5-MeO-DMT Trip Report | Life Changing Nonduality Insights With The God Molecule

[Music] [Applause] [Music] okay so it goes something like this I'll preface this by saying it's almost impossible to talk about this experience because it's almost a nun experience is beyond any experience you can possibly have human is the ultimate height of any experience that is even perceived as anywhere near possible it's just so beyond everything you've ever experienced in your life every psychedelic it's just being thrown straight into the middle of the cosmos it's like loading a garden with the universe and firing ahead it's beyond ridiculous but I'll do my best so it goes something like this so inhales for a certain amount of time and the effects have felt very very quickly within about 10 seconds there's their support usually the thought comes in but that was kind of it's the last remnants of the ego just trying to cut a little fight once it starts there's no stopping and everything starts to go a little bit fuzzy I'll lay back on the bed and the whole room disappears into kind of fractal patterns of white light just very quickly this happens in an instant within them in the second it all just what is whatever is making up reality the light that is coagulating into what we see is form breaks apart into its more sort of natural state into just fragments of whatever you want to call that what what I perceived only a moment ago as myself and as the world are no longer there so the bed's disappears myself disappears there's no there's no self enough that is gone and it disappears into this overwhelm will the white infinite kind of light if there's a way of describing it I guess it would be like the light the star you know kind of like when you look up in the night sky and since they're very bright stars it's like all of those lights and magnified into bits just kind of white screeners just in infinity and there's no you there's no there's no world there's nothing that you anything you've ever identified is you is all gone within within such a short amount of time it's is spend your mind so there's there's an unknown amount of time in this space which is just infinite oneness with everything not even one miss with everything because there are no other things there's no you left all that's left is this sort of knowing there's a knowing beyond words that everything in the universe is all the same thing it's not not thing there's all the same energy it's all the same it could be said awareness it is only that it all comes from this one source and there's no separation between any event anything beyond that is is pure illusion and that this is the actual natural same thing that's very very much a home homely feeling and so there's a certain amount of time even though time and space doesn't exist in this in this place there's a certain amount of time spent in there which may as well be days it passes by on the clock is maybe 10 minutes but it's it may as well be days weeks it doesn't matter because it doesn't it doesn't have any there's no reference points as to what time is at this point you've literally become what people call God Brahman the DAO it's the absolute ground of existence and it's all known all answers to all questions are all known without without using concepts or words it's all just an immediately perceived every question that's just dissolved there's nothing left to be known and then after that once the ego just just any smidgen of an ego starts to come back online and that's where things get for me very interesting start with there were fears that come up I'll know on lost in infinity forever I don't even know what I am and you guys trying to kind of go what's going what is it just get a grip it wants to grip and put it in a box don't feel safe again but now after a few experiences of a company what tends to happen is the egos asking questions and going so lot of things out so was there anything ever anything to worry about if this is my true state what what was there to worry about and it's almost like a conversation with the universe although it's not there's not like to me in another being it's just a conversation happening by itself with answers immediately thrown back from God knows where and it's like no there was no others there was no worries there was there's nothing to worry about ever this is you've never left home visited your home everything is always perfect full of bliss and full of love and as hippies that sounds us that's that's one of the truth that's revealed and after that laughter begins and not just like hey and normal laugh like like all has a jokes hold it's like the biggest joke ever told times infinity and the laughter is like a stored up attention that has been released after eons of being trapped and condensed and twisted and and believed in and it's seen that you've just this whole time all your worries all thoughts of any kind of what anything relating to worrying trying to impress people worried about losing loved ones about it's a state of the world the state of other people something someone might have said to you it seemed that ultimately there's nothing to worry about whatsoever everything is the same thing but it's all a player form and the form is you it's such a relief that this self I call it a cosmic self is like undressing its clothes it's like I've been wearing these clothes but millions of years I best let loose some of these clothes every time you it's like a cosmic laughter like God is laughing through you and it's like a release Minh of office clothes is been wearing and so are finally and then there's another wave of laughter it's just it's just an unstoppable role of laughter because every for I think about was immediately resolved every single problem of ever every polarity duality anything any position I've ever taken is immediately resolved and seems ultimately ridiculous and we've been subject to the greatest joke full-time which is I am the joke the whole thing is the joke there's nothing to ever worry about we we've chosen to do this and like I just begin this wave of unstoppable laughter and even for my laugh there's like a release Minh of what some layer of being and the being expands and expands and expands and the more laughter more expands ah finally Upton stop I can stop pretending now it's so blissful that it's just it's it's laughed if it comes out as a laughter is beyond laugh that any kind of laughter I've ever experienced in that she brings tears to my face and I end up completely exhausted because it's just almost too much and it's like we've left ourselves a breadcrumb trail of bliss home and it just and the further damage where you goes it's like the bread comes become cakes and then bigger treats and they just get better and better the nearer home you get the nearer this a natural state you get the more blissful and more full of humor and love and laughter it becomes and and the more nearer you get to this every day waking life which we class classifier itself is a you know a person in the world the further away you get from them but you never actually leave anywhere you're always in that state you just can't see it so this happens and this goes on for it sometimes goes on for half an hour and an hour and by the end of this it feels like my heart is exploded and it's encompassing the whole universe and it can sometimes change quality at this point to where there's now an outpouring of compassion and love for all beings even beings I as Paul in this relative world take take a dislike to actually they're all so beautiful and so full of love and bliss at their core it's just they're wearing some clothes that for a little while they're wearing these clothes and just being a very dislikable character and there's no mistake in that it's all just part of the play and all of this is it just it just makes my whole being pour out was just love for everything love for the whole of life and everyone and and usually some laughter as well I'm still still coming out just mainly it myself the fact I've taken it seriously at all that I ever worried about anything that seems to be a very funny thing in that state and usually I self end up exhausted then go into a kind of a deep meditation and rest for a while if there's time which I find a very sort of niles period of that just sitting there and just kind of this this blissful state of knowing of feeling very connected to everyone or everything and a lot of love for actually everything it's like an in my most recent one um it was pictures of my dog and my wife and even squirrels and trees outside it came into my head and they said I said to them did you know this and and they went of course you can you yes we are it and that just caused me so like I literally was in hysterics like them and so much so like I was wailing with laughter if you've seen it really clearly you've sort of seen improve a whole facade of things and that we are literally just upholding these masks and it's difficult not to look at everyone in the sense of love as opposed to office persons in my wines in Tesco I still getting my way lady pain you know you taste the whole it's like a perspective change nothing's really changed but the view it's almost like I've taken a higher view like I've got on top of a platform and I can see everything a little bit clearer as opposed it's ground view that we usually have of the world and of people you can see a slightly higher view you can see the slightly bigger picture of things so that when things appear bad you it seemed that actually that's not as I need an immediate judgment of that situation with me bad in what is true is beyond good and bad and there's no such thing as a bad thing in one way or another that thing is happening for a reason and it will turn out absolutely fine and it's it goes beyond any kind of it carries on beyond any sort of remnants of any chemical interactions that may have gone on in the body which may have caused this state it just pours out into everything I do in the moment and I have noticed since since I have had any experience with five Meo is it just poured out that love and a bliss in that state unlike with other sort of psychedelics it's not just seen as oh that was interesting what can i integrate to that it's just like and whether you want to or not that love at the core of everything is just known much more fully and pours out onto everything in the form of humor laughter love bliss all of these what we'd call positive qualities and it's not like you're trying to be positive it's just outpouring it's like this metal it's just overflowing with that me the thing is there's no such thing as time in in that state it seemed very clearly there's no such thing as time what the thing that powers this life the life itself is is never-ending it can't be it's outside of time and space it's not part of this play and I don't know the reasons behind it if there are reasons behind there or what hahaha game is here that we've got going on that's not completely clear but I know that it is just a game and it is we the truth of what we are is eternal is eternal and it's blissfulness full of love and it sounds too good to be true and it just is known that that's the truth it's it's unbelievable that that's true I am you know it's almost difficult to say these things because you just sound like a bit of a nutcase but it's these things are true it's just known directly as clearly as when you you know you go what is the taste manner or you eat an apple as opposed to someone telling you whether there's life and death and stuff it's like you've eaten that knowledge you know it directly and at the sort of core of everything we can't help the Beave is blissful pure love overflowing being but it's just just for a little while since I dream of is life in the world just for the sake of because because it's so full of love as such such unconditional love is it can sort out pour and experience as every possible experience and sometimes that experiences what we call bad but there's no mistake to it it's just our pouring as that for a little while it kind of seems like this is the trip actually where as crazy as that sounds this life everyday is actually the trick and proving what that stay is is so simple and so perfect and so complete that this is species this is infinitely more complex than what that say is but there's so much going on here in everyday life and the fact we're able to experience at this conversation is apparent separate individuals is just crazy really and but you never quite question because that's a seems like the normal same things descent predetermined isn't quite right that it's somehow is it's like you can't quite see round the corner but it's like you're part of you knows what's coming in a way and that's kind of seemed really funny and I don't know why that's funny but it's like none of it's a mistake it's ultimately you can't get lost and you can't lose this game it's a game where everyone wins but there is not everyone there's only one but you can't it's a game you can't lose the game is just to experience life and that's it you can't possibly lose if you wake up in the dream great but that's no more there's no different to having a lucid dream and becoming lucid in a dream there's no sort of higher purpose for that it might just bring the quality of the dream a bit better you might have a bit more fun with the dream if that's if that's you know your preferences dreams but ultimately the only if it we can't possibly go wrong so well I think David Carr says it very well I've got a little piece here from this book perfect brilliant stillness and he says here what would you give to no absolutely no beyond any doubt that everything really is alright but there's no reason to fear that there's no need to feel despair or loss or uncertainty it's that all the pain and hurt and evil we have seen truly is only an illusion and that the most beautiful things we have experienced are only a glimpse a small taste of what is truly real and truly ours that everything is alright that everything is perfect as it is that all as well this is what I see and what I know at the end of the human vision lies final ultimate truth in as much as such can be with be at all within our vision even as its its extreme limit it cannot be experienced or fought off or spoken off because it cannot be conceptualized this ultimate beingness and ultimate consciousness overflows constantly in the outpouring of its essence its nature which is pure absolute love beyond our conceptions of love complete compassion total truth ultimate beauty outpouring you

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Keywords: nonduality, 5-MeO-DMT, God Molecule, Psychedelic, Trip Report, gaia tv

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Length: 18min 8sec (1088 seconds)

Published: Fri Feb 07 2020