Why I Left Big 4 Consulting at Deloitte - I QUIT MY JOB!

hi i'm eunice welcome to my channel this story is actually really really really hard for me to tell but i want to talk about my story about why i left lloyd and my six figure salary as a manager of data science and why i really wanted just to leave and and start my own podcast latte podcast life after 30 talks with eunice as you can see i'm really struggling really hard to tell a story because honestly i feel naked by talking about this so let's start about why i made this video and why i think it would be helpful for you to listen i made this so that whoever is in the same position as i was can have the confidence that they're not alone and that i've struggled through the same problems that you have and that if you're feeling this right now just remember that i'm here with you and i felt those same problems those problems are feeling like you're in a stuck in a toxic workplace you're bored you're lost in life you don't know what to do with your life that's pretty much why i wanted to start latte podcast i wanted to showcase to everyone that even if you don't have your figured out by 30 is perfectly fine there's tons of people who don't figure their lies out until later in life and sometimes you never figure out your life and it's really just a whole process of piving and figuring out what you do and you don't like and so if you tune into the podcast i'm going to talk to people who are past the 30s just talking about their lives and how they pivoted in terms of career or relationships what their outlook looks and how it's different from say our 20s or our teens if you feel like right now you feel stuck and bored and lost and unfulfilled really unfulfilled in your life and in your career i've been there and that's pretty much why i have built this whole group around impactful impactful is people who are passionate about their career and finding fulfillment and together we'll walk through the journey of how to find that fulfillment for you it's actually really not too difficult after i figured it out on my own i was like this is so amazing let me try it on some other friends and network that i know and i tried on them and then it worked and i was like oh my god and now they're coming back to me and telling about the new ideas that they've come up with because of that whole environment i was like i want to expand this and help more people who are also feeling that corporate burnout and so in our group impactful we work together to figure out what your passions and your skills are and create a way for you to feel fulfilled in your career so before i go all negative nancy and talk about you know why i didn't like working at deloitte why it was so toxic i mean you can find it all on the consulting meme pages anyways but i just want to tell you a bit about my backstory so that you can feel like you can relate to this so growing up i grew up in a very traditional asian christian household where the values were pretty set up for you you go to school you go to a good university you get a good job and you keep climbing the corporate ladder to me i didn't really have any other ambitions at that time so i just followed it like i didn't really have anything i was super passionate about it was i wasn't always entrepreneurial or like i wasn't always going like oh i want to be like a celebrity or anything like that there was nothing i was super passionate about even though i've been a koreaboo for like 13 15 years now there isn't like one group where like i fandom it and they're like all over my walls type of thing like i just like things but not to the point of like being passionate about it and so because i wasn't really passionate about anything in life ever i was always like what really should i do with my life i don't know eventually i realized i really like working in a very challenging environment so consulting and also i really like to put the numbers behind marketing strategies and that's why after acing school i graduated and went to work at an advertising agency in their data science department then something in me always felt slightly unfulfilled and i didn't know what it was part of me that was like i have a heart for non-profits so how can i do something for non-profits i landed at data for good and i led their whole data for good chapter building a whole community of over 2 500 data scientists and that was when i started to realize what i'm passionate about like there's three phases to a job there's job career and then mission so a lot of times people have like a job and a career but they usually don't have a mission and mission really comes with purpose if you don't feel like you know what your purpose is or have a purpose it's really hard to find what your mission and calling and purpose is so most of the time people just have a job and career for me so far when i was doing corporate it was either a job or career and it never really felt like a mission and i think right now what i'm pursuing is really a mission for me because i'm always feeling on fire and i always feel significant in helping people while i was working at the advertising firm i felt a little burnout and then i thought hmm maybe i need to switch jobs so eventually i switched into deloitte and i thought man this is my dream job everybody wants to get into a big consulting firm like deloitte my life's going perfect just perfect and yeah it was a dream job at that point and it definitely is a dream job to a lot of people but when you go through the gates of fire and the hell the hell gave the fire you don't like it anymore part one i think if you're in data science you'll realize that a lot of the people above you when you're technical and a lot of the people above you are just more salespeople and they don't really understand the amount of effort that it takes to do your work that it's so frustrating sometimes and then part two that i found really difficult at deloitte where i think a lot of people can resonate with us too is the politics to get up the ranks and to get promoted you do have to play the game and you do have to play politics but for certain people like myself you can do it but it's really tough and like i was there for three years and some people are like how did you do that honestly i don't know i feel like it just took away my soul slowly and solely [Music] i think part of the reason i was able to stay there for three years was i always had some side hustles going on which is where i was way more passionate and fulfilled i wouldn't say those side hustles were 100 where i was fulfilled but it definitely gave me some more passions so the three years i was at deloitte i also did data for good at the same time and definitely was passionate about it the only thing was i knew what i was passionate about building a community but i wasn't paid for it and i couldn't figure out a way how i could get paid for it and also do what i love then i started like trying to do other things i tried to do drop shipping and e-commerce i tried to build my own analytics consulting firm and when i tried to do these things i could also feel not aligned and not passionate and purposeful about it there was something always missing it was either i was doing it for the money or i was doing it for the passion and i couldn't find a way to marry the two until i started latte podcast and impactful that was when i realized now i know how to bridge what i'm passionate about and what i can get money and you know get paid well for it and so that's pretty much what impactful is all about you can check it out in the show links below for me it felt like a lot of time of self-discovery and hope it definitely did help in terms of kind of like sitting on a mountain and thinking about this but i definitely spent a lot of money going to like tony robbins conferences which are thousands of dollars i also paid a lot of courses so that i can figure out like the analytics consulting thing too i searched a lot for it a lot of people usually just say you just have to keep trying a lot of things until you figure out what you're passionate about totally agree with that in some sense at the same time you can't just like try a lot of things because there's honestly with social media and digital there's so many opportunities out there you can make your own career whatever you want if you just had to try all the millions of things that's hard to go through definitely a more targeted approach so that you focus more instead of looking at every single opportunity out there speaking about money there was a stanford research study that looked at happiness and they realized that once people reached a salary of 75k and above the happiness doesn't really grow that much and i totally agree with that too when i was making six figures at deloitte when i got the bump up from my promotion in my paycheck it was honestly only a couple hundred dollars more and i was like that's it i'm doing more work for what [Laughter] um extra pay [Music] why am i working so hard for this knowing how much we get billed out for like what excuse me where is all the money go not my pocket what i'm trying to say is there's a point in life when you come to a realization an epiphany that money can only buy you so much and now instead of money becoming your biggest value in life it's not to say it's not important but then time and passion and purpose become more important yes you totally need money to sustain yourself but i think if you know that your life on earth is limited and you want to do more with your life there's definitely a way for you to find your purpose and make money at the same time so with covet because i came to this epiphany that i really valued time and my purpose in life and i really wanted to devote the time that i have right now because i don't know when i'm gonna die to realizing the things that i'm passionate and purposeful about because if it really was just about making money i could go elsewhere that's more healthier than deloitte to make money i could leave and go to the industry and make way more money so i'm sure you clicked on this video because you wanted to understand why i left a lloyd and whoops my earring just fell so i can show you some clips about how great deloitte is i mean for sure it's all bougie looking glass building fancy everywhere you can travel supposedly honestly i think it really depends on which team you're on being in the more technical data science team you don't really travel that often and even for us because we're in canada the only places you travel to mostly is just within canada and it's not even to like vancouver the city or montreal the city it's like random obscure places like i went to ottawa so many times and i was like there's nothing to see here even if you do get flown out to places you don't have the time to go explore that place if you're in europe i definitely know people who get to travel to other european countries and that's fun same with asia if you really want to know what the life of a consultant is just check out a consulting meeting page all of them is accurate you literally have no life you if you want a relationship good luck to you you can date your computer and about the misconception of it being fun and having parties and stuff i think at one point in time there was more parties but that was when the company was doing well and when the company's not doing well there ain't no party and sometimes it's also like force parties it's like dinner parties that you don't really want to go to but you kind of have to because you have to show a front biggest problem with deloitte is i felt like i couldn't be my genuine self like i couldn't be savage i had to always put a nice face and pretend like i was happy with everything even though deep down inside i was like what do you want let me pretend i care okay i'm done not saying all teams in deloitte are like this i would say it really depends on the team that you're on there are definitely teams that are great um and some of my friends there last forever there and that's great that they followed a good leader but it's also rare and few in between i know a lot of people who actually couldn't even stay half a year and left like literally a few weeks and they left so it really depends on which team you're on who else you're working with and i would say you last long in deloitte it's really about who your partner is if you're following the right partner that's awesome if you're not following the right partner sucks for you i got restructured every single year is so perfect i would say if i had to tldr why i left deloitte i would say the corporate culture pushed me to realize that i don't feel passionate or fulfilled doing this work even though i'm great at it even though i'm getting paid well for it kind of like a lot less people would have loved that six figure salary having that good name on your resume it's painful like during all of it yeah it's great you can work from home but it's like because they know that you're working from home and that it's cold and you're in lockdown they kind of expect you to work 24 7. it's like what else would you be doing why are you taking vacation what do you need those days off for like can i not say mental health and like you know making sure i'm okay no you have to give up your weekends all the time and it's not even like you're saving lives so like why are you giving up your weekends just to make the client happy when they don't even want that thing it really hit me hard because it made me realize not only when i was i'm masking myself my true self from other people but i was also becoming a worse person because of all the i had to deal with at work hey patrick what am i now oh stupid no i'm texas what's the difference like it's been one week now and a lot of people ask me how's it like leaving deloitte how do you feel and i can say for sure that i feel so much lighter and so much more free i can feel like being my own goofy self if you check instagram i'm goofy all the time and i just feel like a whole burden is off me even though i'm not you know making loads of money right now it's like i just feel so freeing and i can be my true self and some people are even saying i'm actually they can see me glowing like let me tell you kind of like the events that happened and unfolded right before i quit and why i was just like snap i need to leave so i would say like a month or two before i actually quit and made that decision i was already trying to contemplate like and map out to myself what do i really enjoy what am i good at and what can i do like long term in life like i don't see myself staying in corporate and lloyd for until i'm 60. so what am i going to do with my life and i just like you know was super deep in my thoughts for a month and two then i realized what i really want to do and who i really want to help the why and the who were really clear to me the what i was still building so at deloitte they gave us like a one week break during christmas for kind of like mental health and i think that was awesome at first i was like okay i don't really need to take the break but then when i took the break i was like yeah i'm just going to keep taking a break i'm not going to keep working on this client project even though i know that we're going to be so behind and then that one first week when i got back from christmas break and then they realized you know that how behind we were in the project and they're like they said like really toxic things to me like you should have worked over the holiday and i was like why do i have to give up my own personal time to work on your projects which i already said was impossible to do that doesn't make any sense so i just be like working all this time and you be having fun with your family can i not have that freedom can i not use my own time the way i wanted to it was really really like oh it's like bringing all the anger back to me right now so angry so then like that was one conversation but there was just so many similar toxic conversations like that saying like you're basically not important and i'm just like well if you don't think i'm important enough and i'm replaceable why don't i just make that easier for you like i don't need to to do this job anymore i have enough savings that i could literally just quit and be perfectly fine for a while and do whatever i really enjoy like i don't need this job and if i really were to leave i know myself that i'm super skilled in data science enough that i can easily get another job somewhere else that week that this happened to me it was already thursday and i was working 80 hours already and i was just like why am i doing this i'm not saving any lives if i finish this tomorrow or not nobody's gonna die if i do finish it in time i still have another three weeks of hustling of 80 hours per week that i have to do do i really want to do this to myself what is the purpose of doing all this how does this benefit me it doesn't and so when i realized this i was just like this is a sign that this place is now to the point of too toxic that it's time to leave and yes it's it was super super super scary to make that decision like honestly being my risk adverse traditional asian self it was the hardest thing that i have to do i was like in my pants like i had to talk to all my friends until like 6 a.m that day to figure out like am i crazy like like what am i doing and i love how all my friends are just so supportive of me um i have a great network around me that they're just like you do it you've been talking about quitting deloitte for so many times like you need to do it because like you said if you just quit now like you can always easily find another job you can find another job you can take a break or you can go full into what you want to do and just try it out like yeah you don't know where it leads to but do you still want to keep doing the thing that you're doing right now that toxicness that burnt out like do i want to keep pursuing it and i was just like no i don't and i've just been in a mindset oh if it doesn't feel right get out of it and keep going to what feels right if i didn't make that first move of saying like i need to quit this is not right for me i need to leave this i don't know how it is but things have just been attracting to me like i found a mentor i found support network i found all these things that are helping me you know build the journey that i'm on honestly i feel like i could rant about so many backpacks that happened at deloitte i mean i am still grateful for it because it taught me how not to lead people and how not to have a horrible work culture i definitely think it was a great three years run i did a lot of cool projects that i wouldn't be able to do anywhere else i have it on my resume now my asian parents are proud everything in life there is a purpose and time for it and deloitte's purpose and time in my life was way overdue and if you feel the same way that i did three weeks ago where you just felt burnt out and unfulfilled and bored and lost in life i've been there and i can totally relate with what you're going through i totally feel for what you're going through and if you ever want to chat about it drop me an email drop me a dm because i know i know there is a way out for you because a lot of the people who have gone through my workshop you can see their eyes just light up it's like going from dull dreary eyes so you you see your it's monday and you have to wake up at 9 00 a.m for your 9 a.m meeting and you literally don't want to wake up does definitely take some while to figure it out but if you figure it out alone it's honestly very lonely but if you figure it out together with our group with us with me we'll walk this journey with you together and it won't be lonely anymore i think making that decision of quitting is super hard i'm not saying that you have to quit i'm just saying that even having a little light bulb in your head to figure out i'm actually passionate about this i want to change my job and career to focus way more on what i'm i'm more passionate about and even just seeing that light bulb go up and your eyes twinkle finally again i think that is so much more worth it than just you know trying to figure it out somehow someday i didn't go into like detailed stories about like deloitte shenanigans but if you really want to let me know and i'll maybe make a part two and then i can tell you about all the crazy stories about how people slept their way up should i expose it so thank you for watching this whole video and just like listening to me rant about my story and why i left lloyd and why i started things i have a more purpose and mission for one listen to my podcast latte podcast where we talk about the life after 30. i just talked to a lot of older brothers and sisters about like how their lives are and how they look like after 30 you know just to break the stigma so you don't have to have all your together by 30. second way you can join is you can join our impactful facebook group or you can check out the i am impactful.com website and you can join our group to figure out how you you can find your passion and career and just feel fulfilled at the same time also i'll be sharing a lot of behind the scenes style stories as i venture towards my 30 more behind the scenes on me building my business so if you want to stay tuned just hit the subscribe and keep watching

Channel: Eunice Lo

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Length: 23min 11sec (1391 seconds)

Published: Thu Feb 11 2021