GLOW UP WITH ME to prepare for in-person school (i am now ready to be Perceived)

i feel so awkward making this because i feel like whenever people do these types of videos they force themselves to look as awkward and weird as possible in the before section just for that good thumbnail click bait but i promise i'm not forcing anything this is just my natural state of existence and also i just happen to be mildly ill i don't think i have coveted i'm fully vaccinated i am getting a test just in case but i'm pretty sure it's just a mild cold because of that um i have made it quite easy for myself to have nowhere to go but up but i will be making a genuine effort throughout this little challenge to improve myself both in some superficial aspects because what's the purpose of being a woman on the internet if you're not hot and actually improving who i am as a person so this is where we're at as the before and let's jump right in and let's get started with something i have to do pretty regularly for the next three weeks if i want it to work which is applying these whitening strips to my teeth this sheet of white paper is a comparison point for me to like color correct so that the day-to-day lighting changes don't actually affect the before and after results based on all the research i did on the internet i'm supposed to brush my teeth before doing this at this point my mic had died without me realizing it but it's okay you didn't miss anything important all i did was make weird faces and talk about how sour funky it all tasted i feel like i did a kind of bad job applying these but whatever it's day one here's to the first day of this twenty day ten strips process and one last time to me it definitely feels and looks like my teeth have gotten significantly wider over the past few weeks but the color comparison test will be the real final tell so i'll show another one of those on screen right now going forward i'm going to do my best to preserve this and not have to do it again because it is a big hassle to have to sit there with those grimy strips of plastic in your mouth for half an hour each day and it's not great for your teeth to do this super regularly anyways so i think the main reason i had yellow teeth was like you know teeth are naturally yellow but also i drink a lot of caffeine especially tea and apparently that can stain your teeth so what people recommend is using a straw so that it just like goes past straight into your mouth never touching your teeth at all so i'm going to be trying to do that as much as i can going forward i love my metal straws anyways so yeah moving on to the next segment of the video [Music] this ear is still pierced but this one was messed up last summer okay quick jasmine's ear piercing history lesson i got my first lobes done about a year and a half ago i'll let past me explain got my ears pierced today um and i was all fine and dandy until last summer when somehow in the middle of the night i developed superhuman strength and ripped the earring out of the back of my ear somehow and i had to have it removed by a doctor and let it heal over completely which is why there's that little divot [Music] it wasn't that painful kind of just felt like the way you feel when you get like a shot or like getting your blood drawn it's a cute throwback clip and i do agree with that statement it doesn't hurt that much heck yeah now i have holes in my ears this is piercing number three and i still have no clue whether i'm taking care of it correctly but regardless of my questionable saline spraying method it has been healing up all right so far and today we're finally going to resume my exercise routine i've been a competitive long distance runner throughout my entire teenage hood i did track and cross country in high school and the thing i am the least comfortable with about exercise culture and talking about exercise on the internet is the idea that it's always about losing weight or trying to make yourself look smaller being smaller and thinner does not equate to health i've noticed my body shrinking because i'm ill and my body has literally been cannibalizing itself especially its own muscle and this is not something i want even though technically it brings me closer to that like skinny female body ideal i want to be healthy i want to be fit i don't want to be tired after walking up several flights of stairs i don't want to say i'm perfect i still do struggle a lot with those toxic diet culture mindsets that have been ingrained into like all american women but the goal is to ignore that twisted part of my brain until she no longer has a hold over me and what i think what i actually think is that exercise is not a way to make up for food or a way to change some fundamentally deficient part of myself anyways enough of me philosophizing about mindset um the goal of today is an easier run at an easy pace just getting myself back into the flow of running over the next two weeks i made myself a little like ramp back up to my usual weekly mileage plan so let's get started on my journey [Music] [Music] wow [Music] today might be the scariest day because i'm going to do my own brows basically just cleaning up the bushy hairs with a razor i'm not ready to commit to plucking them out with tweezers or any other sort of painful method and i'm going to be attempting an at-home brow lamination which is basically like a perm that keeps them in that soap brow fluffy brushed up look for the next six weeks normally i do this thing called soap brows i'll show a quick video clip of that here but it's the only thing i found that actually keeps my coarse and unruly brow hairs in place but of course it might save me a lot of time during my makeup routine to like not have this extra step to just have them permanently laminated into this shape i'm so much more nervous right now than i was before literally getting a hole punched into my earlobe i think for me the nervousness is just like i trust these licensed professionals to think they make their living off of doing perfectly but i don't trust myself to do an amateur acceptable job at a significantly less risky task i'm gonna start with the brow lift thing just so that when i do the shaving hairs part it's already in the final shape step one use an oil-free makeup remover to clean the brows and surrounding area okay step two apply a thin layer of adhesive onto the brows it's a thin layer like is this enough what do y'all think you can't respond to me not until i've already like gunned and done fried my eyebrows off i think even as a young child i was aware that like i had really full dark eyebrows which was like a desirable thing that adults around me expressed that they wanted as well but that they were really bushy and that they would be just perfect if i could clean them up a little bit and like that feels kind of bs like to tell a child that they look great except they should remove some of the naturally occurring hairs off their face like this whole video is kind of a contradiction in that like i don't want to be the kind of person who super into social beauty standards but at the same time i have to balance that conflict of like i'm a woman who makes my living off the internet so there is like a huge advantage to being more conventionally attractive yeah i'm just gonna try something new on my eyebrows and if i like it more i like it more and if i don't like i already know i like my natural brows anyway so it doesn't really matter i'll just let them go back to their natural state next i need to apply number one lifting lotion onto the brows with a clean micro brush and cover the area with a cling film i'm not gonna lie this feels kind of ridiculous our next step is something called setting lotion this stuff doesn't smell as odoriferous or drain cleanery so i feel less nervous that i may accidentally burn off my eyebrows i don't really understand what the end result is this was supposed to be because right now it kind of just feels and looks like my brows are plastered onto my forehead i'm not sure but anyways our next step is to apply this nutrition serum this is probably to help these little hairs recuperate after the chemical assault they just endured and that seems to be the brow lamination process complete but don't you worry my little brow hairs you have more to endure today because i'm going to be using one of these little mini facial razors i think they're meant for like dermaplaning or like upper lip hair to like remove some of the extra bushiness from my eyebrows i don't know i guess we're going to try this out oh god this is kind of scary but brows grow back especially mine god knows i've tried to keep them under control but they always grow back so oop i just cut a little bit of my bangs off that is not a great start maybe i should have like clipped my hair back before i did any of this now i think about it i just gotta commit i gotta full send it oh what i sound like minecraft steve falling into a one block tall thing of water oh my god okay [Music] okay i did it i don't know if i like it ah it's too late i have to do the other side i feel like i don't look like myself anymore like why is there like the gulf of mexico between my two eyebrows i feel like if i were to do this again i would definitely like tweeze some here so that it looks more like a natural like fade in like a normal brow does instead of this like harsh cut off line i guess it looks a little bit better if i like judge my bangs so they cover everything but i'm already googling how long it'll take for eyebrows to grow back because i really miss the way i used to like actually look with the natural longer gradient of eyebrow going through there i liked part of this of like cleaning things up on the top and bottom so it looks a little straighter and neater but i don't like the way i just kind of chopped out a chunk in the middle there two days later i've finally gone through all five stages of grief and arrived at acceptance kind of i'm not ready to permanently accept how these look which is why i went to ulta and finally got a brow pencil that actually matches the color of my brows hopefully it's waterproof enough to survive today's hair appointment you might remember my hair used to be purple and then in june i got like the bleaching redone in a new style with like highlights and now the color has all faded out i'm ready to move on to a new color i like the natural look but i think bright colors are where my heart really lies and since i'm young right now and i don't have any sort of job that would limit my hair color options might as well live it up while i can so let's do this to the salon [Music] and now i need to drive home with my beautiful new pink hair we went for a darker pink just so that it would last longer because like as it fades it'll still have the color left there you know what i mean and i'm gonna film the rest of this stuff at home because i am melting my car is like an oven is preheated to 450 degrees i'm being baked like a cookie not even a smart one just a dumb one having my last two brain cells fried in a hot car starting route to home venomous reptiles here is the final haircut and hair color i'm gonna fix up my makeup real quick and get dressed in a cute outfit and then we will have the final after look arriving at the end of this little challenge i set up for myself i do feel like this was an overwhelmingly positive experience for me i mean to be fair it's pretty hard for me to feel worse than i did at the beginning of this month but i do in fact feel better if that's any sort of winning testimony and not just because of the superficial aspects i do like that i've started putting a lot more effort into taking care of myself this challenge started as me focusing on these external aspects like my teeth and my hair and my eyebrows but it's gotten me into this habit of recognizing that my body has needs and wants and no matter which one they are they're still valid and worthy of listening to i don't know maybe that's making this too deep for a challenge in which i essentially cater to my internalized male gaze but a full-fledged feminist discourse on glow-up culture is not exactly what this video is for i don't really have time or perfectly formed thoughts on that so let's wrap it up real quick thank you so much for watching and i hope you found it interesting i make videos about student life on this channel and you can visit my tick tock instagram and second channel for some more sporadic content see you next time [Music]

Channel: studyquill

Views: 309,850

Rating: 4.9850755 out of 5

Keywords: studying, college, school

Id: bLCQ78_NhNo

Length: 15min 4sec (904 seconds)

Published: Mon Aug 02 2021