Her Story Pt. 1 | Cindy Murdock | Joni Table Talk | Joni Lamb

well what do you do when you find your world falling apart in all of your dreams shattered and can other people's mistakes derail god's plan for your life or will he continue to work everything out for your good what is the answer to that question well today's very special guest is here to tell us more about that i want you to be sure and stay tuned to hear the whole story but first joining me around the table is dorothy newton one of our own yeah ladies of the table excited sharing her story so excited she has such a beautiful testament of god's greatness and i'm glad she's here today to share it you know we were saying this before we started rolling tape uh you you you said i didn't know all of this happened you know and and i told you i was like we never know somebody's story you never know what's rolled up in there never know you never know but i'm i'm glad she's going to share because she's going to give so many people hope and that's what we need especially right now so that's right anna kendall how are you oh i'm excited about today too and you know this story just shows that in in one sense you think okay well she didn't have a happy ending but she does she has such a happy ending yeah and to me it shows that divorce does not destroy destiny right oh i love that right yes yeah so i think we'll see that today you know that's the thing it's it's not always the ending that we thought exactly right but it's but it's god's ending is is god faithful yes when others make choices that affect us yes yes forever absolutely faithful kendra kelly dean how are you i'm great you're sitting right here usually this other person says she normally she's here so the pressure is on but i tell you i love i love this person so much and um i love the way anna just said it and you know god always has a plan b he's always got something else and your purpose is not gone just because what you thought was supposed to happen didn't happen exactly but whenever you meet our guest there is a a light that comes deep within her and it's so genuine and it's so real and that doesn't come without really knowing being tested and tried and learning to trust the lord and work on forgiveness that's right that's so true and who are we talking about ladies and gentlemen well my best friend in all the world cindy murdock welcome to the time [Music] you know we had someone to write in in fact i've had several people to write in and say joanie you know we've heard you and the others and cindy allude to her testimony but we've never heard the whole testimony would you mind interviewing cindy for table talking i thought good idea so that's what we're doing today well on the surface it seemed like a fairy tale ending cindy met a charming young pastor fell in love and tied the knot she would enter full-time ministry and start building a family with him but as it seemed as though all her dreams were coming true her world would take an unexpected turn before we get to that specific part of the story cindy just start at the beginning growing up your mom and dad who i i hear about all the time i know they were wonderful a christian home absolutely wonderful parents you know um my mom and dad were about half-heartedly living for god when they were young i had a little boy when he was 18 months old he passed and you know back then they weren't aware of a lot of heart issues and i was thinking about my little nolan thomas had been about that age and um that's your grandson my grandson yes so they lost him and it devastated them and but it pulled them back to god and they become so dedicated to church so i was raised in a baptist home and i'm telling you we were there every time something was going on in church sunday morning sunday night wednesday revivals and vacation bible school yeah you know we didn't relate to today absolutely school and church all the time i love my life my dad was a very successful businessman mom went to college while we were little we got her master's degree in education wow and so she was teaching and in the schools that we were going to you know being young so it was really fun and i loved school loved my childhood loved church and family my favorite subjects in school were biology the study of the human body i loved it and core the choir you know music so i those were my two favorite and so i actually wanted to go into the medical field because i was so um engrossed into how the body works yeah and that made me realize how awesome god is all right so you went to a concert was this the gospel well actually what happened was uh my cousin they belong to a pentecostal church okay i'm baptist but she's stay staying with me so she invites me to go to this camp meeting camp meeting here and they actually had sawdust floors oh my god i had never seen anything like that and it's out in the woods you know so i went with her and um you know i had i gave my heart to the lord when i was eight years old i remember walking down the aisle and committing my life to jesus but in this camp meeting now years have passed i'm 14 years old and um they're singing i mean they are singing yeah you know they are saying it and the apostles sing yes and i was enjoying the music and worshiping and the next thing i knew i had an encounter with holy spirit like i had i didn't know anything about the holy spirit yeah and i began to sing in a heavenly language in a prayer language i had never done that in my life and it just flowed and it flowed and it flowed out of me it seemed like forever and that night my life never was the same again yeah never when i went back to school i was a total different girl yeah so you were um what we call baptizing the holy spirit that's right and so dramatically what did your mom and dad say well they liked what they saw but they said you know what we do not understand what's happened to her but we love what's happened to her and what's happened to our daughter and so needless to say they later joined a church that believed in the baptism of the holy spirit and they experienced that themselves and i do want to give a disclaimer because we know there's a lot of baptists that are filled with holy spirit that's right and that love god but i mean some of those very old mainline traditional sometimes we're not open to exactly the spirit if you will yes okay so um is that when you met your husband i did actually okay so tell me about that he was uh the the young pastor there for the youth yeah in the meeting and they had a band and played music you know and that's where i met him okay i um i stood off because i didn't know any of the people there or anything but um i didn't meet him during that meeting and uh we began to write back and forth because he lived far that's what you did back then kendrick you would write to that today we we wrote and because he was traveling i guess wasn't he yeah they were traveling and um a lot and i was still in school and so um for a couple years we just wrote pen pal and um then it looked like this was going to be um he asked me to marry him actually and um i was very young so you all dated for a couple of years and then he proposed he did and um we we married and became youth pastors at a church and in another state so are you happy at this point are you thinking this is great you know i was and and i did like probably a lot of young girls did to their mom and dad mom and dad loved what had happened in my life i my passion for god for the word at school i wanted everybody to know jesus like i did i want everybody filled with the holy spirit so i was just a fireball for god and they loved that yeah and so i you know i i felt like i was in love at least as much as a young girl could understand being in love and um i said to mom and dad they struggled with it and i said you know what i really believe jesus is coming soon yeah and i really want to marry him you know and i just convinced them of that and you wanted to be in ministry i did because i loved the thought of doing that full-time yeah i loved that idea of that and so that's that was my heart and i felt like this was the door for my life mom and dad were thrilled that i would want to go into ministry of course and so that's that's where i headed did you always have the gift of singing or was that part of the holy spirit's revelation you know i did i sang in church when i was young in school i was always active in chorus choir any kind of special things that happen in school to sing and actually when i um was filled with the holy spirit there were some young girls that asked me to come sing with them and be a part of their little group okay so we did little concerts there in town you know little gospel things so then you guys built a tv station i mean things started happening fast you know they did we um that we had became youth pastors at a church there in the state and so this is all new to me because i'm raised in a businessman's home and so i started working really hard in the sunday school and with the the young kids or christmas programs and so the church began to grow and grow and then my husband at the time was so passionate that the ministry could go outside the walls and those were the early beginnings of christian television and then his mentor that was the lead pastor at the church you guys were at that it became his vision too for christian television absolutely and then that's along the time that i came yes to your life i wasn't married yet marcus had ministered preached a revival there and so he said i want you to meet this one girl i really think you and her could be friends so my sweetheart kicked you out so marcus did that yeah he did he did and because marcus had become like family yeah and so then when we were starting up the christian television station it was those early days and i can remember we had donuts for pto when they were coming through trying to raise money to have to do btl and um uh marcus would come and help we would have telethons you know shareathons to try to raise money and marcus we'd go all night long till four in the morning sometimes yeah um so we became very close to marcus so of course he would want joanie to when did things start to go wrong because i mean that's the thing uh people watching i know there are many of you watching right now that you know you had a plan for your life and maybe your marriage or your family and things have have gone awry and you just feel so desperate and so alone and that's why i want cindy to share her story because it's going to give you hope today you're going to be infused with hope today so when did you notice there's something not right probably um it was late into the after i'd had the first our first child our first son see how i've been married probably what by the way seven about seven years seven years yeah and y'all were busy i mean you were pastoring you were doing the television you guys had a school university y'all were your lives were very it was very very full and um we did television every night monday through friday every night live yeah so all that we had going during the day and we took the babies i'd take the baby there and um so life was very full and so um different ones would help you know try to help make life a little bit easier and into the uh let's see third he he maybe was about three years old and i just i i realize if you think about i i had this dream this fairy tale dream of the cinderella life because it seemed like i did i had everything you could think you could want in life brandon and call that camelot yes we're gonna find out it doesn't exist and then it just got to where um i i knew there were issues because it just seemed like we never could be alone and and not communicating you know if i could say anything to people that in marriage talk about things communicate yes communicate even if it's uncomfortable because i could never figure out why we just could never have time alone together as a husband and wife while we couldn't be together and then i would see him just stay at the office to the late hours stay at the office and then go straight to television so it it was difficult and then go home and go straight to bed yeah yeah then start all over yeah sometimes and then we had a house full of people all the time it seemed like you know when he was there yeah and so i think once i began to realize there was um a relationship there was somebody assisting him and helping him a lot but that relationship became um abnormal yeah and without going into a lot of detail just was abnormal you p and then people would come to the church and think she was his wife okay and i'm his wife standing there yes um and so that connection and that soul tie and that togetherness and needing to be together so much i knew there was an issue and you could see it i saw it yeah and then by the time the second child was born it really became obvious because now i have two babies two young children and then my health got really bad um i just i was weak and i i was tired all the time and i literally would have to lay on the kitchen floor in front of the stove to cook the boys breakfast for them to go to school even without your health getting bad just keeping your schedule would make most people tired all the time so i mean what stress you were under so no wonder your help so you found out it was low blood sugar hypoglycemia yeah and so with the nutritionist helping me in about a year i i recovered good but with that my health being so bad then his uh need for someone else to be around to help more became more and more so um as the second son got a little bit older let's see two years old maybe or three um i i just knew it was not right and so um nobody could see it but me see and sometimes they make you feel like you're you're crazy like yeah that's what i wanted to know what happened when would you ever talk to him about it or confronted about it i did and um that's when i think i i kept making it worse because i kept confronting um us women when we're passionate about our home and our family and our lives and our marriage but um the confrontations led to horrible arguments but you felt so helpless you were just trying to get some kind of because nobody right and anybody that i went to felt like i was crazy or that i was a jealous wife exactly jealous yes and that this was normal this is what ministry jobs are this is just the way things are but i know so even though you saw something and you're crying out even to people in leadership at the church there's something not right here they were all like this is just you sending you and that had to make you feel horrible well i did i felt because i knew i was i knew that i knew that i knew but i felt helpless so those isolated i would imagine so how did it come out i did um well as as time went by um she uh had gone to some friends and and let them know that it they had been in a relationship so those people came to me and told me and so it um i think i had been through it so long and the times you know something i want to say to if people that are watching is that i felt very helpless and you know joni we've talked about the times on my face in the carpet crying out to god i mean sometimes screaming so loud i thought the neighbors would hear me because i i was desperate and i felt trapped and i felt alone the lord speak to me through hosea okay that i will be your isha yeah you know i will be your husband i'll be your provider i will be there for you stop expecting it out of him i will be that yeah and then that's when i felt the holy spirit said to me because the more i tried to fix it the more we fought yeah but you didn't break him so you couldn't fix him no and um and you can't overrule someone's choice oh yes that's right you can't overrule if someone's making bad choices and want right and and we know when people are deceived they don't know their decisions that's right that's right so he was living in deception and he didn't know how to be free because he was deceived yes enough that he he would stand his ground that i was wrong oh yes and um i felt like the holy spirit said to me zip it up cindy don't say another word and i will take care of this good you stop and that's what i would say to some people is you you feel like you're you feel trapped and you feel like you've got to fight and you've got to make it change and you've got to be something maybe you can't be for it to change and holy spirit can do a work yes and reveal and bring things out because nobody could see it but me and that's what happened after the lord spoke to you and said i'll be your ishai then god allowed it to come to the surface and some accountability for it but even after that you loved your husband you loved your children and you wanted to believe for total restoration absolutely and stood stood for total restoration believing god um and then um some time passed and um she had gone to the authorities and he was indicted so what had happened this this girl had actually been in the youth group yes and there was inappropriate behavior that took place and there's no statute of limitations for that right so even though she's much older when all this is happening in her 20s right when you and your husband decided to stay together and you move to another state then that's when all of this went down because when it did surface we we resigned and moved away and um we had just been there about a year and then we did get news that um she had gone to the authorities and he was indicted and it was considered non-consensual uh relationship that happened over a long period of time which made the indictments worse okay and so he there was a trial it was a week-long trial um well before we get to the trial that had to just you have already been through so much oh yes and all of a sudden it's like you are being pulled into this your kids are being pulled into this right and all of a sudden that becomes your world and the focus is this trial that's about to take place and then even before the trial didn't you lose your vocal cords something i did that that that was back in 94 five i was traveling and ministering with a worldwide ministry and um i got to where if we sang if when i was singing i couldn't finish the song the high notes the sandy patty songs you know i just couldn't finish them and it was devastating and uh they asked me to go to london and they said are you going to be able to sing and i said it was the hardest thing in the world to say i i'm not going to be able to go you've really been through and so i in the midst of all of this you had this other health issue yeah they had polyps well what happened was a blood vessel ruptured in one of my vocal cords and the pain was so excruciating i couldn't even talk without excruciating pain so a specialist in nashville told me said go on voice rest and if it will heal on its own it'll be strong but if it won't heal i'll have to do surgery and i can't promise you anything if you'll ever sing again and the hardest thing was to um not be able to do anything i ever did again i couldn't teach the women i didn't sing because you couldn't talk couldn't talk everything you did everything i had to write so i went and stayed with mom for a few weeks and um i took communion every day and wrote um on my tablet and um the lord showed me because i had with so much fear of losing who i thought i was you know the singer the teacher all of these things in ministry and watching everybody else feel my place and i just thought lord wow who am i what am i going to do and it felt like the lord showed me laying back in a lounge chair and he said you just lay back in my arms amen and it's all going to be okay praise god so about four five months later my vocal cord had completely healed on its own and when i began to sing i could sing higher ranges and lower ranges than i did before right but a lot of things happened and and during the um uh when we moved to the other state and all of this is happening and we don't know where our life is going what we're going to do we just found a safe place to be my youngest son is diagnosed with type 1 diabetes and we had to keep him awake so he wouldn't go into a coma until we could get him to uh the hospital for them to admit him so it just seemed like my world was spinning totally spinning well you know i think i i know cindy people listening to your story they're they're gonna say you know i've had those moments of hopelessness and i think one of the things you shared with me that really touched my heart in your story is that um i'm sure you could have never imagined that you would get to a place of hopelessness where you would even do something that would endanger your life tell us what happened that day wow well we were in the vehicle um leaving the church and we had been in discussion which got pretty intense over his relationship with this individual and he said something that hurt to the core of my being defending his relationship there and why and it hurt so bad and i felt hopeless like i could not take it anymore and we're driving down the road and i opened the i took the door handle opened up the door and was going to jump out of the vehicle and of course he grabbed me and started screaming at me but i felt that hopeless that i just wanted to end my life the pain began more became more than my desire to live and i didn't know how to make the pain go away and this was all right before god had that real strong conversation with you and said let me be your eshai yes let me be your husband i know your husband's not being a husband now let me be everything that you need i need you to lean back and relax and trust me yes and that's what you did absolutely and so and you know when i did that when i really leaned back in his arms there was a peace and a joy that i think at times bothered him he didn't know why i was so happy and joyful yeah but it's like when god becomes your esha there's a joy and a peace that you don't know how to you don't know how to explain it it's joy unspeakable full of glory absolutely and so life began to change for me and i really began to lean upon god i think it's important for you to tell that story because so many times you look at cindy you never think she would have a moment like that and so i just want to say to those of you watching it's okay if you had a moment of desperation the fact is you're still here and god protected you and god has continued purpose for you that's so important it is so important i could have you know if i had jumped out of the car and lost my life then everything that god had planned for me i would have lost out on right now and two baby boys that would not have had their mother so at that moment the pain was so great you couldn't think of the boys i couldn't and that's what happens to so many people in their moment of pain and that moment of of emotion they do something devastating that's so powerful you know just as god showed up for cindy he will show up for you he knows everything you're facing and guess what he's working it all for your good i know it's hard that romans 8 28 all things work together for the good of them that are i mean it's hard to think that could be true but i want to tell you it is true you just need to trust him through the situation that you're going through right now well if you're watching today and you need god to show you his hand in your life that's why we do this program every day that's why there's a toll-free number on the screen because we have prayer partners standing by ready to pray with you we want to encourage you we want to let you know you're not alone you can also go to daystar.com and click on prayer our prayer partners are again going to pray over all the prayer requests that come in today star so you can send in your prayer requests that way as well well i want to thank cindy for sharing her incredible story you can find out more about her ministry by visiting her online at cindymurdock.com and remember to join the conversation online leave us a comment on facebook instagram or twitter and tune in tomorrow because we're going to continue more of cindy's incredible story we'll see you next time bye bye for today

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Length: 26min 59sec (1619 seconds)

Published: Mon Aug 10 2020