Chatting with SupCaitlin's Mod | MositCr1tikal

Dil streaming right now saying it was all for Content yeah I've been keeping up okay we'll just immediately get into it I I've been keeping up it's pretty much like I predicted he has been brainwashed into thinking their friends and let's just go ahead and assume behind closed doors she's super nice to him her publicly doing that to him shows that she's extremely fake and doesn't respect him regardless if she's let's just say once the stream goes off she's so sweet to him it means she's embarrassed to be seen publicly with him and that's still bad that's not a good Dynamic that's not a friend there's no way of spinning this as like a good relationship between these two at all and he keeps saying or he and she keeps saying that it's just banter but it's not banter is the exchange of playful insults there was no exchange he made one slight joke about her and felt super uncomfortable by it she went an hour and 25 minutes of nothing but like the deepest cut insults she could think of it's just it's really sad thanks Z sub Edgar and dickley the prime TJ oh Jesus Christ Jay that's [ __ ] horrifying I'm sorry to hear that a tier one gyro and congrats Omar welcome Robin so do you think it's fully just him being down bad for her or do you think there's any truth to it being for or do you think there's any truth to it being for Content at all no uh I think actually the best take so far I've seen actually comes from CNA she basically said that if this is all just an act if the streamer is pretending to just be a giant bully why is she surprised or offended that everyone views her as a giant bully it's a really dumb thing regardless but I truly don't believe this was some kind of mutually agreed upon content play cuz if it was I don't think Dilly would have just sat there and taken everything without making jokes of his own back it's not banter he just sat there for an hour and 25 minutes getting roasted by her in the meanest ways possible they're not jokes saying that she'd rather be emotionally abused and traumatized with her ex then date him is not a joke that's hateful but he's been convinced by her that it's all just content and whatever you sub cyosi in pocket and Allen I'd love to talk to Dilly if he wants to if he's streaming I'm super down to have a conversation pick his brain about it a little bit maybe break the spell thanks to the reub terrific and bruix and archive the tier one detective you know what movies are looking forward to this year I can't remember what all movies are coming out soon in the membership vacuum the re sub G re PP man and Legend bro I watch your streams it's a whole routine to humiliate guys it's totally normal for her she's done it for years it's a terrible shtick and I've also went back and watched some of that too Dilly got it by far the worst and he is by far the one that cares the most about her she doesn't interact with anybody else that way I went and watch clips of her with ass son I went and watch Clips with her with a couple other streamers she seems totally normal there but it's people like Dilly that she believes is beneath him or ugly or undatable or whatever that she just brings this outright demon out so in the best case scenario she's extremely fake and embarrassed to be seen with people like Dilly and makes it very clear to her audience to humiliate them no matter how you there's no positive way of spinning it thanks you said bradden fancy and the membership Tyrant this is like that one person in the Middle School group that all the friends just jab at never letting them be confident it's the same Dynamic it's not a friend it's a punching bag than to the prime top I don't know there's people into being cucked maybe this is just what he likes it's very possible but it doesn't seem like that's what it is if that's what he liked about it he'd be like I actually enjoy being humiliated but with his response he seems to think that this is some kind of mutual banter but it's not you weren't bantering with her you didn't say any jokes back except for one time and you got visibly uncomfortable when you made the slightest joke like that's not banter it was one-sided insults and you were the subject you the content you're saying like it was all for Content you know it was all just jokes for Content you were the joke she made you the joke for an hour and 25 minutes for everyone to laugh at and the joke was you had no chance with her hah ha haa and she had to keep reminding you of that and bringing you down that's not healthy that's not that's not a friend thanks to the membership Joseph but again if he's if he came out and said you know what I actually have a humiliation Kink and she helps me fulfill it I'd be like you know what all power to you you know who who am I to you know take a poop in your pudding whatever enjoy it then but that's not what he's saying sub shmeep and tricky and Manuel in the prime strange tier one fly firef you didn't make the point to tell people not to harass her I noticed I just don't think I need to I don't think I need to be that Perpetual Manny to remind people of the most basic common sense I didn't have her name anywhere I still have not even said her name a single time that I've been talking about this whole thing and I have done nothing to tie anything back to her I like I don't think I need to make it known not to harass her I've made that clear for [ __ ] 17 years than some G I even trimmed this out of her tweet so you couldn't see her Twitter handle okay I just realized though like he has her name in here but that's not her stream it's not her Channel ad him and stranger thanks for membership Zoe hey well I hope it's going well mesch hope the series is going well that's super sweet thanks Calvin working on any projects we had a couple big ones in the works I heard he's being interviewed right now I'll have to watch it when it's done or if he wants I'm super open to talk to get his perspective on it I I really think she has convinced him of a complete fantasy and it's extremely bad for him and it's sad to see but maybe he convinces me the opposite that this is actually the best friendship that's ever blossomed maybe I need to start treating my friends more like she does why are you even bothering to dress up tonight Caleb you're not getting any [ __ ] Loveless loser what the [ __ ] oh my God just go home why are we going out you're not getting you're not getting laid tonight go home maybe that'll be a big hit I've been watching the interview it seems like he doesn't really focus on the negative Parts just kind of ignores the bad stuff like you said it's almost like he's brainwashed it's It's Not Unusual that again I think kids in middle school demonstrate that I'm sure when you guys were growing up you knew somebody or maybe you even were that person that was the butt of every joke and you never got the sense that you really belonged with your friends but you also didn't really want to be alone either so you stick there and let them just constantly insult you and bring you down it it is that is not unusual and that's exactly what this feels like but in a much bigger more public way he wants to talk perfect how can I reach him what's his Discord or his Twitter thanks the membership Kyo yeah wish you the best of luck on it m I hope gumo Joe's going well than the re Nova and fox for us I still haven't watched the Cat Williams podcast yet thanks the reub mob congratulations on quitting it Luca and the prime Zam re cantalope it's dr. Dilly on Discord or Twitter it's definitely not Twitter because this brings up someone named Erica and a cat is that his disc here let me try Discord okay I think this is the the right one let me see if he's up to talk if not we can just talk off stream I don't want to make him uncomfortable now let me double check to make sure this is him before someone just comes in here and says like a racial slur or something cuz I just took chat at their word that this is his right Discord account I have not feel like being is anyone else like this every time I every time I try to go to Twitch it's immediately to that clip okay let me see if this is the right account hey you got the right account hey hey hey all right how you doing Charlie you mind can call you that yeah absolutely you can call me Charlie 100% here let me let me pull you up on stream here yeah I've just been doing my run of interviews so I'm excited to finally just talk you know no I appreciate that yeah it's an uncomfortable time topic so it it takes a lot to do what you're doing so I I do appreciate you giving giving me the time here of course of course I'm just shocked of you know how everything kind of transpired because you know I've been watching you for a long time and um this is just crazy to cross my mind but you know I gotta speak my my mind and speak my truth yeah no I totally get that and I do appreciate it hold on I'm leaking our DMS immediately here that took almost zero seconds of course car okay perfect all right we're in business we're in business all right so your name's Dylan is that is that okay if I call you that yeah you can call me Dylan all right so why don't we just take it from the top so how did you and Caitlyn meet and become friends right so we became business partners first right so I reached out to her and uh wanted to get her PC set up kind of right so that's kind of like the the lore is that I'm her PC sponsor um so we met initially two years ago and I built her computer and then just kind of hit it off uh as you know friends and then I became kind of a mod doing more behind the scenes work for Content related stuff and just kind of had a personal relationship with kind of you know how tighten it with that kind of you know kind of stuff kind of goes around with a content creator okay that I think that makes a lot of sense now how close would you say you guys are do you guys like talk every day do you guys play games together off stream like what does that Dynamic look like yeah so yeah know we do play games uh off stream together um she is like super into valerant and she's made me probably a way better player than you know just be just from our friendship and just you know having our banter and just like going back and forth on stuff like that so I just like I've gotten better at games thanks to her and our time off stream and then um we know we talk pretty much every week cuz we have like like obviously uh so I want to tell people that I came and visited and I'm on vacation right and I was like hey let's do some streams together right so I know how to cook and I know she's into cooking streams and then that we would do like a drinking stream right so that's just kind of what happened I was like oh let's make the most out of my trip because it was like super last minute and she was like super accommodating for a last minute idea now when you I think all that content idea sounds super logical but did you discuss like you being the subject of all of the jokes I I'm using that word real Loosey Goosey here CU in in my opinion it's less jokes and more just deep cut insults and I know you're at her house right now so it might be a little uncomfortable to get get serious about it but no I mean I can I I I can I've thought about it and just like uh I've been kind of Shifting you know my I've been in a character Arc development right so I've been taking more initiative on being a part of her content right so like she does other content like dating shows and interviews therapy you know just chatting meta right and I have recently became became like a co-host a personality that's a regular on her her chat and the personality I like to give is like my nickname's the dizzler hence the rise of the Riz a rizzler dizzler right right so initially the idea was oh if I got a kiss it'd be like hype bw's you know it's it's pushing that dizzler narrative that I've been working on because I've been doing co-hosting um you know wingmanning for guys helping the girls that do the content we do together and you know cuz I to to talk to girls you have to have some kind of Competency and like to have the competency to teach them how to you know work on their Riz right so like I have to have that kind of confidence to talk to them not you know back down and like Oh I'm a Discord mod this and that you just say I'm a normal guy that talks to people that just happens to mod for up Caitlin it's just it just that's just what happened yeah that's and I get that that's not really like where I'm confused on the relationship or anything but you you already mentioned the kiss like did you expect that kind of response when that donation goal was hit where she'd start just like dry heaving like she you know trying to throw like as if you were so unbelievably revolting that she had to run away rinse out her mouth [ __ ] say a prayer or something for forgiveness because of kissing you like there's no way that was a joke you knew was coming or like this was the content you envisioned um I wasn't shocked from it because we've discussed you know like our friendship is like brother sister and then if you put your mindset on like you know she only kisses someone very seldomly if at all right that she has to kiss someone that she says as like a little brother and I can understand that I wouldn't want to kiss my older sister and be you know is that okay so is that the relationship you feel you have with her a brother sister do you rate like everything in that stream I watched it you were extremely sweet and complimentary of her like not as a sister but as someone who's clearly more interested than that do you feel it's a brother sister relationship or just the way brother sister cuz I feel like you know when you mentioned something about like romantic interest is like if that's the case I wouldn't be invited to her place I wouldn't be living here in her personal space right so that's the agreement and our our trust and friendship um to kind of keep it at that content level and just like kind of understand that you know we are here to try to entertain now did it achieve that goal kind of sort of but yeah I I do see her as like an older sister and that's just how I have to perceive it right you know do you see why that's kind of hard for me to believe like you gave her a 10 out of 10 on the hotness scale when it was asked would you hit you you were like yeah I definitely hit she's like I definitely wouldn't or are you two dating no I don't claim him things like that even though it's with the things you said it's it feels like it's not brother sister on your end it feels more like she keeps you there because that's how she wants it to feel do do you see where I'm coming from yeah and and that's just because I'm just super in tune of like what the content we were looking to push out right it's just like because if I say no I wouldn't hit oh she's a seven out of 10 oh that just means I'm just saying it just to say it because you know if I don't mean it or like you know don't think my friend is all that then because I got to be honest with myself at some points like it's I think it's okay to make not direct compliments like you know if it if we're in that situation just be honest you know and that's so then are you happy with this kind of content that gets made at your expense where she's saying things like oh your hands tinier than mine which mean or were the same size hands so you have a tiny dick or I'd rather go with my ex who emotionally abused me and traumatized me than date you for 6 months does that is that like good content to you like is that a good relationship I would say you know I I'm the guest and that's just what came out of her mouth I can't control but then just tell me regardless of what you can control how did that make you feel did that feel like content or did that feel like oh that didn't feel good at all to hear you say those things you care about her even if it's a brother sister Dynamic that you're saying you clearly care about her and for her to say something like that and meaner throughout the stream did that feel like content or did it feel like she was taking extremely rude Jabs at you um I just didn't take it personally because I just feel like you know like it like we we both had to reassure each other whatever had been said or what like I could have dished out more I could have been like I'm way better than your ex what the [ __ ] are you trying to say now and that's where I'm even more confused because you and Caitlyn keep saying it's banter banter is an exchange this was a one-handed [ __ ] wall up here where all she was doing was insulting you throughout the stream you made one slight joke about her and kind of got uncomfortable and backpedal it that's not banter this was you being there for her to just spit on like a trash can basically right like that and if if we're going the content route wouldn't you want to be the dizzler who's like no I'm actually way above her or like when she's going in for the kiss you stand up and you walk away that would be more content brained than what happened here which is why I feel like this doesn't really add up right and you know I think everyone was kind of seeing me struggle with my cat allergy thing right so I just was already trying to hold it together and just like trying not to [ __ ] it up even more already as [ __ ] as it right because like if you people who know me as my personality as the dizzler right there are times we like CH have me come on and talk and I'll be like so when are you coming over and we're going to do it I'm like nah I'm good cuz like you know I'm talking to you know whatever right because uh part of helping her with her content I I have to talk to a lot of women and I joke I like no don't worry don't worry about me you already done enough for me or whatever right so it's just like there's moments where like she'll throw it out there and then it's up to me to like take that content or like mold it to what I want it to be it's just that day you is an extreme version of pushing it on the this is a Discord mod this is a twitch mod he's in my [ __ ] house and you know he's I have to kiss him that's that's that was the why do you why do you settle for that like why why be that guy you're you're not a badl looking guy you're not a weird guy too like you break the mold of like that stereotypical creepy weirdo mod who's going to be like you know snorting panties out the Wazoo or what whatever why settle for being that to her it's just I think it just comes down to what I've done beforehand to get to this point it's just you know I had recently gotten out of a five-year relationship right and I decided to take this V you know this trip and just kind of like use it as soul searching and a part of that is I'm still going to have some tendencies that I left behind or carry with me right so I'm just the guy to take it all in and burden it and that's just something I've been working on but even the way you're describing it burdening it but why why do that like you're again you're not a weirdo you don't need to be a you know taking this burden from her saying these extremely disrespectful things to your face and having her chat dog pile you for being mod in my house Red Alert oh my God I have to kiss this this guy you're not a 6 out of 10 I would have said that like why why take that you don't that's not a healthy relationship like I don't know how she treats you off stream if she's extremely sweet to you when the cameras aren't on and then she treats you like this when the cameras are on that means she's fake and she is embarrassed of you and that's again not healthy I talked about this right before you joined it's kind of like I feel like a lot of people can relate to this kids they'll have like a friend group and there's usually like someone in that friend group that is just a punching bag it's not really a friend and that person doesn't feel like they really belong there but they also don't want to leave because it's still that group so they just take it and it's not good it doesn't feel good and that's what all of this seemed like to me it doesn't seem content brain cuz if it was all like the dlers marching through you better hide your [ __ ] this s and panty is going to be flying out the door dizzler is here I feel like you would have you would have turned down the kiss you would have said actually you're a 6 out of 10 that would have been you laying into that Persona and if she was playing along with it for Content she'd be like oh no he's not going to [ __ ] me but when we go to this club damn it's about to get wild out there it's going to pop but none of that happened it felt more like she used you to just insult perpetually to bring you down to put up this I don't want to use the word facade cuz I don't know her but to put up this whole barrier like the this guy doesn't have a chance let's laugh at him and that's just that's not good like that's no one deserves that kind of treatment right and I I'mma tell you how it's like a it's a formula right this is what it boils down to in her personality right so the reason why I agreed to do some of the things we that happened is because the person I separate the person from the streamer the content creator from the person I am friends with the person and whatever it is like for example right it could have been a super hot guy and he could have had some kind of like play I don't know rocket League or he plays League of Legends but he's like amazing everything she like e you play League of Legends like I don't know if this will work uh or you know just like make witty comments about something she might not like just because it's contrary it is you know contro not controversial but it can be it's opposing right so for for it could have been any it could have been anybody right she might and it just happened to be me it's not the first time she's kissed somebody on stream right or like do content and it's controversial so it just happened to be my turn and you know I kind of understand the the things and this not the science but like just understand I have to set my feelings aside and just understand if I'm going to do content that that is what it strictly is it doesn't H but it doesn't have to be that way but you mentioned something that I want to point out I went through and watched how she interacts with other friends of hers in the space like Hass and everyone like that why doesn't she treat them the same way she treated you what what what's the deal with that then how come she's able to do other content with other guys that aren't her perpetually insulting them the entire time but you the only content she does with you is to make you the punching bag why okay so I mean for I mean like she's not like for hisan example right she went over and just kind of say the reality was like we just did a stream together he was a nice guy you're nice guy yeah but but she was also honest saying like I'm not super into that kind of content of political right but I appreciate she appreciated the offer right so she will be real and say separate herself for a moment and just say this is what happened yada yada y right this is not like I don't know it's just it's it's hard to kind of like you know it's just like when you're on someone's team right and you don't want to mess up that Dynamic right you're understanding that we're all playing Parts on a team right and yeah my role on that team is kind of [ __ ] up but some people are built that kind of way to be like put that stress on my shoulders and just like you know because they care about people and that's just this that's just how I felt going into it one-sided do you do you think she cares about you yeah genuinely like when I went through my breakup she uh set me up on to have a dating show like that's using you for Content again though that's that's not looking out for you that's still using you for content and this is at your weakest moment you're most vulnerable you've just gone through a traumatic experience and she's immediately turning you into content you I could I could I could have told her no I could have said let me wait yeah but you and it's not your fault I'm not putting any blame on your shoulders like it's an opportunity you're you're low right now because of this breakup and now you have this girl who's like hey I've got a bunch of girls I can put you with if you do it on my stream it's immediately turning you into content that makes me feel even worse about this relationship cuz after you gone through something she immediately uses you for Content okay I mean but to be fair I mean like if she's just using me why am I staying at her place why don't I just get a Airbnb or a ho a hotel it it adds to the content having you there and keeping you around to constantly be little and make it clear to her community like hey this guy doesn't have a chance let's keep joking about it it's all part of that same content cycle like you are playing this role which you have talked about taking this burden which you don't need to do you're above that and she is using this because it is part of the joke like she is just farming this whole stigma of being a twitch mod he's not going to ever [ __ ] me but he can stay here and we're going to get content out of it by any means necessary here's an hour and 25 minutes of me shooting down everything he wants to do everything he says every advance and make it clear I am disgusted by his presence now if it's a role you want to play I'm not going to tell you you're a bad guy for it I just want you to realize it's not healthy this isn't a real friendship Dynamic at all again if she's like really sweet to you off stream and treats you like this publicly then she is twof faced and is not actually a friend to you and what you just said about how when you went through a very bad breakup she immediately put you on a dating show makes me feel like she is constantly just using you as this source for content to laugh at and have her chat laugh at because I haven't seen her interact with anybody else this way I watched interact with other people in the community I've seen her do this to a couple other guys on her stream but that's the same role that they play that you do where she just belittles them and insults them which is still a bad thing but you get it much worse cuz you are someone that genuinely seems to care about her and I think that is so [ __ ] up you keep saying that it's just banter and jokes but it's one-sided she is the only one doing that I I again in that stream you said one thing and it made you uncomfortable it is sad that is the only point I'm making you again are not a badl looking guy you are not in bad shape you are not creepy you are not weird you don't have to play this role for her you don't have to be stuck being the weirdo twitch mod who grosses her out so much she goes and [ __ ] Hawks in the bathroom and Yaks right it's it's ridiculous it's just mean for the sake of being mean and if it's an I know she claimed that it's all like an act and all that it's the worst act of all time like she is playing the bully as C said there is no way she should expect people to think of her as anything more than a bully because that's all she's showing and you are the only one that gets it this bad I mean we're both getting it in some shape or form right because we both agreed to have this kind of content idea put out there I agreed to it and there are times where I say I will be that role because you know I want to get more into that content does does it make you happy when she is saying these things to your face when she is saying your not good-looking you're not getting laid I will never hit I don't claim this all of those things does it make you happy I mean obviously it's not going to make anybody happy if you hear that kind of stuff right but at the same time you know it's just like if you're real with yourself and you understand where you are or where I am I understand where I am at right now in my life and like where I want things to go is just you I have to set my emotions aside when I hear things like that and that's I'm just been used to that kind of stuff that's just what kind of [ __ ] I decide to deal with right and just on the you know like what's the difference from like you know like I guess the difference of like um for like content right like me and you right I'm trying to put that out there that hey I'm a grown man I just I I take responsibility for you know understanding what I was going to sign up for right so we we're both playing two sides of the coin here right now right we're both getting there's content from one side and you're getting content from this as well well it's very different though like like we keep talking about content again at the very beginning your the content you pitched is different than the content that came out you pitched doing cooking or drinking all that the that wasn't the content the content was her making fun of you that doesn't sound like what you wanted to do I don't think you told her I want you to insult the [ __ ] out of me for over an hour like that's that's not the content that I think you wanted to sign up for I think that is the content that was sprung upon you and you feel as though you have to take it because you keep saying that it's your decision you can bear the burden you're an adult you can make your own decisions which of course you can but why you just said it doesn't make you happy when she says those things so what's the point you don't need that to have a career and I don't think you should want that to be your legacy or career either like being Caitlyn's punching bag I've been supposed to be a doctor so that's why I don't you know have that as like the craziest thing in on my mind right now but um you know I I wanted to talk to people and just understand that when you know when you have a love and and that's probably that's just me in my [ __ ] up ways right saying the content she does is entertaining enough for me to support it and be a part of a cast of people that agree and that that there's some benefits even if it does not paint me out in the most I'm the Giga Chad I'm the winner out of the situation which you know I could have done a better job defending myself that's where I messed up in my character that's where I messed up in my judgment and didn't really think think of the consequences of said things so I take responsibility of that right cuz I in like right now like I could I'm telling you how I really genuinely feel like you know and you've told me that you don't like the way it makes you feel do you think a friend would keep pushing that role on you knowing it doesn't make you feel good do you think a good friend would do that I think friends who like cuz I I've I've just had tough love from people in my life in general right and it's just like you know I I come to I wouldn't say nurture but like just kind of understand that you know not everyone's going to communicate the way that you think everyone deserves right and it you know like if I was a you know a scary Discord mod that a lot of people think or seeing right that I why would I come and talk and and like you know not instead of just in in enjoying see in the pity right I rather I rather just be honest and just say how I feel because like you know I've already been in the eye of the public I at least want to say what I want to say no again I like I said you are definitely not what most people picture when they think of a twitch mod but this is not a good Dynamic you found yourself in here and I I it's I'm just trying to understand why and hoping that you can recognize that the way you're being treated is really [ __ ] up you even during this just now you started taking blame you've done nothing wrong you said you could have defended yourself better or this and that you you didn't do anything wrong you were actually just taking bullets like you're protecting the president for her again this was all her idea your content you pitched was cooking and hanging out and drinking the content became let me insult you and yet you're the one apologizing cuz the content that I pitched is something the formula I'm just pitching the formula the recipe we already have a set in place that hasn't blown up out of this proportion you know so there it's just like yeah if you don't like this kind of content don't watch it right don't you know but don't send you know death threats and all this kind of stuff no one supports that absolutely yeah I feel bad and you know there's you know crazy stuff going on behind the scenes and I you know we're trying to get through that so it's um I just want to say that you know do whatever makes you happy but like just understand that that that you know there's always more than what there you know appears to be like so you know I joke about having a degrading C right because I go through kind of this [ __ ] like this and I kind of own up to that and I'm like yeah maybe I do or you know whatever right see so and like I said if you would come out here and said you know what I actually just have a humiliation fetish I enjoy being insulted like this I'd be like hey bygones be bygones godspeed brother but you have already said multiple times it's a burden it doesn't make you feel good it wouldn't make anybody feel good it doesn't make you happy to hear her say those things so then why stay and keep letting her do that like I know you view her her as a friend but it doesn't seem she views you that way she wouldn't keep pushing this upon you if she viewed you as someone that she actually respects um I don't know we've just reassured each other as friends that we appreciate what we've done each other work e like workwise like for the amount of work I've put in for her and just understand that okay cuz I've asked I was like do you actually appreciate what I do and help out and she's like yes yes yes yes and yes I've been reassured numerous times that what I volunteer to do is appreciated you said volunteer do you get paid for the work you do does she pay you like you you you obviously put yourself on this team do you get compensated for all the work that you've done to help grow her brand by being this role um I just get you know the the benefits of you know for like my stream my small streaming career and the revenue that comes from my business business that I am solely you know the the owner of and so she's helped promote my business in a way and help me connect to bigger and better things so you know uh me at bubble te builds right I build PCS for streamers that you know I want to support and help grow because she has that kind of same mindset too to help get smaller people and get them built the way up you know put them on a platform and and showcase their personalities that's another side of the content that I help out with is you know we both want to help out streamers and get them some better exposure right being paid in exposure is a totally different can of worms but I guess just to stay in here for just a minute does she does she give you on her platform does she give you the time of day to talk about all the cool things you're doing cuz she certainly hasn't so far from what I've been watching I didn't know you even really streamed I didn't know know you had a career outside of being a twitch modon for her that she roasts I didn't know that does does she actively promote you at all yeah so when I appear on as my character or like when I talk about like when I'm doing other things like I'm dating other girls right and I'm just like you know like Oh I'm a business owner I'm in school to be a dentist I that's part and so she lets me showcase a side of me that no one would usually see because the mod connotation right so you know that's the the the arc that I've been been working towards in in this small aspect of my streaming career so it's just what people who do watch me know that I have some confidence backed up in that in there somewhere not you know so it's just like that day I just I had a lot going on personally um that I can't really share and then just on top of being out you know alerg IC is just I'm just like I just want to get through this and just like whatever happens happens right so like if I had the chance to do it over again it would look different it would have been the way that you know whatever but at the same time I it's like my friendship with her it it kind of outweighs my my wants and needs of like streaming content business all that because I care about her as a person and she does for me as well because if I wasn't up for it we wouldn't have done it she was said all right that's cool we don't have to do it at all because we've talked about it of not doing it because of things right so promise that because I had a lot going on personally before I even agreed and signed up to do that stream or like streams beforehand right so you know that's the relationship that I've built with her and that's I I want people to understand that this is not like a one-sided thing but people are going to perceive it however they want to perceive it yeah again at the end of the day the way you describe this role that she puts you in is not a role that makes you happy though like I understand that you view each other as friends can you give me the example you gave of like how she cares about you as a person immediately rubbed me the wrong way about you go through a breakup and she puts you on her stream for dating that's milking you for content is there anything else she's done to show that she cares about you okay well to be fair uh there was a long period of time where I didn't come on like years worth of time where I didn't want to come on for Content so it's I volunteer I say hey I'm ready to do this this is what Dylan wants to do this is what Dr Dilly wants to do right so she's just given me a platform to Showcase what I want to showcase to people and um and and she's done that for other content creators as well and they've gone off and done great things and I I wish I could shout them out but just know that I've been I've been working with some of these people and just know that I've been very grateful very happy I'm very happy to be in the position I am in right now and just see people grow and for me this is going to be a huge moment for me to understand where I'm at and growth wise and um and I just wanted to know like yeah that's just I I am passionate about the side of things like yeah it looked like I was miserable yeah it it's just it's just what happens sometimes you know you you when you're in your weakest it pours right and I I hope to understand that like when I got done with that I was okay I was great I was happy I was ready to go out have fun and be a normal person again and then I was a normal person then so it's just the consist you know it's just like like that narrative out there that ah am I here for did I really [ __ ] up and do this it's just no it's just I didn't force myself I agree that I wanted this is what I wanted cuz I told her let's do it she didn't necessarily was like if you don't want to do it great so again you didn't tell her to come on and insult you though it was a different thing but regardless that's that's just that's just our that's just what the content I kind of already love to know that's just like it's normal for me to hear that kind of stuff and it and that's that breaks problem right that breaks my heart to hear what why are you the one that gets it the worst then you you're so intertwined with her brand and growing it why do you get her ey the worst even if it's just for Content why does she pick you to put down more than anybody else I have ever seen her interact with I mean it's just I've seen different sides of it and I just thought what she said isn't new content this this it's been free wash jokes that that that have been discussed before like it's just like it is not something new to me right like is is if you already kind of come to know what to expect then you kind of understand that that that's what might or may not happen right if it does it does it doesn't it doesn't right so so for me it's just like we have this formula this is how we do things this is how we operate this is how the content machine we had put out there and then that's just what was seen by the general public so okay well it just it is what it is at this point all right we don't have to keep going around in circles here I guess just one last thing that I want to know do you think she did anything wrong h let's see that's a it's it's a tough question to answer because obviously I want to stand by my friend right so I mean it's tough because it's the truth like I would I would have to say IID say no because I'm not forcing myself to say no it's just because if I didn't really want to do it I wouldn't have done it and if I was really really like not invested in the process and like what we've been doing I I would have not never came here to begin with because I knew cuz most people are like because I I I kind of understand [ __ ] and just understand that if I don't want to do it I'm not going to do it or like if I if I don't want like be put in a very uncomfortable situation I won't I do because like if I like I wouldn't talk to you if I was not okay with it so yeah I would have to say no and just understand that so you think you think everything she said to you was just okay fine content even though it hurt you which you said you still think that that's totally okay for a friend to do in front of everyone in your community and tell all your embarrassing moments and insult you for everything she believes is weak about you that's that's the green light I agree to it but you did again the the content she she asked it was okay and I said yes she asked if it was okay to say that I would rather be emotionally abused and traumatized by my ex then date you she ran that she ran that pre-washed joke by you no but I mean I just you know obviously it's like it's a a joke I mean is it a good joke no but I understand that if you're going to try to like you're comedian right like not all their jokes are going to land a thick if you're shoot you know we're doing what an 1800 view quick stream with no real plan behind it it's just the plan was to insult you it seems that that was the whole plan for the entire time from then till she was drunk enough to kiss you from the donation goal and then to the time you went to the club okay it's that just that seems like a plan that I don't think you probably Envision for how that stream would go yeah I mean it's just like with the stream we we were already winging like just from the jump and it's just like yeah we planned some things like hey let's talk about how I would talk to a girl at the club or you know I think you missed the part where like we're so comfortable with each other that I would agree for her to take a shot out of my belly button or something stupid like that right so it's just like I already was signing up for something that could be really chaotic and just live in that kind of chaos and you know it's just yeah for someone who can't handle something like that that will ruin them I'm just not going to let it ruin me I hope you understand that Charlie I'll be honest I don't uh being fully transparent I don't get why you put yourself in the position you're much better than this I don't think you have to be this patoon that she spits in and lets her community do the same I don't know why you let her treat you that way publicly it doesn't seem like a healthy friendship the way she milks you for Content even after you got out of a 5-year relationship that clearly still did have a big effect on you at the time I don't see this as a good friendship but I'm I'm not your dad I'm not your dad my voice is cracking but like I actually am just kind of sad to hear this perspective because it it sucks like being fully honest you don't deserve to be treated that way no one does but if it's the role that you're happy with if you believe that the exposure she pays you in is worth your business guidance and all of that and you'd like to keep playing the jester for her to joke about and laugh at for you know however long then all power to you but yeah yeah I I I'm not going to lie and say I get it cuz I I really do not it just seems very toxic and it seems like she has got you completely hooked on a fantasy I don't believe she is a good friend to you from everything you told me I mean that's just for me to to deal with in process because I get that yeah that it is that is your that is your cross to bear as they say I just wanted to try and understand and I'm walking away with even less of an understanding if I'm being honest and it's not your fault I I you took blame for how this stream went when you've done nothing wrong and it's just a It's just sad is all and I just I'd like to I'd like better for you and anyone else in your position I don't know I just know that there is as hard as that sounds that there is something positive to take from this right um for those who are interested and obviously you know with streaming and content like it just goes hand in hand like what are you okay with or what people are okay to like do and it's just I just happen to be on that side that's a little bit not I don't know I say risque that's just how I want to describe it and but I I appreciate the time for you to come talk to me and just try to understand and you know uh it's it's been a lot but I I you know I just uh I appreciate it you know and I hope I wish you well as as everything yeah you as well man I I hope whatever you decide to do I hope the doctor and all that works out well and the the brands You're Building I'm wishing you the best of luck with it brother thank you man yeah have a great rest of your night man appreciate the time well that was that was an interesting conversation he's such a he's just such a seemingly nice guy whoops wrong one I don't know again I'm not his dad I wanted to understand I I still don't but that's that's his thing not [Music] mine

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Published: Mon Jan 08 2024