More Understanding Rebecca. Addiction

there are so many people out there again who seem to get me you know what I mean mhm I'd just rather be around those sorts of people I get you Rebecca and we may never meet but you have a friend from afar and I like to explain to people things about Rebecca because I want people to understand you know there's a lot of people that go in and say hurtful things and I'm always standing up for Rebecca and it's a headache sometimes and you know I understand how people can be you know um and I know firsthand how people feel about addicts that won't reach recovery because I was that addict once upon a time where do these people know you from just from the streets or from my Channel or from where just in general I don't know but they recognize you yeah and it's because the Rebecca that people find uh endearing or whatever word you want to use is the Rebecca who is somewhat cogent the the more the more sober you are the more likable you are that just reminds me of what my best friend said my only best friend um when she had guests and I'm sober now so she's like you see guys this is the Christen that I want you guys to see the guy the the Christen that you guys you know you don't see like sober Christen is the best Christ I love this you know and and she said that people would say things about me you know um because of me being out of my [ __ ] mind you know cuz I have been really out of my [ __ ] mind like the same but different you know like it's every addict is different when they're out of their mind so be quiet just for two minutes so I can get you a key to the room and you couldn't do that sorry meth is one hell of a drug alcohol is also one hell of a drug you're insane when you're high or when you're when you're lacking a weak of sleep I don't know even me who who really wants to help you and and we'll bend over backwards and drive downtown just to connect with you yeah I just wanted to just throw you in the in the dumpster yesterday you were [Music] so impossible to deal with I know I've had people saying similar things to me as Mark says to Rebecca seriously I [ __ ] know really yeah I'm really famous out here Rebeca ol on YouTube but anyway not the point I stayed here before Mark there's a sharid right down there around the corner we'll try that one you won't get in there either I will Mark can try this is this is ex scenar is going to happen everywhere great footage Mark let's go you want to try again walk Qui me thank you for filming me right now Mark really polite you have no idea how much this hurts me I'm a real person [ __ ] vagina [ __ ] dick there's no hotel that's going to take you to the continential heart thank you Mark thank you for having so much faith in me I'm just telling you you could have maneuvered that in a way where they didn't do that but thank you Mark you got me that motel room how about going there remember that Motel you took me to so one I was by the Armada one was kind of like near Korea Town how about there big a room Latino boys see me there mark God please if you just want to do the car throw me 100 bucks like I don't even matter to you which I know I don't it's fine you know then you can just do that it's what we're used when you're when you're in this state you're not going to get [ __ ] Hotel before Mar yeah but you weren't in this crazy out of your mind state they're not going to let you in any hotel the Continental probably won't even take you thank you for just being so helpful about it I'm I'm sorry this offends you so much you're not the one being called a clown in your face some think I even belonged in your car cuz I'm wearing a wig and heels no it's because you're out of your mind on drugs because of your I'm sober Mark [ __ ] you're not sober I did not do any drugs last night [ __ ] well then you're out of your mind some guy told me some fake crack I am out of my mind Mark I thought that's what you liked about me I thought that's what made it so appealing oh Rebecca every everyone loves you well they love me cuz they get me mar when you're really addicted to something you want to avoid it in a conversation at all cost you don't want it being brought up because then you have to acknowledge it and then you have to acknowledge the problem of it that you have with it and then you don't want it to be brought to the attention of others around you you just want to deny deny deny like I've said before so when Rebecca says I'm sober I haven't had any drugs and then something about fake crack you know but being sober you know denying like of course Rebecca is not sober but that's the thing about addiction again is you don't want to bring it up and when you're under the influence you don't want anybody to even know it especially if you're an addict assuming that others are putting you down when you're in a whacked out State of Mind when you're high on whatever it is even if you're not high like if you're anorexic like Eugenia cuni she does the same thing which when Eugenia Cooney is on Tik Tok on live people are saying things to her about her weight you know things dealing with her weight like hey um glad to see you're in recovery or something like that and she's like I don't have anything to recover from guys you see it's it's blocking that addiction subject out completely so that it doesn't have to be acknowledged um victimhood is also kind of a a really weird trait when when it comes to addiction um you really think that people around you think the worst of you so you put yourself down in front of them and they don't realize that it's causing drama and like trying desperately to find selfworth when you're out of your mind you're going to say things like you know I know I'm trash or you know I know I'm a piece of [ __ ] and stuff like that so what do you think of this lifestyle huh what do you think of this lifestyle that you keep chasing

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Length: 7min 8sec (428 seconds)

Published: Sun Jan 07 2024