Lauren Jauregui | In Between, Always Love, Pina, Relationships

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money do I have I don't think you want to know that right now see this is why I was interested because Fifth Harmony has had some of the biggest songs ever right you've ever didn't own yes and that is the T and that I mean the tea or is it just reality no it is reality does it sting a little bit when you hear those songs out there or could you find the joy and pride in it no I love it what no I had nothing stings anymore really yeah was that only because of numb no it's because of peace and healing yeah does that peace and healing bring us to the era of music that you're entering in today of course which like I mean that record I'm saying right which one Pina Pina Pina yeah when it has it when you have the little squiggle line over the end it's a sound [ __ ] amazing thank you you sound amazing thank you it's also beautifully queer super queer love it purely about [ __ ] yeah which I couldn't know less about I know we were just talking about this guys Zach has never seen a vagina even though he's lying no I swear no I swear to God the only vagina that I've seen is in the seventh grade we watched a video of a woman giving birth and that was the one time I saw vagina I'm so sorry that was your only experience yeah vaginas can be really cute really yes I'm very scared of them I'm so sorry I'm not scared of them at all I love them okay honestly like what's scarier a penis or a vagina I don't think either one is scary like I'm turned on by both personally so like I like them both that's I and I love how unique they all are too I think it's so cool have you ever seen a two vaginas that look alike no like snowflakes it's kind of like snowflakes or like I've never seen penises that look like either I've seen I mean I've seen you've seen more penises than vagina oh yeah yeah not a lot so so you so since I've last seen you you're not a virgin anymore no still a virgin but like I mean it depends on how you define virginity loss right I know it's so sad maybe a couple years like I know and every passing day I just collect more dust honestly I become less and less of a commodity out there I'm so sorry my value on the streets become less dwindling baby yes with every passing the chances are dwindling I am a car that's been driven off the lot and I got miles you've never been driven yes what are you talking about there's no mileage there's life mileage there's no uh anything else mileage so if anybody else there is looking slide in no I I mean I don't and that is like always a constant conversation at least not constant but like every now and then it's like how does one Define loss of virginity and like what is like what is it all yeah because like yes like I've gotten intimate with people but not yeah yeah yeah there's no penetration is what you're saying I mean of my face yes you had sex yeah yeah they [ __ ] my face oh my God is this too much no it's not thank you not for me anyway I mean I feel like Ben isn't a little uncomfortable his name's Dan I mean you know what no I love it sleep deprivation pull you up at 6 30. because because this don't happen for free we I did not wake up like this well actually my hair I kind of did so you have a promo day all day today yeah holy [ __ ] does this a day like this get does it ever get old or is it still new and fresh because it's your own [ __ ] there it's still new and fresh because of that for for me I love getting to talk and interact about my own music so well you should because have fun I always have fun I mean I mean we haven't even talked about music we're just talking about vagina God so I have a lot of fun here we just do back to this because I need this for personal reasons have I lost my virginity if I've sucked dick I believe so personally because as I've grown up and like you know come into the world as a human being as a queer person you know the the boundaries for what sex means or the the definitions of sex are kind of ambiguous and they're really not there's no linear way to describe sex we have as a society describe sex as a man penetrating a woman um for a long time you know or penetration involved and I think that's just the patriarchy to be fair because uh like as a woman who has had sex with other women like I consider that sex even though sometimes there's no penetration involved yeah totally bringing each other to orgasm like experiencing pleasure with someone else and that being the intention of both of you that is sex yeah boom even if you don't even just like a consensual agreement to play with each other yeah yeah it sucks totally I guess damn you know I needed that definition you're welcome because you know so now you can say you're not a virgin oh yeah yeah because if you've had your Facebook bit [ __ ] baby like you're not a virgin you're not a virgin there's no virginity anymore oh god there was no room for Jesus I hope no no I'm not he was not present but he did rise oh amen amen this era of Music we're gonna get God man I know dude he's [ __ ] he's he's here um singing in Spanish yes God's truth you've done it before yeah but why is it different on this last record than what I've listened to before because there's it felt natural it's hard to describe like I think this song's a [ __ ] hit thank you outside of the lyrical content being different than the other records you've done in Spanish why is this one different in your opinion uh I don't know like it feels no I'm not sure it feels different maybe the the beat the production is great the production is amazing the feature's [ __ ] sick yeah I mean I love snow snow is an incredible artist and I feel like us together and both of us being like queer independent Latinas like I think just kind of it's a whole thing you know totally is this a little moment he's making records in Spanish going to be what you do moving forward I'm always going to be making Spanglish records like I'm always going to make English Spanish Spanglish records because that's me you must I'm Spanglish are you still doing I am Spanglish are you doing this independent still yeah you're [ __ ] baller thank you I am it's a bothering business over here in the independent life especially someone like me who like I can't live through social media unfortunately I've I'm I'm learning to be more involved and like that's that's not true that's that I'm lying I'm in the process of getting better at it all and I think I will as I continue to grow but I am I just don't live my life for the internet you know is that where you think your business lacks uh maybe probably but whenever I do things on the internet people you know you know it's just I'm just not the type of person who can be on live every day you know I have nothing to talk to you about and that's okay like I'm chilling at home like even put the records out and speak to the music now exactly yeah and also like I like doing little fun things too like and I like talking with the fans and stuff but um I don't know like thinking about my life as content is is difficult for me so how many records are you sitting on now that are part of this new I mean are you starting are you gonna put out an album yes well right now I'm putting out an ep the next thing that's coming is another EP is it all Spanglish or no I always loved the first song off it um always love was a single like kind of Standalone on its own okay and this next one coming has six songs five songs five songs right five songs How Deeply can I go into it talk about it girl no I'm not gonna tell you who she said a lewd you have collaborations coming I do I do have there's two people on the same song A what yeah it's gonna be good so are you doing your own a r how does how does this process work right now for the CP am I doing my own a r no I'm so I'm with a Distribution Company I'm with AWOL okay yeah um essentially a ring is just picking the songs for your album so I feel like like being aware and putting people in the right rooms and stuff most of these songs I wrote way back when when I was still with Colombia so I yeah I really am more putting piecing things together and finishing things up and putting them out so that they like reach the world before my debut album and Pina is not a part of the EP at all no yeah is Snow song its own thing yeah did you just send it to you yeah so so when I became friends through like the internet and yeah we just we started hanging out like just friendship wise and then she sent me the song it was like I feel like you would be really good on this and I was like I [ __ ] love this and I literally just I wrote my verse and then I went over her place and I recorded it and boom yeah but these songs are gonna be on the EP you've done years ago years ago did you not release them on purpose because you were with Colombia you're like I'm gonna hold these off till they're my own I mean okay how do I talk about this no it's not it's not even a bad situation it was just that We Had Creative differences I feel like the more executive people over there like what they wanted me to be versus what I wanted to be um which is just like a through line story in this industry is just like people really love to mold artists to be what they feel is sellable and marketable which I don't blame them for because evidently they're they're a business you know um but I'm an artist so I'm really emotionally attached to my [ __ ] and you know I'm sensitive about [ __ ] so yeah I uh I think that I held on to music because I wasn't releasing music they they didn't feel the songs that needed to come out so they weren't coming up but now I have the freedom to just express myself and release whatever I want because it's you know evident also AWOL also has a say in everything but the partnership is different because they trust my creative Integrity you know well does the emotional attachment to these songs grow because they've been sitting around for now years right um I guess I think just I don't I feel emotional attachment to all my songs because they come from an emotional Place usually but I don't I don't feel like it grows or or lessons you know it's just kind of a constant feeling but for the for all the songs they're like my babies you know they're like extensions of my psyche there is a theory that like if you can make a song and hold it for years and years and years and it still sounds great all that time later yeah it could be a Timeless Classic record yeah are you hearing that in the records that you're sitting on um well correct me if I'm wrong it's literally been three to four years right yeah it's been four years since holy [ __ ] maybe five now damn I think this is the fifth year that's crazy right it's been a roller coaster and you're just gonna get around to releasing them now a debut album yeah holy [ __ ] well that's later but yeah these songs these songs are just gonna come out now well yeah since 2018 2019 I wrote these songs when a Prelude come out Prelude came out 2021. okay were those songs from this era too or those songs yeah they're all from the same era gotcha yeah okay and when are you making a play awesome stuff [ __ ] yeah afterwards when are you starting to make new stuff that's next because I haven't so I haven't I've been in the studio maybe three or four times since the pandemic hit really yeah that's it that's it I have not been in the studio because I've just been working on all of this other stuff and and also like there's a lot of space and time between contracts and moving around and stuff that's kind of idle time because there's not really a lot you can do without the investment as far as like recording music goes well personally for me um because I don't have like a studio set up I don't really know how to produce by myself and stuff yet so you need people and when you need people you need money yeah so yeah it's just like the process has been a process but when I come when I come back from tour in South America is when I'm gonna intentionally get in like with the people I want to work with and be like okay we're working on an album and we have like three months to work on this album [ __ ] yeah you know will you go will you do that Independence though yeah oh yeah yeah I'm sticking it I'm sticking to Independence as long as um is necessary I feel like I I for me Independence is first of all about ownership it's about making sure that I as the creator of the intellectual property I'm the owner of the intellectual property of the music that I make and create um and my legacy essentially through because I feel like our music is our Legacy oh it's a pure attachment of who you are exactly and in some cases like an extension of your diary and like yeah it captures you for in that moment exactly at least that's what art is to me yeah you know so that's how I will I choose to move through my Artistry in this industry um so ownership is really important to me and also creative freedom being able to express myself however it is that it comes out of me and not have to pressure myself excuse me into meeting a specific image or or version of myself that is quote unquote marketable even though of course that is a part of the process you know to be intelligent and to move intelligently in this industry I always wanted to feel organic and I always wanted to be genuine and from my own Spirit not because like a boardroom of white men like told me this is who I need to be in order to make them money you know and obviously that comes from what you went through before and also learning and also knowing exactly who you are as an artist and what you want to portray out to the world right yeah us knowing myself and also allowing myself the grace of the process of getting to know myself instead of needing to like fit myself into something again for someone else's bottom line in a certain amount of time like I'm I'm just able to create from an organic space and I'm also able to move from an organic space like what what song do I want to put out that I feel people will connect with you know did you feel like you got to know yourself at all during your years in Fifth Harmony or is it just paused I think it's it was a mix of both to be honest because in a lot of ways I got to know parts of myself that I was asleep to um and that I feel like had to be triggered by those experiences in order for me to grow to into the woman that I am today and so like as conscious as I am as aware as I am as patient as I am as um grounded like I had to learn and like how disconnected from my ego I am too and and like my ability to to understand things from a larger perspective instead of just a narrow my perspective I think that even though granted there's always ego involved in the creation of art because you have to have some sort of ego in order to even think you're worthy of creating oh [ __ ] yeah exactly there's some ego involved in that but also the separation and Detachment from the hoopla of it all because there was a lot of hoopla going on and my spirit wasn't feeling that you know because I was numb I was very numb during that time in my life and um so I appreciate the vibrancy of the colors around me in a way that I wouldn't have been able to that's beautiful yeah it's yeah it really does break my heart though that you guys didn't get your share of the art and I mean can you correct me if I'm wrong like when those songs play do you get any royalty it is the answer now I mean like it's nothing it's it's not it's not gonna pay my rent no yeah you know what I mean but the reality is those songs are making somebody a lot of [ __ ] money I mean of course they're they're hit songs oh yeah everywhere songwriters and you know the producers they all make money off of it too which is they gotta eat too yeah of course you know it is what it is I'm not attached to making a fortune off of off of what we created you know because that's that's not what it was for me it wasn't what it was while I was in it and it's not what it is what was for you while you're in it um when I was in it it was the vehicle that God gave me yeah you know it wasn't chosen by me it wasn't it wasn't something that I would have done independently I would not have chosen to be in a girl group um I was actually praying against it boot camp because I knew they were trying to create a girl group I knew that was on the agenda um but I like my intuition told me but I didn't want to be a part of it genuinely so um but God had other plans but God had other plans because and guess what it worked out exactly the way it was supposed to because that was the year that um I've said this before but that's the year that Simon wanted like the female One Direction and like that was what he was invested in you know you have to always look at like this is an industry like people don't care about your dreams like they don't care about sure oh this little girl loves to sing and like she wants to be like a star on her own one day like they're like oh wow she would make a really good member of a group that would make me a lot of money but sometimes dreams do but also that's economically that's what I'm saying and it also is is the pathway you know I can't knock a pathway because I I was from Miami and like my parents had zero connections to the music industry I would have I didn't have like an uncle or something I didn't have any family members in the industry I wouldn't have had a foot in in any kind of way besides the way that I went you know I would have had to go through all of the hustle and struggle of like moving out to Los Angeles by myself and trying to make a music career on my own and hoping that I meet somebody somewhere that's going to get me to into a room you know what I'm saying like that pathway is a lot more difficult because a lot of the music Industries nepotism you know oh my God it's people who have connections whose parents are in the music industry or are in the acting industry or in the entertainment industry somehow and now it's the luck of the internet which is evil well yeah now yeah back then when I was 16 that wasn't the case but now yeah anybody can put their skills and talent out there and you know with a good enough strategy you can you can make it you know um and good enough content and Quality Music you know that's the point but like I said the pathway is really what matters is is that it was it was the it was like going to college for the music industry without going to college oh 100 you know yeah that is true and you learn the most yeah you do grow even though you maybe can't tell in the moment right I mean I'm a teenager in the moment you know yeah what teenager knows that they're growing no no but and by the way like I've been in I'm doing this show for some [ __ ] reason for 16 years cheers yeah so it started when I was 14 so like all like my dedication well all my like formidable years you know I've been spending in the middle of doing all of this at the same exact time and and you don't know you know you're dealing with mostly adults and you're dealing with crazy people and crazy [ __ ] parents and the whole it's like it's a whole sub universe that like nobody can really understand fully and uh having to navigate that with some sort of respect and Sanity um you know you definitely grow from it yeah no matter how old you are it's true but you can't tell in the moment because you kind of just at least for me I was like very blinders on just keep going yeah because I couldn't stop and they're also living oh focusing you know you can't really look at things in hindsight until you're in hindsight yes and like at the time like you're young like at least for me like I had crazy adrenaline plus like this ridiculous blind naivete like I didn't give a [ __ ] but that's what I think of any dreams to come true [ __ ] yes you know totally so it's like you gotta have Grace for your younger self for being able to tap into that naivete as it was necessary for you to be as delusional as possible to achieve your dreams yes I made twelve thousand dollars a year for so many years doing this radio show for like the first 10 years which is crazy that's crazy so this is an EP that comes from your past is the name that you're releasing it under today the same that you had planned for it five six years ago well I hadn't planned to release these songs as NEP so I kind of just go with the flow of life to be fair like I have these songs and um you know after Prelude I've dropped two songs one song on my own but like being also came out and I think that I have these songs I've been sitting on these songs and these songs aren't gonna be on the album so it's it's called the the ep's called in between because it's like the in-between moments between arrows between errors you grow in the in between though yes how have you grown have a girl how have I not grown um I've grown in a lot of different ways I think most prevalently and my energy is probably um how much how much I'm genuinely falling in love with myself and moving with intention and integrity for me oh um instead of just trying to like people please the entire world that's really special yeah that's like what do you what do you attribute to that how'd you get there uh pain and people disappointing me and realizing that as long as I was searching for my sense of worth externally I was never gonna be satisfied at all no matter what happened to me in my life um so turning that in and understanding and I have I have my days where I still feel imposter syndrome deeply but um you know most of my days now are spent understanding my power and harnessing that power and moving with integrity and just centered it's a really hard realization to come to you and kind of one that I'm honestly trying to avoid in my own life of you know you people please and you do you bend over backwards you do whatever you can to make somebody happy to make them comfortable to add value to their existence and then at the end of the day all you do is get [ __ ] over right and like that is like hard it is hard it's emotionally taxing it is it is emotionally taxi it also it's it's all lessons in discernment is what I've come to understand is like I always come back to this quote every time I talk about this concept but uh from The Perks of beagle Wallflowers this quote that's like you accept the love that you think you deserve and evidently that's what we do you know if you have if your self-love meter is lacking you're gonna allow someone externally to mirror that to you because that's all it is that's all connections are is US mirroring each other and understanding ourselves further through each other and through connection with each other and when you get into a romantic situation it's usually the most triggering kind of situation because it's when you're being your most vulnerable it's when somebody's seeing you completely exposed in all sectors because you you're You're vulnerable you you're putting your heart on the line for somebody you're connecting with someone intimately on a soul level and when when that happens you're just kind of exposed you're there for somebody to see flaws at all you know and so when that's the case you have no choice but to be truthful and honest with yourself and then you get closer and closer to who you really are through experiencing self-love if I'm hearing you right it does partially come from somebody else I think it always comes like we are naturally interconnected all of us everything that exists and lives and breathes we're interconnected when we come out of our mother we need our mother's touch we need our mother's guidance we need our mothers milk you know like we we need those things to survive our survival depends on these two people or person whatever kind of situation you know you're born into that that in itself kind of decides how you're going to move through life like whether or not you were taken care of properly whether or not your needs were met um you know it's all about survival and we are an interconnected species we need each other for survival we need to talk with each other we need to hold each other and cry things out like we need we need to feel together in order to heal genuinely and what what the truth of the matter is is that we all live in this very isolated Society where we were in doctor especially here in America we were indoctrinated with this individualism and this separateness um and we end up feeling so lonely because we are so alone in our silos of thought and we don't realize that reaching out and connecting with someone is gonna is what is what can heal us you know it's truth and that's why we seek out therapists that's essentially buying a friend you know it also fuels fear right because it is scary to be vulnerable but that's because we've been bred to be isolated right and we've also been bred to be opportunistic so a lot of the relationships that people get into these days are very transactional yeah and they're not [ __ ] they're not consensual agreements to grow together and that's the only healthy relationship you'll ever be in with yourself or anyone else is unintentional consensual agreement to grow together and to understand that you're not going to stay the same and that you're both your own people who have your own needs and fears and wounds that are gonna come up in front of each other you know but most of us are so used to discarding each other getting like getting away from something when it gets too hard and that's not to say tolerating abuse you know because there's a we also live in a very abusive culture where we've normalized a lot of the ways that we treat each other like ghosting or like you know these kinds of things where you're like oh I'm disinterested in this person I'm swiping left you know we've we're so disposable to one another that we don't a lot of us lack the Integrity to even be in a relationship and I say that as someone who was in that same cycle of just I think I'm supposed to be in a relationship or I love love so I'm Gonna Keep love meant to me giving and pouring and and and externalizing you know and for some people love means receiving and taking and and and in an insatiable kind of way where like nothing is ever enough so if you get those two people meeting you get these codependent relationships that are all around us these transactional codependent relationships and then it makes everything seem really Grim you know it makes it seem like nobody cares about each other it makes it seem like you know nobody wants real love but actually everyone is striving for that genuinely but is are unable to find it because they don't see the ways that they need to tap in with themselves or pull up more or release things that are holding them back from receiving love you know or believing they're deserving of it even this is I mean uh this eye opening to me because uh I do believe that I'm in love with somebody right now I do not know right what makes you feel loved um I mean a couple different things I mean what makes me feel loved from them or like what believe that I'm in love with them yeah when you say well yeah when you say you're in love with them like what comes up for you that would separate what you feel for them from what you feel for like a friend of yours no I mean first thing is like well besides sexual attraction re-prioritizing anything and everything no matter what it is okay like if they need me right now in this conversation you're gonna figure it out Jesus that could be unhealthy I know I know there's a prioritization thing that like I've and maybe that's not good but I don't know codependency baby is it codependency if you feel like you can't do your own [ __ ] without oh no I do yeah but if they need me right now like before like well if they need you they will understand sorry if they need you and they love you they will be able to understand when you're unavailable to them no that's and they do and they do they do then you could but like there was an emergency one time and I was in the middle of a meeting and to be honest like if it like if Dan was like it's an emergency right now I don't know if I'd like stop this meeting that I cared about to like go and call you no offense I want to call you in the first place me with an emergency and I stopped everything and I was like sorry I gotta take this like I don't think I would do that for somebody else um I was like there's a bunch of other stuff just like deep care oh the most care yeah it can affect your life negatively and I yeah I want the best for them it can and it can't it just depends how the person receives it and uses it you know that's the T because if they use it against you and they wield it as a as a power over you use that as a sound take it is all this what inspired the song trust issues yes essentially okay yeah definitely are we talking about this song right here yeah trust issues is very much it just encompasses because I in the chorus I say like I've got trust issues and I know we all do but I think I'm two wounded to dive in and that's not fair to you you know I'm taking like this self-aware accountability of hey I'm gonna stop myself because I know that I'm getting into this for in an unhealthy State of Mind even though I never actually really done that I've had a moment of Calamity before diving into something else [Laughter] I'm a lover I don't care we show love I have like what's my love language yeah uh physical touch is my number one I love cuddling and caressing your face and holding hands and cuddling I love that [ __ ] um what else uh how do I show love I'm very affirming like I love watching people be themselves I love people for who they are I don't love like random versions of masks that you put on for me I actually can see through masks very easily so I'm kind of I'm turned off by people who wear a lot of masks but um okay but um yeah I'm very affirming like very affirming to who you are and what you love and very supportive and like giving of my attention in time quality time I love intentionally spending time with people and getting to know people and just loving who they really are when's your birthday June 27th we cancel that's right it's a good uh it's a good sign yes it is it's the day after one of my best friend's birthdays really yeah cute how do you feel about your best friend she's my favorite [ __ ] die for her I wouldn't murder somebody on her behalf I love that yeah that's the only kind of friendship I want in my life me too anybody else not all friends can be that you know but but eventually they could right like you got to give people the opportunity to prove themselves you never know and I do think there is moments in my life early on like and I've been friends with that person for like I don't know like 13 14 years so like there's moments in my life early on where I was like more and they were too like more understanding more forgiving you just gave more margin for error and just tripping and and figuring it out together you know what I mean I think that those are the most beautiful oh [ __ ] yeah to be fair because oh then you can ride we're not perfect you know like you can't expect people to be perfect especially when we're all unlearning very toxic realities you know where I feel like we're as a collective in a very deep Awakening moment um as far as how we relate to one another and how we see ourselves and so there's I feel like there has to be a level a certain level of Grace for us as human beings stumbling and learning and growing and shedding things that are obviously not true or harmful you know and by the way that's in any relationship yeah and uh and I I understand you very much like how I show love as well as very much deep understanding deep communication quality time very ridiculously supportive honesty yeah oh my God brutally honesty is number one bro like don't lie to me um don't let me because first of all I'll always find out the truth it's really kind of scary how God does that every day um and second of all it just shatters Trust and without trust there is no Foundation true you know and granted does that mean that we can't make mistakes and prove ourselves to to each other no you know mistakes are possible and actually I feel like trust builds a lot when a mistake is made but is honestly held accountable oh [ __ ] you no like that's the thing is like if you make a mistake and then you're gaslighting your partner and you're and you're trying to make yourself feel better by reducing what the impact of what you've done you know even if maybe it isn't that important to you this is something I've learned too um like just holding that space to be honestly accountable and be like you know what I hear you and this is how I can love you better and so I'm gonna move differently so that you feel safe here because that's what matters to me is your emotional safety and by the way making those concessions yeah show love too absolutely that's that's what builds love because like like again we're never none of us are going to be perfect off bat you need to communicate your needs too like that I used to be like because I'm so intuitive I assumed other people should be as intuitive as I am you know and so I've lost out on a lot of just receiving of love because it wasn't the right way to show it to me you know but I also wouldn't say what I really wanted or what I really needed because I was scared to upset somebody or I was it was in that people pleasing back you know it's like I don't want you to feel like you're doing something wrong but this isn't what I need from you you know this isn't how I feel loved this might be how you show love but it's not how I feel loved are you in love now yes yes we saw that you on Instagram yeah I mean Instagram what does it feel like to do that I've never done that ever in my life probably never will uh to make something Instagram officials yes I mean I kind of did it very whimsically I didn't even tell her I was gonna post it I was just like damn it's Valentine's Day I'm seeing all these people post their babies I was like this is my baby like I'm in love and I don't care how long have you been together how long have you been together we wanna get in like a year beautiful yeah right time to go Instagram I think so too it's like I I really we've gotten to know each other so much and we have grown through so much and I just I don't know I feel obviously the layer of Fame is like the whole thing you know um but it's it's so beyond that I think the reason I keep my private life private for the most part is because people are so invasive and um projecting like people love especially like people who say they're fans not obviously not all of them like the majority of my fans are super happy for me they love they love to see me happy like they don't they that's where their MO is but then there's those other people who just are so attached to you that they feel they have ownership over you and then they just like trash someone you love and like try to make their lives miserable or make up things about them or like you know what I'm saying which is just that part is so weird to me so I try to just keep keep what makes me happy away from people who want to project unhappiness onto it you know that's like I said Valentine's Day came I saw these cute pictures I was like you know what me and my baby are cute how'd you guys meet I don't post it um she was my backup dancer for the Prelude situation uh yep I like this and we literally the first day we met it was like just very intimate dancing that we were doing because it was for don't want to say which is a very sexual sensual song and I was doing a like the dance was centered on the fluidity of my sexuality and wow she was what the [ __ ] yeah right what the [ __ ] damn and so the first day we were just like doing very sensual moves with each other figuring out the thing yeah and I just the chemistry was just crazy I was like what the [ __ ] is this I feel so attracted to you uh and then it was like super low-key we both had like a crush on each other but didn't say anything about it for a minute because you're her boss exactly so she was being respectful I didn't want it abuse just respect me yeah or like you know make I because I like when people make the first move but I also understood the power dynamics of it so I I understood why she didn't do that I got it but I did has that affected you guys you did I did you made the first move I did I thought you had to I had to because she wasn't gonna do it and I was like fine it was so worth it jealous I'm nervous to make the first move never will I just kind of got to a point where I was like this the butterflies that I feel in my stomach anytime that you're around me you gotta do it I gotta do something about it to release it because it's what am I gonna do sit on these feelings like no I can't do that I have to say something because I can't even continue a friendship without vocalizing how I feel yeah and you don't even really know the feelings are necessarily valid until you make that first move exactly because because that's another thing about this whole queer experience right as when I'm in my Straight bag like I went straight back I'm not even confused like I can tell when a man is attracted to me I can tell when he wants to [ __ ] me like no but queer stuff you just when it comes to a woman no [ __ ] you don't know or or a non-binary whatever human being is across from me that is not just a hetero man like I just gets so nervous and so like I'm just like oh no there's no way she really likes me like it's just me it's just in my head I'm just being crazy like you know what I mean like I like Gaslight myself into missing every single sign that this person is into me and then I'm just like oh um [ __ ] I don't know if this is mutual so I didn't know if it was mutual and I was telling myself it wasn't Mutual I was like girl you're reading way too much into this the eye contact is normal it's fine but every time we will make eye contact we both had to just like for a second because it's like oh my God this is so like potent you know but I thought it was one-sided but it wasn't how'd you like muster up the confidence I invited her to come over for like to hang out with me and we made dinner together and stuff and it was a date in my head but she didn't know it was a date she thought we were hanging out just casually so she ended up leaving hella early I was like [ __ ] I wore a bra like what I never wear bras she left like really early and I was like Jesus but when she left I was like I couldn't breathe like the tension was so intense for me so I like sat down on my couch and like breathed it out for a few minutes I was like literally minutes like five minutes of deep breathing like to calm my energy down and then I was like [ __ ] it I'm gonna text her I'm just gonna tell her I like her so I sent her this like really long little cute ass message and she was like what what damn done yeah and the rest is history the rest is literally history because actually that happened right before I left back to Miami so we were here in LA and it was right before I left back to Miami because I was living in Miami at the time so I had like three months still of my lease in Miami so it was like the day before I left was when I texted her and was like this is how I feel and she was like what the [ __ ] damn I feel the same way I was like what what so yeah we had three months in between and now what's the situation no we see each other when we can beautiful yeah we're both very busy people but when we we take our our time and our intentional with each other but we can be special are you excited to get back into the studio to write music about the love that you're experiencing today yeah I mean I draw from a lot of different things when I'm writing uh but I've written poems and this picture has so much coming out of me yeah yeah the art is definitely out here I'm very inspired do any of the songs on this EP take on new meaning today than when you wrote them originally yes always the songs always enter my life in new moments like always by the way you can listen to that EP and all of Lauren jaregi's music on Amazon music we're gonna put a link in the description below yes what are you thinking is it hard oh what are you gonna say I just like click it oh click it telling them to click it click the link tap it what's it like writing releasing a breakup song like three years after your breakup you're like always love about you and Thai splitting right yeah it was yeah and yeah that's like a long after long afterwards it was long afterwards it was it was so interesting actually because the song is still very relevant throughout like I said it transcended the relationship because I had been in relationships since Ty as well where the feeling was still very much that song you know where I like I've ever loved you I still love you that's just who I am like if I've ever given you love that was yours to have and I meant it you know and um and it's with you forever like you'll always have that piece of me I'll always have that piece of view so that's all I feel like transcended the relationship for in a lot of ways and it also like also reignited a friendship between us so yeah that's cool yeah he's a really cool human I I I've only met him once with you you introduced me that is true yeah yeah I mean that is is that like the Hope in a lot of relationships that like once it once you guys break up there could be a friendship at the end of the tunnel yeah I don't think it's possible always you know because of different levels of intimacy different ways that people move up after fact you know like it's just important to know to have boundaries and to be you know clear about where you all are but yeah I I think ideally if I ever loved you I would like to like you're we're friends like we're good we're cool like we don't we don't have beef with each other and like hate each other secretly or like talk [ __ ] about each other like I don't I don't like that sometimes that takes time yeah it does take time it also takes a hell of a lot of maturity yes it takes a lot of maturity it takes a lot of disassembling of ego you know to understand like okay maybe this person hurt me at the time but also how have I grown since and where was it that I was not my best version of self that we were just trying to like love each other through wounds you know but the intention was always love love each other through wounds oh my God yes I just let my ex back into my life today this one today yeah literally literally today literally today well let them back in and what kind of I mean they've been like hitting me up and I decided to just hit them back oh but that sounds faster I don't know the reason they were looking for a green card last time so I was like oh hell no I don't know what they're looking for I don't know buddy often stop that no I'm sad I'm sad sad looking for love I have a little bit of a disposable income you know what I mean so they you know come on guys go get them no no no I waited for it I have no more teets left to suck on I'm like I'm out I'm fine I didn't do that no you're I.T um what are you thinking Daniel you have all the songs over there we just got the tracklist in here which by the way you should listen to the EP we're gonna put uh in between that's what it's called there's gonna be a link in the description below all of Lauren's music is on Amazon music so go go go well we got the one we got all in my feelings we got oceans look at me just read in Dallas so you have a song about somebody being the one and a breakup song all in the same body of work yes how how close together were those songs written um the one was written well you got to hear the context of the one break it down for me because the one is is about is about oh the students about the one no it's about the one who claims that they're the one oh the one claiming that I'm the one ah right so you're saying that I'm the one well okay show me that you love me I don't need your money like don't don't come at me with material [ __ ] I need I need that's not the way that you can keep me did you tell them that in the moment that's specifically yes you did I mean yes in different ways I'm not a materialistic person you can't buy my love when somebody said that you're the one for them do you have a moment where you think to yourself maybe I could be of course I think if you're with someone and someone's like you're my person you're like okay yeah you're my person we're together you know but um I also always have an intuition about like Maybe we'll see that's like in the back of your mind yeah because I also like I've been I'm young you know like I'm not trying to be I'm your only one forever and ever amen like um I'm a little more realistic than that you know especially when I'm young like young young like 20 21 yeah back then yeah maybe different world I was a baby I wasn't trying to be a wifey are you now I don't know for the right person for the right person maybe I don't know I'm still young I'm still filling out things I also I need to be in long-term relationship before I even remotely consider marriage I get that I also am indifferent to marriage as a whole yeah do you really need it no I don't think I personally don't think I need it I think the concept of having a fun party like where we dress up real cute I like that and like the union under excuse me the union under God or like a spiritual binding of of us I think is really beautiful too but the whole like government involvement yeah [ __ ] up it's good for your taxes though is it though when you're gay I don't know I don't know to be honest I'd rather just acquire dependence like really like give me [ __ ] random stragglers just get me defended yeah give me [ __ ] sugar baby I'll take care of you mama no literally like you have no idea the conversations I have with my business taxes are so crazy I think we should stop thinking she's freaking out it's so [ __ ] no it's like I I agree with well I don't think we should stop paying taxes I think there should be more transparency as to where our money goes I think that they're very they're very transparent about where our money goes well the military yeah yeah the military into line waiting killing people spending genocide East Palestine Ohio right now everything going on there very tragic so much stuff going on um but please listen to in between that is the EP right that's the point please listen to the music leave the description below final thought yeah you know what you know what went viral a couple months ago I guess a year ago was oh no we were talking about the Amy Winehouse documentary I know I did that casting it wasn't your name I was like it wasn't me it wasn't did you at least did you at least get seen for it no what the [ __ ] also maybe blessing in the skies that girl's getting torn apart right now copy protecting me [ __ ] I don't I don't need to be involved I don't need to be involved I also don't think it's there were phone calls oh cool there were phone calls I think at the same time as you yeah there were phone calls but I'm not British is the first thing they wanted someone like authentically oh you can put salt in accents of course [ __ ] offensive that I'm so sorry I could and if I sat long enough with somebody like if I sat and listened to her like I'm really good at mimicking things so I could do that but I feel like everything has to be tasteful too you know and the way like the way things move or the way things are meant to move always so if I'm if I'm being I asked God I was like if it's meant for me bring it to me if it's not no whatever then it's not for me so that's the right way to be yeah that's how I look at things now a lot less disappointment no expectations yeah no no expectations healthy you feel me oh [ __ ] yeah listen to in between Link in the description below listen to all Lauren's music too on Amazon music I really appreciate you of course thanks for being here thank you for having me Lauren Reggie everybody [Music] thank you [Music]

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Published: Wed May 31 2023