Tabitha Brown On Purpose, Messages From God, Retiring Her Husband, New Book + More

wake that ass up early in the morning The Breakfast Club morning everybody it's DJ EnV Charlamagne the guy we are The Breakfast Club we got a special guest in the building tab time who's celebrating her birthday next week I am this weekend this weekend ladies and gentlemen tabi the brown welcome how are you thank you I'm amazing if I was any better I'd be two people hey I love that hoodie Freedom over code switching what's that mean well you know I spent a a very long time code switching and conforming and that's not freedom and so I no longer live that way and so I always tell people honey we got to choose Freedom over a code switch we're enough just as we are even if we from the country even if we from the south it's it's just a thing so I I promote that all the time there you go I feel like I know you cuz I told you like when I saw you over the summer I'm like my kids watch T brown all the time on YouTube and then you know my wife has the cookbooks the vegan cookbooks around the house like she was giving them out his gifts to people just like than you girl we got to congratulate her on her and me as well just want to endk back in December congratulations thank you how did that feel it still feels surreal M you know but I feel grateful to have one for just like being myself right but something so powerful that is for children but I I I it still feels like it didn't happen it feels like a dream almost but the crazy thing is there's another side of that that it feels completely normal it's like a it's a it's a weird feeling it's yours yeah it feels like oh this is what God intended for my life absolutely but the side of it it's like did that really happen so but yeah how did the internet change your life shoot honey in every way um you know I was a I still am an actress but for a long time you know I was pursuing acting and nobody really knew me from you know acting and I started doing content doing you know videos not because I wanted to but I had a dream and God spoke to me and told me to start doing videos and I was like I don't want to do that you know uh but I was also uh trying to live a life of obedience and I started and nobody was watching and I was like well God you told me to do this and ain't nobody ain't nobody showing up on these videos to watch why do you have me doing this um and I started in August of 2017 doing videos and by December 30th one of my videos went viral which one it was a ttla I was eating a sandwich in my car cuz I was driving Uber and uh cuz I was on disability for over a year cuz I was so sick and when I started feeling better after going vegan I started um driving Uber and I was like you know what I had had a job before I didn't want to get stuck back in a 9 to5 so I told my husband I was like you know what I'm going to go drive Uber we live in LA I'm going probably get discovered in my car in my mind I'm thinking I'mma you know pick up a producer or a director or something and I stopped by Whole Foods because I dropped somebody off and was like I'm go ahead and get me a little breakfast and because I'm still a new vegan at that time and I got a sandwich and did a review on it cuz I was uh my videos when I first started I was just telling people I'm going vegan when I find new vegan options I'm just going to share it MH and and by the time I got home that video had like 50 some thousand views and I was like wait a minute who watching this video so you was Keith Lee before Keith Lee listen I love that's my nephew um but the next morning had like over 100,000 views and I was like I told my husband I said I think I'm going viral he he was like he was like what that mean I was like I don't know uh and four days later Whole Foods reached out and was like we saw your video cuz I got this you know sandwich from there and they wanted to partner with me I became their brand ambassador and on to do so many campaigns and it ain't it's been on ever since then now why did you switch to vegan for people that don't know so I uh I got sick so January of 2016 I woke up one morning and um I had this headache in the back of my head and I had a car accident in high school so I'm used to like waking up sometime and the back of my neck is tight and sometime it goes into my head so I thought it was one of those episodes but this headache rested in the back of my head for a year and seven months wow and it started to you know affect my body and so I started to uh fall when I would walk um my all my as a woman all everything was all out of whack uh I just did not feel well so every time I went to the doctor they would doing so many tests they was doing MRIs trying to figure out what is wrong so they told me they was like we know it's something autoimmune that's attacking your body we just can't figure it out I lost my vision for a day it it was a it was a really bad time for me and I took every drug the doctor offered me I was like a guinea pig because you are desperate to feel better and if anything it probably made me worse nothing was working and so uh my daughter came home from school one day and she was like uh mommy we saw this documentary at school today I think you should watch it and I don't know if you know teenagers honey but it ain't every day they come home and tell you to watch a documentary and so it was what the health on Netflix and so I was like you know what let's watch it together as a family so I watched it and when they started talking about not all diseases are hereditary sometime you can eat the same thing in your family that will cause the same disease in your bloodline and so that was kind of like a light bulb moment for me my mama died at 51 of a rare disease LS uh my dadd is now 72 but he's the oldest man to ever live in my family wow people get sick at Young ages in my family and they die at Young ages in my family and the only thing I could think of that we had in common was how we ate now I wasn't a bad eater cuz I was in LA but I wasn't eating to feel well I was eating to look a certain way which is is also a sickness and so what you mean eating to look a certain way so I'm not the Hollywood image exactly I wasn't eating to like oh let me put this in my body so I can be well I was let me put this in my body so I don't gain weight gotta you understand so um so but I still wasn't you know a terrible eat I haven't eaten red meat or pork since I was 15 and I was like okay and I'm allergic to Dairy like most people but I also was like it's the only thing I haven't tried so I told my husband let's do like a 30-day vegan challenge your husband did it too so for 30 days and so on like day 10 the headache I had every day for a year and seven months disappeared wow and I was like wait a minute I'm on to something and uh after that every D I started getting energy again cuz I had chronic fatigue and I had chronic uh panic attacks because when you sick and you know something is wrong but the doctor saying well we can't figure it out it makes you have anxiety and depression and so I started getting energy again cuz I would sleep all day all night like I would just be exhausted all the time and so energy start coming back my head you know was feeling better I was starting to feel like myself again and so that day when day 30 came I told my husband I was like this going to be my life you know I'm going to go he was like tomorrow I'm going need a piece of chicken tab like this right and so but I always tell people that uh part because sometimes the journey that may change your life or save your life you got to be willing to go on it alone and so I was like all right and so I I a never look back that's why I got so many questions number one you said something earlier about God spoke to you what does God sound like for me yeah so I always tell people I get asked that a lot now um I am am gifted in a different way than most people um so for me I can hear like your voice um I can hear sometimes it sounds like a flutter like a hummingbird would be close to my ear so it's like a wind and it's a it's a flutter but you can hear sound in it um I can see it I Can Dream It I'm I'm a Seer but in my dreams like my dreams can speak to me and things come to pass um so that's what it sounds like for me for most people who are always trying to figure out is this God speaking to me or is this just my thoughts I would tell you that when you think of something you'll think of it and you may lose the thought later right may not even come back to you but when God is speaking to you when he's putting something inside of you it won't let you rest it'll keep coming back that's right and so that's how you can kind of um decipher and then sometimes he will use a voice that's familiar to you like for me when my mama was sick she lost her voice because she had ALS so at the end she could either whisper or we'd have to read her lips and so I would be at her house on the other side of the house in her office but she would be in her bedroom in hospital bed and just as clear as I can hear you know us having this conversation I would hear her call me like Tab and I'll go in there like Mom you call me she'll look at me like now how I call you you know like I can't she can't but that's how God will get your attention sometimes not to scare you now I've only heard this one time and this is when I was living in Greensboro North Carolina when I had kind of given up on my dream dreams and thought I couldn't have them anymore uh I woke up one morning it felt like a earthquake had happened in Greensburg like my bed shook me awake and I heard a voice that sounded like Thunder and the voice said this is not the life I plan for you and I got on my knees and I started praying I was like now God if this is you speaking to me I need you to show me a sign he just shook the house taab but listen I woke up like this I had never heard that before and it was scary and I was like either you got to show me today that this is you or I'm going tell my husband take me to to the hospital cuz I thought I was losing it um and when you gifted sometime it do feel like you crazy and other people think that as well but now of course I know like oh no this is just my gift and I I don't hide it anymore I Don't Stray away from it I wrote about it in my first book because I wanted people to know like this is me if you want to rock with tab honey this is who I really am I don't hide that part of me anymore so what was the other sign that God showed you that day oh so later that day cuz I had kind of given up on my acting dreams because I had a baby and you know me and my husband was working jobs we was living in North Carolina so when you have a baby early uh in a small town you pretty much like oh you going to get this regular job and y'all going to get a house and cars and that's going to be it and so in Greensboro North Carolina where no acting or TV shows or nothing was happening later the day we was on our way to the mall and on the radio Buster Brown was the uh DJ and he came on he was like hey uh I just got a new TV show on the WB Network and I'm looking for a female Co host I'm holding auditions and I was like that's my sign that I got to go to this audition and I went to that audition I booked it job was the first audition I ever had for w look at God Y and I've been pursuing it ever since wow when you when you say you have gifts are are you clar voy are you like a medium do you no I I call it I'm a seer right um it's just you know that's a gift that God gave me I was born with it um been that way yeah my whole life I feel like we all have discernment we just don't all lean into it right but for me I as a little girl would dream about people I've never met before and wake up and tell my mom and dad like oh I such and such and they be like that person been dead 20 years like you would never know that person right I can remember being at my grandfather's funeral but they're like you were 10 months old there's no way for you to remember that um it's just I don't know and I can't control it that's the thing it just happens like I can be talking to you and something can just appear that I can see and it may be for you or it may be to protect me it just depends but I have no control over that absolutely my um now I'll tell you later I tell you I'll tell you later goad I was going to ask you so you know North Carolina uhhuh so now you pick up your family you move to LA yes how was that conversation with your husband and and your child and let's let's just go to La a place we don't know we got to find a new jobs even this good Carolina it's it's crazy cuz at first my husband was like so in 8 I moved to California in pursuit of acting but I wasn't in LA and I was like in Orange County and uh I didn't tell my husband he was my boyfriend at the time like how bad it was I a't tell nobody I was renting a room from somebody who was like taking all my money um but you know I'm like young I'm like 19 I really want to get this dream out of me and I want to do something and so our plan was for him to move out a couple months later you know and then we would get our own place but when he moved out and saw how I was living he was like now this is crazy he's like you working two jobs to survive you ain't nowhere near La you're not pursuing acting he was like we need to move back to North Carolina um so that you can we can save up money because it's cheaper he was like we can stay for one year then move back to LA so you can really pursue your dreams that one year turned into five years and a forgotten dream right until I had that experience that morning so when I told my husband after I worked that job for like a year I was like now it's time for us to move back to LA he was like nah he's like I'm working now he was like we got this baby you know he had I also had a stepdaughter who was older and he was like we got we got you know responsibilities now like we can't just up and go to La and he had just built like a a music studio in the house so he was like no we we good we got had good jobs for Greensboro used to rap no but he just loved like making music oh got you got you and so um I was like well listen I can I can go out there but like I can feel it calling me and I can come back and forth he was like oh no we're not going to do that so I could imagine those arguments you going to go where and leave me with this money I thought I had I could be by Coastal okay and go back and forth I don't know what I was thinking uh but we saved up like $8,000 uh to got some months and we moved to LA and we first got there we was living in bwin Hills and my husband I mean we both from the same Hometown you know we from Eden it's a very small town in North Carolina and our apartment I had flew out there to find our apartment cuz back then my husband used to be afraid to fly you know people from the country they be like I ain't get on no plane you know so I had went back and forth to find us a place and I had found a cute this this spot was cute to me right and but it did have the bars on the window most most of them do n LA right so but we weren't used to that but I didn't tell him cuz in my mind I thought it was nice and it was it did turn out to be nice was he able to bring his gun with him yeah uh he did actually okay you know what he did he he did he from the Carolina already know he did but when we got there he was hot he was like you what cuz we was like right off crin shw yeah he was like what BAE we got a daughter I was like Bae I I didn't scoped it out this a good area I promise you and because there was you know that was when the uh reality show bwin Hills was out remember that I said we live in bwin Hills it's just that we don't live in View Park but where we park we can see the view like I I was trying to sell it good right right but he got used to it over time but you know in the beginning we was a little we was at odds for a while but you know we stayed there for five years and we loved it wow so that's that's see now I hear this story get a glimpse of why retiring your husband was important to you yeah yeah absolutely I mean we came out there and after what the first like year or so that's when he was like I think I'm I'mma join uh LAPD and I was like cuz where we from you you not a police officer like we don't even trust police officers right even in La too but he was like uh I met some like cool black officers that look like me they won't judging me it was like cool like they was like real people M and uh he was felt like he could do it and make a difference but then also he thought okay this is a good career I'll have a good salary and benefits and you can pursue your dream and that's that's what what he did wow yeah one of the moments that uh we all saw that went viral was when you retired your husband and you know Wendy Williams had made some statements about you and the way you responded you responded with such Grace and such love it was almost like a I hope you heal absolutely hope you heal moment do you respond like that always in in this season of My Life yes yeah I mean the old tab probably would have had that get back Spirit right but uh she didn't even know me and and I don't know her other than knowing her from you know her her career um but you can also tell when somebody is H and we've all been through things that cause us to project and um and feel a certain way but I'm not going to exhaust energy uh and give anybody control over me to anger me right so but also I just love people despite what anybody have to say about me there's so many people now that that that hate me that don't know me but I love them it also makes me want to love harder in the world um because people are hurting right you know a lot of people think that I'm fake because I'm nice and I'm like I I'm a kind I'm compassionate I held my mama's hand while she died like I I've seen death so many times like I have also almost lost my life why would I not be happy en joyful I'm still here that's right right so um it hurts my heart for other people when I know that they're just hurting and they don't mean any harm in a way that they they it's it's really they're trying to make themselves feel better they're projecting right they're projecting and so the harm is really they're doing it to themselves because they're not instead of projecting you should be trying to heal yourself and get what you need to feel better but I don't know did you get a lot of flack for it because you know what it told me during that time is people don't understand love yeah right you love your husband I do you at you you financially fine and you can make sure that he's okay you know and it doesn't matter if he's a man he's a woman or what he is you love him and you had the opportunity to retire and and men do it for women all the time so I didn't see it so did you get a lot of flack for it oh yeah I mean a lot of people had something to say about it but that's their opinion I don't I don't care that ain't my business um but I also uh realize that a lot of people don't understand uh partnership right I've been with my husband 26 years amazing uh more than half my life right most people don't even understand that how did he feel he felt he felt amazing but after what people don't know is I had been trying to retire my husband for like two years we had enough money and he was like that money came too quit Bae I don't want to do that to you no just in case yeah he was like no I I know 1 plus 1 equal two we don't know cuz he also has watched me in Hollywood over 20 years not get jobs for 6 months or two years or whatever he was like we can't we can't count on this new money right and so I was like Bae I promise you I I got the amount of money that we have always said we have this amount of money in the bank taxes been paid we don't owe nobody that you would retire and he was like all right let me think about it he took a leave first he just was like on I don't want that on your back you know even though he has a nonprofit but it wasn't going to make the you know coming straight out he won't going to make the kind of money he was making before and I was like but now you can build it now you can do all the things you wanted to do right so uh it took him a while but afterwards now listen right now what time is that baby might be on the golf course okay listen he work with his kids three four days a week but he be on that golf course he is he is feeling it now he good about it absolutely but the trust he has for you you know cuz as a man you know they always tell us our job is to protect and and to provide but I think that we forget that we're a unit y'all been together 26 years me and my wife been together 26 years oh I love it mon Corner South Carolina from kids you know so it's like I understand that and it don't matter who make it if one of us make it we in it together we in it together that's exactly right yeah I mean he carried me I used to have odd and end jobs you know I would go work at Maes I go work at a you know call center I would go and I did CNA work I I would do all kind of jobs to make sure because we are Partners so I would pay like utilities and stuff I'm like oh let me take the kid School shop and let me do this cuz you going to handle the big bills that's right that's partnership that's right and so he did that for 15 years man when I was getting fired from radio and was too proud to go collect unemployment checks my wife was the one working paying the bills when we was getting evicted she was the one going in front of the judge you know to tell them why we shouldn't get evicted so I I'd overstand absolutely I mean that's what Partners do but so people who had you know problems with it they ain't never had real partnership that's right so let's talk about this book I did a new thing your new book yes absolutely 30 days to living free what is living free the tabith of brown well you know Freedom over Coast which right we talked about that but living free is like taking an opportunity to do something even if it scares you right just doing something new right I I started doing this challenge in 2014 I was really just in search of like getting to know myself better cuz I still was not free and I would do something new whether it be with my kids or by myself and just to see how it would open my mind and how it would make me feel and so I did that over the years and I would always you know learn something new about myself like um I discovered my love for hiking and I was like oh shoot I never would have thought that I would love hiking and then now it's something that I have continued to do over the years um and so I was like if I do this again I think I want to write a book so last year I did it for 30 days and I journaled it and made it into a book and My Hope was that other people want to you know live free and try new things and the other thing about freedom in order to like really go out and do something new that's the only way you going to know if you love something or you don't like it right you have to be willing to be like I don't care I just want to find out let me just see right so and it also could be something as simple as I'm gonna wear my hair different like right now I'm doing it you know my hair name is Donna so I'm doing while I'm on tour I'm making a new hairstyle every day you said his name is Donna yeah her name Donna like Donna Summers or just Donna well I named her after Don King because it look more put together in Don kingsely today but she got her name because when I was uh I had did the big chopping when she was growing back one night I was cooking live and it was like straight up in the top I was like why is that piece of hair you know sticking straight up looking like Don King I was like I'm have to call her Donna and it stuck it stuck yeah I love that you dedicated your new book to you yeah why was that important to do cuz honey I'm the one who made the decision to choose myself that's right right and I made the decision to stop being afraid and to live my life my way and to try new things and the biggest thing I ever did for 30 days was go vegan and it saved my life and I was like girl this for You tab I pray that I forever and always do new things every day I want to do that for the rest of my life cook I want to I'm going to go back to I did a new thing but you keep bringing up the vegan thing cooking with Spirit uhhuh what does that mean CU we I've heard cooking with love what do with Spirit cooking from the spirit it means you you cook from the spirit I don't do measurements so I cook I I just throw it together that's how most people cook yeah that's why so many of us unhealthy now growing up salt salt salt but that's the thing I'm also saltree most of the time you know because I know my family Dynamic right so all my seasonings are saltree um but yeah but we cook from the spirit you know a little bit of that and when your spirit say oh that's enough but also you know what you like and you know what you don't like well don't put the thing you don't like in there from your spirit I was I was going to ask you know so many people listening right and how did you know not to give up right because I'm sure there's somebody listening right now that's been trying music for 10 years and it didn't work and somebody that's trying acting it didn't work somebody that's trying to be in a chef somebody's trying to be an author somebody that's trying to do something online and creating videos and nobody's watching M uh and they probably said I I felt I got a sign yeah yeah when do you tell them to say maybe that's not the sign and maybe the change or you know how do you tell somebody to continue to keep doing what they're doing cuz you could have gave up so many times yeah um I I would never really tell anybody to give up right if you think God has given you a sign then trust the signs uh for me it was always signs and that's confirmation if it won't let you rest if you try to give up and it won't let you I tried to give up in Greensboro I was like I'm going just have to live this you know L I'm work work at UPS go to the call center you know and and we got a nice little house you know we got cars like that's that's we're going to church on Sunday like it's going to be our regular life God wouldn't let me stop he he he woke me up and it shifted me uh I would see people I I worked at a staffing agency for a while in Greensboro and I never forget we talking 2003 mhm and I had went to uh I was in a Drive-Thru on my lunch break and when I got to the window the little guy was like he was a little white guy he was like oh my God I was like oh my God like what we like what what we doing he was like aren't you the lady on the on the kids show I was like no I work at selective Staffing he was like okay I said okay he was like no you're not yes you're the lady that has a kid I ain't have no kids show wow I have a kids show now absolutely but it was like God was just telling me he sees your destiny wow he sees what's coming but I had no like it would happen to me all the time me and my husband we first moved to LA but this what happen even when we lived in North Carolina we would go to the mall with our little girls people would stop us all the time be like y'all look like y'all are y'all famous and we like we live in Greensburg we work at UPS like what are y'all talking about but people would just stop and stare and we never understood why but God would always say they see your destiny M so it would be signs like that then also I would dream and I would see these things and I would tell my husband I'm like this is going to happen we going to have this house the house I live in now I described to a te to my husband to the point we were in escrow on another house and this house just popped up and we was like let's just go see it I had a phone call so I couldn't walk in the house when he did he walked in the house he came back out he was like this our house this this the house you describe we G we gonna get this house you might as well call the the people and tell them to like close the ESC on the other like we we going to fall out escrow on that this is our house I walked in I was like dang this is the house of course that's the house we live in now wow but those are the signs that we have to not ignore but also we have to kind of uh ignore the the noise of of people who tell you you can't MH um but also we have to be honest with oursel if you are not really doing the work for the dream that you have is it really your dream that's right right cuz sometime it might be a goal and the difference between a goal and a dream is a goal is something that you create a dream is deposited inside of you God does that you don't make up a dream it lives inside of you so be honest with yourself do you want it because you see somebody else with it uh do it look cool to you do you just want to make money or is it something that won't let you rest I have a chapter in my first book called [ __ ] your dreams if it's not your dream because a lot of times we see things working for other people and we think that's our dream like no that's not your dream that's something that God had for somebody else but what do you find your dream absolutely never never compare your life um and and absolutely don't try to get it because somebody else got it you could be inspired by anybody but you got to set your own path but your dream that has to live inside of you cuz then it won't ever feel like you'll have moments cuz I definitely have moments of like Lord when is going to happen or you feel stuck MH but it still won't make you give up on it you'll still be like I I got to figure it out like well what are you calling me to do Lord but also for me I only wanted to be an actor for so long that was my my goal and God had to really like sit me down and say listen you can be an actor you can you can be a series regular you could be in films you can do that tab but let me show you what I can do and that's when the Overflow came I still am an actress but I I'm also a CEO of my own business multiple businesses right I have multiple Partnerships I have two New York Times bestsellers right it's so many different things that I do now that I was keeping myself in a box because I only had one thing but then when I was like this thing that lives inside of me the dreams I've had I didn't just get that from being an actor I got it from doing whatever God called me to do so when I gave him my life that meant I'm live my life however you tell me God and that opened the door for me to allow him to bless me in the way he has how important is being of service it's it's so important you know I live a life of obedience but I feel like I'm I'm supposed to be for people right I feel like that's what I was called to do to love people to be compassionate um to bring joy help people laugh uh also help people cry who need that I understand that's a superpower to have that every body doesn't have to uh control somebody's emotions um and to help them and that's my assignment I believe that and God has set me on a path and I will forever do that you got to tell me your morning routine have I need to know mentally spiritually emotionally what do you do in the morning to get grounded like drink water that's that's a glass of water is it holy water what is what is it alkaline it's a regular old filter water um but that is a part of it I I drink water in the morning I pray in the morning of course um I when I work out most times I work out in silence because that's when I hear a lot and so um I allow God to you know just pour into me whatever I need in in that moment uh for that day maybe even for that hour sometimes you'll see me do videos and I'm in the gym it's cuz he just gave it to me um but yeah but I I spend my my quiet time in the mornings I do self checkins throughout my day and I always end my night with myself and and make sure I'm not taking nothing in into my sleep like carrying it you know from the day like something I might be holding on to because I don't want to be heavy in my mind and my sleep how do you do that uh and and navigate social media cuz social media can be one of the most toxic places on the planet so how do you spend time on social media but still be able to disconnect to reconnect with yourself um I think because the things that I look at a lot of positive stuff show up on mind um but I also if it's if it's toxic or if it's negative it ain't my business I don't want I don't want no part of it you know I I look for Joy I'm intentional with that uh I'm intentional with spreading that you know when people come to my my page whichever one it is it's going to be Joy it's going to be laughter it's going to be inspiration uh it's enough negative in the world I don't want to be part of it so I'm just intentional with it and so it don't bother me can we talk about some of these chapters yeah uh do something new but check your triggers do something new and check your triggers absolutely so um I had my first mamogram uh when I was doing my 30 days and my first one was supposed to be during the pandemic but you know how everybody canceled their appointment so I never did it I was like oh I put it off for so long I was like let me go ahead and do me a mamogram since I'm doing a new thing now when I go to the doctor I'm always triggered just because I was sick for so long so just a regular checkup to me is triggering but I always be like all right girl you all right you know that's a you got to check yourself so when I went in for my mammogram it was a normal thing uh they called me a couple days later and said hey we want to take a closer look we saw something in the image and I was like H okay but they did say you know don't be alarm this is this is a normal kind of routine thing so I go back in so they did a closer look and before they did it the nurse told me she was like if they see something and they're concerned they'll ask for ultrasound after and I was like okay so they did the image and they came back in it was like multiple doctors they was like we saw something we would like to take a ultrasound so now I'm like well she said if they was concerned they want to do you know orcher sound so I was like okay and my husband was in the lobby I was like um had my husband come back here so he know why it's taking so long and so I told him and I can see he kind of got like a little you know triggered as well so they did the ultrasound and then they you know took us in the office and they was like there's there's definitely a mass that we see and uh we're going to need to do a biopsy and uh they couldn't do the biopsy it was like a couple weeks like maybe two weeks and this was during the first time I was uh nominated for Emmy last year so I don't I had to go through you know press and go to the EMS knowing that I had to go get this biopsy the day after the EMS and so the old tab would have got online and SE researched everything about you know mas and uh breast cancer and I would have told myself it's cancer I would have went into straight on panic attack everything but the moment that I started thinking about it I was like no tab we got to check this trigger you can't just diagnose yourself you can't start thinking the worst you can't go back to your old habits right they said it could be something or it could be nothing let's wait to find out what it is before you have any kind of reaction MH and in that moment I realized I really been doing the work on myself you know it made me proud I was like I'm really on the healing journey I I'm I've come a long way because it's it's rough when you've been sick and it's a real trigger right so you check your triggers but you can still do something new so that's that's where that came from and when I went ah had the biopsy it was nothing is it better to just stay in that gray area when things like that happen when somebody says it could be something or it can be nothing of course You' be like well I'm hoping it's nothing right or you might be like well it's probably something isn't it better just to stay in that yeah I mean in my mind I was like I'm I ain't gonna claim nothing that's right so of course I'm going say oh it ain't you know in the name of Jesus it ain't going to be nothing right um but in in being in reality you want to for me I was like I'm going to stay in this I'm going listen to what they said it could be something it could be nothing I'm I'mma claim nothing but for most people if they're not there yet in their faith then stay in that middle ground until you have evidence of what it is that's right now another chapter do something that breaks the rules but not the law oh so uh I tell people that all the time like you know some rules are set by us you know by people uh as well as laws right but you I know your kids come back with you all the time Mom you said Break The Rules that's not the law exactly exactly uh but I talk about this in the book that you know I had got invited to uh a party you know and it was a strict dress code where they wanted you to wear black I don't like wearing black I and this is about as black as it get from me I love color it makes me happy when I wear like all black it makes me feel weird think about funerals and all kind of Stu yeah I don't know like even at funerals like in my family we wear a lot of colors or we wear white mhm um but it just makes me feel a little I don't know maybe sad and I realize if I do wear it I got to have like a pop of color my lips or something I don't know but I was like I don't want to wear black to this thing I'm I got to figure something out so I found like uh I had this it was like a Blazer but it was the background was black but it had a bunch of colors and patterns on it and I wore like some black bell bottom pants got there and a lot of other people hadn't wore black and so I was like this is why we can break the rules sometime you know I could have said okay I'mma wear all black and been uncomfortable all night and then got there and been mad like look how the people Ain they they ain't wear what they said we supposed to wear right so that's what I mean by that sometime we can break the rules just don't break the law so you ain't never going to follow no dress code if it's a all white party or nothing I will yeah said she wear white but she's all black she black yeah I mean I will wear it but it's going to have to have a little something that make me feel like tab got you know cuz I also want to go and and be myself you know so do do something that requires you to face your losses oh that's a powerful one so [Music] um when I you know I had a restaurant right and when I had my restaurant it was a partnership and um we had a lot of problems with the building and so cu the K my name is the restaurant in Chicago that I fell in love with so when he came to La I was like oh I partner with you and open a restaurant with you I didn't know the restaurant business but this building gave us a lot of issues and so we ultimately had to um to close and so I was like oh man it felt like a loss to me because I had had you know so much happening people would come in I would people would come from all over to just meet me at the restaurant and I wasn't there every day but on the weekends or whenever I could I would go and just be there all day to make sure I got to see people when they came and so we ended up um having to shut it down and I was like really kind of Hur about you know for a while and I really couldn't talk about it cuz we were having legal problems with the you know the building on it cuz it was a whole thing and so when it was time to do my taxes now I've been carrying this like man I feel so bad about it um I realized that the loss had really blessed me was a win was a win right and so I was like sometime we got to look at the loss for what it is maybe it ain't a loss you know but also it opened up doors for me and now I have you know my food and stff at Target so I was like it won't necessarily A a loss you know we can't look always look at them you know things like that so it actually blessed me because I ain't have to pay as much oh let's Flex a little bit tab let's run some of this stuff down now so you got deals with Target who else come on no need to be humble in this moment act like a rapper right now you know you got the tab time booming on YouTube you got deals with Target you got book deals what else uh I have my own seasonings okay MC cormic spice I have of those um Fridays with Tab and chance I do have Fridays with Tab and chance I do very good Mondays where I bless small businesses every Monday uh of course I have my own merch um that feel weird to just name everything but B box rap um I don't even you know I I I still do my acting thing you know I um launch a production company in a partnership with uh Steven love with made with love media um yeah I don't I don't know when I I thought about you uh I mean I knew you was coming in but when I heard Issa Ray talk about how she's just basically tired of dealing with the Hollywood RI a roll and she just wants to do things independently you're one of the first people that I think about it took a while for me to even realize you weren't on Nickelodeon or something cuz I just would always see you on my TV and then that I was like turns halftime on I'm like what channel tap on like it's YouTube I'm like YouTube I didn't I didn't even realize it yeah cuz YouTube had YouTube original they don't it but still there while we're searching new home for it but we still own it m right nobody owns it YouTube didn't own it I can't believe that Nickelodeon Netflix all the people not beating your door down well you know some of them are oh okay but it has to be right absolutely I won't say yes to just anything it's got to be right um there's no people have to understand you can't own me right there's a price that we can park partner but you can't you can't own Tab and you have all the leverage yeah I mean we got all the you know the data is there the numbers don't lie and so like country Wayne said I mean you you got to tell me why I need you that's right so yeah with love no that's that's a great thing to say you can't owne me but there is a price to partner you can always there's always a price to partner cuz I'm Priceless yeah like there's no amount of money that you can can say oh this is no I'll take that that ain't what I'm worth there's a value amount exactly there's there's an amount absolutely what does it mean to have a free soul I think I mean my life is kind of an example of that you you know you kind of don't let the world in don't worry about what other folks think about you live your life for you and and do it in a way that is graceful um and just let God guide you but don't worry about what somebody think about you and you know what the world tells you you should be cuz I I know what it's like not to be free and it being free is the best gift you can give to yourself that's how we were born to be do you feel like you're walking in the purpose that God has for you absolutely do something that reveals your purpose Chapter 30 I don't day 30 do something that I don't even know which one that is it says day 30 do something that reveals your purpose in the chapter titles I mean because I talk about it throughout the book I'm I'm trying to remember which one that is that reveals your purpose but I mean I'm sure we've talked about it like with dreams and uh being vocal about it uh for me it's always that you know don't shy away from your gifts be honest be open about it even if you think people going to think you crazy um people love to call me like a witch or or or crazy like there's a certain amount of people I guess like on Tik uh Tik Tok and stuff they be like oh that you're a witch you know and I'm like I'm not a witch right uh I know what my purpose is and I know that I have a gift and I give God all the credit for for everything that I am and so um my purpose is to uh love people to uplift people but also help people heal uh but also if God gives me a word I'm going to share it that's right you know when um when I was on uh Club Shay with Shannon I gave him a word in you know confidence like off camera it was his choice to share that and after that people even more was like I told y'all that girl I told you and I'm like that's not being a witch that is being you know God's servant and being a vessel and that's part of my purpose so it is amazing to me that we give uh everybody credit except for God we will put labels on all types of stuff and say it's got to be something evil it's no God gives you Clear Vision you CH he G it to all of us and he also gives all of us the gut right you know how that gut feeling that's right I always tell people that's called the gift under the tummy the gift that's the good that was the brown I could didn't talk to you forever new book I did a new thing we appreciate you for joining us thank you so much don't be a Strang absolutely should I end it how I end my vide absolutely okay well listen first of all thank y'all for having me I appreciate y'all this my camera yes honey oh this very good you've been there the whole time well lord well listen thank y'all y'all going about y'all business all right have the most amazing day but even if you can't have a good one don't you dare go messing up nobody else's here God bless y'all love y'all it's The Breakfast Club good morning wake that ass up in the morning The Breakfast Club

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