Angry with God After Narcissistic Abuse

good evening royal we've family I'm so glad that you're here tonight if this is your first time joining the Royal we I encourage you to hit the subscribe button hit the like hit the bell notification so that you don't miss any future royal week content I also encourage you to visit www.michigan.gov/mstep abuse now when I had it and I went to the pastor and said I can't deal with this anymore I am being crushed by an art by this abuse again I didn't know it's called narcissistic narcissism or anything like that I just said I'm crushed by these people there's nothing I can do my efforts are failing my love is failing nothing is working in the situation it's only getting worse here's what they told me they said look at what Jesus went through he was beaten cussed at yelled at they spit on his face and then they killed him at the moment I lost it the Royal we family I lost it at that moment that was the moment where I shook my fist at God that was the moment when I heard that that I realized that the story was a terrible story and I said that out loud I said I can't stand the story it is the worst story I've ever heard a person who is loving and giving and kind and generous and does nothing but give and love and helping heal people was bruised and beaten and kicked and spit on it's a terrible story I can't stand it then I said I I don't know if I want anything to do with this anymore and I said that I said God I didn't sign up for this I don't want anything to do with this and how many of you have have had similar stories where you've ripped your Bible up maybe you've said this whole thing is a lie you've ripped your Bible and you've thrown it alright enough with all the dramatic tense stuff that you and I go through in life let's talk about what this means what's taking place even though I rejected at that moment out of anger and frustration I rejected God at least I I thought I did but God didn't reject me and God hasn't rejected you as well here's what really took place what really took place was a rebirth it's a reborn it's being reborn again it's for the first time you're having an encounter a true encounter with a real living God no longer are you just doing things because a church or a program or a system is telling you to do it that this is what Christianity is now you're meeting God face to face you're saying I don't like this I don't like that and God is going to respond to you and say congratulations it's nice to finally meet you that is what's taking place God is finally meeting you at this low place where you have been abused by an abusive world now you're at this place where God is meeting you saying congratulations and I remember I say congratulations for what I was having a spiritual conversation here who is share with you so congratulations for what you finally get the reality of the world you've broken out of the Christianity the Christian ease the modern Western Church bubble you've broken out of it through being crushed and now you and I are gonna have a one-on-one relationship my mind's blown now is able to be intimate with God and so were you and I was intimate I entered into my own prayer life God what does this mean I gave and I gave and I I was taught that if I am fruitful and I give love to people then love will be given back I'll see fruit if I plant seeds I'll see things grow and God said no no that is what modern Christianity tells you but that's not what the Bible says God said welcome to the real world as as he says and as what's his name Morpheus says in the movie The Matrix welcome to the of the real this is where God was able to really get intimate with me and say welcome to the desert of the real the world you live in is not a good place it is not a place that is ready to receive love and nor will your love ever blossom on this earth how many of you are aware that even in the church they teach that the world has fallen it's broken right we all know that that's a big thing about the what teachers the Bible teach the world is broken but none go as far to tell you the complete truth about what this actually means and what it looks like let me give you a hint you can find a little bit of this in the testimony that Jesus had put in the Bible about his encounter with the devil where he was tempted there was three temptations that Jesus went through those are the first one if you're really the Son of God turned rocks into bread so you can eat right Jesus said I have the Word of God to live on I don't need your rocks go give the rock someone else right then the devil took Jesus up to the top of a of a church or temple to throw yourself off of this right and God will have his angels to protect you so you won't hurt yourself jesus said begone I'm not testing God but it's the third and final test that is the one you should really pay attention to this one gives you insight into what's going on in the world around you it says that the devil took Jesus to an exceedingly high place so high that he was able to see all the kingdoms of the world it says you and I don't know where this place exists but I believe it it's in the Word of God the devil says do you see every kingdom of this world to see all of it everything the devil says I will give it to you if you worship Me Wow what a statement how can the devil say I will give it to you because the devil has been given dominion over it most pastors will not go here with you they will not go as far they'll go as far saying the world is falling and broken but they will not go as far as saying that the world is under the Dominion of the devil yes we are in the desert of the devil we are in the devil's sandbox every time we step outside and breathe this air and we take a step on this ground this is the playground we were are in no amount of love is going to change or blossom that ever this is what it is this is why our days are numbered our years are short and we are given an age limit and we're all going one way and we're gonna get out of this sandbox because it's an experiment of what's been handed down to an evil entity that's what this is to sandbox for an evil entity here God says you want to be ruler you want to be like me rule this throws him down like lightning you and I are caught in this and we are living in this and we've been born in this and we're part of this the lie is that Christianity has taught that you and I and our efforts and our love can change that that's the lie and that's really what you're mad about that's what I was mad about the truth is is that no love is gonna change this place no acts of good Christian faith they're gonna change this and this is what God shared with me this is how God open my eyes to narcissistic abuse he said nowhere in the Bible do I say that go out and love people and you're gonna be protected and you're gonna see lots of fruitful things no no now this isn't posed to be doom and gloom because you will have moments okay and there's gonna be moments to rejoice there's gonna be great things happening for example the Royal we family is a great thing I rejoice over you all the time but this does not mean that I I'm not gonna experience the things that exist in the devil sandbox because you and I live in it there's no escaping that what are we supposed to do then now so understand now that you've had your awakening moment it's not God who has lied to you it's modern Christianity who has formatted this idea that there's all good in the world that you can have a piece of heaven here on earth no you can't you never will you won't see heaven this side of heaven you will see a lie you will see an upside down mere reflection and that's what makes you mad that's what makes you upset it's not God it's what's been taught about your faith all right a lot of churches out there need to wake up get more real really help people understand what they're up against stop telling people to pretend that everything's going to be okay that life's gonna be okay to stick with the Beus of people it's all gonna work out it's all gonna get better because it's not true and it's not what the scriptures say the Scriptures tell you to put on the full armor of God why Jesus said carry with you a sword why I know I'm waking some of you up what does it mean for your faith it means that God wants a one-on-one relationship with you I want you to dig deep into the Bible start digging for answers and let me tell you when you open up that book it's gonna unlock listen how many of you believe that the Word of God is a living breathing word it has a message for you directly now a lot of churches and a lot of a lot of groups and organizations they look down on that they call it heresy oh you got that out of the Bible well that's heresy that's heresy oh it's not that's the word that's the Living Word speaking to you directly and only you and God knows what what that word is gonna tell you right it's a living word and it's gonna speak to you it's spoken to me and out of that speaking to me the Royal we has been born so I want you to be encouraged royal we family that your faith is not broken you're not mad at God nor have you turned your back on God nor his God turned his back on you what you are turning your back on and what you really are rejecting is you're rejecting how it's been taught to you you're rejecting the system of of the broken church system that exists in the devil's playground that's really what you're rejecting and that's okay and God is okay with that too so long as you are digging deep and pressing into a personal one-on-one relationship so that you can be used and in a way in which by God not used hid abuse but used in a way by God to make a difference to have a calling to have a purpose in this life God does want to use you he does want to fulfill a purpose with you but the purpose of God has for you may look nothing like what the church says it should look like just for you to be aware all right I hope that some of you have have received something from this video and I look forward to being with you again right here on the Royal we

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Length: 12min 5sec (725 seconds)

Published: Thu Feb 06 2020