Love's Embrace | English Full Movie

[Music] for what you think you're smiling at I I thought you somebody else I'm I'm I'm sorry I can your Gamers I don't have a game what do what do you want it was me thinking that you wanted something for me I misread the situation I'm I'm sorry get down on your knees put your hands behind your back [Music] no tell me about this situation you [Music] misre um I looked at you because I I I I thought I knew you I'm I'm sorry [Music] open your mouth what I said open your MO [Music] C hey and you should get the hell out of here you don't scare me what you want I want you to do to me what you just did to that guy you three seconds to piss off I don't have time for forl just get on with it one just like that guy [Music] two nice and hard okay good morning how very rude of me I should know better trust me first impressions can last a lifetime I'm Dale I'm 28 I love movies candle dinners socializing and reading bollocks do I I'm not writing an ad for the lon Hearts here sex I like sex lots of it sex with strangers watching strangers have sex watching sex performed in strange ways god notice how the word sex and strange keep appearing [Music] Everything Is Love Love is Everything Everything Is Love love is everything it's not about Tuesday Tuesday don't matter now forget about Wednesday we'll work it out somehow and it's all about now and now is how you make me feel Is It Love Is it real [Music] All I Want Is Love Love Is All I [Music] want all I want is Love Love Is All I want not about [Music] anything how you doing good how you doing good good so so important you Muppets want to me it's early you're N Night care to join us for lunch Dale no wouldn't mind a bottle of water though water please so come on what's the crack well Raj has something to ask you well then maybe Raj should ask me thanks I wanted you to be the first to know the second actually guys I'm no mathematician but on either third well Vina has agreed to be my wife and we are getting married this Summer right well that's news in it someone had to take him off my hands I guess but but I'd love it if you'd be my best man best man I'm your only man come here you [Music] fool you okay yeah uh guys I'm getting married too of course you are so when's it willing going to be them soon fina's got the personality of a cream cracker soon they'll be like every other PR pushing mared couple early nights staying in watching Britain's Got Talent and The X Factor ooh the little Thrill Seekers they are she'll get in Playing House next then it's couples only for dinner she's a nice girl but is nice enough I hope so or do I well would' love to chat but I've got work to do oh dear everything okay sir am I expecting company this afternoon no sir just the two of us oh you're eating with me who's serving me my meal I want exceptional service this afternoon all right okay [Music] sir I guess I should be cutting back on my food anyhow sir for your appetizer you'll have salmon and lemon and dill sauce for your man you'll have lamb shank Rosemary mashed potatoes honey glaze parsnips and baby sweet corn lightly buttered and peppered just the way you like it dessert why your favorite creme brulee with crushed raspberry compot would you like a glass of wine sir yes I would a glass of your best dry white okay sir I shall be right back and wash your hands before you serve me I don't want your filthy germs on my food [Music] [Music] [Music] you can now see why I turned down V's kind offer of joining them for lunch why pay to eat when you can get this kind of service and get paid my fee is 150 an hour plus travel so when I visit Pete I'm always extra careful not to rush me food I endorse fantasies I take people to places that they usually only ever go to a own this takes skill patience and Instinct you're probably thinking I like the sound of me own voice and I'm a bit up my own ass well we're all allowed to think that's one thing I can't charge you for's pieces and if you're getting married guys your wedding your gay wedding could be the very very best anyone's ever seen it's all about the ring I've got yellow gold I've got white gold I've got platinum and sterling silver something for everyone's taste and everyone's budget at the lowest prices you're going to look great but it's not going to cost the world if you're interested pick up the phone dial the number come through and join me and grab yourself a piece I know you will love so Dale what have you got to lose imagine that feeling you'll have when Raj slides into your ring gorgeous pieces lowest prices the most amazing feeling you will have wearing something that holds you and your partner together forever this is your chance to get an ex a know I told you if I have to clean it up you'll pay me double and your bad boy and forever I love the design you will as well if you don't you can send it back to us you've [Music] got I met sha a couple of years ago in Australia he was there finishing his art degree his work then was political abstract and often crude he used to paint on canvas now he just paints on himself he's a popular drag artist under the name of s day applaud everyone knows who she is so you can imagine sha is very beneficial as a friend Jesus where'd you get this Eduardo took a shine to one of my paintings which one the one with the man pulling his ass cheeks apart I thought you like that got bored of it you got to know when to move on Dale you'll be moving right into reab if you keep bartering your art for drugs well I could sell my art you got to have one first well tonight I'm going to work my little ass off and you my darling are going to film it oh God I want to preserve my youth never know when your numbers up I w't leave behind all of my achievements you got your drag show you I'm not drag I'm art how looks tonight everybody come on B for oh and so are you sisters I think we should just have one [Music] [Applause] [Music] love [Music] here [Music] around the [Music] [Applause] [Music] corner [Music] [Applause] [Music] he had what crawling at his ass worms more like tiny white maggots really you know I've been waiting to bite into his Peach for three flipping months and just as I get my face right up close I see him don't ever entertain lucky I had the lights on so where did you end up SAA oh the sauna oh Dale you'll pick up all sorts there what the point Sean anyway you can hardly talk well somehow in Sean's wit he's hitting a nail on the head at least in regard to how I feel I'm between two places in my life at the moment feeling restless One Part of Me loves where the spontaneity is taking me cruising through life with no plans the freedom you feel and the situations you encounter could be amazing then there's the other part of me approaching 30 others at this point have stability a career someone to make plans with and depend upon I'm not afraid of relationships but I won't settle with someone who doesn't take all my boxes you see it everywhere men who go from one relationship to another people who stay with someone even though they know it's not right sometimes spouses cheat on each other have aairs you'd be surprised if you knew how many married men hire me some adamant they're not gay they're the ones I give a really good see to just to remind them they soon come back in fact they make up half of my regulars my new client Andy is a Voyer but I reckon if you're parting with cash get involved and get your money's worth this one likes a bit SLA and I don't mind not sharing regard [Laughter] call him a dirty homo you like this your dirty homo yeah P his hair and riding hard hard I want to see his eyes water spit on his face tell him he's a dirty little [ __ ] a dirty little wh squeeze his throat go on make the horse suffer [ __ ] oh [ __ ] no you done oh [ __ ] Ricardo mate oh [ __ ] Ricardo oh [ __ ] oh are you done oh my Ricardo mate it's me can you hear me Ricardo can you hear me oh [ __ ] hell [ __ ] you're wrong I don't like [Music] this [Music] enjoyed that well that was easy 500 easy for you maybe I put in all the effort did should had something to work with so what's going on with work oh yeah the fun L stops and save every penny for drum School B good actor it's nice who gave you that sugar daddy was it no D it's gift for my father it's one of a kind CH me like in London he has a big drink for me did you take that bottle of VRA out of the medicine carpets no Mom I never touch your medicine well I'm sure I never never started that bottle is it yeah the empty bottles in with the rubbish look if I find out you drank it I'll be taking no more of your special passes when you're out do you hear [Music] me Dale coming around later no I'm meeting him at the pub he's a good friend of yours he's always welcome here what are you after nothing son but if you are going past the off license in the next hour you couldn't get me a little bottle of vka well can you help me out of course I can which way did you come in hey what I'll stop messing with my head I'm not messing with your head it's the Vodka that's messing with your head can't you just have one day off don't make me feel bad it helps me take the edge off how twisted and cruel the world around me is not this Chad again I want it was a normal life children who do childish things like spoil their mother no no not me I get Mrs Doubtfire should never have bought you that Bloody video I was clearly Paving the way saying it's normal to play with clothes the way you do thanks Christine you know I do nothing but worry about you don't think that everyone's all right with what you do Paul's family is apart sing on the news just now that one of your lot got murdered up on the heath that's sick yeah maybe sometimes I understand why they act that way unbelievable I only cope because I've got Mr V down the road and for $1.99 a bottle he makes you much more tolerable so don't you dare deny me how did you become such an utter [ __ ] Christine down to the parenting so well done Priscilla you can take the credit for that too did you ever stop to think when I was Raising you who was looking after me don't blame me for your father dying didn't just leave you he left both of us I blame him for you turning out this way stop bad mouthing him I know you needed a manly figure in your life but guess what so did I I was hoping that spending that time in Sydney would have straightened you out if you met Sydney you wouldn't say that stop thinking you're so smart I just never expected you to return as ded's daughter I don't know what you mean [Laughter] mom why are you not good I've been working on Ricardo all morning I maybe you should be working on the speech oh you know me I'll come up with something think I'm a fate see that's what I'm afraid of if I know you you'll be up there talking about yourself and forget all about the wedding so Raj are you really in love with well is she the one Dale all I know is that she makes me feel good about myself well I make you feel good about yourself there's got to be more than that you love her well to be honest the whole thing scares the hell out of me she needs this I need this surely the fact you scared tells you something look mate you are someone who deserves to feel happy you know I'm happy Christ it's strange I don't know if I'm coming or going at the moment that's what I mean how can you make a decision like this that affects not only your life but other people's as well when you're in this kind of state Dale I just need your support on this one I can't it's too big a risk butale you take more risks than anyone please he disappears and I feel anger angry that I've been left on would you have some more cake Dale it's good for you you's try to make me fat mom come on son few pounds never hurt anyone Mike tell Dale about that new project you're running for the Sunday school children oh Dale won't be interested in that you're right there Mike Dale don't be so rude you could take a leaf out of Mike's book do some sort of service for other people I do Mom you know I do Heaven's Sake don't talk about that filth you get up to around this table no it's not filth you'd be surprised a lot of my clients are intelligent respectful people look the job's been around for years you know it has ever since Money's been exchanged for goods prevents sex crimes prevents people having Affairs it allows people the opportunity to let off a little bit of steam let go of themselves I do provide a service mom I help people out Mike tell him Dale you know what Mike a lot of my clients are just like you quiet unmarried when they're not God sake coming home provokes all kinds of emotions in me mom's pulled through she's found a safe bet him Mike not the funniest man in the room however his gentle passive nature is World apart from what she did have I don't think she's altogether happy with her lot but she's no longer scared we don't really talk about the past I think she hopes I was too young and don't remember but I do as if it was yesterday I remember the broken Crockery and the chunks of hair on the floor anyhow now is not the time hey this T FM I'm Jim Allen and I'll be with you for the next couple of hours to listen to some wonderful smooth Giants let's get [Music] going thank you thank you thank you everyone no more thank you all thank you thank you thank you you look pretty and pink not so trading there tonight just Richard Gear over there he's been coming in the last couple of nights he never talks though he just stares at me why do you always want what you can't have is it with you and people that are in loving relationships do you still marry some if you weren't 100% sure I take it we're not talking about them over there are we so how are the delightful Duo that AR Raj and vinaa I really don't know why you bother with him okay he's goodlooking he got lots of money a great career and is straight with an air of maybe about him don't see why you waste your time I don't expect you to like him do I tell me what would you do I need to know a good friend of yours right was about to make a big mistake I'd stop him and say before you do something you regret have you ever considered it's never going to happen he's straight he's out right now with his Beyonce while you're stuck in a [ __ ] bar clinching your mobile phone waiting for your next p to call we're talking about him not me we're talking about friends about to make big mistakes you're lecturing me about how to run my life when you run into the L every 5 minutes to put that crap up you know get a life and get the hell out of mine one sniff of the truth and you go running if few sniffs of Charlie and you're a dick I'm going to give you 5 Seconds to get out my face before I deck you I'm going nowhere just like your fabricated relationship it's not fabricated two you're pathetic three you can't even stand up straight so how the hell you going to date straight four you're just a cumguzzling [ __ ] o why your next in ladies [ __ ] off [Music] man so Dale have you been safer this month I've been looking both sides of the road before Crossing it that's what you mean this is no laughing matter if you don't start taking more responsibility for your actions then look I'm here aren't I and before you ask about 40 in the last couple of months and yes I've always worn my anorak even though I feel like a bloody train and orally I don't dress up for oral okay I see well you've had your Hepatitis B Jabs yeah I just need to post okay we can do that today I'll take your routine swabs do you feel that you need to have another HIV test no I've been very careful with all that good okay if you stand up and drop your trousers this won't hurt okay now I've had swabs in the past but here's one nurse who is clearly out to inflict pain on all those people who've got a sex life the way she sticks that butt into my Barrel then twists turns and scrapes it I mean look at the expression on her face she loves it probably the closest she ever gets to handling meat imagine having to go to work to get your end away then again who am I to talk what is it about this place look at all the Bland faces I don't get it come on we're the lucky ones who pick up so we pick up a few extras along the way but nothing that the nurse can't clear you have g a ear in your throat that Old Chestnut why is it always me am I more PR to getting this than everyone else well if you're more promiscuous and of of course it increases your chances maybe time to rethink about dressing up for the occasion it's in the throat not down there well we haven't detected anything down there but that's not to say there's no infection just takes someone to kiss you and travel South and you do the math okay so what is it three tablets a day for a week yes and no sex for a week and also you need to get in touch with people that you've had relations with so that they can get tested up for a bit of overtime are you yes I love dealing with Pricks all day can you believe it no sex for a week that's both my social life and my income out of the window oh I can't drink either damn I feel more [ __ ] now than I did when I was having sex I think that'll do you some good use the time to think about what you really want from life oh God don't you get all serious on as well this Vena is it this isn't about Vena it's about you you're almost 30 and you're still out there playing games what do you really want from life where are you going to end up you must have dreams desires like everyone else I do but I'm not afraid of mine what is it you're afraid of come on Raj step into the unknown feel what it's like when I fall I'll feel every bone shatter crack and smash into a thousand pieces and you know what I'll enjoy every moment what is he you're afraid of I I didn't know how to tell you this I've been bottling it up I really need your help on this one I'm bringing the wedding forward what there's been a cancellation next month and I know it's impulsive and I'm scared stiff but I are you mad last time we spoke you you didn't even know what was happening why would you do something like that listen to me Raj if you do this you're going to get yourself in one hell of a mess they'll just just write the [ __ ] [Music] speech venix [Music] perfect do you think so definitely [Music] hello this is Gavin Riley that was the Cherry storms Julia that'll be playing later on today and throughout the day so stay tuned with us and particularly with me Gavin Riley yes sir it will be sir listen Raj I've had a think it' be good to get to know Vena a little bit better better than I do you know really wow that's great that would mean a lot to me thank you we're only right I get to know what all the fuss is about a it so when are you both free well um we're not around for the next couple of weeks but we're off tomorrow okay well Sean's coming around for dinner tomorrow so why don't you join us you cook that'll be a first I think I might oh Raj I've got someone on the other line 6 o00 tomorrow yeah yeah sure great I will let V know looking forward to it all right bye hello Zach speaking are those your real pictures yes they are indeed how many inches and are you cut nine in and uncut that works for me can I tell your name Dominic you say you do role play do you have a school uniform yes I do Dominic can you bring a sexy friend around midday tomorrow of course I've got a nice Brazilian guy who can assist it's going to be double O Dominic okay see you tomorrow fine I can see some Grime on that toilet seat what are you paying me for ehy sort it out okay sir sorry sir I can't hear you boy okay sir sorry sir put your glasses back on so you can see what you're doing yes sir thanks sir Thanks Dale and and uh here's an extra 50 you were definitely more into it this evening see you P oh and um try not to clean up too much this week okay Zach hi Dominic good to to meet you listen I'm sorry about the uh Brazilian guy but I'm sure you'll fine the job will be done to your satisfaction come in so Charlie you enjoying school oh yes I'm really enjoying it actually I just love socializing and we have an art Department to die for sex education was kind of fun today wasn't it oh yeah but I know all of that anyhow how are things with your girlfriend my girlfriend areen we doing gay role play just play along oh my girlfriend she's just fabulous fabulous but up um my [ __ ] we make out at least five times a day really what' you do to her tell me I've never done it with a girl well I take out a titties and I give them a rub and a shake and a squeeze and that makes a Pur wow that sounds hot then what' you do um well I uh i p a legs and I give her a poke with my little finger little finger I poke and I prod and I slap and I kiss and I lick and I sip from her you what you take a sip from her Zach this just isn't working for me you know actually I'm running late for my cookery exam I really should go sorry dlight did try I'm just way out of my depth I'll see you at dinner so Dale anyone else you ever been with a guy before well I haven't been with a guy before but I'm getting hard just thinking about it I'd better take a closer look [Music] who's the head Bo now oh you [Music] are [Music] who's your brief fight [Music] [Music] now [Music] you know a survey says over 60% of gay boys have had a crush on their best friends what do we all think about that wow well most boys grow into men and realize it's never going to happen 3 2 1 and we're back in the classroom you know what miss your teaching method sucks sorry we excuse me everyone while I go and powder my cute little nose you really think he has a thing for you oh Sean oh yeah I've known it for years Sean's like one of those wives you wake up next to after a few years of marriage and think I can't stand the smell of it than the look of it well we are not having one of those marriages more wine anyone it's the last bottle and it's my dear friend Christine says it's not over till it's finished that's right Dale you were saying that if you really love someone you'd shout it out for the whole world to hear darling you're nearly 30 so go on shout it out there's only four of us here go [ __ ] yourself if you it was a choice of [ __ ] myself or getting [ __ ] for money I'd go It Alone any day you go it alone I don't care you have no idea how crap you make people feel sometimes do you what you failed to understand his rejection hurts and I've had it all my life but you you get one little hint of it and you manipulate it and you make it everybody else's problem so you don't have to face the truth so God damn weak it's not how loud you shout oh how hard you hit if you want to be heard speak the truth I'll check on him well that's not the way you planned this evening was it go away you I'm really not in the mood didn't you call this dinner party to get to know me before I marry your best friend so what do you want to ask you're really not interested are you Dale do you realize how much you've hurt your friend Sean wait can you stop Raj stop playing the mar I've just about had it up to here with you and your perfect little life you don't know the first thing about my life really I have to listen to radio Dale with its 24-hour news bulletins on the Raj and Venus show well I can't help that look you really shouldn't let things get you like this how does it feel to be that perfect to be that attractive and needed I want to know tell me come on stop being silly just get away from me do you have any idea how today felt for me you'll be all right in a couple of days why didn't you tell him you were bitching about me and Raj and not him what you talking about like a wife you can't bear the smell of or look of Dale I work with children all day I'm not stupid give me some credit Dale you're in love with Raj Vena looks like the cat that's got the cream she has that want for you then I look over at Dale and he's also looking at you takes me microphone and 6-in heels and a well rehearsed routine to be heard God I don't even know why they're listening to you because your conversations are just so incredibly dull don't hold back don't worry about me why does it always take a woman to say it the way it is I'm getting married in 2 weeks we need to sort out this inconvenience inconvenience you're unbelievable have you got any idea how it feels to love someone so much that they're in your every thought the pain you feel the desire you feel when you're right up close to them how consumes you out Burns inside you the more you try to ignore it the more pain you feel the more it hurts the more it makes you sick I know you're hurting me you won the battle Vena you've got him but I know how it works you two will get married we'll have a few more Awkward dinner parties and then you'll have children and go go into some weird family mode and project all your [ __ ] onto them I hope it works out for you I really do hello yeah it is no I haven't but go [Music] ahead you know once I was in the supermarket I saw this man exchanging bread had nuts on the crust his partner had an allergy he took time to notice he looked out for him you have people looking out for you don't you I wish that man's stayed around for more than five minutes in my life and why the hell should they just look at me I'm not like everyone else that's why I started painting my face to give people something a little bit more interesting to look at now I just do it to hide you have many qualities you just hide them well if you showed people the real you more often you may just surprise yourself now I know why people listen to you you you make a lot of sense when you're not being so dull now let me look at your face I wouldn't do that I'm sorry I had no idea you not many people do thank you for [Music] noticing [ __ ] [ __ ] Dell what's happened [ __ ] what has happened that guy who was murdered on the haath it's my mate Ricardo oh my [Music] God I'm losing everyone oh Fu no you're not what look you've got two great friends friends in your life you're not losing them God Dar if anything you're going to have Raj all to yourself very soon I don't get you you've been sitting around that dinner table for the last 2 and a half hours talking to Raj about marriage and now you're leaving it's not through Choice why not I have a [Music] tumor [Music] I've been told it's it's growing fast and it's pushing my brain into my spinal [Music] column and I've been given a few months can you believe that a few [Music] months I don't believe it I'm marrying him but you're you're going to have him you know I love him so much I love him more than than anything I can't give him what he [Music] wants you know what Raj is like puts on a brave face and smiles and pretends everything's okay but he is being ripped apart on the inside I could see it in his eyes I even hear him crying [Music] sometimes he needs you I need you to promise me you'll always be there for him counting on you counting on you we don't always do what we all in our life I'm feeling the sun's getting cold in our life but nobody seems to know maybe we laugh and we [Applause] cry in our [Music] life plenty of Tears say [Applause] goodbye in power [Applause] life maybe just one last try hoping you might change your mind in our life [Music] police are continuing with a murder inquiry in Black Heath in London after a man was found killed yesterday Ricardo Nunes aged 27 was stabbed eight times in a spot described by police as being notorious with gay men in an emotional appeal for Witnesses Ricardo's father described his son as being a friendly loving man who wore his heart on his sleeve and always saw the best in people cheer up kid my never happen it already has what's worse it seems to keep on happening what can I get you Mr gee nah you're all right let me get you something what' you like do you know what I'd really like happy ending just like in Pretty Woman where Richard takes Julia away from a messed up world her friends a job everything but this isn't the movie and you certainly aren't Richard Gear Well my name is Richard then we why there then I'd like a r gronic thanks how about joining me later for a drink don't take pity on me I'm not this fa spreads of wings at 7:30 right good to get to my place for let's see 11:00 11 steady on love I'm not that kind of girl oh trust me I'm not that kind of guy it never rains but it flipping pause how's my gorgeous boy today then he's probably getting ready for his big day how are you well you know self-centered cruel upset trying desperately to say sorry hey that's not the Dale I love what love to hate don't go soft on me now princess flowers I mean come on whatever happened to good oldfashioned snow in a bag not for you are they I heard I'm sorry hear about Ricardo I never met him but from what you told me he certainly lived life to the full you okay yeah I'm going to place these on the spot where it happened you be careful the heath is not the safest place to go at the moment if you like I'll come with you thanks we'll go after work I've got a couple of hours spare before my date before your what seems somebody doesn't find me unbearable to look at it's okay Raj saw through your mind games he was really good to me last night he's not such a dick I know I had a good chat with Vena as well perhaps they make the perfect match after all you really should think about your speech one step ahead I wrote it and emailed it across to you let me know if it's too much you there aren't many flowers he wasn't exactly lady Dy was he just another gay attack I suppose to think he came to this country to make a better life for himself poor s we never met yet somehow I feel connected you were one of us and we're taken from this world simply for being the wrong place at the wrong time may you rest in peace now I bet you wish you'd practice safe sex sick bastard I can't believe they're still coming here well what's it going to take now the Press have got hold of it it's going to be a playground for married men is it what time's your date you're not be rude not to wouldn't it go on please yourself like you always do I will oh and Sh good luck go to hell [Music] Dale I just don't get it how would anyone willingly go out on a date with you you know when I used to take you to school they used to do me for littering was that the same day that you stuck your face out the car window and got arrested for mooning it's just a few drinks oh God you should see him he's so handsome distinguished silver hair just like Richard Gear well we know what he likes to get up to in his spare time what he puts tins of ham inside himself you what where'd you hear that from and you and Dale were talking one night I'm was walking past your room so we said hamsters I can't believe you were eavesdropping you're so nosy I wouldn't have to Eaves drop if he didn't close the door and Whisper I can't win if I show no interest you ram it down my throat what you need he's a good man and you could find something less intoxicating to Ram down your throat I can't wear that one out it's over my head I mean you need a good dick oh well I have you dear so tell me more about the Silver Fox well there's not much to tell he's uh mysterious with an air of authority what's he do hopefully everything thing I blame Dustin Hoffman what for for making [ __ ] in frocks fashionable what do you mean Tootsie Christine oh God that was another video I bought for you Sean don't feel you got to rush home tonight don't go reading my diary again you didn't even put it back in the right place the last time well he got no worries there love didn't even make it through January it's hardly a good read I think you're better off sticking with paints than pens don't sit fire to yourself in bed tonight sweetie don't take your clothes off in bed tonight not if you want a second day I can't believe out of 10,000 sperms you were the quickest I can't believe that when you appeared on the family tree nobody cut it down Andy right Ricardo he's uh he's no longer he does do this anymore Andy yeah okay I can do one on one been gagged loads of times right okay but it'll cost you double yeah okay I'll be in the saer in 20 minutes of course would want to upset the wife would we all right some wine C the nerves that' be lovely but I've got to be honest I'm really not that nervous I was actually referring on mine I'm no harm to anyone yeah I know you do seem a little tense but it's been a while since you've uh had a lady in your company indeed it has so Richard tell me a little about yourself where do I start as Dane Julie says yeah they start at the very beginning Mr you're a fast learner a man after my own heart I think that your opinion of me may change I've done some really bad things I want you to know me the real me you see for years I never knew myself I was so confused I felt so lonely and the friends I had aren like the friends you have back then it was just me there's no Escape From what I was do you have secrets of course I'm not talking about little secrets that you can have with your friends I'm talking about life changing Secrets I've done things I'm so ashamed of I bet you have no idea what it does to someone knowing that he singlehandedly destroyed a family how a guil i feel inside I just can't keep it to myself anymore I've got to write myself I see a lot of me and you would you have such an aming amazing confidence when you wear your heart in your sleep you display yourself with such vivid colors when how did you stay so strong I bet you have no idea of the effect you have on other people's lives you love your family don't you well we all have to uh make two with our lot it's no big deal everyone's got crosses to bear so if you were taken from your family that would be no big deal listen here kiddo you have to realize that not everything is always as it seems yeah [ __ ] happens but we have complete control to change our lives look this is all getting a little too baby Jane for me I think I really need you're not going anywhere not until I do what I have to do years ago people were less understanding of my kind you can get away with those colors my world was a much darker place the rainbow may be shining on the window but inside the lights aren't always on look Richard you're a lovely guy and all but we all got our scars but I was looking for something a little lighter tonight my wife tried to understand my needs but how could she accept me for what I was I made aive hell I brought her down couldn't imagine you bringing anyone down well I left her on her own late at night while I went out hunting for gay men I was an animal I just took them didn't even know their names I became addicted you know what it's like to be an addict don't you Shan hone he felt complete when I was out there in the danger zone and KN I'd eventually get caught just added to my excitement and then I did get caught and only then I knew I'd [ __ ] up how do you mean what screwing with gay men cost me everything my family the [Music] [Music] [Music] [ __ ] when you call me kiddo wasn't just a pet name first date I've had in months well if it's any consolation I never said it was a date and like I said I've made some terrible mistakes but just so that you know what a dream of yours you know of a happy ending I want that too when I finally checked you down to working in the pub I knew the moment I saw you that you were mine I felt so PR it was the happiest moment of my [Music] life [Music] [Music] fantasies are a funny thing when I'm not having them I'm cashing in on them I've mastered this art form I'm a pro but not everyone understands the fine line between reality and fanty see you hear all the time of rapists pedophiles and murderers I flirted with these Intruders but never been seduced thought I was indestructible look at him wearing Ricardo's bracelet like some kind of trophy knife looks sharp I thought it was only children that use knives what led him to this his hatred for G or is it self-loathing and rejecting of what he really is I guess this is going to work is a prim that's Immaculate timing it's the buildup and the suspense that gets us in such a state I wonder how long he kept Ricardo waiting guess I'll be able to ask him soon can you guess where he's stabbing me listen let your imagination run wild come on explore imagine how it feels God it's important to feel [Music] on an occasion like today there are no words to be used to ease the pain before the death of my friend I asked him to be my best man he was unable to fulfill that role but thanks to our friend Sha I have the speech that he wrote oddly enough nothing could be more fitting today and I'd like to share his words with [Music] you my best friend we have known each other for a lifetime and my heart is filled with so much love for you I know I'm not the only one here today that feels that way there have been many times when I have question this love where it comes from what makes me act irrationally and sometimes selfish but you know what it doesn't matter where it comes comes from it's more important to know that my love for you is ongoing from today you'll be living a new life surrounded by loved ones recently we had a heart tohe heart discussing venturing into the unknown and allowing ourselves to feel well I have been doing a lot of this lately and I felt everybody shatter crack and smash into a thousand [Music] pieces I embraced every moment I was feeling thank you so much for letting me feel to my amazement it did not hurt as you were my safety [Music] net so go Embrace this new beginning and make the most of every single second as I now realize how precious life is you have my blessing and love always [Music] Dale not a bad turnout you know I often used to fantasize about how I was going to go and who would be mourning for me selfish I know but doesn't everyone at some point I mean look at their [Music] faces Fina she's there supporting Raj but clearly mourning her own funeral poor [Music] cow Pete sweet crazy Pete was more than a game to you I was not unique in my offering you'll find someone else to fill my role ladies and gentlemen Miss Estee applaud my friend Shan I'm going to miss you your honesty comedy colors all your qualities they'll stay with [Music] me Christine you fa the uncertainty that one day sha will no longer be by your side your past still controls your present you need to be honest with Sean not discussing things allows your past to haunt you for the rest of your life I remember the joy in Mom's face when Dad got her this beautiful set for their [Music] [Music] [Music] anniversary the noise as Mom screams helpless desperate sickening I shouted with every bit of feeling I had that's when I felt his hands around my throat 6 years old and gasping for here where does this hatred come from what creates a monster pulled the kitchen knife that was on the sideboard and plunged it into his stomach he stared at me and then it was over I must have been a constant reminder of the man who broke your spirit you didn't like all the choices I made but as you know I needed to be strong next time I see you I'm going to hold you so tight and tell you everything's going to be okay [ __ ] off well what did you expect to see me covered in blood murdered by Andy please he can barely perform a rape me and my overactive imagination humoring myself I'm still narrating my story bringing you into my world helping you escape yours do you escape much like it when you do do you need a little support and guidance well if you do I know a good guide you'd love it it'd be safe cuz as we

Channel: Cinematic Euphoria

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Keywords: FullFreeMovies, ComedyMovie, FreeYouTubeMovies, The Cost of Love, Comedy, Drama, Romance, Carl Medland, Christopher Kelham, Valmike Rampersad, Mandeesh Gill

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Length: 86min 55sec (5215 seconds)

Published: Thu Apr 11 2024