why I chose to live alone - two years in a cottage

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hello everyone, i missed you last week  because I was in bed with a back injury   that prevented me from filming. However,  I am well again and almost back to normal,   but I'm taking things easy and staying  indoors for a few more days just in case. Today I decided to make some chocolate molds.  My portable stove top was being finicky so   I wasn't able to heat the chocolate properly  but I made it work. Though my recipes didn't   come out perfect today I think the homemade feel  still gives them charm. I also baked a cake since   I wanted to experiment with potential flavors  for my wedding. Today is raspberries and beets. In this video I wanted to answer a question  that has been following me for over a year   since I started this channel. It was brought  up in my last video, I got so many messages   about it and it is: why do you live alone? In  addition, there are also those who are curious   why I don't live with my fiancé. The short answer  is that I think how normal my situation seems all   depends on your background. For example, within  my cultural experience it is normal to live with   your family as an adult until you get married, so  this is all very relative on who you are and where   you come from. While I do have my own little  home, I still spend a lot of time with family.   In terms of my relationship I simply wanted  to have my own place until we got married.   I told that to Luke early on and he said that  it was my choice his love wasn't conditional. I like the feeling of living more independently  during this time before I get married. I've never   had the chance to live by myself, I always had  roommates or shared a space in some way and I   really wanted to experience living somewhere that  felt like my own. I'd never had that my entire   life. After a series of not great relationships  I knew that I would much rather learn to enjoy   life alone than be with the wrong person. While  I did eventually find someone Iwas very ready   to live a beautiful life by myself it had no less  value and there were benefits to both lifestyles While living separately from others isn't  necessary, for me it was important and taught   me how I wanted to live and what I was willing  to compromise if I let someone significant into   my life again, As someone who innately wants  to please people, it can be easy for me to get   swept up and living the way someone else wants  me to live instead of understanding how I want   to live and what I need. And through that  journey of discovery I found this gentle,   quiet rhythm - something I realized I wanted  to bring to all my future relationships While this time living alone is now coming to an  end, it's been extremely fruitful and that's why   I'm sharing this with you, because I think it's  so important to listen to your heart and not let   other forces pressure you into doing something  you don't want to do or are not ready for.   There will always be people that  don't understand and that's okay,   what works for one relationship  doesn't work for another,   For me I've had my best experience by letting  go of what society says is normal or right and   instead just listen to my heart. What feels right  for me may not be for you, and that's the beauty   and complexity of human relationships.  Each is different and so interesting. I missed you guys last week because I  hurt my back and it was quite painful.   It was really really hard to do things and this  isn't too unusual for me, I used to work at a   department store in the basement and it was my  job certain days to move a lot of heavy boxes   that were dropped off by the post and one day I  slipped and fell while holding one of those boxes   and I seriously injured my back and I was not  able to go into work for a while and since that,   at least once a year, something happens where I  tweak my back again. It's always a bit annoying   but I always get better in a few days of taking a  good amount of rest, it's funny how your body kind   of lets you know eventually that they just need  to stop for a bit and take a break and relax so I   did that last week. But I did keep working on etsy  orders and it has given me so much joy to see such   lovely responses to my work at the shop thank you  so much it has just been so exciting to open again   and to get so much lovely feedback and even just  answer your questions and communicate with you.   There's an option in each order to leave a little  note and so many of you have left some really   lovely heartfelt notes really enjoyed reading  them and it's been very very meaningful for me   so thank you, thank you very much. Anyway  I usually just don't really talk about my   relationship or the reason behind living  a specific way that's more private but the   questions regarding why I live alone have just  continued kind of following me on this channel   which is completely understandable, I  understand why someone is curious about that.   I have never lived alone and I've rarely gotten  that chance if anything I've had my own room but   I've still shared a space with a lot of people  and in many ways I still do that, I still visit   my family all the time you know absolutely all  the time I'm over there hanging out with them   but having a space that is my own was a really  positive experience for me and something that I   knew I needed to experience especially before I  get married. There are so many ways I think to   have healthy relationships depending on what  culture you come from you know what is normal   is very very different. If anything living in a  place on my own was very strange exceptionally   strange for me because in hispanic culture it is  expected you know to have multiple generations   under the same roof and that's something I've  always loved. My abuelita lived with us for many   years and she might live with us again someday  and that is something that's always been a very   core part of my family life so I will most  likely cultivate that again. You know, of   having multiple generations under the same roof  when I'm older and that is very normal for me and   for my mother's culture and that's something  that I have always seen as normal even though   people from another part of the world  might think that's really strange.   I know not everyone obviously has my  personality but something that's always   been hard for me is that when I care about  someone when I love someone I want to kind of   allow myself to be absorbed into their world you  know i want to turn into the person that can make   them most happy and that is always a temptation  to cater a hundred percent to other people   as opposed to really understanding also what I  need in order to be my best so that I can help   other people as well. That's so important in  order to keep that balance and that's something   that I've always struggled with. Relationships in  the past I would always get completely absorbed   whatever they liked was what I liked whatever  lifestyle they wanted was now my lifestyle   anything that they approved of is what I would be  whatever they disproved of is what I wouldn't be,   and it just felt like I would lose myself in the  process and I wouldn't know who I was anymore   and that's a really scary place to be that I'm  sure many of us experience it someplace or another   when you get lost in a situation or a relationship  or or maybe just generally in life where you come   to a point where you're like: who am I? So it was  it was been really fruitful to spend this time on   my own. Everyone's journey is so individual and  unique and specific on their needs and yeah so I   just wanted to share that. i will not be living  alone for much longer I am terrified about that   idea it is such a big change I also noticed some  people worried that I was very unhappy with the   decision I was making. I wanted to explain that  I'm not unhappy I'm actually very very excited   for the changes coming my way I'm very excited to  live in a new home finally have a home of my own   and all that is just so amazing and wonderful to  me but it is a big change and that is terrifying   nonetheless. It's been scary but that doesn't  mean it's not welcomed. I will miss this home   so much but I am ready to also have a home  of my own and to start a new journey in a new   life with my best friend. Stay safe, take  care of yourself, i'm sending my love   and I will see you next week, goodbye.
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Length: 17min 56sec (1076 seconds)
Published: Thu Jan 27 2022
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