Mint Ice Cream? | To reach you (DDLC MOD)

[Music] [Music] heyyo spaghetto here and welcome to Doki Doki to reach you this is a mod that came out today actually I'm playing a mod the first day it releases so I'm early for once her reign I'm also hoping that you guys are having a very Merry Christmas you know my little gift to you guys was to record you all bonus video so you guys can have one on the holiday if you wanted to watch one or something like that so yeah that's why I'm making this this video maybe a bit shorter than my usual ones because after this I would like to go spend time with my family and enjoy the holiday for myself so nonetheless I found this mod on the DDL subreddit and I thought it would be perfect because it literally just came out and it's based around saiary so I thought hey what more could I ask for cuz I love say Ori so let's get into this you know ooh we should call ourselves hmm man what should we call ourselves how about Nick you know like Saint Nick yeah let's do that let's just call ourselves Nick let's be festive I want to eat mint chocolate she liked a flavor called mint chocolate she avoid she said she likes its flavor being sweet yeah better at the same time and ends up being bittersweet although the word bittered it didn't sound suiting her sound suiting to her she sometimes also recommended it to me but I always refused to try it I could not understand the concept of mint flavor and chocolate going along hmm whoa mint chocolate doesn't that taste like toothpaste like how can you even enjoy that [Music] you're saying you're saying like that you don't know it's true flavor combination of sweet chocolate flavor and the refreshing mint flavor makes it taste like heaven like our lives wait our lives well we can't always enjoy the sweetness of life sometimes sorrow follows after thief and those chains have sadness repeats all over our lives she opens her lips after running her hand through her red hair and the reason why we want to keep living at all living all after all this bitterness of life would be a sweetness of our lives like a chocolate like sweet chocolate chunks that neutralizes the bitterness of the mid flavor it would be strange if one's life is filled only with slight sweetness after all then she said again looking in my eyes and that's how you want to be something I want to be someone like that chocolate someone who can be sweet to someone and I want to be with that person forever someone who is sweet to me well I think you're overreacting it's just an ice cream flavor after all oh come on Nick she just gave a huge a huge speech about why I was the best and you're just like let me just brush this off you know it doesn't matter it's just food after my words she turned her face away from me with slightly grumpy mood oh just an ice cream flavor huh buy me some mint flavored chocolate chip ice cream why do I have to also my allowance is running out recently so I can't afford it geez how cruel of you for not taking me my last favor of your childhood friend huh last one did you say nothing just buy me one like I said no cash to spare I mean it jeez you can't just afford one can you that line was kind of concerning though last favor for a childhood friend what does that mean I better not mean what I think it means I know I could spare some in fact but I still didn't want to spend how selfish of me I should have at least bought her one if I knew it'd end up like that what is this gonna be a sad mod also why do we still have this music it doesn't fit the movie entirely in my opinion but nonetheless let's continue now we are home you should take those mint flavored chocolate chip ice cream you should take those mint flavored chocolate chip ice cream with your own money I never want to face that kind of deformed hybrid I bet you think you've been wrong once he tasted it oh well see you tomorrow yeah [Music] see you later oh jeez this is gonna be sad isn't it maybe just maybe but could that mint chocolate be something say or he wanted to give me for the last time finally the music changed I don't like that song very much it just makes me feel stressed out okay the next day was when she passed away I knew it geez hanging herself against the Rope she died without any last will or something else she just was there with the most horrendous sight it was supposed to be the happiest day in our daily lives students arriving the school early we're both looking forward to the festival they were full they were full of banners balloons decorations all over the place remoting it no doubt the day would fit sunshiny Sakura the most that day paradoxically was the day she breathed her last breath she entered her life tragically on the day she would be happy well hi well I did it on the day of the festival I walked towards see auras home wondering the reason of her being late during my way I was thinking like even though she's a heavy sleeper shouldn't she be on time at least today and and thought only of scolding her without knowing the truth that will show up I cautiously opened the door of her room hey at least it's not gently this time guys I knocked tried to speak to her there was no answer hey yeah you home sorry hello this isn't like her normally she would say something and make you excuse whatever the reason was say re wake up it's morning already as I opened the door I was like maybe she's deeply sleeping I have no choice but this and then everything has changed why do we have to see this again can't you just implied that she hung herself come on I hate seeing this it's yeah uh what a great what a great way to start a mod guys rip what how far in are we how far in are we what like less than ten minutes and she's already dead that's a new record I fell down I cannot believe my eyes this can't be happening no it can't be well I'd say or we do this why why God's sake why I tried to run away from the reality several times but what's left with cerise corpse hanging on the ceiling I threw everything up so you and I fainted away and I woke up in the hospital after a few hours diagnosed with a suffocation due to extreme bronchus pressure they just had to write such an expression didn't they the reason she chose death or even her last will wasn't their only her bruised hand and neck and her extremely cold body told me what the truth is cruelly after her death the only chance to see her face again was at her funeral why now a single last will was found at her home being the light itself with her sweet smile she in the end trot herself out the light is dimmed and I in the literature Club our last glimmer there's no way to know why she committed suicide all I could do was weep over her death members of the literature club and some friends in the same class with her came to the funeral and most of them returned home shortly except for the members there are only a few people who did not leave that the funeral until the end say the only smile that could never be seen again was shining in the portrait she decided to make she decided and made her way to commit suicide only reproachful sunlight was glaring down outside why did say already decide to die nobody could answer Monica's question that Sookie couldn't control her resentment it ran out of the funeral URI just kept sitting down in front of the portrait CRE being the most cheerful one none of us had any idea why she committed suicide so I'm gonna assume in this mod Monica isn't sentient then and this is just a normal situation with the club members she would never let her smile go away she seemed to have no correlation with the word suicide itself the first time I met her looking bright and cheerful was and when it was in winter four years ago are we gonna get a flashback oh gosh oh no oh what a what a horrible mud to pick for Christmas this is such a sad this is such a sad video already I'm so sorry I thought this was gonna be happy I promise all right I moved here four years ago I live in Ciel before and for a certain reason I hadn't moved to a cheaper house a bit far from seal then my parents went abroad leaving me left alone at some point I was on my way to a tiaki shop in order to share Tilak with my new neighbors since I'm new here Sayuri was their trip to the ground oh it hurts are you okay she couldn't even answer my question and kept moaning in pain she was holding her ankle on ice seemingly she hurt her leg she was sobbing as if she was in severe pain what should I do supports iorries back and legs then run call an ambulance help her get up ignore it passed by why did you why would you pass by let's help her I supported salary's back in legs then ran because she already suffering from pain me my head my heart hurt because it hurt from the deeper side of my mind I ran to a hospital while supporting her I was I was so in a hurry that I couldn't care about her face and what she tried to tell me I really rushed into the hospital without listening or looking at anything else if I'd seen her face at that moment I'm sure I'd suffer less from this regret after taking summary to the hospital I was again on my way to where I had to go I finally bought some tea ah calf to helping salary overall price was cheaper than it was in seal leaving me a bit a bit of spare the street wasn't dusk after him buying tea Ock after cleaning the rest of my things packed up it already was May night outside with the moon floating above now then time to move sharing tea ah quit neighbours first would be nice where should I go first well doesn't say ovaries house on the Left house on the left first I knock on the door but nobody came hello nobody's here apparently alright I guess I'll head to the right the light was on on the right house meaning there must be someone in there anyone here and answer returned who's there I moved here recently you know so I'd like to share a tea och then the door opened is that you yes I am you're the one back at that Street right he's your like fine say or his leg was in a cast did she break her leg from tripping how I got treatment but it still hurts don't you come in I want to repay your kindness ah no thanks I just did what I had to do please come in no need to turn down since then she suggested it so badly I had no choice but to get in that was the day I visited say or he's home for the first time ah Sayuri's house was large but somehow I felt voidness and moan this inside it so in this mod then say Ori isn't your childhood friend that's interesting so right left me in a room and went out for some fruits please wait I'll get some fruits all right all right so URIs room was neither dirty nor clean I kind of broke a fancy expectation on girls room but does it really matter so you already soon brought some peeled apples and pears this is too much for me no worries sure what is your name oh it's Nick Nick I guess now it's my turn to ask you back what's your name and how old are you my name is Siri 14 years old FBI open up I'm sorry I'm sorry wait I'm 14 - whoa then speak casually okay okay do you go to school around the corner over there yeah that's cool I'm a transfer here so it might be tough to adapt to a new school can you help me for that sneeze face Redden's oh of course I'll help you I'm familiar with the structure of it so yeah right then they already changes the subject oh we're out of fruits go get some more then no problem that's okay anyway how did you get hurt so I'm noticing with the writing here it's a bit of like it seems like a bit stiff structured in some parts and I think that's because it's a translation from the original translation of this story was I think Japanese but when I read on the subreddit I'm not saying it's a bad story it's just some of the sentences felt a little bit abrupt and that's fine if that's the way that they chose to but it nonetheless I'm just explaining to you guys that this is a translated story anyway how did you get hurt well I was taking a walk and slipped over some ice accidentally my ankle sprained at that moment oh okay so her legs not broken she just sprained her ankle of course it hurts so much what did the doc tell you it isn't broken is it it isn't just a ligament strained I feel for you okay now yes for now much better thanks to you I can get myself to the hospital faster unlike usual there were barely any people in the street I owe you a big thanks no problem I did what I had to do the conversation came to a pause meeting the meeting for the first time having nothing to say we didn't say a word for minutes oh man that's so awkward just sitting there and absolute silence for like ten minutes just like there's I'm in a girl's room what do I do she's 14 - I spray cures ice breakers so um slip on ice often let me carry you to the hospital hmm what do I do call a prank on early let's call it a prank so you're eating an apple little by little left me with no choice but to call a prank on her I poked her cheek my finger Oh her she suddenly readiness as if she was not it was not a little surprise but then dropped the Apple surprised what's wrong with you Nick I just tried to loosen the tense it was just too quiet you know too awkward awkward silence just so you already with her eyes closed I was Restless shaking your head such a cutie she was which class are you in maybe we're in the same class if we are it's gonna be easier to know more about the school it's classified really that's cool I'm also in class five oh really whoa hi how's it going suddenly she threw herself into me I was so surprised that I ended up dodging her back no problem it's okay I'll get more fruits so Yuri this is the third time you've gotten fruits are you like trying to stuff me up for like the harvest or slaughter or something are you gonna harvest me later on no not really I'm fine I definitely have to teach you more I wouldn't have taken it it's okay really I don't need more fruit say Ori look at me I'm fruity Tooty booty enough don't need to thank me too much it makes me uncomfortable I comfortable the tears are ready to well up in her eyes you you know I don't want to make things go uncomfortable II yeah it's too burdening for you isn't it are you sure yeah I'm sure so don't mind it really sorry it's fine her face changing every since she makes we're so adorable though their minds yeah though it remains just as good as old memory oh geez I forgot she's dead ah it's already this late it was fun time thanks to you I hope I can get some advice from you tomorrow get what you know about the school no I remember actually I have no confidence in explaining that's okay just let me know how school life feels like if you say so and thank you again for your help why do you keep repeating I am really okay with that some of these sentences seem kind of strange and not making much sense to me but nonetheless okay and then by then all right bye see you tomorrow then bye say Orie oh it's so awkward it took quite some days before I realized that she had tears on her eyes at that moment maybe I didn't even try to remember thinking of its being not something I should care that much all right what's next from that day see from that day I and say or II got along with each other not only we were neighbors but also we hit it off well or more like we had a wavelength or something our talking's would go quite well including sharing what we're concerning and what's more we barely got any quarrel on the second thought though maybe it was more like she yielded anything she could do for me now that I think about it in my new environment new place new people she never flipped her attitude and was always kind to me sometimes she would sometimes she would be way so kind and full of thoughtfulness that I briefly thought of her to be somewhat burden even still she's she was such a cheerful girl was full of sunshine whenever we would talk she would be the mood maker for both of us all right ah seems like this this sentence structure it needs to be reworded a little bit because the translation that I'm getting from this is a bit rough and it throws me off when some of the words are like the sentences seem a little bit out of order or jumbled nonetheless I like the concept of the story so far it's just it's a bit if it's a bit of like it's a bit hard to read aloud when there's sentences that seemed jumbled in my mind at least I don't know she knew how to properly talk with people she was always thoughtful and her face was always full of smile he became more and more intimate as time passes yeah this this this just seems like the story was translated and the English version seems a bit more like out of place than the Japanese version I don't know eventually making our secret place the place only for say Orion mean they already dislike PE class not only she was physically weak but she also wasn't used to those tools for the class she often complained about controlling her power jumping over the vault and/or throwing ball for each game this is another link between me and say Ori since I didn't like PE that much as well at times we just skipped the class hiding in the supply storage and having our secret talks talking with say Orion that lone storage often had me feel as if there was only two of us in this world it was maybe due to that I can only talk more freely in there than the other place gradually we started to visit that place even when it wasn't about PE class and soon the supply storage became our secret place I wonder if it's okay for us to keep using this place I guess it wouldn't be problematic people don't seem to be using it here because of the other storage nearby there well I'll take care of it even if we're found out it slightly makes me nervous alright then more flashbacks we visited this secret place quite often that was whenever I failed exams who we went scolded by teachers or a Twenties by classmates whenever had a bad day I went there and I shared my concern with say Orion we shared our concerns for each other comforting ourselves up whenever I was having a tough moment say or it was always the one who cared my about my damaged mind that's nice welcome you're late today well I've been having quite a tiring day I see feel free to say that to me I'm always ready for you thing is there's something which has been bugging me recently I often feel I'm somewhat off during school life I want to get along with the other classmates but then I just keep giving up I can only assume it's just because I have a low self-esteem and I'm pretty much lost in count of my giving up of doing that if someday I happen to be parted off from you then would I actually be able to pull that off I'm I'm really worried about that all right that didn't make any sense to me yeah I don't know this story I'm not saying it's a bad concept the concept is good it just seems like the writing is a bit hard to follow in my mind at least seorak she already gave my head a gentle pat after looking above the sky oh so that's what he was for see this is what I'm talking about oh so that's what you were you were so worrying about my dear Nick like that sentence it's just it's worded strangely so you already lowered her head let's say we lowered her hand so she she used to give me a head patent and said you know Nick until you get on their friends and get along with them at least until then I won't leave your side ah geez when we got new friends at the literature Club she thought it was okay to leave that's sad are you saying you're leaving when the moment when that moment comes just kidding she already lightly smiled she was not kidding her comforting was always like this but then what I saw from her face was a bit of loneliness wasn't something I missed what shall I do ask if she's having trouble let's just stay still I might know let's just stay still on second thought it might look a bit rude I mean ask something like that maybe it'd be something she would not likely say to anyone even to someone like me well I was staring at C or E with such thinking as we're rolling inside of my mind she questioned to me what is it is there something on my face no nothing nothing at all maybe back then I was too young to realize how much her face looked beautiful and how much her voices her voice was tender at that moment and mostly how much she was beautiful okay she you just said that along with her already beautiful image alright that's the third time you've repeated yourself someone who always at my side and supported me when having rough moment that someone was the one and only say Orry Ciara used to say used to say like this whenever I speak about hard life to her sometimes they come today we feel sad out of nowhere when that happens just have a smile on your face that'll release you're feeling a bit also in case I'm always here if you don't for me to release your feeling whenever you feel bad I'd love to be a star shining for you you don't need to strain yourself for me like that much you know oh come on and that's that's when just saying okay is enough yeah yeah okay say Orie thank you geez well that sounds like say Orry there was also this moment to which was about enjoying picnic under the cherry blossom together at March a season full of flying floss and petals of course I refused back then but eventually I went out with her since she asked for that one so badly maybe part of the reason would be my feeling sorry for always getting in something from say Orry though at least park was nearby our homes which is a bit of relief for both of us wow it's so beautiful out here oh look at the petals falling that's a really neat effect ah man alright I like the production quality of this it has good production quality it's just the writing is so jarring with like the way it's structured all right how do you like it looks great doesn't it it surely feels like spring - is it just me who doesn't feel that much boy couldn't disagree do you know well it's beautiful indeed it's being all pinky around here after all good thing this park is close to our homes he would be fine even if we go back a bit late it took 10 minutes from there I suppose huh no shorter than that it wasn't yep after laying a mat on the ground she waved her hand suggesting for me to sit beside her the spot she chose was the exceptionally ideal one pedals were scattering all around the park from three trees right behind us Nick come here oh okay say oh he proudly pulled out her lunchbox from her bag then she opened the lid and showed his content to me tada her lunchbox was readily I was really pretty decorated pieces of dried laver were decorated by the steamed rice which resembles human face also there were three figures of human shaped toppings made of sausage mayo and broccoli add a fried egg belowed steamed rice and cutely peeled off fruits of the side-box talk about more cuteness Apple was peeled off - shaped like rabbit pineapple was cut in half circle strawberries were cut off with its stock stock off as well how is it do you like it shall I praise Him Fraser for cheese M&A why wouldn't she she deserves one it's awkward for me to say sure why not it's the first time for this picnic under the cherry blossom together she must have prepared a lot for this event I gotta say it is pretty good as well as praising her I don't want to admit it but but it surely looks tasty you're pretty good I work quite a bit for this one it's our first time to go to the Cherry Blossom picnics oh yeah and even Nick praise me for this I'm really happy right now especially considering you don't say that much like this someone who doesn't praise that much and at times being really cold looks like I really nailed it judging from hearing such words from you I blame you for making your own your own one so beautifully Hunnic when she show me yours too I can't wait till our we can't wait till our is cools down mine well it's just plain and I wasn't lying just steamed rice kimchi can't spam fried egg above the rice and that's it oh and a bit of sesame to relieve the bore to relieve a boredom mine is just way too plain to compare to yours it's okay to show me I may as well eventually open up the lid showed him showed mine to her say Rory if you show me yours I'll show you mine a woo oh hey yours aren't so bad you know seeing that say already pulled out on her spoon taking a spoonful of rice and kimchi from my lunchbox mind if i takes not spare from yours and just took it that into her mouth um nom say you are a 20-18 om nom i take it you're not a fan right why would you say no to this and as its own taste oh man don't mince your words buddy no kidding it's quite good I took a spoonful from our lunch box too and ate it like she did that makes us even mmm it's quite different I wonder if you put something in this well I put various things and mix them up how is it um nom oh boy I am really enjoying it I'm glad you're enjoying it and that's the aura gave me a light smile a smile which popped up during chairing our lunch box her tender voice her gentle and warm heart hand sorry despite the seasons being early spring with remnant of winter remained it didn't feel that much cold that day rather it was warm more than enough to melt the remnant I still remember the day the day the cherry blossom which brought me sincerely the most beautiful breeze full of flying petals the day we shared our spoonful of rice with blossom petals lightly laid above it wow that was nice anything else like we did for the cherry blossom picnic we used to go through all sorts of places together from the day Sirois fell down a frozen road we became the dearest friends ever and always got along with ourselves whenever we pop out a thing to do and of course say Orry was there always being cheerful and bright such a blessing moment it was since I could get relief thanks to her a lot and thus being able to under overcome lots of challenging things and such it was thanks to her that I could adapt myself to my new unfamiliar to mid school life without her help I would have gone quite a gone quite a hard time getting used to a new place and even life without parents she tried her best to help me whenever I was having a hard time yet still I didn't know that much about my dear C or E even after such a lengthy 4 years of time and then she passed away all of a sudden the one who was always full of sunshine the one who was the light inside of the pure void that is myself has vanished gone forever dang that's the most edgy thing I think I've ever heard man this 14 year old has some edge a girl who gave me four years of unforgettable memories is now only inside my dead memory I was way too late to realize I loved her and that was after her death I took way too much time for me to realize that Syria was as she mentioned the chocolate inside my men I was badly sluggish and selfish and I was too late to listen to my heart sincere voice of loving her this was what I didn't know until the funeral but say Rory's parents already passed away when she was at middle school age even a single relatives income for her last day being the only male of her acquaintance I took the role of chief mourner at her for funeral I'm confused okay so she's living alone at 14 in America if you're underage you would have another guardian or you would be put through the state and adopted out to somebody or you would live in a foster home until you're 18 that doesn't make sense to me then again it could be different in Japan since this story was originally Japanese I don't know I didn't even know she had no parents this was just a piece of my ignorance about her no way I would ever know why she committed suicide the only thing left in my heart was unbearable pain filled with puddle of tears after all the time we spend together this was what I could do for um mind if I talk with you for a bit Monica spoke to me at least members of the literature Club were still in the funeral hall but no one could sustain themselves from uncontrollable feeling welling up from with son from themselves sorry uh suppressed tears with uh suppressed tears would overflow and a stream of Tears would eventually become a waterfall among all five members who used to be together say Orias now nowhere to be found everyone knew that but we still had to silence ourselves just to prevent the feelings striking us did you know that what do you mean to tell you the truth before say or he died around three days ago I suppose there was a moment when say ory and I we're the only ones left in the club room that day when you left early due to being busy URIs heading to the library for returning her book and that Sookie's going for baking class gently wiping out the falling tears she continued her words she wanted to have a consolation about you that day me yeah didn't you know what do you mean so you already liked you I was vaguely guessing so by hearing that from the third person struck me so hard It was as if I got smashed by a wrecking ball okay my brain was having all sorts of catastrophe as if buildings collapsing each other and causing a chaos what's a Orie is done to me so far what I fell in the moment we met in the first time would worse that would worsen this catastrophe inside of my mind how could I not notice that could that be my pretending to me not aware of what I loved that while I did she's apparently really cheerful but deep inside she's really fragile I remember her mentioning rain clouds I'm sure you do as well after reading her poem before she was feeling sorry for liking you saying she doesn't suit you her words continued then she started to weep I got like Nick but then then Nick would suffer more just because of me I really shouldn't like him I really shouldn't but I I can't control myself and it's really painful was what she said he's supposed to be with someone better than me but then I'm not sure why I don't want that to happen I can only be happy when he is and yet that was what she said back then - I kind of had a feeling that she made that she'd be having depression but then she was much such a cheerful girl she so I didn't think of that much yeah but then this happened and she couldn't continue anymore tears only got her face she still managed to continue her words say Yuri isn't here anymore but I felt I need to at least send her words to you maybe this would have something she wanted to do directly come to think of it I I should have taken care of her more oh jeez well what what a story you know she or he is giving me countless things she was the first and the fastest want to cheer me up whenever I was at a really bad shape however when she was suffering and was desperately in need of help I was not and I was not in there for her all right after her funeral some days after her corpse was placed in the charnel-house I revisited say Rory's house to me you say or he was the closest person at the point of her being pretty much my best friend and yet I haven't gone to her house that much most of the time she was the one coming to mind and as for me I didn't do that much for her unless I was trying to wake her up from her nap even then I barely did him married to her I haven't come to the I haven't come to replace that much come to think of it she told me the other day come is in my house when you're free I can serve a thing or two to you after that damn you meant for the first time you haven't come to my house you know back then I was being too formal since it was the first time you met so I could have done more things but that back then I couldn't do anything cuz i felt quite shy well maybe some other day it eventually happened after all come on Nick just once wouldn't hurt you know how about coming now I'm well kind of feeling tired by now so no thanks gosh dang it Nick um yeah I'm kind of tired I don't have enough time to come visit you sorry sorry also I thought see or he couldn't cook what the heck is this next time see re I'll visit you later when I'm free boo promised you'd visit later then okay well okay promise me yeah and now here I am after four years and the place is losing its owner I was that much busy doing my own stuff to postpone such a simple promise till her funeral I'm such a bloody dope aren't I so many tiny various things so many tiny simple things I didn't do for her and how I look back at myself so his traces were all left behind in a room untouched no one was trying to buy this house apparently due to the rumor if someone's passing away in here it's no wonder considering that everything even that rumor which is actually true happened in such a short period say Rory have you been doing greetings after you're already gone you just could have gone a bit later you know okay remorse after you've already gone you could have just said anything before going like this goodness this is just alright regret after you're already gone sorry apologize after you're already gone what am what a meaningless things I'm doing I decided to look inside of a room now that I managed to visit her home it'd be just my own feeling but I had just a feeling that I could find a letter or any message she left or should I look at keep searching room say orys room this should be the place her traces are made the most which part to look inside the room desk I looked up the desk cup plates and a remnant of a rope after her suicide uh there was also several tools that could easily use for killing itself including a knife and a pair of scissors not only look at it I could find a bit of blood stain above the desk to a chair cover was a bit retreat retracted from where it should have been I could see your trace CRE your trace of suicide my eyes are about to burst out tears at at looking at those traces guess there's nothing more than that let's look at other things which part and look inside the room in a round bed bedclothes are scattered above the bed and there's nothing but a phone adapter in dust below I guess that's all I should take care about bed let's take a look at the other side's inside of closet let's find more clues before looking inside a closet okay I headed the other places to find salaries clue I took first let's look in the living room maybe there would be something one in the living room Wow I left your room and I head to the living room it was just a plain living room without that much special things left behind a big couch at the table in front of it both facing TV there was a study outside - which part of living room so I search for a study hello mr. game I looked around the study quite large the place was shells were filled with numbers of books most of which were a dictionary or theory books probably most of them was what say always parents read before just when I concluded and decided to pass I found another book which seemed like someone's borrowed from the library some of the pages had several labels pasted above them oh hey a trains going by it can't be a spaghetto video if you don't have trains going by I can only say she has she must have have read this one a lot so you were not lying about your depression C or e guilty feeling start showering into my art okay how fitting since he was showering outside as well my heart as well as having all sorts of shower with each rain dot ain't raindrop feeling like a spike piercing through myself he could have sent me one last word before passing away like that you know if things go like this then I I I felt so sorry I could have just died I could just dive myself to death right now what does that mean I could just dive myself to death what does that mean gosh the story is so jumbled I could find around four or five more books about depression she must have worked so hard to overcome or at least hide it from me and other people other than those there wasn't many that many things to look at I think I'll head to another place alright what's part of the living room so I search for side of TV alright that's fine continuing let's continue this trick I looked at the side of the TV a picture was Sayuri and her parents and other pick was just say or his parents they're required numbers of awards from various associations the picture was sailor and her parents was quite thumbed as if she'd often looked at it she could see it I could see his Teresa tears from the picture inside of the frame - he must have suffered waist waist so much they re I hope that this story is this jumble just because of the translation I just feel like I didn't know a single thing about her how you must have been a pretty crappy friend then if you don't know anything about her after four freaking years that drops more guilt onto my heart other than that there was nothing important I could find let's head to another place what is the point of this what is the point of this I'm getting annoyed I looked up on the table there was a plate with a trace of someone's eating and two forks beside also a small all-time calendar and the other one for this year there was a red circle marked the color pin on the day CoA passed away only if I taking care on that more I could have known this would have happened and I'd take care of C or E more I should have listened to hearing her voice or more like screaming out of suffering other than calendar and plate there is nothing I would take a closer look aside from now there was a pencil a pencil case the several ballpoint pens and pencils but then again nothing special I guess that's pretty much everything I can find from the living room time to look to another place what was the point of that where should I look at kitchen I guess I'll look around the kitchen Wow dish works were left undone and they were uneaten foods left untouched in the fridge without anyone to eat side of fridge was a bit of a mess of pieces of sticky notes most of which had some sort of recipes written on them looking at them I could find one of them was actually a recipe she used for their lunchbox for that day with the cherry blossoms now that I see how much you prepared back then and apparently that's all I should take a look for in here I tried to find more but nothing special is found I'd better look at another place all right a heap searching room inside a closet I opened the closet and there was cigarette school uniform gym clothes and her casual outfits looking below there was a Rory's pink bag something I could always see from her it was something she or he really cherished even attaching a cute doll on it now it suffered instance now it's stuffed inside of a closet after it's lost its owner though she used to say she used to say not to look inside of her bag I wondered why but then I just didn't care about looking inside of her bag thinking she'd be knit it was something city really cherished before a funeral opening the bag in anticipation of finding her message or attached something or something I found a small diary and a ballpoint pen attached to it with a string white ballpoint pen with a greeting snowman with gloves drawn inside well if this well if it isn't like her mid smile was briefly formed on my face dari was just simply neat without any decoration just the word diary was written in can G on its white cover without any art or pattern drawn I opened the diary and I read what she wrote January 3rd 2014 my parents died people said it was an accident they said it to be sad like heck it would feel like like heck they would feel like well if they do feel like that then what were those jealousy talks I have heard from them what does this mean it doesn't make sense the writing doesn't make sense to me and it's frustrating me I like so badly want to get into this story and I can't because the writing is just so it's just so abrupt and basic and garden path sentences and it's just it's basically one big description instead of a story of an event happening in the description as more of like someone who's writing it was zero emotion at all like I don't feel any emotion from this story and it's supposed to be extremely emotional because someone died and it's bothering me I had such high hopes for this mod and I I watched the trailer for it and it looked amazing to me and now that I'm actually playing it it's a shame that I'm actually disappointed that the writing wasn't as good as I wanted it to be I know that this was translated from a Japanese story and the person that wrote it may not be an English speaker but regardless even with all the sentences not making sense more than half of the story hasn't made sense to me because of the sentence is just being so jumbled and not structured well and that's just a shame it's ruined the mod for me like I don't like the mod I'm saying that I'm being honest here I'm trying to be as constructive as I can without being unkind but this mod is just I'm honestly hoping that it's over soon because overall the story has just been long and drawn-out with how I felt how I felt my I've been playing what less than an hour of this mod so far and I just want it to be over that's a horrible sign and I'm sorry to the Creator if you do see this I'm sure you put effort into this and I congratulate you you know it's a it's good that you took the step to put something out there and make it public it can be it can be hard and terrifying to do that but this this just the writing it needs a lot of work so I hope that you can either update this or make a better version in the future so that's just up to you if you want to fix the way the sentences and the writing is I don't know overall the story is just jumbled and confusing and it doesn't make you feel anything for the characters January 11 2014 none of my relatives came for the funeral apparently they severed relations with each other at some point now I'm the only one left nothing here there's a story about her parents passing away could it be that's the moment she she began to feel the to feel depressed reading a bit more I found she wrote about myself as well January 27 2014 I slipped on an icy road today my leg hurt a lot I wasn't able to move due to all the pain also there's a lot of repeating of itself in this story like earlier in the story he like call her beautiful like what three sentences intro like you could have definitely picked some different adjectives to describe her and that would have made a better image in your head for the reader because if you just keep making the same sentences over and over again with similar words then it doesn't really make you interested as the story goes on it just feels the same and it's kind of a bore so if you are writing a story please be like diverse with your wording but also make it correlate with each other for example earlier in the story he said I feel like a bloody fool or something similar to that I don't understand why you would use British slang and a story that takes place in Japan that doesn't make any sense to me either and also for some reason say always saying she wanted to get fruit like four times while we were hanging out earlier in the story it just was strange and bizarre to me I don't know that was when I met him he went to my place saying he moved around here and was doing traditional tea Ock distribution I at least served him a fruit see more mentions of fruits all right but I still feel like I should have done more for him like I feel like him back without doing anything from there I could find her writing about me a lot about the day we went to the music part together about when we went to the theatre for a movie and about what happened in school and about what we enjoyed there was no difference between that cheerful C or E until this point nevertheless I could read depressing ones as well as in between those stories then including blaming herself the world and even and even there was a story she wrote about her suicide there wasn't that much mentioning about those at the beginning however as the diary progresses especially until recent those depressive stories gradually occupied more for her diary especially most of recent posts were pretty much all about those April 18th 2018 I ended up getting angry at him again I could have ended it could have ended without any problem if I stepped back and yet I did I yet I didn't such a horrible thing I did all right April 23rd I can't nonchalant nonchalantly like him like this the more we get along the more you're likely to resemble me in the end so please stop being so kind to me or else I won't be able to stand it please my friend all right April 28th as usual he's being kind to me and he ends up shaking my heart so badly you really should not take care of someone like me and instead of hang out with other girls that would make me feel better why are you taking care of someone like me so much because he's your friend yeah I said it May 2nd 2018 I thought of life being like mint chocolate my life being bitter bitter like men until meeting you someone like chocolate after meeting you my life was way more happier than I could then I could expect then what have I done just hurting you so much time and I'm sick of my of my being like this like that it doesn't it makes the story just whenever there's a sentence like that it totally just throws off my rhythm I've read out loud as well so I really can't live alone anymore if you somehow leave my side tomorrow I'll meet you and ask you I'll ask you about having mint chocolate I like to share it with you for the last time of my life well that's sad at least that makes you feel a little sad and that was the end of the diary what say always said about mint chocolate was not just a dessert yeah I know you were being a total douche and you're just like oh hey let me just completely cast aside this heartfelt speech she gave to you yeah I said it MC was being awful and I wasn't even aware of it how selfish I was was I so how selfish was I okay if only if I at least had brought you a cheap one once bought you sorry just once I would have I wouldn't hurt anyone and yet I refused well I was about to close the diary I noticed a piece of paper inserted inside of it the piece of paper was a memo with my name written below I opened it I read what's written inside saiary secret letter one so those are multiple hello by the time you're reading this letter and should be clear that I've already gone from this world I wanted you to come over to my place and it'd be like and I'd like to thank you for coming even if it's just now sorry that's all I can say for now sorry I was too selfish I mean this was the last words that I mean even this last words are all about leaving her sight I looked around in those places we've been together before leaving sorry to say this but Karen look around those places as well I got you answer after you've already gone this would be like this wouldn't be the least I can do for late sorry for the last time alright I'll look back on my memory I'll look back at the four years I spent with you you might chocolate who was always full of smiles in my life I recall again I recall those beautiful memories again memories I shared with you memories full of smile and happiness which now drowned below the tears the showers don't seem to stop at all it seems like a shower in my mind as well where to go how about in the street I met her first toward the street to where I where I and say or even met each other first at this time the road was at this time the road was the road that was the ice sorry it's just a strange way to put things this road and that has become a painful shower that Pierce's my heart now so here it is the place where you and I first met sometimes when I walked away when I walked this way was saiary again I would think about what happened back then after that day sorry often fell down the same place whenever she fell again in the same place she laughed as if she's full of happiness as always you were always full of smiles Wow oh hey it's snowy that's cool that's cool I like the backgrounds at least oh did you fall down again yeah I did again aren't you hurt anywhere yeah I don't know it's kind of the hospital like back then you really look painful back then even you shed tears at that moment and didn't did you hurt that much yes I felt someone lowly cold painful pretty much quite a lot of things that's when he came to me Nick which is why I really appreciate it you know it's not like I did anything particularly special at that moment Sayuri smiled maybe you'll find out later why just let me know no that would not be fun what's not funny just don't get hurt again like back then okay okay why don't we take a little break from this bench here looks like that tripping down is was quite painful to you geez like I said I'm not hurt at all it's just my legs feel stiff that's all don't get me wrong all right all right during then she was still laughing and being all like a hehehe in front of the place where where I and CRE met each other for the first time man only happy smiles which won't be seen again there was a street lamp and the bench next to the icy panel where C or E fell down and in front of that were just average houses all right off to where next ah this is a place where I first met Sarah wait four years ago yes you've said this multiple times I know there was just there was a mailbox behind the bench and I looked at the label attached to it while I was taking a look at the mailbox hoping I might find something can you give a look inside of the mailbox I opened the mailbox it was it was a mailbox that can be opened from the front side the house which used the mailbox was now without its owner there was a bundle of red yarn inside of it and as I untangle it if he's a paper popped out from it I spread the paper slightly and I could see the handwriting of say or II say or a secret letter to arriving here I remembered that day the day you saw me first and the day I saw you first back then you look so wonderful that I thought of you to be the one I've been looking for when I gave you when you gave me a hand I felt like I must not let your hands off I couldn't say this for a long time though I gotta say it now otherwise I wouldn't feel he is even after my funeral I loved you oh well that's nice I took this much long it took this much long to know that doesn't make sense ah it makes me so angry like you that you did love me and I also did too what a fool I am all right let's go to another place park with the memory of fine let's go to the park it's fine the park where I went was say re for the first time when Cherry Blossom Festival picnic took place those blossoms are now almost gone though now that the summer is near as if it is as if the day of the Cherry Blossom Festival I went with say re still in front of my eyes or beautiful cherry blossoms are scattered was it here the three cherry trees wrapped around me say Orie and I ain't lunch together and we shared a story I kind of had a feeling she had something below these trees and I was right another bundle of red yarn was shallowly hidden below the ground when was blowing like back then but this time carrying rain drops and leaves to me it seemed like the cherry blossoms are also flying in front of me like snow like snowflakes alright another flashback how nice oh hey say Ori you're still alive it looks like snow isn't it what do you mean I mean these flying blossoms when I see white cherry blossoms falling it feels like snowing in the spring hmm you have a point there it does look like it does look as if it's snowing in spring with all the white scenery she looked at the cherry blossoms and said 5 centimeter 5 cm per second hmm that was from the movie I saw pardon me speed off the speed of the following falling pills it says that these fall and such speed was that shown in the movie yeah and actually did then both of us were just watching the scenery of the following blossom petals which slowly fell down to such a slow speed of 5 cm per second all right didn't need to repeat itself like that all right so beautiful it is no doubt you know I kind of hoped time would just stop for now man you know if you think about it the writing aside this would be awful to go through finding all these letters trailing you through all memories as your best friend was gone like I would just be meant mentally broken and losing it in this situation if it had stopped then could we have been happier than ever I untangled a bundle of yarn and look at the letter inside say or a secret letter for wait where's the third one anyways cherry blossoms surely they were pretty back then all those flowering petals let alone being with you below the cherry blossom tree the memory of sharing lunch with you looking at the same sky with you enjoying the same sceneries of blossoms with you it's very repetitive all those memories were so beautiful I was really happy thanks to you and without you I wouldn't have gotten this much memories let alone this much happiness for my life thank you for being with me that's all I wanted you to know I could endure this harsh life thanks to you thanks to you I could live so far alright look good job say re say oh he was telling was telling me so much appreciations she always thanked her always thanked me for quite a lot of things and should have known I should have known that earlier I should have been the one wearing and comforting you just like what she used to do for me let's go to the final place our secret place if there was a secret place that would be in the middle school we went together specifically a small warehouse no one would come sometimes I had a lot of time during lunch after school savory and I would go here and have a talk such secret stories that we cannot talk about about one another all right fortunately in this place hasn't changed a bit about losing sight of when we left as it is wouldn't this we'll have this shed locked or something since it's not a school day I don't know maybe that's just me up to the feelings behind middle school happy memories and memories of that time why would you put that like I said it's the story the way it's written it's kind of repetitive like memories twice in the same sentence everything remained in place this place hasn't changed it all has it so you always say oh he always hated vault whenever she attempted to jump over the vault she always ended up and getting tripped and fall down or colliding into it alright oh another flashback neat say re up here before me magically it worked man I really don't understand why you have to do such a thing with that fault I mean I just tried to tell mo for it just as people say but I always end up colliding into that thing and it's just a pain in the tail I would not have hated PE like this if it wasn't about that vault you really sound like you hate it she literally just said she hated it sure my life would have been a little happier than I've been nothing wow that must that much hatred you've gotten what about you Nick what do you hate the most in PD well I fault well did you say yep just like me yeah it's the same as you I really don't like it I mean I don't seem to be able to jump over as well no way I'd have fun with that thing ended up bumping into the hall and failing miserably besides kids will just make fun of it and that sort of mistake they were they were like come on chucklehead can't even jump over this thing he'll laughing like crazy yeah it's somewhat traumatized me oh yes kids laughing at you for jumping not high enough traumatized you oh man what what a crybaby yes I don't think I would ever picture Sayuri saying alas tell me if that happens later again I'll show them a thing or two and what will you do against them well even if I can't do anything against them at least I can listen to what's travelling you're right ah well so there's that well when you have something like that like that later then just don't put it inside of you but let me share it with you that'll make you feel free Thank You se re very cool either way so that's what you've found through Nick well that was one thing but PE class itself didn't look that much interesting to me as well still no physical education time is hard it would it wouldn't take too long before its end wouldn't it also when time go faster so if we talked like this in here a little bit yeah very nice say re time to get this fourth letter or third letter cuz I got them out of orders for some reason this space was one of the few places where we could talk to each other so easily a healing space for comforting this heart from all the hard difficult and sad moments and there was always say are you worrying about in comforting my heart well not taking care of her own her own one the same paper was inserted in the middle of the old dusty vault saiary hated the most there was a pink label in the front of it as well say or a secret letter three I feel like I've always exhausted you that was why I couldn't talk on my own problem to you it would be clear that and make your life more difficult than usual once I let you know about mine then I was being selfish anyway out of nowhere I started to feel like hanging out with you more well I was not wanting you to do the same thing with the other girls in the literature club I just can't be selfish can I he gave me all the unforgettable memories and I've been like this I've been sorry for not confessing my sincere feelings and giving you all the heart and giving you all the hard time everything thank you say Ori half of that made sense no way you never made me feel tired just no rather I know no say Orie rather I've hurt you why do you if if it were not for you I would have lived really hard I have overcome many things thanks to you when then why are you why are you saying sorry to me you if you say that like if you say that like then I I can't stop feeling more sorry for you for not taking care of you for letting you die in vain like this and for turning my face away from the fact that you've been exhausted from the fact that you've been taking this pain within you and also the fact that you've been suffering this much I haven't noticed any of them from you I couldn't stop you from what you did I just I just couldn't do that tiny little favor I'm buying you such a tiny mint chocolate ice cream to you for the last moment could I yes say you already killed herself because you didn't buy her ice cream MC you should feel ashamed of yourself oh I just haven't done anything to you so I'm so way so I'm so way so sorry you've done so much things for me but then why have I done things like this like an idiot why have I been such a baka oh man with a slight hope that there will be an additional memo as I searched in every other places I can imagine but there were no more of them the rain stopped with a sunset without any note without any notices okay finally I went to the place where C or E lived just to feel her once again and finished my memoir of her her house was always in a great mess even though I would clean up her house at times I didn't have I didn't happen that much often and thus her house was still messy so as expected her house was the same as what I thought it would be know as it is it would be I don't know a book left on the Shelf was definitely a book about depression since I felt a bit of a strange about those labelled pages I checked all those labels once again since nothing was found in all those labels I was about just to close the book and put it back on the bookshelf that is until I found an envelope attached to the last label on it on the envelope for my name and her name say Rory and it was carefully sealed I gently opened the envelope and checked inside of it it was a letter as expected I mean what else would be in an envelope a dog say or a secret letter five I feel really happy that you noticed this letter in the end it would mean that you think of me this much but at the same time I feel sad as well since it also mean I deprived this much of your time you know I have no one by myself after my parents passed away I barely had any friends - since I was really introverted in a shy person originally after my parents passed away there was no one I could rely on they got an accident during the way of buying a puppet which I bothered them to buy one for myself I thought of it myself to be severely worthless being and that thought would only amplify after losing the two and only people who took care of me that was when I met you there was no one I could use to help nearby while I'm hurt due to slipping on the ice and thinking about my having no parents was more than enough for me to shed tears that was when you came at me okay back then when you approached me asking whether I'm okay if helping me get to the hospital every single word you said resembled well my father told me before they felt so thankful so lovely that I couldn't stop shedding tears I got a crush on such a dearly person such a Dearing person that is you in the first sight but I couldn't confess my love you even till the moment I leave your side just I don't deserve hanging around someone like you alright that's that's fine but then you kept coming at me I'm just charging say or you guys I'm just I'm coming at her guys earner I just come keep myself away from you whenever I'm with you those rain clouds which would torture me would often disappear you my friend or chocolate in my life let me tell you though after being a high school student after you joined the literature Club I couldn't bear this any more I just felt as if myself has utterly useless compared to other people I couldn't stand it's like I didn't have legs or something the feeling of myself being insignificant and the fact that it hurts you so much they just come back to me and hurt me whenever I was with you cuz I hasn't been so kind and generous while you always have been that was why I couldn't bear this miserable life anymore sincerely I'm sorry for hurting you more than I should have even till the end don't worry about me anymore and please live your life at least I could rest in peace if I gave you the slightest smile in your life as if that mint chocolate I asked at that moment you don't need to care about that it's just I wanted to let you know it tastes for them no it's tastes for the last time I hope you live happily ever after getting along with someone better then farewell my love made these last words of me reach to you oh that was sweet at least despite the grammar errors and not making half sense and it was still sweet at the very end and that was the end of the letter tears were rolling down my cheek just one cheek he was only crying out of his left eye guys how could I be happy out after all this time how could I after I knew that I knew that I loved you and you'd been suffered since then I'd not realized it until very now how stupid I am you leave me for where I can't meet you anymore forever after I used to do you do your simple little favor a simple little last favor it seemed as if she would be infront of me even now I wanted to hug her hard as usual with her saying everything was her mischievious prank I wanted to hug her tight for just one more time whispering to her I killed I'm sorry I'm so sorry that it must have been a hard time for you and that it was mean of me not trying to understand you and being too late I just want you to know that I'm so sorry then I want to hug you just once more then I'm terribly sorry then I swear I don't I swear I won't do the same mistake again if given another choice even if it's just for today then I want to hug you worrying you for suffering so far that I want to apologize for not realising what you've suffered while being selfish and just thinking about myself I'm so sorry all I could do is just keep crying all over again with my eyes what can I say except you're welcome and you're welcome indeed her existence was like the existence of chocolate inside mine inside of mint to me someone really important and thankful for living life and yet what have I done to her nothing except being cold and hard that's all that's what you get for being a lousy friend I knew I've been loving her and so she was but then someone who loved someone like me someone I loved passed away free King geez putting someone in the sentence three times yeah how much left how much of this is left I don't even know how long I've been recording I probably oh my gosh almost an hour and a half okay I lied her to die like this my mind is constantly getting stormed with endless spiky rain man this rain is extra sharp guys no way my mic could stand all these spikes and I myself has completely banned from doing a thing constantly flowing tears will creep into my mind like spikes creeping into skin driving me into the deep dark void okay enough mister edge Lord wrap it up please all these must be my karma karma have someone who stupidly didn't do anything and let's say Orie died in vain the world I used to live and usally that is void the person named CRE who was the one and only sunshine in that void is there any sea which can sprout up without sunshine I did truly wrong decision which resulted in her death and pushing me down to void days have passed but I didn't leave him out my home more or more like I couldn't I didn't deserve to live in this world that sorry as someone who caused the significant loss the only thing I could do was just locking myself inside of a cage that is my room and loudly crying day in day in and day out is that it your decision worse than your guilty feeling against a are you blaming yourself for savories death eventually ending up yourself suffering from extreme depression and locking yourself up sounds about right there's to be another way for both you and say or it can be happy try again I think I'm good ending to lay something something ending I'm sorry I don't speak bad yet well that was a trip and the end guys man I didn't expect to play through all this in one sitting but I was like you know what screw it I'm just gonna get through this that was to reach you I'm really disappointed you know I was hoping that this mod is gonna be great and it sadly wasn't I'm sorry developer if you're seeing this this modest it was really hard to follow the story the writing was very poor poorly structured I I couldn't read it out loud half the time without like being jolted in the middle of the sentence because of it not feeling like natural and I don't know it seems like if you aren't if English isn't your first language you don't speak it very well that could be in it that could be it or it's just the writing or the translation that you did do not translate well into English since the story was originally in Japanese I don't know I can't read Japanese maybe the Japanese version of the story is better that's my opinion on this I'm pretty disappointed I was hoping that it would be better because I was looking forward to this game but nonetheless that was to reach you please let me know what you guys thought of this down below and she have any constructive criticism from the developer please give him some help that's about all I have to say for this honestly I feel like whether world is better okay I'm sorry I'm gonna have to say it I know that's a little bit mean but whether world was better I liked the production quality though the scenes with the petals was very nice the backgrounds you chose was very good some of the music choices were a bit odd so I have to hand it to you the logo is really cool I like the logo and the backgrounds you chose and the pedals and whatnot we're nice the idea of finding the letters with C or E was cool but I feel like that you stretched the story out way too long I thought this story could be told in half of the time and convey the same idea making it a bit more powerful and less of a chore to play so yeah that's all I'm gonna say before I continue to converse about this for a longer period of time thank you guys so much for watching make sure to LIKE subscribe comment down below what you thought of this video I hope everyone's having an amazing Christmas I'm gonna go spend time with my family now so as always I'll see you guys in the next video stay safe [Music] you

Channel: Spaghetto

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Rating: 4.9344263 out of 5

Keywords: Doki, ddlc, doki, the, new, true, literature, club, sayori, mod, route, suicide, good, bad, ending, to, reach, you, fangame, visual, novel, release, winter, christmas, VN, rainclouds, coldest, summer, act 5, ourtime, brand, day, another, moment, with, exit, music, salvation, fruits, of, chapter, three, autistic, communist, woutmees, ronald, mconepunch, pewdiepie, markiplier, jacksepticeye, bijuu, mike, afrozer0, orber, woohoolad, monika, natsuki, yuri, eyes, date, before, after, story, reddit, download

Id: 8vELn77OuN0

Length: 88min 4sec (5284 seconds)

Published: Tue Dec 25 2018

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Hello Spaghetto does my name sound familiar?

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That is a sad looking Sayori.