FINALLY REACTING TO Preacher's Daughter by Ethel Cain *it hurts* │ Part 1 (FIRST Interpretations)

hey guys welcome back to my channel I'm so excited to be back um I took an unexpected break because it's hard out in these streets and we're just trying to survive so whatever um this is preacher's daughter that we're going to be reacting to by Ethel Kane I did have to look up how to pronounce her name and this is a super super highly requested video and I'm actually kind of nervous because it seems like this is a very loved album um I do have genius open I don't know how much I'm going to dive into what they say the songs are about because I know a couple of you have been like I want your own interpretations um by the way I'm share from share the truth I'm a poet that loves to analyze song lyrics if you love doing that definitely hit the Subscribe button so let's go ahead and get started family [Music] tree Lord Jesus Christ these cres my [Music] body are [Music] be sh the shers but you'll never see [Music] wow so right off the bat really do love the vibe I'm getting from this song um it definitely feels like it's diving into family Dynamics and how it's hard to escape your family and she's definitely using um her religious background and her knowledge of religion to use as a metaphor for um family Dynamics and how much you can't escape um from those influences these crosses all over my body remind me of who I used to be in Christ forgive these bones I'm hiding from no one successfully I mean that's just so relatable about having these uh parts of yourself that you try to keep hidden from the world all these like traumas and and emotional uh reactions to the world that you try to keep hidden because you have all these secrets perh perhaps they've had battles with their religion and not really believing as much that's kind of what I'm getting so [Music] [Music] far oo yeah that definitely I was really feeling that um just personally just that whole idea of not being able to wash who you are not being able to wash all those like negative and traumatic influences that come from your family that come from your family both through personal experiences also genetically um like I said earlier I definitely feel like she's struggling with her faith in this song which I I love that line where she says the fates already [ __ ] me sideways swinging by my neck from the family tree I mean that visual of like the like swinging by your neck from the family tree is like the family tree has already caused me so much pain you know and there's no escaping it because that's my family there's no escaping it you can run as far as you want from your family but it's they're still going to have so much influence from on you even if you abandoned them like that abandonment is going to be an issue I love when she says you know like he'll laugh and say you'll you know I raised you better than this I'm not sure if she's talking about her father possibly you know the Holy Father God um then leave me hanging so they can all laugh at me it's like some it feels like she didn't have a good support you know she wasn't supported she she she wasn't um given a good foundation it's like how do you expect me to be able to navigate this world without the foundation of a healthy family and that's what I'm getting from the song that's the theme I'm getting from this song which I think anybody that has dealt with those feelings and their family you know exactly what the song is talking about and that is something oh that I've been diving in so deep even in the past few months and just thinking about like why I am the way I am why like I deal with so much with my mental health and you know just like the root of all of that is a lot of times just related to your upbringing it's already getting to me but let's go to the next song American [Music] Teenager a I need this with headphones [Music] another High scho football [Music] team another red by American Dre [Music] o wait hold on I was trying to process what just she just said putting too much faith in the make believe in another high school football team the neighbor's brother came home in a box but he wanted to go so maybe it was his fault wow definitely touching on themes of unal living yourself oo another red heart taking by the American dream yeah I definitely think I mean this the album is called Preachers Daughter so I don't know why I'm surprised by this but we're definitely getting themes of her going through the Journey of her battling with her faith her [Music] faith you [Music] for there do I feel alone in this room with you in the middle of the light the lights go but I'm still [Music] [Music] standing [Music] [Applause] [Music] I like it it's has a nice feel to it I like your voice but the kids the the the chorus she says with your kids at the front since the album is called preacher's daughter I'm thinking that she was one of those kids at at the front um could she be talking about her father I'm thinking that um cuz she was the preacher's daughter I also get a sense of hyper Independence that she's capturing in this song like I do what I want crying in the bleachers and I said it was fun I don't need anything from anyone it's just not my year but I'm good out here it's like I'm going to be okay if I need to cry I need to cry but I'm an independent person um and I don't need anybody maybe there's a sense of like other people aren't there for her she doesn't have that [Music] support So this song is really touching on a lot of themes I mean she's talking about in the beginning of the song about uh the person that came home in a box you know and and and they were the ones that took their own life and you know with the religion aspect of that that darkness that kind of you feel when you know that people of your religion are going to say certain things about the way that they you know ended their life and in religion often that way of unal living yourself is seen as sinful it's seen as your problem like your fault you you were the weak one and then she kind of goes into I'm guessing this is a little bit of a background story about how her life was like being a preacher's daughter you know she's still a teenager she's showing up drunk so she's not really she's not really 100% committed to this right she's she's showing Faith basically she's showing Faith she's showing up she's doing everything um that she's supposed to do but she's also in the back of her mind she knows that she's drunk she's had whiskey night before she was partying the night before but she's still going to show up and and and make face and and be that person that she's supposed to be and have that people view her as doing things the way that they're supposed to be in this religion so we're really getting that conflict in this song which I think is really interesting as far as the writing I love the way that she's uh using these descriptive phrases to describe that experience especially in verse two where she says Sunday morning hands over my knees in a room full of faces I'm sorry if I sound off but I was probably wasted and didn't feel so good I love that hands over the knees in a room full of faces you really get that visually that view of her um cuz it's very subtle it might be something that people don't notice is that she's a little bit U hung over at this point um head cuz she even says here headful of of whiskey but I always deliver I absolutely love that lyric because it's just that basically talk about what I was saying in this entire song is like Saving Face it's like I'm not doing this 100% the right way because there's a little bit of rebellion there the next song is a house in Nebraska making sound silence used to be your favorite song You and me can you my man and I girl we had nothing except each other you my world in the day and you gone and I still call home [Music] that well we found each other on a on the second [Music] floor the [Music] world I you came and I and you and I cry why you [Music] don't we di to know that I myself to hold you one more to miss you but it's wor to know [Music] that wow but I that [Music] [Music] I around I TR [Music] might it CU you were the [Music] [Music] only you I just pray you're all [Music] right I feel I [Music] [Music] feel [Music] no jeez [Music] whoa I can't anyway I'm going to try to make it through I was literally saying I was like wow I'm getting through this entire song without crying and it is the lyrics are so specific for me and I'm like I must be doing really well I must be really healing cuz I'm not crying and as soon as I started saying that and she said I feel so alone it was done it was done oh my [Music] gosh [Music] wow [Music] you know I'm going to let that finish but since I started this channel I try not to assume every single song um I hate when this table shows let's try to get rid of that um since I started this channel I've tried to have more of an open mind about like what songs are about especially within the comments people like that song is not about that it's not about a relationship sh ending um which is completely accurate and I and I'm so happy that I've had this channel to open up my mind that you know not every feeling of endings in in heartbreak is always talking about um is is always talking about a relationship but if this song is not about the end of a relationship I don't know what it is because this captures that heartbreak so well well just so well and it's it's just every single emotion you go through the whole feeling in the beginning of the ending and it's absolutely stunning and it's just and it and it's like you know she loved this person because she says I hope you're doing fine out there I pray you're all right and that's so specific is when you're losing someone that you really really genuinely love [Music] I really wish I had this song when I was healing um from heartache you know earlier this year in the end of last year um because it's just so lovely lovely lyrics you know and it just captures that ache and the pain and there's just so many good lyrics in here that really really connected to me labored breaths and bed sores sing it to me all day long when the aching Sound of Silence used to be our favorite song that is so beautiful I mean initially when I read labored breaths and bed sores I'm thinking of her just laying in bed all day to the point that she has bed swords because she's in such um a heart she's in such a emotional place and she can't get out of bed um but I don't think I've ever really seen a song that really really is just so straightforward as to what it's capturing and everybody that has ever felt this is just going to immediately gravitate towards it this just this is the pits of it you know it's not one of those songs that is like this is what I was going through at the time I almost feel like she definitely wrote this in the moment of it in the depth of it in the in the thick of it it's like you're reborn when you go through that much grief and that much pain from a relationship and I really feel like there's no doubt in my mind that this was written in the trenches of those emotions this is absolutely gorgeous I love this where we found each other on a dirty mattress on the second floor I mean it's just it's just imagery it's specificity it's really capturing those memories thinking about what was around what you were using all of your senses to really capture these scenes you know I think this song is really full of scenes you know the moment that she's on the dirty mattress the house in Nebraska what does that mean what does that symbolize we don't know I don't know tell me in the comments but there's a there's a symbolism there um she talks a lot about dirt roads kind of emptiness has being being captured a lot in this song I'm wondering about that these dirt roads are empty the ones we paved ourselves the dirty mattress what is what is that about there's a lot of um why is the mattress dirty you know where did they find each other in a very destitute State maybe they weren't doing well financially maybe they came together in a time that they didn't have anything that's what I get from that you know what it's 6 minutes and I got to go so we'll be back we'll be back you know we'll end on a low note hopefully Western nights going to be a bit of a higher note so we'll be back to film the rest of this we are back with Western nights and we are going to I think this was the song we were in I think the last song made me cry let me turn off the heat and I have some Veno so if youve reached this part of the video and you needed permission to have a drink I suggest you take it at this moment let's get in the mood [Music] here B is hardly in the parking breaking into the at sleep naked when [Music] too tr's always going to find you baby so I [Music] crying because I'm hold me cross every [Music] St never to baby even cuz you know one be right there beside you [Music] o I am really liking the vibe of this album I just feel like it's so vulnerable it has an intensity it has a mood to it I love the lyrics I love the way that she's writing um it very much fits well into a lot of the artists I've done on this channel mitsky Lana Del Rey a certain kind of love that's so intense so like go to the hills type of experience um that I think a lot of us have experienced in our life and there's just it always feels so Indescribable when you're in it so when you can find music that really captures that feeling it's so powerful to me and I just feel like I melt into it play with them all that's are you [Music] there [Music] wow ooh I love this only because I'm Happ the cross every I'll never going to leave you baby even if [Music] you you I through all these f oh I love love love love love this I love this I wish I had that intense attachment to somebody where I felt this way cuz it just captures such a moment that I really relate to and it's putting me back in that space um it's just it's loving somebody in their Brokenness that's exactly what it is it's loving somebody in their Brokenness loving somebody when they're not all together and sometimes that can be the most intense unconditional and also harmful kind of love because it's just there's no boundaries to it you know and and and just trying to get in she even says all that's left are your walls and you'll die there I should have known that there's no getting in you know finding somebody that that comes across like they have all these walls up she's making this metaphor of like I I wanted to get in I wanted to get through through to you but deep down I knew it was going to be a Challen I knew that that probably wasn't going to be possible but there's something so alluring about [Music] [Music] that [Music] very deep deep love a battle of Swords I feel I felt I love the Western nights I got kind of a visual of that that that imagery of of the western Knights you know went through the hair maybe on a motorcycle or something like that uh or car with the windows down that's kind of the feeling I got through it um I love this lyric crying in the light of the TV static there's just a way that she phrased that it's so beautiful um and then she even says please don't love how I need you H maybe that fear you know of somebody actually feeling the way that you do but you know there's there's this like fear of vulnerability I feel like I'm getting in the song as well yeah there's a very unconditional Rider die that's the only way I can describe it that kind of Love Like No Limits just I'm Allin it's so beautiful I really I can't even say enough it's just this is stunning but then this part this lyric is so interesting um when she was talking about her daddy I haven't spoken to my daddy in a long long time I'm guessing she was a preacher's daughter so maybe there's some conflict with her father that we're going to explore more in this album growing down and I'm I am seeing something about being hopelessly that was the word I was using trying to find there's this hopeless outof control attraction that is captured on here she's not getting through to this guy she's not overcoming this guy's walls she sees the walls she knows they're there but some reason she believes that she's going to be able to overcome them that's the problem right I can talk a lot that's why we're here uh family [Music] tree H didn't we hear that [Music] earlier I feel like we heard that lyric right I thought we heard that beginning lyric I have to click on it to make sure I'm not going crazy could have sworn I heard the song already anyway go [Music] [Music] on I'm thinking she's talking to about tattoos that she [Music] [Music] had wow we really learning about this family dynamic in this song to the [Music] riv I feel like the lyric where she says so take me down to the river and bathe me clean she's talking about um baptism and she's kind of playing on that uh religious aspect of things [Music] my wait let's go back why is she talking about killing people I missed that [Music] part okay are we witnessing a murder here what is happening there's a lot going on okay so did you guys did tell me that this was very much um charact like a character story type of thing so obviously this is not autobiographical but um I feel like there was a lot of volatility in the love that she described in the last song so when she talked about the woman's scorn that made so much sense to me because that type of inner rage usually comes from that intensity of the love and so the fact that she transitions in the song to possibly killing uh this lover of hers um that makes me think that that is why because there something happened some type of um some type of uh betrayal may have happened and there's a lot of talking about her religious upbringing and some of the religious conflicts that she's facing in her head because she knows that uh the character in the song is is not supposed to be doing this you know there's that conflict but also she talks about her parents you know and the fact that they had this image and this impression but the mom may have been violent and the father obviously seems a little bit narcissistic demanding attention and and also giving kind of like this weird advice uh about a shooting somebody I don't know [Music] this whole idea of so take me down the river and bathe me clean you know with baptism that's the way of starting over that's the way of being forgiven for all of your sins so I feel like it's like well if I do commit this act or if I have committed this act um that is sinful then just take me down to the river and wash me clean wash me clean of all of my wrongdoings and then she talks about um and baby hell don't scare me I've been times before I feel like there's a fearlessness there where it's like my yeah I feel like there's a fearlessness when she says and baby hell don't scare me I'm fearless because I've been through trauma I've had things happen in my life she touches that a little bit earlier in some of the songs so I'm not 100% sure I know I see like the only thing I'm seeing is when I scroll down to click on another lyric like a little blurb here on genius um which I'm trying not to read but it says something about the the death of her boyfriend um so I'm guessing this is like a storytelling thing I'm not going to read the whole thing but I think the major themes in this song is like I'm going to do this wrong thing and I want to be forgiven of all my sins just like my religion tells me just wash away all my sins I can make this mistake and I can be washed of my sins which is something that she's seen in her church so I think she's trying to say in the song like I'm learning from that I've learned from my upbringing that I can just do these things and kind of get away with them by being washed away of my sins washed away baptized starting over new there's something to that okay next we have hard [Music] times I'm going [Music] on tell me story about how it end where you're still the good God all make pretend cuz I hate this story where [Music] happiness I love that lyric wow to be happy I'm not [Music] Happ [Music] still [Music] [Music] I'm still to me [Music] I got so I felt myself just really getting emotional at the end because there was something so powerful when she said I'm tired of of you still tied to me too tired to move too tired to leave because I feel like that is such a poignant way to describe why people stay in relationships that they know aren't great for them anyone that's ever been in like kind of a a toxic or abusive or just chaotic relationship where you're like why didn't I leave sooner and that is exactly what it is it's like I'm too tired to stay and I'm too tired to leave so I just don't do anything and I just that just hit me so much as I was listening to that cuz I just love that lyric and in the chorus she says I thought good guys get to be happy I'm not happy I am poison in the water and unhappy little girl who needs her daddy real bad like oh so emotional oh my goodness and it's like knowing that you're a good person right cuz I feel this so deep it's like knowing that you're a good person but you're not happy because you have all this trauma and a lot of it's like stemming from Daddy issues and it's like when is it when is when am I going to be the the the healed version of myself when am I not going to be unhappy there's something so frustrating about that it's like just wanting to just feel good feel good about yourself and feeling like you're getting the short end of the stick every single time oh I was too young to notice that some typ of love can be [Music] bad oh my goodness okay so I went into this song and I just briefly read [Music] over the meaning of it just while I was screwing down um the song is talking about um sexual abuse that uh this character Ethel um received from her father and I did not get that when I initially listened to the song So this song Hard Times is talking about sexual abuse from her father this character ethol and it's heartbreaking when she says nine going on 18 like wow like being nine and being treated like you're illegal tell me a story about How It Ends where you're still the good guy I'll Make Pretend cuz I hate this story where happiness ends and dies with you I think that's talking about losing her innocence I thought good guys get to be happy I'm not happy I am poison in the water and unhappy little girl who needs her daddy real bad and she didn't have her daddy wow in the corner on my birthday you watched me dancing right there in the grass I was too young to notice that some types of Love could be bad praying I'd be like you doing all the things that you do and still do and that scares me that you still do doing all the things that you do and I still do and that scares scares me okay I was too young to notice that some types of Love could be bad she's talking about the way her dad would sexualize her in the song praying I'd be like you doing all the things that you do and I still do and that scares me I'm tired of you still tied to me wow too tired to move too tired to leave is that talking about when it was happening I don't know but this is really a lot darker than I initially thought just listening through the album and so that is heartbreaking to hear a song about this so I am going to just briefly look um at the meanings I think because I just don't want to completely get this wrong

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Length: 42min 8sec (2528 seconds)

Published: Mon Jan 08 2024