I Can't Talk to My Mom She Doesn't Have Time For Me

hi my name is sarah and my mom is my best friend she's amazing she's a doctor and she's raising me all by herself she gives me everything i could want and need i want to be just like her when i grow up do you look up to your mom too please don't forget to click the like and subscribe buttons thanks i couldn't wait for school to end it was my birthday the next day and mom said that i was going to get the newest apple watch after her shift at the hospital a few blocks away from the mall when her phone rang dr johnson a panicky voice from the car speaker said jill is giving birth right now we're not going to make it to the hospital mom quickly turned a corner she told the man that she was on her way sorry honey she said to me it's a good thing that we're close to their house we can go shopping after i quickly nodded my mom made another call and instructed the hospital to send an ambulance right away mom stopped the car and jumped out i followed her into the house a very pregnant woman was kneeling beside the couch and there was a puddle of water under her legs mom ran over to the woman and asked her husband for some clean towels it's all right jill she said i'm here and it's time for you to push i watched in awe by the door the woman was crying and pushing and screaming her husband was sweating and running around with a ton of towels it was chaos my mom was the only calm person in the room suddenly i heard another sound break through the screams and pants it was the sound of a crying baby she's here mom announced your daughter has arrived jill gasped when my mom handed her the baby my jaw dropped when i realized that i'd just seen one being born it was scary and incredible at the same time the ambulance arrived a few minutes later and my mom gently patted jill's hand everything's fine she added with a gentle smile i'll check in on you at the hospital we headed back to our own car mom said that we'd have to go home first so she could change are you all right honey she asked me you look pale i guess i did i was still in shock you were amazing mom i replied in wonderment you didn't freak out at all that woman looked like she was in so much pain but the moment you handed her the baby it seemed like she forgot about everything else my mom squeezed my hand that's how i felt when i gave birth to you she said it's joy and pain all at once and it's all worth it especially if your child ends up being a wonderful daughter like you she added that around 250 babies are born every minute wow that means that there are 250 soon-to-be mothers going into labor right now i gasped no wonder my mom was doing so well as an obstetrician she delivered a new baby every few days mom headed for the shower as soon as we got home while i waited for her the phone rang it was my dad you're not going to believe what i saw today i said and i told him about watching my mom do her work dad laughed and proudly proclaimed that my mom was amazing when your brother josh was born emma was screaming and miserable too until she held him in his arms when can you come and visit anyway he misses you already i promised that i would visit my dad and his new family soon i loved playing with my half-brother josh he was so cute my dad's wife emma wasn't so bad but it still bugged me that my parents had never married emma wasn't half as amazing as my mom after a few weeks mom came home looking very excited i got promoted she said i'm going to be head of the department i was so happy for her and when i found out she wasn't going to be working as much i was so happy for me too it meant that we could spend more time together it was great we had picnics and played frisbee in the front yard i was standing by the porch when the frisbee came whizzing my way i jumped but i must have landed wrong the next thing i knew there was blood flowing down my forehead sarah mom cried as she ran towards me i think i hit my head on the edge of the step i complained it really hurts mom cleaned up my wound she said it wasn't deep and i just needed to apply pressure to it she made me some of my favorite mac and cheese and sent me to bed early that night i remember thinking that i was the luckiest girl in the world for having such an amazing mother but sadly our fun times ended that day the next few months were busy time at the hospital mom was really home she left early and came home late i started to complain about never seeing her anymore she still keeps giving me gifts but i didn't want a new instax camera or another new phone i just wanted her i couldn't talk to her anymore because she never had time for me when i turned 14 things got even worse mom couldn't be with me on my birthday i had to stay with my dad for a few days while mom was at a conference i could see that emma was trying to be nice but i didn't want her i wanted my mom i made your favorite mac and cheese she proudly said i took a bite but i spit it out immediately ew i cried this is gross it's not like mom's mac and cheese at all dad got mad when i said that i gave him the side eye while he and ella played with little josh if he hadn't married that awful emma he would have married my mom and maybe she wouldn't have to work so hard all the time i was counting down the hours until mom arrived to pick me up then the phone rang it was mom but she said she was running late i got so mad at her for making me wait again when i get home she said we'll go on a vacation just the two of us okay i promise you're gonna have a great time but i was sick of her promises i don't believe you anymore i scream back at her i don't care if you don't ever come home when you're here you don't even notice me i wish you were my mother i slammed the phone down and ran to my room i was so mad at everyone dad tried to talk to me but i didn't open the door finally he left after an hour he was back again sarah he cried with a voice i never heard him use before we have to go to the hospital i couldn't believe my ears when he explained that mom was in the hospital she had gotten into a car crash just an hour ago but i just talked to her i cried i was so scared the whole time in the car it was terrified for my mom and deep down i knew it was my fault mom probably got so upset after i screamed at her that was the reason she got into a crash i wanted to tell her that i didn't mean what i said i wanted to tell her that i loved her so much they wouldn't even let me see her when we got to the hospital one doctor came out and talked to us instead i'm sorry he said she's in a bad way we're doing everything we can but i don't think it's going to be enough you have to prepare yourself for the worst i turned to my dad what did he mean by that i guessed dad couldn't even look me in the eye he quietly told me to pray for mom i couldn't take it anymore i knew my mom was suffering and it was all my fault i couldn't stop the tears i stumbled away and ran as fast as my lights could take me to the exit outside i found myself by bus stop and i got on the first bus that passed not caring where it took me as long as it was far away from here hours passed into days i can't remember how i got where i was the only real thing i felt was the hard bench i slept on and the gaping hole in my chest where my heart used to be i was to blame for everything it hurt so much to remember the last thing i said to her how could i be such a terrible person after everything my mom had done for me i was just sitting and staring into space when i heard the scream right in front of me sprawled on the curb was an older girl with a bleeding forehead i jumped up and ran over to her hold still i said soothingly let me check if it's deep thankfully the wound was shallow i took off my jacket and told the girl to apply pressure on it then i asked if there was a place where we could wash it i sleep in the women's shelter she gasped as i helped her up it's just a few blocks away the shelter was a dirty place and it was very crowded but at least there was running water and soap in the bathroom after a while the girl calmed down thanks she said i was so scared i thought i'd split my skull open for the first time in a long time i smiled it felt nice to help someone do you have a place to stay she asked my name is maggie you can stay in the shelter with me if you want maggie and i became friends she brought me to a soup kitchen where we ate a hot meal she led me to church basement so i could find a jacket maggie was nice and for a while i forgot that i was homeless and alone but no matter what i did i could never forget the last words i ever spoke to my mom i told maggie that i ran away but i didn't tell her why life went on that way for a long time it was hard to accept my new life but i had no other choice the shelter was always full of girls who had run away or who were in trouble there was a young mom named stella who had a little boy she said that she used to have a small apartment and that she worked three jobs just to pay for rent and food but it wasn't enough she lost her home and now she was struggling to feed her little boy but no matter where we end up stella told me as long as my baby jasper is with me we'll be fine i couldn't help but think about my mom when i looked at her mom worked so hard just to give me a good life but i could see now that i was ungrateful spoiled and mean if i'd been a better daughter i would still be with her a few months later i noticed that maggie had started throwing up a lot at first i thought she had food poisoning it's not the food maggie said i think i'm pregnant i was shocked maggie was just a few years older than me how is she going to have a baby in this situation poor maggie was miserable the whole time she was too tired and too weak to do anything all she did was sleep while her belly grew bigger i did everything i could just to make life easier for her but maggie was having a really hard time with her pregnancy thankfully the shelter allowed her to stay they told me that i could stay for as long as i liked to but that was because i was the only one who could tie a bandage or examine the injuries of girls who just arrived we became a family but i never really belonged there monsters like me don't deserve to belong anywhere another few months went by then one night maggie woke up everyone with her screams it hurt so bad she yelled the other girl shrank back in fear but i couldn't maggie was my friend i held her hand while she screamed in pain then her water broke i think the baby is coming now she gasped i was terrified but i was the only one who could help her i asked the girls to find clean towels as i looked at maggie's anguished face i remember the other woman jill my mom delivered her baby in the living room it's all right maggie i said i'm here and it's time for you to push she did over and over again in a matter of minutes the baby came i wrapped the baby in a clean towel and handed it to her like jill she forgot that she had just been screaming a few seconds ago she forgot that she was in a shelter she forgot that she was broke all that mattered was that little baby in her arms i couldn't believe what i just done and i couldn't believe the transformation on maggie's face i was so relieved when someone said that the ambulance was here maggie kept insisting that i go to the hospital with her then the doctors checked her and the baby out after a few moments the doctor came to talk to me maggie said that you delivered her baby she said how old are you i told her i was only 16. to be honest i was so scared i added it happened so quickly but now i'm just exhausted the doctor laughed and told me that i did a good job i felt really proud then i wondered if my mom would have been proud of me too if she knew maggie went back to the shelter a few days later she kept thanking me and she said she'd name the baby after me she also went back to her parents house it was different now that little sarah was here then she told me that a tv news crew had interviewed her at the hospital and that's how her parents had found her i think that's how my dad found me too he and emma arrived a few days later to take me home my dad hugged me so tightly i wanted to tell him about everything that had happened but no words came out i could only cry emma wiped away my tears it's time to go home now sarah she said and i nodded so we got back into the car and drove home but after a few hours i realized that we weren't going back to their house we were on a long road with big longs on both sides of the street my breath caught in my throat it looked like we were driving to the cemetery i can't do this right now i said and i began to panic my dad was firm it's time to face it dad said you've run away long enough i wanted to apologize to my mom but i didn't think i was ready to see her grave everything's going to be fine emma added don't worry dad parked the car and they led me towards the building i was confused why was there a building in the middle of a cemetery but it wasn't a cemetery after all we walked down a series of corridors and knocked on a door it took some time for it to open but when it did i gasped mom was inside she was very thin but she was alive i'm so sorry i gasped and i ran to hug her you've gotten so big mom cried i was so worried about you please don't blame yourself for the accident mom said while she stroked my cheek a car crashed into mine while i was driving home i can't walk anymore but it's not your fault sarah suddenly mom made a fist and banged it on the bed oh i wish i could take care of you she cried but i can barely take care of myself i took mom's hand even in her state her main concern was taking care of me then everything i saw about mothers and their children flashed through my mind emma with josh stella with her son and even maggie with her new daughter i whispered with fresh tears running down my face it's time to go home together you looked after me better than any mom ever could and now it's time for me to do the same for you

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Published: Wed Oct 28 2020