Faith vs. Fear. Hearing GOD speak, being obedient & quitting my job!

hi my name is maya i go by maya j miss maya j and this is a video that is well overdue on something that i know i was supposed to do a very long time ago but i let fear set in like most of us do human nature sometimes um but um here we are so i got all that fear um this story is basically about obeying god and hearing him actually speak to me stepping out on faith and being obedient so i was working at a job and while i was working at that job it allowed me to provide for my children as a single mother it allowed me to move up in management you know for the most part i was able to have at least one day on the weekend off um the pay was very good for me being that you know i did not finish college let's just say that that's just being real i didn't finish it so the pay was it was good for me the job allowed me to take care of my children you know to accomplish a lot of things um so i decided in september of 2018 to get baptized something that i just put off for so long oh i'm not ready oh oh i got to be this way or that way before i do it and something just told me you know you need to just stop putting it off so i got baptized in september i actually reached out to the preacher and was like look you know i need to get baptized and they set it up with you know some other people that wanted to get baptized and i was able to get baptized i've always prayed and you know fast and you try to do right but of course i'm still a human and i'm learning still to this day you know the things that i should and should not do and reading the word and applying it to my life but in november i was in bed and i believe i was i prayed that night before i went to sleep and in the middle of the night my heart started burning like something i had never felt before it wasn't heartburn or anything like that and i just set up in the bed and i just started crying i stood couldn't stop crying at all so you know i just got up and i got on my knees and i started praying and it's just i'm crying and i'm crying and i'm crying i could not stop myself from crying and it's just words was just coming out of my mouth just me just pouring it all out to god just telling him everything that was going on in my life everything that i'm hurting from and you know it i couldn't control it's like something i couldn't control but it was stuff that needed to come out so about 30 minutes after i finally was able to pull myself off the floor i got up and i went in the bathroom and the mirror in the bathroom was in front of the toilet and i sat down on the toilet on the top of the toilet seat and i just started getting tissue and wiping my face and still in my head i'm like i don't know what just happened but it happened and i reached down to get some more tissue and as soon as i look in the mirror i just hear something say let the job go so i'm like okay you're tripping whatever so i reach down again to get some more um tissue and i hear it again you have to let the job go and it was so clear you know so at this point i'm like okay god this has to be you like i've heard god speak to me before you know in other ways but this was so clear it wasn't a big voice or anything like that that i know we tend to think it's supposed to come to us so i'm like okay i get up i go lay in the bed and i'm like i am going to let the job go if you're telling me to let this job go fine i'm gonna let the job go so knowing i'm scared i'm like okay what am i gonna do so at this point i'm like it's meant for me to start looking for another job so i started looking for other jobs filling out applications and i'm telling my friend you know god told me you gotta leave the job and she's like okay you sure that's god like i think it is him but we get ready to find out so i started putting in applications and i got a call back for one job and the lady she's like i love the interview but you are overqualified i'm like lady are you kidding me so at this point i'm like okay i didn't get the first one second job calls me i do the interview and they're like we want to offer you the job but this is the pay and it was a whole lot less than what i was making and i'm like god you know i understand what you're telling me to do but maybe you're telling me to appreciate my job more so maybe that's what it is because that is like five dollars less than what i'm making now and i don't know if you really want me to do that because i know you bless me to be able to take care of my kids and have this job so i'm like okay i'm just gonna start going to work i'll appreciate my job more i'm gonna be on time because i had stopped coming in on time and everything you know sometimes we get so comfortable and so i started going in on time and trying to do better and i actually was doing a good job before all of this i feel like i was going over and beyond in a lot of situations but that's not what he was telling me to do but i didn't realize that at that time so when i tell you that things started to go downhill for me i hated going into the job i was so depressed me thinking i was going to start being on time more and doing more i started coming in late i started calling out i was so depressed i was starting to look for a house none of that was falling through for me i was actually talking to someone at this time it's like everything just got flipped upside down it was so bad and i'm like okay what is going on so i called out one day i was so depressed i called out i was just laying in bed um and i'm just sitting there i woke up and i'm sitting there and i'm like i gotta do something and it just was like let the job go what else do i have to tell you to do so i get up and i write my little two two-week notice and i get to work and i got it in my desk and i'm nervous like oh what am i gonna do i don't even have a job lined up but if this is what you're telling me to do then i know that i have to do it did not give them my two-week notice i just didn't i couldn't do it i don't know why so i was filling out applications and things just continued to get worse i started getting depressed even more and i'm just everything when i tell you everything was going bad it's like jonah in the well that's how i i look at it sometimes because it's like when god needs or wants you to do something or he's telling you to move or do this or that and you don't do it he's going to get your attention until you you do it so after a while of the depression i'm like i can't do this no more i can't do it i it's just i can't do it so this time i wrote up another notice but i did three weeks because again i didn't have anything lined up i have kids i have rent to pay bills car all of this stuff just kept going through my mind like okay so i write up my three week notice and i'm sitting at work i'm like all right this is day so i get up and i take my three week notice to the manager and i hand it to him he kind of looks at it and says okay so i'm like i go back to my desk i'm like lord you know if this is right for me if i'm supposed to really stay here you got to let me know you know i know they try to keep the good people and i know for a fact that i am a good worker like i i do a good job so i'm like i do want to spend the summer with my kids you know work it out somewhere i can be off on the weekends if this is meant for me so they take the resume to the back and he comes back and he's like you know why are you what's what's the problem and i said like me coming up with an excuse i just can't do these weekends you know with my kids you know if i can wrote have the weekends off for the summer and i'm like yeah that's what i'll go you know i'll go with that so if they give me the weekends off then i'll stay and i'll know god that that you he's like okay well i'm gonna see what i can do child they start doing interviews for people and i'm just like oh my gosh they are giving my job away at this point i'm like freaking out so the manager comes to me after their interviews and he's like we want to talk to you in a bag so i'm like okay here we go go to the back and they're like you know we can't do the weekends and we feel like you know maybe we should part ways i'm like are you kidding me and they kind of came to me in a way that rubbed me in the wrong way and i feel like it was meant for that i don't know but long story short you know in three weeks that was going to be it for me i went to my car and i cried so hard in the parking lot like god what do you want me to do i don't have a job lined up like you know my situation what do you want me to do so i go back into work and i remember one of my co-workers said girl you and i got you some good sleep and i'm thinking to myself like if you only knew what just happened in that car these are not sleep eyes these are crying eyes okay anyway so stop talking to my friend that i was actually talking to that just completely went downhill it was stuff just started happening and i just knew it was god like we just want to keep going downhill until you listen so and what's actually crazy is a couple of weeks before that i kept saying that you know my word of the year is faith i even had a little mustard seed that i taped to my computer desk but it's like okay the word is faith but here you are you're giving a chance to step out on faith and you're so scared why so the last day came forward and i left and got in my car and i'm like all right god you know you told me to let it go i'm listening to you i'm leaving you have to show me okay you gotta show me you gotta step up because i don't have a job i have bills still so maybe two days after that i remember talking to my mom and i'm like i was stressed out like i'm filling out applications you know i know i heard him tell me to leave you know she's like well if you heard him tell you and you know that you're doing what you're supposed to do what are you worrying for and at that point it just kind of dawned on me you cannot have faith and fear you're scared about what he said he'll supply all your needs so what are you scared for don't worry give it to him pray about it and let it go so i prayed about it and i let it go and at that point i just felt like you need to be still he said be still and know that i am god and i did that i did just that and before this i was telling people you know they were like why would you leave you know you're getting ready to hit five years why are you leaving and i would tell them god told me to leave and i had a lot of people look at me sideways my friend was like i don't think you should leave one of my other girlfriends in orlando she's my best friend and she was like i don't think you're you should that's a good idea you know you're leaving your job you don't have anything lined up but it wasn't for her or anybody else to understand it was for me to understand it was for me to trust god and let go and from that moment on when i heard him to just be still i did just that i would still submit applications but i wasn't worried it's like i was filled with so much peace peace that i have never felt before in my life and it is like the best feeling you know people ask what's the best that is the best feeling i've ever experienced and that i ever want to experience you know and i was out of work for a month and a half and the entire time that i was out of work i didn't have to worry about my rent being paid i didn't have to worry about my car food i didn't have food stamps i didn't have to worry about anything it's like everything was taken care of i got to spend the entire summer with my kids we were going to the beach we were eating good we were doing things together and i was at peace i had time to actually sit down and seek god more than i ever have done something that i actually prayed and told him that i wanted to do i actually got to heal a lot of the things that i were go that i was going through and things that i went through in my past i was able to find myself more and love myself more and actually really understand the things that i was doing over and over again that was hurting me i was hurting myself and it just was the best thing for me you know and if i had not taken that step i wouldn't have never realized that so i started getting calls for jobs you know this was towards the end of the summer this just shows you how god works you know his timing and i started getting offers for jobs and it came to a point where i'm like okay am i gonna do this job i would get excited about this job like oh i'm gonna go do this then somebody else would call what a better deal for me or opportunity for me and it's like oh my goodness they're just pouring in now and at first it's like nobody would call me i got i did get word one time before but i prayed a lot and again that peace would just come in and just like okay stop worrying he has you you know so this one job called me and it was actually the job that called me before that was offering me five dollars less than what i was making this job called me and they let me know that they wanted me to come in for an interview i went in for an interview and they called me that next monday i went in on a thursday they called me on monday and said you know they really want you to come in and work for us you know you have full benefits you're going to be off on the weekends and they were offering me only a dollar less so at this point i prayed about it and and i felt that this was the right thing to do i took the job and i still had two weeks before i started the job so i got to finish out the entire summer with my kids um started the job and i really liked the job i was doing a really good job i actually got a raise before my six months which put me at the same amount of money that i was making at the job that i left so not even a year i am making the same amount of money that i left at the old job and i was at that job for almost five years i was a month away from five years when i left and it just was like god just continued to bless me you know ended up buying a house remember i told you it didn't work out before when i didn't listen i did not obey this time he blessed me with the home not only did he bless me with the home you know because i had learned a little bit more about praying i've always fasted in things but to con to include him in things that everything that i do now i literally go to him first because i don't want to do anything that he's not agreeing in agreement with i want to be in agreement with him or if he's not going i don't want to go if you're not going to be in this with me lord i don't want to do it you know because i've made so many decisions before where it was a me thing and i don't want it to be a me thing anymore i wanted to be a youth thing lord that was my biggest thing now so when i got down to my home you know it was homes i kept looking for houses and i just finally got to the point where i'm like you have to bless me with the right house with the right location you know and i want you to make it to where i can afford it and still do a lot of things with my kids take trips or whatever and when i tell you we got to the closing and they gave me a check back you are giving me a check back and this was in a time where the pandemic with culver 19 first started and i'm buying a house my first my first house a single mom three kids you know right out a year on my job i get a promotion and this promotion allowed me to make way more okay it's just trusting god and obeying him has been the best thing i have ever done you know even before this i would trust god i think for me this has been the biggest the biggest step of faith and the biggest you know thing that i've trusted god on and i really really really am so thankful you know not even i'm thankful for everything that came along with trusting him but the peace and the connection now is like i want to do right i want to read his word and sometimes i get so excited i'm like i need to call somebody when i'm reading scriptures because this is just so good you know so you gotta have faith listen to me you have to have faith if you know it's something that god is telling you to do you know you don't have to see the outcome that's not for you to worry about let him figure that out for you because he told us you your mind your thoughts are not my thoughts and i'm so happy it's not because we sell ourselves short so many times oh if i can just have this this and this but he's like well if you just listen you can have this that and this and it's ten times better than what you can expect i would say peace if you pray about something and he gives you peace then you know that it's right i i feel like we pray about things and we want it so bad and he's telling us it's not for us it comes with chaos it comes with confusion and it's these are things that he's telling you that's not me i'm not going to cause you to have those things so from me to you you know don't just go and quit your job that did not come from me i'm saying to have faith to be obedient and to listen to him and i promise you that it's not going to be this big loud thunderous voice if that's even a word listen to him most of the time is going to come from a voice that you recognize [Music] it can be from somebody you know and to pray read your bible i know you know you gotta you gotta find a bible that you understand and for me i would just say i don't just read one version i go through the versions because i've learned that when i read one version and i go to another version i'm able to get a different message or a clearer message but you have to find what works for you and don't always lean on other people because if i would have listened to other people saying i should not do it or you're crazy i would probably still be depressed and i don't know what the outcome would have been so yeah i hope you know my goal with this is i know that this is something that god told me to do so being obedient again i'm still learning i'm still growing and my goal for this video is to at least touch one person you know so there you have it if you like this video please like share and subscribe thank you

Channel: Miya J

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Keywords: faith, fear, blessing, GOD, Trust, testimony, christianity, spirituality, leave the job, happiness, hearing GOD speak, Obedience, abundance, scared, single mom, new job, Jesus, fasting, prayer, bible

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Length: 23min 28sec (1408 seconds)

Published: Mon Sep 07 2020