Top of the morning to ya laddies My name is Jacksepticeye and welcome to The Beginner's Guide This is a game made by the same dude who did The Stanley Parable which I absolutely love Such a cool game and really neat concept and "experiment" I guess you could call it But this says that is an hour and half long We're gonna sit here We're gonna do the entire thing in one sitting It's supposed to be about a guy going through something he doesn't understand And there's a lot of buzz about this game online and a lot of people are saying that the ending is really good and it makes you question a lot of stuff and the whole game in general makes you question your life And that's really what like got me interested in it Made me want to play it I wanna do it all in one sitting because is only an hour and half long I've done longer videos than that but I wanna get the full experience, all in one sitting And you guys can share the same experience as well and have the same feelings and the atmosphere doesn't shift or change or anyting like that But I should foreward you guys that if you do not like slower pace games If you don't like me just sitting here listening to a game more so than me just shouting if that's what you're into normally Then this probably isn't gonna be for you You're probably not gonna enjoy this video If you like to just have something on in the background and you are listening along and you're sharing in an experience and you don't mind the longer version of this kinds of videos then you're very probably much gonna like this :) So, that's your warning right now If you don't like when I'm not shouting or being bombastic all the time this isn't gonna be for you But we're gonna get into this It should be fun I can't wait and I've no idea what it's about so let's just begin the game... wow, yeah! Also my shoes are off Cause it's, it's warm. "Please make sure audio is on" Got it! Thank you! W,A,S,D and Mouse Yes, as with most PC games Thank you. You're welcome Alright. Oh. Yeah! That's a very good point Sweet! This is cool! I had no idea that's what this was about Okay. Loading. November 2008 This is cool! Okay. This is a very big departure for what we just played Ahm, what?! "WHISPER MACHINE. STATUS: ACTIVE
EVACUATE INMEDIATELY" Oka... Okay Okay, what are we doing? Is this like a fucking Halo thing?? Okay, I can't get through here I'mma, I'm suddenly panicking over a thing I just started I can shoot Is there anything that I have to shoot? Am I gonna find monsters? I can't reload though Do I have infinite ammo? Hopefully... Hostile Alien Lifeform?! I don't want no alien lifeform, dammit Oh. Oh! Can I go anywere? Oh. Hi. Thanks Wooow The bottom of the universe? Oh! Hahahaha Haha Hello there! Is that how the bottom of the universe actually looks like? That's so cool looking. It's so pretty. Okay, this all say the same thing D-do I have an objective? Do I have a thing I'm supposed to be doing? I feel like I should. There's all alarms going off. Oh God, is this a maze? Agh , No! Thank you! Ah! Thank God! I hate fucking mazes and laberints. Can I go back and do it? No, I won't waste time. Okay! "WHISPER MACHINE. STATUS: ACTIVE"
Okay, same thing. Really? Yeahh, that's what I feared... Is this the big question this whole game was gonna answer? ' Would you give up yourself? ' Sure! Why not? Let's move this train forward. I'm dead. Oh. What happens? Oh! Wooow! Ahhh... That's so cool! I'm still floating! Oh! That's like a really, like out-of-body / existencial kind of feeling. Oh, It's crazy I can't move. Oh... Oh! "The past was behind her". I can only walk backwards? Oh, my God, that's cool! Why has nobody done a game like that before? Well, I guess it would be kind of tedious, but It's such a neat concept. Okay, I'm stucked on something...
Oh! That's really cool! Cause you have to stop and like, look at everything. Look at your future, look at your past. "But if the future is always behind her... ...how will she find the strenght... ...to confront it?" That's like the first Portal game. First Portal game is like: Gets in. Shows you its mechanics. Gets out. That's it. Good jokes along the way Can I move in this one? Yes, okay. "You are now entering" Entering what? Darkness?? Is this a spooky game? Okay, Imma trust you, Davey Wreden. There was nothing in there. "Nonsense in nearly every direction" Wow! Am I slowing down? Oh! What a cocktease! Oh! Sweet! So this was something that he made, that you can never actually get to the top. Well... Yeah, I was slowing to a crawl. I didn't stop completely. What's inside? Wow. "The game is nothing but giant blocks of text explaining what's happening." "A normal game where you have to scream into a microphone every 15 seconds to keep playing." That's powerful. "Press U to surrender". Wait... Okay it doesn't... Did I actually do that by pressing U?! "Ready. Set. Fish" W-what?! Ahhh! That made me feel all nice and warm and fuzzy. Hello? This does not look like something that would have Ready, Set, or Fish in it. Do I have to go fishing? Hello? There's a door. *Click* What? Oh, do I have to traverse through darkness? No? Then what we do? The door isn't open. Uh, Wait. If I do this... and then... woah! Yeahhh! Not just hat rack, my friend. Oh! I'm so invested in this now! This really has my attention! This is cool! I'm enjoying this. Hopefully you guys are too. I told you it was gonna be slow, It was gonna be a bit of a crawly thing that has happened, but hopefully, by the end of it we'll all sit here and be like... Wow. I'm already 'wowing' at this. Do I have to close you? No. Okay. Moving on. Why? Duuuude! Are those all hallways? Yeah... This guy, there's a lot going on inside his head. And a lot of the stuff already is like... It's harking back to me as a youtuber as well. It's like, it's not always what you, umm, see or don't see. Like there's so much that goes on in the background that you've no idea what's actually happening. All you get to see are these snippets of our life through these videos everyday. And, again, it's important to me that I come across this genuin and nice and everything. Cause that's the way, that's the kind of person that I am, and I want to convey who I am to you guys. But, at he same time, if some people don't see me as that kind of person, if they just see me as the loud, obnoxious asshole that's fine because, in my heart I know that there's more to me than that. There's more to me than watching five minutes of a video. There's a lot more. It's when you get the whole compilation of everything that you fully start to understand who this person is that you're watching. Sorry if I'm trying and make it like all about me That wasn't my intention. It's the same.
"You are now exiting" Was I just in those games? Uhh. This is cool! "March 2009" What did he say it goes as far? 2011? "The Great and Lovely Descent" Uh, I like it. It's a very nice building. Okay. Correct. "The Streetwise Fool" Alrighty. Textures. Dude. Holy Fuck. What do I do? Can I just drop? This is giving me like a real like, I'm-very-small kind of feeling. I know I said that at the start but it's making me feel like There's so much more going on in all of this than I even like, understand. Like is beyond comprehension, sort of thing. Good god. What happens if I just fall? Oh, there's something at the bottom. Cause the idea is to just fall anyway, right? It's called the descent. And it doesn't seem like I take much fall damage. I wonder if I could actually fall the entire way. Oh god. Oh god. Oh god! It's scary when you think you are gonna miss them. Haha Okay. Down we go. I like the juxtaposition of architectures. While the outside looked really nice, and like a proper house and everything. A restaurant or whatever. And now this is all fucking weird. Oh oh. Oh oh
Oh oh. Oh oh. I think I can just fall, but I don't wanna do that and mess something up. Although, I have a feeling that this isn't the type of thing that's gonna restart if you die. WOW. That's trippy. We are going down to a light. Oh no. Good god, it just keeps on going. It's like a James Bond villain's base. Hello? Those stairs lead to nothing.
What beeped at me? Why do we've paddocks? Oh, no. What's happened? The music changed as well. I'm fucking... I'm scared. What is that? Ohh Don't fuckin' do that to me. What the fuck!? Oh, no! I'm in a cell. Yeah. Thanks. Oh! I'm going back down. Mmm. Haha haha haha Sounds like they had a nice friendship. I-I'm startin'... Oh, no. I was gonna saiy I hope he's not gonna say at the end that like Coda died or something. He said that he stopped making games but he wanted him to make them again and hopefully that this would help him make them again. But I can see where he got his inspiration for The Stanley Parable, by playing his friend's games. What the fuck?! Can I actually look back and look up? No. Cause, to see if I can look back and look up into the world and see the house just sitting there, somewhere. Oh, here's the puzzle again. Okay. Yeah! Now I feel all smart. Thank you. 'Cause I'm not brain good. There's probably stuff in this that's going way above my head. I like this a lot, though. It's like when you start a book, and like, the first few sentences are supposed to like pull you in. Or the first few pages. That's what this is kinda doing to me. I don't want to be trapped in here with Listen Block Heads. Oh, speak and listen are written on them. "You there! Did you come from up above?" What was up there? "There were these floating colored blocks." "That's the world above! You've been there!" "Now this is important: Did you have to get through a puzzle with two doors and switches? "Yes, I did! The last thing I did before I got here." "Again, perfect! Now please, tell us how you solved it! Tell us the solution! Tell us how to get to the other side!" "You don't want to go over there" "I don't remember how I solved it. I'm trying to remember, but I can't." "I didn't solve it, someone else let me in." None of these help. Also I like how the heads turn from 'listen' to 'speak'. That's cool. Umm... "You don't want to go over there." "Oh no, but I do! We do! We need to get there! Do you understand? It's the most important thing in the world! We have to escape this prison! There must be an ending! I promise you, there's nothing I want more." See ya! :D Aw, crap. Aww, crap! "Hello. How did you get here? Was there a puzzle you had to pass through?" "Yes. Do you want to know how to solve it?" Uhh, now we are getting interesting. "No no! We actually find the black space between the doors to be far more interesting. Have you seen it yet?" So is this playing on my interpretation of like, going in and thinking that I know? Or with like a pre-conceived notion of how I think they're gonna react to me? "Why would I care abaout the space between the doors?" "There is a reason. But it might take time before you understand. Which is fine. You'll see it again soon." Thanks guys! You guys have been a big help. Love you! Don't call me next week. I'm busy, ...Freaky weirdos... It's the longest game so far. Am I outside? Oh oh. Okay... Interesting... That's the lamppost from the start of the game. Like the actual main menu has the lamppost on it. Which now makes sense. Yes, I know I touch my nose a lot. People have been pointing that out to me. "April 2009" I was 19 years old.
"As you walk around, you can leave notes." "All notes you see are left by other players." Ah, it's Dark Souls, Demon Souls Bloodborne, "soulsy souls" Hello. Can I read you? Oh. "Nice room. Not". That's mean. "In a world full of notes, one man will read all of them..." That message's just sad. "Buttassbutt" "I need to go to the frickin bathroom." "Recognize me please." So, this are all written by that dude? So, was he trying to like put down messages he thought people would leave? Or is he actually like, reaching out for a cry for help, a recognize me please, somebody in the real world. "There's nothing here. Go back." "Don't listen to that guy." It's like a weird musicky thing going on. "A FREEEEEEEE t-shirt." Sweet! "Need other side. Door why you so." "Makes game. Includes door. Cannot open door. Thanks" "Open sesame." "Door how open." Memes how strong. "Someday I'll meet the person who made this." He's talking to himself. "I help people because of the internal good feeling I get." Woow! Okay, I'm gonna skip a lot of these notes. If something pop up as I'm going along, you can read them. Haha, if you can... This is weird. Can I hop over there? If I fall, will I die? Is there a... I feel like I'm following the path that's normal. Like it's all connected to itself, but there was areas where I could have just jump off, like back there. And gone down in there. Is it all connected? "I need someone to talk to." I'm here! "This is a note" Sure is body. Good job. "Don't listen to the other notes." But there's like a billion of them! I want a room this size in my house. With a big giant, abstract, blobby painting on it. Are those... Is that supposed to symbolize all the notes? All the thoughts in the guy's head. Who are all of you? He's talking to himself, though. "I saw a person walking down there! Now it won't come back." Oookay... Oh, I can't jump off! Oh, okay. "Devil Tower Star" What? This is kind of eerie. And creepy. "There must be a reason for it, though." "His terrible secret, he kept it well." "I beat the game!!" No, you didn't. I'm still playing and I haven't beaten it yet. Can I fall down? Oh, God. Okay. Good. Everyone's saying "Help".
"Shit, how do you solve it?" Bros, I'll tell ya! So, it's like... you close the door and then the world that's left behind you, and you just sit here reflecting on it? Except in the regular game we wouldn't do that. A regular game we would just come through know that we've seen the puzzle before, and just do it super quick and move on. But I guess that's why the notes are left there; To make you stop and actually you just like sit, and think and look at them. Which is clever. What the hell does this say? Oh, it's typewriters! I thought that was scratching. "How do you leave notes?" Aww It's like the people on Youtube: 'how do you leave comments?' Are these all writing the notes? "Are you there? Please say something. It can be anything. I just need you to say something!" "Talk to me! Please! Why are you having so much difficulty talking?" "Speak! Speak! Speak! Speak! Speak! Speak!" What the fuck was that?! "Pornstars Die Too" Okay. What's happening? Oh. Okay. What's out here? I see you, extra parts of level! Okay, let's do this. Let's do this shit! I can do this. He has a very nice concept of how houses are. Like these very pristine corridors and walls, and the warm lights everywhere. A man of expensive taste, it seems. Cause these are some high class apartments. Buildings. Yeah. Okay, all the shit is missing now. But it's... "What furniture ought to go in the center of the room?" Uh! "Put a giant hole in the ground".
"How about a TV with surround sound." Ahm... 1. A TV with a surrond sound. That's a table! "Okay, now what about along the wall of the room?" It doesn't matter what I pick. "I'd really like a washing machine." It doesn't matter cause you are just gonna pick different things! "I think we sould light this room up a bit." "We'll put tesla coils in each corner. Yeah!" Haha Sweet, haha I need a door. "And a table! You need a table!" "Who are you? Where exactly are you doing this from?" "I'm pretty sure none of the choices are making any difference." There. What?! Yeah. And Jesus Christ, this is weird. I feel like I'm walking through Ikea right now. From the side. "Hello. Please walk forward." Am I at the well? "This guide will enable you to escape any prison enviroment." "Follow the instructions carefully. Take care..." "First click on the table." It's all shiny and nice! *Click* "Good. Go over to the Photo Frame and click on it to turn it slightly." "Now turn the floor-lamp in this room off, then turn it back on." Oookay... Off. On. "Now go to he left-side sofa. Move it over a little." "Finally, touch the shelves." What are you making me do? "That's it! In a real prison, the escape will now open. Return to the start to be taken back to your prison." What?! "RETURN" Do I just stand in there or click on it? I'm weirded out by this. Wooow! That's creepy. Okay... I wanna meet this Coda person. He seems to have a very... Unique mind. Wow. This is very eerie. Have you ever had moments like that? Any of you who live in the countryside, if you ever just gone out in the countryside at night, when it's pitch black, there are no lights anywhere, and you can just hear the world around you. You can hear the bugs everywhere. Well, we don't have crickets over here that like, that crickety chirping in the background all the time. Ummm... But like, we have birds and different animals all around. And it's really... It's really peaceful to just sit and listen. Here's the lamppost again. Hi. "Hello. Who is this?" "Hey! It's me! I'm you from after you escape the prison!" Are you talking to like, your future past self? "You're me?" "So you were trapped in this prison too?" "Yes, I was in the furniture maze."
"I was in the escape tutorial." Yeah. "What's it like to escape?" Is that him like how was it like to escape from your own mental torture going over. Like same ideas over and over again, not being able to get what you want out of it. "Actually, I'm already forgetting what being in prison was like..." "It's strange, but in a way I kind of miss being in prison." "It feels like being completely still and wildly in motion at the same time." I like that one. "Do you feel any different?" "Some things I'm scared I'll get out and then things will be exactly the same... Some times* be exactly the same as before." "It actually does change, I don't feel like the same person at all." I'm getting like a sense of depression out of this." Not for me, but for Coda. Is he like talking to himself? Asking himself what it would be like to get out of that prison? His own mind? "Wait, if you're me, then did you get a call from another version of you when you were trapped?" "No, I think I'm the first person to call back." "Then can you tell me how to get out?" "Maybe I can come find you." "What do I have to do?" "To get out, all you have to do is be sincere." "You need to tell me how you feel right now." Oh, I wanna know that one. "...what?" "That will free me?" How does that work? "Listen, you can't know until you're out, but I promise it works." "Just tell me how you feel."
"It will make sense." "I feel afraid that nothing will ever change." This got really interesting all of a sudden. Uuuuh, this is COOL! I like the look of this. He really likes his warm apartment and rooms. Like the nice furnished rooms, doesn't he? There's spilled stuff. Oh, hi! Well my goodness! I'm glad as all heck that you showed up! "Thought I might have to..." "Thought I might be having to clean this entire house all by myself. And right miserable that would have been." "Everyone knows lonesome hands make lousy homes!" "Don't worry about me..." Yeah. "That's the story, little one. Oh don't you worry now, we'll be through this mess in no time. I promise you'll wish there was more. Why don't I finish up here, in the mean time could you please clear the table?" So this is it. These are all games that he never released anybody. And he never intended to release them to anybody. It was only cause he was friends with Davey that he actually gave them to him. To like, let him play them. I cleared the table. "Much nicer, that's the table I want to see. Now would you please run into the bedroom and make the bed?" Got it. Anything for you, squarehead buddy. Nice! Wow, the texturizing it's now really nice "Why don't you straighten the rug a bit? All the little details matter!" Got it. That's not straight, it's just not wrinkled. "Do you enjoy being a housecleaner?"
"How'd you end up doing this job?" "It's been a long time since I've seen a house this messy..." "Do you enjoy being a housecleaner?" "Well... I don't enjoy it as much as I need it. While I'm working I feel a kind of calm that rests in the pit of my ribcage. My soul just can't be soothed any other way, it seems. Which I guess is about all that matters! Oh! And that and a tidy couch. Would you straighten the pillows on the sofa out there?" See, I'm starting to wonder if he's just putting this stuff in, or if he's actually feeling this stuff, and he's talking through his problems. If making his games is his own type of therapy. Like, house cleaning is like building games. So he can only calm himself, calm the chaos in his ribcage, and his soul just can't be soothed any other way unless he's making games. And maybe by the end of this, because he stopped making games is because he found something else that sooths him a lot more. The couch. Where's the couch? Tidy pillows. Okay. "Oh dear, looks like someone spilled a drink over there by the couch." Yeah, got it. "I feel compelled to share an incredibly cheesy personal insight. You okay with that?" Um... Yeah, just make it really cheesy. "No." "No, it was stupid, sorry. Never mind. Hey, these dishes need to be washed, why don't you come do that?" "Last I checked the tub needed a cleaning. How about you scrub it down the best you can." Oookay. Really wanna know what you wanted to tell me, though. "No need to be perfect, we're all just human. Are there still books scattered on the floor of the bedroom? If so, would you put them back on the shelf?" Here you go. "Perfect." "Now then, how about you come and clear these dishes off the table?" "Whatever work you do, you have absolutely got to own it. Otherwise, it owns you. So why don't we be with the task at hand and leave the future chores to future you. Present you wants..." That's really nice. And that's good advice as well. Whatever work you do, make sure you own it. Otherwise, it owns you. And this... For some reason this game is speaking to me a lot, because it's all about like doing something you really love and like, really throwing all your passion into it and trying your very best to do the best you can at it. That's what Youtube is to me. It was the first thing I've ever found in my life that I love doing. I was always such a lazy person with no motivation to do anything. I just wanted to play videogames all day. I didn't want to get a "real" job I didn't want to go out into the world to find a job, to ask somebody to hire me or anything like that. The thought of that really like, made me miserable. And then Youtube came along, which didn't start out as me wanting a job out of Youtube. It started out as me having something that I could work towards, that I felt like I could throw every single ounce of myself into it. All of my passion went into Youtube from then on. And, it's now paid off incredibly well, and I'm so incredibly lucky to be where I am. But, you have to find that thing that lets you put all of your energy into it. And now I'm a person who loves being busy, because it's the type of busy that I'm doing, that I actually enjoy doing. And I think that that's so essential to your own well-being in life. Just in general. Like, it doesn't matter if your passion is arranging shoes, or something like that. Whatever you enjoy doing, whatever it makes you happy, whatever you feel like gives you that drive to get up in the morning, and you feel like you really want to do something. Sorry, I'm banging my table. That, It's so important that you find that in your life. And I'm sorry that I went off in a little tangent there, but that's what this is about. This is about sharing an experience and whatever thoughts come up, I can explain them to you. Am I just redoing all of these? "Earlier when I said I had a really cheesy thought..." Yes, please, tell me. "I was going to say that it occurs to me that one's house is a lot like one's soul." You take care of it, and it takes care of you. Don't know why I felt so weird about saying that." That's pretty cheesy. "But there's a bit of truth in it, no?" "Anyway... ...So... Housekeeping. Let's keep doing this. Books. Would you please clean up the books. Thanks." I like the music. "Oh Goodness, those pillows over on the couch are a real mess." "Question." I really like this. This is very therapeutic to play. To go through someone else's thoughts. Cause I feel like, this is like an experience that people go through in their lifes, one time or another where you like... you're questioning what you do. You feel like you have to find something to work towards. You feel like you need to create your own happiness, in a way. And there's the lamppost again... "September 2009" "Items You Love at Members-Only Prices" Oh God, we're in school. "Why did you come here today? Was it to improve your life?" No, it's cause I paid for college too easily and had to get my money's worth "Was it to make your relationships more meaningful? No. You came here to be PERFECT. This workshop is going to teach you how to be perfect. I want your friends, the people in your life to look at you and think: "wow, this person is a better human being than I am" Right now, who do you think about that way in your own life? Who do you know who is so well developed as a person that they make you feel disgusted with yourself? Compared to whom, you feel useless. Selfish. Ungrateful. I intend to make you into that person. Perfection IS within your grasp. Thank you, Shia LaBeouf. "And the question is how do we do it, but how do we do it effortlessly." No: "not how we do it" "This is easy. It's so easy. It's so easy". WHAT - THE FUCK?! Oh. Can I not pick the other options? Oh, I can. Fuck. Ooooh! The yellow options are all the "perfect" options that the teacher wants to instill upon you. He wants to motivate you to be perfect. So the yellow options are the ones he's like "yes, this is what the students want and need to hear to be perfect". But he has all this doubts in grey. And then it shifts completely. And you see the black hole in the background. I guess it's to symbolize like just, this fear in the background. So you can keep on with the charade of like, 'everything is perfect. Being perfect is effortless'. You just gotta keep clicking the right options to make it sound like everything is efortless and perfect. "Do you not understand that you won't be happy until you love me? This is for you." Ew. I'm developing a cyst. Gross. This is clever. Can I go up to the black hole? No. Fuck. "Do what is easiest. Do what is simplest. Feel what is true." That's not good advice. Doing what is easiest and simplest is not always a good idea. Sometimes is the hardest stuff that is the best stuff to do. "Nothing. No one" That's so true. This game is really making me think. Are you gonna talk? Cause I kinda wanna say a few things... So what I wanted to say as well, it all comes back to the Youtube thing. So much of this. I feel like people who are creative or who are in like public eye a lot more. Um, cause like... I'm not trying to say that like I'm super popular or famous or anything. But there are a lot of eyes on this channel everyday, and other youtuber's channels. And it's always the case of people looking at you, and they're like "Oh, my god!" Like, I've had people come up to me and say "Oh my god, Jack, you are so awesome. You're so perfect. You're so happy all the time. You're so energetic and everything". And well, I do try and be like... I do try and keep myself busy and do the things that make me happy. And I am happy a lot of the time. It's also important to me that I stay true to being like a Person to everyone. So I always say that I try to be genuine. I try to be honest. I try to be open. Because it reminds you that I'm human. Because there's a lot of other youtubers you watch and you're like "Oh, my god, they're so untouchable", that it feels like they're best that they could ever be when they're in their videos. And that's the only version of them that you really see. Their personal lives an all the other stuff outside of their videos are very well hidden or they just don't like to share that often. So all you do is see these people at their best, so you think they're untouchable. If you watch like... Say if you're like a band or you're like One Direction or something. You see them on stage and you're like "Oh, my god. They're so happy and they sing so well, and they're so energetic, and they're doing their best." But you don't get to see all the stuff outside of those elements thatt makes them human. That makes them way more relatable to you than you actually think that they are. And that's all part of public image to those people and it's an important part of like, their marketing and their branding and everything. But to me, I've always felt like it was more important to just sit down and be a person to all of you. So someone that, if we met on the street you can come up and be like "Hi Jack! :D" and like you could meet me and shake my hand and talk to me and everything. And not feel like it was some weird exchange. I never felt like I was better than anybody. I never felt like I've had everything all together. I feel like my life is more together now than it never has been. But there're still thing that get to me. Like, I've talked about it in like vlogs, or previous Reading Coments videos and stuff like that. That I am still human. Some stuff does still get me down. I am happy 90% of the time, but nobody is happy all of the time So like, don't go out of your way and think that if some people use that as an excuse to be a douchebag as well, that the... I'm sorry I'm rambling. That, they'll see these people online and they're like "Oh, my god. Those people are untouchable and they're so amazing at what they do." And then, some people take that and they try and put those people down. Because they try and bring those people down to a more relatable level, subconsciously. They don't know why they do it. They just shit all over this people, but subconsciously is probably them trying to think like "Hey, like those people are so great but I'm not that great and I want them to be down towards my level. That, if I can't have the happiness then they can't have it. So they end up shitting all over these people. But just remember that you don't see everything. You don't know what's going on inside these people's minds. You don't know what's going on inside like, my mind all the time. You don't know what's going on inside other people's minds. And it's when you realise that. When you mature enough -it's a good way of putting it- to realise that not everyone is the way they seem. And it comes back to depression a lot as well, that you've no idea who's suffering with these demons inside of them. There's always this animation or this picture that you see of people putting on like their happy face, or their happy suit to go out and face the world. And then when they go home they take off the suit and depression kicks in again. So you never know who's suffering. You never know what's actually going on with people. So that's why I always try and be as nice to people as I can be. Because you have absolutely no idea what's going on underneath that facade that people show up. And I'm sorry that I just spend like two or three minutes talking about that stuff. But it's important. And all these thoughts are going through my head as I play this game and I'm really glad that I'm doing it. Yeah (laughs). So hopefully it like, relates to some of you as well. That some of you are probably feeling like you are down in the dumps. And you're probably watching videos from youtubers and you're like "Oh, my god, they have their life so well together, so much is going right for them all the time, and like, I wish I had that. But they're a lot more relatable that you might think. We're on stage. Woow! This is a big stage. This is like the Gaiety Theatre, in Dublin. "Places please!" Where's my place? "In this scene, you'll be playing as me. We are at a gathering of professionals. First you'll start out leaning against this wall." This is like a bad dream, where you have to go do something like you're in a play but you don't have all the lines memorized. "Good, stay right there. The woman across the room, in this chair, is a profesional photographer of animals. It's your dream to photograph animals professionally. This is your one chance to learn something from her, to gain something, to succed. Go on, say something to her." "Hello." "Hello? That's it?? That's not a conversation! You need to actually converse with her, be a human being. Do it again." "I'm super scared right now."
"I like you." "Here are all of my hopes and dreams." (laughs) "No no no! That's not what I said to her at all! You're completely missing the tone of the conversation. I was reserved but I knew what I wanted, I was confident. For some reason it was just that one moment, but I was confident. Maybe it's that you need a better feel of the setting. There were a lot of people around us." Wow... Those are not people. Okay. "Cones that bounce when you touch them will represent the people nearby." The music goes with it. Ding! "You must have worked really hard to get where you are.", "I'll bet you have learned to lean into the pain." "What are some sacrifices you've had to make?" "You're messing it all up again! You'll freak her out if the conversation gets that personal that quickly! Do you not realise how important this was for me? I'll never get another opportunity like this again. Everything was riding on this!" So is this Coda meeting somebody? "I want to try something. Try stepping back from the stage." Okay. There's the lamppost again! Something familiar, that he's confortable with. Have to go all the way back? What's happening? "Okay, yes! Now this is working! This is what it was like!" That was really interesting. "Mobius Trip. To play this game properly you must keep your eyes closed. Click to begin the game." Am I supposed to keep my eyes closed? No. Haha. "Captain! What can we do??" Okay. Oh, we're in the Whisper! Again. "HELP! I'm blind!" What - the fuck? Truth is up there. Is that what it says? Oh. Do I have to save something in a way? Oh, crap. Truth. What? so wait wha-why-what-what?! Oh. I think I did it. I talked to the truth. "The only way to stop it is to speak something that is honest". "I can't keep making these." This is sad. Cause he's basically talking to himself. He's being his own therapist. December 2010. We're getting into the last two years. Or actually, we're coming upon to the last year. This is december. "Hello?" Wow. "How do I get out of here?" So the more questions I ask, the more the solution becomes visible? "Is that a person? How lovely! It's been a long time since I talked to anyone." "What's wrong? You look lost." See, he's basically talking to himself. "It's been a long time since I talked to anyone." "When I try to create I feel empty." "I have nothing left to give to my work" "I'm completely out of ideas." Oh. "Oh no! What's happened? Did something change?" "There was a machine that kept me going, and it stopped." "I'm trying to find this engine that used to protect me, to start it again." "Wait, you're looking for a machine? I think I know where it is! It isn't far." "You have to take me to it." "It doesn't matter what I say, does it? We're going to end up there one way or another. Right?" Oh! I clicked, I clicked... I clicked three and it just said deal anyway. So it was like Deal, Deal, and the last one was secretly Deal, but he said it in his mind. Like it doesn't matter what I say anyway, we're just gonna go there. Like he just said, he keeps throwing himself at his work, even if he doesn't want to do it. So is this him like coping, or coaching his way through his own work? Trying to get back into the creative swing of things? The puzzle. So, I've solved this puzzle before. Is this like your creative genius? Is this your creator's block right here? You need to solve the puzzle to get through it. "First you have to open the door." Oh, I'm actually talking about it now. "Now you have to close the first door." "Now you just press the switch here." This might be hitting a little too close to home. "There's no machine here." Thta's not a good, healthy way to do. You have to say that game development is simple and joyous and that you love it a 100% of the time." That's not true. No matter what like, thing you're doing, no matter what job you're doing, no matter how much you love it, it's not easy and simple one hundred percent of the time. Oh. "...but it wasn't true." "Don't worry about it, just keep talking. Keep saying that creation is easy." Remember these are all games that he never released to anybody or never intended to release to anybody. This is him basically talking to himself through his work. The wall crumbled. So this is basically... So my interpretation of this is that this is his literal creator's block. That he has like a writer's block, or the wall in front of him. When people say you hit the wall. And each layer keeps breaking. Was that Coda? I thought Coda was a guy. Or is it a girl? Now that I'm thinking about it it's like Coda could be a girl's name. Right? "The Machine" Um... Did he not use a pronoun here and there? And say him or he. I don't know. "Ma'am! Glad to see you've arrived safely. We've captured The Machine, it's waiting for you. You can begin the interrogation whenever you like." "I intend to be quick." "Very good. Just be warned that someone called the press, so we might have a bit of attention on this one. Also, one more thing that you should know about this machine: It calls itself Coda." I'm feeling really uncomfortable. Woooow. Wooow. Okay. So this is like the representation of the creativity? The like, the creative machine and their brain? And Coda is basically telling them, telling themselves that they've stopped; "You stopped feeding us". "Your work was keeping us healthy".
This is so sad! The sounds are horrible. "It was only because of your creations that any of us could make it through the day." "So here's what needs to happen: you need to go to the people who're out there and apologize to them." "You have to admit to the people that you allowed them to suffer" "I've been so alone." "Apologize for leaving me." "No? Nothing??"
"Think carefully, I know how to hurt you." "I have seen the thing you fear." This is crazy. "Alright then, I will apologize to the people on your behalf." Hi. "MY FRIENDS." "It falls on me to deliver bad news."
"I have a troubling revelation." No, bad news. "The machine will not apologize to us." "The machine refuses to admit that it deliberately hurt us." Remember this is all just Coda talking to himself. Herself. Itself. I-I don't know anymore. I'm so confused. "But this is not important! We're stronger than it thinks we are." "We'll find a way to live without it! We do not need its games." "Let us show it that we are not failures." "Follow me! We will destroy the machine!" "Follow me! We will destroy everything that the machine has created." We will destroy... I don't want to destroy the work he has done. We're back on stage. What!? What do we do?! Okay, this is weird. Nooo! "Coda, I'll make sure your work dies here!" This is NOT cool. "Isn't that what you were worried about? Having to live without your precious creations? Having to deal with yourself?" No! Not the nice room! This is horrible! Basically, seeing a person destroy themselves. Wow. Woow. It's the Truth Door. Good. There's the lamppost. And the machine. "Put down your weapon." Okay. I tried to put it down! Why do I have the feeling Coda didn't agree? Okay. I hope it's happier than the other ones. Okay. The same colors and stylings of all the other ones. It's very Mirror's Edge looking. The sound effects in the background, man, are creepy. I'm sorry I'm not saying much either. I mean like, I know I said that but I'm really just like lost in this. Lost in my own thoughts right now, I keep forgetting to say stuff. Oh, I don't like that sound. Those make me- Fuck! "WALL 128.128" Thank you! Can I jump off? Okay. I probably could. I don't- I don't wanna disrupt anything. I hope that this has a happy ending. Thank you! "151617" Why that code? 5 6 7 1 1 1 Sweet Thank you! This is Creepy. And a lot of this feels like you're playing inside someone's mind. Which is even creepier about the whole thing. It started off so warm and nice. Now it's rapping up into something that feel so emotionless. Thank you! Okay. No! Oh, yeah. There're three dots scattered on the place before, wasn't there? Just like on the walls. O-okay... You didn't fail, Davey. You're a good person. Are we at the end? This is hard to play... "Dear Davey, Thank you for your interest in my games..." That's really sad! When he showed his games to other people, people he trusted. That's why all the press were outside. "I wonder at times whether you think I'm making these games for you." "You've so infected my personal space that is possible I did begin to plant 'solutions' in my work somewhere, hidden between games." "If there was an answer, a meaning, would it make you any happier? Would you stop taking my games and showing them to people against my wishes? Giving them something that is not yours to give? Violating one boundary that keeps me safe?" Wow. "Would you stop changing my games? Stop adding lampposts to them?" He was adding lampposts? I thought Coda added the lampposts. Or is that, um, metaphorically? Like, would you stop adding like a final destination to them? "Would you simply let them be what they are?" So he made this levels specifically for Davey. Because he knew that he would be able to like, get past the solutions. He'd be able to like code the game in such a way that he was able to open the door, that the switch is behind. Maybe he was trying to keep Davey out and not the player. "When I'm around you I feel physically ill. You desesperately need something and I cannot give it to you. I literally do not have it. Struggling to come up with the new ideas is not making me depressed, low points are just a part of the process. The fact that you think I am frustrated or broken says more about you than about me. I realize that this doesn't make sense to you just yet. Which is fine, you're not my problem to solve. But I do hope that one day it clicks and you make peace with this thing you are wrestling. And when you finally see what I am talking about don't say anything." Is this the same? (exhales) That's some powerful shit. (exhales) What do I do? Can I go in some of this? There's a red door in this one. Oh, you're open. So this isn't just about Coda being depressed about what they're making. This is also about Davey being depressed about what they're making. Well, that's what it seems like to me. That he did this horrible thing to his friend and he just doesn't complete since. It's a Very nice house. But that's what I felt playing through it. That he was like tormented. That there was something wrong. I even like went on a big monologue, talking to you guys about how you don't always see what's going on behind the scenes. And now it... What's happening? So these are things that Davey has made then This is creepy. I really wanted this to have a happy ending! That's just being human, though. Everyone wants to feel validated. Everyone wants to feel like what they're doing is good. And how do you know what you're doing is god unless somebody else validates what you're doing as good. Cause otherwise... Like that's what they always say; like the bad guys think that they're the ones doing good. So you never know what you're doing is actually worthwhile or what you're doing is good. And that's why I'm always so thankful for all of you. Because you watch my stuff. You give me feedback. You tell me what I do, if I'm helping you guys. If I'm... If what I record is good, or if what I record is bad. How I can improve myself. And I like to think that not only have I grown as a youtuber over the last couple of years, but I like to think that I've grown as a person over all. Because of all the feedback that all of you give me all the time. And I'm not trying to get like all philosophical like the way the game is, and everything. Just, there're so many thoughts going on inside my head right now. Are you gone? How the hell is this all going to end? And somehow I feel compelled to walk through these arches. There's a crack in those... Oh, no. There're just two separated things. What the hell is this place? These are like, space monoliths. D-Do I drop? Oh! Too late now! (sighs) This game got So deep. And now I know why people were saying like the ending will be really good. Or the ending will make you think about things. The entire game it's just making me think about things. It's peaceful up here. I really like the music through everything. It really sets the moods. Oh, god. Is this gonna end horribly? It's the beam! It's the engine room beam! Am I gonna hit this and start floating? Do I have to give myself again? Thunderstorm outside. Which usually, in narratives, usually symbolizes that the protagonist is going through something as well. Or like, there's a lot of, um, like inner turmoil going on. I can't remember what they called it. There's a term for it. Am I gonna start floating? I can't see anything, though. Woow. What?! Jeesus Christ! Is this how your brain feels? Ha. It's kinda messing with my eyes as well at the same time. So that part where I came up is literally the only part with a gap in it. To me, this is symbolizing like his mental state. Like you are in the middle of all these mazes and you've no idea where to go or how to get out. But there is a solution somewhere. For 'R'? What!? "This project would not have been possible without the following individuals." Wow! That changed completely, by the end. All this time like, the game, and I think it was supossed to be that way, was that the game... Oh, this is kinda loud. The game was like saying this idea, like there was something wrong with Coda all the time. That he enjoyed making games, and then all of a sudden something happened and he just didn't enjoy making games anymore. Um... But it turns out they might have just enjoyed making games still. The way they were making them. But it was Davey who messed everything up. And then he was the one who was actually feeling bad through out all of this. He is the one with the problem. Maybe they both have problems. (sighs) Wow! That was Fantastic! That was so good! I'm so happy I played that! Thank you, any of you who've been here for the entire, oh, hour and forty minutes. Good god. It's cause I went on a bit of a few rants there, in the middle of it. But thank you guys! Any of you who stayed towards the end of it. Um... It really means a lot to me that you'd be here for the entire thing. Even if it was just alone in the background and you were just listening to me. Hopefully, a few things hit home or connected. Cause I know there's a lot of people out there who feel the same way. And I feel like youtubers playing this specially will connect a whole lot more over this. Any of you who are creative people will feel it a lot more, I think, than some other people. Um... And, like, a lot of the stuff that was in it, like really hit home with me as well. Cause, don't get me wrong. I still absolutely love doing Youtube. I can't imagine myself doing anything else ever again. It's the best thing that's ever happened to my life, and I'm so happy I get to do it with so for too, and for so many amazing people who like, really look up to me and appreciate the stuff that I do. It means far more than I can ever, ever show people. And I really try and like, again, I try and be relatable to people, and everything. Cause it's very easy for somebody to just make games and just do that and never connect with the people who are watching. And then, therefore the people who are watching can never connect to the people that they're like seeing on the screen. And that's why it elevates them to a possition that is way beyond what the people who are watching feel. And I never want that. I never want to feel like I'm elevated above any of you. I feel like we're all equal here. I just seem to be the focus point for all of you tolike, come towards and to see. Um... And hopefully I'm doing people proud. Hopefully I'm leading people in the right direction, or I'm at least sending out some possitive messages. And that I'm not being a total assbag all the time. I know I swear a lot and I do a lot of stupid things a lot of the time, but hopefully like... I like to think that I'm still a pretty good person and that I'm promoting a sense of positivity towards people. And that we're all here to have fun and it's nothing more than that. It's not like me trying to excise money out of people. It's not me trying to clickbait people into watching my videos more so I can get more views or anything like that. I really hope that it's just like a friendship kinda bases. Or at least as... At least as much like a friendship as they can make through the power of Youtube. Through this medium. It's very hard to still do that and to connect, but I still hope that I'm doing a pretty good job of it. I like to think that I am. Um... I've been doing Youtube for what, two years now? Close to three years on March. And I'd like to think that any of the stuff that's changed, has changed for the better. But the stuff that's made who I am had stayed the same, for the most parts. It's impossible not to change. Everybody changes every couple of years. Even all of you guys watching, you might not think that you are changing but, everybody changes and that's, that's how people grow and learn and develop. And hopefully everyone is changing for the good and for the better. But so much of that hit home with me. It's like... Youtube startes off as this thing where, specially after like the Pewdiepie shoutout, And, again I wouldn't say that that's what made the channel. I'd say the consistency of everything it's what has made the channel, That helped a lot at the start to get people, to get that sudden... Like I always say it, and Felix would agree with me that it's like Felix is the one that turned on the engine but I'm the one who hit the accelerator and changed the gears, and that kind of thing. I'm the one who has kept this train moving. I just created a fucking car analogy and then a train analogy. But... Ever since then it was a case of like, everyone was coming in into the channel, they're like "Oh, who's this new youtuber, who everyone is like talking about? And everyone's... Like, cause that's how it felt at the time. Like there was this... It seemed like everyday there was a new like, important figure coming in; like talking about the channel, then the more and more people started to find out about the channel. That made me feel really good. But I never tried to lose sight of everything. That's when stuff makes or breaks a channel. If you throw a bunch of subscribers at a youtuber, and if they just completely go away with their egos, like that's when you know to make a break. They either stay true to who they are or they take that and they end up thinking that their better than tey actually are. And then they think that they're better than the people who are watching them or whatever. So they're like "Oh, hey, look at all the subscribers I have now, I'm better than you guys". But I try so hard to not make it that kind of a thing. And I promess I'm getting to a point with all this. But after a while, it's like that die down. It's like the channel reachs to a certain level, I'd say around 5 million subscribers as when this happened. And then everything started to die down. Everything plateaued. It was like the channel rose and rose and rose and rose. And then just went leveled out. And that's fine by me. That's fine by me. I'm so happy to have the amount of people that are on the channel here. This community is amazing, and it's way beyond anything I've ever could have done on my own. Or anything I've ever thought could have happened with the channel. So I'm so happy that it did, and that's why I'm really hoping that I'm keeping you guys happy and entertained and proud, along the way. Because that sense of like the new 'it' thing is kinda gone. So, after that happened, like your creativity kinda hits a plateau. An I've seen it happen to other youtubers as well, whether they like to admit it or not, !going through the same experiences that I have with some other people. I can see it in them. Like a lot of people who watch them might not see it. Some people might or whatever, but... I've seen this in other people as well, where you feel like you've hit your maximum potential. You feel like you've hit as far as you can go, with the type of stuff that you're doing. Like my type of commentary, the type of games that I play. And I'm struggling a lot with that lately, because a lot of -I've said this a few times- a lot of series have died down. I'm trying to wait for the new next big thing to happen. And it's kinda hard to do it, when you're trying to find games to scramble towards. That you think would be fun to watch, that you think are fun to play. A lot of them end up being one-offs, and then everyone thinks that you're losing... You're losing like your creativity. You're losing your spark, or you're becoming boring, or you're playing all this types of games because you want to be something else. That's not the case at all. It's a case of like trying to find your way back. Um... I still feel like I'm the same person, it's just you need to find that new 'it' game, that like hits your spark again, that you fly off and you make the best of your potential, the best of your abilities, the best of your style that you possibly can. And sometimes there's a transitional period, and you just have to hope that that transitional period is the same, and that some people like... I have to try to open up your minds to it. How this stuff happens. And I'm rambling a lot. I don't know if I'm getting my point across. And I'm always so scared that people are just gonna abandon me in this transitional periods, until I find the next new thing. And that I hope I'm not going off the rails as much, but that's why I stay connected to you all so much. That I feel like, if I stay connected to you, that it will ground me. It will let me remember what this channel is. What is all about. And, that's why I like stick to my Youtube friends as well. Um, specially Mark and Felix. They are like huge inspirations to me. Don't fucking cry, you moron! They're huge inspirations to me, and when I see those guys do cool things, like Mark with his charity stuff, the stuff he's been going through recently and how he's coped it, how he's handled it, how he's managed to like, come back from it. And he has managed to take such a long break from it, and he's managed to come back stronger than ever. And people are still there with him. Like I admire the shit out of that so much. And I really hope that the people on this channel trusted me that much as well, to stick around me that much. And it's the same with Felix. Like a lot of people give him shit for the type of stuff that he does. His humor is not for everybody. He even knows that himself. But... He's adapted, and he's moved on, and he's done all these things through Youtube for so long. And he stills such a strong presence on this website, and to the people who watch him. A lot of people have come and gone but he's managed to stay who he is for all this time. And he's going off and he's doing all these cool things on himself. He's maximizing his potential, and he's doing so much of it. He still works so hard, and it's so admirable. It's the same with Mark. Like they're such cool people and they're such strong people. And I look up to them so much. And it's kinda the way this game was promoted as well. Like how Davey looked up to Coda, a lot. Arghh! Get yourself back together. Make a point. It's like, you need those people to look up to, because if you don't have those to look up to, like... Where do you go? What happens then? Like, that's why I look to you guys so much. You guys keep me strong every single day. If I didn't have you here, I'd fall apart. I wouldn't know what to make. I wouldn't know what I was doing was right. I need that validation, like the game was saying. All of these things are going through my head as I was playing and I felt like right now it's the perfect time I could have ever played this game. Cause I feel like, there have been moments in the last couple of months where you feel stuck in that kind of path. And that's why I've said I want to do so much more than what I'm doing now. I feel like I'm so busy all the time that I'm not making the time to do this stuff. That I wanna do stuff beyond Youtbe. I wanna do stuff beyond games. I'm not saying I wana be an actor or anything like that. But I wanna involve you guys in so much more. And we can have fun doing a lot more. And you get to know me more as a person, instead of just living through game with me. That we get to live through so much more. So... I don't know. Don't take this now as that "Oh, Sean is depressed"! That there's something going on with him. He needs to vent, he needs to take a break or anything like that. That's not the case, I just need to find my spark again. I need to find that stuff that helps me keep moving forward. I just need games! I need games that.. that... games th- what's the word I'm looking for? Games that inspire me. Inspire me is the word that I'm looking for. Because a lot of the things that I'm playing now, while they're fun and I still think that they're fun to put up in the channel, I'm still happy about the stuff that I'm playing; I feel like I need that next Subnautica. I need that next new Happy Wheels. The next Skate 3. That kind of stuff that really like, invigorates the channel and everybody gets on board. Cause right now there's a lot of people saying "Jack, what's the new series that you're gonna play?" "What's the next big thing?" And I think we're all kinda waiting for that sort of stuff to happen. So stick with me. This can still be fun. Just I need to make people aware of the mindset of things that's going on right now. And that I hope people don't abandon me in the transitional period, or whatever. Again, I'm fine. I'm in a good head space. I still really, really love what I do. And I still really enjoy what I do. Um... My girlfriend's actually coming over for a wee- for nine days* soon. I don't know when this video is gonna go up. She's coming over very soon and I have videos prepared that, that's another reason; that the pressure is been on. And the stress is kinda kicking in a bit. Cause I have to find games to cover the time. So I'm trying to find stuff that I think people are gonna want to watch, and that people will enjoy. As well as I want to record. And, sometimes it's hard to find out, specially when there's not a lot of games out. So that's why there's a bit more one-offs than normal. I don't want people to think that I'm just gonna start abandoning series and do one-offs all the time, and turning to clickbait or anything like that. Thta's not my... Thta's not what I'm trying to do at all. And I'm trying to be as honest and opened with you guys as possible. And I... I trust and I respect you guys to take this knowledge with you. And like, just make the channel and the community as strong as it ever was. And... I don't know. I don't know what I'm trying to say. Haha But anyway, that was The Begginner's Guide. I'm sorry I rambled a lot. I feel like I had a lot of stuff on my chest that I had to get off, and I'm really glad that I played this. And this was one hell of an experience. And thank you for being here with me through all of this. This was a lot of fun to do and I'm... I feel a lot better, after playing it. It was really good, I really enjoyed it. But for now, thank you guys, so much for watchingthis video. If you liked it, punch that like button in the face! LIKE A BOSS! And, -high fives all around- *wapish* *wapish* But thank you guys and I will see all you dudes... IN THE NEXT VIDEO!! :D Like and subscribe :3 <3 Wow, I have to go record a bunch of other stuff after this. And I've no idea how. Because I don't think anything will top that for a while...
I'd suggest watching this play through instead: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=19D6IhQ1d-s
Because I couldn't stand that Irish guy for the 2 seconds he was introducing his
shitannoying channel.