ZOE ALEXANDER XFACTOR THE TRUTH

[Music] hi guys you're all doing well I received thousands of messages asking to tell you what really happened on The X Factor so I'm going to tell you there's this far too much to put in one video so I'm gonna do it in two parts in part one I'm going to tell you about the lead-up to the audition and the audition itself and I will answer among many other shocking revelations the $64,000 question did they tell me to sing that song in part two I'm going to tell you about all the crazy and shocking things that happened after my audition they were so many people involved we had Ryan and Clark Kizzy Bracknell Allen Carr Jonathan Ross and the newspapers all of the newspapers but in particular Fiona McIntosh who worked for the mirror at the time Theresa Richard Holloway the executive producer of The X Factor and that's not even to mention how it impacted my mental health and my life but it's too it's too much top right now so in case you're wondering what all the not background noise is and if you hear little squeaks throughout the video that would be this little rascal yeah I thought you just like to meet him so you know who's making all the noise first our I just want to thank everyone who subscribe to my channel thank you so much 10,000 subscribers and so Jeb thank you and yeah so let's get into it so start at the end I suppose I applied a line I did it by hope you've asked me whether I applied or whether they approached me I applied I sent a video in on online like those people do and then I got a phone call inviting me down to the head office in London of Thames TV which they confirmed by email and here it is I was really really chuffed really regal and I went down there and saying friend to saying it was it was just a boring office to be honest with you nothing special at all bit underwhelming as went into a little room sang in front of a couple of producers they got to choose out of everyone who was there who went to sing for the Sony woman I like Jews to go and sing another Sony woman went a song in front of her I sang Jessie J nobody's perfect and then when Simon Cowell's x-factor is not a fair competition in fact it's not competition at all Thames TV and Sony records decide who will be successful long before the auditions take place week or so later I got a phone call from producer of The X Factor inviting me to the CIA in Cardiff to say in front of the jitters brilliant he said to me I had to email them five songs that I wanted to sing on the day so I sent them this as you can see in my choices no pink songs within hours he'd run me back saying to me that they wanted me to sing a pink song I wasn't instantly convinced but he basically said that if I didn't I wouldn't be on the show but he made it sound pretty good he bolstered it up and said that I was used to singing songs I was given singing painting songs they'd love it if I set up inside it would be it go down so well if I sang a pink song and so I agreed and so I sent him a revised song list and I said you this this is the email I sent now including so what the song they insisted I sang if I wanted to take part in the show as soon as the X Factor producers had successfully cursed me into singing the pink song they were eager to confirm my audition before the judges then I got my email saying what time to arrive on the day and it was all pretty well normal but seem normal to me pretty pretty good I was really excited and then the day came it was audition day I went beforehand to arrive in Cardiff for 6:00 a.m. so I was at before get my head and they told me to come really glam but I had just sort of wore what I drew on my title ever and just as my makeup how I thought which at the time I thought was good but it wasn't yeah so we got we got there at 6:00 me and my family and friends and there was no one there so we wandered around the CIA which is pretty big and we couldn't we can't find anyone so we eventually went to the box office and there was some security guards in there who let it sit and they let us sit in the box office because there was no one else back so we waited and we waited and we waited and we waited and eventually probably 8:30 in the morning two and a half hours after we got there the X Factor staff rocked up they were pretty confused as to why we were there so early and so what we noticed they took us to a room to sit in and we sat we sat there for a while and then they eventually took us upstairs to another room where we were met by other acts we had to sign some things before going into it another room and then we waited and then we waited and then we waited eventually another few hours passed and they started setting up the cameras and whatnot and started oh I just mentioned that once we were in the room we weren't allowed to leave they didn't give us anything to drink we weren't hard to leave to get a drink you weren't allowed to leave for any reason you had to stay in this room they interviewed a few people finally it was my turn once I was in the hot seat to be interviewed all he wanted to talk about was pink have you seen pink life do you know Pink's real name do you think you're like pink in real life it was just pink pink pink pink I was in shock I didn't know what to say I just thought they trying to answer those questions and finally he asked a few questions about me I he asked me how I got into singing and then I said to me but it was really hard for me to get into singing because I wasn't very confident and the first time I ever got on a stage I ran straight off because everyone was looking at me because I was terrified and he said and I've because I think if I was bullied in school but he's really ugly in school and it just I mean my confidence levels drop and I just I I just I didn't like speaking to me while I didn't like doing anything I was just I was a bit of hearing it I didn't have my friends and he somehow turned that around to pink he said do you think pink was bullied in school well I was I was so upset I lived I think there's there is some of some of that footage on The X Factor audition video and you can see I have got tears in my eyes because I was just so upset I couldn't believe it The X Factor producer during this interview insisted on persistently referencing pink no matter what subject he was questioning me about I began to question whether or not who I actually was had any relevance this line of relentless comparison to pink went on for at least an hour by the end of the interview I became exasperated and upset as it seemed the whole thing revolved around pink and that anything that was actually about me personally was irrelevant I ended the interview tearful and frustrated even though the interview lasted for more than an hour the X Factor chose to show a few seconds from the end of the interview showing me tearful and upset depicting me as an emotional fool as soon as I interview ended I was whisked up to see Caroline Flack straight away I went upstairs another little room who entered there was Caroline Flack and a cameraman and I think she could see that I was visibly upset at this point and she asked me if I was okay I said I was okay but I was really thirsty because we hadn't had a drink in hours no wood no one was allowed to that for any reason so anyway she gave me a water she I thought I thought I was so nice because generally this much water left in a bottle and she gave it to me sorry she she sent the cameraman off to get some more water because there was no water left and I was pretty thirsty I mean I guess she wanted a drink of water and she asked me if I was okay and I I said yeah I'm okay but something feels bit off and she said you can leave if you want to and I I loved her and she said well it's industry this there are other ways to make you in this industry and if you feel like this is not right you can leave I thought just kind of Isis kind of laughed it off because you know it was I was so excited it was so it was so you know I was just it was just a dream come true it was amazing I was just exactly where I wanted to be at that moment but when I thought about after I think that she was she was trying to tracking a massive I think she she knew she knew that I was there for bad reasons and she was trying to help me and I wish I'd listened to it and so we do a little interview nothing much it wasn't shown on Talley so then I was whisked down stairs back trying family and friends they picked out my mother dad my friends had to stay in in the room of the returned and they took us outside to the audience queue the people who are going to go watch the show they stood us in the audience you pretending that we were queuing to go an audition it was all it was all pretty weird and then whilst we were stood there at the front of the audience queue Jim O'Leary started walking up and down talking about auditioning as if we were in the queue to audition viewers are led to believe that the X Factor contestants queue outside the venue to audition in the hope of impressing the judges this is simply not true the 10 or so contestants are pre-selected by psycho Thames TV and Sony and our in fact already backstage in the arena so to cut a long story short we were then taken back inside to the back of the stage we had to wait for the audience to get in and then it was my turn so we're sounded backstage me and my family and the friends and then Derek comes along he introduces himself to everyone pretty much ignore was me why he talks to family friends which was pretty weird because when you see on TV he's so friendly to everyone and he was he was pretty hostile to everyone and then he turned to me looks me up and down and said oh I get it and I didn't I didn't really get that at the time but looking back it was obviously the paint thing and I didn't he didn't talk to me again after that so I went up onto the back of the stage into a little booth where you you stood while you waited to be called on while I was stood there on the Lee one of the runners or producers or something came up to me and gave me a little pepper torque and he said make sure you use all of the stage give the best performance you can give and if the judges say no beg them to do whatever you can to get them to say yes cry get down on your knees and beg I was I was like whoa what is going on here the x-factor producers were willfully directing me to break down on stage showing their ultimate intentions for the conclusion of my audition but I just I kind of stood there I was really nervous by this point and so I just I waited he went and then I was called onstage as I walked onto the stage I was greeted by 4:04 horrible faces they were they were so hostile it was unbelievable and I mean you've loved you've probably been watched The X Factor on TV and they see so nice I seem like it is matter who you are they are they're welcoming and they're friendly and that was not what I was greeted by I was greeted by four executioner's Bower that put me off from the start I felt this big because their face I looked down at Louie and to Lisa and Nicole and Gary and I I just felt so small because they are all they were they were awful anyway Lily was the first person to ask a question and he asked me which wasn't shown he was clubs cutout of the TV he was asked here she asked me what I would do with the money there is no prize money what I replied there is no prize money I don't know what you mean and he moved on to tell me that I was very overconfident let me tell you I was not overconfident I was so scared I was petrified I've never been so nervous in my life and he is telling me that I am overconfident then Gary went on to which wasn't shown on TV tell me about how much I was copying pink and that I look like pink bearing in mind I had not really mentioned pink at this point and then they asked me what size I was losing pretending they didn't already know and I said so what were pink and I felt stupid saying it and their faces when I said it are there a picture so I sang and to my surprise the audience absolutely loved it but I was shocked I wasn't looking at the judges I was looking at the audience at the time and they they loved it they were one fo because there's a fun song I mean whether it is a singing song or not it is fun and everyone was having fun so when they stopped it people were pretty shocked because they were they have to have a good time we were all having a good time in the broadcast footage the audience reaction has been completely changed for example when Talisa spoke her blatantly scripted lines you said you wanted to find your own identity it's very confusing for me because I felt like I was watching a pink tribute act the audience could be heard clapping and cheering her words as if she was voicing the opinion of the entire audience in fact the audience at that moment sat in silence as they were not primed to follow the storyline and then Garry stopped and told me that he wanted a result which seemed strange to me as I was told I had to sing a pink song so let me just say that when I got on the stage the monitors the onstage monitor so that the personnel stationed here we're on as soon as the so what track started playing the monitors were off so I couldn't hear a thing because we're in this massive auditorium and you can't hear you can't if the sound it's not on the monitors you can't leave one here and then one just went off and then when they stopped me the monitors came back up the monitors had to be turned back on so I could hear what the judges were saying and then when I started saying the next song the monitors went back off again and the clearly paid was not the track that I had senton it was in a different key and it was a different track to the track a scent and they turned the lunches off so I can I can hear a thing so anyway I sang that and then they stopped me again and the four of them just went on and on about pink bear in mind this the second songs and not pink song and all they all they could talk about the same as everyone else that day was pink that's all they wanted to talk her and I wasn't I would I didn't have a pink hair so this pink did not have the hair at the time in fact pink she adopted that hairstyle months after I had blown the X Factor before that she never had a shaved side of her head I was just a blonde girl with it with a funky hairstyle it was not Pink's hair so she had the after and I was not dressed like pink pink it never wore hmm leggings and I leave I should pink had never done that I was though as those my look I don't think pink ever shops in hmm I didn't go there with the intention of looking like pink I just wore a pair of patron and leggings and I mean white shirts and had short blonde hair I just the things that perhaps I just wore whatever and had my my hair however but it seemed obvious to me that they they knew they were that everyone everyone that day they were all primed to talk about pink because every time you see someone with short blonde hey you don't think of pink not everyone who else there was a hair stylist pink are they they were clearly primed to they were in on it they they they tried to push the pink image onto me and bully me into being pink all day and it was it was at that point where over a damn I suddenly realized that from the moment I got there at 6 o'clock in the morning when no one else was there it was as if they had made that that little email just for me to get me there as 6 a.m. to tire me out to break me down and and they continues rusul all day and it was that moment that I I just I had to break down I started to break down and I tried telling them that it was them that only sent me a song and I was talking to producers but the judges pretended that I was talking to them and Talisa says that we never told you to stay pink song and I said to her no love not you the producers and that was when I was talking to the audience and trying to explain to them how I'd been manipulated all day and then I realized that they tend my crowd and that was when I threw it to the floor I threw it like this to the floor but somehow in the video I throw it like that and I didn't I threw it to the floor because I was just disgusted and I wanted to get out way the producers had no choice but to turn off the microphone had they not done I would have revealed everything to the entire audience and then after that I found myself at the back of the stage and I was having a full-on breakdown at this point I I just felt like I thought that I was on fire and I felt like everyone in the room was laughing at me I felt that they were all in on the joke and I realized that the entire x-factor team we really all day but if not from the beginning and I just made a whole body here I was just I just I didn't I I wanted to burst into flames on to the floor to open up and swallow me because I was so embarrassed I was so broken at that point I'm I remember my dad walking onto the stage and he tried to hug me but I wouldn't let him I just I couldn't the thought of anyone touching me of that audience it was it was like it was like my skin was on fire and anyway he he walked to the front of the stage on his own and I ran off side I categorically did not leave the stage and subsequently returned hand-in-hand with my father once again the footage has been completely fabricated another example of The X Factor's overimaginative editing so I ran for the stage and whilst I was doing that my dad had walk to the front of the stage and and on the on the video you can't you can't he audience a in and I don't know what it looks like but he said you have set her up and you're not gonna get away with this I then walked up on his own and I just like to add that at no point during my audition did Tulisa say stay on the stage stay on the stage I mean she would have no reason to say that because I was gone and my dad wasn't about to jump off the stage and also Nicole did not stand up and say no baby no that did not happen again she would have no reason to because I what I was gone he was not actually off the stage so they will cut in afterwards to produce the footage for them to show in the fictitious storyline and I got to the side of the stage and there was this massive sanction the type that holds up like lighting fixtures in in theaters in auditoriums and things that I don't know if you know they're they're huge they are absolutely huge because they all have all all those lights and cameras and things and I saw it and I just I shook it I don't know why I should okay I just I just shook it and I didn't throw it over I just shook it I couldn't have possibly thrown over because it was attached to lighting fixtures an attached in the other side of the stage so and so that was completely falsified another example of the acts factors creative editing once again manufacturing a scene when the actual events did not suit their storyline and then I ran for the stairs and when I got to the stairs I fell down and I was in such a state but I can I couldn't get it straight with her I just lay there for a second or two and cried and the cameraman came up to me and put his camera in my face and Ollie the the runner producer was telling him to keep filming keep filming and I looked I looked in his eyes and I could see he was not happy about it but I was begging him to stop I heard I was saying please please stop filming please stop filming me and at the moment I wanted to die and I said I'm gonna kill myself I set that over and over I'm gonna kill myself please hear this camera on my face I'm gonna kill myself and that was the point where they but the acts of my life this scene was cut from the broadcast footage and replaced with even more fabricated footage which better suited their storyline as it didn't portray me as aggressive the real footage would have clearly demonstrated the broken and emotional state into which I had been bullied and which fine I pushed the camera on my face and that's when the footage only on the X Factor video stops but that is not where it stopped I tried to push him out my face and he and Ollie kept talent carry on film and carry on filming and he I my friend picked me up and he carried on whilst I was crying and I didn't I didn't know who I was where I was what was going on I just wanted to die at this point because I was just so embarrassed I was so upset I was I was I was having a breakdown and he followed me i my friend was holding me to keep me still because I was ready to run I was in fight-or-flight mode I need I just needed to go and as my friend let go of me I brand and the cameraman followed me to a certain point down the corridor and then and there left he they they stopped they decided they didn't need any more footage and I ran out onto the street and around about the same time to extract producers came out and begged us to come back in and I did not really working I was never anywhere I do I just wanted to go I just needed to get home and crawl up into a little ball and just try and process what had happened but somehow they convinced me do my game and when we got back in and another producer came out and said I don't want any more footage of this woman I don't need any more footage of this woman and at that point I left I left out of the building I ran across the road i needa Cochrane over come out to do an emergency stop to to not run me over I fell over again my family and friends came out after me we went back to the car and that without was that we just got in the car and I remember my dad saying well that went well and we drove home in silence thank you so much for watching guys I hope you enjoyed it and let me know what you think in the comments and don't forget I have much more tea to spell in part 2 so don't forget to hit the Bell and subscribe to my channel thank you yeah it's good that we do again this time so 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Channel: Zoe Alexander

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Length: 35min 10sec (2110 seconds)

Published: Sun Jul 19 2020