Mckenna Grace | Casual Kisser, Autumn Leaves, Bittersweet 16

[Music] hello beautiful human I'm Zach that's s welcome to the studio Mckenna Grace hi hey and genuinely it's been the first time in a while that somebody's come and brought us a gift really yes well like never show up empty-handed I wanted to make like a good impression is that the truth yeah like what situations have you brought a gift to that maybe like you maybe like somebody who doesn't bring gifts be like oh that's kind of weird that you brought a gift I I don't know I just usually like to bring my little offering these are kind of like they're a really good go-to they're very very good nothing bun cakes delicious I know but like would you bring a like a gift to like an audition room or is that weird uh I feel like that'd be a little weird you know want to bribe somebody maybe I don't know you want to get it for the quality of your talent oh this is so cute you wrote us a card not thank you for having me excited to be here and there's a dog on there and you have your own stationery I do what is that's I like to like I don't know like professional here's my like little stationer and my little gift my little offering it's nice a lot of people think that uh you know younger people don't do handwritten things anymore I like to I like to try I've always tried to keep that up it's sweet like I think very few things are like a handwritten note you know because very few things take the time of like like that handwritten note takes yeah I I like it I think that it's nice wait so okay casual kisser is is a single that is out is essentially leading into whatever album's coming in the new year or is it a continuation of the era that you're in for the EP um I'd say that it's um not my last EP it's kind of me trying to move into a new sound and like a new Vibe I'm I'm really trying to not fully but kind of move into like a new Vibe that's more chill or I lately I really love Lana Del I love her so much and so I'm kind of just trying to move into more of like an acoustic and like cool lyrical Vibe place it does sound much different than Bittersweet 16 yeah that's what I'm trying to do and so okay a part of that is like making a conscious effort to be different and do things differently right like what are a part of those things um well I'm really trying to move I really love the whole old Hollywood aesthetic and Vibe and just the classiness of that and so with my upcoming like music videos and cover arts and just singles and music in general I'm fully trying to move into that and whether it's a full-on style switch and my personal life as well or trying to fully get into that Vibe and image that's something that I'm trying to work on as of late are the lyrics in the stories that you're telling like specifically in casual kisser are they rooted in reality or where are they from oh completely it's all it's so bad I always get so nervous putting out music because I am I always feel a little annoying sometimes in sessions too whenever I'm writing because whenever I'm working with other people if somebody says something or pitches an idea but it's not something that I feel is true to the story even if it enhances the story or the vibe I I feel like I can't sing it because then I feel like I'm lying so whenever I write music and whenever I write these um songs I really like it to be as accurate as I can just because I don't know coming from an acting world I like to be as honest with my real life as I can and my music it is interesting and I was thinking about that like this morning on my way in while listening to some of your music for a long time you played a bunch of other people and from that like I do Wonder like is there a slowed understanding of who you are because you're so focused on being someone else right and like and and you're you're not one person for very long most most of the time right unless you're on a show yeah and yeah some people can like kind of like leave it at the door whatever but I also have friends that are incredibly method actors and when they go into a role they're like gone for months yeah I mean I just recently have I played a role that I think is the closest to myself I've ever been because like I'm usually playing things that are so far off or I'm playing younger versions of people so I'm learning how to be them or I'm playing like a psychopath or I'm cutting my hair up to here and it's just like always all over the place um and I'm definitely not a method actor by any means but I do like to get into it and feel it and and you've been doing that since you're five yeah going on 12 years strong it's it's crazy um but I mean it's I think that over the past few years getting into music has been a really nice process of discovering who I am as an artist but also as a person it's really I mean this EP I'm about to release and the album I'm working on and all the things was really just me working through my own like breakup and relationship and feelings that's what Bittersweet 16 was too it's just fully me kind of figuring out who I am or how I'm feeling about these situations which is exciting and scary to show the world but it's it's still really cool how do you approach a session or writing a record like is it coming from do you have to write instantly after you feel something or go through something or is it a a delayed effect I mean it really depends I I just started getting back into writing on paper again I have like a notebook that's just full of ideas and thoughts as they come to me or as I'm going through things um and I mean the EP and album have really been over the past like year I think I I wrote One Love Song and then a few days later I was not in a relationship anymore and so then I started writing all of my like sad songs and stuff and it's just funny to look back and be and actually look at the progression and look at the days that I wrote everything and slowly kind like kind of seeing myself get over something through my music which is kind of funny that's actually really cool it's like exciting and I I like it it's funny to go back and listen and be like dang I can't believe I felt so intensely about that but it's cool that I got that emotion out in the moment so do those songs end up making up I mean are do they make up Bittersweet 16 or are they going on to this new project or what it's my new project completely yeah um Bittersweet 16 was more of me working through like my emotions and I wrote like breakup songs that were more just like about that were about people that I had never dated but I felt like a breakup from a person you know like that's the kind that's the most exaggerating I'll like get in my music is I'll write completely about a situation but then like we broke up but like it was more like a friend breakup um but this new stuff is more like yeah completely just me writing over the past like year or so um everything that I've been going through in real time all honesty yeah no make believe but by the way we've all been make believe relationships and and by the way a lot of those situations they were real in in one way shape or form it was something real that's the thing that um is really cool for me to listen back to because uh I look back at it now and looking at this album and the EP and the singles I'm I'm looking at it and I was actually listening to my one love song that I got out of it all and I was like dang I so thought I was so so so in love and then I look back at it and I'm like I don't feel that way anymore and it's just I don't know it's funny to have that in a Time C capsule and to be able to see it because it just shows like whether you feel it still or not like that doesn't invalidate whether you actually were in love at a point in time even if you're not anymore if that makes sense it's just like I don't know I like I like to look back at it all it's it's kind of nice I don't know time capsule diary entries yeah it shows growth it reminds you where you were I feel like my whole album is just like just like a diary for me especially going back and looking at the months or the dates that I wrote each of the songs it's funny so how do you okay when you want to like start crafting your Deb do you set creative goals or expectations I mean obviously you mentioned old Hollywood you mentioned Lana like what is the biggest thing you want to achieve and it's not about accolades or data it's more about creatively um I mean going in to creating this I I really thought I was going to be releasing the songs that are on this EP um a long time ago because I wrote them almost a year ago now um and so I thought that that was going to be like that that was going to be my album but then I ended up writing more and more and I got to the point where I was like okay I don't think I'm releasing these anymore and I want to create an album and shape that world and figure out what it is but then now that it's it's Autumn again my entire EP is Autumn based it's called Autumn Leaves and now that I'm back in Autumn I'm like I can't just sit on these songs I love them so much I feel like these songs work together and they aren't going to end up on the album so I should put these out and then I can move into my old Hollywood my drama and my breakup songs My Sad stuff and really move into that like flowy Vibe by moving through this EP wa so autumn leaves is coming and this is after Bittersweet 16 and this is before see why you know what I'm looking at my research and it's like we have an album coming and then we thought that casual kisser was going to be your first single from that new album but it really isn't I'm not I I don't know if casual kissers it's more it's not on the EP it's more of the album Vibe but like it's it's kind of a mix of both I'm trying to keep with the full like I'm excited because all of these songs were written at such different like points across the past year but I think that they all work together really well it's very like in my mind listening to all of them it's like a very linear progression which I love um but that's interesting because like you did you you made Autumn Leaves which is EP that's coming over a year ago but then after that you start working on the album right it's not even that I was like okay I'm going to start work on an album I was just writing so much and then I ended up creating something that I was like oh my God I think that this is my album I think that this works um and I don't know what to do with Autumn Leaves anymore because I don't think it fits onto this oh wait this is its own thing and then I can put these singles in between I am so neurotic about it I have um Google Slides where I make image boards for each of the songs because to me I can't see a song Working unless I can see it like visually in the back of my mind either as a music video or just an image or as a color and so I have like each of the songs uh for my album and Google Slides like that progress from color to color to color and then as I kept going I would put ones in between that would like be the gradient from oh this song feels like a blue but this one feels like a red how do I get there oh I found this purple song this fits in there and that's my album and then the Autumn Leaves were all my little fall colors and I was like I feel like it doesn't fit in there oh it all works so well together and so like I don't know I'm so like weird about it all like that so you see the colors after the songs are made or while they're being made I mean it's the most exciting to me whenever I can see it as we're making the song I can see it in the back of my mind and I'm like oh this is great I don't know like whenever I close my eyes or I think about a song I feel like in the back of my head I could see like the music video or I can just feel the vibe or like it sounds so stupid but it's like I could feel like ah this song feels like this image and it'll be like I don't know kind of like a Vibe or like whenever you look at whenever I listen to like Invisible String by Taylor Swift I think of her album cover like that song Feels Like That album cover for folklore with the gray and the trees like it feels like that and so that's kind of what I can feel I guess I get it I don't know it's kind of random so you have this EP that will now see the light of day Amazon music by the way you can listen to all mechanic Grace's music there's a link in description below just waiting for you oh yeah um I really do want these the cakes they smell really good really good it's really messed up really messed up um but then we get into an album but there's no dates yet for the album no I have like I have dates and I have ideas in mind because again I'm very neurotic about like I planned out all my slides and then like probably three or four months ago while I was in London um working on something I made this big old Google Doc and it was like McKenna's plan for the next like year and it's just like planning out each single and each album and like dates that I think should work that way I can just get ahead of it and like figure it out because I have so much music I want to release and every time I write something I feel like I'm out doing my previous work and then I want to release that and then I'll leave songs behind so I'm just trying to get it out that way I can continue like creating without being like Oh my God I can't leave this behind because I love it so much and I feel like out there why do you need to put it out there because people can make the case that like you just hold it and like you keep writing and you keep getting better and then you narrow it down that's what I'm doing that is completely what I'm doing but right now I love these songs so much and I want them to see the lie to day I think that they're exciting and fun and I love releasing music and one of my favorite things that I've discovered is I love like playing live I've gotten to do it twice now and that's one of my favorite things ever it's like my dream my goal in life to go on tour someday um but I don't know I just want to be able to have it out there I think that it's exciting to share with the world in what order did the goals or dreams for you come when you were a kid was it acting first was it music first was it like what what like your earliest dream your earlier earliest moment of picturing what what you do today it's it's always been acting for me like that was that's what I've been doing my entire life you know I grew up obsessed with like Shirley Temple and I wanted to be so badly on the PeeWee Herman show like that was my like thing and that's why I like really wanted to get into it was those two and did everything though I know triple threat exctly and I've always loved like music though I cannot dance like her for sure um I've always loved music and it's always been a part of my life but only over the pandemic whenever acting kind of like shut down I literally got sent home from a project for only God knows how long it was like a big number of months um before we continued and that's when I started writing music because I just like sat around and I had nothing else to do and I mean just lately I've really been taking like playing the guitar seriously and trying to be able to know how to perform because as I've continued writing and releasing music I've discovered that this is also something that I'm very very passionate about and that I love like kind of equally you know I don't know I think that I'll always H that acting will always be like my career and my path in life but music goes right hand in hand I love creating music for films for in credits and things like that it I think that it goes really hand inand and it's fun to be able to write from like a character's perspective too for music and also entered your life at a really unique time where you're doing a lot of self-discovery and you were left with yourself to discover you know and get to know and I don't know it's really interesting just a good way to like kind of explore your feelings and emotions and understand it completely music music is like therapy for me just writing it because I I work whenever I do like co-writing sessions I work with a lot of the same people because they already know my stories and they've been here like been here for the past three years through oh my gosh I found something and now it's over and now I'm in this and now you know this person and you've met this person but they did this and like knows all of my stories and all the things that are going on and it's just like it's just so nice to get out and like talk and just write it out on paper must feel good it does so casual kisser is about a love bomb yeah Define love bomb um well meeting somebody and well casual kisser is really just like about someone who was like oh my God like I'm in love with you I love you so much and I was like whoa I I literally said I was like I don't know if you should say that right now like that's a little quick and he was like no I like love you and I was like okay I guess I love you too and so I was just like I I felt like I was so in love and then now looking back at it I'm like oh did you just like want to make out with me like on your couch or something because then you look back at it and you're like oh was there like some ulterior motive or something because whenever you're in it you think that you're so in love and then once you have some distance and you look back like after the fact and after you've been ditched or ghosted you're like well dang now I can kind of see through like the rose-colored tinted glasses it wasn't like that lovely it was just more of like an intense like I love you I love you I love you and then you're gone how long did it take for you to realize that um after the fact uh I mean I wrote this song I think like two or three months after the fact I have been going through like a long process of just like analyzing the past year so with my music so guy tells you he's loves you loves you loves you how long after that does he leave your life um I think it that's so funny I haven't talked about this too much I think it took him like two weeks wow I know it was pretty bad damn I just told somebody I love him and I've known him for how long has it been Dan uh you probably told him at two weeks well two weeks and change but we've been L it's messed up it's not messed up we met and we've been living together ever since oh my gosh really pretty wild well that's pretty well for me it was that I knew that this was like my whole thing was whatever the relationship or the little love thing was it was such it was a short period of time but that was kind of like my best friend for like a while and then it turned into something and then it became an album because heartbreak um that's rough though like when your best friend turns into your lover and when they tell you that you they love you you really do believe it because it's your best friend you know they know you they understand you or at least you think they do cuz I'm like I don't know I'm not I take like relationships or love or even like kissing and stuff that's what casual kisser is about is that I take it very seriously and it's so important for me and like I'm not a casual kisser and I'm not going to kiss somebody or go out with them unless like I'm serious about it and I don't know it's just like a big deal and then to have somebody like know that and then pull the rug out from under you is like a big deal for me and I just like I don't know I went a little crazy and wrote so much sick you still friends with that person um the funniest thing actually happened is this coming out after my EP is out I have a song on my EP that is I wrote myself the apology I never received because I didn't hear from him for about almost a year cuz he was like let's stay friends and then I never heard from him again and that's like what my song is it's like the apology I never received and the other day while I was recording that I got a call from him for the first time in almost a year which was insane I actually have the tape like the take recorded of me being like Oh my God they're calling this is insane I was like of course it's right after I like finished my EP and my album and all of that and it's like oh my gosh what do I even do I don't know but I thought that that was like hilarious that it was right during I did yeah yeah I kind of got it was funny to like during the song of my apology to myself I kind of got my apology like finally I kind of I got a little bit of closure it was weird I don't know it was weird the universe works in mysterious ways it really does that's wild I know everything happens for a reason I guess truly wow so he love bombed you and then he bailed crazy at least you didn't move in together at least yeah thank God still living with my parents yeah yeah you're only 17 it's so crazy that's wild yeah we'll see so much more to like come and so much to explore and like learn I'm so excited from like the I'd say like 14 through 16 were not my years and now I'm like 17 and I'm starting to like finally finally kind of like feel life like I am enjoying this year so far being 17 and I'm so excited to just like explore life and figure out who I am and keep writing music it's just like I don't know it's exciting time in life yeah it is go Thrive sis 17 it's the it's the age that everybody writes about in songs I'm like so excited to finally be there now yeah so live it and then write about it I'm going to what are you thinking Dan what did you mean on Bittersweet Bittersweet 16 when you said my childhood's wasted and I'm scared to fix it it's actually um child wasted my childhood's wasted and I'm scared to face it face it okay genius had the lyrics wrong I know I've I was literally talking about that the other day with my mom I was like Mom the lyrics to my songs on the internet are wrong yeah they are I checked multiple places I know I was so UPS I like just noticed that the other day too I was like they're wrong and I've been sending the lyrics to like my label and stuff I don't know how it's wrong but but it was like my childhood's wasting I'm scared to face it it's just like going by so fast and I'm just like scared of that I'm scared to get older so you feel like your childhood was wasted even though you're accomplishing so much that most kids will never get to do yeah not wasted but it's just like I don't know it's just like whenever you get in that feeling and you're just like feeling really dramatic about everything it's like God what am I like doing I just like especially like being stuck and growing up through something like the pandemic like you feel like so many of your years are just like what happened like I cannot believe I'm going to be 18 next year I'm like where did all of that time go it's just like gone oh it's crazy so it's like I I mean I turned 14 in quarantine and now I'm like whoa G to be 18 next year and I'm like where am I where did all of that time go like this is insane I don't even know what to do with myself so it's just kind of like it's wasted it's just like going away what do I do with the rest of this time and I'm just like terrified of it I'm terrified of time time is a scary thing we got to live in the present and remember the time is the most valuable resource but yet it is the most it is a resource that we kind of just are the most Expendable with and LAX the days AAL with and we just exploit and just whatever willy-nilly it's terrifying you'll never get it back yeah stop I know I hate it it is you know I've been Loosely pitching for a while now that I believe that the World should give everybody back two years on their age because we all lost two years in the pandemic you know what I'm so down with that I would love to tell people I'm 28 like I give a limb give a limb what sucks is everybody else's young around me too so like defeats the purpose but like whatever just get two years back hey we'll we'll give you specifically two years that way it can't just be for me it's for everybody um you play Roblox yes why I don't know it's on my notes you're on Tik Tok playing Roblox yes I love scary ones oh my God I did make that Tik Tok yeah I mean Roblox scary games they're the best I love Roblox I've never played oh my God life is like Roblox have yall seen that no a little video of DJ khed being like life is like roadblox a ro but everybody thinks he's saying Roblox and it's like a massive but what does he actually say I think he says like is like roadblocks oh roadblocks way way less inspiring than robloxs yeah I know like what cuz don't you build stuff in roblo yeah you can I don't know yeah don't roast me just teach me come on yeah I'll teach you anytime oh my God I love Roblox do you like play like on the internet like where other people watch you um like why did that sound like such an old person way ass like not in like a streaming capacity like I don't know like like a Network game or do you just play alone like with the story on the computer or whatever I play with my friends I like I'll always convince my friends to play with me I actually got my grandpa on Roblox oh sick yeah so I get my papa to play Roblox with me sometimes if he can do it yeah and I get my dad like I I've gotten like my dad my grandpa and I all in like one server it's great why are you what what that's cool I don't why are you recruiting people do they come to you like looking for a game to play or do you go you need to get on this yeah no actually people come to me and they're like you're the you're the master teach me your ways no I just I convince everybody I kind of want to be on there what what like what system does one use that's what they use that's what they say right system isn't it all one system nowadays is it just the internet what the no I don't know man I'm old boxes and PlayStations oh my God like computers and stuff yeah what's your gaming setup damn none actually this is so funny I don't Xbox One in in the Box wow I I just use like my crappy MacBook and it like overheats and burns my hand sometimes but oh damn you definitely have more more money you should have to deal with that I should get a better computer yeah like sorry you definitely have the funds gosh I don't know what is that uh wait so who is uh Miss Gomez Miss Gomez zoi Gomez zo yeah I didn't want to say the first name in fear that I was gonna totally destroy that one yeah yeah I never like you're aging yourself right now no I don't I didn't know either but yeah zoi zi friend roommate yeah I love zoi great friend I think that she's lovely she's a coolest I think well okay wait I don't know if I should say that I what well I like I have I have a song that is like about her am I allowed to say that because like my album hasn't come out yet but yeah I wrote a song about her oh that's amazing it's great because I like I went out with her one time like to some concert or something and I was like man I wish that I was like you like you're so cool and then I went I had like a session the next day and I was like man I have this friend and she's like so beautiful she's so cool like she's so outgoing and confident and I like wish I could be that but I don't want to write like a song that sounds like that like oh I wish I was you but then I was like I want to write like a love song for her like I think that it'd be beautiful to like I admire you so much that I just want to write a love song about you so I did so sweet yeah did you play it for her yeah I did what is that like I don't know it's it's fun it's exciting I love playing People songs that I write about them I think that it's so fun like if it's a positive song I've never played someone like a negative song that I've written about well not yet oh no I like actually have talked to people after I've like put out songs that were not like super happy about them and it's it's gone well because then you kind of get to like go back and talk about like why you were feeling that way or like what they did or it resp Sparks a conversation that definitely needed to happen to begin with it's nice it's nice and then you get good music out of it it's giving healthy yeah it is giving healthy sweet but I don't know I'm excited to hear this song about zoi Gomez yeah it's a great one hi zoi yeah hey Zo I love you I'm learning learning feel so cool today we weren't given many details but you're working with black bear yeah we love black bear I love him too he's the best um I am I have a song coming out this Friday this Friday yeah that's what I thought yeah Frid all I see is new song this Friday with black bear yeah it's um it's so sad I can't really talk about what it's for because of um like the guidelines of the strikes and whatnot but it's it's really exciting and I'm very excited about it I think that it's um it's a really fun song and it's going to be really cute and it's more for kids but it's really funny that I have like black bear with me on it it's really funny I don't know it's exciting it's good balance yeah it's a very funny balance so this song's not on Autumn Leaves no it's not on autumn leaves or my album it's for um something we can't discuss yeah it's for a project it's cool though don't you love when you can't talk about something I know I'm so sad about it but I don't know what can you do by the way all mechanic Grace music is waiting for you link in the description below it's sitting on Amazon music just waiting for you to click and tap and do the whole thing really soak it in listen to it it really is good stuff you're telling honest stories I'm excited for the album like that's what I'm the most excited for and this EP autumn leaves it's all there for you so go listen to it um your voice is so soothing like whenever you get right on the mic like every once in a while I'm just like oh my god there he is oh thanks yeah it's great very nice voice I love it sorry any no it's very sweet I that's actually the greatest compliment I get is that people like my voice yeah know it's great sometimes it gets creepy I love your voice yeah no that's not you have no idea love your voice big fan thank was good been a while since you've been acting clearly M was looking at the channel something there's a camera you want me to play something what uh do you get more nervous filming a big scene or performing live uh performing live why uh I don't know it's just so much scarier because I feel like shooting a scene you have like oh my God I was shooting like it must have been like an 8 8 12 page scene like full of dialogue and it was so much and it was just like the whole cast was in it and like we shot that for like two days and we did that exact scene like so many different takes so many different things like for like two days so you do it over and over and over and over again and then like you know which takes you like you can tell like the director like I hated that take please don't use it or you have like more control over how it looks or what you see and you can stop and you can start but then like performing live like you have one shot it has to be perfect and it's it's so cool and exciting but it's so scary because you only have like that one shot to nail it and if you don't you don't if you do you do which is so scary but it's really exciting so it's like I don't know you got to like practice a ton but that's that's for me why it's so much scary I mean after my first live performance I like ran off stage and threw up like I was so like like I felt so rock and roll though like I felt really rock and roll but like I was so scared just like terrifying but I had the best time ever but then I like ran off and all makes it all makes sense yeah it pretty it was exciting though did you go say What attracted you to pop punk originally that I know you're changing it now but why was bittersweet 16 like a pop punk album I never intended like to originally get into that side of music but then actually originally I had like an EP that I had been working on um for a while that was like really acoustic and like pretty and it was more bubble gum pop than I would have wanted it to be so I was like having a hard time figuring out out what to do and it was my first time in a studio and I didn't know how to give notes or how to convey like what I wanted and then I left and I went and shot something and I had some like crazy life experiences and then I came back and I was so angry about like a relationship or like friendship that I had like had and I was like so angry about it and I was so upset about it and I had all these feelings that I didn't know how to process and so it just ended up like becoming that I don't know I wrote a lot of angry music around then and so like that's kind of of what it became was that it was just more like pop punk than anything else but as long as it's honest and matching the tone and temperature of where you're at in life that's all that matters yeah that was like I look back at it now and I'm like oh my gosh it's a little embarrassing but like I also love it it's it's like I said earlier it's like a little time capsule I don't know brings you back yeah it really does does Grace vanderwell know that she's one of the reasons why you started playing the ukulele I have no clue I back in I mean it must have been like a few weeks or months into me learning ukulele I went to one of her concerts and I think I like met her backstage and I got her to did I get her to sign my ukulele case yeah and I don't know I must have been like 12 um but I have no clue I thought that she was like so cool to me I loved America's Got Talent I was like obsessed with it I would like save it all on the DVR and every night I'd watch it I'd get like so hyped and root for people but but I like I don't know I thought she was so cool she is so cool she is so cool I don't know hi Grace Vander wall hi Grace I think you're so cool she hasn't been on the show in a while no she hasn't been here in years yeah where she at where you at Grace have her back she's awesome she's a great energy good person really talented human being and super sweet damn she has a cool voice yeah she does and she knows how to work that ukul oh yeah Yeah by way you're a good egg really appreciate you giving us time and energy today I'm excited for this album thank you I'm really excited for this album yeah come on back we'll talk about it I'd love to I'd love to seriously anytime I'd be so excited but Autumn Leaves is waiting for you casual kiss or to it's all waiting uh plus all the other stuff Bittersweet 16 every song that mechanic Grace has put out for public consumption is waiting for you on Amazon music so wo just click the link in the description below what else you thinking how have you been able to stay so like normal being a child actor am I like you seem very normal to me well she could also be acting you could be putting on an act little do you guys know I have no clue like I don't even that was like I don't even know what nor like is or equals like I was like oh my God I was actually like kind of feeling sad I was like kind of crying on my couch last night because I watched this like really good homecoming proposal and it was so good and it was so sweet and I was like I've never going to go to homecoming and I was like so sad about it but it's like I don't know the Grass Is Always Greener but it's like a weird I am lucky to have my parents I really love my mom and dad they're like my best friends which is funny cuz like I've never been to school before like crazy ever and I graduated high school maybe last year I've been doing College um on and off for like the past two years or so I I've been taking some time off though from doing College cuzz I had a spinal surgery back in October a really big one you have scoliosis I I did but my spine is fused now is that like 6% is it I have no idea what it is at now I read something on the Internet that said that could have been line it's probably 6% but it was like do you know where it was at mom it was like it was pretty bad though it is 6% now see I don't think it was 56 was that'd be really bad I don't even know but it was pretty it was pretty not good and so like I forgot to sign up for like another semester after that cuz I couldn't walk and casual and so like I kind of forgot to sign back up so I just haven't but um you wrote a song about your surgery right or going through scoliosis um I wrote a song that was more just about like the weird body image issues that came with that because I've never had like a normal like I guess shape to my hips because one of them has always been so much higher than the other and I stand like this whenever I had like my scoliosis and it just like I don't know those type of things shouldn't get to you but it like it really did and I was just having a hard time with it and I was in such a weird mental space for a while like surrounding all of that and just now like over the past this year have I really been like coming to terms with that and trying to figure it out and like better myself as a person and take better care of my like mind and my body and like do things that make me feel like nice about myself I don't know that's should be your so priority yeah it and it has been it's it's been like it's nice to figure that kind of stuff out and listening back to that song you know I it's called self dysmorphia and at the time I like I have such a weird relationship with that song because I really didn't want to release it at first because it felt like so weird and personal but I kind of framed it in a bit of a lighter light and releasing it because it wasn't really something I was I don't know that I felt like I was ready to talk about because I feel like if I'm talking about that or like an image issue or something like that then I should be like over it or I should have some kind of closure that I can offer somebody by listening to this song but I felt like I didn't have that yet and I don't know if I if I have that yet or like anything like that but I felt so weird about it at the time and I didn't want it to be like o I'm releasing this like feel bad for me and here's my song it was just more of like a representation of where I was at that time in my life and I guess I'm happy it's out there I'm always like back and forth on it but I think that it's just like again for me music is like a diary to help me work through things and I guess that was like a necessary song for me to write part of your journey yeah it was just more written in like a poppy like like Punk manner which I like I didn't know how to feel about I was like does it need to be like sadder or is this fine to put it out there like this like I don't know and so I don't know but it's it was like a good representation of where I was at the time and it was like a very honest song for me according to People magazine it went from 47 degrees to six oh that sounds about right according to People magazine People magazine thank you People magazine for letting me know but yeah cuz it was pretty bad like I go back and look at some shows or things and I'm like oh my God I'm standing like this it always just it always just looks like I'm throwing hip or something though which is like kind of nice I don't know but it it was just funny uh but I'm very happy to it was like probably one of the hard like it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through easy easy yeah I don't know why I said probably it definitely was it was like pretty terrible but now now like at the time whenever I was recovering like I couldn't walk for like 2 weeks and I was just stuck on my couch cuz my room is upstairs for like two weeks I like couldn't shower by myself I couldn't like literally walk and so I like didn't know what to do with myself and I was like I wish I would have never done this like I hate this so much I like I'm hurting so bad but now that I'm like out of it I'm it was the best thing that I could have done for my life and I'm so happy I did it and so like I don't know for other people that are like going through that or have scoliosis or like debating whether or not to get the surgery like it was so worth it it's like a really difficult recovery but once you're over it it's so like I don't know I'm so happy I did it it's hard but pain is temporary yeah and cool cool back scars are forever M R's music is waiting for you it's all on Amazon music click the link in the description below you good yeah I just can't believe you've never been to school like that's crazy no I haven't I've always wanted I'm constantly trying to get invited to prom so like I'm I don't know I'm like constantly trying to get my friends who go to school to invite me to their proms or their homecomings before they graduate you'll eventually have your own equivalent to that and it'll be way better that's the wish that's the dream we'll see it's coming kind of Grace I appreciate you giving us your time and energy today thank you so much for having me it was so fun I like your little puppet in the corner uh he didn't distract you too much um I mean he's kind of look at me funny I know like I don't know what his deal is but he's got a couple problems I can tell you could deal with him like him after can you tell that's supposed to be Zach yeah right yeah gonna say you'd be weird that like there's just another puppet some white guy with brown hair and Untamed eyebrows I don't know it's definitely me that's so good anyway M Grace everybody thank [Applause] [Music] you [Music] w

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Length: 43min 4sec (2584 seconds)

Published: Thu Oct 19 2023