Discovering the Heart of God - February 6. 2021

one of the first thing i noticed when cheryl and i came to yuba city 33 and a half years ago was how many indians were here it was sort of like you know you you take a a turn into a neighborhood and you think oh wow i wound up in jillunder but anyway uh and we're thankful for that and god has really knit our hearts with india at this point i've been to india more than any other nation i've traveled quite a lot for a lot of years but we love india uh and god is raising up some amazing uh leaders in india apostles prophet pastor teacher all kind of uh wonderful anointed ministries to strengthen the body of christ and thankfully our dear friends bulbier and katrina help connect us with some of the best people in india god's and katrina god has been around a long time and don't try to get out of it he's using you [Laughter] but anyway uh so uh vic vikram and ritu are here and uh they're wonderful people we spent the afternoon at ball bear and katrina they're they have a lot to share uh wonderful testimonies and so we're honored i want you to know we're honored to have you let's welcome vikram and rita as they come i don't know if you're both going to come or just okay victrum come on up here vikram amen it's an honor for us to be here and such a blessing to minister in front of uh god's people who really love god how many of you love god amen and i want to thank pastor dave and cheryl and pastor balbir and sister katrina for our coming here it's a miracle of god how somehow we received a text around three years back by mistake it was forwarded to us and to come for a meeting the place that is around maybe three and a half hours or four hours from our place and myself and my wife ritu we were very busy during those days somehow the holy s i felt in my heart very strongly holy spirit saying you must go so i said okay yes i am coming so there we were in that meeting by mistake invited but god is never wrong he never makes any mistake amen and now here we are and we thank god for friendship from pastor balbir and sister katrina they were in india we had a wonderful time we had a conference together and they ministered we were really blessed amen can you give the lord a clap offering hallelujah it's so exciting for us to see that god when god's people minister and and worship and sing and people they play beautiful instruments but i have seen many times in my life many people even sometimes the ministers they are really broken in their hearts they are really broken in their lives because we are living in a world full of sin and there is lot of brokenness in this world many people in their lives they go through brokenness and somehow sometimes we try to hide it inside and maybe outside we are shouting dancing screaming enjoying the presence of god and even sometimes as worship leaders we are making others to sing and dance and and i've seen people they are so broken in their lives because maybe they had such a bad experiences in their life david is one of a person whom i really love in the bible he is a character i really love the man who was willing to go and face goliath the man who was not afraid to risk his life for the sake of people of israel and for people of god amen and that's why god said about david i have found a man who is after my own heart and he will do whatever i ask him to do he will do what's in my heart i believe in these last days god is raising up people who are willing to risk their life and who will say lord i don't want i want don't want to run after worldly blessings i want to do what's in your heart here i am jesus can you use me jesus hallelujah david was a man who really went through so much of brokenness in his life one day samuel went to anoint one of the son of jesse he had no idea who that son is and one by one the sons were called but david was not named and samuel had to ask is there do you have another son he said yeah there is one taking care of sheep he said call him and god said he is the one he was not a boy who was really honored in his family he went through so much of rejection even when he was asking about goliath the brothers were kind of mocking him and they was saying why you have come here you just came to see what's happening all around go back and take care of your sheep not only that even after defeating goliath and even after killing so many philistines king saul many times he didn't kept his promise many times his heart was broken david was a man when we read in first samuel chapter 30 verse 1 to 5 1-6 there we see that how his the mighty man who with david enemies came and they took their wives away and their children away and all they had away and they were all so broken and they were crying and they had no strength left in their body but somehow david stood up and strengthened himself in the lord and he went and encouraged his people he was a broken man you have to know i know i am sure there may be many broken people sitting in this place and you may be saying lord i am so broken but i still love you but i want to tell you this evening god wants to heal you today amen god wants to turn your story into a story like yeah it's it was not you sometimes when i share about my life story and i have to really tell myself was it really me was i really that guy who went through so much in my life and here i am standing sharing the word of god and gospel you know god changes everything not only does he make us a new creation he changes everything in our life everything our history our past he makes us new and gives us a hope and a good life and a good future amen amen god's word teaches us to let go of past and move forward many people are not willing to let go of their past many people they will come to god they will come with their past and then they will go back home with their past and they somehow want to live with that pain pain is so real but some people don't want to let go of that pain if you don't let go of that pain that pain will trouble you all your life you will not be able to walk straight and maybe when tomorrow someone hurts you you will feel like backsliding or walking away from god and you will say lord if i if you are there why this all has happened to me why i am going through all that you know what jesus said he said in this world you will have trouble but thanks be unto god one day he will come back and he will take us with him and there will be no death no tear no cry no pain he will change everything amen but as long as we are in this world we will have trouble i got saved in year 2002 and so many troubles came in my life after giving my life to the lord and sometimes i get shocked when people say oh i gave my life to jesus now i have a court case i can't understand what's happening because i thought god will do something good in my life he is good always wait for the end result sometimes we are too quick to decide lord today i prayed and look what happened in the evening i'm not going to church anymore i'm not going to pray anymore i don't think i have hope i don't think my situation can change many people give up too quickly abraham is called a man of faith he was someone who really believed god even when he was hungry even when he was 100 years old even that time he kept on believing god that god is able daniel believed in god shadrach they believed in god david believed in god and looked in what happened those people who believed in god god did mighty exploits through them amen can you give the lord a cat clap or freak amen though david went through so much in his life but he was someone who really knew the heart of god not only god knew his heart he knows everyone's heart but david knew god's heart he said lord is my shepherd i shall not want he was someone who really knew the heart of god he was a worshiper though he went through so much but still he was always willing to live for god still he was always willing to strengthen himself because he knew how to rest in the love of god john was apostle john was a man who really knew god's love that's why in gospel of john he said the disciple whom jesus loved do you know god loves you sometimes we make a mistake and we think i don't think god loves me that much i think god loves pastor dave more than me he's not a respecter of person he loves everyone the same bible says when we were yet sinners christ died for us imagine how much more when we are adopted in the family of god and we become children of god how much of more value now we are for god amen hallelujah amen so god is after healing our lives he wants to heal our heart david though he went through so much brokenness in his life but he knew how to strengthen himself in the love of god he knew how to rest in the love of god he knew how to go back to god and receive healing and laid down before god and rise up again as a new man a mighty warrior a man of war do you know we new testament church we are in a warfare it's not a a place of defense where we are saying okay i apply blood of jesus all around oh thank you jesus keep me safe and my family safe if you are christian who thinks that a christian life is a life of defense you are believing in a lie you know why people of israel died in wilderness because all they wanted to see was a miracle and and wanted to live in defense they were not willing to cross the river they were not willing to pay a price they were so used to of man every day they said we can live with it rest of our lives and if there was any lack they were always murmuring and complaining and then they were willing to stand against moses the man whom god used to deliver them and here was moses again crying for them father bloat out my name from your book but save these people and god because of their rebellion he waited 40 years he said let me wait when they all die then i will take your cross yeah he waited 40 years either you change either you be willing to move forward many people they want to see a change but people are not willing to pay a price david was a man who was willing to pay a price apostles of jesus who were with him they were willing to pay a price not just because of the baptism of holy spirit not just because they can move in signs and wonders but they knew that jesus whom they sat with that jesus truly loved them they knew how much their master their lord jesus loved them how much merciful he was towards them how much patience he kept toward them when they made mistakes they kind of as the time went by started annoying and understanding the love of god that kept them in faith you may experience the presence of god and be baptized in the holy spirit maybe you are a christian who can speak in tongues but if you don't know the love of god maybe tomorrow people i have seen people disappear even after experience that fire because they don't know that god really really loves them and he's a good god and bible says all things work together for good for those who love god and call called according to his purpose god has a plan for your life when i gave my life to the lord in year 2002 you know many people around the world they look for you know they always want a visa for some western countries i wanted visa for uk i was working there i was waiting to get permanent in that nation when i gave my life to the lord god said leave this job leave this country go back to india you will build me an army and i said i was waiting for a visa i wanted to get settled can't you use me here and his word never changed and i am i made him he waited for me five days after five days i was so sorry i said who am i to say no to almighty god the creator of this universe he is asking me go back and i am keeping waiting and the creator is waiting imagine can you imagine imagine you're working in president's office and he asked you to do something what will he do oh yeah let me sit around i have few problems i'm emotionally so down today i'm sorry i had a fight with my husband oh my children troubled me president sorry i cannot serve with you today will you do that even even even uh not even in our local offices we'll do that doesn't matter what happened at home last night we'll still be there working and trying to give our best and i repented on the fifth day i said i'm sorry please forgive me and on the spot i quit my job went back to india i heard people saying lord give me some land and property and money as a result of giving my life to jesus christ i lost my property i lost my family so many false course cases were filed against me i had to leave my city and i shifted to another city hired a small room with a small gas stove and a small folding bed i started again i wanted to go to a bible college i said lord i want to study theology because people told me if you are called by god you should go for bible studies that is good but lord said i'll not send you you will not go three times i prayed he said no and little did i knew that god is going to prepare me in that fire what evil whatever evil enemy plan for a against me god turned it for good amen maybe you have seen and faced evil in your life god is able to turn it to good and he will amaze you like joseph was amazed how his brother tried to kill him and they sold him a slave and the and the things he went through and accusations man of integrity and the accusations he went through i'm sure there may be few people here will say i went through some acquisitions but do you see joseph never ever complained you know why they knew god loves me they knew how to rest in the love of god they knew how to receive healing from god amen for me i have a very broken past and it's and i'm not sharing it to you know put my family down i it's hard for me to share but reason i'm sharing it because i want you to be blessed i want you to see if god can heal me so can he heal you don't hide your pain anymore this is the day of your deliverance touch two people and tell them this is the day of your deliverance yes and tell them now jesus loves you in 2002 when i got saved i left my job i was in scotland and i stayed in that pastor's house the one who preached gospel to me he opened his house and he said you can stay i said i want to learn about god so i'll get up morning six o'clock until 10 o'clock night i will read study pray read study pray read study pray because i wanted to use that time because i knew i'm going back and i want to know about jesus about my heavenly father who he really is and during those days after nearly four or five days i was sitting in a in the living room watching christian program and once preacher was preaching said lord those people who are watching this program touch them with your love and as i heard that i was so open in my spirit to receive whatever anyone said whatever i was ready to receive the love of god i was ready to receive the power of god i was so hungry and we said lord touch them and i said yes lord touch me and lord really touched me that day i was sitting on a sofa and it was like the some kind of electricity just came over me i jumped from the sofa and i was down on the floor and after a few minutes i was laughing in the spirit and when pastor andrew and his family heard this they came to the living room thinking what's happening and they saw me and they knew that god is touching him so i was laughing like a baby and and in my mind i'm thinking oh they are looking at me but i said who cares i am in the presence of my father and it kept on happening for few minutes and after some time i saw my eyes were closed i saw jesus entering that room and i saw him and i was down and he bent down and when he bent down he touched my chin back in india when mothers want their baby to laugh they'll touch their chin like this and he touched my chin and i started laughing like a baby really i was not worried at all what others are thinking and you know then he spoke to me he said all your life i heard you complaining no one loves you see how much i love you amen then i cried and then i cried and cried and the reason i'm standing here is because i know my jesus loves me willing i was willing to go through whatever happened in my life you know why because all my life i was looking for true love is there anyone who really loves me i was looking for that i tried to search for it in my family but sorry to say it was not there maybe because they were also broken how can broken people really share the true love with other people sometimes you see so many broken people on the streets you see them shouting and drinking and in drugs and we may say ah leave these people they are just like that little do we realize they are broken they have gone through something in their life which has really broken them and this demons are always saturn is always there to trouble them more many people they have broken families their parents are sometimes not there for them i have seen that many christians they have so much of past from their family that they were looking and searching for true love they couldn't find it and they're so broken and when even when it comes to trusting god sometimes they really don't believe him fully we may be singing lord i trust you i love you i know you love me but sometimes we doubt especially when we are going through some hard time people start doubting the love of god they doubt why because it's hard for them to believe because maybe their fathers were not faithful to them maybe their mothers were not faithful to them there are five types of fathers in this world if i can say from a negative side i want to share about that today and i'm sure maybe some of you will have a story and say ah yeah that's what i faced in my past life the first type of fathers are called passive fathers the fathers they will say so many things promise so many things but they will not keep their promise have you gone through that in your life when you promised something or maybe you get good marks in the school and and you know i will buy that for you i remember one day i asked my father i said i want to buy cycle he had so much money but he said okay i'll buy a buy cycle for you if you score good marks in your school so that year i really scored good marks i showed him my report card that was the last time ever i showed him my report card and i showed him i said here it is you know i scored good marks you look at it okay go i said you promised me a bicycle run away what bicycle you're talking about and he had a habit of promising me things and then breaking his promise after a few years i had a desire to buy a motorcycle and i said dad i want a bike he said okay you you know anyone who is selling a second-hand bike i said yeah so he said okay bring the bike so the guy came he saw the bike he said come tomorrow payment will be ready i was so happy excited that night i was jumping on my bed at last it was so easy and next evening when he came back home i called the guy i said come and he came he was standing outside and i said the guy has come he said no we're not going to buy the bike i said why he said no we're not going to buy it and my heart was so broken i said then why you said yesterday i'll buy and you could have refused yesterday so i went through so many experiences of this kind i when i was around eight nine years old i went to a city called chandigarh and there i my father bought me a boat and it was a boat that small boat you can use it in the top a small tub and you put a candle inside you burn it and then as long as candle is burning the boat is moving around i really love that toy and and then it stopped working something happened to the boat and one day my father was going to that city back to that city chandigarh and i said when you go there please buy that boat for me he said surely i'll buy a boat for you i was so excited waited for three days and then he came back after three days with his suitcase and my eyes were on his suitcase i said wow i'm going to get my boat and he opened his suitcase all the dirty clothes came out for washing and i couldn't see anything and i asked him where is my boat what boat run away always asking for things sometimes when we go have this type of childhood we will go through this type of things in our life or maybe you have seen their parents have been so passive yes sometimes they actually cannot afford or maybe they were right in saying no but sometimes it was right for them to do but they didn't do it and when we developed that mindset up that we can't really trust them and we say oh i don't know how to trust them the same when we come to our heavenly father we carry the same image of our earthly father and we say oh i'm not sure i know there are so many promises in the bible that i will surely bless you and i will make your name great and you will be a blessing but i kind of really doubt i think that was only for pastor dave yeah that's what people think because we may be reading that and we'll think oh no it's not for me it's for that sister last week who who was testifying in the church how good god has been to her maybe it's for them but for me i'm not really sure i don't think so that god can use a person like me i don't think god can revive me i don't think god can restore me do you know god is a god of restoration he restored job he restored david back to the throne which god gave it to him amen he's a god of restoration he restores our health he restored the health of that woman who was sick from 12 years had a bleeding problem he's a god of restoration maybe your father was a passive father maybe your parents didn't really kept their promises and now we come to jesus we we are double minded we don't know really you know will this really happen maybe when we are in the house of god in the presence of god we feel like yes it will happen but after when we go back same circumstances may be worse than the morning and we start doubting is that promise really for me have i done any mistake maybe i don't deserve it that's what we start thinking you know what john the baptist said he said when he saw jesus he said behold the lamb of god who takes away the sin of the world he came to take the sin away to declare us righteous in the sight of our heavenly father he is a faithful god he said heaven and earth will pass away but my words will surely come to pass it shall not come back to me void my word will fulfill if you believe all things are possible for those who believe if it was possible for mary who was a virgin to have a child imagine how much other things that we are asking god for are possible in your life hallelujah second type of fathers we see in this world are called authoritative fathers like a military commander in army i don't know how they train people here like for military india i know a little bit about india there was one boy from a church he went to help indian army for six months and they and there is a certain rule that if you help the army for six months there is a high chance that they will take you in the army without any special tests or something so he went to serve the army and one day he saw the army people being trained especially the new recruits they were getting trained and they were asking them to go a couple of rounds and those who are not able to finish it or those who are late they will make them to stand like this hands at the back and slap them with both their hands and do not move when he saw that that same evening he packed his bag and came back he said that is not for me maybe your parents maybe your father was like that maybe he was not a part of army maybe but maybe like a army commander like whatever he says goes you know you cannot say to army commander oh i'm emotionally so down so i'm not coming for exercise this morning sorry yeah you cannot you know come with all the excuses oh i am feeling leg pain he said good today we are going to make you a warrior now you go extra around you will know how to bear pain because you are getting ready to be a part of army but sometimes at homes fathers behave like that don't think that i'm trying to put my father down he's not in this world anymore it's hard for me to share but i'm sharing it that god will touch you today maybe someone will say yeah i had a similar testimony something maybe point one maybe two maybe three yeah that is me so my father was a very very authoritative person he was a part of he was working for the government and we had agricultural land as well but he was more into service and job in the government and he was once a part of a labor commission of punjab he was very much in politics at one time a big man he's photo used to come in the newspaper usually and he was boss in the office and boss at home boss at home whatever he says goes you know my school was not very far away from my house but in summers it's very hot i remember i used to come back home with my heavy bag on it's not like us their school bags are really really big and i came back you know from the school and very tired and i was also upset because i had a fight with my friend and then dad was at home unfortunately for me because i always wanted him to be in our way and but that afternoon he was there and he called me he said go and buy that for me you know that was his way i couldn't say oh i'm feeling so tired papa oh i'm so emotionally down i had a fight no that never happened in my life if he says something it goes there were days he'll be upset he'll say no food for him maybe he's upset because of his office and there was no food for me and and i always a guy will not go out and eat and tell him you know just to pretend that i have not eaten i was i'll truly not eat even if i got a chance there were days like that for me there was no choice there was no no like god said no i give you a choice life and death is before you choose what you want to choose but i want you to choose life if you want my choice choose life blessing and curse is in front of you choose what you want but i want you to choose blessing he gave adam choice in the garden of eden he's not a dominant or controlling god he's a father he advises he leads he guides he'll not hold your ear and say no hey what are you doing you're in a pub drinking come out i'll drag you from your leg he'll not do that he will wait outside still his heartful for love that one day my son my daughter will come back to me he's not authoritative father third type of fathers are called abusive fathers may be abused with the words maybe physical some people go through sexual abuse my father was very abusive physically abusing with words he used to abuse even my mom had to go through a really tough time i don't know how she stayed with her for so many years i went through a lot of beatings my mom really had very hard time in her life and my when i was three years old my mother became mentally sick and after that we had to take her for treatment so that's why i was not able to receive any love from my mother because sometimes in the morning she will wake me up with a slap and because she was not well she was on medicine and my father used to drink a lot and he started drinking more as the years went by so my mother will usually make mistakes at home and and then she had to go through really tough time whenever he came back home and even myself i went through so much of beating i remember one day i was in year three of my school he gave me a sum he said you know write this some and tell me the answer and i was not able to answer he got so angry he took off his sleeper and hit me hundred times on my back and i was not able to lie down or sleep straight for so many days it was all blue when i grew up when i turned when i was around now 14 15 years old one day my father started beating my mother so now i was big enough i thought okay now i will not let him to do that i kind of held his hand and he pushed me and i pushed him back and my father got so angry he took off his belt with a big buckle like and hit me with that buckle on my right arm my arm broke i was in pain whole night whole night next morning my friend came he took me to the hospital and they did x-ray and arm was broken next evening when he came back home i already had a plaster he said what is this i said you broke my arm you're a liar and he went in the other room after a few months again similar things were happening at home i stopped him again and he got so angry he went to the police station two policemen came i was 15 years old they held me by my hand and took me to the police station and locked me in the police station whole night in midnight i wanted to go to toilet and i said i can i want to go to for to the restroom and they opened the door i went outside the restroom was outside and i saw them drinking alcohol a special bottle which i knew my dad had at home i said oh now i know my father bribed the police to teach me a lesson and the lesson was that do not stop me and he did this three times to me after two years again similar incident my hand was broken and then there are so many things went through so much of abuse in my life that when i came to god and when hardships hit me and even before that when i gave my life to the lord i was so afraid of god i started knowing that he loves me but i so was so afraid of him that i just wanted to do whatever he says out of being afraid not reverence not respect it was a fearful experience if i have not obeyed him or or i missed my prayer time or maybe if i'll not read my bible i missed on someday i'll be say oh man god must be very angry with me and i'll come on my knees i said holy spirit please leave don't leave me i cannot live without you please don't take this call away from my life it's so precious i am sorry and i'll remain in praying for so many days out of that fear i heard some people in those my beginning years of my christian life and i met some lady she went through some sickness and i heard from her mouth that this sickness is from god because god is teaching me a lesson you know why people say that because sometimes they have gone through they have been raised that way then they come to god and they think oh god broke my arm he is teaching me a lesson i met with an accident god must be teaching me he is a good father he has ways to teach us he'll not break your arm neither your leg he is the healer amen he heals he heals bible says by his tribes we are healed isaiah 53 clearly talks about that the price that he paid for our redemption for our healing for our sickness to set us free from all our troubles from our griefs he went through all that that if we are going through that today we know we have a hope because jesus has already paid the price fourth type of fathers you want to know more are called rejecting fathers today we live in a world where there is lot of expectation a lot of competition in sports wherever you go even in school back in india oh lot of competition there are many good universities if you want to take admission in those universities you have to take more than 99 percent marks and there is so much competition and many students ask scoring 99 even sometimes those who have scored 99.3 percent they also miss it so much competition back in our country and i am sure even here there will be competition here and there in different things and many times we raise up children in that way and maybe our parents raise us up in that way maybe two children at home one is scoring good marks others is not scoring too good and the other one who scores more marks receives the love another one feels rejected because we live in a performance oriented world perform perform perform perform and when it comes to christianity perform perform perform when it comes to ministry perform perform perform if you want to be accepted you have to perform sometimes in churches people shout and jump and i have realized not everyone but sometimes they are doing it for others to know look i also have holy spirit you know why because i did that once i went somewhere and there were some people i wanted to give a message and i said how will they know that i am also i also have holy spirit you know so i kind of did few things that were physical simply for acceptance that they'll know oh he also got holy spirit because that thing was in me because i was not able to perform well even when god called me i said are you really sure i'm such a failure when i was in my ninth year of my school one day i was so angry with my father i tore my books and i burned my books i said i'm not going to study anymore i'll spoil my life i used to go to school after even then but i ended up in a movie cinema i know how many number of cinemas that were there in our town those years because monday i'll watch one movie tuesday another movie i will go to one shop leave my bag there there were clothes in my bag i'll change my clothes sit on with my friend on my friend's bike and go and watch a movie i i try to kind of spoil my life i was so angry because of the things i have gone through in my life i tried so many different types of drugs three times i tried to commit suicide i was so broken inside though maybe outside i was laughing and sometimes drinking and sometimes being with some gang members and fighting getting beaten or beating but inside i was so broken and sometimes even we don't know we are broken we don't know it's only god who has to show us look you are broken inside i want to heal you you have a wound inside because i didn't realize i am broken inside i thought yeah i am just a tough guy and i will remain like this and i don't want to perform i will do opposite and even my school teachers were so upset of me that they helped me to cheat in my board exams year 10 so that i'll be out from the school i am telling you the truth i don't want to lie i was not born superman it's only the love of jesus that made me stand here today so i in my school i kind of tried to control my teachers because anything that is authority i really hated it anything to do with authority yeah some people struggle to even to submit to church authority why because it's not they are bad people maybe they they find it very hard to trust maybe they have been abused or misused or something some bad experience they have gone through so what happened in my life i started hating anything that called itself authority can be police people can be my teachers can be my principal whatever i stopped writing notes in my class i'll just sit there and teachers knew that he'll not write anything but one day i started writing note in one of my subject hindi class hindi language class and that day i wrote and every line i'll write i went back to my teacher to show her look madam today i'm writing i went back she looked at me i went back wrote another line went to her she got so upset she held my copy and started pulling towards herself i said ma'am what you're going it's my copy by by mistake her hand came in my hand and my teacher fell down she was so upset she went and complained to the principal and principal said come in my office and the worst punishment in that school was you have to sit in principal office for at least an hour so there is principle i am sitting in front on the chair and i said what kind of punishment is this i don't understand but anyway so after one hour he said go back and i apologize are sorry otherwise get out from the school so i started going towards my class principal followed me and i took my bag and started walking outside i said i'm not going to say sorry anything that was authority i decided not to submit but in my heart i was broken i tell you one day a new teacher came in our class he started changing everyone's seat hey you move from here to there move from here to there he came to my friend who was sitting next to me we both were same to same same type of boys he said change your seat he said no sir i only sit here he said no you have to change your seat no sir i'll sit here and he held his hands tried to pull him out and i stood up sir you are new here that's why i respect you in the classroom see you after the school so anyway teacher looked at me and he started doing his thing so he was started teaching other students maybe during recess time he had a conversation with other teachers so what happened after the school i was standing near the main school gate i was just standing there and my teacher was coming out with a cycle he looked at me left his cycle there ran inside and i was actually joking i just said it and the other teachers came with him and saying cool down boy cool down he's your teacher that's a kind of a reputation i started developing in my school i didn't want you to do it but i was so broken i don't know why i was doing that and i used to cry sometimes at night that why am i doing this why i'm doing this maybe because of the abuses i went through maybe because of the rejection i faced and the words why are you born in this family you're good for nothing my sisters were athletes my eldest sister ran a national 100 meters race my second sister also was a state level player my third sister was a judo player and all three were very intelligent in their studies but i was not performing well and one of the reason was all the situation i went through because they were in the hostel and college and then they got married when i was only 12 years old they were very elder to me maybe some of you may be saying yeah i have a uh yeah i have gone through that rejection where i was not able to perform well and now i look down at myself and good for nothing one day my father called me and he showed me his picture on the newspaper he said look how much name i have gained what will you do in your life and i took that very seriously i said so how can my picture come in the newspaper if i study i have to study so many years ah so i want to do something quick what if i have a fight or something with someone and you know i said there are some easy ways to get popular and famous and that's what i started running for to get popular and famous so that world will fear me city boys other people will fear me i wanted to be looked at as a bad boy that's the image i wanted people to see that i am a bad boy this is who i am but inside i was broken inside i was longing for love true love i remember one day i had a pro fight with someone and next day we set a time we said okay tomorrow we'll meet at the back of that market so my friends went with me and his friends came with him and that boy called me on the side and just held my shoulder with love and i went there to take revenge because day before that he slapped me on my face and he said brother just like that i started crying i could not understand why am i crying because i came here to take revenge little did i knew that i was broken little did i knew that i was seeking for love i was looking for acceptance please accept me the way i am when i was 13 years old i started searching god that is there any way by which i can be saved i tried so many religions when i was 18 i became an atheist though i was not i pretended i know god but in my heart i knew there is one god who is the creator of heaven and earth i was sure about it that there is one god out there but i pretended i said no there is no god i don't believe in god i went in search of god and then after so many years now i was in scotland one day someone invited me to church and the lady was talking about the love of god and jesus there said bless those who curse you do good to those who have done evil to you and she said jesus said i came to save sinners that struck me i said i have heard in all the religions of the world that they came to destroy sinners but here is jesus the one who have i have never heard about he said i came to save sinners amen such a hope came in my life and i realized that there is a god who wants to accept me the way i am the way i am and i realized he is a promise keeping god he is not absent god some people are raised up with absent fathers maybe they died when they were young maybe they went away with another girlfriend maybe some other thing maybe divorce happened between mother and father they are raised in the family without a father and i have seen even there is a study that 90 percent of people those who are on drugs and go through a lot of brokenness is because the way they are raised and most of the time it's because the father of the family is missing and that's why they are the way they are because father was absent when they needed the father father was not there one day one father this is a true story back in india he left his daughter with his friend because he wanted to move abroad and earn some money his wife passed away he's left his daughter with his best friend in his best friend's house he came back after two years that lovely jubbly bubbly girl cheerful girl now looked very depressed and broken she forgot how to smile he kept on asking her for so many days daughter tell me what happened to you after a few weeks she opened up she said father why did you left me in your friend's house he said what happened he said when you left not only did your friend raped me even his son raped me so broken where are you father where were you when i really needed you many people go through this the children need them maybe you have gone through that you needed your parents your father he was not there for you you wanted to share your heart he was not there for you you wanted to express your emotions he was not there for you you wanted to cuddle a hug but he was not there for you there is something that only father can fill in child's life doesn't matter how hard the mothers try but only the father can fill that thing in their life many are raised like that their fathers are absent they go through brokenness but thanks be to lord jesus christ who said i will never leave you i will never forsake you i am with you always can you give the lord a clap offering he will not leave you he's there for you always peter denied him three times but he was there for him he said help me peter i was dead now i am alive he was willing to accept him back in his family that's the jesus we serve even in our weakness even in your sin he will not leave you this reminds me of story of a prodigal son who left his father's house went away spent all the money he had and there was a famine in the land and started working and taking care of pigs and he wanted to eat what pigs were eating but he was not even allowed to eat that and one day he came back to his sense and he said i have a father he has servants they eat good food i will go back to my father and i will tell him i have sinned against you and against heaven please accept me back as your servant he decided to go back home he started going back home and as he was far away his father saw him from so far you know why every day i believe he used to watch the main road the road that will come towards this house because according to jewish tradition prodigal son the one who leaves the house is not allowed to come back he will be stoned to death and father was waiting one day my son will come back my son will come back now he started coming back to his town his village his father saw him from so far maybe now he had a long beard torn clothes maybe he had not washed his face from so many days very smelly and dirty walked among the pigs but and villagers were not able to recognize him but the father when he saw him from far he said here comes my son i was waiting for you from many many days father ran towards him before anyone else could see him he hugged him he accepted him he kissed him though he was dirty though he was smelly he still loved him that's why we experience his presence maybe we'll saying oh i lived a life of failure and when we come in the house of god we can experience this goodness and presence this is our father kissing us and saying son my daughter i accept you the way you are i love you so much the father accepted him back in the family restored him gave him the authority gave him new shoes he said from today onwards you are not going to walk the way you used to walk before now you are going to walk not as the servant of god you are going to walk as the son of god this is the new identity we have in christ jesus we are no more servants of god we are the sons of god amen that's the adoption we have received through christ jesus he loves us and today he wants to touch you can someone come on the keys please he wants to touch your life when i came to know about the love of god one day i was in pastor andrew's house in scotland i went back in 2003 because he was the only christian i knew in one way i can say who can teach me i went back all the way to scotland i said please teach me i want to know more and i started learning about love of the father and while one day i was meditating on his love reading and studying about his love the lord reminded me of my father the relation that i had with him the unforgiveness i had against my father in my heart that all started coming back to me and i started feeling a pain in my heart the past i went through and which was hidden and maybe i was not thinking much about it but the pain was there and the pain was real that day lord was ready to operate me he was ready to operate me i went to pastor andrew i said pastor i have something to say i had a very bad relation with my father i went through so and so and even when my father died i wanted to cry i was so much in pain inside that i lost my father i could not cry my father used wall in the la in his last one and a half year i took him so many times to hospital for treatment and they will give him treatment and i'll take care of him and many time i gave my blood i'll bring him back home again carry him to the hospital i took good care of him many times i saw his pain he lost his weight he lost his weight he was so slim only we could see bones only only some skin on it and i felt terrible and i was so much in pain i wanted to cry before him i could not i could not the last days of his life back in india sometimes the doctors will say take them home we can't do anything so we take him home we bought a bag a mattress we can fill air in because he had so many bad soles bleeding from the back so that he'll be comfortable now he was not able to move his eyes were open he could not blink his eyes he could not move his hands he could not move his legs and hardly he spoke and we say say something water ah so he'll open his mouth we'll put water and that's all and we were waiting for him to die the second day came and my mother who was mentally not well sat close to him and said you are my husband i am your wife i forgive you when we heard that we were shocked and i said man wow how can mom do that how can mom forgive him and mom is not well mentally how come this words come out from her mouth even my sisters were shocked i decided that evening i'll also go to my dad and say father thank you and i'm sorry for hurting you and i also forgive you i decided i'm going to do it so second evening i tried i went close to him so many times and i came back now he could not beat me he could not slap me he was so weak but i was still so afraid i could not open i was not able to express my heart to him my gratitude towards him because all those years we never opened up there was no relationship there was no love third day i decided i said today i'm going to do it i tried so many times i went close to him and said open your mouth put a water some water in his mouth and i came back oh man and i was sweating i could not do it fourth day morning i got up i said today i'm going to do it i went to the market in the morning and i heard the news my father died when he died i said oh man i missed it i really missed it i should have done it he fed me food the reason i am now what i am because he fed me he worked he'd done so many good things for me so we did his cremation i wanted to cry i could not cry realities were crying i thought they all will think oh he is happy because all knew that their relation was not good i wanted to really cry i felt so empty in my heart i was not able to cry and now after two years in scotland i got saved and then again third year i went back and knowing the father heart of god everything started coming back to my memory i said pastor i was not able to do that what should i do he said your heavenly father is there go to him and and release whatever is there in your heart i logged my room went inside and i cried and i cried and i cried and when i came back to out of that room i was so free i felt like i am flying in air there was such a joy in my heart i was not a broken person anymore not only did god save me he healed me from inside so that i can become a healing for many amen hallelujah today if there is any person maybe your father was authoritative father maybe your father was absent when you needed him the most maybe your father was a passive father he never fulfilled his promise maybe in your childhood you have gone through so much of rejection maybe rejection through people but i want to tell you jesus is here standing in the midst of us to accept you the way you are to heal you the way you are you may be in ministry you may be in prophetic ministry or worship ministry you may be a preacher and doing all that maybe but still in your heart you may be broken i've seen i've ministered among the pastors and i've seen people who are mildly used by god i sometimes wonder they are so broken inside outside they'll make people to laugh they will encourage people but inside they are so broken and i have seen them falling in the presence of god coming down on their knees shedding their tears crying in front of their heavenly father experiencing experiencing his love and receiving his healing and going and back as a completely healed person is there anyone who wants to lift up his hand and say yeah my father was an authoritative father anyone yeah i knew it anyone want to say my father was absent maybe he died left mom divorced yeah a lot of people anyone who can say i went through so much of rejection in my life yeah we know anyone who can say will say i went through so much of abuse can be sexual can be physical beating and can be the words anyone yeah god wants to heal you today if you open your heart and come before him he will touch you you will never ever be the same again i have a father he calls me his own he'll never leave me no matter where i go i have a close your eyes jesus is in this house he's touching you if there is anyone i saw so many people lifting their hands if you want to come in front please come at the foot of the cross yeah come it's all right if you want to cry it's all right jesus christ men cry i was taught men don't cry then i saw jesus jesus christ it doesn't make take too long for me to cry because of his love if you want to stand in front and you want to come down on your knees you want to lie down you are here in his presence he wants to heal you completely he wants to heal your heart he wants to heal your life he knows what you went through nothing is hidden from him he will know the accusations you went through the rejection you went through the abuses you faced in your life and you wished oh maybe many times you said why am i born in this family i wish if i was never born well i had to go through all this why my father is like that why my mother cannot feed me why i was not born in other family that's what i used to complain and jesus saw it jesus saw it and that's why in 2002 he came in the room and he touched my sin a chin and he said all your life you complain no one loves you see how much i love you i died for you so that you can be with me in heaven forever and ever and there'll be no tears there'll be no death there'll be no evil there'll be no brokenness there'll be no rejection there'll be no abuse there'll be only love i have a father he calls me his own he'll never leave me no matter where i go he knows my name he knows my every thought he sees his tear that falls and hears me when i call can worship him come please he knows my name he knows my every thought he sees his tear that falls and hears me when i just receive the love of the father o rama say worship you jesus so close i believe you're holding me now in your hands i belong [Music] you never let me go so close i believe you're holding me now and your hands i belong can ministry dream just lay your hands over them gently and just minister unto them can you please because god is touching lives here this evening if anyone else at the back you want to come in front it's fine if you're on your seat just close your eyes receive his love receive his love receive his touch he wants to heal you yeah i know it's the past it's something that is of the past but you may be still carrying that pain in your soul that your emotions may be getting hurt easily maybe you are someone who feels rejected very easily it's not because you are wrong or something you are a bad person it's because you have gone through that and easily you feel rejected and if easily you feel like maybe someone will use me and maybe it's not love it's about me it's about money and we we are very afraid to trust anyone but i want to tell you when you experience the love of jesus everything will change in your life just close your everyone close your eyes just pray spend time in god's presence i can see so many people crying and lord is touching them and and maybe some are crying in their heart and i know the love jesus is here in this place i can i can i i can experience such a heavy presence of god presence of jesus his love his love his love which never changes which never changes for you which is though his love is always same even yesterday and today forever he'll keep on loving you we so you we worship you we worship you we worship you pour out your spirit pour out your spirit pour out your spirit on me father pour out your spirit your love pour out your love upon these lives in the mighty name of jesus lord we know you love them we know you love them lord i know you love them i know you love them and your love completely changes our life father god lord heal them completely that they will not go back as a broken person yes sometimes we need healing in our physical body but there is a greater need in the body of christ the need of healing in their emotions they are broken [Music] we worship you we worship you lord you do do you minister you minister unto your people or touch them touch their master you are a good father you are a good father your heavenly father lord i pray that they will not be a same person anymore they will truly truly truly know your love and not only they will know your love they'll be healed completely no more pain they'll be a free person from today onwards all the pain that enemy has given them the devil who has tried to torment them and tell them with his lies that he lied to them and said no one love you there is jesus who died for you on the cross he loves you no one can love like the way he loved he laid down his life for his enemies according to bible we were the enemies of god far away from god living in our own ways made so many idols but jesus laid down his life because he loves you i have a father he calls me his own he'll never leave me no matter where i go [Music] he knows my name he knows my every thought he sees his tear that falls and heals me when i go father thank you heavenly father we want to thank you thank you for touching these lives yes receive receive receive receive pour out pour out today pour out today no more pain just leave it here at the foot of the cross don't carry it back home today is your appointed time when god wants to heal you completely completely we are not going to live in our yesterday from today onwards we are not going to cry out anymore for yesterday pain what we went through because jesus is going to take care of it completely completely he's taking it away jesus jesus thank you lord thank you lord for setting your people free thank you jesus for setting your people free for setting your people free they have a hope they have life they have future doesn't matter what you have done in your past god is a god of restoration does not matter what you have lost in the past god is a god of restoration he will restore you many fold his he will restore you many many fold and not only that he's going to use you to heal many broken people each and every one of you even as you will receive the love of the father what will happen this love will start flowing through your life because this love [Music] when it's poured out it's poured out like it's overflowing it's overflowing love you cannot contain it you cannot contain it and it's going to overflow through your life into other people's life and david was full of so full of god's love and he was able to take a stand for him and he was not afraid because he knew he's not only serving a creator god he is serving a god who loves the people of israel who is a god who keeps his covenant and remember the covenant was made because of love david jonathan covenant was made because they loved each other christ jesus he said here is my body that is broken for you and my blood that is shed for you is a new covenant covenant he made because he loves thank you jesus thank you jesus thank you father the lives that are getting healed today thank you master they are not going to be same anymore in the name of jesus i bless them and i pray that you will raise up mighty warriors in this place lord let there be a ezekiel experience in this place and he saw dry bones and god said prophesy and he prophesied and that dry bones dry life painful life no hope no future stood up as a mighty army of god and that is who all god is and father i pray for same and i prophesy in jesus mighty name that each and every person in this place will be touched by the power and love of god in the name of jesus i pray that you will use each and every one of them to stand and rise up as a mighty man of god mighty warriors of god to take nations to take cities to take towns to win villages because this is the call the body of christ has from god and i pray [Music] that we will obey the great commission that each and every one of us will obey the great commission in the name of jesus the great commission praise the gospel take the land preach the gospel take the land preach the gospel take the land you asked abraham you said see what do you see whatever land you see i give it to you lord i pray that today they will start seeing broken lives outside they will start seeing broken people outside they will start seeing their relatives and friends who are broken they will start seeing this country that is so much broken there is need of great healing and i pray that in such a time as this the body of christ will arise in this nation in the name of jesus that body of christ will arise in this nation that esther's will arise and they'll say oh even if i die i die even if i lose my crown i'll i'm willing to lose this but let the people of god be saved let the sinners be saved in the mighty name of jesus water we pray we body of christ agree together let there be a mighty move of god in this country in the name of jesus pour out your spirit father once again we are ready we are ready to receive your love receive your power and also to release it into other people's life in the mighty name of jesus freely we have received and freely we give in the name of jesus father i pray if anyone is sick among you in the mighty name of jesus i speak healing into your bodies let knee pains be healed cervical problem disappear right now in the name of jesus someone has a heartbeat your heart beats really fast fast palpitations god is touching you right now receiving such upon your life in jesus name tumor in the stomach god is touching you a small tumor in the stomach disappears now in the name of jesus start praying church let's pray for another two three minutes i'm not going to take long just last two three minutes let's pray god is doing something in this place today he is doing something in this place today he is doing something in your lives maybe you will not realize it today but you will see it you will see it such a burden from god is coming upon your lives for the body of christ for the body of christ for the people who are lost for this nation and not only in this nation nations of the world that was the blessing spoken about upon abraham i will make your blessing not to one nation but to the nations of the world and through christ jesus we are blessed by all the blessings that was spoken about upon abraham your call is for nations pour out your spirit here we are jesus you are still on the throne lord we trust you that's why you're not afraid of our tomorrow because jesus is seated on the throne and we believe in the prophecy spoken by daniel and the dream that the king saw and we know you are that rock that turned into a mountain and spread all throughout this world and your word says of the increase of his kingdom there shall be no end jesus reigns yes father we thank you we worship you we honor you hallelujah worship you jesus worship you jesus worship you jesus thank you for touching these lives thank you master thank you for your healing touch thank you their lives will never be the same again they are not broken vessels anymore they are vessels that are healed by lord jesus christ they are the vessels that are healed in the name of jesus they are vessels that are ready to flow that the love that is overflowing in their lives will flow into other people's life they are the vessels now which are ready to be used by god they are our vessels if anyone hurts them from today onwards they'll not be broken they'll not be broken because they are made by you when we are made by you no one can break us apostles went through so many hard things in their life that they were in prison they went through beatings but they were vessels made by lord jesus christ himself this is a church made by the hand of god because jesus said i will build my church and gates of hell shall not prevail against it maybe the world made you maybe your friends made you but today jesus is making you you are in his hand and when he makes no one can make like him father we thank you we worship you we honor you praise you in jesus mighty name amen can we give the lord a clap offering hallelujah

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Published: Tue Feb 09 2021