Demonic Attack, The Holy Rosary, and Lives of the Saints w/@gabiafterhours

Gabriel good to have you good to have you on Show starting yeah this is I love it great I love that you brought a shrine with you dude I this is fantastic I'm a naughty boy and our lady has to keep a short leash on me because loose lip sink ships as they say yeah I've nearly been sunk by my own loose slips multiple times but it's really nice to have you thanks for having me it's an honor to be here I think the first time I ever saw you you were giving a talk and it was on YouTube and this must have been I don't know maybe 10 years ago even and I just remember remember thinking that you were very much like Jason Everett do you know Jason yes people used to tell me that you're like the young Jason Everett and then I would respond he's like the old me yeah but um there's like a you have this sort of stabil you seem to have because I don't know you you seem to have a sort of stability in your spiritual life that seems very constant in the kind of devotions you promote and talk about and engage in and the two of you seem very devoted to Our Lady it's a big compliment I love Jason every dear friend it the thought came to me that you have to maintain the charism of the founder he's not my founder in any way shape or form but he was influential in my life when I was in college one with the Chastity stuff but what stood out to me the most from him was he was giving a talk to teens and he told them my spiritual director his spiritual director told him that to do a talk without first making a holy hour would be an act of Pride and so that for me stood out I was like oh my gosh I better do a daily holy hour if I want to impact lives and then he also wor the Miraculous Medal as a sign of his consecration to Mary so I wear the Miraculous Medal and people like hey Gabe you're the Miraculous Medal guy Jason was The Miraculous Medal guy first you were inspired by him yeah that's beautiful the first time I ever met Jason ett was in an adoration Chapel because I flew to England I was living in Ireland at the time and he was giving a big chassity talk and he you know they do a holy hour every day and they also visit the Blessed sa before he would talk just for a short amount of time so that's funny that that's where I met him what a great reputation I met you in front of the Lord yeah yeah so that's good and then I've just been noticing your videos they're so beautifully done and I obviously saw the one you did with Tammy Peterson recently so thanks for all the work that you're doing it's it's truly the fruit of the message so I've got a message that I promote and it has been the fruit from the very beginning the very first time we hit record just sitting in my car to large scale Productions have you always been involved in uh production no not at all everything I learned I learned watching YouTube okay yeah I literally started out with a phone and so mother and Angelica as you know she was very big on if God is calling you to do something do it and he will provide the means after the fact sometimes but so yeah we literally I have no background in anything other than I got a degree in theology so all the stuff that takes place in your channel like the beautiful testimonials and all that are you the main guy who's setting up the lights that's the crazy thing people think that we have a production team it is literally just me I have an assistant like her position is literally assistant to youth ministry director okay like that is her full-time job and she just helps me with editing she helps me set stuff up so like this is like yeah garage we make it look polished it does it looks excellent so you were youth Minister then yes youth Minister fulltime okay in Houston in Houston one of the biggest parishes in Sugarland okay yeah and we've got a great great Community yeah you you probably know I got married there and live there for a little bit yes I think were you at St Anthony of pada in The Woodlands she my wife used to be there I met her and when and she was working at St Thomas Moore Oh wonderful oh St Thomas Moore yeah I don't if you know Annie Hickman yes I know wow what a small world sometimes I go to adoration at St Thomas Moore yeah incredible holy wonderful stuff so how did you get into the faith are you uh I mean you and I are the same age right people will think I'm 10 years older but that's not true no no no no you AG great seriously but um you how did you I mean my my conversion I was 17 but what about I was raised by my mom single parent only child my mom did the best that she could but she had to take two jobs so most of my life I was a latchkey child which is you know 50% of the country today I was raised by MTV um I was deeply impacted by a terrible television show called sex in the90s okay and so it was giving me all of cuz I not having a father not knowing anything about sexuality not knowing anything about the meaning and the purpose of my life it was saying sex Freedom all these lenti activities and so that was my mindset through high school um fortunately my mom did a good job in Sheltering me and not giving me money or freedom to go to parties so that kind of like closed me in a little bit and I did very good academically and so I received a very large scholarship to go to the University of St Thomas in Houston and there the philosophy and the intro to theology really open my eyes to the truth of the Catholic faith intellectually so I was like that's why concupisent I get it that's why I'm so messed up that's why I make my mom cry that's why I ruin all the relationships that I really care about it's because I have a disordered inclination to do bad stuff that makes so much sense but I wasn't converted uh in my heart and so a lot of my classmates I hung out with the best of the bad kids and the worst of the good kids so they were like not horrible but they weren't good they weren't good but they weren't terrible they were like doing drugs and alcohol and things like that but that's what you know many college kids were doing and they were going into the rcia program to receive the Sacrament of Confirmation and so I was like these guys are barely Catholic and they're getting confirmed I want to get what they're getting because I I believe this stuff intellectually so I can do the same stuff and receive the sacraments I had no so you were in college you hadn't yet been confirmed no I had not so I made my first communion when I was in the eth grade and then after that I never went back to church it was just kind of like a formality check the box you know make my my grandmother had passed away and she had mentioned that that was important to her before she died that I make first communion but other than that the only prayer I knew was like a superstitious prayer to St Jude that all Mexicans seem to have and my mom thinks where she says that she's Mexican are you okay exactly yeah so I don't know like I my skin is white my mom's skin is white but she speaks in Spanish okay and uh ansers the phone in Spanish so I think she thinks for Mexican love you Mom I mean your is your grandparents from me Co our family tree is very shady okay everybody that I've ever met looks really white except for my mom's sisters which look very mexic I have no idea what I am to be honest with you I don't even want to do 23 in me because I don't know what's going to come out okay yeah yeah so I went on a retreat through the campus ministry and I didn't know anything about the Eucharist I didn't know anything about Eucharistic adoration and they're like we're going to go do a holy hour with Jesus and I'm like all right what do you mean by that I don't want to look like an idiot what are we going to be doing he's like we're just going to sit there and look at Jesus like like a picture of Jesus what are we looking at no the Eucharist I was like that little circle yeah that's Jesus I was like no yeah that's Jesus I was like so what do I do when I go in there and there was a philosophy Professor his name is Dr reard he said you just go in there and repeat the Holy Name of Jesus it's like for an hour it's like yeah so I went in there for about 10 minutes I just repeat the Holy Name of Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus and then about 10 minutes in in a warmth came over me and I heard an interior voice say my son be quiet and I was like oh no Jesus Jesus Jesus Jesus like stop talking I like Jesus Jesus and in an instant it was as if the Finger of God touched my soul and my heart was like a rock and everything inside of my heart melted and I just started balling and weeping and this was before the passion came out and I was having so I didn't have this in my mind before I was having what I didn't know was like a moment of mental prayer where I was visualizing scenes from the passion Jesus looking at me in the face telling me how much he loved me how much I was loved and I was just balling for like 45 minutes straight non-stop afterwards people were like are you okay like is everything all right like that it's not normal you're like sobbing like hard like a little bit of crying this was like ugly crying like get this guy out of here he's a distraction and I just I just kept repeating I was like that's really Jesus like God is really there but and so I became radically Eucharistic like I would spend every day in the church but I didn't stop sinning like I was still so I became a Eucharistic Minister and I didn't know better at the time I wouldn't do that now but I was become Eucharistic Minister giving out Holy Communion and then I would go and commit public mortal sins like every night cuz I was just like I was living two different lives and the campus Minister an amazing amazing sister she'd previously given me a brown scapular cuz she told me that I was on the highway to hell and I was like sister is this how you start conversations she's like when I see somebody who's on the highway to hell sometimes I have to say hard things was she at St Thomas mo at St Thomas un she was one of the sisters is it the one with the black veil thing and yes yes yes and the long brown simple habit with like a a cross that's two nail she came up to you and said you're on the highway to hell yes spicy sister because she was spicy but I loved it I loved it there was there was a like a talent show and it was for campus ministry and I went up and told a dirty joke during the talent show and she was like super offended by this and so when after I had this major conversion she saw the changes in me she saw that I was Eucharistic Minister she also saw that I was living a life that is not compatible with Catholicism and it was around lent and everybody in campus ministry was like what are you giving up what are you giving up and I was like I don't know you know I was like doing the typical chocolate soda thing and she said how about you give up sin Gabriel how about you stop sinning mortally and publicly that would be how did she know you were doing this because everybody knew I was well you going to parties I was going to parties I was it was just very obvious it was like I was I had girlfriends it was just very obvious that I like public displays of affection um and did she say this to you in front of other people I don't remember I just remember her face in my face telling me give up sin for Lent now because of your pride were you offended by that or did you feel Lov no I was shocked shocked yeah I wasn't offended at all um when somebody she confronted me with the truth but I had never thought about it I thought that it was okay it was really strange circumstance so that day I said I'm not going to sin for Lent and I went home and if this was a cartoon it would say 2 hours later and I had looked at pornography and committed AR sin within 2 hours of making a very very very firm resolution that that's what I was going to do and so that night I recognized I have a problem I've been sinning my entire life not because I want to like I I really didn't want to and I did I have no control and so I had a moment I guess of true Contrition and I was in my room and I was crying like a hard cry and begging God for mercy God have mercy I me I'm a poor sinner I'm a slave I didn't know that was a slave help me and when I said that in my prayer I heard the exact same words repeated back to me audibly from a diabolical voice and it was like it was it was a very high pitch screeching mocking insulting and I don't know where it came from but immediately I said St John viani pray for me I have no idea where that came from I had no Devotion to St John viani maybe I had heard about him somewhere but it was like instinctual the moment that that happened voice goes away so the next day I was afraid to go home because you know I I audibly heard this this was not a mistake this was not an interior this wasn't like I felt guilty for sinning against the Lord I did feel guilty the night before but this was not like I was not dreaming this up so I went to campus ministry I got a pamphlet on the rosary um I went into my room I'd never prayed the rosary by myself before at that point I got on my bed and I just sat there and I was like opening this packet and I said all right how do you do this thing I believe so I believe in the second that I said I believe a force grab me by the throat pins me on the bed holds me down the room is like spinning in ice cold I try to scream for help but it's I'm being choked I could still breathe but I couldn't communicate cuz I was trying to yell for my mom in the other room to come and help me and I heard an interior voice say I believe it's my guardian angel now looking back on it pray and so I was like I couldn't pray and he said pray the hail and I was like I couldn't say the words and finally the interior voice was like and this all happened within like it feels like an eternity but it was like a 10-second like lock down say it in your head and so I got the words in my head Hail Mary and internally when I said those words I felt like a a release and then so I said it audibly hey Mary and the words Mary left my lips the presence left the room I came back to and after that I was freaked out and so I got on the internet and I typed in Google you know demon choking you pornography masturbation careful that in yeah so and thanks be to God a website that doesn't exist anymore which I wish it still did because it was very helpful to me at the time called Padre poo Center for deliverance came up and then they use the language of do you have hooks in your life do you have intrinsically disordered things in your life that are entry points for this devil and they listed out you know bad movies bad books bad music new age books false god statues uh pornography all they they had a whole list of basically every possible mortal sin um and I was like yes yes yes yes yes yes yes yes and then my mom at the time she was very much into new age because she didn't have an authentic Catholic spirituality so she had Buddhist statues African little like faces uh elephants all over the house which apparently she just likes elephants that night she went to I went to bed I made a resolution all that stuff is gone out of this house so she went to work I took everything put it in a trash bag I took her statues smashed them in the front yard um it was not a pretty day when my mom arrived home the next day that is powerful wow yeah it changed me I was never the same after that I'm trying to think what I would do if something like that happened to me I yeah I mean did you speak to trusted friends or about it and I talked to another sister I I think part of me would be afraid that I was overreacting or imagining it or just got sort of emotional and a sort of prayer experience of course what you're describing is far beyond emotional and somebody tried to tell me oh you had sleep paralysis I was like I was standing straight up something was holding me down trying to get in my chest yeah and I said the name of Mary and I don't have a relationship with her and it went away in an instant yeah like instantaneously and so I told this sister who's I think deceased God bless her uh sister meline Grace about everything that had happened she's very famous at the University of St Thomas as not as like being strict all these strict good holy women um she's like you did the right thing she's like you did the right thing if I was living in your house I would have burned and trashed all of those things I she was like just deal with the the punishment and but then this is was the greatest blessing of my life like I I don't say it out loud but in a way the devil saved my soul because one I saw that this is all real yeah I saw the power of the Virgin Mary the power of the Virgin Mary is so great that a mortal sinner years of mortal sin and I had had that demon of lust I I believe it was a demon of lust I don't know for sure I'd had that since I was probably in middle school and I had never known it I'd never realized it I thought that I was just doing what would make me happy and with just saying the holy name of Mary I was freed and not only that but I was given the opportunity to see that I was a slave and I needed help and I had to again this website was very helpful cuz it said if you're going from Darkness to light you must go completely all the way in Into the Light everything about you must be christocentric rooted in Christ the music you listen to the programs you watch the art in your home everything must belong to Christ or the devil will not leave you and so that started a journey of fighting against mortal sin I ended up changing my major I was doing very bad in my theology courses that were required like I think I took intro to Sacred scripture three times because I failed twice or got a D's in it and then all of a sudden after that moment all my theology grades went from D's and Fs to hundreds and the theology where before it was so foreign to me um was like second nature just all made sense which is the Catholic faith just makes sense so I wouldn't even take notes in theology class anymore because it was I was just absorbing it and it was making a huge impact on me and the Lord through Divine Providence he would put the best spiritual books that I needed at the time like I had no I had no history in spiritual Classics like I ran into the story of his soul by St TZ I ran into the life of Anthony by St acius uh one that was profoundly impacting was the practice of the presence of God by Brother Lawrence which is like like the essence of all H I just reread it last week it's gold like and I come back to that I'm like why do I ever make things so more complicated than they really are um so that and then I came across the biography of Mother Angelica which was who wrote that one by Raymond D yes it's excellent oh my gosh I read the audio book is fenomenal Go download life hack audio book that it is really worth it and people love Mother Angelica for the things that she provided on her program I love her for the way she did it I love her for the way she did it so she provided for me a living concrete example of a person who's alive today who acted in Faith who did not follow conventional wisdom who saw Christ as a person who was journeying with her asking her to make difficult decisions and she did them she did them even though it didn't make sense even though the church was against her even though her friends were against her even though her family was against her and God provided because she thought she was doing God's Will and God's not going to lead anybody astray that I read that book like six times but one chapter in particular really really stood out to me cuz I love the University of St Thomas I love it my my Priestly professors incredible they formed me to think very very powerfully I've got a very analytical mind great but there's a chapter in that book where Mother Angelica is confronted by this priest who actually also lived in Houston for a time his name is Father Robert de Grandy he very big in the charismatic renewal very charismatic priest and on a regular basis he would pestor Mother Angelica kind of pray over you mother and she would always say no I I don't need the Holy Spirit I was baptized received the sac of Confirmation and so week after week he would constantly come back and she would constantly say no no no but on one occasion she said if you will just leave me the you know what alone and I let you pray over me can you just bug off and so he said oh yeah I just want to pray mother I just want to pray and so he prayed over her and nothing happened and a couple days later she was in her room reading the Gospel of John and a sister comes into the room and when they say mother dinner's ready she speaks in a foreign tongue and she can't stop speaking in a foreign tongue so she just covers her mouth and then from that day forward there was a fire in her that although she was a faithful woman that she didn't have previously and that when she read the scriptures and and she's very famous for reading the scriptures in a way that the common man can uh comprehend and feel like if you're there from that day forward her love for scripture her Zeal and her confidence in the Holy Spirit was never the same so I was like I want that I want that I want a living faith cuz no offense again my my priest Nemo quod non habit they they teach you a lot of things like you cannot give what you do not have they didn't have a fire and a spark that I was feeling like from the gospels Christ wanted he said I've come to set the world on fire and how I wish it was already blazing you're going to do greater things in my name and everywhere I was going it felt like those things don't happen anymore but in the life Mother Angelica I saw that they were happening so I wanted that so I asked my friends I was like hey you guys want to go with me to the charismatic Center and they're like heck no dude those people are possessed are you crazy I hear they cast out demons over there and they don't even use the name of Jesus they they were acting like what I was suggesting was absurd and mad so one night I got the courage to go to the charismatic Center Companions of the Cross Companions of the Cross yes yes they're incredible I'm so glad we kind of run the circles yeah so what I what I witnessed there was people acting crazy there was a man running up and down the aisles praising the Lord there was an old woman in a wheelchair moving her wheelchair back and forth praising the Lord the homy lasted 45 minutes to an hour but the priest was crying and like on his heart was bleeding and he was begging people to repent of their sins and to come to Christ and and Just Surrender your burdens right now and come forward and so all and they were like put your hands in the A and I was like and I'm not that kind of guy so I was like nope not putting my hands up like s put your hands up I was like not going to do it you're not going to emotionally manipulate me you guys look like idiots but then the little voice inside my soul my conscience was like yeah but don't they act like they have faith don't they act like the gospel is real that the holy spirit is real that God is real and he keeps his promises and I was like yes fine I'm not putting my hands out but I'll open my heart a little bit to this cuz I was like freaked out especially cuz all my friends were saying they're crazy yeah so afterwards they were doing this like praying over each other healing service and I didn't have the courage to go up and there was an older gentleman and he was walking out and I like I I I stared this guy down hard I was like like trying to stare a hole into his soul and he he felt it like I was just like staring him down and he's walking down the aisle and he's like young man is everything okay I was like no he's like what's wrong I was like I need you to pray over me so that I can receive the Holy Spirit and as he was praying over me I had an awareness I have the Holy Spirit I've had the Holy Spirit I was baptized I received the Sacrament of Confirmation I'm in the State of Grace I have the Holy Spirit I don't need this but so that was my awareness then that God was wanting me to just give my entire life to himh and although I said to myself and I heard interiorly you have the Holy Spirit you've always had the Holy Spirit you just didn't want it bad enough I was different after that that night I went home For Better or For Worse Mom I'm sorry I went home and I convicted my mom of all the sins that she had been committed that she was away from the church for so long how did you do that and how did she receive it not well yeah nobody does but did no but not not just how did she receive it but did you did you share well with love do you think or uh I was too zealous yeah I've been there man but it worked so I don't know if I was too zealous exactly I I convicted her and I said I've been going to mass every day every Sunday by myself I went to Christmas Mass all by myself I went to Easter all by myself you're the only person I have in my life I need you to come to church with me and so she'd start going to church later I'm I'm a very strong man and we there was a lot of buding of heads but I will tell you my mom is probably the holiest woman I've ever met today I look at her and I'm so proud of her she goes to daily adoration she's like a rosary Warrior she's she fasts for me 48 hours straight no no food she she is a warrior mhm so I want to say I was too zealous I could have been more loving but I don't know that it would have worked and I did that with a lot of people in my life and it worked yeah I know it's it's a good point you bring up because I certainly in my early days of my conversion I was extremely zealous and if I could tell you a list of the things that would just sound crazy and which I wouldn't do today but I think it might be even my Pride that looks back and and winces kind of cringes at that whereas it's like no the Lord uses you in the moment with the amount of knowledge you have and and so yeah I mean I I I had similar experiences where I was proclaiming the Gospel at parties reading the gospel of Matthew to people that's crazy I love that yeah but and so as so is it like okay have I learned more or have I become more of a coward you know sometimes we just look back on our early days of enthusiasm and we think well that wasn't so prudent like well maybe or maybe I'm making excuses right now yeah I don't know I think in the we do the best we can in the present moment and then our Lord brings good out of it I was still struggling with mortal sin and thanks be to God there was a great priest at the University of St Thomas he's also passed his name was Father Kelly he looked like job of the Hut very large man very large he could not stand or walk and he had a very booming voice Mr and he'd call me Mr Garcia instead of Castillo he say Mr Garcia I want you to talk to me after class and then I'd go and i' go into his office he's like you need to go to confession I said excuse me he's like you're sinning and you're struggling with sin and I'm going to help you and I said all right and so I confessed I've looked at pornography I've committed solitary sin this many times he's like the next time you do that sin you come in here and you tell me and I said okay yes Father I will and he says and for your Penance you're going to pray Divine Mercy Chaplet and a Rosary for The Souls of those people that you watching degrade themselves and I said all right anything else he's like no and then I went to confession with him every single day for like a year I don't recommend people do that I don't think that's a good idea if people are struggling with pornography I do not because it can become a cycle yeah I do not recommend people go to confession every day I do not that's I just wouldn't recommend it this was a special case he was giving me counseling he was being a father to me a father that I didn't have um showing me the mercy of God the Father forgiving me seven times 70 times um and were you ever afraid as many people are that he'd just kind of get fed up with you no not at all this man had the heart of a father oh he was so good he was brutal and he was vicious and he even threatened one time to hit me in the private spot with a cane he said boy if you if you don't get an A on this test you're going to be singing soprano I was like what he's like I'm going to Rack you with my cane all right and what I found was that when I prayed the rosary I had a special strength and Temptation although it existed didn't impact me as much as it normally would and so it took me personally praying four rosaries a day for me to stay out of mortal sin is this back in college this is in college I never put two in two together I never put like the idea of this is the you know the rosary is our lady presented to Dominic was the Salter the 150 Psalms I never put any of that together it was just a period in my life where I recognized I don't want to sin anymore I'll do anything necessary and if that means dying four times a day to pray the rosary so be it I mean absolutely I mean you think about the amount people endure for bodily health or Fitness so to look well the amount they put themselves through they get up at 4 in the morning they have a cold shower they work out of the gym yes and so you're become a Mary's athlete and we live in such a a soft time where people will say that's too difficult and I love reading terresa of Avala because she's like the she's a doctor of prayer but she's also like a tough woman Teresa AA because she's like the she's a doctor of prayer but she's also like a tough woman and she said you find meditation difficult you find it dry and boring there's no way in God's green earth you would have made it at the crucifixion you're called to be a follower of Christ and sometimes that means taking up your cross and following him to difficult places and if you can't pray if you're going to quit on prayer are you a follower of Christ like these are her words and I'm like reading this I'm like whoa sister oh you're a tough woman I discern I I try to discern my vocation to the best of my ability I didn't this is back in a time this is like 2004 five there aren't as many resources so I just would go to the Blessed Sacrament and surrender my life and say Lord what do you want for me do you want me to become a priest I'll become a priest do you want me to become a teacher I'll become a teacher what do you want and one day very clearly I felt like he was saying I want you to become a teacher you have a spirituality that I want you to share with others and I said okay and so I focused my degree track on Theology and philosophy and I said Lord I'll give you three years like I've got I want to have a family if I'm going to be a a father if you're not calling me to the priesthood I need to be able to pay bills in Catholic school education except for very few churches the wealthy parishes don't really pay the bills especially I want to have a lot of kids if this is your your plan for me so I thanks be to God got a job at the best the wealthiest Catholic School in the arch dases of Galviston Houston the best top 1% in the entire world and I was thoroughly disappointed in myself because I was ineffective as a teacher I wasn't reaching them I my goal was I'm going to share with you what got me out this is the high school you're saying midd SCH seventh sixth through e8th grade I taught and so I thought I was going to go and I'm help these young kids to avoid the pitfalls that I had in high school I'm going to warn you I'm going to give you spiritual weapons and tools and for the first year and a half completely uneffective completely uneffective and I thanks be to God I don't know how it happened I do know how it happened it's a long story I went on a retreat for a religious community from the Philippines whose priest was purported to have gifts of reading Souls working miracles I don't want to say his name cuz he's not public right now um and I went on this Retreat and he was preaching a lot of things this was around the time before Benedict the 16th did the reform of the reform started giving communion kneeling down on on the tongue Etc this priest who happened to also have been I think a Canon lawyer under uh rotzinger at the time um was saying at this Retreat very private retreat don't receive communion on the hand for these reasons and he gave all these specific reasons about the particles about uh Lex Randi Lex credendi how you pray impacts what you believe impacts how you live um your union of a body and a soul United so things i' had never heard before uh he said receive Holy Communion kneeling down if you can because your posture impacts your disposition right and then I was like well I've got to go to confession because everything this guy is saying is true and he was saying you need to make a telling the community there you need to make a general confession I want you to confess everything you've ever done that you can remember from the Age of Reason and so I prepared for like two hours made a general confession balling the entire time because when you make a general confession which you shouldn't do regularly maybe like very few moments in your life you look at every mortal sin you've ever committed and so even if you've been going good for the past three or four years you look back at a lifetime of sin a lifetime of breaking people's hearts a lifetime of disappointment and failure millions of times maybe I don't know uh I was in tears and balling and the priest said you know you've heard a lot of people and I said yes Father I know he's like and that's making you feel guilty yes and I said yeah I feel really guilty about it he's like do you want to make up for it I said yes I'll do anything he said for one Year pray the entire rosary every single day for 365 days after that don't look back offer this in reparation for all the people you've hurt ask our lady to bring good out of all the mistakes you've ever made and don't look back so I was praying the rosary before but then it became a lifestyle for me um a rule of life and I didn't know that you know how much discipline is needed to make this a rule of life but then my teaching exploded really my students became like Saints literally I have documented Miracles that happened in the classroom where students were laying hands on other students who were deaf and heal healing of deafness all right now you need to explain this so what happened so I've got a lot of stories let's do the deaf one okay so when I started praying the rosary more I when you're praying a lot our lady begins to break through and speak to you so she began to make my lesson plans and she said to me in my again this is all interior I'm not having visions this is all common to every man the discernment of spirits she was saying to me what converted you I was like well you did and uh the Holy Spirit and how real he is and treat the gospel like if it's real and so she said so you make the kids write out a list of surrender of their entire life accepting the charismatic gifts as you believe that they are distributed and do that and so I gave these kids a list of surrender renouncing lies accepting Christ denouncing the dev and all these things and the most unsuspecting of all my students the quiet kid in the corner that nobody pays attention to and I'm embarrassed to say I didn't pay attention to him I barely even knew his name I know it now he came up to me after adoration one day and he said Mr C I was like yes he like Jesus told me to sing to him I said what he said yeah so I sung to him and I was like what and I was like what did it sound like and then he's like you want me to do it right now so he was talking about speaking in tongues okay I had a student whose mother worked in the school and she was partially deaf in one ear and losing hearing rapidly in the other ear so she was like at 75% no explanation bones some movement in the bone was closing off the hearing in her ears I should also add that as I began to to preach and teach uh our ladies will I began to have conflicts with Administration um the kids were wanting to go to confession weekly uh the kids were wondering why they only offered confession at their school once a week why does Father ask the kids to come to the altar to hold hands and sing and so there was like there was some why are all these eighth graders going up to communion with their arms crossed all of a sudden like out of nowhere so there was Catholic Education in the United States at this point was not prepared for authentic Catholicism or like a rich living of the sacraments unleashing the lion that is the teachings of the cathol Church in their fullness The Good the Bad and the Ugly so there was a lot of fire going around with this healing happened and one of the the student who was deaf her mom worked at the school and she had just told me at lunch that same day my daughter says y'all are doing some charismatic weird things in the classroom I don't want any of that stuff going on so it was kind of like oh dear Lord but anyways I'm not thinking that when this is happening so this young boy comes up to me and he says the Lord told me to sing to him and I'm like dude to sing to who the to the Blessed Sacrament he said he was singing the Lord told me to sing to him in in the chapel and I was like well sing to me now and then as he's saying that this young woman comes into the classroom and I said stop sing to her and I said and I'm not going to say her name even though I think she went to Franciscan actually uh I said come over here he's going to sing to you and so he's like what do I do I was like I don't know dude put your hands out or something cuzz I have seen this on the Trinity Broadcasting I had this charismatic and so he his out and then he like but then he like starts shaking and vibrating violently that he's holding the chair he's like Mr C help me and I said dude what I'm like not a teacher at this point I'm like what the heck is happening man he's like I feel like electricity is flowing through me this is eighth grade in between classes this girl is like her eyes are as big as like silver dollar and the bell rings I was like dude go to class afterwards the young woman is sitting in the back and I talk to her I was like like I'm so sorry did you feel anything I was like he said he was going to sing I'm sorry I don't know what he was doing if that was weird for you I I want to apologize please don't tell your mother I was just trying I was just trying how did you interpret what just happened cuz I recognize now how imprudent it might have been especially for me academically I might lose my job over this right and so she's like well it was beautiful I was like what she's like the singing was so beautiful I was like I didn't hear any singing and she's like I did it sounded like Angels were singing and I was like wait a second can you go stand over there in the corner to clarify this is the de go this is the deaf girl so I was like can you go stand over there in the corner and I'm going to say left or right and I'm going to turn around and you you turn around knew she was de yes yes cuz I I felt like she was going to be healed somehow I didn't know how it was going to happen I didn't know about to lick my finger and stick my finger in her ear to I would I I thought about it I'm telling you I was like the gospels are real let's see I'm Not Jesus but darn it he is and he can do this and so I would be like so she turned around she would raise her right hand left hand be like left left left right left left and this is across the room the same volume that I'm speaking in and then I was like you should go see your mom and then and did she realize at this point that she'd go to hearing back I think she was starting to freak out a little bit this is right after class she was in my home room at the end the day she walks down the hallway she's all the way at the other end of the school in the same hallway I turn around I stick my head out the the door and I say I'm not going to say her name I said her name and she turns around and I just said it in a low voice and she turns around and I said you can hear and then her mom heard this coming she comes out of the classroom in tears and she said you healed my daughter I said I didn't touch your daughter Brandon did exactly and she said you facilitated the healing of my daughter I was like that was all the Lord and we had moments like this kids were having visions one kid was saying that he was praying and and he felt like a fire was burning up the school and I was like what did you interpret that as that sounds pretty bad was that a good thing or a bad thing he's like no because people were worshiping God in this fire and they were happy and I was like wow this is incredible but the administration real quick yeah ear woman that's what we're going to call her and and oh let me tell you so that was Friday the next day she comes back she had a medical exam on Monday and the doctors claimed they have no idea how but the bones moved back to where they were at originally that's so cool dude wow wild so what I mean did this get around the school did people hear about this and what about those who were sort of against it was this weird charismatic stuff you were doing how did they the thing this is the thing is I was too charismatic for the traditionals and I was too traditional for the charismatics I was doing both and I was telling the kids I was teaching them well you can to receive and I wasn't letting boys I wasn't letting girls be alter servers I was saying having the girls do the readings I I distributed to them Chapel veils I was talking about everything everything that's in the catechism that an eighth grader needs to know and so although the Miracles were great and we were having prayer sessions afterwards I got a message and this is all no offense but you can only blame the man at the top um it's just a different generation of priests good priests men who stepped up when nobody else was becoming a priest but they're just a generation of I don't want to say Boomers um just a generation of men who are soft and aren't stepping up to be a sacrificial father for the sake of the sheep um and so the vice principal whom I loved and loves me her son became a priest had to come and say father says you can't do this anymore what like what pray I was like you can't pray anymore he like yeah this is not a Healing Ministry and I said all right we won't and then more run-ins with Father where they said you can't talk and I I I have the paperwork I I saved all the documents you're not allowed to talk about mortal sin you're not allowed to talk about purgatory you're not allowed to talk about hell you're not allowed to talk about human sexuality you're not allowed to give out sacramentals you're not allowed to XY what what what am I what am I is there anything I'm left to do you can say God is nice and he likes you right and so they hired uh a teacher to sit in my classroom cuz it was it was the kids were loving it the kids were loving it the parents were loving it it was it was just something all right so I I can see there being an argument for why you might want to dial back the charismatic stuff because that can get really weird really quickly yeah uh like all humans especially when you bring emotion into it in any respect it can get weird so I I guess I could see an argument for especially if maybe there was weird stuff happening there wasn't no there wasn't by weird stuff I don't mean inappropriate stuff I just mean people getting carried away no no we're just praying over each other like the kids would I wouldn't touch the kids the kids would pray over each other and then they would but that was really the low like the charismatic stuff wasn't the bigger issue so like the promoting of the Rosary promoting of frequent confession that was the thing yeah so I got called in so they H they hired a woman to sit in my classroom whom I love and she converted she started being more fervent praying the Rosary every day it was it was it was just God's Providence it was the Lord's will the Lord was showing me everything I say everything I learned about evangelization I learned teaching Middle School everything I Learned was in Middle School so they put her in the class to sort of monitor you to monitor me yeah that's going to be awkward for you it was great it was the best thing that could have ever happened to me one of the best things a lot of because I had somebody over my shoulder and I had to weigh everything that I said which was very stressful and left me very very cynical afterwards because this was my only cuz I hadn't been C before so I didn't have a spiritual father at a parish I did not grow up with priests around me so it it made me sad and depressed and dark feeling because I said man everything that Mother Angelica said about the church in the United States in the 60s and 70s was true like these men don't they're not they're good they stepped up they're offering the sacraments when nobody else would but there's more to be done and they don't want to change to the establishment they're very much like the Pharisees when Jesus showed up I'm not I'm not saying that that I'm just saying when authentic Catholicism like the True Religion shows up and they just didn't want anything to do with it and so they called me into the office even though I love the principal I love the vice principal I love the the woman who is with me at that uh throughout this time we became such good friends um they one of the questions he said is like did you really say that when you die you're going to regret not having prayed the Rosary every day I said yeah absolutely because when you pray the rosary you're saying pray for me now and at the hour of my death think of the thousands of hail mares that are going to come to help you at that moment just one Rosary a day and he said I would never say that and I said yeah I wouldn't say that either well and but I told we can go back and forth about that if want yeah we'll talk about that later um and then he said you're gone I said I I responded I was like well father maybe you should say that maybe you should be concerned with people's Eternal salvation yeah and he says you don't have a I was going to offer you your job back but you're done here and so but it's not bad cuz if that didn't happen I wouldn't be doing what I'm doing right now so when did that happen this happened in 2009 yeah and so a lot of my students were converted deeply deeply praise the Lord converted and their parents because of it were also converted and so they took their money out of the school and reached out to the neighboring pastor and said this is what happened we will pay for him to work here for an entire year so I came across these Steve Jobs videos and they were old Steve Jobs before he invented the iPhone before he invented these other you say you don't mean he's your actual friend I have a problem people that I think about a lot or Saints that I talk to a lot sure I will say they're my friend that's okay all right so these videos from Steve Jobs so one in particular he said when you recognize that the world is made up of people who are no smarter than you and know better than you and that the way we do things for the most part is simply because somebody who wasn't as smart as you thought that that's the way you should do it and when you recognize that and you realize that if you push in on the world something's going to come out on the other end if there's something you don't like if there is a change that you want if there's an end that you want you have the ability to impact it and change it and at the same time this worldly thought was entering my mind about the state of the church and Benedict the 16th at that time that's when he started giving out Holy Communion kneeling down and on the tongue that became something very passionate about mine um our lady in the rosary became very passionate for me um and so I recognize that the number one way to make impact on the world is through the media that the church has failed by and large to be in the media to do it well to make it free just like the Church of old in the Renaissance times we're known for the most beautiful art the most beautiful music and all of history came from Catholics and now it seems as if too many people are afraid to be on the front lines to use the technology that God has made available through good men or bad men it doesn't matter the technolog is available and so that um led me to begin to dream about and pray about and discern again all of this is the fruit of praying the rosary mental Clarity um little tuggings on the heart there I came across uh a film contest I'd never made films before there was a film contest called the goodness Reigns film contest it was to go to uh World Youth Day in Spain in 2011 and they had a lot of money people give a lot of money to a lot of things you should give your money to Matt frad and to myself just because we're reaching a lot of people you got to support good Ministries so I came across this contest that had a lot of money involved and they had various film categories sacramental life moral life all these categories and so I had been a really big fan of St John bosow his life was very miraculous and my and so I had heard of a story about how he had been in the confessional and he had a line full of boys who hadn't been in the confessional and they weren't coming in to go to confession and so John bosow offers a prayer to the Lord Lord why are these boys not coming to confession and the devil appears to him and says well there's three traps that I use to keep boys from coming to confession and then he goes on to these traps or whatever right and so I was like this would be a great short film this be great cuz I've got you know I've got a camera it's a long story story but God help me so when my wife and I got married I told her that God was calling me to make movies and she said sounds great you have no money I said if the Lord gives us $6 to $8,000 I'm going to use that to buy a film camera and she said great if the Lord gives you $6 to $8,000 be my guest so at our uh reception we're at the Double Tree Hotel it's a very famous event we call it the Double Tree event everybody got food poisoning and the hotel offered me specifically $8,000 you're kidding no I'm not kidding hey this is it your wedding the reception the reading reception yeah everyone got food poisoning your reception except yeah everybody was had diarrhea and vomiting out they're shooting out of both ends I mean how was your honeymoon we didn't have one yeah we didn't have one cuz my wife almost died she like I found I came home from school that day you could have got so much more money my wife I love you I'm sorry that mad and I talking about how much money we could have gotten if you died no I don't mean that I don't mean that I mean the fact that you nearly died you I know but my wife doesn't like suing people no I I don't either and I'm glad you go so that's amazing so how do they this is amazing dude I'm telling you this is like crazy story after crazy story so I I had $8,000 so I had a film how did they did they write to you call you they called me because a lot of people went on the news and they're like please get out don't go on the news protect us don't tell anybody I like sure I won't tell anybody next on pints with the coinus talks about getting food poisoning just kidding yeah no 8 Grand is nothing that's nothing yeah I didn't know I was a kid sure and I spent $8,000 on a camera in 2007 which the cameras aren't like today all the suffering of that diarrhea and vomiting go you the camera but so I had this film camera to do this film contest and I'd never filmed anything with it besides family videos and this is like one of these shoulder cams yeah so I I win the contest hands down easy I should say oh gosh so I made the kidss parents sign a waiver about film and photo I said okay boys this is what I'm doing you go in there and you pretend like you're confessing I'll pretend like I'm the priest and I'm pretending like I'm absolving you I'm filming myself Etc so I won the contest is this video online yeah it's called can we inter splice it here please do yeah I'll send you the link all right and so I win the contest my pastor calls me into the office and says Gabriel I saw that film you made next time one ask me two please don't rub your hands all over the confessional screen cuz I I don't know what the priest does on the other side so I'm like may God absolve in the name of the father and the son what a line please don't rub your hands all over the confessional I said I know father but I asked I'm sorry I'm asking for Mercy instead of uh permission oh yeah so I won the I won the the prize money was now what about filming these boys in line I had I had I had the waiver signed yeah yeah but did their parents get upset after that no they didn't care they were they were thankful are you proud of the film how how long ago was that little it's really good actually I think that you could show it to a group of high school students today and if they watch it they'll go to confession wow it's not so much the quality now what are you having these boys confess no they pretending they're just pretending oh you don't hear them speaking don't there's no words right but I pretend to be the devil over their shoulder Whispering ah this and that oh murder all these just made up sense um some of them boys might have committed um so I win the film contest I win $4,000 because I need a new camera because it's not F poisoning money but it's not bad no it it because now the technolog wor mirorless cameras so I see you're using mirrorless cameras you know that the the size is much smaller the quality is through the roof and then the owner of the company of the film contest company says I know I promised you $4,000 but we really need you to come to Spain and I said not coming I need the money and she said please please just come to Spain I was like I'm taking the money and she said was like their alternative gift or something yeah you could either go to world youth day or you could take the $4,000 cash prize and I said how about this I will go to Spain if you give me the money and she said fine but can you do some films can you do some documentaries and then maybe how to make videos which I had no experience in making videos at this point just this camera was totally automatic that I was using prior again I have to reiterate all of this is the fruit of praying the Rosary all these crazy ideas are the fruit of praying the rosary I I can take no credit I am a bad sinful boy from Houston Texas with a single mom not raised in the church like I have to reiterate this because it sounds crazy so I go to Spain go to world youth they absolutely hated it I almost died I I I will tell you a story that almost died in Brazil at World youth day also but no offense God bless World youth day it's wonderful everybody should go to world youth day however however I did not like it it just seemed too many people and they made it sound like they made it sound you're going to see the pope what do you mean you almost died though well we'll talk about we'll talk about it in Brazil cuz I literally had a gun to my head in the Brazil World youth day so I go to world youth day I have a miserable time because it's hot there's thousands of million almost a million people in a small town There's no way on God's green earth you're going to see the Pope I actually did get really close to him it's crazy long story I really did I told them that I was the press and so they gave me a press they didn't want to give me a press pass at first but then I was just standing there and a guy was like what are you doing here I was like and he's like press photographer I said see he gave me a press pass so I got to go on a bus all right so the reason I'm telling you this story so on Sunday night it was like 5:00 at night I hadn't gone to mass yet and the only church that had mass that evening was the church where St Dominic was baptized so I went to mass there after Mass I was praying before a statue of the Virgin Mary and take this with a everything I tell you that I hear or discern take it all with a grain of salt it doesn't matter I heard interiorly felt very strongly a strong tug of St Dominic saying You must preach the rosary you must promote the rosary and it was an understanding that I have tools available to me right now that were not available prior we have the we have the ability to touch Souls all over the world I must promote the rosary I must study the rosary I must study it I need to know every word I need to know the history of every mystery I need to know the history of the Rosary I need to know everything about it because if this came from God if this came from the mother of God and she's promoted it at Lords she promoted it at Fatima she promoted it at aita she if if the church have said this happened and the mother of God left her throne and broke into human history it's because it's perfect and you need to convince people and convict people and if you do Souls will be saved and yours will be saved in the process this was wasn't a long story that he told me it was like an instant absorption an instant understanding and it was so strong that I for for a long time I thought I was in front of a statue of St Dominic that it was so overwhelming that it was St Dominic um so I come back and I have my mission I have my mission and so I started making videos on the rosary on marry and de devotion and everything on my channel I'll be very very clear and transparent everything on my channel is to get you to love Mary and pray the rosary more I'm posting people's testimonies I'm posting lives of the Saints only so that I will get more subscribers so I know how to make videos that reach hundreds of thousands of people I've done it I I can take an average person from the pews have them give their testimony nobody's ever heard of them and that video get 200,000 views I've seen some of them just random people unbeliev random people but that's not my goal my goal is to get you watch the videos on the rosary and so the videos that I care about only get 20,000 views but but that's what I love that's why I'm doing this so the more of those big videos I make the larger the collection of people that I can bring to that no longer is it 20,000 maybe now it's 24,000 or 25,000 or 26,000 so every video is only a stop Gap to promote the marry and devotion and it's and it's not devotion it's science it's it's science it's it's theology um that Mar's fastest quickest most effective means to Jesus Christ and if you do what she wants you'll do God's will in the easiest best most effective Manner and quick questions I want to throw at you because I know we have hit me come on I've been talking a lot you need to you need to hit me no it's all been excellent believe me I'd be interrupting you if if if I was bored but I'm not it's fascinating everything you're saying but I know we have a lot of protestant good willed men and women who watch this so I got a quick questions I want to throw at you and just have you answer them quickly going the Catholics worship Mary can I can I give you the the real problem the problem is that they don't understand Christianity they don't understand wow I was trying I was trying I was trying to give you a you I'm I'm helping them I'm helping them cool they don't understand Christianity why did christ come he didn't come to save me yes he yes okay yes he did come to save me for my sins yes he did come so that I can go to heaven but to be honest with you that's very shallow Jesus came to make me like God mhm God became a man so that I could become like Christ all the promises of the New Testament Jesus says you will do greater things than me I have come to set the world on fire I have to leave you so that the holy spirit will come upon you and then you're going to do these things you're going to have the life of God in you the fathers say God became a man so that man can become like God the essence of Christianity is that you become like Christ we receive the Eucharist so that you become like Christ you go to heaven because you are one with Christ if that's that is Christianity that is Christianity Holiness deification theosis that is Christianity when you understand Christianity that Jesus isn't to Shield me from the father Jesus is to make me Christ and his will is so intimate so personal that he has a plan for every single individual and he will reveal it to you in the moment at every moment if you so desire for him to do so and when you do his will it is no longer God who lives it's no longer you who lives but it is God who lives in you if you simply did God's will Jesus said it's not those who say you know father father who are we're going to enter the kingdom of God but only those who do the will of the heavenly father and so Jesus's goal is for me to become like Christ and so when you understand the goal is Union with Christ Holiness is Union with Christ then and only then do you understand Mary the role of the Virgin Mary yesterday today and tomorrow is to make Christ and so if I am one with Christ if I am a member of the body of Christ the mother of the head is the mother of the Body for me to love Mary is for me to become like Christ for me to sin is for me to become like Christ so if you have a problem with Mary your problem is really about Christ's goal for Christianity because for me to say Mary you're my mother is simply to be a member of the body of Christ and the goal of the Virgin Mary is not to steal from Christ is to make me like Christ so by loving Mary so there's three steps I love Mary makes me like Christ I spend time with Mary I I begin to resemble my parent just as Christ resembled his mother and finally her only desire is by the power of the Holy Spirit to form Christ in the womb St Augustine said that there is no saint in heaven that was not made a saint by the hands of the mother of God she is absolutely essential do you know where he says that St Louis de monford quotes it in the book The Secret of Mary in like within the first 20 Pages yes and it's true if if you're in heaven if you're a saint it's I just wonder if that's an accurate quote Oh it's it's I don't know if it's ACC Austin I don't know if it's accurate but it's true yeah in all all the great agree I I'm with you I agree that it's true and uh sorry sorry Protestant friends I didn't mean to hit you with a two by4 no that's okay and I'm sure a lot of them will appreciate your candidness and yet I think they have from their background from their sort of they they look at us and like you've been talking about Mary for the last hour now it sounds like maybe you should be emphasizing Christ more I'm telling you this CU this is what all the comments say on all the videos me I I can't get enough of this I know and I I trying to change the trend I'm trying to stop being sorry for my mother amen I'm sorry I'm not sorry for my mother I'm not I'm not playing games the problem isn't us the problem is you you don't know what worship is and you don't know what Christ is what you do on Sunday might be praising the Lord but is not a sacrifice of worship I appreciate that I really like that yeah that's good we got to be stronger and and we're going to win she's a mediatrix of every Grace we we we'll talk about that I got I got Co right there will to I love that man but um you know I I always like when I talk about the Blessed Virgin Mary to begin with what de monford says at the of true Devotion to Mary tell me um and I share this not for your benefit but for those who are watching I love him he feeds me is that I don't I I think he's fine you know you have some saints you're like I know objectively you're great and the problems with me I just don't get you yes I've got a lot of saints like that yeah so he's kind of like that for me but you know he says that Mary is less than an atom or nothing at all compared to he who is yes so I'd like to begin with that it's like if I was talking to a Muslim and they misunderstood the Trinity and thought I worship three Gods I would Begin by explaining what I don't mean what I'm not saying and once they believe me when I say no I'm not saying this for Gods you have you have to understand that and they go okay I understand it then I can talk sort of effusively about the Trinity poetically about the Trinity likewise when talking to a Protestant friend I think it's important to realize we don't worship Mary we don't think Mary's God she's merely a creature God and this is the other thing Lou monford says has no absolute need of her never not then not now says the same yeah yeah so now that if you agree that if you believe that I'm being honest now let me speak effusively bledy that's a l of Protestants are drawn to drawn to theary drawn to and Dev but they're a little nervous about it because they've been told that attention to the Blessed Virgin Mary Devotion to the Blessed Virgin Mary would somehow be offensive to Christ I always start all my major talks to Catholics as well nailing down the true Jesus Christ like you got to start from Christ his goal is to make you one with him and and then I go through scripture the Book of Genesis God the father says to the serp I'm going to put a war I'm going to put emnity between you and the woman he doesn't say between The Serpent and the man he specifically says the woman and then if you go and of course you all know this you go to the Book of John at the tree of life the cross it's the man and the woman and then you go to the Book of Revelation the dragon goes off to make war against the woman not against Christ directly he attacks Christ he attacks the children of Mary through Mary yeah if if we're honest if we're not being um if we're not trying to like uphold our team's side of the of the opinion and you're being true to what Christ really wants if if God loves me he wants to give me everything he wants to give me his body blood soul and Divinity he wants to forgive me he wants to give me infinite Mercy he wants to give me his complete presence and he loves me so much he's going to give me his very own mother and that this is the will of God the father and we see that at the wedding Feast of kaaa where John says there was a wedding Feast of kaaa and the mother of Jesus was there he does not say there was a wedding Feast of kaaa and Jesus was there and Mary was also there he says the mother of Jesus was there and Jesus was also there which happens on the seventh day The Book of John and the Book of Genesis it's a parallel so so it's it's all there if people have the courage to to scratch and they look at Catholicism with unbiased eyes and without fear and without taking a look at the current state of the church they will find God's church and they will find the great plan that God has for them to make them like God now one thing I appreciate about the work that you do is that you don't tend to get embroiled in ecclesial politics or what Pope Francis just said I I actually am open to people discussing these things I I'm very open to it uh especially I mean it's hard to do well but I think there's Pro there's way more people leaving the church today than there are joining the church today and and I think a lot of this has to do with the confusion around the Liturgy with Pope Francis yes weak Bishops with heretical Bishops bad people like me who represent the church um poorly um and yet you don't you don't get embroiled in that and I I want to I'm temp I'm tempted to but I feel like my special calling is to bring everybody to Mary and Mary is the road that leads to the heart of God straight away and so if I were to comment on Pope Francis on you know any any of the current topics I would unnecessarily close people off to marry because they would say I'm not listening to him because he's too TRD I'm not listening to him because he's too charismatic I'm not listening to him because he's against this person I'm not listening to him because he's for this person oh he likes that program I can't believe any good Catholic would like that program so I'm very opinionated and I'm very strong but I'm not going to do that on my channel Mary's Channel cuz it's not my channel I see it's Mary's Channel and I can't I can't I can't die so in the life of St John BOS there's a a story that at his judgment he saw I don't know this may be a dream he saw a large field of all the souls that he impacted and then his Guardian Angel took him to another field and said now look at all of these and he said who are these people these are the ones you could have saved had you only had faith and I don't want that to be my life where the Virgin Mary says to me if you only kept your mouth shut if you only didn't think that your opinion was so freaking important that you drove away my children so I want to I'm tempted to I'm very opinionated as you know um I just can't and thanks be to God she hasn't let me yet wow but I'll tell you whatever you want to know well wow yeah it's it's a wild time I here's what I've been realizing lately like you and I same age right so we grew up in the same church I know we had different times we came back to the church but it's almost like Catholics who grew up under the pontificate of John Paul II we have like a a memory of the church understanding of the church that those who are coming into it don't have it's it occurred to me recently I'm I'm teaching a class in ging Austria right now on love and responsibility none of these students were alive when John Paul II was the pope and so a lot of them don't have the same affection that we have or interest we have just you saying his name makes my heart pump I love him so much I remember when he died how it brought the world together to watch him die gracefully oh my gosh just the grace that was around my college campus at that time so power but I see I I think that Pope Francis is a divisive Pope I'll leave it at that but I I also think that I'm not sure what could bring us together now it feels like Satan is sifting us like wheat not just in the church but in culture in different religions you see this this conflict within groups within those religions things being so divisive now that I I think even if we had John Paul II elected to the throne today you'd find a lot of the same I don't think so so I agree but I disagree so our lady has a plan she's going to be the one that brings in Christ if she has somebody let's say let's say the next Pope is a mama's boy and he prayed fa an African continue I would love an African I'm not met an African that I don't love yes and let's say he was a mama's boy and he prayed the rosary our lady's a master strategist she has children all over the world that if this person whoever this Pope might be played his cards right he could change the world so so because of Technology I'm going to be completely candid I don't believe that there's any bishop or maybe maybe father Mike Schmid is doing it there's no Bishop who's properly utilizing the media the way they should if we had St Peter or any of the Apostles as our leader they would be all over the Internet St Paul would be all over the Internet he' be making the best like I should my my Bishop my Pope has the ability to talk to me directly I I don't need to hear from a third person party he has the ability to speak right into my home and to the lives of my children and if somebody did that effectively if somebody was an effective Communicator I would turn it on and say children listen to this man this is the leader of God's Church they're not doing it and I think I think he could do it I mean there are some there are some people who are clearly called not to use the internet I and I'm so thankful that many of them aren't and faithful Catholics I'm thankful that many of them aren't there's very few strong Catholic voices in the world well who do you think's doing a decent job I think Bishop bar does an excellent job think he does too people give him a hard time I love him I think he's doing great I think that they want him to be their savior but he's not their B well here's the thing I also think that no one can be the answer to everything except our Lord right and so your channel isn't going to appeal to certain people my channel is not going to appeal to certain people and that's okay we're all different organs in the body of Christ even online but just because someone isn't the answer to everything doesn't mean they're not the answer to something yes exactly and that's what I love that we talked about this before like there's different members of the body of Christ if you do what God's will is for you and I do what God's will is for me I'm the kidneys then together we're going to do incredible things yeah and I and I do I do believe that our L as Sin abounds Grace abounds all the more our lady has her people in place I really believe this she's not going to lose she's not a loser she never loses amen our lady a victory is one of her titles she does not lose the difficulty is is that our heroes aren't going to look like what we imagine just like Christ didn't look like this Grand General Victory to our lady looks like crucifixion MH and so she has her children all over the world waiting for her right moment and she's going to strike and she's going to win no doubt about it not to bring down the passion of this conversation bring it but it reminds me of Princess Leia aren't you a little small to be a stormtrooper like that the same way the same way that uh the hobbits took the the ring to Mount Doom yeah yeah it wasn't the Army outside the gate that won it they were necessary yeah no I love it because I think we often people who complain and I sometimes do about the failings of our leadership yes it's not like that alleviates us of the responsibility to do what we're all called to do you know if it is the case that the pope or the Bishops or the priests or whoever you look to for spiritual guidance and are disappointed by right is failing to Proclaim what needs to be proclaimed condemn what ought to be condemned okay well well they'll have to stand before God at judgment but that doesn't alleviate me of proclaiming what needs to be proclaimed and condemning what needs to be condemned so% in a way it's like well not a lot is going to be different right and this is why I am a big proponent of the Rosary mainly because every time we've had a situation like this in the world the Virgin Mary said pray the rosary that this will bring about the the revolution first happens in one's own heart when when she appeared to Dominic she said to him in this type of warfare the battering ram has been is now and forever will be the Angelic salutation the Cornerstone of the New Testament and I like the word battering ram because Jesus said that the Gates of Hell shall not Prevail and you and I'm sure you're aware that when he said that he didn't mean that we were going to hide and that hell won't break into the church he is a very offensive individual he's a winner he's strong he was talking very strongly that we are going to break down the gates of hell where there's Darkness where there's sadness where there's despair by the power of the Holy Spirit one man 12 men are going to break down the gates of hell and so how does how did Christ break into this hell that we live on earth Hail Mary full of grace the Lord is with thee it is always going to be those words that bring down the power of the holy spirit that are going to bring about the reign of the Sacred Heart of Jesus here on Earth because that's how it happened the first time love your passion love how you talk about the rosary wouldn't ask you to change anything good good glad we're agreed on that but I suppose he here's Maybe I might differ from you and I get the sense I'm not going to win this argument I think it's important that we distinguish between what the church commands encourages and forbids okay the church doesn't command that Catholics pray the Holy Rosary every day but your language makes it sound like she it is doing that now again let me let me finish cuz I I'm glad that you're not nuancing what you're saying because the Saints did like the great champions of the Rosary did not Nuance the rosary they're like hey well technically the church doesn't Comm in this you don't have to they that I'm glad they spoke with the kind of passion they did I'm glad that you're speaking with a with an analogous passion and yet my fear is that when people gravitate to a particular devotion and it means a great deal to them that they then talk as if this is essential in that sense of the definition and thereby Place burdens on people that the church isn't and that might be the great scapula the brown scapula the Divine Mercy chap there's too many devotions and if you look at every individual devotion in the west there's a lot of promises that are usually associated with with them and the and those who were encouraging that particular devotion certainly didn't talk about that devotion as if it were optional right and yet it is actually optional 100% so I'll be the first one to say so and I'm so thankful this is why I love you you're a great listener okay um I'll be the first one to say it's not even a venial sin it's not a sin or you the mother of God is not there's no there is no Mark against you for not praying the rosary but if the church said that this happened that the mother of God you can believe this that we there's no theological error it does appear that our lady did this and she worked these various signs it is worth looking at what she suggested and so this is where my research came in so if if it's true that the rosary is from our lady then the fruit one the fruit should be true and the ingredients that make it up should be true and so the first ingredient that I experience when I pray the rosary is death like I don't I'll be I'll be the first one to tell you I do not like to pray the rosary is that still the case I I guess it comes and goes it comes and goes I now see the rosary no longer as a burden it used to be a big burden for about 10 15 years of my life it was a huge burden and I would look at it like I got to get a rosary done um but now I see it as my path to Victory because I recognize now what she's trying to do she's trying to to kill independent Gabe so the the selfish you Seinfield reference I didn't get it but I like that I like what you said I he's trying to kill independent Gabriel Jesus said unless you deny yourself take up your cross and follow me you cannot be my disciple and so when I pray the rosary 100 95% of the time I don't want to I don't and when I say the hail mares the Angelic salutation and I pray the Our Father I'm saying Holy Spirit inspired words that I notice a difference by the time I'm done that when I'm driving on my way home from work and my initial instinct is to go home give me some quiet time let me just veg out for like 30 minutes I pray the rosary by the time I get home something happens inside of me that that selfish guy who only wants reasonable things just give me some peace and quiet for like 30 minutes that guy dies and I hear the voice of God and by hear I mean a tugging on my heart saying you know who's also tired your wife you know who needs you your children and so I go into that house and I say Here I Am Lord this is my this is me carrying my cross and then it's just so brilliant because you're mixing the most fruitful words in human history Hail Mary full of grace our father with meditation on the Life of Christ we'll talk about this more hopefully in a moment about how to meditate well using mental prayer the way Teresa of Avala the way um St alonsus the way St Francis the sales the way IGN all the greatest doctors of the church promoted to meditate in this one way that I just learned in the past year that's why I no longer uh see the rosary so much as a cross that I have to carry um so the ingredients appear to me to be perfect their meditation on the Life of Christ there's a saying a Grace remembered is a Grace renewed by me meditating upon the Eucharist meditating upon Pentecost on a regular basis The Graces of Pentecost the fervor of the first discipleship is stirred up in me but then also the fruit that I've seen so I mentioned that I taught Catholic school and I'm still friends with many of those kids I would say 70% of them left the Catholic church at my high school youth group and we have one of the best high school youth groups in the entire City of Houston and Houston's amazing so it's probably the best in all of Texas and Texas is incredible no offense but it's probably the best in entire United States okay we have confession available every Sunday I don't have a dog in the F not being from here so I'll just agree with you so I'll tell you why it's great one we have great speakers we have confession available every single Sunday for an hour and 20 minutes for any kid who wants to go the lines are always to the wall we have Eucharistic adoration every single Sunday it's incredible but even in that fertile environment where sacraments and the gospels being proclaimed full-throated I would say 70 to 80% of those kids do not keep the Catholic faith the majority of my friends who have been to Catholic School K through 12 in recent times they would say out of 70 or 100 kids five or 10 keep the Catholic faith so it's not for lack of catechesis what do you mean by keep the Catholic faith you mean intentionally Hol they go to they frequent the sacrament of confession and receive holy communion in the State of Grace like have some objective hope to be in heaven yeah if we're going by the church's objective standards yeah good um but the 30% to 20% that keep it like of my students that are really good I ask them do you guys pray at home as a family and they say yeah I was like what do you guys pray as a family he like well my mom and my dad make us pray the rosary and I say okay uh do you like it and they say no not really I was like me neither just checking mhm yeah family Rosary is very difficult for me but I so I do not I do not ever demand it or require it but I will say I have seen hundreds maybe a thousands of conversions and testimonials from people who have taken the rosary into their own life and that was the Breakthrough that they needed and and and it's partially that it's a regimen so I'm friends with Father riper he says that he puts people who have diabolical obsessions on a protocol that requires morning prayer 6:00 a.m. prayer at noon prayer in the evening very regimented because it builds discipline so partially because to pray the rosary like that requires a great discipline yeah but on top of that you're invoking the mother of God on top of that that's the spouse of the Holy Spirit you're invoking the mediatrix of all Grace you're spending your entire day uh with Christ yeah in mental prayer yeah so it's not required but it's darn fruitful yeah yeah yeah if when you look at the Saints and their great love and promotion of the Rosary I think humility requires that we go okay maybe I don't get it but maybe that doesn't matter so I I'll give you a quick witness from my own son so when he was in about how many kids do you have I have four so I have a 15-year-old um a 12-year-old a 6-year-old and a 2 and a halfy old oh fantastic so I don't I don't the only prayer that I force upon my high school students is when we do Rosary as a group on our Retreats or on the bus and upon my family we pray a daily Rosary um they I don't like it I'll be completely honest with you I don't like it they don't like it can I have you expand upon that and the reason I asked that is because I think a lot of people listening go well I don't really like it either but I got a feeling that I I don't believe you when you say it so help me understand just very plain boring psychological is it just like then let me come back to my son after okay yeah cuz testimony is very important to me so when I'm at home and I've begun to relax it is human nature to want to continue to relax to call together my to to be as the father I'm the one who has to do this to be the one to say to my family first to say to myself and you probably can relate to like hey everybody I know you're all doing what you really enjoy doing and you're all doing what you want do and I was currently doing what I wanted to do uh what if we stop that we're going to stop that I'm going to give you a nice little warning as if you had a choice you have got about in 10 or 20 minutes we're going to pray the rosary yeah and then 20 minutes comes by and I do it starting I'm I'm being completely candid I hope nobody judges me this is just me I'm kind of like here we go uh my wife great woman she's the same way we're doing it we're being obedient to father my kids aren't fighting with me because I've raised them in obedience Etc my son will kneel down with me my middle daughter she'll sit and she'll kneel down for her decade my six-year-old will lay on the couch my 2-year-old will run in circles pull people's rosaries I'm soad my wife I'm so glad no one's levitating no be nobody nobody but I'll tell you what happens around the third or fourth decade something happens and my wife and I look at each other and we're like thanks be to God we're doing this this is the first time there this is the first time nobody's looking at a screen this is the first time nobody's has agenda for themselves um and we're together as a family trying our best to follow God and it and just because it doesn't feel good doesn't mean it's not fruitful yeah and I can see that difference in my children because what the I'm I don't know about people who homeschool but if you have a kid who goes on average goes to public school or goes to private Catholic School the fact that they're in Catholic School does not mean that they're going to keep the faith I have seen it time and time again and I know this is true for my own family that when you get the children to say holy Mary Mother of God pray for us sinners now and at the hour of our death even if they even if they don't mean it even if they're saying it half-heartedly that child has Mary as their mother and although they might leave your house and forget about her she won't forget about them and at the hour of their death those 50 time 365 days times 10 years of their life they will not I don't I don't believe that they will go to hell because all those hail marries are going to come upon them and the mother of God is going to Res rescue them so you were doing four a day I'm doing more than that but I'll tell you about my son real quick wow so my son was struggling he was about the fourth or fifth grade he was having trouble at school just growing pains emotionally whatever he comes to me and he's like Dad I'm struggling and I said well we'll get you counseling we'll take you to a counselor but something that you should consider try praying for rosaries a day like consider it like I'm I'm not going to force you I'm not going to check on you but consider it he's been praying four rosaries a day since he was in the fourth or fifth grade holy Mac and and he is a good he is a good kid he's not perfect I'm not perfect he's not going to be you know he is my child so he's got his own quirks and a Austin whatever the word is weirdnesses but he's a wonderful young man and I'm very proud of him um and I'm not worried about him whatsoever and and I let him hang out with the the kids in our youth group whose parents don't shelter them um and I have seen and I've just seen it that if you have four pillars in your in your spiritual life in families these four pillars our lady gave at Fatima to Sister Lucia after the other two shepher children died she called them the first Saturday devotion which is confession uh 15 minutes meditating with a Blessed Sacrament praying the rosary receiving Holy Communion if you have confession adoration rosary and Eucharist in some part of your family's life I've just seen your children are going to be great like this the power of the sacraments the power of our lady's promises I just have no doubt like I've never seen it go wrong and people have told me well aren't you afraid that by forcing your children to pray the rosary that you're going to drive them away from the Catholic faith and in all honesty I can say from a clear conscience my experience is if they don't pray the rosary they're destined to leave the Catholic faith I even had two I had one gentleman come up to me who became well it would be one thing if you were demanding that your son pray his Rosary not at all yeah no never never that's different yeah I don't push it on anybody not not my own children not my wife or any body I just propose and I say are you open to trying it and I always tell people try it for seven days a lot of times because many people again father rer I'm friends with other exorcists they would they would argue that one in three people suffer from a diabolical Obsession just for so the listener context you already know this is where you have an obsessive thought maybe it's about lust maybe it's about self harm or self-hatred or a depression it feels all almost as if you you're trying to drive the car of your life and there's another outside force trying to grab the wheel and lead you where you don't want to go um so he would say that father rer would say one and three I would argue maybe it's one and two because I I'm not working with college Catholic University students I'm working with run-of-the-mill daily public school kids yeah yeah um so I would say maybe one and two I would say the majority of them have addictions to pornography a lot of them are doing drugs um and when somebody begins to pray for sometimes their obsession will get worse like they'll say man I started praying the rosary and it it it brought more curses on my life my life was bad now it's miserable you've met people who've said that oh oh oh a lot of people I just got a testimonial from a man whose wife had a diabolical Obsession he just sent me this in an email the other day his wife had a diabolical Obsession she was watching Ghost Stories um she stopped frequenting the sacraments she had an aversion to the sacred she felt like God hated her um he I told him do you want to save her I I can't promise you it's going to work but I've seen success if you do a 54 day Novena of four rosaries a day he said towards the end of the Novena his wife randomly out of nowhere went to confession she came back did a 33-day consecration to the Virgin Mary began wearing the miraculous metal and now this is just within the past two months now she prays four rosaries a day every single day and goes to the Blessed Sacrament frequently so it works when people are desperate when you've got a problem our lady will rescue you so I have found in families like that I haven't had somebody who I think also went to University here he said Gabe I disagree with you uh my father made us pray the Rosary every single day my mom left the family and I hated that he made just pray it and I said tell me about your life he's like well I'm becoming a priest and and your brother well he's also a priest I was like do you understand to have two vocations in one family is not normal do you understand to have two vocations in a family with one parent is not normal if it made you despise the Virgin Mary maybe it's because your mom left the family and not because the mother of God was being invoked in your house on a regular basis I I if I were you I would take a careful look and say perhaps the only reason you and your brother have vocations is because of the mother of God protecting you so definitely definitely do not impose whatsoever I personally believe that it needs to come in prayer because you can go go to one of my talks or one of my watch one of my videos and if you say Gabe told me I should do this it's not going to stick but if in prayer you genuinely imagine using mental prayer I hope we can talk about mental prayer it's so powerful in mental prayer you look at the eyes of the Virgin Mary and she says my son my daughter try this for seven days and if she says that and it touches your heart it's not just here it goes here got to try it now I want to talk about the Luminous Mysteries I've seen talk about it actually I'm very passionate about this I um well first of all is it the 1962 missile the kind of the regular Latin Mass I don't go to Latin Mass but that kind of missile has this section on the rosary yes and it says that here's what the rosary is it's it's the five mysteries it's the AL father of the 10 halil Maries and anything in addition to that is not specifically part of the Rosary which made me so happy I don't know if you've heard me talk about this me too P SP oh my gosh get out of my house yeah yeah yeah let get baby I I like to get it done as well um I don't know where I was going with that but so the Luminous Mysteries many people say that's yeah if if the mother of God gave the rosary it was perfect the way she gave it how are you going to have a pope especially John Paul II suggest we do more suggest is the right is the key word so the premise that they're suggesting is that the mother of God gave the rosary a specific way and therefore it's perfect that's a false premise so when the Virgin Mary appeared to St Dominic and said preach my Salter a reference to the 150 Psalms which people may have already had been using 150 beads to pray Hill Mary's at that time the hill Mary was only the first half cool let's go back to that then I agree so my beef isn't with John Paul II my beef is with pi the F because it was Pi the fth who added holy Mary Mother of God would like to go back he doubled the freaking Rosary yeah no that's so true and that's and nobody has a problem with that he was a pope so if your premise is John Paul II shouldn't add anything to something that is perfect why are you just giving Pi the pass that's a false premise right because he doubled it right and then when you take into account the fact that John Paul the second said here's a suggestion don't have to do it but you know and it's beautiful yes and but no honest question though because as somebody who's now an Eastern Catholic who loves praying the Jesus prayer and loves in incorporating my breath the rosary would be much more enjoyable if I just got to pray that first half and when I preached about it and I talk about the power of the word Hail Mary full of grace those words in the importance of the Incarnation would be more present you know what I mean if you're constantly just saying that first half the Incarnation would be more present upon my mind and I think Protestants there's no way you could deny that it's not 100% scriptural right but I personally believe that the Holy Father Pi I was a very saintly man he won the Battle of lanto through his promotion of the rosary holy Mary Mother of God pray for me a sinner now and at the hour of my death is very reminiscent of the Jesus prayer you just tacked on a whole another prayer to my Hail Mary fine but I think that it was a wise and prudent decision that he made under the in what would you say to somebody who said I I agree with you and yet I'm going to stick to the original rosary and I just pray the first half go for it but let me let me go for it do what you want but I think the mother of God honors the papacy yeah yeah no it's a good point I like your point that if you're going to have beef with John Paul II you want to have right and I as you like when you mentioned John Paul II my heart fluttered uhhuh cuz I believe he was a Mystic he wasn't perfect he was human just like all of us and if you look at what the Luminous Mysteries are I mentioned earlier that a Grace remembered is a Grace renewed and the aspects of the Life of Christ that John Paul II is encouraging us to meditate upon are the exact problems we have in the church we have a major crisis of baptized unbelievers we have a major crisis in the sacrament of holy matrimony and the belief of the mother of God as mediatrix and intercessor we have a major crisis in preaching what Christ preached was the kingdom of God is at hand repent and believe in the gospel we have a major crisis in the Divinity of Christ which is a Transfiguration because philosophers don't glow dazzling white and fly in the sky and we have a major crisis in the Eucharist and in the priesthood and so John Paul II is giving us a solution to the problems of our day and I will say again from experience Miracles that have happened I've witnessed so many miracles I'll just give you one that happened recently so there was a woman who approached me at a Catholic date night it's an event we have at St Teresa's she came up to me and she said Gabriel I do not like you and I said I'm sorry you're not the first and I was like is there something that I did wrong she's like you were constantly promoting four rosaries don't you know that luminous is the Illuminati and if you divide four by whatever number 6666 and I was like you are why we can't have nice things woman exactly and I was like so why I'm I'm sorry like I can't help it I was just enjoying my dinner here and she's like but I want you to know I had ulcers I had sty I had all sorts of stress related health issues and I heard you say try the four rosaries and the first day that I prayed the fourth Rosary all my health issues miraculously went away and I've had time and time again where somebody was praying for an important uh intention some people cured of cancer after they've prayed their fourth Rosary um I had several seminarians that I'm friends with or that have shared their testimony with me they were going to leave their vocation because of desolation which everybody knows spirituality you don't make a decision in times of desolation but they were going to and somebody challenged them to pray a novena of four rosaries a day and at the end of their fourth Rosary an outpouring of Graces Came Upon them they had a sense of the presence of Mary and they are holy and faithful some of them are now priests some of them are continuing their vocation so although it's not necessary I I will say that from experience our lady honors it um no yeah I I'm in agreement with you about the beauty beauty of the Luminous Mysteries my concern though is that sometimes in encouraging it it does sound like a mandate right well I have to have to be I'm the promoter I got to be to the far right I can't be promoting it right down the middle yeah right cuz if if I shoot my arrow over here I might get you halfway but if I shoot halfway I might just get you a quarter of the way so when you ask do I pray for I pray more than four CU I have to be so convicted that this is powerful that in order for me to be that convicted I have to be doing more and so when a man comes up to me and says to me Gabriel I don't have time to pray for I can look at him in the eye and say that's nonsense and he say what do you mean I was like wake up 30 minutes earlier no it's complete nonsense of course wake up 30 the amount of time we spend Doom scrolling and your on your way home from work on your way to work so wake up 30 minutes earlier on your way to work on your way home from work before bed with your family I haven't impacted a single thing in your life I just made you stop listening to talk radio mhm so but I can say that with like like a like a a firm walk all say you're full of it mhm because I'm doing more than you but I'm not doing but again it's not I need it I need it I the worst and the most sinful of all men I am so why don't you pray the um seven sorrow of La Rosary I do every day uh I pray two a day and why don't you do more why because I need it and why don't you do more oh why so I I I just have discerned a certain well one I think it all depends on your season of life so there are certain Seasons where I pray more there are certain Seasons when I have big things coming up that I sacrifice more for because I I'm desperate the point I'm getting at is there's a I think it was Esra may not have been I can't find it online so I'm going to claim it soon if no one can find it there are many treasuries within the many devotions within the church's treasury choose only a few and be faithful to them I like that a lot I think there's a I love that I love that I'm with you because I get really irritated with people and they're like purple Rosary purple scapular green scapular black scapular no and so how do how do I personally differentiate app which devotions to get at Fatima which is the largest most popular Apparition there was a vision in the sky according to Sister Lucia that our lady appeared as Our Lady of Mount Carmel she said to Sister Lucia I am Our Lady of the Rosary she had an image of St Joseph and an image of Our Lady of Sorrows so those are my major devotions so it sounds like a lot of this comes to Discerning probably with the help of a holy spiritual father what your um prayer role ought 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about carnivore I know if only we were as passionate about Christ and a lady as conal people are as passionate as cannibal so when I was growing up I got on medication for attention deficit disorder when I was like in the second grade okay and they did a lot of food testing before and they were saying that I'm allergic to these various foods and the reaction that I'm having is mental and emotional and so it's making me have brain fog and all these things and so I had to go to school in the first grade with a thermos of like beans and tuna fish and of course I got made of because I was a little kid at a public school with my thermos and my beans and tuna fish and so I opted for taking Rin and Aderall up until I was like 30 years old really yeah and then I began to become addicted to the Aderall I was taking more and more to have the same effect so I'd be taking like 30 milligrams three times a day which is a lot of Aderall and it was barely having the same impact but it was making me um more edgy and so if you look at my early YouTube videos I you might say that I'm like edgy now but in my early YouTube videos I'm very bitter and like angry and it seems like I'm like what is this guy angry about but it was cuz I was going through withdrawals from Aderall really and so I gave it up slowly worked my way out of it got rid of all my medication but I knew in my heart that diet was the answer and when I would eat certain foods mainly foods that were made by human hands in factories in packaging in boxes and again I didn't want to really keep that diet so I used intermittent fasting yeah spiritually for Spiritual reasons also for health reasons and then I would eat at night and then I could become a vegetable and go to sleep and all these things but then when Cameron talked about her Venture into carnivore and how that impacted this is just Rec autoimmune stuff yeah I know I've only been doing carnivore since like January 1st okay um I was like I've got to try this okay I've got to try this and mental Clarity I'll tell you right now mental clarity through the roof it's too much Clarity sometimes too much now I'm off it now I I did it in January um and it's funny I went back to normal food and I lost that mental Clarity but I didn't care cuz the bread just tastes so good I miss bread I miss bananas I miss peanut butter so my question for you is when she travels like y'all went to Austria how did she fa on the plane what did you you take Stakes with you what did you do yeah so we took she did a lot of chips like meat chips that she put in the oven and uh we just ate meat the whole way but what's funny is now we're in Austria she's tried to open up her diet to a few things some things have worked so she's Incorporated berries from time to time so blueberries in full fat you know yogurt with nothing else in it but then she tried to have a glass of wine okay messed her up a whole week she was just destroyed yeah and I'm someone I have a lot of compassion on my wife I love her I want her to be happy but I'm like don't ever do that again please just eat the meat right so she hasn't gone off it it's been like 6 months and she we bought a whole cow in Austria uh butchered it not a live cow um no she's terrific she's off all of her meds and do you think that this is something she's going to do long term for the rest of her life I think it's going to have to be and I'm sad to say that but but there's also a part of me that's like but babe like I need you and you and and and I don't need to tell her that she she knows that being in pain uh is worse than just eating meat so you need her to be able to be providing three years of brutality I mean she's months there'll be days she'll just wake up she can't leave her chair um she can't wake up I mean she does she's a very selfmotivated cleric individual she gets up she she puts in an effort but it she's always she's always been in pain always but these last I said this on the show a month in carnivore she started Los weight and I was getting really nervous cuz she does not need to lose weight I want to Fat actually yes but I'd say two or 3 months in I touched her leg I'm like honey you're getting muscle she just she looks good and and she's not working out she's just eating meat and she looks like she's W I was doing carnivore and I so when I started I was a little bit underweight because i' had been doing a lot of fasting and so I was like I'm going to do carnivore straight for like 2 weeks I gained weight and I was like so I was like 155 156 157 fluctuating between there and then when I did carnivore straight my weight went up to like 163 and it stayed there consistently so I think that if you're trying to lose weight I don't know this for a fact but it feels like if you're trying to lose weight and you need to lose weight carnivore will bring you to where you should be optimally and if you're underweight and you're doing carnivore I think it's going to bring you to where you need to be optimally so I Do I Do meat cheese eggs and berries but I'm doing too many berries like I'm going confession of sin here I'm eating like 50% berries two cartons of strawberries two cartons of blueberries dude I need it no it's it's it's really amazing and you know we did that video Yeah and uh you know usually on videos any kind of video you got people pushing back being upset being critical if you go to that I think we've got over a thousand comments yes and they're all saying the same thing it's like what you just said about the rosary like here's what I know when I do it this happens and then people come in and they say same thing happen so all these comments are like I had this wrong with me that wrong with me I started eating meat it's on carniv the comments are the greatest testimonial like people are like I was there's old people who are like I don't want to have cholesterol problems like I was 78 and dying and now I'm like looking like I'm my body is so did you do that to help you with add to help me with ADD mental Clarity um yeah and and has it worked yeah I'm well I'm has it continued to work I feel sharp do you plan on using this long I want to start adding things back but I don't know what to add back like I toyed with bananas and apples just because I love peanut butter I don't know why gosh peanut butter is the best I know I loved it but then I would wake up and might would like have puffy eyes and so I'd be like I know that it's causing some inflammation so I'm Discerning it's a work in progress I think that's it now I'm not an expert my wife knows a lot more on this and she's not an expert but I think it's just that food that causes inflammation and then when you cut out everything but beef you're no longer having inflammation like right now my elbow is hurting yeah and I can't was at the gym today I couldn't do many pull-ups and I know that if I was doing carnivore you wouldn't be hurting yeah I know that and yet I kind of don't care right that's kind of like sin that's kind of like me when I was taking my ader roll I was like H just give me the pills I'll eat whatever I want I got questions about ader rol and this sort of stuff cuz I'm if I'm quite sure I have ADD and here's why and I don't really I'm not I'm not going to die I don't know what ad I don't really know what ad is so you can help me a lot of the time it feels like there's a million trains of thought going through my head at once and it's hard to kind of connect to one but then when I get really into something I get so into that thing it's like it freaks everybody around me out that's one thing the other thing is if I go to like a mall or something like that I get exhausted really quickly because there's too much to look at and my brain it's like it can't process or zero in on information so I've shared that with a someone and they say well it might be add so I tried one of these riddle and I don't know what I tried but I tried it and it it had a similar effect to drinking like too much coffee mhm like I was just zoned in but in a way that I didn't like now it might be because of the dosage or whatever what's your like recommendation for people how did it do on Carnivore I mean it's fantastic but did you have was your with were all the that's a really good question I I remember on so okay so ainus in I'm going to get to it ainus in the Su gives three benefits for fasting and one is it allows us to contemplate God and this is a natural way of viewing that benefit and that is to say I think when we're eating crap bread and soda ever else our body spends so much time just trying to process crap right that we can't recall things as quickly we can't think through things you get rid of all that junk and the brain has a lot more energy to be focused on so I noticed that recalling things was a lot easier I remember being like really aware of that like wow I just I'm not usually that quick and I know it was cuz I was just eating meat yeah that was the but I don't know about the add stuff I don't know maybe you do or maybe you just have food sensitivities when I when I talk to people about carnivore those who do it like swear by it but then those who don't they're like you're crazy yeah because I what really stood out to me was the writing or the the podcast some guy was like plants are trying to kill you and I was like wait a second what are you talking about plants are trying to kill me and he was this guy and I don't know how true it is so maybe I'm just spouting ignorance but I think it kind of makes sense that if you go outside and you eat any leaves or grass you're going to get sick because the grass and the leaves are trying to protect themselves so they have toxins that they release but that they want you to eat their berries because that's how they Thrive and so berries that have seed bearing plants that are going to spread if you eat them they want you to eat them so they taste good and they're good for you so I know Jordan Peterson was is on the carnivore diet he had a lot of psoriasis and skin issues when he gave up leafy greens all of his skin issues went away so it's like I don't I don't I believe in it I I personally believe in it because I've seen the effects but at the same time I don't necessarily want everybody to do it because then the cost of meat is going to go up and it's going to make it more difficult for my lifestyle but if you're struggling with mental Clarity um skin issues uh autoimmune disease joint problems like your wife like seriously try it has your wife noticed a difference um I don't know is she joining you with this she does not support I've got a lot she does not support me in this endeavor no but but this is what I love so I love my wife for many reasons but one of the greatest things about my wife is that she allows me to do all the things that I believe God is calling me to do even when that sounds like never eating a broccoli or an asparagus or a brussel spout for the rest of my life now I will say this I about a month into doing carnivore I had people saying you look thin but the way they said it it was not in a good way right people tell me that you look sick you don't look sick you look good no I I feel good and a lot of people who tell me that are overweight oh so no I think I actually look sick it might be a transition time but you look at your wife and you think man you're looking she looks great yeah now but what was funny was I got to a point where I got really sick of meat oh man tell me about it oh okay so let me flesh this out and you tell me flesh this out no pun intended no pun intend is fun I would fast all day and then around 3 p.m. my wife and I would drive and we'd get this glorious steak oh man and in the beginning I'm sucking the cartilage I'm chewing the fat it was beautiful but one day we went and I was just like oh I can't do it I can't do it I I think that's why I started losing weight in a bad way cuz I wasn't eating any food all of my signals went to eat was messed up and I would say even up until now I'm a little if the smell of minced meat it really turns me off I'm hoping to get over this quickly cuz I would like to get back to that right so were you doing berries no not so this is the key so sugar makes you hungry and so if you have some berries before dinner time you're going to turn into an animal and you're going to want that beef big time cuz I noticed that cuz I like I'll have berries normally with me is I eat steak or hamburger whatever it is or eggs and then I'm like ah too much grease too much grease too much fat and then so I'm like Dow trays of strawberries and then afterwards I'm starving again because of the sugar interesting so keep that in mind if you're if you're ever struggling to make yourself want to eat cuz you're not hungry anymore cuz beef doesn't have that effect on you and the reason why beef is so good for you if you have a lot of autoimmune issues is because cows have multiple stomachs with which they process all of these toxins that they're eating they do for you CU your stomach doesn't have that same ability but I I will say that during those times I would just eggs and cheese yes okay and ton of eggs and cheese worked for me do a medical advice disclaimer for me please says Thursday we are not advising that anybody do this speak to your doctor before trying anything like this everything I've ever learned I've learned on YouTube technologically and medically but we're not suggesting you do that I'm not suggesting you do that either saying fantastic now earlier you wanted to talk about mental prayer PR something you've gotten into the last years oh my goodness it is the game cheral pray so it's the game changer it is so you know people say the greatest Attack Of The Devil is to make people believe the devil doesn't exist which is obviously false because I believe that the devil existed and I was not living the Commandments afterwards yeah the devil's biggest attack on the church and on society is to keep people from mental prayer so I had no I went through a large like year-long dryness interior desolation and I knew I was missing something that there was like some piece in my spiritual life that was missing and through a couple of chain of events it turned out that some of my friends were like oh we just did this thing called mental prayer it was very fruitful and I was like imagination I'm not doing that that sounds so feminite I'm like you keep your imagination to yourself um but then I was researching it because these seminarian friends of mine had gone to the institute for Priestly formation and they were like telling me they're like you won't believe this I spent the day with the Lord and me and him are friends I'm like that doesn't sound extraordinary to me you're friends with the Lord that's what you're supposed to be but they were talking about an experience with God that they really believed happened and it happened in here and in here and it was so real that they were acting different and then so I went and researched it and I looked up Teresa Avala because she's a doctor of prayer and she said the devil knows when a soul has begun mental prayer that he has lost that soul forever and then another quote she said which really took me off guard she said those who do not practice mental prayer have no need of demons because they cast themselves into hell and then I looked at okay well there's got to be other doctors of the church who've talked about this St alons says every saint was made a saint through mental prayer without mental prayer you will not be able to overcome your sins uh St Francis de Sales St uh John of the Cross St all of the all of the great saints were using the word mental prayer and meditation interchangeably and so when I heard meditation I thought think of a picture you know think of a picture okay there's Mary with the baby Jesus okay got it in my head um but that's not what they me so I I have boiled it down to three steps that if you do this according to teres of Avala mental prayer is the gateway to all the higher forms of prayer that when darkness enters the soul which it happens to every individual even devout people there's an interior darkness that can settle in that you can't seem to shake that's like really can be crippling that the ordinary means of removing interior Darkness from the soul is mental prayer so I didn't have this in my life and when I was reading this I was like this is what I've been missing and once learning mental prayer before when I was praying it was like I was squeezing oranges a lot just to get a single drop of juice but with mental prayer even on a bad day when I use these steps promoted by Theresa of Avala St Francis de Sales St alonsus um even a bad day of mental prayer was more fruitful than no no mental prayer whatsoever before you get to the steps can you give us a quick definition of what it means so mental prayer is essentially using your interior faculties so you and I are talking to each other we're using our eyes we're using our mouth but God does not communicate exteriorly he communicates interiorly and you and I have two essential interior faculties so we have our will our heart our emotions if we didn't if if that's all we had you and I would just do whatever feels good we also have an intellect our our rationality our imagination our intuition our intellect informs our will so I have to engage God in my intellect in my imagination and that's where he's going to communicate and sometimes he'll communicate directly to the will but ordinarily I get him to talk to my heart by using my intellect and my imagination and encountering him there and so Teresa aval when she says the devil knows that he's lost you when you do mental prayer it's because the devil's primary attack on you and on me at least for the majority of my life was in my intellect I would sin by imagining by lusting by going I I'd have panic attacks and anxiety attacks because of the things that I was entertaining in my mind sins of my past worries about the future was were keeping me from God right here right now in the present moment and so what Teresa Avala and and and this is a difficulty because when I try to teach this some people will say all the doctors are saying this is necessary and I I have so many quotes um from so many Saints about the the necessity of prayer some people will say I can't use my imagination I don't have that ability which is completely false like if I were to say imagine the face of your wife Cameron anybody who's ever seen her could use your imagination to imagine what she looks like we could do it maybe we're not good at it maybe it's not always clear but that act of the will that using of your imagination impacts your heart a little bit makes you think of her makes you love her um so that's one big area that a lot of people will push back on using your imagination to encounter Christ to his present now you may be getting to this but another thing people would push back on is like surely this could also be dangerous it's not always the case that what I'm imagining comes from the Lord I might be deceived yes 100% so then you the basics of discernment of spirits are when it is the Lord in the words of teres of Avala when he speaks he acts so you could be in a moment of trauma and interior darkness and you could be saying to yourself Matt God God is with you God and we do we say this to ourselves God loves me the Blessed Mother's with me my guardian angel is with me and you say these things over be be at peace God is with you God is peace and you know that's you by what's going on here but when the voice of the Lord comes upon you and he says my son Matt I love you be at peace you feel it here and here deeply in stomach almost yeah and it it flows through you because when God speaks he acts and so it's very important for everybody so that we're not you know being pulled around by lies that we discern all the movements and even you you could be and people tell me this I was doing a mental prayer and Jesus was yelling at me and he was telling me that I'm ugly and I said well how did that make your soul feel ashamed dirty I was like then whose voice is that he's dressing up as Christ but according to many of the Great Saints is that when you start to do this type of prayer it is the safest place to encounter Christ so again to sum it up mental prayer is you talked about imagination and will right um it's so it's a framework it's a step process by which you encounter Christ if you encounter Christ in step one you don't need step two and three if you encounter Christ in step two you don't need step three if you so it's it's a framework it's a set of systematic guidelines to encounter Christ in the safest most fruitful Place possible which is the gospels the gospel encountering Christ in the gospels you try trying to use your imagination to encounter Christ in the gospels brings the power of the Holy Spirit you're in a safe place the devil does flies do not land on boiling water and the gospels are boiling water and when you invoke your guardian angel and you invoke the Holy Spirit to come upon you you're surrounding yourself in the safest place for prayer is it possible to be deceived it's possible but you will know it in your soul cuz God doesn't want you to be deceived those who are deceived only want to be deceived the devil only steals those who want to be stolen because God is good and if I want to encounter him he's not going to hide behind a devil maybe for some rare trial but God wants to speak to every single one of his children amen so that's good so there's three basic steps okay and I I'll share them with you and you can do this oh my gosh it is so powerful if you do this at Mass it is so powerful if you do this before the Blessed Sacrament it's so powerful if you do this at any prayer transforms everything the first one we you and I already discussed make an Act of Faith in the presence of God make an Act of Faith saying Lord Jesus Son of the Living God I believe you are here with me I believe you're holding me into existence I believe that I'm a member of the body of Christ I believe I'm a temple of the Holy Spirit I believe you're here that that's a prayer that's a prayer sometimes if you're going to have a long prayer session I would recommend saying Holy Spirit help me to pray St Michael Guardian Angel wrap your wings of protection around my mind in my heart so that I won't be distracted but if you're just if you if you're working all you have to say is Lord Jesus Son of God I believe you're here step one make an act this me what you're saying is what the Saints have also emphasized placing yourself in the presence of God and Teresa makes a big deal about this as she ought to right often we just talk to God like he's either not there or not worthy of all of our worship and honor and so if you make an Act of Faith in the presence of God and all of a sudden you're overwhelmed with his presence talk to him there the goal of prayer is communication talk to him let him speak to you she recommends St Francis of sales recommends this too and this is what really caught me off guard is that they said the ordinary means of meditation is to visualize the person and the scene as if you're present there so let's say you go to pray you're like okay I'm going to do my evening prayers Lord I believe you're really here don't feel it I don't feel like you're here then I go to the next step so let's pretend like we're praying the third joyful mystery the birth of the child of Jesus in Bethlehem you imagine the Child Jesus as a real fat baby in your arms and you're looking into his eyes and you just look to the best of your ability maybe you can't see his face but you can see fat baby hands anything that touches you in the gospel it's inspired word of God focus on that and when that touches your heart so Step One is active faith in the presence of God step two is consideration because what this the consideration is doing is it's stirring up the holy spirit in you so now I'm imagining a fat baby is God really present in this room with me yes am I imagining this baby I am but is God present present he is so now I'm going to talk to Christ this baby this is step three so consider the gospel scene as if it's really present step three is talk to the baby Lord God you are so tender you are so loving you are so merciful my wife is suffering terribly I beg of you give her some comfort give her some relief and then you look at the eyes of the Blessed Mother Blessed Mother you never was it known that anybody who went to you was left uned and then you pause this is what most Catholics do not do we're a lot of us myself included are afraid to hear what God has to say to us and so he doesn't speak the Saints say that God does not want to speak to those who are not willing to listen and so you say that prayer whatever's on your heart this is so important we have to communicate what's on the soul stop playing games you're bothered about something that you don't feel is fair tell baby Jesus I don't believe this is fair you pause you'll let him if he wants to speak you can just look at his eyes and be like don't you trust me like you're holding me I trust you to hold me some he he will either move in the heart or an idea will enter the mind that affects the soul or you'll have an overwhelming understanding or you'll just have peace it it takes literally if you're doing this with your Rosary it takes an extra 20 seconds and if at the very least you don't hear God you did a good job of presenting to your imagination that God loves me so much that he became a child and he'd be willing to let strangers hold him beautiful so mental prayer if you do this at mass and you like let's say you guys have a good liturgy the priest walks up he says the Blessed Sacrament the prayers over the uh the host words of consecration lifts the host up he does it so reverently so slowly with so much love and fervor that's a good day at Mass yeah but imagine if you closed your eyes and you imagine what's really happening you're at the crucifixion you see the feet of Christ that are crucified you look up his his legs you see blood dripping down you look at his chest barely able to breathe you look at his face and you see the heavens have opened up above the above the altar is that your imagination 100% is it really happening yes and the person who receives Holy Communion at a mass where they've opened their heart to that Divine reality receives far more grace than previously available St alons says God rarely answers those who do not do mental prayer and then when I've pondered that quote I took that to mean because that's the real God so is the opposite of this way of praying that you're talking about uh treating God more like a syllogism than a love affair chestin kind of idea right where I know the right things to do I know the right prayers to pray I know that it's right to do this but I'm not praying with the heart I'm not engaging this is the prayer of the heart this is the prayer of the heart to a God who has a will for me here and now yeah I think that the biggest this is why I love the charismatics me too and this is the biggest problem in the church we are so easy doing the same stupid things over and over again and getting no results were not willing to change I I liken it to if I had financial problems and I went to Dave Ramsey yeah Dave Ramsey I hate getting him confused with Gordon Ramsey because he's like the chef so if I had financial problems and I was going on Dave Ramsey and I said these are all my issues he would say we're going to need a major overhaul here baby you cannot keep doing the same things you're doing and the church year after year does the same things over and over again even though they're not working and that goes for the faithful as well as the hierarchy and it's it it really I believe comes down to a lack of true authentic prayer where God has the opportunity to speak back to me this is good I want I want to dwell on this for a moment the reason I just said I love the charismatics is because is because it's easy to live a Christian Life that looks good enough from the outside but it's as if God doesn't even exist that he's not even interested in me here and now that he loves me here and now he has a plan for my life that's very concrete Here and Now whereas the reason I just I love the charismatics is these these people who they act as if God works now that he's alive now yes here's an analogy sometimes you'll be on a busy street and they'll be an entertainer right who's got silver paint all over themselves they pretend to be a statue and sometimes they look so real that you might even kind of go up to them and look at them now just imagine you think this person's a statue and they move that reaction is the reaction God wants us to have about his reality that he's alive he's on the Move now I love it so beautiful so this is this what you're saying that mental prayer helps us mental prayer it helps you because it is God who consoles it is God who speaks yeah and if you make decisions well discerned God will have you do things that you're not ordinarily going to do after the apostles met Christ he said come follow me and he he meant that and on a daily basis he tells us that to deny ourselves take up our cross follow this is is a little scary walk over here with me let's see what happens if you allow me to live and act through you we I've brought up the charismatics a lot so people might think that I'm a very charismatic individual I'm also very traditional I believe in the charismatic renewal they need tradition they need structure they need the disciplines of the church they need devotional life in the sacramental the fruit of a beautiful liturgy it's a both and um you can't do you will fail without both and MH but yeah so I mental prayer it changes everything so one of the the big things so what were you do you said this has revolutionized your prayer life and that you only really discovered this a year ago or so now clearly just from the stories you've shared with me you've encountered mental prayer in the past maybe you weren't intentionally doing it I didn't know the step so what what were you doing wrong before that this has changed if this has revolutionized your prayer life then you must have been praying a year ago obviously so what what weren't you doing so the beautiful thing about the rosary is that a bad Rosary is still Rosary because the ingredients are so powerful even with dryness even with distraction just saying Our Father who are in heaven saying the hail Mar's over and over again calling upon the Virgin Mary the Holy Spirit even if you're so depressed because you lost every member of your family and you prayed the rosary you will be a little bit more light after the rosary than you were before even if you couldn't focus whatsoever because the ingredients are so powerful and so I would I would slip in and out of mental prayer not knowing it I was steadfast on step number one the practice of the presence of God but there was so often where I didn't have a sense of God's presence and I I didn't know what to do next whereas now I know when I don't feel the presence of God I just need to go to the gospels and I need to imagine Christ speaking to me as a character or imagine the scenario it's changed so much now I think a response some people might have is I'm afraid that this is weird like yes I agree with you I should use my you know the Lord works for our imagination I get all that but also encountered people who say things to me like God told me I'm pretty sure God didn't tell them that even if what they're saying isn't objectively wrong they seem like weird people I don't want to be a weird person therefore it's probably just a lot safer if I stick to what the church has encouraged or mandated and I don't get too involved with this imagination stuff you can you can appreciate the the push back 100% And so that's that's where I was at cuz I don't like and I get turned off like every woman at my church is like a Mystic and Jesus told me this and Mary told me this I'm having visions of this and they told me this for you Gabe and I'm like you know God's very capable of talking to me directly he doesn't need you to tell me so good rule of thumb if somebody says God told me to tell you I automatically am like you can tell me but I'm not going to listen until the Lord speaks to me when I go to pray all the times that I'm praying um but it was the doctors of the church that really convinced me especially teres of Avala the doctor of prayer St alonsus is a doctor moral theology St Francis sales the universal doctor St John of the Cross is the doctor of mysticism their their testimony about how important it was I was just like okay and then again I it sounds like I'm a big Fatima guy and to a degree I am but I don't like go around thinking about Fatima like some people um when our lady told about the first Saturdays she said spend 15 minutes with me meditating upon the Life of Christ and I never understood what that meant I was like we just did the rosary and you want us to spend 15 more minutes doing that without hell mares I was very confused but then when I understood mental prayer like what the the definitions were I was like oh she wants me to be in the gospels and have her kind of just sit next to me with her arm around me um and that changed things so you no again this is something that I encourage I cannot enforce it on anybody but for me it's been extraordinarily fruitful and you can look at at least my Ministry and within the past year of learning mental prayer for me personally on a spiritual level things have exploded um and I feel like in prayer that Mary's saying promote the rosary yes but you must promote the rosary where people encounter my son and me in the gospels so that they will bear more fruit than just saying the Hail Mary over and over which is very fruitful it's it's a great prayer but encountering Christ is our goal tell me about how your video with Tammy and Jordan Peterson came about and glory to Jesus Christ for that video I believe that's going to bring many million views my goodness you understand I'm just a youth Minister from sugar Texas you understand that right well yeah but you're also a very talented videographer obviously thanks to YouTube and everything else so quick history just so that people know that I'm not just some random You Youth minister in order to make my Youtube videos better I would charge equipment that I couldn't afford maybe you're not supposed to do that but Mother Angelica did it so I did it and sometimes God would provide and other times he wouldn't and he would make me get to work and so I would have to sell my Video Production Services to pay for the equipment that I bought and also to help pay the bills because I am a youth Minister making a youth Minister's salary yeah and one day I was working on a production there was very well production with the owner of beex prime which is a famous restaurant in Texas and I was filming and I had a guy holding the lights and I had a guy holding the the sun shade and I felt like our lady was saying to me look what you're willing to do for money and I said excuse me like this is interior this is deep mement of the Soul it's not like I saw her face she said look what you're willing to do for a dollar and you're not willing to do for me and I said oh I see what you want she's like I want you to quit making video productions to pay the bills and trust me that I'm going to take care of you okay so that's when things started getting more professional because I was I was no longer dividing my time between making videos for the business world and myself so I do have a little bit of a history with it y so I recently got back from um a a pilgrimage to Fatima in Spain and Portugal I I'm sorry Portugal Spain and France this was about I got back October 5th and when I came back I was working on a documentary on St maximilan kby and so we have his Relic in the Shrine in my church that I received from Poland from his Monastery what is it clothing it's it's his hair it's his beard excellent wow there so many stories but I was praying with him for this documentary we also next to him have a shrine to St Jose Maria okay gria yeah and I never prayed to that guy never talked to him once I would walk right past his Shrine right past his statue I worked at that church for well over 10 years MH that was in 2009 that I got at St Teresa and I walked past his Shrine for it's 2024 2023 when I this happened so I was coming back for my maximilan kby visit that I was making asking him in mental prayer maximilan I believe you're present guide me in making your video I was walking back and I looked at The Shrine of St Jose Maria and and I felt like he rebuked me he said you're so rude that sounds like something he would do given what I know from his writings I didn't know anything about him until I studied him he said you're so rude and I said excuse me he's like you believe maximilan Kobe's there and that's why you pray to him on a regular basis and if that same theology that my relics are here a part of me is here and you don't stop you don't say hello you don't offer a prayer you do nothing and I said excuse me and then so I went and I knelt down in front of his Shrine his relics his statue and I was like I'm open using the method of prayer I'm a member of the body of Christ you're a member of the body of Christ Lord let me talk to St Jose Maria so he started moving things in my heart and he was very strong with me he he rebuked me first for not doing a good enough job to protect those who've been entrusted to me just personal things little things that I had let slip up just over time that were not on my radar at all that he like convicted me hard and I was like okay I'm listening he's like your life is about to change and I said tell me he said well after you finish this Max Millian kobby documentary on a spiritual level you're going to reach many more souls and I said okay whatever like in one year out the other like this other thing where you convicted me I felt that in the depth of my heart this there whatever so whenever you hear things like just whatever like I I don't care what I don't know if this is true or not or I'm making this up yeah like I I feel nothing in here so I go back to my office I've got so many stories I go back to my office and my assistant says Gabe you're not going to believe this I said what I just got an email from father Jose Maria of The Franciscan Friday of the Immaculate and I said yes he said you have to check this email they want you to do a documentary uh they want you to interview Tammy and Jordan Peterson the Petersons are both going to be there in Toronto in November you have to tell them yes or no like immediately so I reached out to Father Jose Maran I was like can you give me some more details and he said and he's a very Maran guy and he said so this opportunity to film Tammy Peterson's testimony came up to him I don't know if you know the fr of the Immaculate they have their own YouTube channel they're dedicated to the media they're dedicated to maximilan kby this is their project father Jose Maria said the past three nights I have not slept excuse me yeah can you elaborate well in prayer the first night the Virgin Mary told me this is for Gabriel Castillo to do this is for Gabby after hours and I resisted her and I didn't sleep that entire night and the second night I resisted her and the third night I finally said f Blessed Mother whatever you want if you want it for Gabby I'll give it to him and so I said sign me up but I was I discern everything very carefully and I did not have a strong like I didn't know the Peterson I didn't know their story I was I was just kind of like I know they're famous I know Jordan's a very famous Canadian so I was like is this God's will I don't know I I don't feel a personal attachment yeah the Jose Maria St Jose Maria the father Jose Maria that's a cool connection but my assistant was like are you cra she was like a big Jordan p Peterson fan she's like are you crazy you have to do this I was like and then she was like I want to go too I was like no cuz I'm very I'm very big on Prudence so I I'm not traveling with you like you're a girl like I my office is in the complete opposite side of the building just so that nobody will be like you spend you know what I mean I'm just like I'm like no and then she's like well I talked to my spiritual director I really feel like I should go I was like I haven't discerned it I haven't prayed about it we'll just tell them you're going to do this I'm I'm I'm detached from it and you trusted that she'd do good enough no um I trust I I don't know no I don't know she's she's great she she edits my videos she sees me setting up cameras but to go to a foreign country Canada and take equipment and set up a lighting interview she would do you think she would have done it if you had have actually landed on that I'm not going you go we did land on that this is okay I'm sorry I just assumed you I I did go this is a miraculous story Matt come on bro keep going so so I'm like fine you're going to do this documentary you're going to go I talked to my wife about it we were in agreement talked to some spiritual advisers yeah let her go like you don't need to be there you've taught her we we went through the scenario okay you set up the main light here 45 degree angle you have another camera light here you have this this and this the franciscans of the Immaculate they do video production they'll be there they'll give you some guidance alls you have to do is do the interview and let's be honest I'm difficult to deal with I'm so strong minded It's very possible that Jordan and I can like not hit it off because of of something that I say my beliefs and he's like I'm out I'm not doing this documentary so several weeks pass FR so our interviews on Monday November the 5th the Friday night the Friday before my wife sends me a text she says I think you really need to go to this Jordan Peterson interview I was like yeah but there's no way I I like I'm not going to travel with her like I'm just not doing that like it's not prudent they said well I just we just got an email that Bishop Lopes the bishop of the ordinary of the chairi of St Peter that's for my son Goes to School said that they canceled school on Monday why well because the the Headmaster there the principal there she got her PhD and so to celebrate her getting her PhD he canceled school for Monday and I was like all right looks like I'm going to Toronto so I bought my tickets immediately I don't have a lot of money so I used all the money that I had I I I charged it um to get the tickets for my son and I to go to interview the Petersons so I'm at the store on Saturday we're leaving in two days I tell the Blessed Mother I'm like blessed mother if I'm going to be honest with you cuz we only have 30 minutes to do the b-roll we have an interview with Tammy then an interview with Jordan at 10 o'cl this is going to happen at a university a girls college I'm sorry um I need another camera like I have three cameras they're great to get all the angles but I need to have two cameras on my body wide angle closeup shots uh I need it if you want if you want this to be successful I need the money I get a text message literally as I uttered the prayer from a a woman that I went on pilgrimage with saying Gabe if you ever need any money feel free to ask me while you're praying while I'm praying I have text message screenshots I don't know if they're still on my phone but and then so I say actually I need $2,300 for a new camera she's like fine I'll put it in the mail on Monday I like I need it like it's 11:00 a.m. the camera store closes at 5: today can you please have this to me like can you PayPal this to me and she's like done I had the camera that I needed within 2 hours after that we go we fly to Canada my son and I I'm a bold guy I've got a lot of vices one of them is chicness so we're we're driving through the streets of Toronto I'm blaring I'm proud to be an American where at least I know I'm free so I'm being myself we go we set up the woman who facilitated the conversion of Tammy her name is Queenie wonderful woman I didn't know this Opus day numerary where filming in an opus day Center are you connecting the dots St Jose Maria is the one who told me at this Shrine the priest father Jose Maria is the one who made the connection and now I'm filming in an opus day Center I don't know the story yet and she's like so tell me about your videography business and career I was like who's asking you this oh the queen Queenie yeah and so like I made her jaw drop I was like I'm a youth Minister from Sugarland Texas and then she's like looking at the franciscans like what are you doing why did you bring this goon she hadn't seen seen any of your work prior to this she kind of saw it but like why is this like honestly this is a big breaking story like why not give this to the Daily wire Michael noes why not p with the coinus why not EWTN Bishop Baron he did a great job with Shila whatever like what are we doing like Jordan's not going to be okay with this and then so she was a little spooked I I could tell but I I was relishing in that I was like here we are baby you got to make we're going to do this and so I didn't hear the testimonial that night something SP Spooks Jordan so he sends an email to Queenie at like 11:00 p.m. at night saying I'm not doing the interview and I was like oh gosh did he did he say why he didn't say why I imagine why I can I I'll speculate I don't know I'm not I don't know Jordan if you're watching this please forgive me I would imagine that this sounds all very odd like this is he said yes cuz he wants to support his wife he loves that man loves his wife he talks about his wife tears will come out of his eyes he loves her so much he's very devoted to her very Noble and honorable but I know Catholics and I know Catholics who have been writing letters to Jordan asking him to convert um constantly like I can't imagine like I've had friends who said I went to the Jordan Peterson thing I gave him a rosary I went to you know what me it's going to be brutal to have different religions vying For Your Allegiance right like that kind of treating you just like we need a big man on our side right yeah what does that like I imagine that honestly that that was I don't know I'm I can't read his soul but that's what I felt like this do video I'm not going to get bued about this and so he said no and then so now did he say no he's not coming or no Tammy's not coming he's not coming Tammy's all in yeah Tammy loves Queenie there and Jordan loves Queenie but this is her testimony like I don't really need to do it but Queenie made a big deal I'm really sorry if this is not like for public knowledge but it happened so this is a truth so Queenie made a big deal hey we we have a book signing at this college people are showing up you need to at least show up for the book signing sure I'm going to show up for the book signing I messaged my friend Father Jose Maria yeah I say father you need to pray you need to pray because this is not going well like there's we're getting some interference it's not going to happen he emails me back so confident father Jose Maria of the franciscans of the Immaculate seriously I love that guy his confidence was like are you kidding me are you kidding me this was organized by the mother of God do you think that that he's going to get in the way of reaching so many millions of souls I like are you kidding me Gabe don't even worry about it and so the next morning we still don't know if Jordan's going to film um Tammy gives her testimonial we film it perfectly it was good that I went it was good that I went because the lighting was a little off they had some blue lights in the background not ideal like for like it's a very cozy shot that I I designed it looks like you're at their their house that was at the in the like the bottom floor of the Opus day Center this girl's College uh my assistant did the interview because again she's far more enjoyable to talk to than I am okay um so Tammy does her interview Jordan at this point is not doing it he's not gonna do the interview he's not doing it is he there uh he hadn't shown up yet he was just going to show up for the book signing go straight to it the franciscans are like hey should we canel this should we just go and tear everything down so you can go film The B- roll I was like no like Father Jose Maria was in my soul meing so I said no set up the interview just as if Jordan's going to do it so we set up the interview we got the lighting perfectly next my I'm I don't know what's happening my so this is just coming from my son so my son was with Queenie and Jordan I think I don't know for a fact Jordan went down the wrong hallway where he shouldn't have been Queeny is overcome by the power of the Holy Spirit and says you're doing the interview I I don't know if she meant it as a question but it didn't sound like one it came off like very strong and then so alls I hear is well looks like I'm doing this interview what are we talking about guys and then my assistant's like oh we just want to talk to you about your wife your perspective on it um and it was great and I got a lot of spiritual warfare when I was editing it so when I was editing it the shots would come in and out of focus the lighting would would change U it would lose the footage but when you're a child of Mary this is one of the benefits when you're a child of Mary the devil is on a leash as long as you remain close to Mary if there's any diabolical attacks it is only so that she can crush his Ser crush his serpent head and further humiliate him so the editing that I did the first 3 or 4 minutes I knew exactly what to put in the video because those were the exact parts that the devil kept dropping like we would come in and out of focus and the colors and the the red lines would happen it would like Drop media I was like oh look this this happens to be the juiciest parts let's lead with oh she's got 10 minutes she's got 10 months to live and then let's lead with his heartbreaking that his beautiful wife is you know going to die and how are you going to so I knew what to put in because our lady let let the monkey off the leash just for a little bit wonderful so this is even better I forgot to mention this so when Tammy was healed it was on the fifth day of a novena to which Saint Jose Maria St Jose Maria kidding God is good my friend wow the Saints are alive the Saints speak to us amen all right so you edited the video You're were about to upload it knowing this is going to this is going to cause a stir what was that like uh so I had recently botched St maximilan kobby okay the the documentary you yeah so I had because of my own Pride because of my own lack of discernment I made an editing mistake and I was so eager to get it out that I uploaded it and then I had to delete it immediately after because the images didn't fill the full frame because I made it cinematic aspect ratio and not all of the images transferred okay and so it was on par to be up with 500,000 600,000 views and I and I'm still sorry to this very day that and then so I I deleted it and then it had been up for like 3 hours and so all the normal viewers all the normal subscribers that YouTube uses to check to see if this is good or not had already seen it or they clicked on it for two seconds and it didn't get the views that it deserved okay and so I had a major like stored in my heart from that and even when I arrived in Toronto the head or the the one who was in charge of the franciscans of the Immaculate were like great video on maximilan kby too bad I heard you botched it and you did not because of you thousands of souls didn't get it sorry what who saying this just just just a priest it was true I boted and so he was just questioning my judgment which is true I did I made a mistake I failed I I I I made a big mistake and I learned from it but he's accusing you like that no it's not well it wasn't accusing it was just asking if I if I it was just questioning and it was the will of God I needed it I I needed it I needed to be put in my place okay um he did the right thing and it helped me making this the documentary for Jordan and Tammy um because people will see the maximilan kobby documentary who need to see it um and I didn't I didn't watch this one thanks be to God but it was because I finally said Blessed Mother you're in charge please get and I had so so humility is distrust of self great confidence in God so I had so much distrust of myself and my confidence in God was extraordinary yeah before I forget Thursday let's put a link to that video below for this for Tammy Peterson thing because I want more and more people to see it and let me tell you something so something that there's a lot of signal Graces that came along with this so I mentioned that I was pring at St maximilan kby Shrine and then I went to St Jose Maria and the video the documentary that I made was St maximilan kby the very next one was Jose Maria yeah the birthday of St maximilan kby is January 8th the birthday of St ma uh St Jose Maria is January 9th so it's just funny how like all these patterns the Saints are so alive what feedback have you got from that video uh the most important feedback I got was from Jordan Peterson what' he say he said excellent excellent editing seriously topnotch and H and I got a feeling he's not the kind of man who would say that if he didn't mean it he really meant it and that meant a lot to me it was you did an excellent job the day of the filming I I could tell I was again this is he's opening himself up to everybody asking your wife is becoming Catholic when are you going to become Catholic right so I I I don't know but I got the impression that he wasn't going to do this again yeah but then when we turned it around and it was amazing it was it was the hand of God who edited and produced it um I think that that was a big deal for him that Catholics aren't just going to cuz I could have you know I could have exploited I could have take him out of context I could have made him sound more Catholic than he was and I gave him a fair I told the story the parts where he was a doubter I made it clear he's like well you know medically this could have happened yeah I just can't explain how it happened the day that my wife prophesied which happened to be our 30th wedding anniversary that I just can't explain so I gave the pauses for that yeah it I I I didn't you know my soul is on the line so I had to take it very carefully and I already botched something previously so w praise the Lord man but we we've had can I tell you one more Miracle story it's incredible always always more Miracle stories yeah so we were doing a documentary on St Maria GTI yep Lord help me to tell this well uh my assistant went to so first of all father Carlos Martins good friend of mine I know him he came to Houston to talk about spiritual warfare to spread his uh testim uh The Exorcist files excellent podcast very spiritually nourishing good so he came to town and he asked hey Gabe he gave the talk for free at my parish and he said Gabe do you mind filming my relics talk I said sure father of course I would love to film your relics talk I felt like hey this guy's doing me a favor coming and speak my I'm GNA I'm going to upload this talk to YouTube get hundreds of thousands of views I'll do this filming for you for free afterwards he made a donation to me for like 2 $1,000 and I asked hey can I pull the part of your talk about Maria gredy and make a documentary about it and the $2,000 donation that you gave me is exactly what I would need to pay for my assistant to go to Italy and film at Maria G's house all that happens she she comes back into town uh she gives me the footage I have father Carlos I have the uh footage she filmed in Italy in Nuno I'm editing it for some reason the footage goes red diabolical attacks I don't know what it is it works on her computer it's not working on my computer I have the very very very high-end computer so I say all right I'm going to go edit this in the church I go to the church everything's working fine and then father Carlos goes on this long explanation of how Maria gry's first miracle was a young man whose foot was crushed and they were going to have to cut it off and then so I'm like I don't have I don't have five minutes of footage of broken foot this is not good and then he goes to the next part where he says and then a young man just recently he had a broken foot and I said why don't you pray to Maria geretti and he was miraculously healed I'm like again now I've got 10 minutes of no footage of a kid what am I I'm I'm venting the same frustration that you're experiencing now to the Lord in the Blessed Sacrament Lord what the heck like what am I supposed I don't even know what it looks like I can't wrap my son's foot up so he's like you're done this is all interior again you're done go inside you're done don't talk to me that way so I'm like I'm sorry please forgive me he's like you're done for today I'm walking to my office and I'm going to change the name of this individual I'm walking to my office and my pastor is talking to my assistant you need to pray for Kevin and I was like what Happ she this is not my conversation I said what happened to Kevin yeah last night he was working and a crane fell and broke his foot and they're going to have to cut it off and I said that's great that's fantastic he's like what I was like I was just I was just editing a video and I need a foot that's about to be amputated oh my and he's like what he's like no no your explanation doesn't make this better okay and it's a long story but I had just received a first class relic of St Maria gry in the mail I know this is a lot of I know I know no are you kidding this what long form discussions are for don't leave out a detail man go it's it's it's really going to open up a can of worms okay so oh my gosh blessing mother mercy on your poor Center so I was doing a silent retreat at a passionist retreat center mhm in like 2021 I know and I had an overwhelming sense that I needed a relic of St Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows I don't know why I don't know how it just overwhelming I don't know anything about him other than my name is Gabriel and his name is Gabriel yeah overwhelming sense I needed his Relic so I go home I message Father Carlos Martins I sent him a couple relics that are on eBay do not do this leave this poor man alone please out of obedience if you're getting anything from the story do not bug him about if relics are real or not real he does not want to hear it he didn't want to hear it from me either way he said yes this Relic is real and I said is it a sin to buy it he said no I I discourage it but it's real and if you wanted to buy it it's all you and I said I promise I'll never ask about this ever again I was about to buy it and the spirit of the Lord spoke to me and said don't buy it wait until Monday this is a Friday wait until Monday and I said okay so on Monday I'm going to my Parish office and a gentleman named Wayne whom I love Wayne and kabuse Gabriel I came to see you I said oh tell me he said I got you a prayer card of St Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows and I was like cool I was going to buy his Relic and he said to wait till Monday but this is just a prayer card it's not a relic great I recognize the hand of God at least I'm not nuts yeah and I might be a little bit nuts so I took a picture of the prayer card this is June 21st okay 2021 I remember the exact day I took a picture of it and I put it on Facebook I said such a coincidence just thinking about him five minutes later I get a text message from a priest father Kennedy from Alexandria Louisiana he says I saw your post on Facebook I have access to a first class relic of St Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows and St Gemma galgani can I give them to you I feel like it's God's will that I give you this relic of course pause now we're going back in time to my St Maria gry documentary I'm buying a prayer card of St Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows on eBay yeah in the sidebar is a picture of a relic that looks exactly like my St Gabriel one from the passionist monastery from Rome that I know is real and I see it says Maria geretti but it looks exactly like my St Gabriel one so I'm like why would Maria G she's not a passionist I didn't know that she went to a passionist parish and so the passionist claimed her as their own okay and so I forwarded that picture to that priest and I said father I hate to bother you I know this is not normal why does this look exactly like my other one he's like oh there's no shadow of it doubt like I can't tell you 100% like don't venerate this in a church um because you're getting it on eBay so there is like a 0.001% chance that this Relic is not real but I would I have a moral certitude that that's a relic of Maria grti and it was under the price of like 200 bucks so I I ordered it um and it arrived the day before I found out about this poor kid's foot getting going to get amputated yeah so I'm trying to convince my pastor I was like father I'm making a documentary about Maria geretti she healed a man you're trying to explain to him in 5 minutes what you've just taken this long just explain to me it was broken it was very bad it was very ugly he was not happy and he's a very calm Discerning individual and I have a relic of hers that just came in the mail can I can I can you you just tell me what hospital can you give me the name or the email of the dad or the mom and I can contact he's like absolutely not you are the youth Minister Minister not exploiter you're not going to exploit this young man's foot so that you can make a YouTube video I was like but father this is perfect I got The Relic yesterday and I just was like editing this and I didn't have the footage this is God's will he's said no absolutely not mhm so I go back to the church I'm like clearly this is your will Lord clearly this is your will and he's like it is my will I was like go back and talk to your pastor and I said fine at the same time you have to understand this is not normal you you grasp this this is not normal so sometimes as a sign I asked for little signs from our lady can you give me some confirmation just that external signals of things that are going on in my heart that I'm not insane that what you say to me in prayer is real like I don't need it but this is not normal so I asked her for Seven Lions what does that mean I have no idea what the heck that means dude I was like give me seven lines I don't was that toys is that stickers what what do you want I I just said it okay okay I just said it without really thinking about it seven lines I can assure you I was not thinking okay I was thinking about one thing I was I was thinking about one thing get to that hospital I need this footage this this is like the Friday before the Feast of Maria GTI which is the next week and I want this documentary out by her feast day because that's prime time to get people to share videos so I go to my pastor he's having a meeting with somebody a friend of mine who's very devoted to Mar ready so I I interrupt the meeting because I took that as a providential sign I was like hey I know you're having a conversation you're going to love this story father uh so can you please I promise you I will not film him I I will not film him can I just go and pray with him father just want to pray with him just offer some support because he's a young man and he's probably questioning God's timing of all of this and he's a track star he's an amazing track star one of the best track athletes ever so he said fine I'll give you the dad's contact info and you can you guys work this out don't exploit this young man I said I I I don't want to I only want the will of God so I take my relic of St Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows I take my newly relic of St Maria GTI and I'm driving to the Texas Medical Center and I'm praying I was like what what how do you how what is the process Lord I I have never prayed with somebody who is actually like traumatized and who might be emotionally vulnerable uh what is the like I don't want to put you on the spot because I think you want to heal this child um what should I do and so he said in prayer again I'm this is my discernment go over there you know tell him the story of Maria grti tell him that there's no guarantee that the ordinary means is to let nature take its course but sometimes God can break the laws of nature if but not that's not the norm and we should that doesn't mean that God doesn't love us Etc yeah and then I felt like he was saying and then prayer rosary and Thanksgiving for the grace that he wasn't killed that he has a family that loves him that he has the Catholic faith and I was like we'll put a pin on that one because I we'll just see how this goes right yeah so I get out I don't even know where the hospital room is like I've never been to the medical center so I get out of the car I'm holding two relics going through the lobby of some garage I just see the first nurse I see and I get in the elevator with her and she I didn't tell her what floor I was going to go to she automatically hits floor 7 and then I'm like well that was weird we're going to the seventh floor all right so we're going up this elevator I exit the elevator and I see oh we're not in the hospital we are still in the parking garage but I did ask for Seven Lions and this kid is going to be on the seventh floor and this nurse took me to the seventh floor so my Spidey Sense is on spiritual heightened alert right so we go in and I come back out I'm like all right I got to text the Dad where are we he's like we're in the seraphim wing of this medical building Etc we're on the seventh floor come over here so I go in and the boy is so overwhelmed with the power of the Holy Spirit he looks at me and he says Gabe this was this was not an accident when it was happening it was happening as if it was slow motion and I knew the hand of God was involved in this he like I am not sad I not desolation he was so confident and I explained to him I was like exactly as I rehearsed in the car I'm going to put the prayer card in your cast like and the the doctors thought that worst case scenario we're cutting your foot off uh best case scenario one day maybe you can walk we're going to do a we're going to put a lot of pins and a lot of plates and a lot of everything in here hopefully you can walk I wouldn't count on running ever again all right so I we do the prayer I give him the Relic he puts the Relic to his head uh part of the prayer is forgiving everybody including yourself for all anybody who's ever hurt you forgive yourself as well uh afterwards he's overwhelmed with peace and he says Gabe can we pray the rosary and I said excuse me he's like I just want to pray in Thanksgiving that my life wasn't lost and that I've got a father and a brother and a mother and all these siblings who absolutely love God and I'm just so thankful can we pray Rosary I'm was like oh my gosh this is crazy so we kneel down we pray the rosary and afterwards like I'm this is probably one of the most powerful spiritual moments of my life and nothing has happened I'm like like I'm just overwhelmed by this kid's Faith yeah um and he's like after we're done he's like thanks so much for praying with me it meant so much that you came up to visit me and I was like dude you're the lion you're a lion like you've got the Heart of a Lion you're a fighter you've got god with you and he's like I am I was like no no like like I mean like you're a lion like you're he's like like no no I am I am literally the lion I am the mascot for my school I am like I wear the lion head and I run through the thing at football games and I was like wow I was like can I I know this is kind of absurd I'm making this documentary can I can I film your foot it's like absolutely for the glory of God I want God to be glorified through all of this and so I film him so in that documentary of St Maria GTI there is about five or six minutes of footage in a real hospital with a kid whose foot was really crushed by a crane who was supposed to have it amputated I left I did not reach out to the I reached out to the F the family one time after that because I don't know I don't know where they're at spiritually so I was just reached out to the dad I was like how how are things going fine you know he's in pain he's at home he's suffering uh he's questioning things which is normal I was like I'm going to leave it alone because here you are in a documentary about two people whose feet were healed by St Maria GTI yeah it I didn't want to mess with it I was just like I all of this was in the Providence of God there are no accidents there's no accidents I don't know and then a week later I see the mom and I say how's my boy doing and she just starts balling and she's like so and so didn't reach out to you her husband I was like no I haven't heard from him and she just gives me the biggest hug she said the doctor said that you're either the most lucky young man who has ever lived or you've been blessed by God you don't need any surgery you don't need any amputation in 3 to 4 months you'll be walking again and to this day this happened literally last July the Feast of M Grady's July 6 literally last year he's now running cross country without a problem wow because the Saints are alive that is incred insanity dude I love it I love that you were like all right I I'll take this you're the Heart of a Lion seven seventh floor sure we're stretching it a bit but that's okay no literally I'm Al lar yeah and it's funny because they're seven members of their family and their family is so faithful they truly are do have the Heart of a Lion when it comes I can't wait to watch this documentary same Mar documentary 600,000 views it's really good God so what you got in the hopper what's the next thing a lot so in prayer uh stories are really important it's coming up to me that stories are really important maximilan kby knew this so I I personally believe maximilan kby he did he knew he was going to be a martyr his theology is revolutionary John Paul II called him the prophet of the New Millennium um so I personally believe that at aitz when the guard said okay I'm selecting 10 maximilan kby was looking for the opportunity to give his life for the mother of God because one to fulfill prophecy but other than that the mariology that he's made famous would not exist he would just been some cooky old Franciscan who loved the Virgin Mary too much much but because he said yes to the story of his life our lady was able to do beautiful things so the goal is to continue to make beautiful stories about the lives of the Saints to highlight people stories who live ordinary lives and some who live heroic lives or famous lives like the Petersons like some of the testimonials we have God willing we discussed hopefully I can share your life um your conversion your story your hopes your dreams um on the podcast I on the YouTube channel as well as your wife so that also sharing parts of my own life because I don't share some of these stories even though there's a story for every single video just because it's spiritually dangerous for me just because Pride I have literally have the word humility tattooed on my hand because I don't want to go to hell um and I might still go but at least I'll go begging the mother of God to give me the grace of humility um so sharing that story but really just sharing sharing our lady in the story I I really believe that every saint who's ever lived their life is a story and humans are naturally drawn to stories one of the reasons your podcast is so po besides the great work you do is that you're sharing the story of God and individuals and it resonates with people in different ways no matter who the person is on there's always somebody who can say I can relate to that guy it's funny earlier you said that you get some of these interviews in so that you can like yes you know yes tell people to pray the rosary yeah and something something similar with what I do because I like having the bigger names on so that we can have the No Name on Whose story is just if not more powerful than the big name and people are blown away because people are so fascinating and the Lord is working in their life just as much as he is and the more popular people that's what struck me when I told you about that quote from Steve Jobs Steve Jobs again played an important role in my life because at the same time I was looking at people on EWTN and on Stubenville conference stages and thinking they're special they're doing what I can't do and then when Steve Jobs pointed it out they're not they just happen to be in the same place you Reed the same sacraments that the Apostle Steve Jobs didn't say that but that's what was going that's what the Holy Spirit was saying to me like just because they're on a stage just because they have a mic just because they have a camera doesn't mean that they're special anybody anybody everybody's story is powerful well and we have to I think it's a sign maybe of Pride too to downplay the work that the Lord has for us and this happened to be recently I was invited to Sydney to speak and what I noticed is the way I was explaining it left a lot to be desired what are you doing I'm going to Sydney to give some talks I'm like that's not what you're doing you are going to Sydney to proclaim the Gospel of Jesus Christ for the Salvation of Souls and I thought to well why would I downplay that and then it's it's all this false humility well because look at you have you met you you're pathetic it's like yeah but what does that have to do with meim and not proclaiming the gospel I am going to proclaim the gospel and I think just accepting that yes there's no pride in accepting what has been placed within you and you and you can glory and say I am a sinner so the devil will whisper to us you're not good enough and sometimes you're like you're right I'm not good enough the answer the answer is you're right I'm not good enough but thanks be to God this is about Jesus and Mary because they are good enough anybody can do anything as long as they cooperating with the grace of God yeah glory to Jesus Christ this has been a pleasure you're the best man I appreciate you having me on thanks for taking a chance oh I wish we had done it sooner thank you for all the work that you're doing we have you links to your YouTube channel your excellent videos below please go subscribe to Gabby why Gabby after hours so my mom again remember I mentioned how she's Mexican so she calls me Gabrielle you you you mentioned that she might be Mexican or that she she thinks she's Mexican I'll honor her Mexican heritage so for short she will call me gabby uh so the short for Gabrielle is Gabby yeah it doesn't sound too masculine doesn't sound too strong so my mom calls me Gabby and people who know me well and intimately will sometimes call me gobby when I was making my YouTube channel I had had I this is a big mistake that I made I had three channels I was I was building three houses which was very dumb I did that early on I had like a podcast Channel I had this channel I had talks Channel very stupid I wish I could go back in time and say build one house have three rooms in your house okay and so I was venturing into videos where I was speaking by saying okay after lent I'm gon I mean during Lent I'm gonna do two hours of adoration and so it'll be like gobby his Reflections that he got after two hours of adoration and after I would do those two hours I would come out and talk about stuff some of it more relevant than others but the only ones that did not give me hiccups in editing or in publishing were the ones about Mary and then so very quickly I was like I see what you're doing the people of God don't need me they need you okay so the name just stuck cabby after hours fantastic thanks man thank you brother

Channel: Pints With Aquinas

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Length: 171min 19sec (10279 seconds)

Published: Tue Apr 09 2024