Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder | GPs: Behind Closed Doors | Channel 5

in general practice we are seeing an increase in people with eating disorders the average age of presentation of an eating disorder is around 16 17 years and the majority of people with eating disorders are young girls or women people with eating disorders often find it difficult to speak up and ask for help the first step in getting better is recognizing there is a problem and talking openly about it to get the help that you need how are things going yeah it's actually interesting because that's what i said why i started that banner that i was telling you about was um wanting to because i think the whole food thing is a lot mixed up with emotions and stuff and it's not just the food issue it's a lot more than that yeah so it's been really helpful just been getting um counselling and and actually being addressing like other like roots of why my eating might have been bad okay that sounds true that's helped helpful yeah yeah and that's the banner that you've got yeah absolutely because i broke my foot um three days after i started it jessica has made fantastic progress and is doing currently very well she broke her foot several months ago and she found that when she was wearing crutches and she was forced to have a period of rest in hospital that she was able to openly accept the help from those around her and it made her draw comparisons with her emotional well-being and with her her anorexia okay and i call it the beauty from ash's journey because um i guess like my whole eating thing started because i was really afraid of not being perfect and wanted to like address why i didn't feel like good enough or perfect as i was so i started the banner as a friend gave me the phrase when i'm me i have liberty that's a very good friend which was a really good friend the beautiful poster that she showed us in the consultation was her way of illustrating the healing process that she went through i was very touched that she wanted to share that with me and i think it's an excellent way that she has found for herself to to help describe what she has been feeling i've been seeing dr at least since my youngest was born who's nine years old he just appealed to me because he's kind he's a good listener and that's just what you want out of a gp you need someone to listen to you how are you getting on um i did i had came to a bit of a you know i haven't been bathing and it's become a bit of a an issue for me and that's why i got this infection on my scalp if you remember okay the name for my personality disorder is emotionally unstable personality disorder and there are many different types of personality disorder the the best way i can describe it is that if you imagine a ruler and and on the 50 centimeter mark of the 100 centimeter ruler um it's like a yeah an axis people are normal sort of go along the middle and have blips like that and people who have personality disorder kind of go straight up to the top straight down to the bottom straight up to the top straight down to the bottom so in the whole day you could just go so many emotions and it came to a bit of a head this week because i looked down and i was covered in fleas and um that that feeling of the feeling of disgust was just awful i couldn't sleep because i was scratching i was paranoid about the fleas and um i got up and i had a bath just to drown out to drown fleas i have the dogs had fleas well i've i have got i've got treatment for them i just forget to put it on it's difficult to say things like that when i know i'm going to be on the bus and people are going to look at me and say um she doesn't have a shower every day she she must smell she must be dirty um i don't care i don't care because i want people to know that's what it's like for me that's what it's like for me having a personality disorder oh hello i still have this idea of suicide and what are how are your thoughts about suicide i've got a plan your plan um well i've got some lorazepam that they gave me when i left hospital it's not enough to deal and i figured if i'd took more than i should and then like and i have the courage to walk in walk in front of a bus or walk into some traffic for me my relationship with my gp is extremely important they're the front line if you like i i would also see a psychiatrist but i see my psychiatrist every four months um if i'm having a trauma my gp is is who i go to so what what needs to be done to keep you safe janet what do we need to do because i think in the past it's been impulsive hasn't it the overdoses not completely you've been thinking about it for a while but some things that made you do it i'm not handing them over that idea is the only thing i have to cling on to the idea that you have something okay all right okay and what's helping are you managing to control those urges at the moment only only just what's helping with that um i find when the when i'm with the dog outside for instance um i have fewer suicidal thoughts because i i guess because i'm being with the dog makes me more present it's when um when i don't have the dog they get really they get really intense so if i'm on a bus and i see a bus coming i see me walking in front of the bus or um it's just a continual a continual on and off fantasy i've got two pets i've got a dog um and a cat those animals um are purely an utterly in the present so if you take the dog out then you can only be in the present you can't be depressed because depression is about being in the past you can't be anxious because anxiety is about thinking about things in the future you can only be in the present because you're because that animal is only in the present when is your biggest risk time is it the mornings or is it email or is there a particular time of the day probably evening in the evening okay and do you take the dog out in the evening um sometime sometime so for this week could you kind of think about taking the dog out in the evening can we just try it just over the weekend yeah you have to go with the things which make you feel good like taking the dog for a walk and for me one of those things is um is my children my two boys i haven't been seeing them on a regular basis and that's that's because i don't want to expose them to my mental illness but when i do see them it's like there's an aura of of joy around them they they they're amazing despite the fact that um my ex and i gone through through divorce that despite the fact that they know i um they get i get sad which is what we call it and and sometimes i have to go to hospital and when should we when can we touch base should i get in and see whether next week next week so thursday oh yes i'm gonna book that in thank you it's all right so obviously as before if things are getting worse between now and then just call okay and you'll be feeling you can't control the urges that i think that's what i'm i think we need to be just to be aware of i want to see my sons grow up i really do i think they're going to be amazing people um i want to i want to go back to work eventually um even though i've not worked since the youngest was born i've worked for nine years that's what i'd like to do i'd like to feel that i can be responsible it's something which makes me feel a tiny bit more positive about the future okay so that's the tablets and then the appointment's booked for next thursday i'll call you in there if you need to all right good to see you all right bye-bye now you

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Length: 10min 20sec (620 seconds)

Published: Wed Jan 13 2021