FROM NEW AGE TO JESUS | LAW OF ATTRACTION | MY TESTIMONY

hi everyone my name is camille and today i'm going to be sharing my testimony as you can see from the title so let's just jump right in so i'll give a little background on myself i was raised a christian and i knew what it meant i believed i knew what it meant to sin and i believed i knew how to repent of my sins and i thought i had a relationship with god but what i did know was how to practice religion not how to have a personal relationship with god and that caused me to question things um prior to me falling into the new age movement so i'll just get right to that so what caused me to get into the new age movement was me looking into losing weight and i ended up finding some channels who recommended veganism for weight loss so i was you know browsing through youtube looking at videos and you know there's one particular channel who i was following and he was given tips on how to be vegan but also how to naturally heal yourself and detoxing and you know different things of that nature so it really intrigued me uh so i went vegan i lost the weight that i wanted to lose and i also started detoxing and you know purchasing his products to you know try to keep my body healthy and to heal my body and yeah so along with him having those products and sharing veganism he was also sharing what he believed was you know spirituality the new age law of attraction stuff like that and it was new to me i had never heard of the law of attraction or spirituality or meditation or think positive to receive positive you know i didn't i never heard of those things um but prior to me finding that channel i was um questioning hell and i was questioning god's love for us and you know i didn't fully understand um why god would send us to hell and why we would be punished so it really made me uncomfortable um i grew up fearing death you know i feared dying i feared losing family members you know it was something that was very heavily for me it wasn't something that was easy for me to deal with the thought of someone dying or even myself so when i heard about this new age you know this new age movement it was like you know you can manifest your reality you can create your reality like i didn't believe that hell was real like i decided like you know there is no hell like um so the new age movement it basically seduces you to worship yourself like you view yourself as god you are the creator of your life so like if you feel positive you will receive positive if you think negative you will have negative um i also i you know the thought of reincarnating like that was something that i thought was real you know that kind of made me feel a little better rather than just accepting you know that death is real you you actually die you know and yeah it was kind of comforting to know to to believe that this wasn't the end so that kind of helped kind of made me make the decision to follow it you know to believe in it you know because it is hard to it was hard for me to accept death you know that's just what i'm trying to say so i tried to meditate i purchased crystals i was doing yoga i was um reading books some that i was reading were a few that i was reading was eckhart tolle and abraham hicks those were two that i can recall off the top of my head um yeah so abraham hicks was one that i was really into i was reading those books i was listening to the audio books sometimes i would bring it up to different family members the you know those books and different things that i learned i believe that people needed to know about you know creating their own reality and not having to deal with the things that they were going through so i thought i was doing a good thing um but after a while of reading the law of attraction books it was something in them that just didn't feel right so i i remember reading one of the books and i was just like it just felt like a lie like something i can't recall exactly what it was that i read in the book but it i knew it was a lie like i when i know that i'm being lied to i just turn away from it i just you know i don't even pay pay it any attention you know so i stopped reading the books but i still had that mindset of think positive receive positive you know and during that time i was experiencing great anxiety for my future like i was wanting to be successful i was wanting to make more money i wanted to um just have a good life you know i was partying i was drinking i was you know just living my life i was um a selfish person you know i was mean to some people that i care about dearly and you know i was self-absorbed in many ways i just can recall being not a great person to people i cared about and i just you know look back on it and i'm like that's what it made me feel was right i felt it was good to be the way i was you know it didn't really bring any good to those people you know i was argumentive you know i would cut you off you know if you weren't i guess just what i felt was a positive person so yeah that was something so i was into the new age movement for about five years so five years i was following this and i i feel like i wasted so much time and i made so many mistakes during this time and i you know and in the future i'll share some things but as of today you know i just made some poor decisions during that time that you know i i'm not proud of but you know it is what it is you know it's a journey this life is a journey and you know things happen i remember losing my grandmother and i remember feeling you know very down about it and i didn't really know how to grieve her um she was my best friend and right when i lost her i got pregnant with my daughter so it was a very confusing time so i was losing the life and i was also bringing in a life and i pretty much didn't know what what to turn to because it wasn't satisfying to not have something to reach out so i it wasn't satisfying to not have god to re reach out to i remember um having some experiences where i reached out to this young lady where she would i don't even know what to call it i don't know if i would call it a reading or you know just trying to get some type of help like just talk to someone like i didn't necessarily believe that this person could do too much for me but i was i was seeking something i was seeking answers i was trying to find some relief from the sadness i was feeling you know i was i had happy moments during that time but i was not happy at all i had no joy i had no peace and i was trying to find it and i it felt like as i was running towards it it was running away from me all at the same time and i just you know i believe that i could pick up people's i could it's weird because i could like feel people's personalities like i could tell what type of personality you had when i was around you like i could read people like i could read you and know a lot about you just from talking to you like just it was weird it was like i knew i knew what your life was like it was kind of strange to be able to know something like that or to i mean it may not have been real what i thought i knew but at the time it was strange for me to feel like i knew how a person was like i could tell what they were doing wrong like i felt like yeah i feel like i i can't explain it clearly but i know what i'm talking about you know i just i just felt like i could read people and um i remember after having my daughter you know going through we purchased a home i received you know i had a lot of nice things and i was very unhappy you know it was a very just dull time in my life when i should have been happy and joyful i felt very empty inside so eventually i reached out to i believe it was like a masonic temple i went there and it was like all types of different people there from different religions or whatever like it could have been satanists there it could i don't know they were just different type of people who believed in a new age to my knowledge from what i can remember um yeah i it was a weird feeling when me my husband and my daughter went there you know i was obviously i was seeking something i was seeking you know community but that wasn't the community i was seeking and um so we left there and we never went back um after that i i desired to go to church right before i decided to go to church i wanted to go to church i was experiencing an extreme low like i wasn't happy to be alive like i didn't have it was just like i was like on a low battery like it was like i'm at the at my wit's end like i just didn't wanna i had thoughts of suicide i um was drinking a lot you know i was not being a kind person you know i was just very exhausted with life and i reached out to a family member and asked them would they go to church with me you know i asked a few times we we didn't end up going but then i reached out to a friend and we ended up going to their friend's church you know it was okay it wasn't a bad experience but um yeah i didn't end up going there again but it was a step in the right direction then i went to the church that i'm at currently with that person that was my friend and [Music] it was a great experience it was different than what i had felt in a long time you know i had felt very welcome you know i felt very i don't know i just felt something good about being there and i and i remember hearing the message and i remember feeling like i was moved like i felt like god was speaking to me through the pastor and i remember um going back and i remember crying through a couple of sermons because it touched me you know it really did touch me and even though i was going to church i was still trying to renew my mind like you know i still dealt with the anxiety and the stress from the way i thought you know the thought the way that i thought about life was very it take a miracle it took a miracle for me to change my mind but um one thing that i did experience before going to church that made me want to go and you know i even went to counseling for this as well was disassociation so it's like i'm alive i i'll have to just like post like a little square over here or over here of what it is but it's like you in your own head like you're alive but you're watching yourself like like i said i will put a square to try to give an example of what it is and if you have experienced it you know what i'm talking about but yeah i started to experience disassociation and that was very scary for me i do not like that and i did not like that and it really made me uncomfortable like that was like something that pushed me to seek something outside of myself like i didn't believe anyone could help me outside of myself like but that was the point where i was like i need help you know i i believed that i could heal myself i could fix myself like i never considered counseling during these five years and me you know going through this you know i was suffering alone you know just trying to figure things out trying to fix myself just thinking if i just thought a little bit more positive that i could fix this you know i could have the peace of mind that i really want and yeah i never got it so i so i finally um went to counseling and you know i spoke to her about my grandmother i'm trying to think how many years so i had lost her about three years prior to me going to counseling and i don't think i ever grieved her the way that i needed to and i finally you know let out the feelings that i had and it felt like a relief like to just express how much i missed her and how much i you know desired to you know i i just missed her you know it was just something that it was a ache in my heart that i hadn't that i couldn't express fully you know it's one thing to talk to someone about it that you know but it's one another thing to talk to to someone else about what you're feeling and you know she was like yeah i believe you're suffering from about depression you know and suggested some medication but i was like no you know me and my mind i'm like i can heal myself you know i'll figure it out but um yeah i continued to go to church and i prayed to god to renew my mind you know i listened to sermons i think i listened to sermons every day every day i was listening to sermons i started listening to worship music i remember being pregnant with my daughter and i felt low and i tried to listen to some gospel music and i i couldn't you know it was just like those words weren't real to me like talking like saying god like i believed that i was a god i believed i could fix my life so i couldn't even listen to it i couldn't even worship god i believe the universe was god you know um so that was just one thing that i remember just remember you know that i couldn't experience joy you know and when i asked god to renew my mind to ren and just to to renew me you know just god allow me to have a relationship with you and the reason why i knew i was going the right way was because i had a piece that i hadn't experienced before i had a joy that i hadn't felt like i couldn't create this joy i couldn't create this piece i couldn't find it in anything i really tried hard to create it for myself and i couldn't yeah so i'm just like yeah i don't want to create my reality i thank god that god is in control of my life and not me you know i made some very poor decisions during this time of my life and you know you can't change them i can't change them you know and it's just it was something that i had to go through you know it really and that's what i had to experience to that's what i had to go through to get to god god knew what it would take for me to come to him and during that time when i first came back to being a christian i asked god like why didn't you reveal yourself to me why didn't you call me why didn't you save me from making bad decisions and and i just asked him i asked him why didn't he care about me save me from doing the things that i did but god knew god knew that i needed to experience those things because i had to want him on my own he's always been there for me he's always been there the whole time and i had to want him for myself i had to desire god for myself and it wasn't enough for god to want me i had to want god for myself with my whole heart and i had to experience that to find him i didn't have to have religion i needed to have a relationship i had to know who the true god was i wanted the truth i wanted peace i wanted joy and the kind of joy and peace that i wanted it it's not in things it's not in this in a person it's not in anything it's in him and it just and it just that's what caused me to believe that god is real to know that jesus christ is god and that he is real that god is real and you know and i'm gonna just read this verse it's matthew 11 25 it says i praise you father it says at that time jesus said i praise you father lord of heaven and earth because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned and revealed them to little children i'm going to read john 3 16-21 for god so loved the world that he gave his only one and only son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life for god did not send his son into the world to condemn the world but to save the world through him whoever believes in him is not condemned but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of the god of the gods one and only son this is the verdict light has come into the world but people love darkness instead of light because it because their deeds were evil everyone who does evil hates the light and will not come into the light for the fear that their deeds will be exposed but whoever lives by the truth comes into the light so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of god and yeah you know god came so that we could have so that we can be free you know it's by the grace of god that we are forgiven you know it's a free gift from god that we receive and it took me even though i came to christ in 2017 it took me some time to accept god's love and to actually believe in my heart that god forgave me for my sins you know it's nothing i can do to earn god's love and it's nothing i can do to stop god from loving me you know and i just pray that somebody watches this video and sees my testimony and considers jesus as your lord and savior savior he is the only way it's not it's nothing else out there you know i went through a lot going through all those things you know just putting myself first and believing that i was god you know let my testimony help you you know i just pray that this reaches someone and it transforms your heart and points you in the right direction i'm grateful that god revealed himself to me you know i'm glad to have a renewed mind and to follow him with my whole heart and love him with my whole heart and to have a true relationship with him and not just you know live for the world like this world this life is but a vapor you know it feels like we will be here for a long time but we don't know when we will leave this earth we don't know when jesus christ will return and i just you know pray for the people who are lost and i pray that you that are a christian has compassion for those who are lost and you know try to help them if you can you they may not do what you think they should do but just plant a seed that's what we should do as christians and believers of christ we should plan to see for those who are lost i pray that this video blesses you i pray that this plants to see in someone's heart um you may be into the new age movement you may be into spirituality law of attraction if you made it this far i pray that god touches you i pray that god transforms you and yeah i just pray that you all have a blessed day bye

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Length: 26min 31sec (1591 seconds)

Published: Tue Mar 02 2021