Repented for not loving my wife, then God healed our marriage!!!

this is real Christianity this is profound Christianity this is the early church that were so obsessed and possessed with the one who loved them and gave them so forth that they didn't want to even grieve his heart you have hard hearts Christ didn't have a hard heart towards his bride even though his bride has played the part of a harlot over and over and over we played the parts of a harlot we have given our hearts to stuff to things to people instead of a giving in to Jesus and you know what's so wonderful he keeps forgiving us keeps on reaching out and saying come on come on come on come on I got to the place I had a lot of them I had a lot of strongholds in my family I was raised with I wasn't raised in a godly home I wasn't raised in a home I believe my dad loved my mom to what degree he knew how but he would beat her and slap her around and treat her like dirt when I got born again I said I'll never physically abuse my wife God get a hold of me but I would still speak to her sometime like she was a dog and and I had this fear inside of me I had this fear this overwhelming fear I thought because my dad was absolutely paranoid I found out later why but my dad his first wife left him after three months and and and and he accused my mom of committing adultery anuman that my oldest brother was not really his son and was all lies you could see my brother Dennis looked just like my dad but you know how the devil works with the human mind it's like a worm that and I had this thing inside of me and I told my wife I told her I said if he ever committed don't trap me I said that's it I said you're out the door no listen I was in Christ that was in Christ and because of these strongholds through the years almost lost her here and there but she had too much she had too much of God inside of her to leave me you know now it was a pastor all these years ever ever since I was pastoring before I married her and so all these years were working in the ministry but sometimes man this spirit rise up in me this spirit of fear and paranoia and and jealousy and accusations and so forth and so on and it got to the place to write around 2000 and 2001 right around there she had her bags packed without me knowing and she was gonna leave me I knew she was gonna leave me now I was in prayer one day probably in the sanctuary and I heard to me it was like the audible voice of God he said if you do not leave her alone you will lose her non-new God gave her to me I mean when I see her I was up on a ladder putting a sign up on in a market an old movie theater called the ultimate trip and I heard this voice behind me saw like an angel and I turn around here's this blue-eyed blonde babe in the spirit of God said to me she's your wife I didn't tell her I was so happy I ran into the old movie theater and I ran on the top of those old rickety chairs I ran down I ran back up inside she's the one she's the one she's the one she's the one I had enough wisdom to not tell her that God told me you're my wife but five months later she walked down that aisle I can still see her and her beautiful white dress and she had kept herself pure for me she didn't know it was me but she came down a tower she said I do and I said I do but you know what it wasn't all happily ever after my kids can tell you that but back in 2000 about 2001 the Lord spoke to me sitting a loser I started weeping and wailing I got all loose he said then you better start doing what I told you to do I said what's that God he said you loved her like I loved the church you stopped preaching at her stop quoting scriptures at her stop trying to control her and if she does commit adultery forgive her that's what he told me so I went home weeping and wailing and crying like a big baby and I wrapped my arms around her said baby please forgive me I'm so sorry the way I've treated you not but you did this to me it doesn't matter what she did to me I said baby I know this sounds twisted I said even if you commit adultery on me I don't it'll hurt but you know what I want you I need you and I love you it doesn't matter anymore oh don't misunderstand me be not deceived God is not mocked whatever man so she's gonna reap I understand this and it does bring death and destruction in your home but you know what I said Lord you love me in my adultery for if any man is a friend of the world he's an enemy of God he says your daughter's and adulteresses how many times have we been an enemy of God but doesn't he forgive you she'd go ahead me forgive see but I discovered something real quick because for a while I was a force that drove my wife away from me my attitude my demeanor and I was operating in fear it was really 90 percent fear it wasn't really anger it wasn't hate it was fear I was afraid of losing her job said the things which I feared came upon me I was afraid I didn't want to lose her see she's the best thing that God had ever done in my life besides being born-again I didn't want to lose her and I was dribbling with fear fear night and day torment torrent fear has torment and finally it just broke I said okay god she's yours anyways he said to me she's my woman she ain't yours I gave to her as a guy used to tell her before I had a revelation that in heaven she's free I told her I said when you get to heaven I'm gonna basically hound you wherever you go it's like no you eat we could be married in heaven isn't that strange but you know what when I began to love her the way that Christ told me to I became a magnet to her I began to draw her to me to where all of a sudden she's coming and running towards me again and if I act like an idiot it drives her away and I act like Christ did draws her if I act like the devil it drives her away if I act like Christ it draws her God is coming back for a bride with our spot or blemish or wrinkle or any such thing we're preaching oneness with Christ in this church not a oneness that says you can live any way you want to do anything you want and God loves you no matter what well that's that's not the issue that's not really the issue is it the issue is I want to be one with God I'm not trying to use God or get from God or manipulate God or control God I want to be one with him in his nature in his care I want to be just like Jesus how about you well give the Lord a hand clapping the show come on

Channel: Jesus IsLord

Views: 29,484

Rating: 4.9223299 out of 5

Keywords: love, marriage, divorce, healig, jesus, God (Deity), Future

Id: izR9390plFg

Length: 7min 33sec (453 seconds)

Published: Sun May 05 2013