Saying Goodbye to the Cancelled Podcast - Ep. 67

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about any item plus free shipping which includes Rush processing just enter offer code Tana at checkout that's Tana t na Adam andeve.com I love Adam and Eve because of all of the pleasure it's brought me this is an exclusive offer specific to the canceled podcast so be sure to use the code Tana thank you to Adam and Eve for sponsoring today's episode of canceled hello and welcome back to the cancel podcast today is a New Year's episode I didn't think we'd actually get to film before the year was over neither did I we said in our last episode we're like this is the last one yeah but then we got home and we just couldn't stay away from the couch and the mics I just want to put this out here I have zero topics yeah expectations low everyone like and it's not because I'm not being diligent at my job it's because I feel like my life has sincerely been so wholesome and boring I feel like that's kind of a sad um situation that we feel like something has to go wrong for us to have podcast topics we could just talk about good positive things that are happening but like even that like everything just oh you don't have any good positives either well yeah I do like I had a good Christmas love my boyfriend life is good like but it's just giving it's giving nothing you know I think people are equally excited to hear about your um exciting things okay I guess that's true tell me about Christmas for the audio listener she just gave me murderer eyes no I didn't my Christmas was really wholesome and sweet I went home to amar's parents as I always do and it's actually so sweet I cry every Christmas like just to have people be that like thoughtful and love me and I think I'm just extra grateful because it's not something I was like Born Into You know it is my little brother just told me over Christmas that one time he crushed up a plan B and put it in a girl's drink I don't think it's still affective I mean maybe like within the first 48 let me let me ask you another question that goes along with something you and I were already talking about today okay what are your thoughts on someone like if I were to like slip honey or like Viagra into somebody's drink if he were perhaps suffering from erectile dysfunction I think you're doing everyone a favor like he' probably be like whoa this is so sick and then you like to be clear I'm not experiencing that right now but I have experienced it and have you ever slept with someone who has a rectile dysfunction honestly yeah it's just so much work like your wrists hurt your mouth hurts it is I was I made the comparison it feels like you're blowing up a balloon with a hole in it like cuz if you stop for even one second it's over like completely over and it's sad it's really you know I think I always leave feeling really sad for them I wonder what causes that like hereditary I'm not saying like this is someone who like just didn't get hard either I'm saying like you know like they've said like I have a problem you know well some I don't know in my experience the guy didn't think he had a problem I'm like this is a major problem it was like one of those things outside the car dealership I wish we could say who no they don't know him we can't Gypsy Rose Blanchard gets out of jail tomorrow this is did you see Elijah is throwing a Gypsy Rose release party yeah yeah do you think she approved of that message it's so hard because I really am like Beyond invested in her case I know every single thing about it I feel like I know her personally I'm elated for her to get out of jail I think she should have never gone to jail how long has she been there does anyone know at least like seven years like it's definitely not like a short amount of time I first of all I wonder what kind of prison she was in because I wonder what her like knowledge is of like what's going on outside like does she know the kind of like straight up cult following she has these days she's got to like you know what I mean like if someone calls in they're going to tell her like right like if she calls someone do think people write to her of course so many I just can't imagine the like culture shock yeah after having been gone for that long oh but not even just jail like think about most people lead a normal life and they go to jail all she ever knows cuz she's never yeah she's going to get out and like all of a sudden she can like tap dance and [ __ ] like she can go to a Sephora imagine Gypsy Rose Blanchard in a Sephora into the movies she did do you think she still saltburn that would have sent me right back home some of the scenes in salurn a while yeah actually now that I think about it maybe not the best movie for her I didn't really see the ending and I know it ends and it's really like Poetic and cool and like yeah but it was like a big like hoax movie where somebody had this whole fake life so you know this scene where um he drinks the bath water yeah wait should we spoil ear yeah I I get where he was coming from you know saltburn sent me PR and it was a mug and in the bottom of the mug it was like an image of a drain that's kind of cool but then like I'm going to be drinking my coffee thinking about Come Oh no broe just told me downstairs she really likes to get cream pied no I didn't I mean I did but why would you say that what about it no stopes you I'm re I'm on a major re brand right now [ __ ] and they've been so successful What's um sparking this major Rebrand my interest in having a serious relationship yeah yeah I feel that actually so like that's not a conversation that I should be having in that case that's really true she never said that and I would I would die on that Hill she never said that I'm literally schizophrenic just made it up completely have you ever seen the idol I've only seen the first two episodes did you end up watching it yeah I watched the whole thing in one were you like disturbed by it at all all or like what what were your thoughts cuz I've heard that everyone thought it was a horrible show I was going to watch it when it first came out and Chris Miles was like you shouldn't watch this it's going to traumatize the [ __ ] out of you because it's like going to remind you so much of your life and like people in your life that's how I felt about um Breaking Bad that's fair that's really fair and so I didn't watch it for a long time and then Trisha has been like you need to see this it's so hot first of all I need to have a conversation with Trisha about what exactly was hot there are some like hot sex scenes I guess objectively I feel Trisha has like some little like funny Kinks though or like likes dark [ __ ] like that it really traumatized me like I was holding my breath the whole show and just so much of it felt like like when she had the photo of the [ __ ] on her face I I don't know why this this a recurring topic of today's episode but then then she like goes out that night and she's like drinking away her problems I was like that's literally a video of me then I find out it's at it was filmed at Bootsie Bellow which like I've literally done that like then it's just like wait now I'm trying to picture it and her entire relationship with the guy just is so like meoded like I feel like I've dated so many like piece of [ __ ] guys like that like e me too and it's just like I don't even know all of it I could see myself so like getting lost into like a cult world and like all the like scary people at her house like I've just been there I don't know yeah see I've only watched the first two episodes so I don't know anything hardly about it yeah I know it I really you finished the whole series I finished the whole series the ending I didn't really like yeah well wasn't there like not really a proper ending cuz they like couldn't even put out the last episode is that true I don't know that makes sense to me cuz my conclusion of the final episode was that like there should be another episode yeah like or that it felt like they were wanting to get picked up for a season two like it did not feel like a series finale oh I hate when that happens have you ever watched a show like loved it so much and then it gets canceled and you want to die like um what was it car Carri diaries with Austin Butler I'm still traumatized I've never seen that would I love it you would love it it's but I'm not letting you watch anything I'm not kidding if you do one thing for me this is my New Year's resolution for you watch sex in the [ __ ] City she's like watch AA meetings on Zoom um Watch Sex in the City it is literally you will learn more from that show than you will like literally any of your actual life experiences okay I'll start it but that the reason I say that is because Carrie Diaries is like supposed to be the younger version of Carrie Bradshaw oh wow okay I'll start with sex in the city I will it is the greatest show I love sex I love cities it's just so fun it's like like five like it's just like amazing wait that's really good then I I'll check it out and it'll make us want to move to New York I just responded so AI wait that's really good then I'll check it out what yeah I don't even know who that was for real what the [ __ ] just came out of my mouth I'm on a little bit of like a I've been like kind of um monotone and boring lately I'm I've been glitching you noticed maybe a few minutes ago downstairs yeah I looked at Brook and I said Brookie I like you so much and she said I cuz I was really trying to find like the perfect response like the the sweetest response I could craft although it did take me a sec yeah it's okay I know she loves me deep down you had a happy Christmas your boyfriend came to Christmas he came to Christmas now he came to Thanksgiving they love him everyone loves him so much I don't I love that they love him and they hate everyone I feel like everyone I've ever dated my parents gave like a lifelong band from their home so it's really nice to have like an opposite reaction he landed on Christmas Eve at midnight and um Deborah still like took the time to make him a stocking and [ __ ] and like of course she I remember she made me an Easter basket one year and I cried yeah it's she's the sweetest thing on making everyone feel included and there were so many of us on Christmas morning and it was really sweet and he didn't want to spend Christmas with his family it's all that his mom's in California so he'll probably see her his dad was like go go his dad like loves me so it was like really sweet and like I don't know Hawaii Christmas is also so different they all just kind of like barbecue on a beach yeah you know what I wonder I guess we already talked about this I think on canceled but what the [ __ ] can you believe that in Australia they just have summer Christmas and there's no movies about it like you just never think about that yeah why is there no movies about that like Christmas is just hot and sunny is there a [ __ ] highspeed police chase outside do you know every house on my street except for mine has been robbed well it's probably the full-time security you're paying thank God but like across the street the other day there was helicopters and [ __ ] outside and a guy went in to rob the house at gunpoint and the entire family ran outside and they called the police and there happened to be police like one street over so they came and then they were holding the guy like guns drawn outside of our house all the neighbors came out to watch and then it was a lightskin um like 58 black guy and a black hat and Amari is light skinned 58 and was wearing a black hat and he' like take the hat off and run inside he was like so scared that was this whole thing and how do you know it wasn't Amari it's true maybe Amari is just out here like The Bling Ring on a heist that's honestly tww Heist can we talk about the heist no no how was your Christmas then my Christmas honestly was so cute and wholesome and amazing I saw my sister I haven't seen my sister in a while and she's so [ __ ] funny I wish you could hang out with her she's the funny like I always think like where' the where did my funny come from and I found out that she's like way funnier than me really like quick funny or more wild funny she's like quick she's just like you you just have to meet her I remember when Lyla met her she was like wow I didn't expect that um I saw my grandparents obviously I saw your Tik Tok about your grandparents do you remember that time you and I got dinner at like yel and we meant to be like so wholesome and then we scream cried the entire dinner literally scream cried yeah um yeah I do remember that my grandma he paints her nail he literally she's like his little doll because obviously she has like dementia she can't she completely non-verbal like doesn't do anything did you does she talk at all no not anymore but my grandpa like he literally like puts her hair in a little ponytail and he like paints her nails and just pushes around like he's it's like a little doll and it's so horrible and sad but it's also like the sweetest cutest thing I know you sent me photos of them the other day and like you kind of look like them a little they're little wedding photos they got married when they were 19 isn't that so crazy that that used to just like be such a thing it was crazy Deborah was showing me her family like books and I'd never seen photos of her as a kid and I was like I want to see what like my mommy looked like as a little child you know and she was showing me and it was like Debb's first Christmas 1981 like I was born in 1998 like she had a mar so young yeah yeah like and it's just that's so crazy to me that that was like the norm that is really crazy my mom had I was the third kid and she was 22 and she had me really yeah and then she was oh wait speaking of people there are there's speculation online that I have a secret sister what do you mean that I've been hiding I saw like somebody post they were like um saying like Brooke Brooke keeps this sister a secret but like she has this sister and like y y it's my second sister Megan I never really talk about Megan cuz we didn't grow up together really but I have a second sister I also have a brother does Megan have the same dad no no two kids have the same two parents so me and my sisters all have different dads and me and my brother have a different mom and speaking of secret siblings I when I was speaking secret siblings is crazy when I was younger so I have these two cousins wait everybody keep up really quick because this is going to get confusing okay I have two cousins Alexa and Sergio okay and I grew up with them like I was always with mom whatever and obviously my brother has a different Mom let's call her Stacy Stacy after leaving my dad and having a kid with my dad obviously started dating my mom's sister okay so my aunt okay so your aunt starts dating so my cousins lived with my little brother but none of us were allowed to tell him that he was my little brother so we just they thought they were best friends but they were cousins and they didn't know what when did when did he get to find that out why couldn't he know that he was your brother because there was just I don't know like it was some drama between like you know Stacy and my dad and like no one wanted I don't know he just didn't know he didn't know he had siblings okay so he didn't know I was his sister and I would be around him and I knew he was my little brother but like we weren't allowed to tell him and they were like they were cousins but like also why is Stacy dating my aunt all of a sudden how did that happen I don't know like your dad would bring her around your mom no I mean it's Tucson and they all ran in the same circles cuz they all like had Comm common interest like it's like knitting crack anyway he knows he's my sister now or brother how did he find out was it like a birthday c yeah we definitely like eventually we told him but like probably when he was like 10 like it was like we were old I remember the time it was so strange because I could never say anything I want to know why so bad I don't know why I really don't honestly sound off in the comments you told me something today and we decided we would save it for the podcast Brooke's carrying today guys give it up for Brooke in the comments below please cuz I'm just giving I have nothing to give you told me today that you hoarded yourself out on Christmas no I unsuccessfully hoard myself out on Christmas because big difference I had high hopes for this Christmas break okay first of all I've told you before about my high school One That Got Away yes and by One That Got Away I mean somebody who I was he was like the first person who broke my heart in high school okay we all have this me so dirty then we went to college and he slept with every single girl in my sorority all my sisters and I was just heartbroken over him for so long and he wanted nothing to do with me okay and look at look at now he is so excited to see me when I come home so I I really thought I was going to do that and I just couldn't bring myself to do it what do you mean like he wanted to hang out yeah he he's like let me take you to D like let me um be a gentleman just this one time like let me take you to dinner and I'm like I really thought I was going to go and I couldn't go also I have a crush on this basketball player that you know about we love him the most unfortunate thing ever happened where he set me up with his friend how does that come about what do you mean I thought you were going to hook up with him I thought so too and he sent me well not I don't know but he sent me a video of his friend and was like he's talking about you blah blah blah and so I was like oh like who is that and he like told me basketball player as well yeah same same team 610 610 61 sorry I'm having a really hot honestly 610 so I was like can't hurt 610 that's 7t tall that's not even right like I don't even think that that's like he could actually pick you up with two fingers like a little [ __ ] ragd dooll if you want yeah so I was like you know what I'll entertain it and he's we were like talking all the whole time I was gone so sweet like just like really asking all the good questions and then he's like oh I'm actually um I'm he's like I'm flying to Phoenix today for um a game and I'm like wait I'm in Phoenix and he was like no no way so then I was supposed to meet up with him and then I couldn't do that either do you mean couldn't because you're being loyal to someone yeah is this warranted loyalty do you think this is matched loyalty that's all I want to know oh God I don't know but I wish I knew should we go full FBI right now no I want I don't want to know that's fair I decided I think that's a really good thing though like to be loyal to someone just because you want to well I can't like more than one person at a time I'm like hats off to those who can I don't anymore I'm clean yeah but I just like I don't know I just think until I know it's almost like a defense mechanism I think it's not like that it I understand wanting to do it for like safety so that like if something goes wrong you don't feel like you waste like put your eggs all in one basket that's exactly what I mean like I can't until I know that they feel the same way but I'm also such a like 3 weeks in what are we I know I'm just I'm really scared of that this time CU I like I'm way too scared of it just I don't want to know who wants better sex and who wants to start having better sex immediately the best way to get started is to go to Adam and eve.com right now Adam and Eve is offering 50% off just about any item plus free shipping which includes Rush processing more than that Adam and Eve wants to make your life easy they offer discret shipping as your privacy is a must doesn't matter how much you spend or what you buy all will be packaged and sent 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Malibu and we smoked with Hunter but we smoked like way too much and way too much like good weed and I came home and I was like oh this is perfect I'm going to get dick to like become less high so BR and not kidding and normally that works completely and the entire time I was having sex I was like I felt like I was in like a VR headset like I felt like I was like a AI may you were maybe you were just that high I at one point he like put a vibrator somewhere I don't even want to say where and I was like somewhere I just felt it like in my spine like it just like wasn't okay and afterwards we had this whole conversation we both admitted to each other that we were having sex to try to get less high and it didn't work for either one of us and then I slept for 14 hours oh God I went to bed at like 9:00 p.m. and woke up at like 11: well you're well rested at least no and then I took a nap today later like I woke up still high oh [ __ ] what what were you Smoky again crack apparently I don't know no I don't think CRA I think crack would have the opposite effect yeah I'd probably like it I'll stay away from it yeah please stay away from crack oh well I can't handle that I've got enough going on seriously would you ever like can you tell I have no topics because I was really about to ask you what it would take for you to smoke crack because there's an answer no I think okay because crack crack is what crack is you smoke cocaine kind of it's like unfiltered Coke I I I wouldn't try it but like it wouldn't be like the craziest thing considering we've tried every other drug because I haven't done heroin or meth actually I I have done me what's the difference between meth and crack I've definitely done like a fake Molly I don't know what the difference between meth and crack is what did we learn this year there's a meth pip I know oh my God have you ever smelt a meth pipe I've never smelt a meth pipe but I have seen one G what does it smell like it there's like I could never describe it if you had to get rid of one of your senses like what would you choose obviously smell is like the obvious answer because it's the only thing that's like you're not going to get rid of your sight or hearing if you could just may tast though well smell gets rid of your taste Tori doesn't have any smell or taste kind of like an awesome DIY health no it's not because since she can't so like if you were to plug your nose and eat something you can like barely taste it but you can tell when something's really really sweet really really salty or like spicy so like then she's always reaching for like junk junk Foods because that's the only time she can like feel something W that's crazy oh yeah we have the least amount of words like in the in the language to describe smell like there's only so many words you can use to describe smells whereas you can like describe sight in like a million ways W I've never thought about that that was profound that was profound why am I AI today it was it was borrowed Brooke that was so profound what's going on yeah what I feel like I'm pressing the button and you're giving me an automated response I know this is what happens when I'm sober I think I love it so I've lived in a few houses with amar's family like we had the one that we had in like middle school and then there was the one we had in high school and then like right after we got out of high school or as we like I didn't get out of high school I dropped out but like that time you know um they moved into to another house and it's been the same house since you know and they've been renting it and the owner wants to put it up for sale and they like would buy it but there's a lot wrong with it so they can't so they have to move and I'm this was my last time in the house they moved January 1st oh and I felt like that Hannah Montana [ __ ] scene you know what I mean yeah I've had moments like that it's f it is a hard I had one house that like I lived in two separate times and it's so I literally drove by it when I was home this week cuz I was like it's so emotional but it's like I'm so sad cuz it's also like Amir and Mia are little siblings like when I was growing up and like in middle school and stuff they were like too young to really kick it you know and like even when we were in high school it was like they were still like our little siblings like obviously always looking out for them always loving them but it wasn't until they kind of turned 18 and like 19 and 2021 like so on and so forth that they could like really kick it with us you know and like talk about grown [ __ ] and whatever so I feel like this house like hold the most bonding and like memories yeah I mean you're still going to do that anywhere but it is it's hard going home like for example I go home now to a house I never lived in yeah and it makes me sad cuz I'm like I this isn't my this isn't my house like I don't feel at home there I know I also have my own bedroom at this house and it's a five-bedroom house and obviously as parents as they get older you know you have no business having a five-bedroom house except for you know one week a year yeah exactly so it's like Amari has a room I have a room Mia has a room Amir has a room and like I don't get a room anymore and we're going to put bunked beds in the [ __ ] room and I'm so sad honestly so fun though imagine you and Amari in your little bunk beds I know four of them actually we're going to be in bunk beds Forever on our tour bus we are going to be in bunk beds forever are you more of a top or a bottom girl I think I should have top although I don't know I don't want your your like your like Taco Bell stench right what the [ __ ] broo I'll eat it in the goddamn living room in the bus I actually like the bottom wait should we let's let's talk Logistics I'm not even kidding yeah should we make up our tour rules right now yeah let's make up our tour rules okay wait do you think I feel like we can probably be on like opposite sides you being on Face by that is why you're my best friend maybe why maybe we can both be on like the same level but side by side that's kind of lit cuz then we can open the curtain and like peek you know what I mean I like the bottom I don't like the top because the crawling you have to kind of like crawl up there like it feels like latter you know when I was a baby or a kid I was on the top bunk me and my sister had bunk beds and there was no railing so sometimes I would just roll off onto the ground and in the middle of the night my mom would have to pick me up and put me back up how old were you four five like that's bone breaking uh yeah that's a bone breaking status that's a little crazy I never broke any Bon why would you put your sister on the top isn't she older nobody knows anyway um yeah I think consensuses were side by side so then we could like if we wanted to just like randomly hold hands we could that's really lit I agree with that you know you can't [ __ ] on a tour bus yeah well you can but great imagine how much we're gonna have to stop I think you just take that one final I'm a morning [ __ ] though actually so I just like your favorite thing to say is that you you can hold your [ __ ] and it's not a real thing you lie about it every time I can hold everything so well you cannot clench and we I proved you wrong I have video evidence what do you mean of you saying you she literally said I can hold my [ __ ] I never I'm never going to have a time where I just have to [ __ ] and literally that same day she was leaking like what are you talking about on tour this last time it's in my blog I don't know what you're talking about I really don't no I'm not saying I never have to [ __ ] I'm saying well it also you're say you said you could you can always hold it and that's not the case and it's not definitely not the case for me I've got like borderline IBS I'll be in pain but like it's not going to come out obviously there is a discrepancy of like watery [ __ ] and like solid [ __ ] like if it's solid [ __ ] let's go let's go on a road trip to [ __ ] Niagara Falls I agree with that but like you know occasionally you have some watery [ __ ] and it's not really like the journey as much you know and that's and that's okay do you know that I do this really weird thing with Ty Collins like I'm a fast [ __ ] I'm a really talented fast [ __ ] like I don't if I go to a guy's house like I'm not even worried like I'll just be like oh I have to PE like I can get it out I need to take my time but it's like it's a luxury like I want to just I want to sit on Tik Tok like I want to chill I agree with that but I'm saying like if I need to get it out and no one knows like I can and I do this bit with ta Collins where he starts a stopwatch and I go [ __ ] and we try to see how fast I can do it in and do you know my record time is a minute and 8s seconds wow that's actually really good that's really good and whenever I tell him like that I took a fast [ __ ] like I text him like whenever I take a really fast [ __ ] like I have to text him and let him know that's really nice No Sex On The Bus obviously only food in the living room I like only food in the living room I'm with that no food in the bunks weird no friends Lyla today was like do I get on the bus I love her at the shows but I'm scared about the living environments I don't know it's a whole different ball game now I know it's although lla was really good for my mental health on the last tour yeah she is just like she lightens everything she makes it feel way less like work and like you know but it just like it's a bus so it's almost like it's no matter who the person the more people the less convenient it is yeah I agree with that I wonder if we're going to like all the people we go with too because like I've had bus drivers that are awesome bus drivers that are like clearly on crack bus drivers like you know tour you have to be on crack to be a bus driver right I agree with that I do how's the Bronco though for the road Tripp it was so good and my grandparents were well my grand my grandpa was so excited to see it really it was so cute that is really cute and they put a little dash cam in it and like they were just so excited they did what does the dash cam do it videotapes the road so if you ever like get in an accident or something no one can blame you for it CU you have video evidence unless of course it's your fault in which case I would just throw out the tapes but I mean what you have to put an SD card in it and like charge it yeah but it like it just fills the whole SD card and then it re redo it so like if you were to get in an accident then you can just immediately get it off you could probably make a really fun sex tape on that like on the hood of your car yeah I mean yeah I was thinking like if I'm ever like really on a fun like beautiful road trip I could just include it in my Vlog oh wa I see that's a way better like thought process I love that yeah I wasn't thinking sex tape right away cuz like who's behind the wheel I've been really and why am I on the hood of the car I've been really wanting to release a sex tape lately you should do a pet cam VI uh version the other night I was in the hot tub and things got a little steamy steamy and I forgot that there's a camera in the back steamy the way I didn't even process it just blocking it out and then I remember we had a camera in the backyard and I was like wow I could really do something with that footage you know what I mean the thing is I don't think anyone who's even looking at those cameras would blink twice at you getting railed in the hot tub to be honest that's so true it's really true um do you want to know something that happened to me the other day sure it's not sexual don't wor it's actually very nice um but it's not nice um so when I lived at weed Lake in 2020 or whatever I had two phones I was in my two phones air I had my personal phone and my work phone right and my work phone was this phone and I had another phone the day before we were supposed to move out I put my phone on that piano over there but it was downstairs by Hunter's room and I just like walked upstairs and like there were always people in and out of that house as well though and that was kind of like the problem with this um I walked upstairs and like eight hours later I walked back downstairs to like get my phone and it was gone so then I had an entire like search party in the house for the next like 5 days for for this phone like find my iPhone I tried everything you possibly can to find a phone and like the house obviously was very big and like it that made it harder but like I had everyone on the case like it was not in that house and then I moved so we had like every mover like on the lookout for it as well like everyone just like any corner it was like honestly the perfect time to normally find a phone because there were so many people in the house like looking for it and taking everything whatever I never found the phone and it haunts me to this day oh like someone's out there with all your sex tapes so the other day Amari and I are sitting on couch and he was like why did you just call me and I was like I didn't call you like I'm sitting next to him you know and then he looks at it again he's like wait this isn't Tana like whatever it said Tana trap phone and that was like my OG phone oh yeah I have that Tana trap phone and tana real phone yeah and he got a call from my old phone whoa and so I put like nine hackers on the case to try to like clear it from their like computers oh my God but you had a passcode on it though right yeah I had this whole existent crisis that if someone ever found that phone and the stuff on that ever got leaked I'm just putting it out there right now I'm moving to Uganda really is it that bad is like freaky stuff because I feel like if it was just a sex tape like you might be proud of it there's some I'm proud of but there's this one it haunts me what's the one it was on a jet okay so that's good but it was like do you know how in the bathroom of a jet like the the door is fully mirrored usually I mean I don't really spend that much on jet think about yeah okay just think about it yes like that it's mirrored so I made a sex tape like in that mirror okay you know high club that's impressive no but it was just like from the side and I feel was it just like not a good not a good video like my back like wasn't arched and I just like I had just eaten like so much Taco about like I literally look like like really scary like really [ __ ] scary and just say it's not you well and how you really you it's so beyond me my underwear were Coral I really didn't like them I like I can you should have wiped it now that I think about it I'm going to go through my phone get rid of anything the phone yeah so I just really like I'm not kidding I'm not a b sex tape maker to be honest I just get drunk and I'm like this will be fun and sometimes it is I have some really fun ones with some funny people I feel like I've only I mean I guess I've only been in like one relationship but I don't I just don't even have to be in a relationship oh I used that case I'm going to get on it used to I Really used to now I'm better like I've learned now I'm like not like that but just when I was like young and dumb I was really like that oh my God I just had a situation um this girl I know has the same name as another girl that was hooking up they were hooking up the same guy and they both had the same name okay and he sent the wrong sex tape to the wrong girl that's actually [ __ ] crazy imagine I how would you ever recover like it's one thing to send somebody like the wrong text or like text the wrong person which I've done definitely before like talking [ __ ] about somebody to that person but like sending a sex tape and like imagine a guy you're hooking up with sends you a sex tape and it's not you I'm slitting cutting down the river not even across the stream not kidding that is like oh oh the way I would literally light his house on fire I remember the first time I ever did that in my entire life like sent the wrong text to the wrong person um it was a friend of mine in high school and her name was Bridget Nichols hi Bridget if you're watching this um but I'm about to talk a lot of [ __ ] about you so click out um thank God you gave us first and last name I'm kidding but I'm not kidding we were really good friends in high school and she had a hot ass older brother Jack Nichols I don't know where he is now Jack Nicholson right and he was super hot and so I'd always be at the house and like see him like pass through the halls and like we started flirting eventually duh and I was like stoked on this one like he was out of my leak you know and we start texting and then she like goes to school and she's like livid that I'm like talking to her brother but it like G I hated friends like that who gives a [ __ ] someone's always hotter too because they're your friend's brothers so if your friend's not down with it that's just selfish and it's not like he was like some virgin like he was a [ __ ] [ __ ] like football player like piece of [ __ ] anyways you know what I mean and to me it always just gives like you want your brother like if this doesn't affect you like who cares I agree like who cares at all and so I wrote out this entire text to my best friend Mo'Nique like about how Bridget wants to [ __ ] her brother and she's a [ __ ] freak and likefucker like how she wants her [ __ ] brother and I'm going to [ __ ] her brother anyways CU I don't give a [ __ ] like I think she's [ __ ] weird and being weird as [ __ ] and I sent it to her I sent it to her I was at the bottom of my staircase in my town home about to leave for school and I just sat there for like 10 minutes you you should have put like her mom or someone on the case like destroy that phone and I will give you a million dollars it was too late she responded immediately and she said what and then I said are you ready for what I said I told her I don't think I am I go I don't remember which friend it was but I was like that's what Monica said about you she just sent me this text I tried to play it off you're going straight to prison like I was sending her a text that but it was just so clear that it like was me like you know and she was like you're a [ __ ] lying dumbass like have fun with my brother we never recovered we were never friends again honestly really valid Bridget I get I get where you're coming from I never did it either I've had a couple friends like that who are definitely like brother [ __ ] you know what I mean like it I even like just any kind of brother and sister relationship that's too close I'm like what's why I just like probably like six months ago was talking to a guy like that where I was like your sister wants to [ __ ] you like she had like all these nicknames for him and she' like kiss him on the forehead and when they like spend like so much time together and they like go on like weird dates yes like the gift you would buy her maybe I'm being bad because it's like some people just do have healthy like relationships with their family maybe we just don't no no I love my siblings there's a difference it's the same thing with the mommy complex like when you know you know like it's like oh you want to [ __ ] them yeah you know I always hate the moms too like moms or sisters that like moms especially that don't want their like will never approve of a girlfriend of their guy like sons and it's like you want your son so you know how I said that I was dating that guy in the beginning of this year and whatever he wanted as Mom and yeah um and on our first date I've told this story on the podcast but on our first date he was like I like you so much cuz you look like my mom and I was like oh that's so sweet wasn't wasn't at all he wanted his mom so bad anyways he has a new girlfriend I can't express this enough to you does she look exactly like his mom identical like he posted a photo of her and I thought it was his mom wait that's I it was his mom I do not [ __ ] with that see that should have been a red flag you ignored that red flag and you it should have been major you was waving DraftKings casino is bringing you only the best Classics like Blackjack roulette and Slots plus exclusive games you won't find anywhere else I love playing DraftKings casino because it makes me feel like I'm back home in Vegas hitting the poker table download the DraftKings casino app now and use code canceled new players get an instant deposit match up to $100 in Casino credits when you deposit $5 or more that's code canel only on DraftKings Casino the crown is yours gambling problem call 1800 Gambler or visit www.1 1800 gambler. net in Connecticut help is available for problem gambling call 888 789 7777 or visit ccpg dorg 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for a while and they divorced for like a long time and recently got married to this guy and she's like he's the love of my life like they met each other like I don't remember how they met but it was like really cute and like she's super happy and like like Blended the families like everything and they finally get married they have speeches at their wedding they're sobbing about how much they love each other like whole nine she quits her job because she's like perfectly I'm settled down now like he's the bread winner like this is okay like I'm excited for this life like whatever you know he's had a girlfriend the entire time he married her and he made a speech at their wedding about how much he loves her and how she whatever and has had a girlfriend the entire time and now she has no job she has to move out of their house F but imagine at like 45 absolutely not after you've already abandoned like every other like thing you had going for you no no no that is so [ __ ] horrible I I can't believe that really happens to people like people who end up like finding out that their husband has like a whole separate family and [ __ ] yeah I mean I guess that like lowkey kind of happened to me but on like a really small scale yeah and I just think it's different when you're younger yeah it's so different especially like having kids and stuff like how traumatic that would be I also like you know what I have been thinking about a lot recently is like you know you think of it like we've seen so many of our friends parents get divorced and like that's like such a normal thing and stuff but I am thinking about it now and I'm like how traumatic a breakup is could you imagine like you were married and you have kids like and I feel like no parent is ever like really torn up about it and stuff I feel like if that happened to me I would have to like send my kids away yeah I think parents like hide it really well for the sake of their kids God I just never have really never put thought into like how hard that must be until recently yeah it's horrible it really is my grandparents have been together since they were 13 years old no way and theyve literally do you think they've ever had sex with any other people um I know it's your grandparents but I just no yes I know I know because um my grandpa was in the Army and they like they broke up for like a year while he was in the Army mhm and like he was in the Army they'd be [ __ ] in the Army right yeah oh my God I'd have so much sex I'd be so bored but she didn't she told me they're so cute that's actually insane that's so cute my dad has a new girlfriend she looks or she's literally the same as my Mom it's like the weirdest thing also I'm 27 years old my dad has never had a girlfriend in my entire life except for now and it's so strange she's how old I don't know how old she is wait what did you just say she just acts exactly like my mom she has like the same like weird Tendencies my mom has you know how my mom will like my mom will like show up somewhere with nine Bluetooth speakers and you're like why do you have all of these and you just don't understand why same thing his new girlfriend will show up with like three remote control cars and I'm like why'd you bring these like it's just like really strange like similarities between the two that I'm like God sometimes you just never get away from your first love people have a type and it's scary what's yours horrible terrible demented people but I've done everything to get away I've done everything to get away from it I think I'm in like the healthiest happiest place in my life I said I love you yesterday I know oh my God I love that oh God I want to be in love but then I cried it's like how traumatized are you that like you tell someone you love them and you just start crying that's scary I know it's so scary are you how long you guys been together not long enough to probably say that but no I I don't believe in that I think like you can love somebody in like literally 30 minutes I love him more than I Lov people that I've been with for a very long time you I've also like genuinely like been in love with people that I [ __ ] hate yeah truly like my last relationship I literally hated him and then it's like you look back and it's like was I in love or was that a trauma Bond like was definitely a trauma Bond yeah but I don't know that's the thing I'm like I feel like I'm experienc experiencing actual like real love and being nurtured for like the first time in a long time I'm happy for you I want that really bad that's going to be that's my goal the new year since you asked my my goal in the new year is a healthy relationship a safe relationship where I am the only one seeing him at the same time yeah that's a good goal and that's important to say because my last like three honestly yeah have been polyamorous relationships I didn't know about which is actually kind of crazy I I think it's going to come for you I think that when like everything else Falls in line and like you stop kind of looking like you're going to be distracted and on tour and not looking and I think or maybe it's the person you're with now like I don't you know I have high hopes for that which I do love I love him for you do my only goals for the new year really are to stop vaping start now the problem is that's the problem the problem is I'm going to miss it so much I really love vaping I tried vaping last night really how was it I'm like my goal in the new year is to start no it was fine I just wanted to try it yeah I don't know what it is I just really love it but I know I need to stop and to start saying no to like more things than everything I'm already having people just ask me to like do so much work on like the second and I'm like wait but I want to be in Hawaii and I want to just focus on tour and focus on myself and my well-being and yeah I think we're going to have a good like hardworking year hopefully I've been been getting lazy toward the end of the year like I haven't posted a YouTube video in a month and I senioritis kind of happens to it like and and the holidays do take up a lot of different type of energy well I just feel like nothing I'm making is like worth even posting so I'm just like that's not true don't let it don't like you know what I mean but it's like I don't know it's not like I have like any sort of deadline but I just like haven't wanted to do anything and I want to be like really good in the new year I think that our tour I actually agree with that I'm going to get all my late Vlogs out in the beginning of the new year so love when you post like a 's day Vlog in December I'm posting from Turks soon that was six months ago do you know that on December 24th that's my half birthday um Ryan told me this the other day unwarranted he was just like do you know that on December 24th you'll be officially closer to 30 than you are to 20 like because it's your half birthday why would he say that I don't know I cried I know I'm like I have a weird thing where I always like say the next year so I always I keep telling people I'm 28 and I'm not it's actually kind of smart so then you're like a little satisfied with like not being 2 28 yeah but I'm 20 I don't know well I am 20 if you know the thing like where they say like when you're born you don't you you don't start at one yeah you start at zero yeah you start at zero so really I'm in my 28th year right now CU my first birthday was one and I was already a whole year old at that time so when I turned 27 I had full 27 years behind me and I'm in my 28th year don't like it no no NOP hate it don't like it at all don't like it all you're what you just turned 25 25 so this is you're living right now your 26th year and when you turn 27 or wait 26 26 you'll be starting your 27th year um I really appreciate what you've said but I will never be thinking about it again thank you you're welcome everybody want a New Year's resolution that 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podcast what are your thoughts on the Simone biles situation I don't know a lot about it I'm not going to lie she's an icon she's a Legend um and he's just Ken like it's just some guy right she has 30 Olympic medals Olympic medals 30 yeah I just almost fell down going up the stairs Simone biles is the most decorated gymnast in the world okay her husband obviously did you see the clips M he goes on an interview he's on a podcast like you and I and the interview interviewer asks him like but straight men just shouldn't do that yeah it just ever unless you're like da p it never ends well they say like um how did you land Simone biles and he literally he's like how did she land me like I wasn't even after her I didn't know who she was when we met I was like who is this girl like I noticed she had a lot of followers and then we would go out and like people would like stop on the street and look at her and he was like I just didn't understand I haven't followed gymnastics I knew nothing about her basically saying like she was to so unimportant and she he was like yeah She chased me like she was trying so hard like all this stuff and they're still together the nerve yeah they're still together and she double she like defended him and I'm like no she didn't what she say she was like call me his wife or something and she was like are you guys done yet or something because obviously everybody's like trolling him so hard and I get that you know what I've been a victim as well of just an absolute [ __ ] loser um manipulating me into thinking that he's way better than on my side but what a disappointing thing like she is that's just crazy like is it his her husband yeah and it's like even if you didn't know at the time you know now so you had the opportunity to sit there and like HP up hype up your [ __ ] literally Superstar Legend wife and instead you used it as an to make yourself look like a [ __ ] idiot and it really just is like all men like men just say dumb [ __ ] I think that's just the whole species but like that's so sad and pathetic and he should probably like anything I would say would just get me in trouble I have to stop speaking in hyperbole I was about to say that he should just yeah CU you kept saying you were going to kill yourself and paper's like stop can I tell you what makes me literally so infuriated I want to [ __ ] chop my own hair off I love that you said that after we talked about speaking in hyperbole yes I hate all the stupid [ __ ] idiot moms who make their kids adhere to their aesthetic okay and what I mean by that is wrapping their kids gifts in all Moody neutral wrapping paper making sure that they don't have any colored toys in the house because it disrupts the like that's horri Vibe of the living room it makes me literally [ __ ] sick to my stomach when I see a kid who's not allowed to wear like My Little Pony on their shirt because it's like it's not like what are you I couldn't agre more I couldn't agree more it makes me so [ __ ] upset like imagine could you imag like think about how exciting color was to you as a kid like how fun it was to walk into a classroom and like everything's so bright and colorful and stuff could you imagine like how you would feel as a child walking around and everything you just have like a nude velvet ball yeah yeah that is horrible terrible and all because your mom wants to [ __ ] post you on her Instagram story I thought you were going to talk about um almond moms like making their kid like eat also [ __ ] hate almond moms so much so much more than anything yeah that's true I don't know kids should just have fun I'm still like that like I love Peppa [ __ ] pig just makes me so sad like God like for what I don't no one even gives a [ __ ] to see your kids on Instagram I don't care you like let them have fun let them wear Paw Patrol be there on the double [ __ ] no don't you don't even have to post them in fact you shouldn't yeah so real Beyond real you ate with that I unless it's Malibu Barbie I want to see her all day every day seriously yeah no kidding no notes on that though you're very right see [ __ ] I no notes is so funny I love no notes right now who who started no notes I saw it wait Did I think actually maybe you told me that I just heard it saying it but I guarantee you I heard it somewhere else Hannah burner oh that's very Hannah burner coded I love her um me too so much I saw her podcasting today about she got a confession that a girl called in and said it was her dream to be gangbanged you called you called Hannah called in kidding I don't need to do that anymore need I can't even like say [ __ ] right if my life [ __ ] dependent on it I don't want to do that and never have yeah I don't think that's ever been really in my cards I just did anal for the first time in a while the other day how was it tell me about it want me through it it was so amazing I don't know it was magical what are you seeing Stars not kidding that's so nice this is like still I still haven't really dabbled in that and I told you guys you would be the first to know when I do but I I actually don't think that that's true you just have to be like a little loose with it you know like take a Gaba pen in I'll take three seven I don't abuse drugs can we talk have you seen Heidi montag's videos where she's calling the paparazzi and she's like walking everybody through it no it's so amazing you have to see it she's been making these Tik toks and she's like okay you guys I'm going shopping I called the paparazzi he's going to meet me here at this time she goes like here's one bag um this one has a bag in it this one's just empty she's like so transparent about it about how she just calls the pops and like one of the times like there was a mixup so like she had to call a different one and then like the time it makes me so mad that like every celebrity and influencer and [ __ ] pretend like they don't call the paparazzi I don't know what it is that makes me so mad because it's like I'm being left out in the dust because I've just been honest about it in the beginning and then like I'll see when you when you step forward to be honest about something and nobody steps forward with you at all and it's like I'm friends with all these Paparazzi and they tell me like so and so is calling everyone is calling Julia fox actually just wrote in her book about um Bobby the pop and like meeting up with him and how he like makes her feel makes her feel so like seen you know he is the best he did me such a service at Stage Coach I'll never forget what did he do it was at Stage Coach with a brand and I was wearing the brand obviously because I had deliverables I had to post a photo in the brand but that was my only requirement so once I had taken my photo I took the outfit off and I changed into my normal outfit but I didn't realize after that they had they had hired Bobby to come do photos of us like for the brand and I wasn't wearing the outfit anymore I had thrown it away because I I didn't want to carry it around all day so it was gone so he literally took photos of Olivia Kaiser and like submitted them as me that's actually crazy Andes he's like bro come over here it was Olivia took photos and it was like he it was like played off as his mistake he's actually such a real one for that do you keep up with his Instagram stories yeah he's been he's out here like really exposing people sometimes he's my favorite Paparazzi because he's been so wronged by like major major like aist as A-list as they get and they'll call him and then they the celebrity will like wrong him and he'll come on and be like this [ __ ] nepo baby just called me the other day to meet her outside of her house and then she [ __ ] called another Paparazzi and used his photo I like he'll just go in that's so crazy I love people who are like that who are just not even afraid of like of like losing opportunities yeah it's lit it is so lit he knows to always like get to sometimes it's just necessary though like there I've seen so many videos of like Haley Kendall all of them like when if you have the outfit you need a photo of it I understand like get out of your car take a few steps and get back in yeah I 100% understand I just wish anyone else would come forward because it's starting to get real embarrassing well it's obvious I get mad though sometimes because like now that people learned that celebrities can call the paparazzi they've like T run with it too far where they're like they just can't even imagine someone going outside and actually getting I would say 85% of celebrity Paparazzi shots are staged and then the 15 is them leaving a popular restaurant or Club yeah or like Community Goods yeah who was your least favorite person this year like consecutively like who is consistently like the most upsetting person in our friend group or like no just in general I feel like four months ago I would have said Bryce Hall but I'm okay now okay but but you have to understand it's 2023 as a whole like who is the biggest disappointment in 2023 maybe me oh that got dark I don't I really don't know I I'm trying to really think modon I guess really upset me a lot was bummer such a wild bummer what about you I feel like I I just kind of loved everyone this year it's such a positive year who I really did have such a good year though compared to like oh God the end of last year when I was a little soie yeah I guess that's true this year for me wasn't upsetting but I do feel like in my entire 25 years of life I learned the most this year yeah it was a very um transformative year for me especi I mean this is the most that's ever happened in the year in my life yeah this year was the first time tried like 75 hard this year was the first time I like just noticed a lot of different tried so being sober for 75 days um it gets me every time I learned a lot about myself in toxic relationships and what I want and don't want in the future and actually kind of sticking to that in a lot of ways I feel like I this was the first year I had like existential crisises about like LA and my job and life and remembering that there's this was the first year in 10 years where I felt like I learned that there's more to life than this bubble in LA and there's more to life the age you're at for sure social media I you know I feel like even around me I realized who was going to grow up and grow with me and people that I would potentially have to leave behind and that that's a big thing that comes with like age and I was really excited to learn that learned a lot about like spending and making money and what I want to do in the future just a lot of different things what I want to do with my job this was the year of the canceled podcast I just going to say I'm so happy we got can back first of all cuz we didn't even know at the start of the year we had no idea if it was even coming back which is actually really crazy and it's the other day I like went to the mall or I went somewhere I don't remember what it was and I met like 30 people back to back to back to back that just said I love the podcast and I was like I don't know if I've even when I did like MTV I'd get a lot of people that were like I love the MTV show or like a lot of people that are like I love your this but I've never felt like it's so apparent how much people love this one thing I'm doing yeah I could tell because like this was the first time I've ever gone home and really experienced it especially like I went out with my all my like girlfriends last night and it was like same thing just so many people and like they were like wait what the [ __ ] like it's wild it's and I feel like even that even in this last month I learned like that next year I really do just want to put my foot into this podcast me too yeah should we make that a goal of 2024 it's a huge goal like I want to put are you listening Spotify I want to tour I want to make the shows the best shows possible I want to have the best guests I want to have the best episodes this will be the last unplanned one I promise I'll come back with heater I I think we should a major resolution of mine is to actually come into every and I know that this is what I should be doing already but just give me a break okay coming into every single episode with an actual like concrete list of things that I want to talk about because sometimes you and I just wing it and like it's not always horrible I usually do just as things happen like write them down but I swear to they big give you the big books like all I have written is Christmas like nothing has just happened like that's I really just have nothing to like [ __ ] say but even that like I want to have segments to fall back on I would love to see like what the people want to have as like a segment like is it an advice segment is it like I love like those episodes like or the podcast where people will write in and like ask advice and stuff although I don't know if anybody wants I mean no one wants my advice maybe they want our bad advice who knows you know um I love when theovon does that like has the the voicemails of the people call in and they all sound like him weirdly he's so funny I think we should start doing that I don't know yeah I've realized just what I want to do with my life and how I want to be and feel and act and yayay well you're going in to 2024 with a healthy relationship a very successful podcast um great friends you're half sober yeah you're slaying my face a blunt and take his anx after this but and maybe we'll ring in the New Year in Hawaii I think that we really should I think I definitely that's I decided I want to go to Hawaii because like everywhere else is so like bottle service tables ratchetry part like it's like the party of it all I've been so good that's one thing I did this year like really well is not going to any parties any clubs like honestly like pretty much this whole year I was very I I drank but just came correct about what you're nothing but good company I've I've never I haven't like surrounded myself with anybody I don't want to be around really this year and that was something I was proud of and I definitely want to carry into 2024 I agree with that and like I feel like in the beginning of the year I was a little I was good then I was a little rocky then I was and now I just I know we had every conversation we've had on this podcast this year was really how I felt about what I was going through and I meant everything I said you know and I've just learned a lot of lessons and it's good I learned a lot about um what I will not accept in a man because I had like each one was like good for one major horrible quality that's so valid I feel like I learned a lot about that this year as well like what I don't want it in someone to finally get to a place of like knowing what I do want in someone which is good I had my first um experience where a guy like was straight up honest with um his intentions recently he like he was we were talking about like what you go into dating thinking about and stuff and he was like I don't go into any dat like like go into dating somebody thinking it's going to end in a relationship and as stupid as that sounds I was like you know what I respect you saying that because everybody else pretends they do want a relationship and they don't yeah or at least who was this in my recent experiences um Mr 6'1 wow I respect honesty 10 times more if you tell me straight up like I want to have you and five other girlfriends or whatever the [ __ ] like I just you know yeah and like I get to decide at that point if that's something I'm interested in and sometimes you don't you never know maybe I'm like yeah [ __ ] it like I just want to have fun that's not the state I'm in right now but like I love somebody giving me the option yeah and not just lying to your [ __ ] face I feel like you really had a lot of love life turmoil this year in the regard that I think that next year you're going to take all of that I have but but I was like I didn't have any like major like I didn't take any major losses like I wasn't really upset about any gu this year yeah guess I should say learning lessons not like heartbroken over anybody this whole year and that's that was like really a slay because last year I was like gonna die yeah understandable completely who's your favorite [ __ ] of the obviously makoa yeah not kidding I never thought I'd find it again yeah and then just God who is your favorite friend of the year my favorite friend of the Year you and Hunter you don't have to lie you I'm not lying I really you Hunter I guess Amari just Reign true every year for meari will always Amari is like more of a century thing contrary to popular belief I really loved Ashley Schwan this year but she's also kind of forever Ashley Isabella and Amari I do just love honestly I had such a moment with Ashley and Isabella we were really slaying the Christmas party oh yeah you went to the Christmas part and Isabella went to war for you yeah I heard about this so you guys went to a very rich guys Christmas party and I got there but I got there really late I kind of got there as it was ending like I had just gotten off a flight I went home got ready decently quick looked like ass showed up everyone was there it was a really fun party but I had just gone to um this guy's house like only a couple weeks before and I'd met this stupid idiot [ __ ] loser IR is coach really yes who I want to know who this is so bad I can show you a photo I screenshotted his Instagram because I can't imagine somebody more hideous I'm talking to him he's like asking he was like really nice at first I'm talking to him I'm saying like yeah I mean um I have a podcast with like tan Mojo because he was saying like I do know and he was like yeah I teach I was like oh I have a podcast with tana and then he just immediately starts just [ __ ] like talking so horribly about you like like the way I look I it just it's not it's not important what he was saying I want to know I guess all if you're not just well just like it it's just I would never repeat like it just there's no need but like I literally my jaw was on the ground cuz I'm like I just [ __ ] told you that I like we have a podcast together she's like literally my best friend like why the [ __ ] like why would you feel comfortable telling me that and so I literally was just so disgusted by it and I I didn't say anything in the moment but I I went afterward to everybody who I knew knew him like one of my friends knew him and I was like first of all fire that man he's a loser and I just thought I would never see him again but then I saw him at the Christmas party and I told Isabella of the tea and we just went [ __ ] crazy on him really to his face yeah cuz he was he came up trying to say hi to me and I was like why why the [ __ ] are you talking to me like you're you're weird and you're so horrible what a loser freak I like I appreciate you and Isabella first of all I ride for you both absolutely Isabella was like really talking some logic into him she she was literally like so what what about like your life made you so miserable to like feel like you have to say those things about people we were like isab I she never even told me this those are like some real friends like I just found out about this like today and like this happened I don't like it because he's like directly affiliated with people that we know so that like pisses me off why are we having this guy around I don't know fire him so I'll have to like look into it but I've always just found it like so wild especially lately like I just lately I don't know what it is but I've been thinking about this like 10 times more than usual it blows my mind to me that there are like hundreds of thousands of people out there who do not know me who know 15% of me that I choose to say online that viscerally hate me and like I don't know like can like pick me apart with like I don't know you and you don't know me I know it's so hard though because we also benefit from that in the same way like our whole we're like everything we do is based on like people loving us in that same way yeah you know what I mean they don't know us either yeah I know it is so weird to me and that that's the thing it's always like balancing that um dichotomy is like it's awesome and beautiful but it's also horrible what tell I went through all of 2023 not knowing what dichotomy means she said it so many times it's like a like a b like a I just to get that off my chest balanced but you know whatever anyways like someone the other day one of makoa's like friends sent him a clip of me and Jeff I don't know where it was but just like essentially like insinuating like yo you okay with this bro like you know what I mean [ __ ] business and and it's like makoa obviously knows that Jeff is like a brother to me but it's like so cra like and that's not wrong on his friend because his friend is seeing something or has a Paras social relationship with who I am online and knows makoa and is just trying to look out for him and so on and so forth but it's like just so wild that like if makoa was dating like a normal girl his people wouldn't be like weighing in on the things I do a like makoa doesn't know about it be like you know what I mean like so on and so forth it's just it was like blowing my mind that I was like it's crazy there's just like so much information available about you yeah like it's like there nobody else is like that literally I just saw a Tik Tok about like my birth dad it was like people talking about him and I was like first of all that's just crazy like born in 1953 he was yeah my birth RS are really old the top comment was like he used to work for my parents he would take a flip phone everywhere and like like a physical map and like all this [ __ ] about like my dad and I was like that's so [ __ ] crazy like the world that we live in and it was like the top comment with like 100,000 likes and I was like that's so crazy I think about that like my mom and my sister work at the same place and like so many people who work with them are like fans of cancelled and I think constantly about how like they they are like inside my they have like all The Insider info on my family that I don't even know yeah I it like [ __ ] with my head I don't know it weirds me out what was your favorite cancellation of the year um I'm gonna go with Matt re I'm gonna go with a tie between Colleen Balinger and Matt r no I'm gonna go with Matt r i just you know what yeah yeah like such a Revenge fantasy of mine like that I didn't even know I had you like imagine that like obviously you don't want somebody to be successful after they do you wrong but like you just don't imagine that it's going to go that badly I saw a girl like songwriting on Tik Tok about you and mount R and I found it really funny yeah I also saw you guys I'm not heartbroken I promise I also saw a girl singing Hefner like fee Bridges like [ __ ] on you like and it was crazy I was like this is funny did you say Bridges did I say Bridges I meant Bridges okay that's good favorite Scandal of ours or mine this year because I know you didn't really have it um what kind of scandals were you can I objectively just say The Wine Lady I was going to say that but I didn't want to say it because I I think that a lot of people thought that was actually really wrong and it was yeah I mean the media took and you obviously experienced this with Matt re but took a very very much of a hyperbole sentence that yeah like that I said for my viewers but then again we talked about this in the last episode I get into so much trouble it is crazy because you just expect that only the people who listen to the canceled podcast actively are going to see things and that's just not the truth yeah and then when shit's on like NBC and take it out of context it like makes you look like a [ __ ] piece of [ __ ] and not that I'm not a piece of [ __ ] I guess but like obviously I don't want anyone to on alive but I think that it was just funny like it just like it was just like like how like how did this blow up this much out of proportion that it was like and it definitely wasn't funny in the moment but at all it became funny you know um favorite celebrity of the year do you have one right now my brain is screaming to say Northwest oh I don't know yeah I think my I'm GNA lock in my final answer on Northwest I really [ __ ] with Jacob Al Lordi right now I'm not going to lie but he's not like really like oh my god the guy who played God what was what's his name Barry in saltburn bar very bar I don't know the names he's like the main guy in saltburn you watched it right yeah I accidentally hit the wax pen like 30 times though he's so [ __ ] amazing God accidentally as [ __ ] who's your least favorite celebrity of the Year Matt R he's not a celebrity he's a influencer who was your favorite canceled guest of the Year oh Trisha of course Trisha but everyone expects me to say us to say Trisha so I think we should omit Trisha Trevor Wallace Trevor Slade Trevor's birthday is day after let's go who is your we really should go to his birthday party and do some funny ass [ __ ] I think so too but also just I might be out of here can't stay in La very long and I'm might come imagine for New Year's we're on mushrooms we're underwater I do really want to come we're like in the bed of a pickup truck like watching feel so guilty but like Murphy doesn't even care like when I get back she doesn't she's not even happy to see me so it's like but I do feel bad like I have a responsibility she could be happy to see you maybe she just doesn't I'm about to leave on tour for 4 months you guys this episode we're doing our best I'm serious but we're just really happy girls we spent the holiday with our families like we're both in pretty happy things with boys like the pop culture has been boring Gypsy Rose is getting released from jail that's all we really have um and today we have a special guest off camera who's actually here off camera a lot and he goes by the name Steph can we get a microphone for Stephen will you come in the middle of us Stephen and I have a lot in common right now cuz we're both receiving death threats yep on multiple platforms I always receive death threats yeah I guess that's true we probably all always do but um do you guys think we look like sound off in the comments I think we look so much alike really you don't think so I mean I I can see that by like the the the hair like the the features like col the same color yeah I'm just I'm very I'm very red to I'm noticing that fug years so that's great how are you I'm doing so good right now so Stephen and I met I love that Stephen and I met a long time ago through a dear dear friend Jeff woodi um and whenever someone gets fired or quits the Jeff Whit company I I bring them over here you're a poacher I'm a poacher um and Stephen was here today him and Aon are cousins actually so um they're always together and Stephen comes by for the canceled podcast what did you think of this EP today's episode honestly love it I thought I was going to be like y'all's what's that word the derogatory not derogatory demographic not derogatory I'm sorry guys I really thought I wasn't going to be you know y's demographic like you know you've never tuned in uh a few times yeah I've watch all the clips as well it's a girl you know what I mean like you think this is just a girl show no no I mean it could be a guy show too I just it's completely for the girls in the gays yeah so I was just like I don't know but I was like listening in over there and I was like I mean it was making me laugh you had some good points you were talking about how you would Sex in the City I used to hunt my pillow do that when I was like 10 cuz I it had sex in the title oh my God you should probably got wait I really understand that because one time one time when I was like really young I was in a hotel and it was on the TV and my mom was asleep in her bedroom and I put it on like thinking like it was going to be like something crazy and I was so scared for my mom to see I was watching Sex in the City but I was like what's going on in the show TV curious had a Spider-Man pillow that would I anyways like intimate relation is that like a real thing that happens like as a guy like like in American Pie when you start having sex with everything I think that's how it starts is you start humping objects mainly pillows I guess really okay I'm assuming I don't know that's how I that was that was you dipping your toes in the water yeah that's how you got your start it was a Spider-Man pillow how old were you when you lost your virginity Stephen you don't have to share that you don't remember oh 18 or 17 I was 17 too 17 I really yeah 17 I lost it to um a prostitute wait really yeah she was 30 I was 17 and did you pay her wait Stephen you're a victim my older brother did wait Stephen you're a victim is crazy 17 and 30 victim but I wanted it like I I was like down you can't consent to that you're 17 really a I'm sorry you had to find out this way well yeah I mean that's it was I mean it was a great experience for me like I thought it was sick I like told all my friends I was like dude I had sex with a 30-year-old okay well how did it go no or should I not it was at my brother's apartment and he had his friend over no I'm not going to tell that story he put a big plastic sheet down over his bed though a tarp yeah a tarp and it a plastic sheet and I faked I faked the orgasm I faked it what do you mean we do it every time well yeah that's fair well like I did it in like inside like a cream piie essentially right but then I it would happened within like why did you look at me because you I don't know you brought up cream pies earlier so it just reminded me of that but I I kept going after I finished because I didn't want to like disappoint and it was like only a minute in already like it was so it was so overwhelming oh I get how that could happen have you seen have you ever like we were just one of our friends just told us a story about how um one time she was cuddling with a guy and he came has that ever happened to you no but I get hard when a girl like hugs me if I really like them okay never hugging you again actually you definitely don't get hug no not like from like friends and stuff I'm talking about if like I'm like really into a girl and like we've been talking I get how that could happen I don't well you can you can have a conversation and like get hard guess why would you not be able to get hard from a hug I guess that's true you don't maybe okay maybe not a hug but if they're like sitting on my lap or something and like an Uber and we been talking i' be like uh oh have you ever had a masseuse this is probably not like a for a guy question but like I got this massage one time in Vegas all sentences start horribly like that but like it was at the manderlay Bay Resort in Casino so it was like a nice Spa you know what I mean and the guy started the massage with like two hands and at one point like he brushed his body against my shoulder and I think he I'm just traum dumping and I think he was hard and then he just started doing the rest of the massage with one hand oh my God yeah and like I remember hearing like like rubbing you rubbing not me it wasn't he wasn't rubbing me oh wow I just yeah you're a victim too dude it was just really big have youever you've gotten a happy-ending massage duh why is that a duh it's stepen yeah [ __ ] yeah I went weekly I went point with a friend it was like a [ __ ] that's like kind of a gay thing to do together is that rude to say you know how like guys go to the strip club together and that's kind of like a little I would say you guys all go together to get hard together that's weird it's a but we're in different rooms and it's a bonding experience you can like share your experience afterwards and be like wow what a great time I'm not gay shaming yeah I could see where like maybe it could it could look gay but it's like I think it's special it's a special yeah with your your friends no I don't do it anymore but where was this uh in Woodland Hills what's it like like walk us through a happy ending from a guy's perspective do you get shy because I feel like I would get shy but you have to be confident so they don't like you have to like act like you've been there before so they're not like questioning questioning questioning it you're doing you have to act like you've been there before so they're not like questioning questioning you I can't anyways doesn't matter uh you walk in and it's like completely silent and it's very just like calming and like relaxing music's playing and your like your heart's pounding and you got to be like 30 minutes please and then they just bring into a room and then like what do they they say they give you a towel that's what they do and then they walk out and then you have to get hurry up and get butt naked before they come back in I hate that when they knock and you're not ready yet and I'm like God why go back so fast give you any time to like get undressed so you have to rush get undressed I put the tip on the table like say oh my God I thought he meant the tip no no no the money and then yeah you just lay down and then put the towel over your butt and then your heart's just pounding and you can feel it and it's just so how do they know that you want to happy ending or is that just like what they do there that's what they offer that's what they do there's a place called what if you go in there just thinking what if you go in there just thinking you're going to get a regular massage no you you go on rubmaps.com and it tells you all the ones that have what what the [ __ ] is rub maps.com it's a map that shows you everyone that has them and that when and ones that don't and they have reviews like guys will leave reviews of like really in detail reviews of like this is the most important information probably I've ever been told tell me tell me you left a review on there my friend had the account not me so I'm assuming he did but and you went so anywhere you go you could use rub maps absolutely I did it in Utah imagine that getting a happy ending in Utah scary yeah that sounds like so then sa do they talk no it's pretty silent and do you just like come awkwardly like are you just like you don't have to share yeah well I'll just leave that detail out and then they towel it off of you that's true huh yeah okay I'm just going to say it I don't know if you you can put this in if you want I've already said this I think before on the other podcast but that one that you won't see the name of anymore but like what comes up must come down right and they don't really angle it properly when like it's it's you're like about to finish so oh my God what if you shoot yourself in the eye or something sorry did you oh no like twice yeah and then they have to wipe it off your face and it's most awkward it's like I was like oh oh on your face in your hair and and you don't want to like make it uncomfortable you're already like awkward so like you know how you get like yeah you don't want to embarrass them either so it's like almost like You' have to pretend it didn't happen yeah there's like post nut Clarity right like you kind of get like you're like oh okay let me get out of here but as it's happening you know I don't know it's just not the best feeling so they usually just like wipe it off your face and they'll giggle well that's just me and that's only happened to me but but you walk out so happy yeah well it's a happy ending after all yeah just got to go home and shower it right after and then I have to go to rubmaps.com I swear it's a real thing that's insane not the Yelp for the tugies there so many more than you think like it's literally a map that shows like I might have to check it out but girls can't get Happy Endings what are they going to do finger blast the [ __ ] out of you yeah I don't know you know what a bummer I feel like that's something I would want to partake in could yeah I had a friend who [ __ ] her massage therapist I was thought that was kind of cool we have one who does it all the time well yeah but that's just a little different oh Stephen thanks for coming on honestly you really you really added to this I'm leaving every single word you said and I'm not actually kidding that was amazing I feel like now we have an episode yeah not kidding at all here thank you guys for tuning in to another episode of the canceled podcast I'm gonna actively try to get some stories for the next episode I'm I'm going to me too I'm going to go on rub maps I'm going to come back with a um boyfriend also this episode was sponsored by rub maps I thought you had like a secret sponsorship you needed to give I love you Brook we love Celsius I want to deal next um I love you so much I'm happy at everything that we did together this year and the things we accomplished and I wouldn't want to ring in the New Year doing this with anyone else and I'm so excited for our tour I love you too Happy New Year happy New Year guys bye guys Happy New Year next episode will be better seriously I'm so sorry I

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Length: 82min 36sec (4956 seconds)

Published: Sat Jan 13 2024