Carlton Pearson - "Damaged, But Not Destroyed"

you let's speak what's in my soul ask all the hate to be swept away for love to my heart out on each page I'd ask for more and for me too give us the strength to make it through No right away tenderness I'd say give us the treats and make it through we haven't carry on we can do Oh amazing absolutely amazing thank you majesty I made a special request for that song today she does it quite well but the lyrics you may have seen that song on Oprah a young Filipino goo teenager sang it and they just went viral and I've loved it for many many years and I do have some notes to God and and I would imagine that we all do but that kind of capitulated the pure heart of a young woman who is REE evaluating what she thinks about life and about her position in the universe so great job design absolutely of course I didn't I didn't realize Riley was gonna be here today either so I wouldn't know they might have asked for the song to date since you're so awesome did y'all know that he's also a practicing attorney we think he's gonna turn out to be something before it's all I knew he played the guitar but I knew he played the keyboard along with him great voices you guys need to do an album together I mean they do it together next time the theme for the month is brokenness I'm I'm 62 years old this month I will become 62 year old and my father is 88 and we think he's probably looking at a transition not too distant from now we're gonna go see him right after this service I just returned yesterday from San Diego well really from Southern California which is my home state in his home state and all of his seven children and with my mother and I was there just a couple of months ago to eulogize and help eulogize and bury my godmother who was 90 who had a slight stroke in the morning it had made her transition by that evening and then a couple of weeks ago I was there again to help eulogize my dad's baby brother and only living sibling of the seven one of which the Elvis of which he is and so at this stage you're thinking about all the the breaks and the the dissections if you will the intersections of life the changes the charges the challenges and what does all that mean you start looking at life differently as you age I've had my own physical challenges that I'm a very healthy person have been most of my life and but I'm you know when you get 60 are reminded of that every once in a while to see my dad sort of wither away in front of us the three girls are there right now the abated girl was there just for nine days a couple of weeks ago magicals out there quite a bit Julianne wants to fly in from Tulsa from Chicago and we want to be with our dad we we feel a certain die disconnect already because he slowed down and he's always been robust I told you just a few weeks ago he was barking orders to me of how to fix a toilet which I'd never did fix ended up hiring somebody to do it but my dads have been a handyman he's good with his hands is good with his mind we couldn't afford that hiring you know people to repair stuff so daddy fix everything electricity plumbing you know we just in our community where we lived at that particular state in life we did things ourselves and he learn though he doesn't read well never has read been a great reader daddy remembers natural signs if he's going someplace how many of you could tell me how to get to your house by using natural nature not not signs of with with letters on it and lights and but trees and stumps and mountains that's the way my dad knows how to get anywhere hopefully to wherever we go when we leave here just by signs along the way but most of us are so electronic eyes and we have so many editions that we don't we have lost touch with common nature in anymore and I'm recouping and the brokenness it was with Rob Bell who wrote the book Love Wins I went to a seminar for his in California just this weekend we've never met before by the way he's coming here in July to the Brady theater can you believe rob bells coming to the buckle of the Bible Belt and we know how to use that buckle around here quite he's he's an expanded recovering fundamentalist who has expanded his consciousness to believe more any of a radical inclusive message and there he said he stood with the flip-flops on he surfs every day and it was mostly leaders there are just a couple hundred leaders and he wasn't sure it was me in the audience but somebody introduced us afterward but he recognized my so we talked and I want to be a part of what he does when he comes here I recently in conversation with Neale Donald Walsch who wrote the book conversations with God we're bringing him here in May to one of my live streams and I'm gonna start doing some things on the road he's a radical thinker way out the box his book ruined my life in ministry the book conversations with God because I read it about three chapters of it and then got it before I finished they got up on Sunday morning and mentioned it to my congregation and I was excited about the book and as many of our people rushed out to the book source to get it and when they got to the book stores they had to ask where it is and it was in the New Age session section of the book so I lost about 30 families that day and the rest of them slowly left it so so we're gonna do something called conversations about God with the author of the book conversations with God and pick his brain he is a radical inclusion as though he may not use that particular terminology but when I talk about brokenness I'm thinking about the in history I heard him say some again in Baltimore last spring about separation theology leads to separation psychology and separation sociology Association separation cosmology psychology pathology this idea of being separate from not separated but separate from everything else our first sense of brokenness where the heart head home comes from the idea that you don't connect or that you don't relate is it interesting that in the judeo-christian Bible when God is is cited as creating everything he or it says everything is good and God saw that it was good and God saw that it was good and God saw that it was good the only time God said or saw not good was that man should be or human conscious a sense of oneness or it's not good that man should be or humankind should be only or without connection for procreation to grow or expand itself there were animals that were at least by two but man he only had one man so then he made a woman at a man without a woman then created a man with a womb a woman is a female man and the man is a male man even if you don't know where the post office is we we we're all out here trying to find our space and really be reconnected to our essence because somehow we remember in our cells that we know everything in there connected with everything but in our mind we believe other than that so as you've heard me say the mine is in conflict with the knowing your soul knows you've got this thing clear your soul knows you're all right your soul has no fears and no questions and only remembers it where there would have been a question your soul actually knows how to fill in the blank your soul is the bridge between what is and what you think isn't but the mind what you've been taught and told suggests that the soul impersonated ignorance that you are other than or less than ignorance means to ignore gnosis is the Greek word for knowledge there's diagnosis and prognosis and ignorance ignorance you you're you're refusing to acknowledge something your soul already knows that's what causes arguments when somebody makes you feel less than you are you rise up you get assertive you get defensive because you're the wait a minute I am all that in a bag of chip how dare you suggest otherwise there are people in prison right now because they know they've got it together they know they're not poor but they were they believed that they were so they robbed a bank there are people in hospitals and insane asylums and people that are vexed and tormented substance abuse and tearing up their lives because inside they already know there is no disconnect but they believe they're broke or broken busted and disgusted and we keep those messages going around on every one of you in here including the one speaking rustle every day with the difference between what we have been taught or told and what my soul ourselves actually remember turn to someone I got this together I just forget it every once in a while as you've heard me say life for many people is a little less than a sexually transmitted disease your mom and AM were intimate even if they weren't married and you were born and now this disease which we say it's basically incurable and it's terminal because we are called the transition that we call death but it's not untreatable so we're treating the disease of having been sect of contracting the sexually transmitted disease inherited from our parents and the tension and stress of trying to be in these bodies and feel comfortable as ourselves is an ongoing challenge and for some of us a choice I choose to be comfortable I am comfortable or comforted intentionally I can't depend on you or expect you to make me comfortable I have to own my own comfort zone my own and create it and we all we all do if you want to affect substantial change in your life experience you must think thoughts that feel different as you think them okay I'm gonna say it again I'm actually quoting Abraham this is a little bit about maybe a little bit of a improvisation but if you want to affect substantial change in your life experience you must think thoughts that feel different as you think them because you're not what you believe you are what you think about what you believe the universe doesn't necessarily reward or judge you based on your feelings but on what you think about what you feel and what you think about what you think about what you think about what you feel and you think about what the hell did he just say yep excuse me for doing this too much I keep moving this and I move my tells me not to because it's not my ears aren't big enough think about paying joy depression loneliness anger happiness they're all feelings that demand personal psychological opinions and they expect you to have an opinion about them opinion comes from the Greek word for I ops options opinions ophthalmology of optometry your spirit Numa in Greek breath pneumonia pneumatics the breath your very essence has answers in our world is full of right answers to wrong questions I'm trying to hear the quest or questions or in course a request of my own soul those are the only questions worth answering talk to me somebody a lot of the stuff is a waste of time and at my age and stage I don't have that much time to weigh so I choose not to waste it I might spill it when you come up in sort of impoverished backgrounds and most people of a mind neighborhood and family people of color we didn't ever use the word spill we use the word waste white folks feel stuff black waster in other words what we're saying we didn't have if we spilled it we wasted it because that's milk we needed coffee we needed water we need it we it went a lot of excess I just learned that when I got to college without ofrenda but I was said well you spilled that but I would always say no I know that I wasted my drink it fell off the table I didn't just spill it I can't afford it no more ain't gonna get no more you going around here spilling stuff I'm going around here steel is deadly so your opinion is really your ability to see or hear or become aware of something through the senses sight hearing touching tasting smelling perceptions you've heard me say element reality they're not necessarily ultimate truth so we are now in therapy this morning on this beautiful spring break Sunday this is spring break did you I don't know why so many adults are absent cuz y'all ain't in school you think y'all just find a reason not to go but this is spring break and everybody needs a Spring Break we my man started Spring Break Friday she was supposed to be in Chicago today she's gonna go next one of the next ones whether they require from school but we're dealing with this this constant everyday sense that were the only one and that that may be the only sin that exists is the sin of embracing the illusion of alienation isolation and lack or separateness not separation just separateness that you are not connected you are sitting next to a verse or version of yourself turn to the person next to you and say you're a part of my universalism sit remember I define universe as one verse uno one verse version or versification of the whole we are all inextricably inseparably connected to one another and when you think you're broke you're just embracing an illusion you're not really broke you're just poor and even that's an illusion give somebody a high five and say now I really I got this I got it the actual term brokenness or broken means having that fractured or damaged or no longer in one place or one piece in ninety spirit no longer in working order you ever been there feeling somewhat are in some ways dysfunctional or less functional abnormally impaired who wrestles with the out of sorts out of sync out of syncopation out of step or off step missing it not in the flow not in your flow not current or in the current current means belonging to the present time I'm somewhere other than here you're missing you're wrestling with your path you're projecting in your future and you're missing the moment you're missing the now you miss a conversation that's important right now because you're already thinking of your response after it when you're in religion and I are trying to discuss something I'm not always listening to what if it's an argument I'm not listening to what she's saying I'm I'm calculating my comeback anybody in relationship knows that the secret to a happy marriage remains a secret because most of because most of us won't listen if if I make my wife feel disconnected to me or I assume that I am disconnected from her it's an incredibly lonely feeling and I protest it in varying ways she does too our daughter does our son does you do it with anybody you feel because with particularly with marriage there's a sense of entitlement I own your love I own your devotion I own your commitment who you mean you don't understand you're the only one on the planet spos'n understand me shut up you know god oh god you didn't get it we actually think we can train God I'm always trying to teach God how to appropriately respond to me and what my needs are talk to me somebody because you do the same thing in a sense prayer is that trying to Mabel a God to do something that God has in it doesn't have the sensitivity to do I'm not just all my worships like you God please help me God don't loan God why don't you if you're honest with yourself you are a manipulator more than a manager both have to do with the Latin word for hand manage or manipulate if you could take your manipulative skills and most of you have really honed manipulative skills and shift them over to managerial skills you you can't stop the pain but you can manage it you can't change the unchangeable but you can manage it you want to be contemporary that means belonging to or occurring in the present connected a part of related to relevance brokenness is a feeling out of is feeling out of cadence into decadence decadence decay death disillusion dying feeling less than or unban who doesn't struggle with that I see more of my dad in me and notice the other day that my neck is looking like sixty two-year-old neck whatever that means I'm running I'm running in my college maid's that were that were that were of my class around that class most of them are now grandparents some are great grandparents and I told my dad the other day son I'm just getting old that's what as a daddy you getting oh you old I'm getting old I'm you know that's not all bad but I'm you know I'm I'm shifting around it but I see more of my dad in my face and the more of him that leads the more of him stays with me I start becoming to look my hands I was holding his hands the other day his Native American red is coming through his hands I want to hold his hands and kiss him and hold him close and push my face against his and my mom and you know they're not gonna be here always so I can't wait to touch them I can't wait to tell them I can't wait to tune into them again though they both are just kind of becoming less a little bit more confused here in there and they're not always present and they're talking about the past and and and you know you got to pull them back into him or sometimes you have to go my dad used to say son when I was a boy I'm thinking dad don't take me that far back but you know that's a law that's gonna be a long copy of son when I was a boy I don't mind going back there but daddy takes forever to come back to the 21st century he'll stay back there a long long time in fact the last time I was talking to him he was still back there so and what is it about I said don't we don't want to go back and yet we have some precious and pressured precious and pressured memories of yesterday it's like every time I get a phone call somebody else has made a transition there's a there's a preacher friend of mine that only calls when somebody dies so when I say his name I say who died I'm starting out to like him you know he's a great guy but he's the bearer of bad news that's not it really shouldn't be bad news not a sign my selfishness I don't want to lose my father he said to me the other day sit man I'm just he's I don't even sometimes I don't feel like I have a reason even wake up let alone get up and that hurt my feelings and of course he's speaking out of his heard dad and then you you tell him how wonderful he is and how you can't wait to see him and you're glad that he's alive and he said I can't have see I can see I I don't want to be here like I got that like I understand 88 years is a long time if he goes he did well but I said to him the other day while trying to convince him to eat because he doesn't eat he won't drink you know and he's just in those one of those things I said daddy look we have to live and we have to die but we have to live until we die and you're not dead drink this stuff what is it we give a monk boost you would give him boost and we take him Fried Chicken somehow he'll always magicals gets in these little wings and he eats the edge of the wing now he's a preacher he may not eat anything yummy to eat that chicken if you even if you got a juice to chicken he don't eat the chicken but that's my dad and you all have some of you have already lost your parents or what they've already transitioned and you're saying I wish I had a head of 88 years or 68 years or some of you lost them when you were young we're wrestling and there is a disconnect when we bury my father I will bury part of me but a part of him will stay with me same with my mother they go in it in in their essence they're still here because I cannot meet there's not a spot where God is not and all of us are divine turn to the person next to you say you're awfully divine you're wonderfully divine remember what you want wants you the loneliness is that you want to experience yourself at your highest level of expression the core out of my book God is not a Christian what you want wants you because what you want actually is you sure I'm gonna cry I'm being my sister was telling me yesterday since I go in there I hang with daddy you know we talk ho he's responsive that I leave I go to my own room and I cry and I threw one of them broke out in hives when I'm broke out in shingles this family my dad my mom and the six siblings that are alive this first child lived only 14 hours we've had each other for 65 years we don't know how to let one go we don't know how to adjust to that kind of emotional amputation and it breaks your heart you feel that part of you is gone so but really as you've heard me say before it it's it's really when you say you love your daddy you're saying you love the part of your experience yourself that you experience when you're with your dad or your mom or your son or daughter or sibling your spouse your partner you feel that connect and when their absence you feel violated there's some ones I found myself almost said dad you don't have the right to just die what are you talking about I'll tell you when you can die you know mama don't go mama don't go even if a little bit of their mine is going mom mom you just told me that five minutes ago don't do this to me don't you dare experience don't you forget mob daddy hey Dad how you doing dad shut the head let's take a let's take a ride he likes all a hamburger in a vanilla shake took him to of the urgent care the other day so you really want to go in now this is a good a hamburger that's all the medicine I need we turned around cuz all that we're gonna do is sticking with stuff and take the same blood pressure and you know I don't care what daddy eats now my grandfather my mother's father made his transition at 84 and he came up to me one time I'll never forget he said okay here Carl go down here's some mother go down the road and get me some soup candy I said scuse me what I said go down the road there just get me a bag of sup candy I said what is suck candy candy that you can suck him in hard candies and I said grandpa you don't need all that sugar you don't need to be eating all that stuff and eating all that sugar he said I need it I'm just sucking and we were trying to dance around so no you don't need this you don't need that he's 84 give him what he wants he's not gonna be that many he actually he didn't live it he didn't even live a year after that's it eat all the shock candy you want to eat that my dad might want a little glass of communion he'd never because of our tradition he wouldn't dare drink wine the last 50 years now he actually likes a glass of wine or two or three gonna get drunk if you want I don't even care daddy as long as you're not in any pain you've lived all these years just relax chill he's waiting for the second coming of the Lord and you know we talked through all this about those fantasies and that you are the second coming of Christ in consciousness I don't think he's gonna be riding a horse and all that stuff and he'd be the guy that wrote it was probably high he was John John John the Revelator was was was almost 100 when he wrote that book in case you don't know that the book of Revelation he was on the Isle of Patmos he was cold scared and alone and I know he was Eaton's a mushroom but some field day huh he was tripping his head on he he was trying to sleep and I know he's he must have made some kind of herbal concoction next thing you know Jesus was flying on a white horse or seven if he does come back he'd probably be on a jet or something you know if no spaceship wasn't gonna alien but notnot seven-headed or anyway strike that from the tape please I got I got a live I don't want to either killing me over jesus's horse again i quote from from my book God is not a Christian nor Jew Muslim the loneliest moment in your life is not when you lose friends family or things your loneliest or most lonely when you are away from unaware of or missing part of your self your own soul you are most lonely and depressed feeling a sense of brokenness when you have lost your essence or forgotten who you are because of this our spiritual amnesia we've become transient Souls all but spiritual vagabonds seeking our own self I forgotten self the one we somehow or somewhere mislaid or misplaced or in some cases replaced with an impostor Eckhart Tolle says in his book excuse me a new earth in the sing of who you're not the recognition of who you are emerges the only time you're lonely and filling a sense of disconnect or brokenness is when you have lost yourself your true authentic self that you should both own and honor stop impersonating or or playing the role of an imposter bu and bit intentionally turn to the person action say you have no idea how awesome I am what's the matter with you and while you edit say and neither do I I don't I don't really know how awesome I am can you compliment me and tell me how good I am now the sense of connectedness belongingness to part of the large or even smaller significance is is part of our social you know we're spiritual social sexual and sensual beings combining all three of those SS in in their appropriateness our sexuality our sensuality when I talk about the section on some of your humanists the part on the sixth day according to the the the scriptures the sixth day or a sextet on the sixth day human beings are born they bury you six feet under the ground it's the number representing flesh or human you're humanists not just gender reference or preference it is who you actually are biologically and physiologically remember that sex doesn't just happen between the legs it happens between the ears how you think and what you think first about you and the only time you feel disconnected again is when you lose who you are and that you are everything God made was good you know the word bathe another word for good would be complete don't think of perfection in the sense of being without flaw or birthmark or or something that you might not like about your physicality everything that creation created is complete in itself a tree but it's interconnected to the soul in which it is planted and the roots go down when you launch the animal planet which I like to watch it you see birds sitting on top of rhinoceroses and something crawling up in its ear and it's eating you know they're connecting with I mean they their big old beast and he lays down and some other animals come and eat all the lice off of it that's why God puts beasts in your life Oh bugs everything has its purpose right now your body is covered with invisible microscopic life there little there's little mites crawling around on your eyebrows your hair and they're not alone there's a little end of invisible life force and source having a baby or make it a baby on you right now it could be defecating urinating or procreating but it's on you right now and on it is another one and on that there's something on that that's what infinity is whether I finished you are connected to the breath that you're breathing and the last service that was in here there's skin particles still floating in here I've got to get through and go home I don't care how much they vacuumed in dust and clean people's skin 90% of the dust in your home is out it's human skin you're going gag me with a pitchfork preachers stop make another point you've made that one that means you cannot stop being part of me and I cannot by will only imagination stop being part of you and I don't want to stop being part of you that would be less of me I need you I so respect you I so identify with you your hopes your hurts your health your heart your head turn to the person next and say you are so awesome it's amazing almost finished major depressive orders listen to this boy you guys are really into each other I'd like to come to finish my little talk here what happened is you got so fascinated with the verse the next detail said hey you could talk forever that's good we were driving in California the other day I had lunch at the Ritz Laguna Beach Virginia I had our first week together as a married man and woman and it's right on the cliff and you can go there actually and have lunch without actually living there but I've been going there for 20 almost 30 years I just but you can go in there and just sit and watch the ocean and watch the beach it was beautiful was 80 he was almost 90 degrees in Laguna so I sat there with Tim and we were talking over some of the business plans that were making for an event that we're gonna have in California and I remember thinking of all the human beings on the beach and the ocean and the cliffs and just about a 45-minute drive from where I was I was born San Diego and who's still there five miles north of the Tijuana border did I live for seven years and I remembered Jeana and I being there we made trips out there since then and I remember that's the hotel I started writing the book the gospel of inclusion because somebody from Tulsa was tight as soon as I preached it and got kind of the disconnect with the church here I still drive down Memorial now they put another building there it's absolutely fabulous and then I went drive over the other night and they're clearing out more property in a sense that's still my property I almost stopped got off and told them hey who told you you could put that building out there I've been gone a few minutes but I'm back home it's like no you ain't you don't that ain't your property no more and nobody come there to hear you teach and I begin to rejoice over the fact that it's still existing and it the building plans we had which somebody brought to me the other day and our had forgotten oh that's the elaborate set we had for for this I think you didn't do didn't you they're in color and they're beautiful and it was hurtful to look at them but it was also heartful for me to look at them and I had plans and all of you were sitting here at the king tank I had plans this ain't turning out the way I thought it was I plan I expected this happen and that to happen you were emotionally tied to your plans not the plan just your plan and your appraisals and fantasies and imaginations and they're not all bad except most of us when we get to this age it's like this is not exactly the way I thought it was a bad eye one of things I notice is that I I personally had lights put on the front of the building there's six lights with a light in the top and light in the bottom I told my security I told my maintenance I'll tell everybody working hard on my staff I like those lights to shine every night both lights to be burned I don't like to drive by and see one of the lights not burning it irritates me I have an ego I have fried and I I believe in excellence fix those life they never got it right the whole time I have the jerk and I had experts come in and they would give me an excuse Walter's intellectual problem and we can't quite connect button and I said well I had that is in my dream now that I'm not there I have never driven by it that those lights aren't working perfectly that's a major turnoff to me for a meter so what I'd like one electrician today choose that I couldn't find now it's kind of little kind of stupid things that we do that cause unnecessary frustration talk to me somebody don't sweat the small things shake yourself right quick it ain't that bad interestingly major depressive orders affect approximately 114 point 8 million American adults and about 6.7 percent of the US population each under age 18 or under the median age for depression is 32 you know teenagers young people go through these these identity crisis in their homes most of you think you weren't your parents favorite well they thought I was a failure but really she liked so-and-so her he like so-and-so I was never their faith but I never they never liked me I wasn't the people think I'm was my parents favorite I was the fifth of seven children born to them and the fourth fourth of those who remained a right I was never special what specialness I got ironed I was never the choice I was just one of their kids I knew that that actually didn't bother me but I think it impulse to me and impelled me to be more assertive and more successful and more aggressive until I'm kind of like the eldest in that I'm the fourth but because nobody was excited about me coming in the first place you've heard me say when I was born nobody there's nobody rejoiced I was born right after Renee she was born in July 8th I came a year later in March but she was born a year to the day after my brother and my mother's first child she lost in 14 hours that my sister was born a year later my brother was born a year to the day my sister was born then I come busting through one nobody glad that was another cloth diaper just in that we didn't have pampers in every car so I was just another kid now because of that and this is why everything has happened in your life it helps create who you are becoming don't complain don't protest don't cut contests what you fight you ignite and incite and invite so stop fighting so much come on get those hands up like I said and clean injury I will not be depressed I don't have to be depressed I'm not going to be depressed and I refuse it there's clinical and chronic depression I'm not gonna get into all that but 94 96 percent of the universe is dark space not knowing it's either not known or unknowable 90% of your reality is a big old question mark you're operating in 4% of it and you're doing fairly well 90% 96% of what can be known it's not known and may never be known that's that's mind-boggling so you're incredible and you don't even know it 96 percent of your essence he don't have a clue love but you feel it and when anybody suggest your other than or less than that something rises up and you my cuss my I don't need to say my what some of y'all good you can cut with portrait you know you you you you might break out a burst out or cry out or act out so let me give you not an excuse but a reason everything about you of all your responses in life can be related either directly or indirectly to your greatness to your godness to your awesomeness you I'm talking to every single one in this room and watching by way of the internet you're amazing and look you know that I'm not telling you something you don't already know you just don't believe it you know you know you good you know you're God you know deep in your soul that everything is not only gonna be alright everything is alright you know that you just don't believe it I'm trying to affect how you think about what you know and start functioning and operating in what you know your i am-ness your are Menace or your own everybody's talking about meditations away we used to talk about prayer somebody would rather medicate the meditate but if you if you switch it you might have to take a little bit sometimes I gotta take a pill just to meditate man some of you meditate better with a glass of wine I understand that because when you when you take a little something sometimes it makes you forget something and so you go there some of the do you know I'm not justifying anything but some of the greatest songs that were ever written were written by people who are high you talk to some of these rock stars beetles and all they're all high I'm faster than praying and seeking God for a word this guy smoking a joint and writing a best-seller you just make you want to slap somebody it's like what but that's what he that's what it took for him to lose himself in the in the subterfuge and to get out to get out of the such refuse and just get into another reality get those hands up one more time and shift the energy around and you gotta come just play a little softly cuz we're gonna get out of here come on shift the energy around move yourself move something move your toes scratchy ears whatever you have to do and decide to to be in the moment create the momentum I wish you could sing something I wish you could just in relation to what just your voice is also so just say a few words and let's close the afternoon afternoon with something that will this is what I call the moisture that waters the seeds that have just been sown planted in your soul and the soil of yourself and it will grow some of them would have sprouted by the time you get home the seed is already germinated all I did was remind you of what you already know and they have forgotten incredibly human beings when I kissed my dad in a few minutes and kneel beside his bed and look at his skin Madge always oils is Ashley heels and see my mom was not into the fact that she's losing her dad or her husband she doesn't believe it we gonna pray and believe God said mom he's 88 years you think he's going to heaven he's going straight to God well why would you keep him here if you think he's going to God but that doesn't matter life happens and we're all in the circle of life make the circle please everybody the circles and the cycles close your eyes for a couple of seconds rally sing something for us please we sang earlier in the service asking each other to just say yes heard in the sermon that our soul already knows what's true we need our mind to say yes to it the Apostle Paul liked to say that Jesus was God's yes to all of our questions and all of the things that we refused to acknowledge to give a beautiful way to end our service today to say yes to what life and love has to bring our way just as long as I have breath I must answer yes to life though with pain I made my still with hope I meet each day if they ask what I did well tell them I said yes to life if you'd like to sing these next verses with me there number six in the hymnal just as long as vision I must answer yes to love disappoint and Riaan my dark always of that Rousseff's park if they are squad I did well tell I said - truth just as long as my heart beats I must answer yes to love disappointment pierce me through still I kept on for they ask what I did a best tell them I said it's too

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Id: Cqh3z_mHUtM

Length: 51min 21sec (3081 seconds)

Published: Thu Mar 19 2015