Allergic to Skin (my horrible life)

hey i'm christine and my classmates have always been scared of me it's not because i'm a bully but it's because of my skin disease my body parts are often swollen and covered in bruises that's why many kids called me the blue hunchback of notre dame the only person who defended me was paul he didn't mind how i looked and that's why he asked me to become his girlfriend of course i said yes but there was one problem his parents when they saw my skin all swollen and blue they thought i was a freak and asked what's wrong with you i said i have skin disease called chronic idiopathic hives and whenever someone or something touches me i'll have an allergic like reaction to it but don't worry it's not contagious his mom responded my son won't date a freak like you he deserves a pretty girl that won't embarrass him in public her words hit me like a slap in the face but paul came to my defense and screamed mom you're so fat why don't you care about your own problems first when we got into paul's room he said i don't care about my parents opinion i love you and that's all that matters and of course i left paul back but the next time his mom saw me she asked if you have kids will they look as monstrous as you then she put her finger on my forehead and pushed me back a few minutes later i was left with a small bruise that stayed for several days of course i was too scared to go back to paul's home instead we started seeing each other inside a forest next to our school there we had total privacy and could do whatever we wanted we often kissed so much that my lips turned blue and one time he pressed his hand against my breast with so much force that it turned into one big blue bruise for the next two weeks we were as happy as one could be until paul told me that his parents were sending him away to live with his aunt in a different state my heart broke into a million pieces i've been so sure we would stay together forever but that was just a teenage dream paul said you know i love you i always will but it's not worth it my parents make my life hell because i'm dating you and it's better if we just break up i responded it's okay and i hope you'll be happy in your new life i tried to not look sad because i didn't want to make it harder for him but after he said goodbye i sat down under a tree and cried late into the night i knew if it wasn't for my skin disease paul and i would have stayed a couple but life isn't always fair and after paul was gone the other kids in school started making fun of me again i was so happy when i finally graduated i wanted to start all over and that's why i moved to new york there i studied economics for three years and even dated a new guy but whenever my skin had a strong allergic reaction i could see the disgust in his face one night we slept next to each other and while i was sleeping he wrote his name into my skin with his fingernail it wasn't long before it was swollen so much that i woke up i wanted to scream when i looked into a mirror and saw what he'd done he thought it was funny but i didn't so i broke up with him and tried to focus more on college but studying was never easy some days my body was completely covered in hives bruises and swellings they were itching so much that all i could do was lie in bed and cry i barely graduated but still managed to get a job at an investment bank it paid 40 000 a year which wasn't much but barely enough for new york unfortunately my skin disease got so bad that i couldn't go to work anymore and got fired that was the darkest moment of my life my skin was hurting like hell and i'd lost my job i was about to give up on life so instead of finding a new job i moved into a homeless shelter all i did was lie in bed depressed and scratching my skin finally i wondered is there anything i want to do before i die the answer was yes i wanted to see paul one last time i wanted to see if he was happy so i tracked him down and found out that he was working for a consultancy firm in washington then i took a bus and went to surprise him of course i was nervous about meeting him again he'd done well in life but i'd failed at everything i was afraid of his judgment but i was also desperate to see him again so i waited in front of his office building when he came out and saw me he cried oh my god christine it's so nice to see you how are you doing i said i'm good i just wanted to catch up with an old friend he said sure and we went to a restaurant there he told me about his job and how he had to work 80 hours a week but when he asked me how i was doing i blushed and looked away he said come on i'm your friend you can tell me anything so i told him how i got fired and lived in a homeless shelter because of my skin condition i even told him i was depressed and rarely got out of bed he said i'm really sorry i'd let you live at my place but i have a girlfriend and she wouldn't like it my heart dropped but i played it cool and said no problem i'll just move back in with my parents when we said goodbye to each other i had tears in my eyes it was so nice to see paul again i still loved him as much as the day we broke up in another life we would have gotten married and lived happily ever after but that wasn't my destiny i ended up moving back into my mom's home her and dad had just gotten divorced and she was happy to have some company but just a few days later i got a message from paul that said hey christine when i saw you last week all my feelings for you came back i can't stop thinking about you i just broke up with my girlfriend and i'd love you to come back to washington you can move in here right now wow my head spun around it felt like a gift from god a little hope in a hopeless life i immediately drove back to washington and when i saw paul we gently fell into each other's arms kissing passionately for ages it felt like we were teenagers again making out in the forest while we hid from his parents life was good again i felt motivated and found another job but my chronic idiopathic hives flared up again and the pain kept me awake at night so i barely ever got any sleep when i got fired from my job again i felt so ashamed but paul said don't worry it's not your fault and i'm making enough money to take care of both of us well that was our life for the next two years i stayed at home doing nothing while paul worked long hours but then i got pregnant and everything changed at first paul was super happy and screamed we're going to be parents this is the best day ever but i wasn't sure i felt like paul deserves someone better than me even though he seemed happy i felt i was holding him back and the next day paul went on his knees in front of me and got out an engagement ring he said christine will you marry me i started crying and said i can't you deserve someone better than me i'm a mess he responded i don't care i love you and i don't want any other girl so in the end i agreed and said yes i want to marry you but then came the hard part we had to tell his parents about our engagement he called them up and said hey you remember the girl i was dating in high school his mom responded the freak with the skin problems paul said yeah i just wanted to tell you that we're engaged now his mom was quiet for a few seconds but then she started crying and screamed no no you deserve better than her wow she really hated me but paul still arranged a dinner for us and his parents maybe we could work things out his parents still didn't know i was pregnant we wanted to tell them over dinner but before we could say anything his mom said i have a surprise for you paul and then a really gorgeous girl sat down at our table paul's mom said this is georgina i want to ask her something georgina do you think my son paul is attractive georgina responded yes then his mom asked would you date my son and she said yes i would love to date him tears were running down my cheeks georgina was so beautiful i felt unworthy compared to her but paul got annoyed and asked georgina to leave then he turned to his mom and said you are absolutely disgusting instead of welcoming my fiance into our family you're hurting her how dare you she's pregnant you're going to be a grandmother that's when his mom turned to me and screamed what have you done to my boy your child will be a monster just like you but paul had enough he said don't worry you will never meet your grandchild and this is also the last time you will see me he stormed out and i followed him when we got home i told paul how sorry i was i said i'm causing so much trouble in your life this is your last chance to leave me if you want another girl just tell me i will understand but paul responded i love you and i will always love you then he gave me a soft kiss on my lips of course that's what every girl wants to hear but we soon learned that love isn't always enough because after i gave birth to our daughter olivia the problem started i was supposed to take care of her but due to my depression i couldn't get out of bed so when i heard olivia crying from another room i didn't go check for her paul didn't realize how terrible of a mother i was until one day he came home from work and found our baby screaming on the ground with marks all over her face she probably fell down the stairs and this was the first time i'd seen paul angry at me he screamed you are a terrible mother and of course he was right but i was so depressed i didn't even respond to him right now all i do is watch youtube and hope that my skin condition will get better someday the pain is unbearable and ruining my life

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Published: Tue Sep 29 2020