[music playing] I could see him
loading the rifle. Right then and there, I knew
this guy was out to do me harm. If that's an artery, if
I've hit an artery here, I've not got many minutes
left of consciousness. And when he came
back downstairs, he took my glasses off. And then the next
thing I knew, I was being strangled from behind. My, you know, gut
feeling was to be quiet. So I just laid there and
waited for him to shoot me in the head. [music playing] I met Kenneth Tye probably about
the third week I was there. And he came up to me in the chow
hall, was really nice to me. We just hit it off really good,
start hanging out together. And I started getting to where
he was about my best friend. [music playing] He says, I ordered this weapon. He said, it's a survival rifle. So he goes, but I want
to take it with us so we can do some target practicing. And I said, target practicing? I thought we were going
to a New Year's party. He goes, well, we are. But he said, I want to stop and,
you know, and sight this rifle. Got in the vehicle, started
driving through Fort Bragg. We come up to a red light. He says, I hate red lights. And he grabbed the
rifle and he loaded it, and he leaned out the car
and took a shot at it. He missed it, but,
you know, it was kind of like, what are you doing? He told me I needed to take a
shot of whiskey and calm down. So he pulled into a parking lot. We took a shot of
whiskey, and we drove off. It was a full moon that night. So we pulled off this gravel
road, went up to the-- to the dump and got out. I went and he said, would you
set up some cans over there so we could shoot at him? And I said, all right. I looked up-- I was
setting the cans up. He was aiming the rifle. And I was down on my
knees, putting the cans up, and I said, what are you doing?
What are you doing? And I jumped up and he
kind of giggled, you know, thought it was funny. And I said, I don't
think that's funny. And then I-- I got mad
and I said, you know what? I don't want to do this no more. Let's go. I started flashing the
lights and honking the horn. I jumped out of the car
and I yelled, Kenneth Tye! I am not into your games. I said, I'm not playing
games with you here. Just then I felt
something come through me, a chill like someone
was going to happen. There was something
moving around, and I start walking over
towards it and I said, Kenneth? Is that you? Next thing I know, the
muzzle flash went off and it hit me in the stomach. [music playing] I was heading up to the head
of [inaudible] Valley that comes down from the back of-- of Mount Cook, New
Zealand's tallest mountain, and flows out to the west coast. It's probably the best
mountain landscape that New Zealand's got to offer. 400 meter high sheer bluffs,
so very near vertical. Amazing country. [music playing] All the way, you're
taking extreme care, always being really
conscious of where you're putting your feet and whether-- whether you've got a
good solid hold or not. And I was just [inaudible]
around the next peak in the chain and ready
to descend back to-- back to the valley to-- to camp for the night. I stood on a loose slab of rock
which took off down the slope with me on it. Found myself sliding down
this grassy slope on my back and slowly coming
to the realization that that-- there
was a bluff coming and I wasn't going to stop. I was going to go over it. I thought, well, this is it. I'm going over that bluff. I'm not going to be alive
when I hit the bottom of that. [music playing] I hit the bottom and I'm
very surprised to still be alive and conscious. I try and hold-- lift myself up. One wrist gives in, collapses
on me, and realize, oh, that's-- that's not good. And then the same with the legs. I try and-- try and stand
and my left leg just-- the ankle buckles under me,
doesn't support my weight at all. Realize fairly quickly
that quite likely then both or either are broken. [music playing] Now I notice that there's
blood all over the rocks down below me. The rocks are turning red
and the creek is beginning to go red and misty as well. There must be a huge
amount of blood pouring out of me somewhere
and from an injury I haven't even found yet. So obviously I start-- start looking for-- to find
out where this injury is, and find on the back of my
left thigh a big long gash. I can't see it, but I
get my fingers into it and it goes up to
the second knuckle. And that's when I worry. That's when I think, well, if--
if that's an artery, if I've hit an artery here, I've
not got many minutes left of consciousness. [music playing] I was in eighth grade. And I just went to school
and didn't care for it much. Wasn't my thing, but
you have to do it. [laughs] I was very shy. Stacie was my older sister. She's two years older than me. She was my rock. She's who I leaned on. [music playing] Paul always wore black. Like, he just-- he
always wore black and he was scrungy
looking, and he was always playing with a knife. I knew I didn't like him. I had just come home from
school and Paul and Stacie were in the house. Stacie was downstairs
doing laundry. And I went to my bedroom. She told me she had to
go to work that day. And I said, OK. So apparently she left. Paul was pacing up
and down the hallway, and he kind of
stopped and looked in my room when I was
putting up my hair. And I asked him, well,
did Stacie go to work? And he said, yeah. So I'm like, OK. So why are you still here? Because I don't like you
and we never hang out. So I actually called
my mom and told her that one of Stacie's friends
is here and he's not leaving. And she told me to
tell him to leave. So I told him leave and
he didn't say anything. He just left. [music playing] I go to open the
door and it's locked. So I'm like, OK. I figured Stacie went to work. So I set my stuff down on the
table and get my keys out. And as soon as I put
the key in the door, Paul opens the door for me. And I was kind of
stunned, thinking, you know, why is the door locked
and why is he in my house? I asked him, where's Stacie? And he was like,
she's in her room. I go to walk in the house
and he walks behind me. I'm standing in front of my
door, looking into her room, and I don't see her there. And then I turn to go
in my room and my sister is laying on the floor
inside my bedroom. She's laying on her back
right there in my doorway, and I saw a pool of blood. [music playing] I fell down, and I got
up and I yelled, Tye! You shot me! And I could see him
running downhill already, and I could see him
loading the rifle. Right then and there, I-- I knew this guy was
out to do me harm. First thing that came to
my mind is get up and run, so I got up and run. Took off running down
the-- the gravel road. He shot at me again
and he missed. And the whole time I'm running. I'm yelling, Tye! Why are you doing this? Why are you doing this? What did I do to you? And he wouldn't answer me. And I got down to the
end of the gravel road and I hit the pavement. I tripped. He shot again. I heard the bullet
bounce off the pavement, and I kind of, like, did
a roll, got right up, and start running again. My military instincts kicked
in and said get in some cover. So that's what I was thinking. So I-- so I headed
for the tree line. I was checking myself as
I ran for an exit wound. I felt behind my
back, and I couldn't feel where the bullet went out. So I knew the bullet was still
in me, and I know that's worse, you know? if there's no exit
wound, it even makes it worse if
bullet's still in you. I was in so much pain. I wanted to scream
as loud as I could. So I got underneath
the tree and I hid. And then he come
running up to the tree, probably I'd say about
five, six seconds later. So I closed my eyes and held
the pain in and hold my breath. He walks around a tree
approximately three times. Stops right by my head, probably
within about two or three feet of my head. And I didn't open
my eyes, because I-- in my mind I pictured him
aiming a rifle at my head. [music playing] The advice you're
given comes to mind. You know, you stop the bleeding. You get pressure onto
it, compress the wound. And as long as it isn't
an artery, it'll stop. And so I grab-- grab some thermals, some
warm clothing out of my pack, and make them into a little wad
and press them onto the wound. Keep the pressure on. And sure enough, within 10
minutes the bleeding stopped. The dog was down
there-- down there at the bottom of the cliff.
I don't know how she got down. She obviously found her own way. She was keeping a
good distance from me. I think she was-- she was quite
frightened by the whole event. I think she-- she realized
something wasn't right. I carry a radio
locator beacon whenever I go into the back country. And at the press of a
button and via satellite, it alert-- it alerts
the authorities that you're in trouble. It lives in a survival kit
at the bottom of my pack. So I have to pull
everything out. I get down to the bottom. Find the survival kit OK,
but there's no locator beacon in there. I'm rooting through, looking
at all the other things in my pack, thinking
it's got to be here, and slowly, slowly,
come to the realization that there's no locator beacon. [music playing] There's very likely to
be a frost this night. There certainly have
been on the other nights so far on the walk. And I've got to
get myself so I-- so I can keep warm and survive. About 20 yards away
from where I'm lying is a wee little platform, a
grassy platform at the base-- at the base of a cliff. And I figure if I
get there, then-- and I can get a
tent up there, then I'm going to be in the
best possible position that I can be to survive. [music playing] My sleeping bag,
unfortunately, had slid-- had fallen out of my pack
into the creek at this stage. So I had to rescue
that from the creek and drag it off to
where I was going. I was shattered. I was absolutely exhausted. [music playing] I was using the dog just
as a hot water bottle, just curled up around her. So it's just me and the dog
and all my clothes curled up in the tent. I was very, very grateful
for that dog that night. [music playing] My big fear is if these
wounds become infected, I could potentially
lose the leg. I carry salt with me for food,
and that was the obvious thing to use to disinfect the wound. So soaking a rag in-- in water and dissolving as
much salt on it as I can and just pressing that
against the wound, keeping the wounds
clean that way. [music playing] I can hear a fixed wing aircraft
flying up and down the valley, taking hunters in and out. I've got a big orange sheet
of plastic spread out. Every time a plane comes-- comes over, I'm
waving and waving. But they're just so far away
and they're not going to see me. [music playing] I didn't know she
was dead for sure, but I just knew in my heart
that she wasn't with us anymore. I didn't know what to do. I didn't think I could move. I was just stunned. Every emotion ran through me. I lost my sister
and my best friend, and it just-- it overwhelmed me. I just started bawling. I didn't know what to do. The way Stacie was, she never
backed down from anybody. If you said anything
about her family or did anything wrong to her,
she stood up for herself. And I knew Stacie had fought
back and that's why she died. So I knew not to fight back
or he was going to kill me. [music playing] I kept telling him as we're
walking down the basement steps, please don't kill me. Just, you know, I'm
begging to him, crying. Don't kill me. So we get down to the
basement, which half of it is my parents' room and then the
other half is like my stepdad's workshop and where you do
laundry and everything. And he told me to go
in there and so I did. He didn't say one word
until we got down there and that was, get undressed. [music playing] My, you know, gut feeling was
to be quiet and hold the pain in and hope to god
he don't hear me. So I just laid there and
waited for him to shoot me in the head. Next thing I know
was he took off running back out of the woods. [music playing] The pain started getting
really unbearable and I started yelling
a little bit, you know. Oh, you know,
holding my stomach. And then I fell into a creek
that was maybe two, 2 and 1/2 feet maybe deep of water. And it actually felt good for
a split second cause of cooling me down because I was so hot. I knew I was getting a
fever already, and I was-- I was just thinking, [inaudible]
infection's already setting in. I threw my shirt off. I started running again, and I-- I could look back and I could
see Kenneth driving up and down the road, jumping
out of the car. And I'd stop and hide
while he would jump out, and he would run up into
the woods with the rifle and look around. He'd look around
for about a minute and walk out a little ways,
and if he didn't see me he turned around, went
back out to the car, and then he'd get
back in the car and drive slowly along the road. I basically was-- just couldn't
believe that this was happening to me. It was like a nightmare
and the worst nightmare you could ever
have in your life. I just felt like all
my energy was gone and I couldn't do it no more. Went down to my knees,
and I looked up in the sky and I seen the full moon. And I looked up and I
kind of, like, said, well, guess this is it. I got so much of
my life ahead of me and this is what I wanted
to do and this guy ended it all for me. [music playing] I always carry
plenty of spare food, but it never really occurred
to me to carry extra gas. It was always the assumption
there'd be wood around. I can make a fire. But up-- up in the high country
where I am, I can't do that. So I cook every second day,
cook enough for two days' worth of food. I'm living basically on rice. I've got rice, dehydrated
vegetables, a few packets soups. I've got muesli
bars as well, but I want to keep those in case-- in case I do have to
make a move anywhere. That'd be good--
good energy for-- for walking. I only took enough
food for the dog for the planned trip, which
I put him on half rations when-- when the accident
happened to try and stretch these out a week bit. [music playing] The pain's worse at night when
there's no distraction around, lying there, trying to drop
off to sleep with this-- this ache-- ache
certainly in my ankle, trying to find a
comfortable position to lie. I can't lie on my back
because of the lacerations to-- to my buttock and thigh. But lying on my front
twists my ankle over to one side or the other. So to get-- trying to get
a comfortable position isn't easy. But thankfully I've got this
little AM radio with-- with me, and I can pick up-- pick up the radio
stations at night. So there's at least a
voice to-- to listen to during-- during the darkness. [music playing] And every day you get those
forecasts for the next three days. And it's like, good
for three more. Good for three more. But finally, the news
came that they're saying was a strong
southwest front coming through on the Thursday
night, Friday morning. It was on the Thursday,
so six days after the-- after the fall that I
actually tried to stand up, just to see if I was going
to be able to do this. Grabbed a hold of a big boulder
that was next to where I was camped and lifted
myself onto my feet, and very nearly passed
out for my efforts. I just-- just didn't
have the energy. The valley mist had started
to rise up and form clouds around the peak, and there's
higher clouds up above as well and it's beginning to
look very threatening. And sure enough, by
Friday morning it's absolutely bucketing
it down with rain. This rain is feeding this little
creek that's right next to me. It's absolutely pounding
down the mountainside. You can hear rocks
being washed down, and it was quite a
frightening experience. [music playing] I'm thinking, well,
the search and rescue should be on the way. I should be hearing choppers
in the next day or two. But two more days pass
and we're up to day nine after the accident, and there's
still no sign of anyone looking for me. It began to occur to me that
something had gone wrong-- gone wrong with my
intentions that I'd left, and that rescue
hadn't been called for some reason or another. And that maybe I ought to start
thinking about getting myself out of here. [music playing] He told me to take my
clothes off, and I did. And then he told me to
lay down on the floor. And then he raped me. When he was raping me, there
was a knock at the door. And so he heard the knock. He got up and got dressed. Tied me up before
he went upstairs. He tied my hands behind
my back and my feet together in front of me,
and then he went upstairs. [music playing] I was just sitting
there, like, curled up on the floor with my arms
over me, shaking, crying. It took me a minute
to realize, like, who was knocking on the
door, and then I remembered I invited my friend over. And the relief was there
because he stopped, but then I was scared
for him, for my friend. Because I thought something
could happen to him, too. I got my hands free from
behind my back, and I tried-- I-- there was a back door that
you could actually go out of. And then-- then the
steps were hollow. And I didn't think I could
run because my feet were tied together, so I figured
I would at least try to hide under the steps. [music playing] I heard him coming back
down, so I scooted back into the position I was
in and put my hands back behind my back. And I kept-- just kept thinking,
what is he going to do now? And when he came
back downstairs, he took my glasses off. And then the next
thing I knew, I was being strangled from behind. [music playing] Everything was starting
to go dark on me, and that's why I
figured I was dying. So I start praying to the Lord. Please don't let me die out
here, like-- not like this. They'll never find me. Next thing I know,
I was up running. I got another burst of
strength to keep going. [music playing] And I kept myself at a
distance to where, you know, I could see the road so I
wouldn't get lost in the woods. And I kept looking back
and seeing him getting out, you know, and looking
around for me. And I was letting out
some moans and stuff because I had to try and let
some of the pain out, you know? And I figured I got to
get to the main road. I gotta make-- and it
seemed like it was eternity. Like I would never get to
the end of this tunnel. Finally, I-- I could
see the main road and I could see cars pulling up. But I was thinking, oh, good. Now I can get some help. [music playing] And I went running up
to the first car which had a family in it. And I started banging on the
window, yelling, help me! I've been shot! And that whole family got
scared, started screaming. They took off, went
through the red light. And I tried to run
over to the other cars. They all went through the
red light and took off. And I was standing in the
middle of the four way then, and I was looking down there. And I could see down on the
road where Kenneth was still down there, driving around. And I was thinking, oh my god. He's going to-- he's
still going to catch me. [music playing] There's still no sign
of anyone looking for me. Coincidentally at this time,
I'm onto my last half kilogram of rice. I can see a hut down in the
valley, the Horace Walker hut. Every day the sun's
shining off its roof. There will be extra food there. There'll be warmth. There'll be a fire. There might even be people. But in the state I'm in, it's
probably two days to get there. There was what we-- what we
call tiger country below, just thick scrub, probably two meters
high and just all intertwined. So you're fighting
your way through it. You're squirming
your way underneath. And going through
that with broken bones is going to be a mission,
but it's what I've got to do. There's no trees. There's nothing I can make a
walking stick of except my tent poles. So I tape those together. It just gives me that wee
bit of support I need to-- to hold off and then set
off down the mountain. I'd broken my left ankle
and broken the right hand side of it. So as long as I kept my
weight towards the left to the side of the of the
joint, it was still OK. There wasn't too much pain. But if I accidentally put
my weight the other way, it was-- it was.
It was agony. [music playing] The slope gets steeper
as you go down. So it was this curve
that I can't see over, and I don't really know
what I'm dropping towards. Well, on the way down, there's
a whole series of creeks flowing down through the scrub. So I stick to those
where possible. And they keep-- keep
falling off down, dropping off down waterfalls. And so then I have to climb
out, climb back into the scrub, and bash my way over
to the next one. [music playing] My leg from the knee down
is black and purple from-- from all the bruising from
the from the injury and from the bone moving around in
ways that it shouldn't. And the rest it's got
a dog's leg in it. Fingers kept-- kept
going numb and cold so I kept having to
extend and rearrange all the broken
section of my wrist to keep circulation going. After about four or five
hours of fighting my way through this stuff, I finally
get into [inaudible] forest where it's big and open
and clean underneath. And it's actually quite good
going for the last-- last 100, 200 meters. And this slope has got
steeper and steeper as-- as we've gone down,
and the last 20 meters are almost vertical. I'm literally climbing
down [inaudible] trees, trying to hook my broken
arm because I can't hold on with the hand,
obviously, over branches and lower myself down. [music playing] It's about 10 meters wide. It's probably over a meter deep. And it's just tumbling
over the boulders. There is a huge amount of force
on quite a steep riverbed. And there's no way I-- no way that I'm going to be
able to-- to get across that with a broken leg. [music playing] He used some kind of string. I don't know where
he got it from. He just pulled it as hard
as he could around my neck. I couldn't yell. I couldn't scream. He was cutting off my windpipe. I just-- I got my hands free
and I fell onto my stomach. And he put his knee on
my back, and I started trying to pull at the string or
whatever he was strangling me with, trying to get
air into my lungs. And eventually, I
just passed out. [music playing] I woke up on my back. I know my feet were
still tied together. I couldn't move them. I really couldn't feel my body. Knowing that Stacie
was gone, I just felt she was sitting right
there with me, holding my hand. I just-- I felt peace,
but at the same time I was scared that he
was still in the house. I kept thinking to myself,
he's still in here. He is still in here, and he's
going to see that I'm awake and come back and kill me. [music playing] I was thinking, why won't
these people stop and help me? I was about maybe a
mile, mile and a half at the most to my barracks. I said heck with it. I'm going to have to
run to my barracks. So I start running, and I
maybe ran maybe 100 feet. And then it was-- the pain was so bad
I was just screaming. And there was a car
coming, so I got out and tried to wave them down. The car floored it around me. He took off, too. I seen the next car coming and
it was a car with a head-- one headlight coming. And I kept looking back at
the other part of the road, seeing if Kenneth was
going to come driving up. And I kept looking back,
and this time I was walking. I could not run no more. I had no more strength to run. And I says, well, this guy
is going to have to stop. Because I'm going to
stand in the road. And if he goes around
me, I'm jumping right out in front of him. So I stood out and
in the road-- middle of the road, start
waving my arms, and he stopped and jumped out. And he had a gun. [music playing] I head off down river,
hopefully looking for an nice-- a nice still bit of
water that I can swim. Find, as it turns out, a
really good pool but there's a two-meter waterfall
at its head. And I don't really
fancy launching myself off a two-meter-high waterfall
in the condition I'm in. And so I turn around,
head up river. [music playing] I've got bruising all
up my leg from the-- from the broken bones. My knees have been
taking a bashing from-- from-- from trying
to support the-- my walking in an
unnatural way all the way down this mountainside. And I come to a big long
straight stretch where the water, it's still fast
flowing, but it's-- it's not-- it's not white water. It's not tumbling over rocks. And so I decide
that this is-- yeah. This is the place
to swim the river. If you go five kilometers up--
upriver, this isn't water. It's ice and the water's
absolutely freezing. And I'm carrying
all these injuries. And all the muscles just seize
as I go through that river. [music playing] About halfway across, the dog,
who's been running up and down the bank up to this stage,
panicking-- she doesn't like swimming rivers like this,
obviously-- launches in and decides she's
going to hitch a ride and tries to
scramble onto my back as I'm trying to
swim this river. And we have a few words,
as you can imagine. I get to the other side. I can't stand and-- and I can hardly-- hardly walk. So it takes a lot of effort just
to-- to warm all the muscles up and get going again. Soon after I get out
the river, though, I actually spot
footprints and boot marks heading up the valley. We've had this huge rainfall
through two days ago and those boot prints
wouldn't have survived it. So this means somebody was
here within the last two days. I come around the last
corner, and I can see the hut there across-- across this small flat. There coming out the hut
door, there's a hunter. He's carrying water bucket and-- and it's the best
sight I could ever see. I'm not going to have to walk
four more days to get out of this valley. I've just got to
get to that hut. And they can walk out. They can get rescue and
I'm getting out of here. [music playing] Maybe five minutes
after I woke up, I heard my stepdad pull up. And I'm, you know, thinking he's
still in the house and now my-- he's going to kill my stepdad. So my stepdad is, like, walking
back and forth in the house. And I notice he goes
out and checks the mail, because he usually did. And then I notice-- I heard him because you can hear
everything from the basement. I noticed him-- or I heard
him walking down the hallway. All I heard was, oh [bleep]. And I knew he had found Stacie. [music playing] I guess he couldn't find the
phone store so he started paging it. And it was actually
down there with me on top of the washing machine. So, you know, I kept
waiting for him to hear it. I felt if I tried
to make noise, then Paul, if he's
still in the house, is going to know I'm
awake and am breathing. And I feel he's going to
come back and kill me. And he kept paging
it and paging it. And finally, I guess he did hear
because he came down to where I was. He was frantic. I couldn't look at him, because
I really couldn't turn my head. I couldn't see him anyways
because I wasn't wearing my glasses, but you can
just hear how nervous he was, how scared he was. [music playing] I was starting to go into shock. I was getting real cold. And he kept telling me
everything's going to be OK. And then the paramedics
came and wrapped me up, put me on a gurney, and
took me out of there. [music playing] The detective who
interviewed him said that he planned to
kill the whole family, steal my mom's truck, go
down to South Carolina and kill someone who stole
his clothes two years before. But he got scared after
he did me so he left. [music playing] She had all these plans and
dreams that she wanted to do, but yet her life got taken. And I have nothing. I didn't know what I
wanted to do with life, and yet my life got spared. I survived because
the grace of God. He wanted me here for a reason. I just got to find it. [laughs] [music playing] He yells a greeting. How's it going? And I said, oh, I've had better. And he-- he looks-- he obviously sees that
I'm hobbling here, that I'm using a walking stick. He says, oh, you
sprained your ankle? And I said, I think it might
be a wee bit worse than that. As I get closer I think
he begins to realize the-- the seriousness of my
injuries because he comes over and he's-- he's-- he's trying
to take my pack off me. He's trying to help
me support my weight. But I've just walked two days
from the site of my injury to get to this hut. I'm not going to let anyone
carry me for the last 100 meters, you know? The determination just to see
the job through is-- is there. We get down to the hut and
the dog's had four days without any dog food at all. The hunters bring out a tin
of baked beans and open it up, and it's-- it's
gone within seconds. She's absolutely
ravenous, the poor thing. [laughs] [music playing] They look at my wrist and-- and
realize that the-- the top half of the wrist has blown out. The inside of the ankle
that should hold the bone is disintegrated. On the wrist, they can't
even find enough bone to make it heal with so I have
to take a graft from elsewhere, and put plates in-- in both
the wrist and the ankle to help it heal. [music playing] This whole incident
gave me perspective. It made me realize what
was important in life and what wasn't, and gave-- really gave me the-- the drive to take control and
actually choose the direction that my life was
going to take and not merely go where life took me. I survived because
I was prepared, because I had everything with
me that I needed to survive an extended stay up
in the mountains. And also I think because it
never occurred to me that I was not going to get through this. I had that determination
always to take the next step and do what was required
to get myself out of there. [music playing] He goes, you're OK. He said, I'm a military cop. He said, I just got off duty. I said, a guy-- one of my friends
just took me out here and tried to murder me. He's out there still
looking for me. He goes, where's he at? I said, he's down the dump road. He's down there driving
around looking for me. And he said, well, don't--
you're all right now. He said just-- he said,
you're under my protection. [music playing] The bullet went
into seven pieces, so it pretty well shredded up
my small and large intestines. And I had a nine-hour
surgery from that one. And then I was in intensive care
for about a week and a half. [music playing] I have nightmares
about it to this day. I have nightmares that
this guy's chasing me through the woods. That's why I can't even sleep
in bed with my wife or my baby, because I kick and
punch in my sleep. I think I survived because
of the will to live. I wasn't ready to go yet,
and I believe the Lord was-- agreed on me that I
wasn't ready to go and he didn't want
me to come yet. And that's-- there were still
things in my life that I needed to accomplish and do
what I could, you know? I just wanted to go on.
