get off the couch and kneel down on the floor in front of her he then proposes to her with her mother's wedding ring which seems like an odd choice for a proposal right like wedding rings are normally just like a simple band engagement rings tend to be like fancier with and stuff so proposing with someone else's wedding ring seems like an odd choice but who cares I also thoroughly hate that the mom was planning for them to get married before they'd even known each other for a full year she's like oh God she died giving her wedding ring to will being like give this to leak one day when you propose to her and it's like love they've known each other like four months at this point when you've died like can you not be trying to marry off your daughter to someone she barely knows it and worse than that a teacher who groomed her you're trying to get your daughter your at this point 18-year-old daughter to marry her groom a teacher I just I hate these books The Proposal gets worse though because he oh god listen to this I shake my head and laugh that's just it Lake I'm not asking you to marry me before I can even get the rest of my sentence out a look of horror washes across her face I immediately put my finger to her lips and shush her before she interrupts me again I know how you like to be asked and not told but I'm not asking you to marry me I roll on top of her and lean in as close as I can while still looking into her eyes I lower my voice to a whisper I'm telling you to marry me Lake because I can't live without you she starts crying again and laughing she's laughing and crying and kissing me all at the same time we both are I was so wrong she says between kisses sometimes a girl loves to be told oh shut up I hate all of this I hate it and also remember at this point lak is barely 19 she has barely been out of school for like what five months and now she's marrying her English teacher I hate these books I hate them this is somehow worse than Pretty Little Liars TV series and other books next chapter and from the sounds of it will and Le are getting are planning to get married in like two weeks time that's healthy uh when Le got out the hospital her and will were like oh about sex I'm not allowed to have sex for a whole month so we'll plan to have sex exactly on March the 2nd because leak's virginity is still a big deal to us and now they've decided to use March 2nd the day they were going to have sex as their wedding date because God I don't even know anymore this is ridiculous right there's some nonsense about how they have so much money oh my God money is no problem everything is great money money money and then they offer lakan's house to Eddie and Gavin for six months for free no rent and they say that they're going to move into Will's house together I think the least believable part of these books is the financial stability of these teenagers with no jobs chapter 17 ends with a really weird line of do you know that do you know what this means Gavin says to Eddie Kirsten's about to be our parallel neighbor now for one I didn't really know what a parallel neighbor was but that's not the problem here the problem is Colleen Hoover got the name of her own character wrong Kirsten it's Kiren it's been Kiren for the whole book and now suddenly you're Kiren in I can't God sake chapter 18 opens with another poem it's all worth the aches all the tears the mistakes the heart of a man and woman in love it's worth all the pain in the world I spent the last two weeks giving her every opportunity to opt out of doing things this way Lake insists she doesn't want a traditional wedding but I don't want her to regret her decision someday most girls spend years planning out how they want their wedding to be but then lak's not most girls we know she told us like five times in the first book so it's the day of the wedding will is wearing a t-shirt and jeans Laken is wearing jeans and a quote that damn ugly shirt I love to hate if I could have handpicked myself what she would wear on our wedding day it would be exactly this ooh quirky just as they're about to get married leak is literally counting down the hours until they have sex she doesn't really even care about the wedding ceremony she's just waiting to have sex with him and I just wrote in my notes in or after letters what in the Purity culture nonsense is this this is fun enough exactly how I imagine Paul if Paul and Morgan was on his wedding day before Morgan ran off to puke it's so weird they literally can't stop kissing each other throughout the entire ceremony and then they go to a hotel room and they're like this is it we're having sex and then fate to Black the book ends that's it I know I this one doesn't even have an epilog thankfully but it does sadly have a sequel why why is any of this necessary this sequel wasn't necessary the original book wasn't necessary God's sake okay final thoughts a conclusion for a woman who these days writes pure smut I am shocked that Colleen ho pushed this whole seemingly Purity culture narrative in this book so hard there's a lot of sex is better after marriage thing there's a lot of get married quickly so you can have sex thing going on um it's very odd very odd I feel like after reading this book we can probably all agree that will and leak are a terrible couple right absolutely what do they have what do they really have going for them other than shared trauma and an attraction to each other they both annoy each other often they both argue a lot uh they don't know anything about each other in serious situations like in the hospital when one of them needed Med medical care she can't trust him he will emotionally cheat on her and break her boundaries with his ex at the first opportunity he is a physically violent man with anger issues he groomed her to get to this point they are barely managing to raise kids together and the kids they are raising um have clear psychological issues they give each other food poisoning for days because will can't even manage to cook basic food safely are we really supposed to be rooting for this relationship because I'm not at this point I'm Sor dreaded reading the next book the third book the final book in this series and I think I'm going to take a little bit of a break before I cover it because I need it um I don't really see how we even need another book in this series I don't see how there's any more that can be added or any more story that needs to be told so I feel like it was probably just a cash grab on Colleen's end um but like I right in my notes like I literally don't see where the plot can go from here other than maybe a baby pregnancy SL trying to get pregnant plot and I really don't want to read that um you know what though I I do think if there is going to be a third book what I would what I would like to see and what I would enjoy to read is Will goes back to teaching and he decides that now leak is getting too old for him he starts to groom another student but this time that student isn't falling for his crap and reports him um and lakan suddenly realizes everything that happened to her um was grooming and bad and she sees will for the creepy grooming Predator that he is and together her and the other student that he tried to groom go to the police and he spends the rest of his life in prison that's the third book in this series that I would like to read but sadly I don't think that's what we're getting so oh there we go okay that was point of retreat by Colleen Hoover um I would love to hear your thoughts down in the comments thankfully not as much grooming as the first book but still a hell of a lot of messed up stuff Colleen Hoover I think she really just needs a lot of doesn't she bless her I feel sorry for her I really really worry about her um but yeah that's me that's me dumb for today uh thank you so much for watching today if you are new here and you liked this video it would be great if you want to subscribe if you've been around a while maybe just please check you're still subscribed that would be great if you would like to see what is going on in the rest of my life then you can go follow me over on Instagram @ Rachel oats but with a zero instead of an O because my name was taken and I'm annoying like that and it's just one of those things and I think that's pretty much everything for now um okay cool um yeah and with that thank you so much for watching today I cannot wait to read your thoughts down 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