More Than Only | LGBTQ+ Feature Film | Official (re-colored)

[Music] so my father wanted only two things straight a's and a straight son these were the two non-negotiables in our relationship the two unforgivable shortcomings that would not be tolerated social acceptance was of the utmost importance the standard by which all decisions must be made any deviation was quickly corrected my father never even had to say a word [Music] i learned quickly that i was not to express my socially unacceptable traits despite the fact that i still felt compelled to share them they were not a welcome conversation [Music] so i started to write i wrote down everything everything i saw everything i felt or questioned and wanted to share but couldn't [Music] i also learned if i was to keep my father on my side and eventually just his wallet i needed to at least appear to be a willing participant in his way of life [Music] my first arranged date i was 15. i'm sure the enamored look i wore as we scarfed our cheeseburgers was a sign of hope i never told them it wasn't the girl who captured my attention but the boy in the booth behind her [Music] although i could never grow one on my face finding a beard for every dance and social event was a simple enough task girls in a small town are easily wooed they would get money sometimes jewelry always a nice dinner at the best restaurant in town which admittedly isn't saying much all i asked for in return was to be popular and to carry the reputation of a proud but maybe a little handsy philanderer [Music] these were the advantages of having wealthy parents who needed social acceptance more than they needed a well-adjusted son as soon as i graduated i couldn't wait to get out i moved far enough away so i was out of sight but not far enough from the financial support i didn't know what i wanted to do with the rest of my life i only knew who i wanted to do i'm telling you man with the right takeoff pattern i can clear 10 feet easy this time if you need to take a break from studying please please please go run the track recite a sonnet in the comments go to the shower and jack off but do not for the love of god jump out of that window oh you do care no i don't i just don't wanna take it to the hospital again i have a physics midterm tomorrow and some of us need to study mark if you don't stop studying for like a minute the molecules in your brain are gonna start racing away from each other until your brain matter literally expands beyond the cranial cavity and all over the walls who's gonna clean that up mark we both know that's your thing and how are we gonna get rid of the body okay nobody's calling the wolf mark my dad's rich but he's not marcellus wallace rich we're just gonna have to grind your body up into hot dog paste feed it to the students on meal plan you are seriously disgusting no wonder people are afraid of you no they're just jealous of me [Music] [Applause] [Music] justin johnson studying right now staying out of trouble of course keeping your nose clean sparkling sir watch it i'm sorry i'd hate to have to cut you off justin i know you would straight a's not a question as always sir and the other under control it better be justin i won't let you down i know you won't studying right now finals in six weeks i'll call back talk then good night justin as i was saying my parents support and encourage my journey of the soul i'm pretty sure your soul doesn't reside in your pants since that's the only part of you that has had any journey i can't help it if i'm irresistible uh-huh well you and your soul need to get out of here so i can study and you can go find yourself no soul finders tonight and i don't feel like flying solo ah did you develop carpal tunnel i warned you i know and i appreciate all the times you tried to step in as a pinch hitter but the grip on the bat it's not so good for a home run slugger [ __ ] get out of here buy your command my fellow countrymen shut up justin it is with great regret and a heavy heart i must inform you that i will travel to a far away place tonight to satisfy my soul then do it already a place where only those of the highest intellect questionable superior looks now i just know you're talking about me and an unwavering thirst to find the human soul or a decent piece of ass or a decent piece of ass thank you sir tobin and so i traveled to the great unknown jump already and put us out of our misery what a world what a cruel cruel cruel world i added that third cruel to avoid plagiarism how thoughtful jump jump jump jump jump jump jump spoken sorry tobin i must take my leave of you now wow [Music] sire tobin i do believe i'll be needing the services of your noble steed this night are you [ __ ] me i am most definitely not [ __ ] you sir i do feel the pain of a thousand burning sun seared my leg but good god damn it [ __ ] you know this is why freshman year lotteries for roommates is a bad idea your college experience would have been so dull without me stay there i'll be right down where would i go [ __ ] okay so i don't write everything down sometimes i jump out of a window sometimes i laugh when i should cry like heinlein said we laugh because it's the only thing that will stop it from hurting well fat and painkillers mr johnson seem to have had an accident dustin and who are you michael rn you must be new no i'm not new i just drew the short straw cute and clever what a rare combination so what happened mr johnson mr johnson is my father's name i think i'm a little young to be a mr anybody don't you you can call me justin i think we're pretty much the same age we're the exact same age actually what happened apparently they don't make tree limbs like they used to [Music] wait if we're the same age how do you get to be a nurse doesn't that take like 12 years of college or something or are you doogie hauser apparently you missed the common sense portion of the tree limb surfing class dookie house was a fictional teenage doctor i'm a real life nurse skipped high school went to college at 16 graduated when i was 20. wow that's impressive i didn't even know you could do that so you jumped out of a window into a tree truth and the limb broke truth wow you know you're really good at this game michael are in are you in any pain just right here oh you're having chest pain my heart stops when you look at me did you just quote a lady gaga song to me katy perry dude how do you not know that you say that like she's judy garland you have any leg pain nice deflection michael rn i took some t3 on the way over so i guess i'm like a six on the pain scale should i be impressed or worried about your knowledge of our pain scale or the fact that you have t3 in stock i just seem to be accident prone is that what we're calling it now i just miss you all so much tough way to get friends i just figure it's easier than actually sending letters home nothing says i love you to the parentals like a new explanation of benefits and an er bill right mom gets confirmation of my whereabouts and dad gets assurance that i'm just being a guy not a gay mr johnson i can bring you into this world but they sure don't have to love you i'm sorry i'm gonna take you to x-ray make sure you don't have a break another adventure another er bill double the love coming their way you're welcome mom and dad there's no way oh you're just jealous you can't do it or maybe he tried and it's still stuck up there that explains the constipated personality traits okay screw you all i'm gonna get another drink oh my god look who it is where over by the piano oh [ __ ] what it's the nurse from the er there are a lot of nurses in the er mark i bet your medical record is a few encyclopedias deep it's probably got a picture on a poster in the med room that says beware of horny gay man you know what i'll have you all know i'm not that desperate most of the time i'm not that desperate he's just particularly cute okay and which er visit is this one from when i fell out of the tree jump semantics he's so cute and he plays piano hey are we going to play come on okay give me give me give me boom seriously see this is why we can't play poker you've got no game face man up whatever you're already more man than the rest of us be damn right you want this one oh game face justin come on whatever i'm out i gotta go have another visit with the love doctor nurse justin nurses do it with patience michael r.n you remembered my name i'm just really good with names is all surprising considering faces don't seem to be your primary focus do you take requests do you tip i might then i might take a request it'll be my final song of the night i want to hear something that's going to get my body moving and show off my sexy dance moves okay i have a request for you all from oh my god justin oh my god justin he wishes to move his body for you all you put your right hand in you put your right hand out oh come on everybody's gone shy help him out you put your right hand in and you shake it all about you do the hokey pokey and you turn yourself around that's what it's all about you do the pokey you do the pokey come on michael rn big finish that's what it's all about [Music] [Applause] thank you thank you so much well played michael rn you know i still don't know your last name no no you don't does that mean i have to beg uh i'd rather not have to watch so you will tell me your last name no then how am i going to track you down are you the stalker type no just the interested type you're not my type what's not your type my personality thanks brian it's in a couple weeks my face my what you're look justin you're funny and kind of cute but but this is not something i need in my life this you're a hot mess i am hot i'll give you that i'm not into one-night stands neither am i i wasn't i wasn't planning on sleeping over [Music] goodbye michael lauren till our paths cross again [Music] place your bets girls and brooke thank you for clarifying i am all woman all right uh boys where's the chocolate oh with somebody on there todd please use your overrated college vocabulary to explain to me why my needs during my menstrual cycle are open to your male privileged opinion i will have you know that i am currently experiencing contractions which are cutting off the oxygen to my uterus so if i need some chocolate to increase my serotonin levels rather than i don't know stabbing the nearest male in the room to relieve physical pain i'd say you're coming out on top so you would better fork over the chocolate i know you were hiding and then call your mothers to say thank you thank you for the years of periods you endured and suffered through just so i may have life [Music] that's what i thought so what's the deal with the whole chocolate and period thing anyways i helped harry potter when he was facing the dementor i can assure you hairy freaking potter would rather face an entire army of dementors than this uh i don't think so no uterus no opinion chocolate oh yeah drink up suckers that'd better be the damn pizza i'm wasting away only the brain cells you don't feed oh thank god change no it's cool what's uh took you so long we're having an open mic night down at the bar it's a mad house all those singers and wannabe comedians uh sarah a piano player like tall dude with blonde hair it's like got the pectoral muscles looks like he might be like a really good hugger oh you mean michael yeah yeah oh yeah cool michael michael mr michael it's cool everything's cool um is that all getting over soon are people like you're seeking to maybe there are going to be some people or is there like maybe time for to go and last calls midnight cool thanks dude see you around talking about [Music] that so uh i think i'm gonna go make a run and get us some more beers there's some beers in the fridge then i'm gonna get us some hot wings oh he's just after that nurse from the bar are you just hungry for another rejection come on justin i am nothing if not persistent he will succumb to my charms actually he's just trying to make him come over here drink up boys come to mama chocolate heavenly who made this game it's stupid you round two bets in boys i'm out i gotta go find my prince charming before the stroke of midnight ah your mamas would be proud oh hey michael rn hey justin you remembered my name of course it's what i call the demons in my dreams i'm in your dreams it's like we've already had our first date i hardly qualify you chasing me with long sharp objects a date well i guess that depends on your idea of fun wait when you said demon did you mean like dementor type demon or like nightmare on elm street dementor yes michael rn what do i have to do to get you to go on a date with me besides a personality lobotomy i tried that didn't take why is everything a joke with you [ __ ] everything not a joke with you [Music] okay fine is that a yes no you asked what you have to do since it appears that you're a harry potter fan let's go with the tri-wizard tournament theme michael r.n i am impressed strangely turned on you're gonna make me regret this aren't you complete three tasks and a date you shall have don't complete the task no date oh [ __ ] just got real that's right okay um do you have a pen uh yeah [Music] it's okay grandma you're just gonna feel a little sting oh i don't believe in all this oh sorry yeah i'm with you right here lay it on me michael i want to defy gravity defy gravity need me to spell that for you as in wicked the musical so you know the show yeah i've seen it like 10 times it's true yeah yeah liar no i yeah so nobody in all of us okay no wizard that there is or was he is ever gonna be dying please stop singing sorry she loved it yeah dearest momsey and popsicle always willing to support what i will call field trips all in the name of furthering my education field trips in college michael rn i will do anything to go on a date with you make me defy gravity okay get some good sleep for the gravity define later by gravitates gravity [ __ ] [Music] oh michael michael motorcycle how could i get you to fly as it turned out as with most cases of my college life brooke's feminine intuition was the missing link to solve this puzzle with her help and an introduction to an acquaintance of hers i was ready to win michael rn's heart or fall flat on my face in the attempt what are you doing here well since my knowledge of you is limited to where you work and what you drive i had to improvise i may have driven through the parking lot a few times this week looking for your car but now that i've found you it is time excuse me task number one it is time time for what to defy gravity i'm not getting in a car with you fine be difficult will you follow me uh justin i please okay but make it quick i'm back here early where are we where defying gravity is possible and justin if this michael i assure you i wish only to complete my first task trust me trust his earned justin hey justin hey we finally found him yeah cool let's do this do what for someone so smart you really are slow sometimes michael rnn this is dave dave this is michael rn just michael is fine all right well you need to put these on what is this that's your defying gravity gear man you're gonna fly today come on for real for real oh um give me everything in your pockets trust me i know i know trust is earned whatever just you won't regret it i'm already regretting it [Music] well this is new i'm doing something for somebody else and not just to feel good about myself not just so the look on their face will trigger a dopamine rush in my brain but i mean the look on his face is pretty great looking at someone who trusts the air to hold him up trust isn't light as air trust is a burden that you place into the hands of the people you give it and some of them drop it maybe some of them don't [Music] [Music] that was amazing i used to dream about doing stuff like that as a kid yeah brook said you would love it who's brooke she's a friend from college she actually hooked this up when i told her about my first task oh so you needed help completing the test well harry needed help from hermione and ron harry was fighting dragons mermaids and dark lords okay well i'm new at this michael rnn garner what garner my last name carter stop with the orange nope i like rn better i'm just kidding i'm kidding it's not like you can control your last name so what's my second task michael garner uh justin i don't know what i no lay it on me now i i didn't think you complete the first one so you've been thinking about me a purple ghost orchid that's that's not a real thing that's a real thing very real okay challenge accepted how do i get a hold of you uh you don't i'll meet you at the bar friday i'm playing friday night then all right 48 hours yeah unless you can't handle it no i can i can handle it oh if you can handle it no yeah of course i can i can i can you can handle you got this i got this easy right yeah you got it right yeah yeah cool cool till then justin johnson till then michael garner the hell is a purple ghost orchid it's one of the rarest flowers in the world found primarily in cuba it was extinct for over 20 years and it's kind of creepy how does somebody even know about stuff like this what is with this guy justin i've never seen you like this before i don't know he's just different well take it easy okay i've never seen this side of you before and i might actually fall for you myself oh brook i fell for you the minute we met i just learned that your masculine demeanor doesn't come with the right accessories [ __ ] thanks for the assist get out of here before someone actually thinks you're stunning you're gonna confuse the commoners love you ditto do you have a rock star no fish you got the octopus do you have the octopus justin you got the octopus do good fishing what else you got then you have to oh everyone this is michael michael this is everyone honest to god you [ __ ] hi i'm brooke as in arrange the flying lesson brooke one of the saints thank you so much that was amazing all right i like him he can stay i'm mark mark hey ben pleasure to meet you all wow justin polite and cute you were right about this one shut up now please i'll walk you to your car your friends seem nice yeah i can't complain so i never asked what are you studying life sorry i'm studying life i've never heard of that major that's because it only exists for indecisive losers like me ah okay disappointed no no judgment here come here i want to show you something close your eyes why are you gonna kidnap me oh yeah you foiled all my plans michael no i just don't want you to ruin all of my hard work would spoil the surprise so trust me your need for trust okay open your eyes what is that it's a ghost michael honestly you have a college degree i said ghost orchid no you said purple ghost orchid how i am incredibly crafty wow this is just wow so michael garner would you agree that i have completed the second task required to take you on a proper date look justin you don't have to i'm gonna see this through michael i take it seriously i'm not gonna let you leave until you give me my final task it can't be done justin that's the point the seven wonders of the world i want to see them oh [Music] hey geez you really know how to squash your stream justin you don't have to do this i i'm impressed i'm flattered and and i'm practically speechless yes i will go on a date with you no no i mean yes but not until i complete my third task i gotta go check on something i'll i'll text you later justin uh don't you need my number no i already got it dude wait excuse me while you were defying gravity i called my phone from your phone i've just been waiting for your permission to use it it's all about trust michael i'll talk to you soon [Music] so [Music] justin johnson yes sir of course sir wouldn't dream of it sir as always sir without fail very grateful sir you also good father uh [Music] hey hi hello sir you're um your humble chariot awaits humble chariot my other horses were being stabled so you know i had to just just work with me here okay show me to thine chariot good sir sorry that just sounded so gay coming from you are you playing the pot or the kettle okay a little sassy not sure if i'm gonna add that to the positives or the negatives list after you so we have to drive a little bit out for this one you trust me i willingly got in the car didn't i progress just as long as you promised to drop a line to my parents telling them where to find the body michael what kind of monster do you think i am of course i'll drop a line to your parents hey uh we're getting pretty close so i need you to close your eyes what michael relax if i was gonna do something crazy i would have stopped at that field ten minutes ago where they've got a nice enclosed area it's really soft remind me again why i got in this car well look out just kidding you're fine i got you you didn't open your eyes okay we're almost there all right open your eyes welcome to the wonders of the world this is a miniature golf course justin no it's not michael this is my tri-wizard victory oh okay really yeah i don't think the statue of liberty ever made the natural wonders list okay well as long as we're keeping score there are 77 different natural wonders from 11 different lists as well as 11 individual countries each with their own seven wonders inside of them so that's like 154 wonders of the world i did my research well here with a little imagination you'll see that we have uh the roman coliseum the great wall of china right over over there and yeah and uh over here we have the leaning tower of pisa obviously obviously um the minarets of um montauk and then um the panama canal and this is uh clearly stonehenge clearly exactly thank you for going with it michael okay uh oh no no no please i i brought you here my friend today i'm inviting you to sally forth and experience the wonder you are beyond ridiculous i'm hoping that's a good thing it's not a bad thing don't feel bad everybody's really bad at this game when they first play but uh let me show you how it's done no are you okay i'm fine i that'll do thanks it's actually you got extra points when you go in the water oh okay yeah perfect [Music] hey what it's no good huh nope don't be cheating no you're good what are you doing i was just fixing up the score it's good i think we're all set now liar hey hey okay i'm coming down don't fall how about that oh don't oh don't fall oh god you know until just now i hadn't even thank you oh oh no no i don't know where it went oh i don't know i think it's gone you're a jerk and at some point she's going to get it on me careful careful uh got this yeah i know i just i feel like it's very easy to fall off for you or yeah oh how we doing all right so i'm obviously ahead of you because uh i don't know you have way less points than me dude i'm like soaring [Music] i'm just gonna oh wait yeah just take your time you ready are you good i give check out i taught him how to do a trick hold on he's really good at it he's kind of nervous [Music] come on hey i went i should do more cardio that to you thanks okay cute hey uh not as a date or anything but i'm ridiculously hungry and they have these really great hot dogs here i could go for a hot dog yeah cool so why is this not a date you'll know when i take you on a date duly noted so can i ask you what you plan to do after college after you mean i actually have to leave oh gosh why is your wall so high i spent a lot of time building this wall and the view is lovely from my side i'll have you know so what you're saying is you might invite me in would you come in if i did i might enjoy the view as well then i might consider an invitation but it's a mess right now and i'll need some time to tidy up so can we have two i can wait good to know thanks you're never gonna be able to hot dog for the rest of your life so why nursing there was a time when i i needed a lot of medical attention and the way they made me feel safe taken care of i knew that was something i wanted to do for others can i ask what happened you can ask someday i might tell you we all have walls justin oh f they have my favorite ride come on let's go do it oh i don't know i got this inner ear thing i don't really do rides like come on let's go it'll be awesome yeah you're gonna love it it's so much fun come on you're gonna love it it's gonna be awesome i got over here come on these are yes you're gonna be fine do i need a hard helmet all right super easy [Music] okay michael i don't know justin faster come on the teacups let's do is it over no it's just getting started oh god we're going full tilt you love rides like this i love this eyes are shut oh you gotta open your eyes no you have to close it you're looking straight up straight straight up oh i'm starting to feel it are you gonna throw this is the hard part this is it so all the blood is gonna rush away from your brain just uh just go with it maybe no more rides you okay michael uh [Music] you okay mike michael okay oh [ __ ] i'm sorry dude um do you need oh god thank you here i got you a napkin michael just take me home justin okay yeah i can do that no problem just go real slow i got you [Music] just go sit down there we go [Music] okay okay what do you what do you need what can i do [Music] [Music] [Music] so you're still here of course you're easier to take advantage of while you're asleep should i be worried not until the pictures finish uploading or the bruises start showing dope definitely adding that to my list of positives you're looking very focused on what you're writing there oh it's just random thoughts and quotes and stupid junk care to share people build walls not to keep others out but to see who's willing to break them down i like you like this i like me like this too stay for dinner did you just ask me on our first date if you consider a dinner consisting of soup and bread a date i don't know i'll have to check my calendar will you stay as long as you'll have me [Music] here [Music] so hey brooke right on time what sit with me michael well actually i'm here to pick up justin justin was in a fight what please sit down michael you're kind of freaking me out where's justin mark took him to the er oh i'm gonna no he doesn't want you there why there are two things in justin's life that he has come to count on first being that you are always five minutes early for your dates and second that his father will call him twice every quarter wait what does this have to do with him getting in a fight what does he want from his father same thing we all do i suppose his er visits typically follow that phone call you met him on one of those days so he got in a fight with his dad no that's not a fight he's ready for this time it was the wall that took the brunt of it score one for the wall mark texted about a half hour ago and said that the x-ray showed no broken bones so they'll be back soon i've been told to keep you company until then your good friend brooke i know he needs good friends but he also needs a lot of things i can't give him you know i i care about him i know you do so how do i get him to open up just be there for him when he's ready and don't forget about my party next friday i expect to see you both there promise that's beginners look at that goodness all right [Music] what's the plan for break now that finals are over i told the parentals that i had to stay here a little longer to get a head start on next term i'll fly back a few days after christmas to avoid the rush and what did michael say about the recent wall incident i've managed to mostly avoid the topic he's not ready to carry my baggage yet well at least give him the option to decline instead of just assuming he wouldn't want to withholding information can never lead to good things just well i'm breaking it to him slowly then it's been almost two months yeah exactly two months he's not ready for that yet [Music] i think i just contracted diabetes watching that am i sensing a midnight cinderella disappearance we agreed to leave at midnight so that he could take me to the coast for the weekend oh that's a hormonal one we haven't even done that yet he can't right no seriously damn justin i'm impressed well he's different i mean it's about more than just sex i've had all that and i want something more i think i might actually cry my boy is growing up shut up it's time good sir to make our departure thank you brooke for inviting us to your fair castle but now we must make our leave to land far far away it's scary how well-matched you two are ignore her she's just jealous drive safely i love you ditto the pacific ocean is deafening like an airplane taking off like windows down on a highway like silence i'm not good in silence i like talking or shouting or anything that will be distracting but when we drown out the noise of all our insecurities where we finally have to confront ourselves like atreyu at the southern oracle maybe i could do that maybe i could be brave with someone like him by my side or maybe on my own but having him here doesn't hurt he's my luck dragon [Music] good morning morning have you been awake a long time about an hour writing something there i felt inspired i've never woken up next to somebody without you know being hungover or preparing to take the glorious walk of shame you make small noises when you sleep oh you're making that up believe what you want sir but i just wrote a sonnet about it ode to a snore i do not snore okay that must have been the other guy i was sleeping next to you last year must have been let me see let me see yeah okay okay you win really okay a cross between a chainsaw and a dinosaur with a sinus cold you should be careful what you ask for wow oh what is this for you did i forget like an important date or something no of course not i just saw this and thought of you open it come on i don't know what to say you don't have to say anything i know sometimes words don't come easily for you but i know writing does this got me through some tough times such as well i told you i skipped high school it wasn't because i wanted to i wanted what every teenager wanted football games dances a good looking photo in the yearbook wasn't meant to be there was a time [Music] when i trusted too easily almost cost me everything his name was brian he moved to our city at the start of seventh grade popular instantly liked by everyone you know he picked me first in kickball we became immediate friends one night he and i were out on the field just talking about god knows what and you know it was getting late so we decided to leave he grabbed my hand and before i could process what was happening he kissed me every nerve in my body felt so alive and i never thought i'd actually find someone [Music] and before i could say it out loud i heard this banging and yelling i turned to find the resident bullies walking toward us you know they were throwing around the typical gay and homo slurs so i grabbed brian's hand and tried to run away and he pulled his hand out and said what are you doing why'd you kiss me then he turned to the boys and said hey this gay punk just kissed me against my will so two of them grabbed me and pinned me to the ground the other started to kick and hit me over and over and once he had his fun he turned to brian and said your turn show this punk how we feel about homos i blacked out the next thing i remembered was waking up in the icu after i left the hospital my parents thought it would be best to homeschool me through the rest of middle school after that it was my choice high school or college and the rest is as you say history i'm i'm so sorry don't be that's a long time ago thank you thank you for not pushing for not grilling for being patient for sharing [Music] just promise me you'll use these hands for writing it out and not taking it out on inanimate objects like keep whooping your ass hey i don't know i've gotten some pretty good sneakers keep telling yourself that come on let's go down to the beach [Music] [Music] so [Music] [Music] justin it's about time i'm starving what is this come on in i built a fort exactly when did i start dating a toddler exactly when did i start dating an old man oh what'd you get a babe my fave glass noodle yeah thanks you're welcome no thanks how do you do that what i've been naked in front of more men than i can remember i really don't need to hear but i've never felt more exposed than when you look into my eyes stirring of a soul what the eyes are the windows to the soul when peering in you can see it move often it will hide afraid alone wrongly judged shamed into a corner when it knows that it's loved without reserve or condition accepts itself and shines from within the eyes once again where did you learn that i wrote it really i told you i had a lot of stuff to work out for myself once too it's beautiful wait did you just say you love me yeah i guess i did i love you ditto ditto michael this isn't easy for me i'm not hey [ __ ] [Music] okay yeah here [ __ ] it [Music] wait michael i assure you my intentions here were completely honorable i mean not completely honorable because i would totally take advantage of you but it wasn't my intention to seduce you with my mad fort building skills so if you're not ready to do this did it ever occur to you that i was planning on seducing you i will have you know i'm not some kind of floozy but i am incorrigible so can we just i would be honored to take advantage in any way possible just get over here [Music] [Music] justin [Music] um my father only wants two things straight a's and a straight son these are the two non-negotiables in our relationship the two unforgivable shortcomings [Music] hey hey what are you doing just enjoying the breeze and keeping a promise my favorite getaway close your eyes go now okay okay listen to the sound of the crashing waves feel your body drift into another dimension you're adorable and poetic you do the same i guess you could you know write stories and such i don't think so my dad i just i don't think so i don't think your dad has come to realize that there's so much more to you than what he wants oh he realizes it he's just only interested in removing the parts that keep me from becoming the perfect son you astonished me how you breezed through your classes with hardly a care and still manage to maintain the grade point average you have i had worked so hard to get through college and the nursing program you little to no effort it's people like you who piss the rest of saul hey i can't help it if i'm naturally brilliant yeah do you realize if you applied yourself like actually applied yourself to something like writing for instance just how good you would be i know i just i just don't want to make the other people in my graduating class feel badly about themselves so i have to contain my genius and you know i can't have my parental units thinking i'm actually going to make something of my life uh yes the field trip paying er bills supporting parents they are the reason i exist or at least that's what they tell me you know i don't actually have any memories of the inception i'm not pushing justin but just know you can tell me anything i know i love you ditto can we stay here all i'm saying is i just need to complete this thought there what were you saying all i'm saying is you can't draw a fair comparison of the two valentine's day is just another excuse for over sensationalized consumerism way to kill the romantic vibe not kill michael but tame i mean being romantic shouldn't be limited to only one day per year it's only limited if you rely on it that way otherwise it's just a fun way to show someone they matter well i would never rely on a 24-hour excuse for a holiday to be romantic but i also wouldn't be the idiot who refused to take advantage of an opportunity to let someone know they mattered jerk not the response i was hoping for after that debate and here i made you this nice lunch and got you something you got me something what is it let me see it let me know i don't want to show you now please no you'll just have to wait till after brooke's party after are you serious very i have to get dressed thank you for the rose fine i'll just sit here and work on my assignment and try not to be disillusioned about the extent to which i matter to someone on valentine's day i assure you it will be worth the wait you can't just do that you know what it does to me oh i know believe me i know is that the new schedule for spring yep it's time to set forth a course of educational goals for another quarter interesting choices so what is the goal here justin to avoid adult life as long as possible you mean as long as your dad has an open checkbook and what's that supposed to mean nothing just let's just get ready you know what no you don't get to say something like that to me and then just walk away with a nothing it just seems like maybe you would be ready to actually i don't know do something take a little responsibility be responsible i've been nothing but the model son for that oh so proud father of mine look i know this is a touchy subject for no you know what you get to be a lot of things to me michael but you do not get to judge me i am not judging you really i you know what we're gonna put this on pause pause justin it means we're going to stop for now and get ready for the party that you promised we would help set up i'm not going to do this in a hurry matter it's too damn important fine pause [Music] unpause is that breaking a rule my father has had my life in a vice ever since he conceded my gay tendencies i opened my journal to you i tried to let you look inside and believe me when i tell you that wasn't easy that man goes out of his way to remind me of his rules and expectations twice a quarter like every other loving father i might not qualify to be his pride and joy but i have earned every penny i get and whether he knows it or not i'm collecting on a debt that he owes me pause [Music] uh on pause i am sorry justin i'm sorry that life has handed you a faith that will forever subject you to being judged i'm sorry we live in a world where being gay either means you are a sideshow freak or the cute puppy in the window we deserve better than to live our lives as some sort of public display we may not be able to control how we are treated but we do have the ability to change how we treat ourselves [Music] at some point regardless of the wrongs put upon you the only person that owes you anything is you [Music] pause i can see you have something to say justin just unpause no you know what you don't get to be a condescending [ __ ] okay and you don't get to decide who owes me what this is not your life and you don't understand because you won't let me understand justin well maybe i have a good reason for that michael and yet no you're no end yet okay it's not up to you i am doing the best that i can right now and i do not need you judging me first no just no i can't be what you expect right now and maybe you need to decide if you can accept that i'm gonna go help brooke pause [Music] is all right spill it sorry cut the innocent act mister and spill what did you do what makes you think i did something well considering the fact that your man looks as miserable as you do i'm gonna guess you two are fighting and chances are good you could resolve it well for your information we're not technically as of this moment fighting because we're on a pause a pause okay you are making this party a serious downer you need to get your ass out there and fix things he loves you and i know you love him too even if you can't say the words he is the best thing to come your way since moving here hey since it's uh valentine's day i'd like to sing a song for someone very special in my life [Music] i can only hope that you will stay let me look again into your eyes cause the love is and this day will serve as well as life arrives without you life would be too much it's the simple things and the way you trust all i want is to see the light of your love in arms in mind [Music] all right [Music] [Music] can we unpause justin oh thank you that was beautiful i'm sorry why are you apologizing to me because i shouldn't push you everyone has to find their own way and it's not fair to push my agenda onto your life i don't know what my agenda is i just know i want to be on yours you are the best part of my agenda justin would i eat space food on mars what would i maybe on saturn am i a unicorn yeah am i a dragon yeah oh my god all right that's it i know you two are cheating what i am wounded i am truly deeply hurt by your accusations i think she may be right you two are a highly suspect don't give me the puppy dog eye look misters ah crap i need to call my parents i forgot that this next weekend is parents weekends oh man parents weekend what a nightmare that was tell me about it are your parents coming you're talking about my parents right i just thought no they will not be joining us okay i'm actually gonna go see them this weekend apparently it's time for another family meeting and next weekend i thought that we were 24 hours i promise and then i'm yours for all of spring break to do whatever you wish excuse me are we going to get back to playing the game or what yes next round inanimate objects i'm watching youtube oh she's watching us oh no what are we gonna do we can't do anything justin johnson sorry what it's his dad he sucks hey hi so that was the father yeah you okay i wish it's never simple is it it doesn't have to be as hard as he makes it agreed i just wish i didn't i know because he's your dad who doesn't want their dad to support them come on let's go whip their butts with these inanimate objects [Music] justin michael hey are these your parents uh yeah greg and cynthia johnson this is michael garner he's a friend michael you uh going to university as well well actually yeah he's in the engineering program unusual uniform for an engineering student oh well this is he's a tech at the er in the hospital are you working tonight yeah my friend canceled plans so i picked up an extra shift oh so that must be where you met each other yeah justin could never hack it in a program as complicated as engineering something like that you know i paid so many bills to that er i could fund it for a century well he does seem accident-prone well it was a pleasure to meet you both i really should get to work gotta pay those tuition bills ah you know what i i just realized i have to ask michael a question about a paper we're gonna be in a big group project as soon as spring term starts i'll be right back michael michael wait what do you want justin please just let me explain explain what the lie or the lie to cover up the lie or the fact that you're ashamed of me and what i do that everything you said in there was complete and utter [ __ ] no michael i swear i'm not ashamed of you and i haven't lied to you not about anything important good to know i am not a violent person justin i swear to god if you do that again justin please please there is an explanation what i think is that you're a lion hiding scared little kid and i don't date liars or kids okay no you don't understand i was trying to protect you i am not a child justin i don't require your protection i'm sorry sorry i didn't tell you my parents were gonna be here i just i didn't know how to you didn't please you run that mouth a million miles a minute and somehow this didn't come up how am i supposed to fit this into a normal conversation i knew that if i said anything about you being a nurse that i'd have to sit there and listen to that man talk about you and judge you and i wasn't gonna let that happen okay i'm not gonna let those people hurt someone i love what do you say i'm so proud of you michael and what you do and to be with you i know you weren't about to let them hurt someone i love i love you god damn it i'm not gonna let you walk away just because that's sort of a [ __ ] hey i love you too i have to go back inside before they come in we'll talk tomorrow [Music] if i open this are you gonna shut it again i'll let you go just for tonight [Music] trauma room 12 wwe medical out susan code 3 on the way respiratory arrest yes michael can you help me set up please copy that shane can you have rt join us please you got it hey right non-conscious male found down in a bar bathroom possible alcohol poisoning he aspirated and vomited intubated in the field they're here arrival 106 am one two three justin justin as in your justin yeah maybe you should step out no okay doctor's bp is 105 over 60 with a normal sinus rhythm palpable pulses rate of 110. unable to sustain respirations we innovated them in the field had a hundred of sucks advertomidate bagged all the way here at a rate of 20. unsure how long he was down on the floor before he was found we did get an 18 gauge in his left ac with saline running while in the back pocket identified him as justin johnson we're very familiar with mr johnson he's somewhat of a frequent flyer 18 gauge right ac found him let's get a versa drip started got it shane can help order a chest x-ray 12-lead standard rainbow blood work also include lactate and a vbg alcohol levels and drug screen got it dr stone thank you karen dr stone i have justin said on a rate of 12 600 title volume 100 and a peep of five shane if i remember correctly his parents are his primary contact they live out of state actually they're in town is there a cell phone number yes to beau all right i'll call the parents when i'm done dr stone how would you like this running let's start with two milligrams and titrate as needed all right first get started dr stone 12 lead jane call icu and get a bed for mr johnson i'm on it let's get the first bag of vanco one gram started and keep saline coming hi this is michael from the er dr stone just ordered vanco one gram for justin johnson room 12. thank you [Music] hello [Music] foreign [Music] [Music] [Music] uh brook he's much more stable they'll see how the pneumonia is responding to the antibiotics we're monitoring the labs to check the liver and kidney functions and if those look good we can get them off the respirator within the next 24 hours do you have any questions no let me know if you need anything just a few more minutes michael thank you chris mr and mrs johnson uh i'm michael we know who you are and what you are to justin how my wife saw you with him the display you put on in the parking lot in public we only came back here to check on him before we head back home you're leaving yeah of course he'll be fine yes i think he will but he needs you please nonsense he told me last night he doesn't need me i told him to call me when he's ready to make the right choices the right choices or your choices let's go please don't turn your back on him you're the last person i want to talk to about my son justin your son wants you in his life what makes you think you know what he wants because i love him i told him last night you and your kind you don't understand love how could you it's unnatural he has to choose your lifestyle or mine what kind of life is that exactly being gay is not a choice mr johnson do you honestly think someone would choose a life where they are subjected to hatred and prejudice please craig let's go we don't want to be late oh no please don't be late just because you're sick justin will be fine and then he will come home and he will live the lifestyle that he's supposed to live he can't do any of this without me actually i believe he can achieve more without you holding him down he is one of the smartest most articulate incredibly brave strong and loving men i have ever met and all he asks wants from you is to accept him and love him for who he is all he is oh as you put it is not what he should be according to you according to society mr garner that is changing mr johnson he has two options mr garner your way or mine i think mr johnson he will choose his own way then that will be his loss cynthia no mr and mrs johnson i am most certain the loss will be yours [Music] fake religion hit [Music] us [Music] i can't explain i'm losing [Music] before it's ready for your the things in your life you most regret are the ones who keep me from leaving turn the car around tonight [Music] there is nothing more fragile and vulnerable than the human race in times of crisis during times of illness and recovery there is an experience of genuine and true acceptance streaming from a deep rooted thankfulness in those moments i am not judged i am not a politically corrected being i am not a labeled sexuality i'm just a person who was not well and needed to be made whole again [Music] [Applause] yep michael i'm not an invalid i can do things for myself your body being weak doesn't mean you are weak okay hey hey jay you look good man i ever pull that [ __ ] again and so help me i i won't bet or not oh dude i'm so sorry i i won't i promise you're damn right you do i'm so sorry you are loved you know i know and we will get through this together we of course there is way too much testosterone driving this ship okay mama's got the love and the estrogen i love you both he loves you too so what happens now i don't know i'm gonna stay here with michael for a little while and we'll see yeah let's move this to the living room you really should be resting michael and justin he's right so get your butt on that couch justin johnson okay [Music] well here's to the end of a successful junior year and a senior year we'll never forget what is the plan will you be joining us uh not as a senior at least not at first but it should only take me a couple of terms to catch up are you saying you're actually going to get a degree in something sire tobin you wound me [Music] creative writing who knew right oh my god i can actually see that congrats man i'm glad things are looking up thanks it's not everything i hoped and dreamed it would be but actually it's better and i get to wake up to his beautiful face in the morning instead of your ugly mug so what he means to say is he found a way to bring the er to him yeah good thing too without the parents financial support no more trips to the er does that include school expenses yeah they uh they cut me off but i've applied for financial aid and between that grants and scholarships i should be able to get out of school without too much debt if i stick to a budget i'm sorry i thought you were justin johnson have you seen him [Music] saved my life he uh he told us about that night yeah i mean that too but i'm just i'm not the same justin johnson i used to be i mean obviously i'm still me but with him everything else is different i just hope i can do as much for him one day you do justin you have [Music] it's time it's time okay so we'll just go do this hey hey do you um do you take requests do you uh tip i might then i might take a request okay but um i'm kind of a budget these days so well since you're kind of cute it be my request is simple i just need you to um rise up get up rise up get up off the piano bench and just go go sit with our friends okay hey hey everybody this is um it's gonna be a little different than what you're used to this one's for you michael [Music] once there was a time i was lost no future plans were foreseen reckless angry no matter the cost my soul in me [Music] your eyes [Music] stopped my heart so sure was i that he'd concede the games i played he won indeed a song three tasks the risk my heart a flight a ghost a ride to start [Music] you're all i want you're all i need now the path is paved you healed my heart you saved my life you stirred my soul you picked me up and made me whole you are my one true love you are my one true love what you have given me i'll never be able to repay but i'm ready to try i'm ready to spend the rest of my life trying you've given me more than i could ever have hoped for michael my heart really does stop when you look at me wherever you go that's where i belong no regrets no turning back michael garner will you marry me yes oh my god yes [Applause] we're getting married the health of an ecosystem depends on diversity and we the great naked apes of the earth might try to remember this remember that the human experience is made more beautiful by the contribution of individuals who enrich our lives and expand our perspectives not by being normal but by being weird and unique and different from ourselves so i came out of the trees i stopped living vicariously on branches i quit living in fear of an uncertain future and i took the offer of an outstretched hand [Music] an offer that came without condition or restriction i stopped running circles around the limitations of my parents bigotry and i found that i was standing on a solid foundation that did not require their validation or acceptance i stopped trying to fix everything i was told was wrong with me and was finally able to embrace myself and allow myself to have what i deserved then i found my purpose maybe everyone's purpose to love ourselves and one another for who we are all that we are making up our own definition for love for a home for success for family strengthening relationships with those that accept us for the one and only essential factor the one quality we all have in common [Music] we are human that sense of equality and unconditional acceptance allows our souls to stir and shine to find support give and care for one another [Music] our biological ties are not always the ones that will carry us when we are weak nor are they the ones we can count on to celebrate when we succeed we don't always get a happily ever after but if we hold on we can achieve a happy after everything else [Music] my father wanted only two things he could have had so much more [Music] [Applause] [Music] is [Music] [Applause] just waiting [Music] i know [Applause] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] you

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Length: 106min 53sec (6413 seconds)

Published: Wed Jul 29 2020