Sean Lowe: "I Am Second"

never in a million years that I think I would do a cheesy reality TV show about love I was walking my dogs one day and my phone rings was a Los Angeles area code it was a girl on the other end she says hi my name is so-and-so and I'm with the casting Department for The Bachelorette so we got your information and we want to talk to you and I have no idea what she's talking about I don't even know if it's a joke or if this is real it didn't take me long to figure out that my sister was behind it all I said listen I just have no desire to be on reality TV and I certainly don't want to subject myself to all the public criticism that comes along with being on a show like The Bachelorette guys go on there and get drunk and there's the fantasy suite and their sex and nudity and just didn't seem like something that represented me she said you know just think about it she said you could travel see the world meet some cool friends and she said lastly who knows you might fall in love and so I told her I said don't don't hold your breath but I'll think about it [Music] I've known from a young age that I'm I'm a risk taker I've started different business ventures some have succeeded some have failed miserably I took one big risk and I started this financial services company with a couple of partners and due to some government regulation it it all came crumbling down and it it was without a doubt probably the darkest period of my life the hardest time I've ever had because not only did I lose my money but I lost investors money I had to I had to tell them I lost your money and they couldn't accept that and you know they threatened to sue me and I was I was afraid for my future and I had so many sleepless nights and I had so much anxiety and unrest it was right after that I thought I can't take any more chances I I gotta do something that gives me some security and that's when I finally agreed to do what I swore I would never do and that was to get into the family business of insurance I just I hate it from the sheer beginning he did put it on my slacks in the morning I hated getting to work and looking at all the different cold calls I had to make that day and I just knew it wasn't for me and I would constantly pray and that's it God you know I don't like this and you you know my heart's desires if you want me to be here I'll be here but I just you know I'm not happy about that time I got the phone call from the casting director at the Bachelorette and after thinking about it for a week or so I thought you know what I'm I just want a free vacation maybe she has a point [Music] we're at this big palatial mansion and in North Carolina so when you're not on a date with the girl you're hanging out with the guys and there were a lot of cool normal guys we spent most of the days hanging out by the pool throwing the football barbecuing and then as the week's go by you start traveling first off this Bermuda in London and Croatia all right I can get used to this after about four or five weeks of getting to spend time with the Bachelorette I thought I kind of liked being around her Wow I'm actually developing feelings for this girl when there's all these cameras around this is kind of nuts I can see myself being her husband and she had a young daughter and I thought wow God has used this reality TV show to introduce me to my wife and into my future daughter after about six weeks of being on the show I knew I loved her [Music] I can't understand why God opened the door for me to be on this reality show the fall in love only for it in like this I cannot understand why he's led me to this heartbreak I go back to Dallas and still heartbroken and I'm still thinking about her all the time I reached out to her I found her phone number through a mutual friend that we had and I call her and I'm just trying to get answers as to why this happened I just got her voicemail and never received a return phone call after about six weeks I got a phone call from one of the executive producers he says hey what do you think about being the next Bachelor and I didn't know what to say I said you know I'm getting over a broken heart and I'm still trying to mend and the first go around wasn't the greatest experience for me I said I don't know on the show bachelors traditionally they get raked over the coals it's not easy to maintain that good guy image when you're the the star I called my family and my family is such a wonderful god centered family and I value their advice in their opinion and and I'm thinking they're gonna tell me you know don't do it but in fact both my mom and my dad said you know God has opened this door for you and I think you owe it to yourself to walk through it fast forward a couple months and and I'm flying out to LA to start the whole adventure over again and the first night comes and you know the limos pull up it was just a surreal moment standing there not knowing who was gonna step out of each limo meeting every girl and the first night I think lasted until 6:00 in the morning it was just all night I'm exhausted and I'm going from girl to girl to girl having different conversations trying to keep my story straight trying to remember remember names it's unnatural to date 25 women at one time and and it felt wrong a lot of the time it felt wrong and I wrestled with it quite a bit thinking you know I'm pretty sure God opened this door but what if he didn't what if it's just an opportunity that came about and what if I'm actually harming my testimony by going on a show and dating multiple people at one time and kissing multiple people what if people look at me and they say this is what's wrong with Christianity you know look at this guy he's he's professing one thing but he goes on TV and he's doing the opposite yes I was a big fear [Music] at the end of it all I was forced to make a probably the toughest decision of my life breaking a girl's heart thinking that she was gonna marry me on the very same day I got to propose to the love of my life Catherine I've always said that I want to marry my best friend you know Catherine is just that she was the one that I just couldn't see myself saying goodbye to ever somewhere along the line probably because people did know that I was a Christian someone thought to ask the question how's the sex or are you guys waiting for marriage I forget who asked it I forget how they asked it but somebody asked it and I answered it honestly Catherine and I are not having sex until marriage from that moment forward it was just a firestorm I mean every tabloid add me on the cover and they labeled me as the virgin bachelor whether it was late night with jimmy kimmel on Entertainment Tonight you name it it was always brought up they were just going to view me as a weirdo [Music] I didn't have sex in college and honestly I don't even know if I knew at that time why I took that stance after graduating college I moved back to Dallas I'm dating other girls and I started having sex and I would feel extremely guilty afterwards but after that guilt faded then I would start talking to some other girl and go down the same path of destruction [Music] I just reached a point where I thought you know I've known Jesus is in my heart and and I know how I'm supposed to live but for the past five or six years I've just decided to ignore it and something's got to change and that probably the age of 24 I think I I finally became a man and I said alright Jesus let's let's do this again I don't know who I would be without Jesus in my heart Jesus shapes the way I think he shapes the way I see the world he shapes the way I interact with everyone I come in contact with it doesn't matter what I go through the ups and the downs the failed businesses the broken heart whatever I know that I've got a God who loves me it was right there next to me saying it's gonna be okay I've got plans for you I love you you know I was I was labeled as an outsider but as annoying as it was it's also been a great thing for me because that's now a part of my testimony and I don't know if anyone's found Jesus through me talking about not having sex but I think now it's certainly more evident than ever that and I love Jesus and and I'm different because I love Jesus [Music] I didn't give in to you know my sinful nature as long as you stay in constant communication with God he's going to get you through anything [Music] my name is Sean Lowe and I am second [Music]

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Rating: 5 out of 5

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Length: 12min 32sec (752 seconds)

Published: Fri Nov 30 2018