Strangers Read People's Darkest Fantasies

i'm scared of myself because i fantasize about hurting and torturing people and potentially ending their life on a daily basis i'm scared that someday i will snap and actually end up doing it [Music] [Music] i felt like i have daddy issues because i've had vivid romantic dreams about running away with my professor in his 50s who i think flirts with me i attended swinger's parties pretty regularly as a single male and love the atmosphere and attention i secretly want to attend them with my current girlfriend but she has no idea about it i had a secret feeling with an ex-employee but i fantasized about his son whoa i'd regularly take them both out for dinner so that i could fantasize more vividly each time i go to bed i talk to the pillow for half an hour as if it were a man however even in my fantasy we end up fighting it's difficult for me to imagine someone being in love with me that's something that like i think about all the time or like every day i think why would anyone want to love someone who feels this boring or like someone who like lacks a personality um so very very relatable i keep replaying the day i let my kid go to the concert with his friends i wish i had gone with him i wish i had forced his friend's mom to go with them i wish he had never bought the tickets i wish he was not standing in the spot where he was i wish the shooter was shot the moment he was seen with the gun i wish there were no gun sales this is tragic they're full of regret for the things they could have done to prevent it but of course they had no idea there was going to be a mass shooter so why would they but now they're left with this regret anyways when i've had loved ones pass away these kinds of thoughts fly through my head too but it must be so much worse when you're the parent i fantasize about being a heroic figure in my sister's life and stand up for her when her husband beats her up i've experienced spousal abuse in my household and you want to be able to say something but you feel like you don't have a voice especially when the person is somebody that you love on both sides but i think the best thing to do is speak up you know if you say something at least the person you love to make them realize like hey this isn't this shouldn't happen i fantasize about having cancer like the bald kin of my class has so that my mother would care for me and let me hug her i fantasize about things like death rape loss and grief because i enjoy the feeling of someone actually warring for me in the aftermath of the experiences i feel very guilty because i understand that other people endure this stuff unwillingly and it must be horrible fantasizing about death and rape seems like really crazy but then if you understand like maybe where it's coming from i feel like it makes the fantasy less taboo i think a lot of times it takes something bad to happen in your life for people to notice you or to notice that you're hurting so yeah i understand where this person is coming from you know i don't know this person's situation but i'd hope that there are people there that are loving and caring around this person and maybe if they even opened up about their fantasies to some of these people that they trust and care and have in their closed circle they might be awakened to the idea that you know hey we're here for you you

Channel: Jubilee

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Id: 9p5Cg1HhTaE

Length: 4min 49sec (289 seconds)

Published: Sun Aug 16 2020