Coming out story!

okay well I don't know why it's focusing hello when I can there you go okay it's working now so it says like it's going to die but I just charged it slowly for like three days it's been on the charger and I don't know why it's going to die so see how long this lasts but so hi guys it was my first video but since it's like June and it's fried month I thought I should come up with my coming-out story like I do I'm doing this just because when I was you know in the closet and I needed to like I don't know accept myself I walked coming up so some YouTube and it kind of helped me so much and I kind of want to give back to the community I guess in that sense by just telling my story and so we'll start with when I was - oh god not when I was - 2 years old yep - no when I was in third grade that's what I meant so third grade I was like had this crush on the story and we had recess they were playing basketball okay so it did end up dying like she's like excited I think I'll talk apart when like he's like playing basketball and I was like yeah I won't play basketball with you even knowing damn well I did not know how to play basketball never play basketball before so you're like okay they gave me the ball and they were like oh make a shot you can be on my team and I'll say okay I will and I end up making the shot and then I was like I like walked away like I was come like a boss ass [ __ ] right so that's when I first knew that's besides the point so that's when I first knew and then going on to like middle school so it's kind of like I wasn't in the back of my mind I never really thought about it and that's when people you know start saying that's gay gay and you know you kind of fall in with that you're like oh that's gay - I'm like oh yeah you know being gay is bad all that stuff it wasn't like sixth grade and nori grad gym class and Steve just like looked over to me he's like you're gay right and I was like ah like what so gay and so I was like okay well figure out that I guess people I think him and I'm gay so what am i doing so I kind of just like you know started I guess acting straight so then we go to freshman year and then freshman year was did like time when it kind of hit and so you know freshman it was kind of a bad year for me cuz I was conflicting on you know yes I am I like kept on denying myself and I was just like no I'm not no I'm not and that's when I started watching those coming out videos on YouTube and all of those stuff just really helped me accept myself because it really is the ethics of yourself before you can have ever anybody else except you even until after sophomore year I go to New York City with just by myself because my family lives that and I don't know that's when I really just started realizing that like I don't really care and you know you can be whatever you want whoever you want and this I was going down the street and I would just see people with you know proper hair blue hair and like acting a certain way and they just did not give just any [ __ ] and I saw that and I was like really why am i how am I so scared to just come out and so I remember like I told myself I was going to tell somebody when I come back when I go I want to go back to school so that was in the summer so junior started it was about October that I but so it wasn't until like I came back and it was October until inch it was one of my friends came out out of so it was like October and I go we go to Chapel and I'm just sitting there I'm like okay this is what I'm gonna tell him literally can I cannot speak the words for some reason I cannot just say like hey I am gay and I don't know I just sat there and then at the end of dinner like I ended up not saying anything and like and so we left and I don't know I kind of stalked though because I was you know burning all this courage that day to tell him and it ended up not working out Oh January was around we're back in school and it's January 17th can whenever forget that day and it probably is not the best place tell somebody but so me and Alix Otto are in the hot my hot tub I have a hot tub we're just sitting there and I'm like okay well this is the time when obviously Paulie is not the time but let's go with it so we're just animal how to have and show him like okay I have to tell you something and so he's like okay and for 30 straight minutes I'm telling you that he shakes a minute I'm like I'm like 45 minute a so I'm just like I am gay and he's like I know he literally said I know and I was like okay well how did you know and so he's like well you remember that time in October and you said you need to tell me something from October to January he knew the entire time didn't act any different didn't like do anything different and was still like my best friend which was awesome um so that kind of just gave me the encouragement to you know come out to other people but I know I'm still sketchy so you know he knew for like a good month and then I think it was February when um my mom like I'm about to go out it's a saturday night and my mom comes in my room on my phone going through twitter and if you know my mom she's just like it's super like open and she's just like set up sat on my bed and was like Alex do you like boards and let me tell you it was sure like when I tell you so I was just like whoa okay we're doing this now so I just thought like I said for like good three seconds sounds like you know what screw it and I was like yep yeah I do and she was like oh when did you know like how do you know this and I was I told her the whole story I'm basically telling now and she was so cool with it and she was awesome like really I mean I knew she was gonna be awesome about it just being my mom I I knew she was gonna be fine it was just kind of the courage to say it and so my dad wasn't there actually in Sochi he wasn't there and I was like oh like don't tell Dad but I'll tell him she's like oh okay like I won't so she told my dad um and I'm just like oh okay but I mean I was lowkey Matt at the time but I was just like whatever so my dad set me down he's like are you sure like you know and all that stuff and I was like yeah and yeah and he also has like a best friend just seems really cool about it you know after that I thought I told my parents you know it just kind of looks like a snowball effect then I told my sister and I wasn't in town my brother and lord and behold guess who told my brother my mom and so then I just started telling people and select entire year of junior year I like told all my close friends who I thought should know before I you know come out publicly whenever that was um I just told you know a bunch of people and it's just like every time it was such a great feeling and also a great response like everybody was just loving everything was everybody was just like accepting and I couldn't have asked for a better you know coming out story I guess what you want to say and so after that two news comes around and I don't know I'm like feeling you know it's senior year like who doesn't love the new year like you're ready to get out of there but you ready to be like on top of the school and you know you know who everybody is all you have your close friends like you know the best time so I was I was skeptical about coming out just because and this is gonna sound super I don't mean to sound when I say this I don't mean to sound like you know superficial but like you know I was pretty well known in my high school I was in student council I was in all these clubs um until like early in the year I made like homecoming court and you know there's my first time making in court and I was just like okay well I you know this is kind of cool and I didn't want to lose that I didn't want to lose I guess you would say I don't wanna lose like the popularity status and so like it kind of just drew me back into the closet a little bit more because I don't know I some stupid reason I thought like if I came out you know publicly then I was going to lose money no status and they're like you know everybody was gonna like not be my friend anymore and it was the dumbest thing it was so dumb and so I kind of just lino kept on telling close friends slowly but not coming up publicly and so then the summer comes around and it's you're in the closet right now or you ever been in the closet then you know the feeling of like excuse me and I just gets like a burden on your shoulders and it's just like a weight and oh wow what the hell okay um anyways so it's just like that burnin I think I'm dying okay I don't know what that was but if you just know you know that burden on your shoulders and it gets tiring or people are asking you oh why aren't you dating any girls like who you dating like I've never seen you haven't seen you date anybody and then January and whenever I come around and I'm tired of people asking me like all those questions before and so like I just said that I'm just like okay I'm going to do it publicly I'm going to do it publicly and so throughout the whole entire like three weeks of winter break I'm just sitting there like okay I'm gonna do it how am I going to do so December 31st and I'm just like okay I'm gonna do it who cares I'm tired I don't care I'm going to college next year and who cares in my family supportive all my friends are supportive so far and I could care less you know I have a good a great support system so I make this whole post on my Instagram and I was just like yeah like I'm gay putting this whole paragraph and stuff with a picture that says like be true and just like the response I got from it everybody was so accepting everybody was just like I'm so proud of you Congrats like you know this is big and I was just feeling great because I never expected that to happen really I never did so it was just such a great experience I'm a senior to this day will still be one of the best times of my entire life that entire half second half you know it was just it was great it was honestly if you're in high school right now and you think that I don't know like things aren't looking up or anything just just wait and find out a group of friends you know I was very lucky and I know that some situations are harder than mine but you know you just have to help and that's you know watching those videos like I said as a 9th grader they just gave me hope and that's what I run on is just hope that the next day I can maybe meet my best friend next day I could do something that will change something did you have to you gotta have to have hope I don't know after that it was just great and high school was awesome and then college rolled around and here we are my friend that's another video my freshman year of college because it was probably the best year of my life I know I've said that books in year honestly like I don't just fly faster coming up is great so you're thinking about came out I'll do it just do it like I said my situation was great and if yours is something that you feel like it's not going to be safe to come out and I hate to say it and you know stay in the closet until it's time and you're not you know we live with people that might not take it very well but if you have nothing to lose and you just fear about what people think you should be jumping out of that closet because it's the life on the other side something that you couldn't really imagine so I don't know happy pride and I hope this video helps and tell me if you liked it at the bottom of the like button yeah this is my first video so like we didn't know how to sign off but you know if you liked it then subscribe and if you like this video can give it a thumbs up and I'll see you guys later thanks let's look and thanks for looking thanks for listening guys

Channel: AlexanderJimenez

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Length: 12min 53sec (773 seconds)

Published: Wed Jun 14 2017