My Mom Ignored Me, She Pretended I Don't Exist

most people have a person in their lives that they can go to with their problems not me it's just my mom and i and i don't even like her much it wasn't always this way when i was young we were close my mom dad and i were always goofing around mom and dad were always together the hardest memories are when i think about how happy we all were that changed when i was 10 just after my dad left he started becoming more and more distant he didn't show up at home until late in the evening eventually he stopped coming home he didn't say goodbye to us i was crushed by that all he left was a letter i still remember my mom reading that letter to me i was big enough to read but she wanted to read it to me she said that his handwriting was really difficult to read my dearest boy i love you these past few weeks haven't been easy for me i've been offered a job working for the argentinian government i will be in charge of keeping the country safe from bad guys it's what i've always wanted to do but it comes at a price what i will be doing must be a secret to you and your mother if people find out about my family you will be in danger i can't come back home anymore and you cannot come to visit me but don't worry i will continue to write you i will even call when i can love you always dad i cried when she finished the letter my mom instinctively gave me a hug halfway through that hug she pulled away little did i know that it was the last time that she would ever hug me from that day on whenever i cried she avoided me and whenever i tried to hug her she retreated away from me and changed the subject with a flash of a smile the next few months were tough i did everything i could to get my mom's attention but she became more and more distant i wasn't willing to give up though mother's day was coming up i spent weeks preparing a handwritten card along with a treasure hunt around the house for my mom i saved up every cent that i had to buy her the perfume that she liked even going into the city alone to buy it it was scary but i did it all for her i believed that if i made this mother's day amazing i'd get through to her and we'd go back to some kind of normal mother's day arrived and my mother was out of the house early before i was awake she arrived at 10 pm that evening i was waiting up for her happy mother's day mom i said giving her the gift she gave me a weak smile and said thank you i've had a long day kiddo i'm going to sleep now she left me standing there alone wondering what i had done wrong i was broken and hurt from that day on things changed between us every so often i got a postcard from my dad from argentina the postcards contained nothing personal only famous quotes things like don't judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds that you plant when i was young i thought these were wonderful pieces of wisdom that my dad had discovered but i soon realized that he'd found them on a quick google search on my 11th birthday he called me he sounded different but i was excited to speak to him he wished me a happy birthday thanks dad how are you how is work going in argentina i miss you so much when are you coming home i had so many questions but my dad didn't have many answers he stuttered out a few answers and then said he had to go i put down the phone beating myself up all my questions had chased him away by the time i was 12 the postcard stopped they were replaced by emails my dad wrote once a month always the same hey how are you how's school going everything is fine here the government won't let me say what we're doing but i'm well he'd end off with a famous quote and i'd wait for a month to pass before i got another email my excitement would slowly wither from reading each of these emails i finally worked up the courage to speak to my mom about how i was feeling but the moment i brought up my emotions she changed the subject and found something to keep herself busy with it was clear that my mom was too busy to listen to me again i wondered how i could be so foolish to think that my mother and father actually cared about me i was about 13 when i stopped looking for his emails i stopped reading them it didn't matter anymore in my mind they were spam now my mom was much busier now she had taken on another job and she was hardly ever home she hired a babysitter to take care of me in the evenings the babysitter and i became good friends but i soon outgrew her care i could take care of myself now i was growing up quickly as i grew older things got even worse i became more and more invisible to my mother she would only notice me and speak to me when it was absolutely necessary it made me angry so i made it necessary for her to speak to me i started fights at school the teachers called her in and suspended me on the drive home my mom would shout at me and i'd blame her for everything the heat of those arguments was exactly what i was searching for it was warm and it showed me that she genuinely cared it was amazing but it didn't last long after a while she stopped coming to school when i fought i'm too busy she would tell them when i turned 14 i decided to go against everything that she said whatever she wanted or said i would do the opposite that's when i started hanging out with the bad boys in the neighborhood she'd warned me to stay away from them and that's what drew me right to them it was fun hanging out with them they had this kind of carefree life they did whatever they felt like doing we spent our afternoons playing practical jokes on the old ladies in the neighborhood laughing as they chased us away with brooms from their homes these boys were a lot like me in so many ways their parents didn't have time for them that brought us closer together soon we became our own family we looked out for each other it was great to have people care for me again a year later my friends and i were bored of the practical jokes we needed something more thrilling we started sneaking into people's houses and looking through their things it was exciting knowing that we were always seconds away from being caught but even if we did get caught it was okay we had a code of silence we were brothers and we'd always look out for each other soon the sneaking turned into breaking into houses we kept pushing the boundaries looking for more ways to get the biggest thrills up until that point it was a game that i enjoyed playing it was when one of my brothers fell for a girl that things turned ugly as much as he adored this girl she wanted nothing to do with him we laughed about it move on there plenty of fish in the sea we told him but he wouldn't she disrespected me he said and i'm going to teach her a lesson hearing him say those words scared me seeing the anger in his eyes told me that this time was different this wasn't a game we tried to calm him down but he wouldn't listen worst of all he wanted us to help him teach her a lesson after reminding us of our brotherly code we agreed that night i couldn't sleep my stomach was tied up in vicious knots i didn't want to go ahead with the plan but i didn't want to upset my brothers more than ever i wished i could talk to my mom or my dad but here i was alone what had my life come to i barely made it through the school day i was so distracted by my brother's plan we waited for her in an alleyway near the school the girl passed this way on her walk home my job was to lure her into the alley i saw her walking by and called her she saw me and smiled and she started to walk towards me i lost my nerve i couldn't do this run get out of here i screamed i felt relieved to see her run but my brothers weren't happy they made me pay they beat me up and told me that i was dead to them i was no longer one of their brothers we'll get her without you he said to me as they left me lying in the alley beaten and bruised i didn't sleep well that night and skipped school the next day my mom didn't know and didn't care either i kept hearing my brother's words in my head we'll get her without you i knew that they were serious and i knew that they were angry enough to seriously hurt her i had to do something about it i went to the police station and told them about my friend's plan they took me inside the station and sent me over to a detective he took my statement and asked me lots of questions about the names of my friends and the girl where we went to school etc then he asked me to give him a minute i need a cup of coffee the detective's desk was a mess of files i decided to help him out while fixing them up one of the vials caught my attention i recognized the name it was my father i opened it up and there he was it turns out he wasn't in argentina he was here i took a photo of his address and finished up my interview with the detective he told me that he'd call my brothers in and give them a good scare i walked to my dad's house my mind was racing with so many ideas why hadn't my mother told me that he was here i knocked on the door it took him a minute to answer but he did he was surprised to see me son he said he was a bit of a mess it looked like he had just woken up he was unshaven and his clothes were stained it's me dad what are you doing here did they send you back from argentina he was confused argentina you work for the argentinian government i said the work you do protects the people my dad told me to be quiet he pulled me into his house it was an even bigger mess than he was you're right son i escaped and they're out to get me that's why i'm hiding out in this dump i'm going to need your help is your mom still around i nodded i need ten thousand dollars call your mom and ask her to send me the money the more he spoke the more i could tell that he was lying to me i listened for a while and told him that i'd come back i went back to the detective and asked him about my father i'm sorry to hear that he's your dad he's a con man he's been pulling cons for 15 years now in and out of jail for the last seven i couldn't believe it my head was a blur filled with all the lies i'd been fed from my mother and now my father i felt ashamed angry and confused i was waiting for my mother when she arrived home it was after 10 pm and she was exhausted she didn't want to talk but i didn't give her an option i told her i'd found my dad that was someone trying to take advantage of you she said but i could tell that she wasn't expecting this i'd caught her off guard i kept pushing her for answers everything you told me was a lie she tried to distract me the way she had always done as she walked away from me i said the one thing that had been in my heart all of these years the one thing that i hadn't said out loud because i was too ashamed to admit it what did i do for you to stop loving me she stopped then and turned around she began to cry then the tears coursed down her face for the first time in years she was seeing me actually seeing me i never stopped loving you i was trying to save you she said from who i asked from me she slumped into the corridor shaking her head i was a mess it's the reason why your father left he told me that i was too demanding too clingy i asked too many questions about where he was and what he was doing he told me that a doctor friend of his had diagnosed me as crazy if i kept behaving this way i'd lose you to social services eventually he left he told me that i was the reason you would grow up without a father and if i knew what was good for me i'd leave you alone before i chased you away as well but that wasn't all before he left he gave me a letter to give you i remember that letter i said but you don't know that what i read to you was a lie i didn't believe her i didn't believe any of this i asked her to show me reluctantly she did the letter said son got to go dad i read it over and over and now i started to cry that was all he had to say my mom nodded i couldn't let him break your heart like that so i made up a story i sent you postcards and then emails i even paid someone i work with to call you and pretend to be your father my mom explained that the real reason my dad left was that his victims had finally caught up with him more than 20 people showed up at the house demanding the money that he'd swindled from them i took on the second job to pay these people back by next month i would have paid back every cent that he stole we both went quiet for a long time it was a good quiet it felt warm and honest why didn't you tell me i eventually asked your father was very persuasive he made me believe that i was a bad mother that my care was actually obsession and that i would chase you away with my intensity for years i've blamed myself it was safer to tell you a story it was safer to keep you far away from me i watched her now the woman that i had come to hate for reasons i couldn't understand now with her defenses down crumpled into a heap i saw the woman that i had loved the woman who had loved me all the years of hating her washed away in that moment i walked over to her and gave her a hug that hug was like a bridge connecting me to that 10 year old version of me we sat like that for a long time i hugged her while she cried and she hugged me back the next day we went to the police station and spoke to the detective my mom had enough evidence of my dad's scams to get him arrested for good he had spent every cent of the money he had stolen but that didn't matter my mom stopped working her second job after she'd finished paying my dad's final debt we used the free time that she now had to reconnect the detective was true to his word he scared my brothers so badly that they stopped messing around they even stopped talking to each other they never spoke to me again but i don't care silence has a way of destroying beautiful things the truth is so much better the end

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Published: Sun Oct 04 2020