i'm in love | Dr. Rachel Southard

[Music] good morning what is up and welcome back to another Vlog I am rejuvenated I've had the last week off if you did not watch that Vlog you really should it was fantastic I had a whole week off for vacation it was my first vacation since starting residency I celebrated my 30th birthday I had such a wonderful time I feel so so good I hope that lasts long I'm happy to be back no no no I wish I was still on vacation it's cool to be back whatever it is what it is right I am just going to make the best of it I felt really good I'm really happy my heart feels very full and recharged I it was a much much needed break I had so much fun you guys on my break by the way I am Rachel I am a first year obgy resident subscribe join our herd we're happy and a great time we'd love to have you taking you on another week of what it's like to be a residence currently on an ultrasound rotation I think it's really nice that they have us rotate through here as interns when we're on labor and delivery we often scan just to make sure baby's head down or if we don't know where the placenta is at we'll check but those are kind of only things that you do and I definitely could use more time with ultrasound machine to learn everything else so I was on my vacation the whole last week that but I didn't do anything at home I was away from my house for the entire week I did not spend a single night at my house I was gone gone gone so I have a lot of things that I want to tidy up when I get home I don't have to study for my boards since I already took those and I got them out of the way so I'm just going to take this week to just catch up on my home things and enjoy my life a little bit because I deserve that and I don't want vacation to be over so I'm just going to enjoy the rest of my day and then do this all again tomorrow so yeah welcome to the Vlog I'm happy for now we'll take it let's go [Music] home another day another outfit slay the monoch chromatic look is a Vibe these are so cute all ready for the day it's Tuesday it's going to be a great [Music] day hi you guys I am happy I'm I'm very happy I just feel good and I think my life's fallen into place that's how it feels anyway I feel really good I know that you all know that I experience emotions very deeply and strongly so when I'm very happy I'm up here I'm obsessed and I'm on top of the world and then I can come all the way down I'm down here at the very low low low so defense mechanism that I have developed to combat this exhaustion from emotions and the exhaust from being up here to going down here is to stay in this very narrow window of this oscillating low frequency low amplitude wave to stay in a nice therapeutic level if you will of emotions so I don't go up and down and so I don't get drained and I fear this part and I fear the up to down part and so I have that little window that I stay in but right now I feel very good and it's hard to stay in that little window I'm kind of up here and I would like to work on allowing myself to feel that and to not worry about what's next what's coming tomorrow or in the next 10 minutes Anything could happen and change everything I don't want to be afraid of that unknown of what's next I really don't and I I would like to work on it because it feels good to feel up here and I want to be able to feel that and I don't want to be worried about the next possibilities because my brain will list dang near every last possibility I don't know I don't want to worry cuz I feel good and I'm happy and I want to allow myself to be happy I know this is very out of context but things are just going really well right now and I need to accept that I'm going to go to bed I know I didn't really feel much today I don't know we'll talk in the morning so cute oh my God I'm out of breath good morning you guys what is up and welcome to Wednesday it's Wednesday this week's amazing and I'm not complaining a okay I had a great week I'm having a great week and I'm living for it I'm not complaining whatsoever this week is fantastic I'm happy and I need to head to the hospital for ultrasound time these half days are so wonderful I'm not complain I have nothing to complain about right now cuz it's just so fantastic to be done halfway through the [Music] day okay I never told you guys of this funny story that happened today at work you guys know I'm working on the ultrasound rotation right now and by the way in which it's going so great I am getting so much more comfortable and confident with ultrasounding and I love spying on baby it's so cute and just just seeing their cute little oh my God everything about them it's so fun to just look at them and when you're kind of pressing they often respond and will kick and punch and stuff and it's just so cute and it's so peaceful looking at them and honestly I'm very envious of just being in that little fetal state of peace and serenity they don't really know what's coming so I got there today and the first patient of the day was running pretty late so I was like hey I've been having some weird paints off and on for many many years on my left side and I just want to take a peek at my left OV is that can we do that and she was like yeah let's do it and I was like okay let's use a transabdominal ultrasound probe like so I don't have to do it transvaginally he was like yeah let's look with the ultrasound probe so we go and look and there's a screen for me to look at and also a screen for her to look at and she puts it on and we see something weird and I was like um what is that and she's like I don't know she's like is there any chance you could be pregnant I was like no no but what is that she's like um like it's okay everything's fine and I was like please go get the transvaginal ultrasound probe she's like I'm going to get it get undressed waist down pants off go I took my pants off she went outside of the room and got the transvaginal ultrasound probe then she put it in and luckily thank God here's a image of my beautiful uterus if I don't say so myself um my retroverted uterus everything looked fine my ovaries looked great my uterus looked great nothing was there it was artifact thank God my whole life flashed before my eyes I swear cuz I was just like maybe I should have been going to the doctor for all of these years am I going to find out that I've cancer right now and I literally just booked a papsmear for tomorrow am I finding out that I have cancer right now I am freaking out it was just artifact thank God like we looked for a hot second and everything was great oh my gosh everything what this is so cute oh my God what got to head out to the Hospital ultrasound today I'm getting a papsmear finally I haven't had one for a very long time um and then we have didactics it'll be a day and I look cute and I feel good Johnny again does it again I love this blue so much in Scrubs but there's this has tweaked a little bit different like a little bit different than the normal color that I think of this blue and this one is so much better this is beautiful such a beautiful color I'm into it we need to go to the hospital so I can get coffee and a little bit of Brey before we start scanning some babes so that's it I'm going to get my pap smear from my co-resident I'm so nervous I freaking hate going to the doctors we're here I'm filling out a depression screen it's weird because I know the ma obviously and I know everyone here and it's just like hey I'm like awkwardly here trying to get a Pap smear I was hoping we're just doing a Pap smar so I could just take my pants off but it looks like to put this on I don't want to at least I'm not wearing a paper go I hate paper gos I'm so nervous I freaking okay so I'm in the Resident work room right now so what happened I got my papsmear by my co-resident wasn't awkward at all and I thought about it and I was like we see so many vaginas every day like mine is not going to be any more memorable than the next person so it doesn't really matter who sees my vagina that's it just want to say hey get your psmears um stay up to date with your health don't be like me I'm like the worst patient in the freaking world hello you guys and happy Friday I'm already done with work I am headed out of town to go hang out with someone really cool and some other people that I really love and adore I had a fantastic week as you could see it was just really great really really great I feel good I'm happy so cool yesterday training on the robot we got to do a little training session because we had like an inservice with the da Vinci rep and he taught us about the machine I've sat on it before and already and I've operated a little bit like I got to do some throws on a vaginal cuff or like some stitches on a cuff after um hysterctomy my attending said that I'm a natural and that's the biggest compliment in the world is for a guy on surgeon to tell you that you're are natural at something my I just felt really good that happened and we had a journal Club afterwards at a nice restaurant and it was really fun to just kind of sit with my co-residents and um enjoy some wine and really good food and talk about uh fetal heart rate tracings that's what happened went to work now I'm gone out of there going out just leaving I'm happy it's Friday I'm going to have a fantastic weekend I'm going to chat with you guys in a little bit I love my Overexposed hand really great [Music] how cute is this video you guys oh my gosh I had so much fun editing it I feel like the last few videos that I've edited have been really from the heart not that I don't normally edit from the heart but I've definitely poured a little bit more of my heart into the last few videos I know that you guys have noticed because I've gotten a lot of good feedback and it means the world to me and I I just really appreciate when you guys acknowledge the editing because that's my favorite part of this whole thing I mean aside from my relationship with all of you the editing is what does it for me huge huge huge shout out and thank you to Janu for sponsoring this video for making me look good I have nothing but great things to say about about the scrubs the brand even everyone is so wonderful at that company and it's it's just a special company and they really are the most elite scrub brand that there is out there their mission the the product itself it's nothing like I've ever seen or worn before the colors of the scrubs the material the fit it's just it's different than all of the other scrub brands that there are out there and this one is you have to check it out you will not be disappointed I will have all the details Down Below in the description box I love you guys so much and until next time take care of yourselves be kind to yourselves continue to work hard and all the good stuff okay [Music] bye

Channel: Dr. Rachel Southard, DO

Views: 70,234

Keywords: medical school, medical student, med student, premed, rachel southard, med school, herd, residency, physician, scrubs, resident, love, mental health

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Length: 12min 48sec (768 seconds)

Published: Sat Nov 04 2023